#Had a whole fucking panic attack
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Bro I'm at skate factory in vero and I'm wearing an all black outfit like completely different from my cosplays and one of the workers looks me dead in the eyes, smiles, and asks if I'm the girl that always comes here in cosplay. I said yes and then she just smiled and nodded at me and said nothing after that.
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DP x MCU crossover
Sometime after Howard and Maria Stark’s death, Hydra decides to try and make a clone of Tony Stark, that’s infused with Super Soldier serum. They were hoping to get a super smart super soldier that they could control.
And thus Danny was born.
At some point when he’s like 2 or 3 one of the Hydra agents whose been his handler since he was born grows a conscious after witnessing the most recent experiment the other scientists in the lab put Danny through. They take Danny and run away from the lab. They don’t get away clean tho, they had to fight their way out of the lab and they were injured in the process. They wind up in Amity Park with baby Danny and come across the Fenton Parents. They hand Danny over to them and tell them to protect and look after the kid. And then they die.
The Fenton parents adopt Danny and raise him as their own. Danny grows up not knowing he’s adopted or that he’s a clone and a super soldier. The ghost portal accident happens when he’s 14 like cannon. The reason he survived and only half died is because of the super soldier serum in his blood.
Eventually, after the whole events of the Danny Phantom series has passed (minus Phantom Planet because fuck that horrible ending to the series). Danny, after defeating Pariah Dark, is now the king of the ghost zone. He still doesn’t realize he’s a clone of Tony Stark. Despite the fact that he looks exactly like a 17 year old version of the man!!!
And then New York happens. A portal opens up in the skies above New York, and aliens come pouring out of it! You bet your ass Danny hightailed it over to New York to help out the group of heroes that were trying to stop the aliens. He’s super hyped to fight aliens!!! He’s just having a blast zooming through the skies of New York, around skyscrapers, throwing punches and ecto-blasts at aliens, helping out the other heroes.
Meanwhile every time he helps one of the Avengers they all double take when they finally get a look at his face. Cause like yes this floating glowing child has glowing green eyes and Snow White hair, but the rest of his face looks like a very young Tony Stark. After each encounter with the boy the different Avengers call Tony over the coms to ask his status and to reassure themselves that Tony hadn’t been de-aged and given super powers mid battle.
Tony is the last one of them that meets Danny. He’s super annoyed at the fact everyone keeps calling him over the coms to ask his status. Like yeah he’s not a super soldier and doesn’t have powers, but neither does Romanoff or Barton!!! And unlike them he has his own super suit to protect him. So why is everyone calling in to check on him?!!!
And then finally Danny comes zooming around a building chasing after Loki’s chariot, shouting sarcastic quips at the god, while firing green blasts from his fists. And Tony just kind of blue screens for a minute. Jarvis has to take over piloting the suit for a minute while Tony reboots. He’s def got the surprised Pikachu face going on. Finally he reboots but Danny’s already flown off to deal with something else.
The battle comes to an end, the portal closes, the world is safe, and all the Avengers all head towards Stark tower. Danny sees them and where they’re headed and decides to meet them there. He’s been the only super hero around for a while and he wants to actually properly interact with these new hero’s!
Imagine his shock when he actually finally comes face to face with Tony Stark and finally realizes how much he looks like the man. He starts panicking thinking his mom had an affair with the man 17 years ago and just passed him off as Jack Fenton’s son.
Absolute chaos ensues as assumptions are made. DNA tests happen. They realize that no he is not Tony’s kid, he’s Tony’s clone. More assumptions are made. No body is having a good time.
