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purple-dahlias · 2 years ago

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weekly blood tests??? weekly??? ma’am im not going to have any veins left if you do that

#or blood for that matter #it’s already hard enough for phlebs to locate veins on me anyway #utter clownery but considering the source im not even surprised at this point #H would never have done this

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hballegro · 4 months ago

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ONCE MORE UNTO THE BREACH DEAR FRIENDS, ONCE MORE

prequel

i still have to do BJ's neck [jaw is finished, neck is not. Hawk's neck is tho], and finish the mustache, plus some fine touching to make everything Perfect [bjs forehead, hawk's lips, etc] but. other than that i am DONE with these old heads. fabric is so much easier than faces so im not even stressin abt it. my wrist. it aches.

im FREE no more HAIR except BLURRY STUFF SO NOT LOTS OF DEFINITION

bonus; the end of the journey

#mash #mash 4077 #hawkeye pierce #bj hunnicutt #mash fanart #mash art #m*a*s*h #mashblogging #work in progress #theres a button on my tiny tiny stylus that i usually never use. it does the colourpicker #which is faster than selecting the eyedropper and switching back to paintbrush #however. it makes it so i cant hold it normally/comfortably because i need to have a fingie on the button #which is fine! i just wont use the button/wont use it often #except the HAIR means i have to eyedrop a new colour every 2 seconds because im brute forcing it instead of doing it in a smart way #so i gotta do hand yoga and its. not good for me #BUT. the hair is done. except for the mustache but thats like 30 mins vs 4-6 hours so im ok w/ it #im gonna go eat cake now cause i promised myself i would. as a treat #also gamers. theres like 4 different layers rn texturing hawk's hair its not even funny #the salt and pepper is killing me quickly #in many ways actually

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starlight---starbrights · 5 months ago

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Undertale yellow flowey embroidery

This took about 40 hours, give or take a few

#I can tell you one thing #Embroidering while having arthritis is really not a piece of cake. When you hand cramps just by holding it at an angle.#At least I can be grateful for my empty schedule #Makes embroidering till the sun rises back up so much easier #Insomnia also helps with this task #I was listening to the ost while working on it and… Live reaction #Occupied turf is so good actually !? Why wasn’t it shown more often !? IT’S FIRE !?#I forgot I only did a pacifist so I got so confused when neutral Flowey came out…#A mother’s love ? Should’ve called this “I’m gonna fuck you up”#The number of time I got my ass handed back to me in this fight is not even funny #The first time is great. The second I only discern my favorites and the sudden change in style. By the third loop I can’t recognize shit #my brain is melting and my eyes are on fire…#Advantages on doing it during daytime. Eyes hurt less. Good stupid tv to listen to in the background Disadvantages. People #Advantages on doing it at night. Alone. Personally work better at night #Disadvantages. No good TV. Time goes by slower…? I don’t know maybe I’m just loosing it with those freaking petals #For reference one petal took me about 3 and a half hours. So yeah… I thought it would never end… Took out almost all my yellow.#When the line tangles itself in the back and you realize only close to the end of it that half went missing #So you have to go backward to entangle it and loose 30 mins because damn it #Cats are not helpful in any of those scenarios #Why do I feel the need to make the back perfect when nobody else but me will know #This is the last time I do one so big without thinking it through #Note to self. Don’t do it standing up when the cats are awake. She just destroyed my stomach #I think i’m losing it #Back after a few weeks #God this white thread is doing my head in… I’m willing to bet my leg half the time I spent on the face was me untangling it.#I’m almost done. It’s finally over. Dark brown took exactly 4 h and 13 mins #undertale #undertale yellow #embroidery #I’m thinking of doing Boris the wolf next. Because I just found the perfect rendition to put on my wall

