#Fixations

[silk-and-blade]

"You habituate me to the invisible."

- Deborah Landau, The Last Usable Hour.

[mysticdragon3md3]

I'm sorry to say this, but the number can be WAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY MORE than 3 years.

[dust-in-her-face]

ngl i was looking forward to a handful of things coming back to my screens when the strike ended…and nearly all of them fucked shit up real frakking good to a point where it literally drove me back into my fixations from twenty to fifteen years ago. like i’m not even frakking kidding.

and it’s been a stressful time, y’know? husband nearly died. the lengthy recovery. getting back to life and all the tonnage of crap it brings with it. being lowkey harassed into giving interested parties a grandchild as if they didn’t just witness said husband nearly dying. again.

(did they sit there and watch me fight off catatonia and go, hey, ya know what we could use right now? a screaming, needy, angry, leaky infant. yeah, that’s it.)

so i kinda like to escape into these fictional worlds. but goddamn what a letdown it’s been. like holy shit. what’s in the water, hollywood? and it’s not even full seasons of 22 episodes like before. it’s ten or a little over. how could yall keep fucking that up? it’s literally your job, aye? but, hey, not every year is a banner year…fine.

but i was really looking forward to the happy distraction, that’s all.

crawling back to the arms of battlestar galactica with whom (yes, whom!) i have been in a relationship with longer than i’ve been with my husband. to major crimes (except season 6). to some parts of the west wing. to the golden girls. to the only reality tv i’ll ever watch, us politics and the democratic party. thank you for still being there and thank you, piracy for making sure they never go away.

special shoutout to criminal minds: evolution for going well beyond expectations. seriously. fantastic job. hell of a season. come back with the same ferocity of holy damn. thank you.

and now, back to reality and holy shit what a fucking long day has it been. (it’s almost 8am)

[rxoxsxy]

the fixation so bad that i had to whip out gacha club... 😞💔

are my designs accurate??? be honest 😕🙏

[kiraleestudios]

Back at it with fixations

[the-fictive-haven]

Getting into new media/getting back into old favorites is so silly when you're a system that splits easily and seems to introject any character I really like ever

Like... Yeah I wanna rewatch She-ra (2018) but do we really need an Entrapta running around in here wreaking havoc?

EDIT: I FUCKING HEARD HER VOICE and got a "someone's in my lab harassing me what the hell Yami" message from Nine AS SOON AS I POSTED THIS I AM NOT EVEN KIDDING. Tell me I did not just accidentally summon someone AGAIN 😭

[andysapplepies]

I hate fixating on a ship because I get so offended and sad when someone doesn’t like it and it genuinely effects me

LIKE HELLO?? ITS A FICTIONAL SHIP? What am I doing with my life gang

[milkflavouredpoptart]

being fixated on a show or piece of media is crazy because what do you mean I want to do something but I can't because if I don't devote all of my free time to this one fandom then I'll violently combust?

[httyddragonfox]

Leola's Autism

it was confirmed that Leola was autistic. Autism is a spectrum, and seeing as autism is prevalent around me, I'm going to attempt to analyze hers.

My brother is autistic, but also has a learning disability. Meanwhile, I may be atypical autistic. I've also been to autism walks.

My brother likes to jump in place and kick out his legs at times. I stim on what's in my pockets (a smooth button, and a ball of colorful thread) and occasionally I flap 1 of my hands.

Autism you like to fixate on something, my brother it's large animals, for me it's storytelling.

We are both sensitive to loud (in my case also sharp) noises. My brother would occasionally sort beads, movies, his Figurines, etc. When I was younger I arranged all the picture books in front of me, to see and feel them all, I also sorted my fake food into groups, my lego into colors, my barbie objects into groups.

Details need to be exact, my brother (thanks to his learning disability) a fact is a fact, an opinion is an opinion, and it never changes. For me, things have to be done a certain way. If someone gets a detail wrong for something I like I get upset, and if something isn't done how I usually do it I get irritated (applying to protocols at work).

There's also when we get overwhelmed. I have an anxiety disorder, so normally when I'm very stressed I can't breathe and I clench up. My brother when gets frustrated or stressed he folds his ear. I feel calm when i muffle my ears.

There's a difference between high and low functioning autism, as well as male and female autism. I'm high functioning, but my brother has a learning disability. I've seen lower functioning autistics who can hardly talk, and higher functioning ones who choose not to.

I'm sensitive to certain things touching my skin, and I'm not sure about my brother. I don't like jewelry at all, meanwhile my brother seems to not like tight clothes or hair on his limbs. He prefers sandals, but wears boots when he feels he should.

That's all I know about Autism. There's Leola...

She had many friends, which is not easy for autistic people to forge bonds. However, she is female autistic, and they are more in tuned with their right brains (feelings and creativity), hence why my focus is storytellingand my cousin's is art. Girls are prone to be more emotional beings, so that might explain why she is so loving and accepting.

My brother only takes hugs because he was conditioned to be okay with them, meanwhile I love hugs. Which is probably why Leola sought physical comfort.

If I had to guess, Leola is a standard autistic, not atypical. She was also feminine autistic, so she's not closed off. Her focus maybe was on the stones of magic. When it comes to what we fixate on, we tell everyone we can about it. My brother loves spouting facts on large animals, I love sharing knowledge of stories as well as my own with others, so if her focus was the primal stones and how they connect to magic, of course she'd share it with humans. She'd want to share it with everyone.

[cvst3r]

I remember when someone once found out that I was a Hannibal Lecter fictionkin and then asked me "You relate to a cannibal serial killer?" First of all, It's not just about relating. I honestly get so annoyed when ppl get the idea that being fictionkin is just simply relating to a character. I don't relate to the character, I AM the character. As i've mentioned in a recent post, this type of stuff is involuntary for me, I cannot control my kintypes. I actually identify as a few fictional killers from horror movies/shows. The reason why I believe is because I have a fixation for horror, especially psychological and I think my kintypes are somewhat influenced by my fixations. This however does not mean I will commit violent acts irl and does not make me a bad person. Fuck anyone who thinks it does.

[lonelylesbian2]

Telling people that cannibalism is one of my fav little things in literacy and media to refer to the absolute love and desire in a relationship is so fun. The looks I get r wild but for some reason people never hear me out. I gen don’t know why that is.

[gummigvts]

My finger slipped and now I have a TSP inspired playlist

>Has a playlist

>Officially welcomed into fixations

[vincent-marie]

My other Works In Progress as I tumble down my GRAVITY FALLS rabbit hole:

[sts-puelle]

Some little funny thing I drew during a conversation between me and my sister involving how we view each other's fixations

[imlatebutatleastimhere]

Love when my hyperfixation becomes either an unpopular piece of media or an old/unfinished anime