#HOPEFULLY hopefully i will do my best and keep trying

[elleloquently]

i honestly don't even really like to talk about tlou2 but something that will absolutely baffle me until the end of time is how many people romanticize the farm sequence and view it as happy. every time someone says the game should've ended there or that ellie threw away her whole life and she could've been happy etc etc etc, it really makes me realize how many people do lack literacy and the ability to read between the lines. because how are you seeing the farm scenes and not realizing how devastating it is?? it feels so empty and lifeless.

yes ellie laughed and they listen to music and dance but those are such small snippets. anyone with severe ptsd / mental trauma can be okay for a moment. but ellie was quite literally killing herself on that farm and absolutely would've ended up dead by her own hand (which is not a crazy assumption to make it is quite literally context clues)

like she’s always been skinny and lean but she’s even more thin on the farm?? she literally says she doesn’t eat or sleep?? and the panic attacks that she has?

also when ellie says “i’m not like you dina” and dina instantly snaps back with “you think this is easy for me?” like no that’s not what is being insinuated at all, but the fact of the matter is that dina is still able to function and cope in healthy ways and ellie is not. and the fact that dina doesn’t understand that kinda kills me. also telling ellie to “prove it” when she tells dina that she loves her is so fucked considering everything.

she would’ve died! i will stand by this forever, ellie would not have lived much longer. (confirmed btw in directors commentary, ellie was severely suicidal at this point. so not sure how everyone views the farm as her happy point.)

i don’t think ellie had an obligation to suffer in silence for the sake of what dina wanted.

i don’t blame dina for leaving obviously, that was the best choice for her and i don’t blame ellie for going either!! i think their relationship is very doomed, it was quite literally built on years of miscommunication and it only continues as they’re together.

i don’t blame ellie for leaving the farm whatsoever, she did not “fumble dina,” she didn’t throw away her life, she was barely functioning in the first place. if the game ended with ellie on the farm and the last thing we saw of her was her trying to play house while knowing how much she was suffering, that would’ve been so damn depressing. her leaving may not be the “morally good” choice but it was necessary considering her own mental state.

i think it’s also so important to remember the way in which joel died. she’s not just grieving and dealing with survivors guilt, she’s also living with the brutality of what she experienced. watching the person she loved the most get brutally tortured/beaten to death while she was held down and begging for it to stop?? and you guys expect her to just move on and deal with it so she can keep living on this isolated farm and play happy family??

and it’s not like ellie was fine until tommy showed up. she was already on the edge. the evidence is in her behavior, her journal, the clues around her house (the whiskey glass at her bedside) and her literal mannerisms.

this is very messy and disorganized i just don’t understand how many people STILL oversimplify the farm stuff or act as though everything was happy and good. every time someone says that ellie owed it to dina to stay, i lose a year off of my life.

basically a ramble instead of a proper analysis/breakdown bc i’m trying to focus my energy elsewhere but hopefully it makes enough sense to be understood

[mommyslittlebird]

Broken

Another cut segment of Her Special Girl Part 2! (Hopefully coming soon)

CW: Stepmom/stepdaughter, mention of strap on usage, sexual experimenting, shame, no explicit smut but still very much 18+

“Mama?” You asked, laid back against the headboard with Wanda’s head resting on your chest. The strap she’d just fucked you with was still nestled between your legs, resting sticky against your thigh. Neither of you had the energy to get up just yet, and you were more than happy to stay just like this until your stamina returned.

The night had been wonderful. You’d never felt more complete and satisfied in your life. Having Wanda inside you made you feel like the most important girl in the universe. She loved you. She took care of you. Everything was perfect.

Except your stomach tightened with a certain unshakable shame and embarrassment.

You hadn’t cum.

She had to have noticed, but she hadn’t mentioned it. Your mind swam with possibilities. She had to be disappointed, right? I mean she’d fucked you for over an hour, putting in so much hard work to make sure you felt good… all for nothing.

You weren’t sure why it hadn’t happened. You’d felt so wonderful the entire time. She had made you feel so good. But your orgasm simply never came.