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trekkiehood · 15 days ago

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#ok ramble time #classic this feels too intimate to share with anyone so everyone gets it #essentially last week there was a suicide on campus #he was not one of my students or in our department #I'm pretty removed from it #ans i really didn't think it affected me #but i guess it has #bc like i thought i was over #✨this✨#Like ok i have had active plans in the past #one of those this is how this is when this is where #just waiting for the final straw #but i clearly never did #and that plan would no longer work due to changes in circumstances and living arrangements etc #which is honestly probably for the best #bc i refuse to make a new one bc i know i do not want to go there #but im just TIRED and ANXIOUS #its not even the depression its the anxiety of living #i stay up until 3-4 in the morning bc i cant stand the idea of going to sleep #and i secretly hope each sleep will be my last #bc im not going to DO anything bc that would not be it #too many ppl care about me (unfortunately)#and then ive stopped eating (again)#and it's like idek if its bc i dont want to or bc i forget #its like i see myself self destructing but cant make myself stop #and I have not done anything physically stupid in quite a long time but ive started biting to stim #and i dont even know im doing it half the time it just helps #and skin picking. which none or this is the same as true s/h but it does scare me to a degree bc i dont mean to i just do it #anyway i don't expect anyone to read all of this i just had to get it out ot my head

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countess-of-edessa · 11 months ago

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“are the girls going to help you make pierogis?” well no one else is fucking gonna are they? no one else in this house has functional fucking hands apparently

#every Christmas i think about the time we came home from mass and my father said “finally! now we can relax.” and sat down at his computer #and played video games for the next three hours while my mother and sister and i stood six feet away from him in the kitchen making #200 pierogis.#it’s crazy considering the amount of stuff he gets done for him on a daily basis that I would never even think would be done for me by anyo #like bed made for him/all meals/all dishes/food put on his plate for him because he refuses to do it himself/pretty much all errands #whenever he wants tea he just says that want out loud and it gets brought to him by magic #i mean or anything else! he once said “did you say we were having cappuccinos today?” just to no one in particular and we all knew no one h #had said anything of the sort. and then he was given one!#of course he goes to work from 8-6ish every day but other than one day a week it’s remote and has been for years and i can hear him #he is pretty much never not on the phone gossiping with someone #and i don’t begrudge him having a not physically intensive job or anything but im just trying to think of the things he has to do #he makes my mother mow the lawn. i do it when i am home because i think that’s disgraceful.#if my mother begs hard enough he'll do the least amount of yard work possible if it’s something we can’t physically do by ourselves.#but on a daily basis it’s just go to work/eat the breakfast brought to you/eat the lunch brought to you/come downstairs eat the dinner made #for you/play video games until you go to bed in the bed that was made for you in the morning #and on non work days it’s just eat/video games/bed #and like all this to say #he complains more and has a worse attitude than anyone I have ever known in my life #whenever he encounters a minor inconvenience he's talking about how it never ends and he never gets a chance to rest for once #literally any day that’s not spent in complete and total stagnation is considered a failure #he hates when my mother and sister and i are happy like we can’t even play music and laugh in the kitchen while we cook and clean up after #meals because it distracts him from his video games and his YouTube videos about video games and the war in Ukraine #he gets mad when we laugh too much lol like dude you’re pretty lucky you have daughters who can have fun while doing the dishes #considering you haven’t done them in like 20 years #word to the ladies out there btw: my parents used to clean up after dinner together when they first got married. so watch out lmao

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gideonisms · 2 years ago

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had just like a wildly bad brain day from morning to night but what's most important is, tomorrow I have leftover Coffee Treat. mercy was literally right the world could be ending my life could be falling apart but I WILL have that delicious coffee like that's my priority everything else is secondary

#like i was having trouble doing basic tasks like texting family back and making myself eat #do have a draft due tomorrow i have not done. idk probably just going to make a pretty template & fill like 3 bullshit sentences under #each heading. didn't say it had to be a *good* draft #the person who peer reviews my document tomorrow: where's the document #it's in my head dw about it :) it looks great i promise :))#had a whole spiral about a) how everything is boring b) world events c) how i'll never get a bearable job #d) what it would feel like to move back in with family e) world events again #f) dying alone g) having to live with other people h) never having a cat i) never finishing another fic #i should make a poll #where are you on my scale of worries from plague war and housing crisis to what if i never get to cradle my very own cat in my arms gently

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tamagotchikgs · 5 months ago

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last night i was poking around in my mouth as u do and i reached back where i had always felt this hard thing w my tongue for awhile now but was like ah maybe it's just like. my gums being inflamed in the back or smthn BUT,, no i poked that thing with my fingernail n it is a tooth that is a whole ass wisdom tooth

