#literally had a whole ass panic attack + mental breakdown behind the wheel because we did a practice road test and i freaked out

[lighthouseas]

alright guys that's it im never driving again

[strwbrrysteam]

June 12, 2022

BITCH. I’m back new year. New me. New life 😎. I’m 18 😮‍💨 I’m just gonna give general life updates cause 😭😭😭 MOST IMPORTANT I still have the cat! I know I said me and Rachel weren’t talking ever again but like we did start talking again because Hannah sent a tiktok to our gc and we just started talking again y’know 😪 BUT. About, I wanna say 3 months later we stopped talking again. FOR GOOD THIS TIME!! I mean it 🙄 before when I said it I would get emotional thinking about a future without her, stalk her socials DAILY, have full blown mental breakdowns about it but this time im ZUNE ✋🏾!! She’s a fucking bitch and I can finally see that thank GOD sheesh it took me long enough 😒 SPEAKING OF BITCHES THO 🙄 I’m never talking to Hannah again either ik you’re like “you’re sister 🤨🤨 ??” YES 🙄 do you know what this bitch did 🙄 so basically she had a lil bf whatever she wanna calm that bum. She was 19 he was like 24/25 WITH F-F-FOUR… CHILDREN 😫 then one day me and Rachel were like 🤨🤨 have you ever looked him up ?? And she was like no. So we do a lil yk 🕵🏾‍♀️🕵🏽‍♀️ detective work 🙄 boom turns out this nigga got a second degree domestic assault charge which if you don’t feel like looking that shit up it’s basically choking somebody out or threatening them with a deadly weapon 👀 we do a lil more digging 🤨 one of bms had a restraining order filed on him the day after he got his domestic abuse charges now I’m no rocket scientist but 🤔🤔🤔 AND THATS the bm Hannah said that HE said he didn’t like 🤨🤨 like 😭 so upon finding that information in the span of like 30 minutes she was like wait he’s at my apt. (Oh yeah Hannah moved out) waiting for me to let him in so we can hang out 😭😭 me being the quick thinker I am 😏 I was like just say I’m sick and you need to take me to the dr 💡 and we all like bet then we can figure this out 😭 the his ass 🙄 he was being mad extra was all like “we don’t even gotta do this no more I don’t gotta come over here no more blah blah blahhhh whoopty woo” basically doing the most acting like she broke up w him 😭 so we like okay bye tf 🤷🏾‍♀️😭 and we in Walmart gonna get snacks cause we was gonna go to Hannah’s apt. to chill for a bit then he start getting buck asf 😭 talkin bout he gonna kick her door in if she don’t literally teleport there to unlock the door so he can get his shit so we like 👀👀👀 PAUSE MR! Def skipped some steps it was so outta the blue everything he was doing was 😭😭😭 so then we like you’re not getting in anywhere w that attitude 🤨 but we was fr scared 😭 we started buying sleeping bags so me and Rachel could sleep over so idk if he broke in it was 3 against 1 ?? 😭 but Hannah tells him she’ll pick up his shit and go to a parking lot and I’m like “let’s get a keep the peace order lolz 😝” and both of them basically cuss me out 😭😭😭 i fr almost cried 🫠🫠🫠 like girl if he at the apt waiting for our asses then what?? 😭 but we go in literally only stuff he had was slides watered down Irish Spring body wash and like half a drop of Old Spice or Ace which ever is in the red bottle body wash. He swore up and down his work shirt was there and she was “Playing with his money”… -works at Taco Bell.. 😭 I’m being so fucking real too 😭 so we get his shit minus the shirt cause it’s literally NOT there 😭 and we leave right boom. So again I’m like “keep the peace order ?? 😝🤷🏾‍♀️” cussed out again so I’m like okay lemme just stfu even tho he blowing up Hannah’s phone and steady threatening her but I’m like that’s yo ass whoopin champ who am I to get in the way of it 👋🏾👋🏾😭. So boom we on the interstate he blowing her phone up still she’s not answering and everything is chill. No. It was not. 😭 This bitch start sniffling and I’m like “are you crying ?? 🤨” mind you she been fine this whole time so it was random as hell 😭 and then good lord this bitch start hyperventilating n having a panic attack behind the wheel, at night, on the interstate. 😭😭 EYYYYE had to take the wheel literally and steer us to the grass so we could pull over 😭

