#GUESS IM NOT SLEEPING YET

[marciaillust]

oh boy i did not start this year on a good note, 4 days in and im a ghost on my dead tired legs begging for rest

[ganondoodle]

(scrapped painting)

its kinda fascinating how you can draw something well and instead of learning from it for the next drawing you repeat the same old mistakes that kept you from improving in the first place

(was supposed to the next scene after the previous good painting lol)

its a rly early sketch (i know it wont work out though, too much wrong) but Zaphira (standing) was winning the fight against the guy that challenged her (he also cheated and attacked her weak leg with a dagger despite it being a fist fight) so he ordered the soldiers he hid in the audience to shoot, Shargon is catching the arrows in the air before they can reach her and she trusts him enough to not even react to it

[gomzdrawfr]

I sleep with one eye open and with paranoia for good reason

[sleepiestoken]

more sleep token mentions! jonny hawkins from nothing more talks a cursed tour with the boys in 2022 and watching them blow up in real time

[ghostyclay]

S7 mumbo jumbo cosplay coming soon :3 (wip)

[majoris]

hi hello im just gonna complain in the tags so don't worry about that hope you're having a nice time a good day cozy soft day to you my friend ✨

[pixthefuckup]

parts of my music taste that i think the main npmd kids would like:

grace: i love her but she wouldn't fuck with any of my playlists. maybe bits of my pop stuff and the classical music playlist i use during homework or rushing for deadlines but even then she would probably ask me to remove the tango de roxanne instrumental from it. (kinda giving closeted madds buckley listener. i think i would play her a song and she would discreetly write down most of the lyrics to search it up later but then immediately go "oooh no, this is bad, this is very bad." when she's 7 songs deep into my love is sick)

richie: my boy would fuck with shwabadi and fabvl HEAVY. maybe more fabvl but yeah. would listen to their aot stuff and then go in a rabbit hole for more. maybe a bit of halacg and rustage?? definitely a random encounters guy at least. i just feel like he would be the type of guy to listen to nerdcore, whether it's rap or pure singing.

ruth: oh me and her are skipping in a field. musicals (heathers, in the heights, hadestown, epic)? check. gay and horny (chrissy chlapecka, snow wife, 6arely human)? check. dramatic ballads/songs where you have to be lip-SCREAMING or on your knees to be accurate to the emotions (y se fuera ella by jonghyun, tango de roxanne, heaven on their minds)? check.

steph: honey revenge for sure (girl would love airhead), florence and the machine, madds buckley, and hannah bahng. i don't listen to a lot of songs from sycamour but the few i do i feel like could rock with steph. maybe some of chase atlantic but probably their older stuff like their paradise ep and such. (projecting my love of falling onto her. a whole song about being tragically reckless with someone you like, basically saying fuck you to your dad, and calling the love conflict instead of just admitting what it is?? that sounds like steph)

pete: i dunno. i love him but like... taste in music is hard for me to get out of him. he'd probably be near my side where my brother's taste leaks over: more party edm but also nice rhythmic and indie stuff comes through. probably got dragged into richie's nerdcore stuff a bit. do feel like he would be the type of kid to take over their brother's music taste though so i guess it fits... hmmm.... old 90s to early 2000s hits would shoot out and surprise you if he's given the aux, in this universe of taste ig

max: he would claim to not like anything because im clearly a freaky nerdy prude and there's no way we could have anything in common (white girl pop/2010s recession pop. i feel it in my veins. bro would dig through my nostalgia playlist like a fiend. daddy issues is prominent in this man and the 2010s. also a closeted madds buckley listener. saved driver's seat but won't admit it)

[diospore]

Rant below the break bc I was mad at 3 am last night.

People kinda need to learn how to criticize someone's skill (writing/art) without mocking them for their kinks or identities or other things that don't matter.

(This is about a specific post trend I've been seeing, where I have seen on multiple occasions people's kinks and identities being brought into a conversation unnecessarily where prior to that the discussion was about the quality of their skill. And even then why the fuck do you care. The art isn't FOR you.)

Like you aren't inherently Cool and Epic for making fun of someone who likes feet or omegaverse or pregnant men or something. You're not Awesome and So So Smart for mocking someone for identifying as a catboy or something. Get over yourself. Learn to properly criticize writing/art without mocking someone, because your entire argument becomes worthless with insults like that. You think I'm going to reblog you even if I agree with you once you pull that shit? No, I'm fucking blocking your ass and everyone in the replies who agrees with you.

And god, if you purposely misgender someone over their art, holy shit. Gendering someone properly isn't something that can be Taken Away for Being A Naughty Naughty Horny Person. You see how fucked up that is right? I don't have to explain that, right???? What is this, 2014? Stop mocking people for being bunny boys or puppy girls. The fuck is with you? God forbid people have fun with their genders in 2024. Oh the humanity, bunnyposter likes his large chest and sexualizes himself and reclaims his features. How will the world recover from this tragedy of- gasp! A trans person having a semblance of acceptance around their appearance that they can't fucking AFFORD to do anything about and not wallowing in misery 25/8.

Get a hobby, damn.