#danny phantom#marvel#mcu#dp x mcu#tony stark#Hydra#clones#ghost king danny#misunderstandings#assumptions are made#maybe some everlasting trio added in on the side#on a side note#Tucker Sam and Jazz are all liminal as hell#they all have their own ghost powers/halves at this point#because fuck it why not#Tony is having a panic attack at the thought he had a kid he never knew about#and his kid is a ghost#his kid died#apparently when he was like 14 cause that’s how old this ghost kid in front of him looks#Danny is 17 but his ghost half still looks 14#his human half looks his proper age#it’s just his ghost half that hasn’t aged#Danny’s having a panic attack thinking his mom cheated on his dad#and then he has a panic attack thinking his parents cloned him in their lab using Tony’s DNA#he calls Jazz hysterical and crying about the whole thing#Jazz can barely make out what he’s saying#all she gets is her baby brother is calling her in hysterics#after fighting aliens#and joining the super heroes in their tower#she grabs Tucker and Sam and hightails it to the tower ready to kick some ass and defend her baby brother
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hi.
#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone#but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3#it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere#like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july#which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault#i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY#anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like#flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation#i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D#and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen#it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold#(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all#like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love#ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place#anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls#and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE#he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual#i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now#i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3#AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks#@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3
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something about qbad mentioning how much horror he put red team thru every time purgatory gets brought up... something about how proud dapper was of him.
like this is just my late-night read but- it feels like guilt qbad is trying to twist into pride. he keeps needling away at it. “i killed them all, over and over and over again.” “they were hunted by a monster.”
it’s like- reassurance. like a nail he’s trying o beat into his head. he’s had SO much trouble with legitimately hurting his friends, despite making that vow all the way back when the eggs first went missing, despite all the tree talk and the promises to save the kids no matter what. He never faltered with elq, and that protected them. He keeps faltering now. Sometimes he doesnt remember the code, or cucurucho, or skeppy. But that doesnt matter, right? Because he’ll protect the eggs. He’ll be the monster. he is the monster. he can and he will protect them even as his seams start ripping and he keeps breaking further and further apart. even at his worst, he’ll do whatever he needs to protect the eggs.
he’ll be the monster. wont he?
#qsmp#he loves his friends and he wants to hurt them#he loves his friends and he doesnt want to hurt them#qsmp badboyhalo#ita like. He was torturing himself with the soul vultures because he kidnapped ron and threw down some scary magma mobs#and then forever changwd rhe whole fuckin narrative with that appreciation room and bad remembered the joy of community#and then cellbit. Where bad was like ‘i see him destroying himself to get the eggs back and i know where that road goes’#’his loved ones dont want that to happen to him. i dont want that to happen to him’#and then purgatory gave him the first actal legitimate lead for finding their kids and he just had to get worse#and so he fucking swandived into self destructive violence (and the cc was purposefully playing qbad more recklessly violent)#(bbgirl couldve been lured into a trap so so easily)#ive lost my point somewhere now im just rotating qbbh in my brain and all the parallels#ah yes. But now theyre out of purgatory. And he refuses to regret what he did because he *had* to do what he could to save dapper#and the other eggs#because he has a huge complex about being the ‘only one who can protect the eggs’ because of a thousand little cuts and his mental health#issues. Like he’s Wrong bur its such a fascinating little direction for his character. Yes king burn thyself on the pure of protection#and then burn in a nuclear blast too because your self sufficiency left you to care for your egg alone#you can take care of the eggs. you can hurt your friends. look at how much you hurt your friends#look st the monster you are . your teeth are sharp and your claws are large#never mind that time you sent tina into a panic attack because you tried to recreate safety#never mind that your friends and family are worried about you#you are falling apart. but so many monsters survive the killing blow
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idk why it’s just coming to me now but I remember feeling this cold, white catharsis upon realizing that it wasn’t Freddie’s decision to give Glenn that panic attack. It was Anthony’s. And the way he said it, so finite, “Glenn is having a panic attack.” in a tone that was used before only to set up a disastrous scene.
It hurt, a lot, because in the weirdest way possible that’s exactly what having a panic attack is like. You’re sitting there with your world crashing down around you and then a disembodied narrator suddenly says, “This bitch shutting down.” (Distinctly in a Stanley Parable manner.)
