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Had this AU kinda simmering on the sidelines for a while, but after the recent lore drop for the alt timeline (and for being in the franchise long enough to understand the characters a lil better), I finally decided to drop this thing.
Basic premise of this thing is that instead of fully blowing up far away in space, Max wound up blowing up close enough to Earth's orbit (since Stinky was actually forced to toss her phone while leaving). This made it so his bits came barreling back like a meteor but recondensed themselves to form a body again (in part thanks to the dark matter still in him). During the process however the two halves of his brain refused to reconnect hence why there's two extra Maxes now instead of one.
Alt still shows up though, the above process took just enough time for the ending scene to play out but not long enough for Sam & Alt to leave the pier (the time elevator still gets sent away though so Alt's pretty much stranded in this timeline).
Now all 4 of em are kinda just stuck living together. Sam doesn't have the guts to ditch any of them because part of him wants to move on with Alt, but on the otherhand SuperEgo and ID remind him too much of when they were a whole person...rabbit.
Bit of a sidenote sorta-kinda but, obviously all the Maxes hate each others' guts and try to get rid of one another by almost any means necessary. Problem with this is the fact SuperEgo and ID came from the same person afterall, so they can't really hurt each other or else they wind up hurting themselves. If one experiences damage done to their body then the other will experience phantom pain from it, be it sudden bruises coming out of nowhere or spontaneous cuts popping up.
#sam and max#sam and max spoilers#sam and max freelance husbands#the devil's playhouse spoilers#Three's A Crowd AU#silver's artwork#also just gonna add this here but even though SuperEgo was kinda standoffish in the game. I'd imagine he still likes Sam-#-hence why he sticks around#sure he may not be a fan of how he acts most of the time but he still finds comfort in Sam's company that noone else can seem to provide#other side notes I'm gonna add down here: despite his wings. ID can't fly and can only at best hover#and as for the exposed brains. tried to make sure it was obvious they were only exposed on one side#SuperEgo's popping out on his left while ID's leans from the right#obviously no exposed brain for Alt Max but he does get fucked up ears#those are thanks to ID from yanking them whenever those two fight#also also would've added Sam in the first pic but there wasn't much change in his design aside from baggase under his eyes#can't recall anything else that needs mentioning atm so Imma just leave it at this
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can i get on his shoulder if im being annoying enough
#wow i think i actually tried#i mean the rendering and the body and stuff#probably the most exposed character i've drawn#you know#compared with basically any other characters i draw that doesn't even show an inch of skin#oh well at least you gotta start somewhere#seriously i should learn / practice something about art now because i just finished my fucking horrible monthly meeting yesterday-#-and i SHOULD have some time for that kind of stuff now#by “should” i mean there's a high chance i will spend that time on other games#also i bought ror2 btw#it was on sale so i bought the main game#idk when i'll get around to it but i bet im gonna crunch through another game's wiki before even touching the game#just like basically any other games i played#don't ask me why i do that i kinda just do#risk of rain 2#ror2#ror2 commando#mithrix#my art
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Huh, I didn't even realize it'd been a year since BG3 came out until I opened tumblr this morning. Kinda wild. I didn't think much of the game's release: I like Larian's games, and I like the BG series. I wasn't ever going to skip the game, but I didn't think I'd play it at launch because I was busy working on a novel in 2023 and not doing well financially.
Thankfully, circumstances left me with a little bit of extra money last year just before launch and it meant I could spend on a video game. I needed a pick-me-up after said 2023 novel failed to go anywhere, and BG3 was right there. Like most CRPGs, I played it in basically every moment of free time that I had and did as much as I possibly could in one playthrough.
It's so odd how these small happenstances can snowball into coming back to fandom, finding some friends I might've never met otherwise, and writing a lot of fanfiction along the way. I'll probably have something more interesting to say/share when it's the 14th, AKA when I sat down and wrote my first fic for this fandom.