#NO WONDER... MY JAW IS IN PAIN ALMOST ALL THE TIME.... HUH..#i wonder if that period where i literally couldnt move my jaw from the pain for like a week was when it was emerging #otherwise the pain is like not awful. not bad enough it's noticeable u know im used to it i have so many aches n pains in my body naturally #like my entire head has a constant ache. if u touch my cheekbones ill drop my head like a cat into ur hand dude it is .#it's like the most relieving ache . like u have just lifted a massive weight off my shoulders. and it's been that way since i was a kid #i think i googled if thats what it was before n they were like no if it were your wisdom tooth youd know :) it would hurt u so bad #which i despise btw because this means nothing to me BHJAH.... like they said the same thing when i broke my foot the nurse that did intake #i was a kid & she was like dont worry if it were broken youd know and you wouldnt have walked in here on it ... fellas . it was broken #& i could never see anything when i looked in the mirror #but it's just because it's slightly covered by like swollen gums back there which i always thought was just because i chewed too hard #but.#no i guess it;s because something was erupting like an alien #i used my lil pokey tool to squish em out of the way and i can see it #it's so weird just having a tooth u know u shouldnt #like i . i want to just grab it i want to just hold it in my hand #why does it have to be so securely in place whihc is something i wouldnt never say for my other teeth HJBA #i am not going 2 have it removed any time soon im .#i have wanted to go to the dentist my whole life but i am too scared #esp w the damage from my ed and depression im so embarrassed #i honestly want to though #there is nothing that would make me feel more like an actual person then to just. get a cleaning #get my maintenance done LMAO #i do my best at home but u kno #i use an electric spinning toothbrush i floss i use mouthwash i do it all 2 try n handle what damage there already is #but it still would do wonders for my mental health and oral health #apparently partial impactions which is what i have can be really bad n get infected so . aha...h. 👍:).. ..h.

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1-ichi · 5 months ago

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u/shijima is usually stoic and wears a mask during practice before important events. today wasn't an official game but they were up against a rival country at a practice match. As usual, the teammates see him with a mask on. nothing out of the ordinary. that is, until a/tsumu spots him wringing out a paper towel in the bathroom and placing it on the bridge of his nose. From the reflection in the mirror, a/tsumu sees how chapped the brims of u/shi's nostrils are, and a pinkish fever creeping up on his neck and cheeks. the warm paper towel must be doing its job because a/tsumu can hear the congestion breaking up, just by the way he breathes. u/shi is so focused on relieving himself that it's not until a minute that he realizes a teammate was in his company.

"Oh, M/iya... snf... Was I blocking your way?" "No, not at all w/akatoshi kun... just" "Are ya doin oka-" "hh...heh-! hh’GXjSsHh! Ggh.."

A couple of heavy sneezes emerge before a/tsumu is able to ask his question. U/shijima's eyes flutter with surprise as he quickly clasps a hand over his face, hiding the mess he's made.

"That was quite unsightly. My apologi--... hh-! ‘ngGHSH’hh! nng... apologies..."

#h/aikyuu #snzcanons #u/shijima #i feel like he would be against showing deliberate weakness.. although snzing is not something done on purpose #i would love for him to have heavy half-stifles that never end with one #does not know how to react when people perceive him being sick. only if s/atori was here ><

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emdotcom · 1 year ago

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Hisuian Zoroark is one of the sickest designs in pokemon, but the model on that bloke is FUCKED. It's really bad. If they bother to port her over to other games, you know they ain't changing that model, either, 'cept to make the textures paler & duller.

I continue to despise pokemon, despite being a pokemon fan, I fucken guess. At this point, I gotta go all in on summat else, like Cassette beasts.