#dndads#dungeons and daddies#glenn close#using the team’s actual names instead of ‘mr/mrs lastname’ was fucking traumatizing but I did it so nobody would get confused#anyway I wanted to say something in the tags that I couldn’t above because I can’t add breaks while on mobile#so tw for active shooter DRILLS if you’re reading this#one time. not too long ago#we had an active shooter drill at school while I was in orchestra#and as soon as I heard that my body went ‘oh hell no’ but I have anxiety so I ignored it#and we got outside#and the whole music department was huddled in the parking lot#and it was a beautiful day#and I was shaking#and I turn to my acquaintance maddie and I go#‘I think im having a panic attack’#and then I start laughing hysterically. and I bend over with a hand on her shoulder because there are tears streaming down my face#and my conductor bless his gay soul he comes over like ‘what is going on’#and I had to shuffle to the bhr while an imaginary shooter was in the school#because I tried to Not have a panic attack and besties. take it from me. nobody has IGNORED a panic attack and lived to tell the tale#anyway. glenn just like me fr LMAO
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okay so my current dilemma is that it's 4am, I can't lift up the mattress to put the bed slats back into place on my own, I did manage to lift it up enough to look at them and realised there are way more slats out of place than I thought and some are bent as if they've been out of place like that for a long time, and I think we're gonna have to take the mattress off the bed, but there's nowhere we can put it that won't result in our contamination OCD getting triggered really badly because putting it on the floor will trigger that and I don't know what the fuck we're gonna do. we're also probably gonna have to sleep before we can fix this but idk if continuing to sit or lay on the bed is a bad idea for the time being and I think I also just fucked up our back by trying to lift the mattress
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#also like asking for someone else to lift the mattress up is gonna create a situation where our contamination OCD is gonna get triggered#and no matter what happens we're gonna end up using way more energy than we can afford to right now trying to fix this#I've already overexerted because I panicked and tried to lift up the mattress and wasn't paying attention to whether I got hurt#and now I can feel how much my back and shoulders and wrists hurt#and I've also already spent a decent portion of the night either dissociating or having random panic attacks#and this is not helping because I've had multiple panic attacks in a row over it#and the fact that I don't have a solution to the problem that won't cause a bunch of other problems#means my brain is not going to shut the fuck up#my whole back is spasming and I think I've dislocated a rib. fuck
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That was an eventful two days
#I had a better time at the Waterparks concert#Noah was great#buuuut#I was on the barricade#I had my cousin hold onto my spot while I grabbed some merch and he didn’t hold onto the barricade so when I got back there were like three#rows of people in front of me#tall people too#and I got a ticket for my friend who wound not being able to go#and my brother who took us didn’t wanna go so I completely wasted $25 on a ticket#and it just Sucks that I spent so much money on ticket and got there super early just to be shoved way back when I LITERALLY had the front#there was this rude entitled lady who made everyone move for her son#he only knew tx2 but stayed up front the whole time#(she also took a spot right on the barricade too)#I was just really upset about how it didn’t go according to my plan and I kind of had a panic attack. like. a really fucking long one#and I had my vip bag + merch with me and everyone was stepping on it (no one was even playing?) and they fucked up my poster#but yeah I pretty much had a 2 hour long panic attack my ribs hurt now from hyperventilating (leaving the pit wouldn’t have helped)#the vip part was still good#I met Noah again he remembered me he did great it was just the people around me#oh I also like fucked up my knee#but that’s cause two concerts in a row hurt I think someone kinda accidentally kicked in a mosh pit and the first venue the ground had a#slight tilt to it. so it was kinda uncomfortable after a few hours#Waterparks#noahfinnce#concert#tx2#music