Anyways, it's been a lot of fun and I'm looking forward to more years to come 💜
#random fandom thoughts#there's a fair few tidbits about that first fic that will be more fun to share on the 14th#but there's some fun facts about the early parts of my first playthrough:#Asheera killed Us because the player thought it was going to be a hostile intellect devourer and didn't want to deal with that at lvl1 lol#It took me several hours to recruit Gale because I didn't want to interact with the glowing portal until I was “ready”#I (the player) sent Barcus flying at first because I have a very silly sense of humor#I did reload that one because Asheera wouldn't BUT I was satisfied#and finally the one that is always entertaining considering how things ended up#I originally thought nothing of Shadowheart and didn't go into the game with any idea about romance or the companions whatsoever#all I noticed about her was that she wore Sharran symbols everywhere but tried to hide her faith#then she tried the most miserable attempt at manipulation I've ever seen in my life (when she tests you about Raphael's deal)#and she exposed herself as the Worst Sharran Possible#then came her confession of her faith and I knew something special was happening#the confession sounds so robotic and prewritten almost like it's from a canned speech she's practiced and rehearsed#and sounds more like regurgitation and being Told what to believe rather than an impassioned plea borne of bone-deep faith#the sudden shift in her tone had me thinking: “this is either atrocious character writing or fantastic characterization”#and lo and behold#anyways if you've read this far then bg3 is a very special thing for me and I love getting to create for the fandom
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#*not intended to be a DEFNITIVE ALL exposed Kenny moments poll!! <3#south park#kenny mccormick#mysterion#I tried to pick the most 'exposed' ones#not just like the back of his head#okay. it'd be a lot elsewise okay!!!#poll games#and I thought this would be fun bc I had a conniption#thinking about hoodless kenny :)#maybe i shouldve left mysterion out bc of popularity#and he's not that exposed#buuttt... he speaks so much and breaks character so i put it#and princess isn't there bc that's not exposed obvs
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My assumptions about you is that you were into voltron legendary defender when it came out and that you at least one succubus/plant
idk why but reading this ask had me like
CUS YEAH I WAS SUPER INTO VOLTRON WHEN IT FIRST CAME OUT HOW DID YOU KNOW I HAVEN'T BLOGGED ABOUT IT IN YEARS.
I was really, really, REALLY, invested in Hance but I was super quiet about it since it wasn't the popular ship in the fandom (that didn't stop me from having like 30 ao3 fics about them open at all times though lol).
I used to own a tiny little cactus...but then I killed it by overwatering it
#still not over the fact that Voltron was only two years of my life becasue it feels like longer#my place is filled with plants#but my bf is the plant guy he takes care of them all#any plant i've tried to take care of just dies within a week like i've exposed them to the ring#toofpaste-art#ask game
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Do you think noise is able to read the room and put a temporary end to his tomfoolery when the situation deems it to happen? Like i know Peppino can fold his ass like a cheap chair but is he capable of being like "ah this is a bad moment and i should not try doing anything right now"? Mostly thinking of the scenario if Peppino is having A Fucking Moment but not even angry just, very fucking upset for some reason, would the yellow imp still be like BLEEH 🤪? Silly context for this ask, i was chopping an onion and it made me think "what would noise do if he walked in peppino just bawling his eyes out?" btw 😭
Thank u for this ask bc this is like a sneak peek into the comic idea i had for the noise (and peppino)
Bc i think of Peppino as extremely emotional and unable to mask it AT ALL and that ranges from being incredibly angry to overwhelmingly sad and it will always hit him suddenly w the intensity of a wave crashing into him. So I wanted to have the noise kind of being A Menace and bothering Peppino and having it SOMEHOW lead to peppino going from ‘you dont fucking LISTEN u wont stop fuckin w me’ to ‘no one here leaves me the fuck ALONE why cant anyone anywhere leave me ALONE’ and hes like so fucking UPSET that hes tearing up and the noise is like ☹️!!!!
Like ‘um! Woah buddy im just playin around see? Its all part of the schtick !’ And he expects Peppino to lunge at him or something bc thats the game thats their little back n forth heehee but Peppino just grabs at his own hair and starts yanking at it and the noise is like WOAH Hold up stop that stop that what are u doing ??? And hes not quite sure HOW to interpret Peppino crying and gritting his teeth and pulling at his own hair other than ‘hes freaking the fuck out and i made that happen somehow’
To the noise, their little banter and back n forth and Very Scary Threats on Peppinos part is like a little game to him and he THINKS its mutual (bc Peppinos reactions are bordeline comical at times) but it is actually Very one-sided, and the only thing that would break him out of that ‘illusion’ is Peppino not holding up his supposed end of the duo act the Correct way. And that includes Peppino doing scarier than normal threats (chucking a knife at him and only missing by centimeters) or in this case, Peppino fucking breaking down in front of him instead of grabbing for his neck or something. He doesnt like it ☹️
#answered#chattin#peppino#noise#like. the noise is just fucking annoying#hes just a brat! with a bunch of money and a bunch of free time!#and everything is a little game to him bc he doesnt have to take shit seriously Ever#and peppino is like. so tired of dealing w him. hes a brat but hes just so fucking annoying#and not even in an endearing way like noisette#bc noisette doesnt Seek him out; she stays in her shop and shes just overly friendly when he visits#he is willingly accepting that walking in there will have him exposed to her loudness but like its of his own volition#the noise however…#and it goes from ‘this fucking brat wont leave me alone’ to ��NO ONE leaves me alone’#and that includes everyone hes met in the tower#but it also is like a pent up anger and frustration of having to deal w this shop#collectors hounding his shop#my hc that pizzahead tried MULTIPLE times to buy his shop out#and tried MULTIPLE times to just hire peppino to work for him#and like peppino feels like everywhere he goes he is being chased out or stalked#and hes not the best person in the world and hes kind of a dick but like#hes just some dude that wants to make pizza and own a shop#and his whole life got flipped on his head once he decided to do that#and now hes got freaks that corner him in his own safe space and stalk him and dont take his want to be alone seriously#his space is Their space#and while the noise is just a small little part of this mess#he unfortunately is the one that accidentally tips him over#he would be SO upset 😭 hes sulking in noisettes shop just miserable#and noisette is like hmm. this is serious….have u tried saying sorry?#and hes like oh my god u are so fucking smart i love u#peppino would forgive him after a while. hes a bit of a softie (A LITTLE BIT....) and if noise tried to make amends; hes accept that
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find a blorbo (nhl tag game)
RULES: Go through the roster of each NHL team and find at least one player that you can root for.