[ganondoodle]

while i am procrastinating drawing in favor of staring blankly at the wall listening to my own tinnitus and heartbeat for some ungodly reason, i have decided to have the reworked sonau not include the barbarian set in any way (which has been freezing my progress of rewriting them to completion) bc it just doesnt fit them at all and explain it by implying that its a fake armor set with made up lore as essentially a piece of surviving propaganda made by the shiekah to make it seem more justified what they did to them-

(in my rewrite the sonau were an underground dwelling monkey-frog like creature feeding on nectar the nature of which made them turn into crystals of luminous stone upon death- which is also the energy source for the shiekah tech, additionally the sonau here were protecting ancient pieces of lost history of the past they were sure would lead to disaster if anyone of the surface would find them, and with believing the cycle of hyrules destructions is man made and self perpetuated at the center of their belief system it posed a danger to hyrules reputation- thus making them a target that ends in a double win for hyrule if eliminated)

-which would neatly also lead to perhaps a bit of tension with the existing shiekah, most of which of course dont know anything about any of it, but perhaps with impa being the only one to safeguard the only information left about it as a means of both preservation and to have it never be revealed :)

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Some mild existential dread in the house today

[skitskatdacat63]

Locked myself in the paper writing dungeon for the past 5 hours or so(well and the entire academic dungeon for the past day as a whole) and now I am back out in the sunlight !!!!

I'm dying though, I was joking to my friend earlier about how I was def gonna end up submitting the final paper for our class at some absurd time. So he threw out a very specific arbitrary time, and guys. Guess what. Guess what time I submitted the paper, completely by accident. Guess what time, guys.

[crazycookiemaniac]

Okay so, here I am again to ask for your support 🥲

In the past month I've been extremely busy irl attending classes/studying to take a test near the end of the year in order to try to get into a public university and take a medical course. I've been on this rythm from Sunday to Sunday, having classes every morning and also at the afternoon on mondays, wednesdays and fridays. I also have a tutor helping me outside of the preparatory course on weekends.

In addition to that, I'm also struggling with my meds/mental health. I've been diagnosed with OCD recently (in addition to my bipolar diagnosis) and God, everything is so hard right now.

If you've been following me for the past couple years you know how fucked up I've been mentally and financially. Last year I got a huge debt that I'm still paying off, and I also need to use my credit card a lot since I don't have money on me ever. I've taken all commissions I've gotten, but it's not always that luck comes my way. So, here I am.

I'm going to say it outright. I'm in dire need of help. Financial help, because thankfully I have a supportive family (who is already helping me financially as much as they can) to help me go through all the mental care stuff.

If I sum up everything I owe, it should be around 3.8k usd. Which is a LOT, especially considering I don't pay rent and spend mostly with myself.

I'm asking for help because no matter how hard I work, no matter how many commissions I take, this number never seems to lower and I don't know what to do anymore. I've been pondering getting another loan from the bank to pay for at least my credit card bills, but that would start another never-ending cycle of eternal debt. And it is so stressful to me that I can't stop spending because I literally need to live, as well as I can't control my compulsive episodes when I'm having them.

So, here I am. Again. For the billionth time, asking for help. I don't expect anyone willing to help to solve my problems for me. It's just that I literally have nowhere else to run, and I've always used social media as ways to advertise and sell my work.

So, please, if you can, I'd appreciate it if you could buy me a ko-fi or consider commissioning me. I'm willing to draw whatever and if you need a discount, just ask me and we can find a good amount together. If you could also share this post, it would mean the world to me.

I'm sorry for making this post at all. I'm just another struggling adult trying her best to become someone in life.

[orcelito]

Good News for me, it seems like my application to the new apartment is being accepted :]

The leasing coordinator messaged me to say she's sending the lease to me to sign tomorrow, & so long as I submit the payment by the start of the term (April 30th), then the apartment will be Mine.......!!!!!

Wonderful News!!!

[thatgirlwithasquid]

are. you. kidding. me?

i love how ‘i have a trip in the afternoon but i’ll still walk the dog for you in the morning since everyone else has a busier day :)’ gets taken as ‘sure! have a loud conversation directly outside my bedroom door at quarter past six while i am CLEARLY still sleeping.’

my mum was literally shouting to my dad about toothbrushes since he was in another room. cause clearly she couldn’t have walked to where he was and had a quiet chat 🙃

[adderallanomaly]

i have literally no mathod of self soothing rn so im just sitting at my desk chain smoking until something changes and like. nothings going to change so idk what to do

[ganondoodle]

as cool as their design is im really starting to dislike the sonau in general, aside from their stuff suddendly being everywhere and everything being about them and how cool(tm) they are now with the mystery stone turning people into dragons and the similarities between the sonau and the three dragons (naydra, eldra, farodra) its actually not an impossibility that they used to be sonaus as alot of people have been theorizing about ..but ...... idk that would very much ruin their otherwordly yet ethereal mystery to me

i probably sound like some hater whos trying to find something more to dislike about totk all the time but i promise im not!!

the three dragons being some unexplained mystery, beings that are there yet few can see them, timeless, nigh untouchable, they dont act on anything, they dont talk, something about them has always made me look at them in awe; if it turned out they were just yet another cool(tm) sonau guy that ate a stone ... :/

not a fan of that one lads, but dont worry, i will keep my thoughts to myself from now on, i dont want to ruin other peoples fun nor seem like i just hate everything ... the three dragons are just really important to me so i had to say something