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i need to vent about something that happened and i’ll do it in the tags of this post and i dont really know how to trigger it but it may be triggering so yeah maybe dont read it idc i just need to talk to the void
#how many fucking times do i have to say no for you to fukcing understabd it#we’ve talked avout this so many times you’ve been told by more than one prrson how that makes me uncomfortable#and you still try something in my party and in front of mu whole fucking family?#and you clearly dont care about me at all you just want to kiss me or even more than that and thats the whole fucking reason you even talk t#to me#bc if you cared in the slightest you wouldnt keep trying and trying and trying#knowing damn well how uncomfortable it makes me#to the point that i had a panic attack at my own fucking party bc you wouldnt leave#literally had to call the building security guard to make you leave#and you still call yourself my friend?#fuck you#im so glad i dont have to see you anymore#and what makes this even sadder is that you were a great friend or whatever#talking to you has always been lovely#but just bc im a lesbian and im single does not mean i fucking want you#ive made it more than clear that i dont#youve been at it for a whole year. half of which you were in a relationship mind you#so fuck you#leave me the fuck alone
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FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#WHATS UP GUYS ITS YA GIRL HANA SPIRALING ONCE AGAIN#guess who found a TICK on my ARM for the first time EVER I’m gonna die aren’t I I’m gonna fucking PERISH#bashes my head against a wall IT’S FINE I’M SO FINE!!!#I’m NOT FINE I am on the verge of a PANIC ATTACK I don’t know WHY I’m posting this instead of asking my mom what to DO#ripped that fucker out with my BARE HANDS I hope he GOES TO HELL#I KNOW YOU ARENT SUPPOSED TO DO THAT.#YOU ALSO PROBABLY ARENT SUPPOSED TO PANIC AND PICK AT IT UNTIL IT BLEEDS LIKE YOURE A FUCKING MEDIEVAL DOCTOR#OH YEAH JUST MAKE YOURSELF BLEED AND THE ✨TOXINS✨ WILL GO OUT#BUT PANIC DOES NOT MAKE PEOPLE LOGICAL!!! I THINK IM GONNA SLICE MY WHOLE ARM OFF JUST GET IT ALL OFF#SO FUCKING GROSS!!! I FEEL UNCLEAN!!!#how the actual hell did I get a tick bite while wearing a sweater and a hoodie. how did he get through#I think I’m never gonna go outside again. yeah. that sounds good#I don’t know how fucking long it was there I’m gonna die I’m gonna die#if I die I’m taking finch with me!!! that sucker will be mine into the grave!!! nobody else will own him but me!!!#WHATS UP MUTUALS I’M NOT GONNA FUCKINH DIE IT’S FINE#if you’ve never had a squirmy gross organism in your body be thankful!!!! damn!!!!!#it was still ALIVE and squirming I’m gonna throw up and cry and die and#screw nature actually. we should burn it all down (DO NOT DO THIS)
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alright guys that's it im never driving again
#literally had a whole ass panic attack + mental breakdown behind the wheel because we did a practice road test and i freaked out#like i did the road test but fucked everything up and then when she was telling me everything i was doing wrong i started to cry and i didnt#-WANT TO FUCKING CRY because i need to IMPROVE but i was so stressed out about the actual road test and fucking it up that i started having#-a fucking panic attack in front of my instructor and it was the most embarrassing moment of my entire life im going to kill myself#im also on my period so like you guys can just take me out back and shoot me now. i fucking hate it here.#bee.txt
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If there was an AWARD for being the dumbest bitch alive my GOD
#i just had a panic attack I thought I lost my art tablet#AND IT WAS JUST ON THE TABLE#AND I COULDN'T FIND IT FOR 2 FUCKING HOURS#I WAS JUST!!!! WALLOWING!!!!!!!#FOR 2 WHOLE HOURS!!!!!!#WONDERING WHAT HAPPENED TO MY TABLET!!!#YOU LEFT IT IN THE OTHER ROOM ON THE KITCHEN TABLE DUMBASS
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my doctor never got back to me about the one-day prescription of a sedative so uhhh guess who has two thumbs is claustrophobic and will be raw dogging their MRI tomorrow? yippeeeee................