Now during this whole ordeal he steady calling steady calling so I answer and I’m like “nigga stop fucking calling we on our fucking way damn” I’m stressed as shit we just almost died and this nigga got the nerve to CALL ?!? 😭 I hung up before he have a chance to say shit then he texting and like “my older sister heard all that and now she wanna beat yo lil sisters ass 🙎🏾‍♂️” O-O-OOooooOoOOOLDERRRR?!?!?! REMEMBER THAT SMALL DETAIL FROM EARLIER?? THE ONE WHERE I SAID HES 24/25 SOO HOW OLD DOES THAT MAKE THIS ANCIENT ARTIFACT ?? 😭 ATP I’m scared okay I ain’t never fought nobody 😭 but my stupid ass like “okay and idc 🙄” but my knees secretly knockin and he just steady threatening me w that war machine 😭😭 so now I’m REALLY like “I mean for YOUR safety we should get a keep the peace order yk 🙄” IM NOT TRYNA GET MY ASS BEAT BY THAT ROUGHEN 😭😭😭 MIND YOU. HIM AND HIS SISTER WAS IN JUVY TOGETHER AND SHE WAS IN THERE BEATING NIIIGGGGGAS ASSES 😭 LIKE WAS BEATING UP TWO NIGGAS AT ONCE AND THEY HAD TO WHOP HER UPSIDE THE HEAD W A PIECE OF WOOD TO STOP THAT DAMN GORILLA 😭😭😭 BITCH HAD TO GET STITCHES 😭 now if you ask ME that right there should be another charge for threatening me w a dead weapon an AR-15 basically 👋🏾😭 ider what happened after that but he ended up not even meeting us to get the stuff 😭 but than GOD cause I was the one driving easy target bruh 😭 so we drive to the liquor store then we go back to her apt and this bitch Hannah giving the vibe she gonna forgive him 🤨 so I’m like if you forgive him I’m not coming over here no more I’m taking the cats and you ain’t hearing from us no more 👋🏾😭 AND THIS BITCH HAD TO THINK ABOUT IT ?!?!? 😭 yeah that was my cue I was ready to fuckin GOOOOO but my car was at Rachel’s grandmas house so I had to wait until the next day after Hannah got off work 😭 boom I leave and I haven’t talked to her since cause like it’s one already incredibly wrong thing to have consider choosing a man over your little sister a man that, MIND YOU, she’s known for a month atp literally a little bit less than 😭😭😭😭 but it’s the fact that she DID choose him over me that blows me fr 😫 like okay girl 🙄 and not even a month before that my stepdad literally went insane and threatened to kill my mama otp while I was the only one home over money that he literally just misplaced and I literally had to make a grand escape 😭😭😭 all the men are going insane fear 🤨 but yeah a Rachel was getting in my last nerve that why we don’t talk anymore 🙄 I’ll get into her topic later I’ve already drawn on a lot 😭 but yeah back to life update my FL sister moved back to FL THABK GOD she’s SOOO annoying 😭 the day my stepdad threatened by mama he was driving somewhere and literally went blind from stress 😭😭😭😭😭 and I haven’t seen him again besides him picking up his stuff in trash bags w the police here on a keep the peace order. I don’t talk to my discord friends anymore I GRADUATED ON TIME 👹 I’ve lost like 30lbs 😝 not much else interesting has happened that I can immediately think of 🤨 so I guess I’ll end this here for now peace out Girl Scout 🧌