tagged by @bondedpairs!! when i say too many teams to count and here for the narrative um. i may not have lied. this is not an extensive list of my blorbos but in order to make it not ten thousand years long i made up the rule that i had to do it straight from memory :)
anaheim ducks: as evidenced by recent events i DO like mason mctavish and trevor zegras but i have to honor laura and mention troy terry and beloved goalie gibbie*
boston bruins: oh for sure brad marchand… can i say patrice? one of the charlies got traded but i think mcavoy is still there because gryz is gone, brandon carlo is there still i think
buffalo sabres: cozens & thompson, owen power, rasmus dahlin, ukko pekka luukkonen
calgary flames: is chris tanev still here? is markstrom still here?? noah hanifin?? as a last resort i’ll say blasty
carolina hurricanes: aho & jarvy & teuvo teravainen & brent burns is still playing maybe? i know sepe got traded
chicago hockey: the bedsy narrative is compelling but ANDREAS ATHANASIOU MY BELOVED reunited with tyler bertuzzi… that’s the real story. also i like foligno
colorado avalanche: gabe landeskog, whatever ross colton & miles wood have going on, natemac + jo, mikko
columbus blue jackets: have long been on the merzlikins train, have been swayed to the darkside of umich boys (brindley, kent johnson, fantilli, blankenburg who is now on nsh)
dallas stars: seggy! mush! roope + miro and otter and robo and wyjo (rip ty dellandrea) and harls! etc.
detroit red wings: MOST players. dilly larks, moritz seider, jv, raymond, rasmussen, kitty, lyon, etc except for k*ne
edmonton oilers: mcdrai, ofc. nugent-hopkins, nursey, rip vinny & skinny
florida panthers: tkachuk, reinhardt, sasha barkov, verhaeghe (is there still?)
los angeles kings: adrian kempe… kevin fiala… danault… quinton byfield & alex turcotte
minnesota wild: kirill, marat, fleury, brodes, fabes, boldy, moose, middsy, spurge… god’s perfect idiots
montreal canadiens: going out on a limb here to say martin st. louis but also xhekaj (both), slafkovský, suzuki, my austrian reinbacher, yes fine cole caufield
nashville predators: MOST BEAUTIFUL D PAIR IN THE WORLD GRADY SKJEI AND ROMAN JOSI!! juuse, evangelista, isn’t stamkos there and also someone else who absolutely should not be
new jersey devils: nico… tuna (tatar), dawson mercer, siegenthaler, dougie hamilton, yes the hugheses whatever
new york islanders: barzy, zeeker & marty, anders lee, noah dobson lol
new york rangers: mika & chris, lafrenière & k’andre, shesterkin
philadelphia flyers: frosty & beezer and tk and sanny and the new baby michkov and coots and scooty loots and foerster etc etc. you know the Guys
pittsburgh penguins: the two headed monster but also compelled by rutger mcgroarty, and kevin hayes was there!!!
ottawa senators: timmy stü & brady! josh norris! the evolution of shane pinto! ullmark now and brännström and claude giroux and chabot
san jose sharks: ekky, thrun, mario, borde, logan couture, shakir, that other vaguely blond rookie
seattle kraken: brandon tanev, andre burakovsky! grubauer & d’accord also
st. louis blues: jordan kyrou, nathan walker (is still there?), rob thomas? is parayako still there?
tampa bay lightning: hedman, point, they dumped so many guys after the cup run… is kucherov still there or is he in nashville?? anthony cirelli (notable for being made out with by pat maroon)
toronto maple leafs: mitch, jt, willy, alex nylander, kniesy, dewar, et
utah hockey: crouse, keller, tuba
vancouver canucks: quinn, brock, petey, jt, garly, höggy, i want to say dakota johnson, elias lindholm?
vegas golden knights: brandon montour is here now… alex pietrangelo, so sorry to one i can’t remember who loves the lions it will come back to me
washington capitals: full of love and stupidity. oshie, nicke/ovi, pierre-luc dubois, dowd, vrána, milano
winnipeg jets: adam lowry!! josh morissey and kc and morgan barron, also vladdy my beloved
tagging @stillfertile + @colap1nto + @songsandswords + @moregraceful if they haven’t done it yet, i know they follow at least a couple teams. if anybody else wants to play i love adopting blorbos!!