#gale chatter #i have MINOR problems with the beasts but they are nothing + I ain't abt to be negative abt it online #it's a good game made by good people my complaints are so tiny you NEED to play it #if you like me wish pokemon would do more fun interesting things or miss spritework in ur pokemon #u need to try cassette beasts. I'll admit i haven't beaten it but what I've seen in the story is INSANE #also i generally try not to talk smack about indie games it just ain't right. biggest ip on the planet‚ however‚#i can talk shit about pokemon all damn day.#the fucking way they keep using the same models the most minimal of animations & the pokemon keep getting pale as shit #to the point that pokemon like pichu are fucken impossible to tell from their shiny (slightly paler pichu)#the way that the designs are done in 2D & designed in it but then when it comes time to model they just. lose all charm #you get designs that were obviously not intended to have full 360 turnabouts (h. zoroark & emboar)#then you get deisgns that lose all their charm when modeled. in example -- look at the boltund model next to the art.#it's. bad. those are different animals. i feel NOTHING for the boltund model. it has no heart nor care in it just a means to an end #the gameplay never changes the sories have ALWAYS been lackluster they introduce cool ideas every other gen & ABANDON THEM #SO YOU HAVE A REASON TO BUY THE NEXT ONE BC IT HAS A NEW IDEA. MEGA EVOS WHAT'S THAT? DYNAMAX NOW.#the way they slice up the games to have exclusives SPECIFICALLY to piecemeal them back to you in 2 different games #so you either need to buy both (THAT IS 120 DOLLARS) or pay for online + have a friend. it has always been predatory.#it's. BAD.#& let's not pretend that 1/2 the lazy work is because the workers HAVE to be lazy. they pump these games out so fast that #nobody has time to write & revise & rewrite the stories which is fucking GLARING when you play sword or violet #in violet it is blatantly obvious they had the end planned first & then made up the rest as they went but had a hard time #connecting it back to the end so there's a noteable rush in the game & it sucks also if you call that game nonlinear i will attack you #IT ISN'T. IT IS DESIGNED SO THAT YOU NEED. TO GO IN A SPECIFIC ORDER. BECAUSE OF THE LEVELS #otherwise you'll hit a lvl 60 gym at lvl 40 then have to go back to fight the lvl 40 gym at lvl 70 #the studio rushes their workers & it results in sloppy implimentation of halfbaked mechanics & poor deisgns & writing #i pray that if there is a god that nintendo actually does slow down on these shits i would like the games my little cousins play #to not be such fucken rushed & undercooked hot garbage. fuck you

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too-tired-omg · 8 months ago

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I just realised why I like the "impossible love" trope so much.

You see, when an "impossible love" is portrayed in media, its about two people that love each other so deep, so much, so hard. The circumstances are what makes it impossible for them to be together, but if it was for them... if it was for them everything would be so perfect.

If it was for them, they would live the happily ever after they've always dreamt of, either together or each on their own. They would kiss and smile out in broad daylight, hold hands, and enjoy the other's smile, their laugh, the sparkle in their eyes. And they would be in love the way they want to be in love.

But they can't. Because of the end of the world, a war, a family feaud, a promise, their duty, pure hate towards them... and it can't be. But they want it to be. It's not that there's no love. It's not that there's no desire or willingness or lack of fear or doubt. Is that there is something bigger than themselves that prevents them from showing it out loud.

And maybe it's terrible and I shouldn't wish for this but, I can't help but want a love where the reason it isn't happening is not because they don't love me or I don't love them, I don't wanna have any more one-sided love, I'm tired of it. I just would like an impossible love that isn't impossible because of us, but because of them.

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autisticlee · 1 year ago

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sometimes I think about how I was legitimately the most hated and bullied kid in my entire class, and probably entire school. I knew this as a fact. there was nothing I could do about it. not just by the kids either, but the teachers/staff as well. all because I was autistic and unable to speak and they didn't want to treat me decently. and I ask why. (rhetorically of course, because I know all the excuses given as answers)

being an autistic kid and knowing damn well this is true, that you're the most hated person in the entire building with not a single person on your side, knowing you're the main target for everyone's aggression every day, is....truly something. you know. like carrying the weight of everyone's hatred and negativity on your back alone, being their punching bag, internalizing their hatred for then. from ages 4 to 18. nonstop. never getting better. never knowing why. not being able to stop it. never getting any help. on your own and alone. blamed for it all.

yet i'm simply told to "get over it/stop caring" and get blamed for it fucking me up and having a lasting effect. lmao ok. let me just forget more than half my life existed at this point and magically get better! thanks!