“Yes, my little love?” She mumbled into your chest. She was practically collapsed against you from exhaustion. It had been a good long while since she’d fucked anyone like that.

“I did a good job, right? I was good?” You tried to keep your composure, but your voice came out far shakier than you were hoping. Your hand nervously played with her hair, braiding small bits of it at random.

She turned to the side, propping herself up on her elbow so she could see your face. “Of course you were, angel. You did wonderful. Mama’s so proud of you.” She wiped your hair from your face, cupping your cheek to force your avoidant eyes to meet hers.

“Even though I didn’t…”

She lifted her eyebrows, waiting for you to finish your question. She knew what you were trying to ask, of course. When you didn’t continue, she reached up and squeezed your hand. “Did you still enjoy yourself?”

“Yes! Yes I-“ You felt the need to reassure her she hadn’t done anything wrong. Whatever the problem was, it was with you. You’d felt fantastic. You weren’t sure why you hadn’t cum. Your nervous ramblings were cut off when you felt her hand gently squeeze yours again.

“Then that’s all that matters, honey,” Wanda reassured, resting her head back on your chest. “I enjoyed myself, too.”

You looked back down at her, confused. “But I know you worked really hard and I… I don’t wanna make you feel bad.”

She rubbed her hands up and down your hips in a calming motion. “I don’t feel bad, love. You were doing so good for me, telling me how much you loved me and how much you were enjoying yourself. I wasn’t doing this to make you cum, honey. I was doing this to make you feel good.”

You took a deep breath, still anxiously fiddling. You trusted her, that she wasn’t upset, but you couldn’t shake the feeling there was something wrong with you.

As if she could read your thoughts she knelt over you, straddling you on either side. You could feel the toy pressing against your stomach as she reached for your cheek again.

“You aren’t broken, detka,” she stated simply. Tears unexpectedly pricked your eyes at her words. She wiped them away with her thumb. “You don’t have to cum every time, sweetie. It’s okay.”

“But this time was special, and I really wanted to show you I was enjoying myself and… and I just don’t understand!” You cried.

“Sometimes our bodies react in ways we don’t expect,” she explained. “And each and every body is different. Some things that work for other people might not work for you. But that’s okay. I’m here to learn all about your body, and what it needs for you to feel the best it possibly can. It’s not a failure for either of us that you didn’t cum, sweetheart. It wasn’t a failure at all because we learned about a new way to make your body feel good.”

You nodded in understanding, so relieved she didn’t think you were broken or that there was something wrong with you. “So we can do it again?”

She laughed and kissed your forehead. “Of course honey. And next time we can use the vibrator if you want. I bet that will make you feel even better.”

You smiled. You were so glad you had her with you, on this journey to discovering your own pleasure. You wanted more than anything to learn what made her feel good, and it made your heart swell to think she wanted to do the same.

She collapsed against your chest again, peppering kisses across your bare skin. “And for the record,” she teased seductively, “I think I came enough for the both of us.”

[pixiedurango]

Oooh! Could we see a letter from Teia to Lucanis, giving him relationship advice now that he and (any)Rook are together?

I just think that could be funny, because Lucanis would be mortified, but also taking notes 😂.

Here we go again, the Antivan Postal Service delivers its second letter today. Hope you like it and hopefully I was able to make it different enough from the first one to not be redundant. I decided to make this the follow-up letter to the first one posted earlier today, so there is Lucanis' answer mentioned.

If anyone feels inspired to write the missing letter from him to Teia - be my guest and drop it into the letterbox.

Transcript:

Lucanis,

I was delighted to read that you took the chance to invite Rook for a picnic from that food crate I sent along with my last letter. But excuse me, you had that picnic WHERE? On top of the lighthouse? We really need to set up a visit, this sounds unbelievable. And romantic, dare I say. You seem to do good with that blooming connection to our dear Rook. Maybe you discovered that infamous Dellamorte charme, which your Cousin clearly has over-cultivated and in abundance

Speaking of Illario. Maybe Viago IS a miracle worker after all - even though he denies it. But your cousin is doing quite alright, given the circumstances. Of course, he does not work contracts at this point and is stuck with paper work of no greater significance. But at least it keeps him busy and inside the offices in the Diamond’s belly instead of having him mingling at the casino or - even worse - anywhere else in Treviso.