#muzz mumbles#drug mention#bro my doctor is so sweet so kind so nicies but her office staff sucks real ass#there is an almost impressive lack of communication#anyway i'm really dreading the appointment because i hate!!! small spaces!!!!!!!!!!!!#i had an MRI done on my spine a few weeks ago and it fucking SUCKED and i wasn't even fully inside the machine.#they generously put me in feet first#aint no getting out of it this time though im just gonna have to um. not have a panic attack and ruin the whole test. yayyyyyyy#(<<< filled with dread and despair)
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"Ah man, my dad's dead" me, just now remembering that my father is in fact, actually dead and has been for almost 3 years
#i was thinking about his family and talking to them about him and it just hit me that hes gone#that i don't get to talk to him ever again#that he won't get to watch my little brother get married next year. or even meet his fiancée#he won't meet my children that i want to have#he missed his first great nephew being born#he missed meeting my first boyfriend. and my first heartbreak when i found out he was married and lied to me the whole time#he's the reason i had a mental breakdown and can no longer leave my house without having a panic attack#his genetics are why i have such deep depressions and go days at a time without sleeping because I'm manic#from my height to my gray hair to the shape of my face are all his#the autism and the bipolar disorder and even the pcos and insulin resistance. all from him#that my siblings and i are closer than anyone else and would do anything for each other is because he taught us to be#that i never got my college degree and now live in abject poverty are also partially his fault#since he died I've been angry and bitter about him. but also full of grief and i want nothing more than to see him again#i still don't know how to live with him gone. my world shattered and fell apart the day he died. what am i supposed to do?#how to i go on without him? how do i deal with his sisters without him. how do i deal with my mother without him? how?#this got a lot sadder than i anticipated it was supposed to be a funny post and the grief overtook me#i started crying and im laying down so now there are tears in my ears and i can't hear#fuck#dead dad club
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throwing up all over the floor guess whos going to a whole new much bigger school fucking tomorrowwwww!!!!!
this guy!!!!!!
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picture me obsessively adding names and lessons on to a google doc also
#literally fucking dying#i went through and checked#i have SO FEW LESSONS WITH MY FRIENDS#there is one friend who hasnt checked#if im not in any classes with him i might as well start homeschool /hj#last year when school started again i had a big crash and ended up having panic attacks daily having to go to counselling and having to mov#classes because it was so bad#NOW IM GOING TO A WHOLE ASS NEW FUCKING SCHOOL WITH NEW PEOPLE AND NEW ENVIROMENT AND ITS BIGGER AND IM IN NO CLASSES WITH FRIENDS#on a completely unrelated note i have found out that you can be homeschooled through your gcses :)#homeschooling is a genuine option if things go south in the new school lmao
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guys i’m genuinely not okay 😍 my coach is making me swim the 200free and the 500free tomorrow. fucking asshole knows i’ve been out bc i was sick and injured and still is making me swim it. he ALSO knows those are my 2 least favorite events 💕
#LIVE LAUGH FUCKING LOVE#um i just had a panic attack!#now i have to go drive to get my brother#PRAYING i don’t get another one on the road#god i hate my coach with so much passion like he is such a fucking asshole#like genuinely what the fuck is his problem#i’m gonna try to ask him why he put me in both tomorrow but i don’t think i can without crying#AND i can’t even ask him to switch it because the entries have been in FOR A WEEK#IT TOOK HIM A WHOLE WEEK TO TELL ME AND ITS THE DAY BEFORE#meg talks#rant
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how much aura did I lose when my Spanish teacher got so mad about students being on their phones he slammed the whiteboard and it scared me so bad I started crying and had to be excused from class
#Hey teachers!!!! Don’t fucking do this!!!! When you haven’t done shit to get phones under control!!! The whole year!!!!#This happened in the last quarter of school….if you don’t have your students under control by then wtf#I was right in the front. Right in front of the whiteboard#And when I say slammed I mean SLAMMED. Magnets fell off the whiteboard because of him.#Not to mention he started yelling which didn’t help#S.K thinks#not a vent I just think about this a lot like wtf man#That’s some crazy fucking bullshit….#He had the audacity to tell me TO MY FACE that he shouldn’t have done that and apologized to me#Like if you knew it was wrong why’d you do it??? Like. Make it make sense#If causing one of your students to have a borderline panic attack in class is what makes you realize you fucked up#Then I feel like you should step back from fucking teaching for a while. Learn how to fucking manage a classroom first#Jfc I hate that guy….ugh..
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