#those assholes are lucky I didn't have the heartless soul to take revenge on them or something.#instead it just became internalized trauma 🙃#lee rambles #autistic #autism #actually autistic #school trauma #what would they have done if i lost my shit and lashed out at them????#the most i was ever able to do was take a plastic knife and stab an apple at lunch while glaring at a table of the kids #that scared them enough to leave me alone for a few days. then theh forgot and back at it again #why is it always the victim's fault and the bullies win? even years after the fact. why cant my brain “get over it” like people tell me :/#and yes i was able to get a therapist. no it hasnt helped yet. i do all the coping stuff she suggests already #basically distractions and whatnot. no it hasnt cured me.#she always tells me i have good coping mechanisms. im doing a good job. i deal with things reallt well. ok why am i still a mess 🙃#its almost as if theres no cure and only pretending #what am i rambling about. this sounds like an emotional rant but i genuinely feel nothingness atm. just reminiscing how fucked up it all was #why were things like that allowed to be put onto one single child and why did they never get any help or justice and are blamed #s i g h s #also ive always felt like no one believed me when i said i was the most hated and bullied kid at school. it is 100% true lmao unfortunately

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years ago

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Soooo why do you have the crack ship of Ryo and Daigo?

i see two ex-emo nepo babies and i think they should kiss and play mind games with each other

#snap chats #im done moving into my new room ughHGHFH IM TIREDDD #i still have to do homework tho and my sister wont get off the phone but this the first time shes called me in #i been thinking on this for months #like. Two Weeks idk so </3 #but yeah we saw my initial post back in october/november ok i been on this mindset for A Hot Minute #ive been so brave and strong by not unleashing the full extent of my brainrot onto tumblr #like rip at my priv but i spare yall for the most part #i just think theyre fun to think bout </3 they would never have a good relationship and its all aokis fault #i also think daigo should steal masumi because if aoki doesnt want his dad then my god daigo could use another one #daigo's dad collection...#but do you see why im here. theres so many fun angles to approach these knuckleheads from #the most Y7 gave me was daigo being /vaguely/ snooty bout how he and the tojo were essentially the reason for aokis success #daigo can just be snooty in general but im running with it and saying it was esp personal this time #i also want to continue the growing list of Boyfriends Of Daigo That Would Make His Mom Say 'He Doesn't Deserve You'#I JUST THINK DAIGOS TYPE SHOULD BE CAPITALISTS 💀💀#SORRY ill stop my mental illness now Point Is i enjoy them immensely on their own so why not smash them together #ive never had a crackship i enjoy as much as this aside from like. |ke mart h 💀#censors it so i dont get this bullshit ass post in the tag

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sensitivegoblin · 1 year ago

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Vent

#I fucking H A T E my sister I can't wait till I get the fuck out iof here #her kids are gonna be fuckin miserable #again she gets hung up on something that doesn't matter and makes MY LIFE harder #I fucking hate her it's not fair she gets to make me so angry and I just have to take it #fuckfuckfuck fuckfuck #I'm never gonna care about her crying over her stupid BF ever again #I'm so fucking done with this house o can't wait to get out of here she's so annoying #I told her this would happen #but everything's fine on her end cus I'm actually a good sister and DONT SAY ANYTHING #I know no one's gonna agree with me so I'm not gonna specify what happened #no one understands that I have a process and worrying about the chance of germs makes everything so fucking harder it #she negates the benefits that come with living in a clean house #I'm never living with her again EVER #and if she ever has to live with me im gonna be an annoying dictator just like her cus it'll be my house #why is she being this way????? I would leave her alone and not say anything if she was in my position #she's such a bitch I don't fucking care anymore #now I can see her BFs side a little#I'm not allowed to show emotion or anything I hate her so much I wanna die

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freebooter4ever · 2 years ago

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This is 1000% random but came to mind regarding the duck movie. I sometimies watch movies without sound if I think they might ~suck~ like that... so just a tip if you want to see it but not sort of experience it :D hahahha

heh, well. ive already seen it fully so the damage has been done. i bought it even, thinking i would want to rewatch it, but i really REALLY dont think i will. ever. i have watched a LOT of bad movies for my stupid infatuations over the years so honestly im used to it.