Of course, he complains. And to an extent I do even understand him - it’s boring and repetitive. Then I look back at what he has done to you, to Caterina and to all of us Crows. If it had been me back then, I would not have had it in me to pardon him. Now after some time has passed, and I found enough calm to think about it, I guess I start to understand, why you and Rook decided how you did - and even if I still despise him and his actions, I will defend your decision and to an extend him, too. But he better not try his luck on that too much!

Now back to more pleasant topics: Tell me about Rook and yourself! You know I’m dying of curiosity and if curiosity kills the cat, I’m ready to hear everything - or die. I already told you, that picnic you mentioned was a brilliant idea. And the catering… outstanding!

You two have so much on your shoulders. The whole team has. But especially Rook. Make sure she gets enough sleep, eats well and make her smile a lot!

I know, you are a gift giver - do I have to mention the ‘Dagger Incident’? I’m sure, by now, you have reflected in depth about the significance of communication along your gifts.

And even though Rook may be a lover of a good blade, just like every Crow - you might consider finding something more… delicate. Less job related. If you can’t come up with anything at some point, flowers are fine but get redundant pretty fast. See them as a last resort. Jewelry seems to be a safe bank, but I recommend not pulling out the real big ones too soon. A pretty brooch, or a hair pin. This kind of stuff. And wait with the gold and diamonds. Silver and colorful gemstones are pretty, too. And less… let me call it pompous. I know you could literally buy the whole world for her, and sometimes you might feel you want to actually do it. Just. Don’t. We both know her well enough that this is not what she wants or needs. Lucanis, dear, I know you are always doing your best and given the person I know you are, do never worry. Rook knows what she wants, and she has a pretty good taste, too. Let me know if you need anything, Treviso is just an eluvian away. Always yours -Teia

[omeynzaol]

y'all I genuinely dont get what happened in the main storyline of Batman after Damian and Bruce had that fight Abt Damian volunteering @ the hospital? Also why are Damian and Tim sharing Robin now, did something happen to Tim as Red Robin? Is Stephanie still Spoiler? What happened to Jason and his outlaws? And lastly, what happened in the valentine issue?? I'm trying to research since I can't get the comics to confirm right now but it's all confusing and my brain is a patchwork of knowledge

Why does DC do this bruhh

Edit: I'll look through the web and get some answers but till then if anyone knows can you explain in the comments? You'd be a literal life saver

Edit 2: Okay, I delved into reddit and got some stuff, Shout-out to Cole-Spudmoney for the info!

Edit 3: I'm tired now so I'll come back l8r and hopefully some of y'all can tell me atleast what happened after the hospital Convo b4 I reaearch

Edit 4: I come bearing gifts, I found out the main fluffy bits of what happened in the valentine issue:

https://www.tumblr.com/littlepikmins/773995391408570368?source=share

The only real problem I have with this comic is this:

Edit 5: thanks to @wesavegotham here's directly what happened after Damian left Bruce on the rooftop (after insulting his shirt)

"Basically Damian is unsure if being a vigilante is the best way to help the people of Gotham. Bruce is upset that Damian has been keeping secrets from him and isn't concentrating on hero work. After Damian left Bruce worked on his current case alone, got drugged, called Damian for help and Damian was almost too late to save him. After Bruce wakes up he's upset because of that and on top of that he's unhappy because Damian keeps talking about the doctor he's working with, which is why he asks Oracle to check his background for connections to Ra's al Ghul after Damian left to investigate on his own. Despite being in no state to do so Bruce also leaves to continue his investigation, leading Babs to call Jason to help Bruce. And that's it, the arc isn't over yet tho."

Now I gotta research about Jason and Steph, cy'all l8r

[revnashieldmaiden]

Cuddling into Finan, I take comfort in his words. I know he’ll do everything in his power to keep me safe and protected. Both of us. I trust Uhtred to keep me protected while Finan is away. It will feel strange staying in the Great Hall instead of our home, but after what happened with the Danes, I know I’ll sleep better not being alone.