#Im not gonna pretend like it doesnt hurt a little seeing the kind of movie joe is ok with attaching his name to #I was vaguely aware he was conservative but i will admit i didnt really have it shoved in my face until this #It reminds me of one of my closest friends here who just...we meshed in a that natural immediate connection way #And one day we were sitting in the getty villa just chatting and i was talking about the amazing documentary the Janes on h * b *o #And he just casually threw out there that he was pro life and anti abortion and he kind of wished he could force a woman #To carry his child against her wishes #He insinuated that when he was younger he got someone pregnant on accident and she refused to have the baby and got an abortion #And he felt it was a violation of his rights not to be able to force her to have a baby #And let me tell you i was like a slap in the face #Like that is...it is so discounting a womans right to her own body #It was chilling to hear a guy who i vibed with so well talk about a woman as if she's just a body and nothing else #I personally have been lucky or ugly enough that its never been an issue i have no idea how i feel about it #I mean my grandma WAS catholic and that seeps down no matter how lapsed i am #So i dont think i would have an abortion? But like i said i really genuinely like kids and in an ideal world would want that #But god im in my thirties now and still not financially stable enough to support a child i have no idea what i would have done #Had i gotten pregnant on accident #I spent most of my twenties recovering from an abusive relationship and not letting men touch me so it was never a question #Im just saying its a womans body its her life pregnancy is simple for some but for others its a life altering experience #It should be her right to choose :( and i wish men respected women enough considered them human enough to recognize that #If the shoe were on the other foot what man would let a woman decide that he must be pregant for 9 months #ALSO for fucks sake women shouldnt have to be practically celibate like i was just to prevent any accident from happening #Also also it is so fucked up that the same people who are pro life are also the bob types - skeptical of adoption #Like this is how you get unwanted kids in the world and take it from me that kids childhood is really really weird #Like knowing from a young age that you are what ruined your mothers life????? Fucking weird man i dont think i will ever process it #Especially being a woman now and recognizing that yeah i kinda did ruin my mothers life but it was neither of our fault #It was the pressure of society and people Trying To Do What They Are Supposed To #Meanwhile my dad was the I Could Never Love Other Peoples Kids and I Hate All Children That Arent My Own type #So yeah i guess i have a lot of negative feelings about this movie after all #Anyway it might have completely killed the joe infatuation LOL probably for the best #Dont even get me started on the blink or you miss it homophobia with bonus weird almost racism in the therapy scenes

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demoness-one · 2 years ago

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theyre called "Dodge" bc when you decide not to buy one youve dodged a fucking bullet

#still think of my stupid ex who dropped 40k on a truck while he was flat broke just to stroke his ego #and the truck he picked was a fucking dodge. like really. just insult to injury at that point #cracked the windshield like 2 weeks after he got it and couldnt even afford the deductible from insurance to get it fixed #like bro do you think thats maybe a sign youre a raging idiot. he was permanently broke im not like making fun of being on hard times #im kind of drunk i tried some new vodka thing its good ill have to get more. i love tags i can say anything and nobody has to see it rly #should sleep now <33 #and fuck that guy im so much happier without him. last month made 1 yr since i cut him out of mylife and i dont miss him or his stupid truc #or his piss poor money management skills while having (at the time) paid-for cars and no rent and journeyman wages $20-25/h #always borrowign money and never paid it back. lucky i only stopped speaking to him and didnt take it out of his truck nova scotia style #its what he would have done. cunt. bedtime for real now maybe ill remember to delete all this in the morning ily all

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helianskies · 2 years ago

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the temptation to try and translate some of my short fics just for practice combined with the knowledge that my english > spanish/italian translation is Not Great

#helia's stuff #i'm out of practice it's been 6 months it's shocking #but then writing and translation were my strengths at uni asldfkjn #ive also considered reaching out to writers to translate fics into english just bc there are some real gems out there #that i know people are missing out on bc they dont speak the source text language #but that's a bit bold of me tbh so ive never done it lmao #that and the one fic i would really truly love to translate is uh. huge. h u g e. and complex. and oh the research i would have to do asdbj

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