“I know you will keep us protected, my love, and I will do my best to stay strong while you are away. We’ll be okay. Hopefully, Uhtred will start feeling more like himself by the time you return. And I promise to try to keep him from going to Dunholm while you are away.”

@thedarkprinceofulaid

“Hello darling,” Finan drawls to her as he nears her, his eyes twinkling. “… it’s been a rough go around with the King and such. Uhtred is still… strugglin’, understandably.”

@thedarkprinceofulaid

A soft smile lights up my face when I see Finan. I am just returning home from visiting the horses in the corral on the edge of the village. I’ve had my eye on one of them and I have been taking him treats, hoping to earn his trust.

When Finan mentions the meeting with the King I frown a little. I haven’t been able to get a good read on the King. He’s been nice to me a few times, but I have also seen he is quick to anger. I just don’t trust him, and maybe it’s because of his position of power. “I’m sorry to hear the meeting didn’t go well, but I guess it doesn’t surprise me with how the King is.”

It saddens me to hear that Uhtred is still struggling, but I can understand the pain he’s going through. “It’s going to take time for Uhtred to heal….he’ll get there, eventually. I saw that he was out and about today, hopefully that’s a good sign.”

I take Finan’s hand in mine, bringing it to my lips. “How are you feeling, my love?” I look at him with concern in my eyes. I’ve been a little worried about all the stress he has been under as of late, and I just want him to know I’m here for him, in anyway I can be.

@thedarkprinceofulaid

[bmpmp3]

Audine :)

[vynnyal]

Turns out Sunlit Trail isn't quite done just yet, so after all that they just send you to a dead end 😂

[dawnthefluffyduck]

Warm Coco (speedpaint)

[lanternlightss]

REALLY fun to me so far i have a tendency to swing between really fluffy and sweet fics to angsty and heart-wrenching ones. this pattern will continue but also 😭

[moonchildstyles]

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[heybaetae]

hi

[kohane-nui-daily]

day 4, week 1

kohane is ready for school tomorrow!

it's friday so the week is almost over, keep going!

👟 8,550 steps | 🥤 3 full cups, 1050ml [1050/2000ml] | 🍴 1 nearly/basically-done meal (lunch), 1 meal (dinner) [2/3], 2 snacks [2/5] | 🌙 roughly 23:14 - around 06:30(?)

[photo taken at 20:34 bst]

[lucalicatteart]

cannot resist using the polls to make up a little collaborative story lol.. Not sure how much I can keep it up with my low energy/health problems lol, but I'll try to draw a new picture (+ write a small text blurb and new action options to vote on) each day based on the past day's results, at least for a while. Kind of like a 'sketch a day' type challenge, except story based with votes choosing what happens next. :0

[darehearts]

good morning bbs  !  things are not looking great at work 🧍🏻‍♀️

[silverselfshippingchaos]

ugghhh wintertime sucks!! I'm sad and tired and sad all the time.. I need a nap.. and f/o cuddles.. and another nap..

[ichigosatsuki]

Just wondering if anyone has done this yet? I pretty sure yes maybe

But still couldn't help myself but draw somethin' up when I heard/saw this song on my Youtube recommended! ^^

"It is expected... An oath we created for mutual gain. Yet I keep finding myself drawing away from my original path oh so often.

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Let me hold you, keep you close to me... I long to hear your voice.

But dear bishop, I don't understand. Please just explain it!

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Is there something more that I don't know? Please understand, I don't care that you're of higher godly station or if you're here just to prime my darkest temptations!

Just why can't you understand..?

Let me explain!

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And I'm terrified, as I cry.. To let my feelings be true. But perhaps what if I'm not enough?

What if I'm not enough to let down those walls you've built? Those walls you've conjured up to help you live?

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Is how you felt all this time? Scorned and shunned away by fellow bishops that couldn't comprehend what you are?

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I'll try my best to make amends, try to solve things peacefully in the end. But please.. I promise to stay!

Promise to listen and stay!

Just as long as you look my way..."