#it is literally my DREAM to get challenged by someone about how many hockey guys i can name because i am a freak like that#and i make up arguments in my head for fun. please Try Meeeee#me when i wear all of my different crewnecks out & make up an imaginary argument where i have to list five guys from every team… ok why not#in doing this i hope i expose so many of you to narratives and also don’t show my ass because we’re at the point in the season where i go#‘he got traded WHERE???’ & i forget where everyone got moved around 🫡 everyone who watches a game has to deal with me regularly going WAIT#tag games#liv in the replies#this is secretly just a love letter to everyone i follow who got me invested in these narratives. i WILL adopt ur interests &speech pattern#and like. it very much does NOT even come close to reflecting the narratives i have and will be invested in#hated my own rule as soon as i made it but it prevented me from creating an even MORE elaborate set of rules which was like. would you#actually root for this guy playing hockey vs are these all narrative characters so you need to them be able to back it up with a fic#which. given that it’s BLORBO i was like none of them are about to named on the basis of their hockey and also i am a giant hater#if you’re playing the red wings i want you to lose if the red wings are out i cannot guarantee who i will root for. it is up to The Spirit#this took me too long… worth it#like I don’t know as if i’ll ever make a proper pinned post but this is high in contention simply for the fact that i just Talk about Guys#you guys missed the part where i tried to do it in alphabetical order but completely forgot all teams that started with a p and colorado#among other teams and then i had to google ‘32 nhl teams’ because i could not for the life of me figure out who i was missing. rip ottawa#which is so funny because i love so many guys on their team. like. this list is such evidence of my BLANKING on the spot under pressure.#*everyone who saw this say stolarz no you didn’t. listen i knew ONE of them had gotten traded 😭 and literally during the pre-season det/tor#game today i heard ‘stolarz’ and went OH FUCK NO OH NO and wheezed my way here to fix it.
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listen dahlia's actions in bridge to the turnabout are another story but i gotta say i think her actions in turnabout beginnings are perfectly excusable. like if i was fourteen years old and living in an absolutely loveless family and my twenty one year old tutor started fawning all over me and calling me his "teen angel" i'd fake my own death and start a new life and let him be put on death row in the process as well. and manipulate him into drinking poison i'd do that too
#i do sympathize with her past situation and i don't blame her for taking drastic actions to get out of it#you gotta remember that if valerie hadn't threatened to expose the truth dahlia never would've killed anybody at all#she was perfectly fine! she was living her own life under her new name and she caused no trouble whatsoever#but then valerie threatened to expose the truth and send her potentially hurtling back into a life she didn't want#and so she took drastic action. like maybe it was overkill but i Get it i Understand#terry for sure had to die. i Understand though why she killed valerie why she tried to kill diego why she killed doug#why she tried to kill phoenix. like you haveeee to remember that for the majority of the things that happened to her#she was a teenager! coming from an abusive family and trying to get away from that!#and again bttt is an entirely different situation and i understand that. but the fawles debacle? another game entirely#and one i completely understand her actions in
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So funny that i find myself w less and less new music to discover compared to what i was finding in my teen years, and i am like 98% sure its bc i havent watched frag videos or amvs in over a decade 😭
#chattin#like nearly 60% of my songs are from my ipod.#my IPOD#hundreds of songs i found from watching High Art from before 2012#i have songs from last fm that literally do not exist ANYWHERE anymore. like i gotta make an effort to upload some of these for ppl#whereas most of my newly discovered songs are from artists i found prior to 2012 (and theyre still making music)#artists adjacent to THOSE artists#video game music#and artists related to that music#so im not like. exposed to completely mew and untethered music yanno?#mew……i meant NEW 😭#that one insane uno video had a really REALLY good song and i have no idea if it was made for the video or if it exists on ytube or bandcamp#and i absolutely count that as an amv lmao#i think its bc i dont play games that would make for good frags anymore like ovw and halo#and i dont watch anime anymore so i havent tried to watch amvs#like. there was a really good mp100 one but i wasnt invested enough to look for more 😭#maybe i should ask my sister for some jjk amvs….theres lots of fighting in that one right? i think that would help#u have no idea what people deem a good song for amvs and thats what makes them so fun; i love knowing what people listen to#oh i just realized; i think i am showing my age; do ppl even call it frags anymore???#is it an amv or a fancam?? or something else…i also dont use tiktok so im unsure of the terms there too…
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they're borrowing each other's fits! taion might feel a bit too nude, though....
#i love taionnnnn i love him so much hes so mecore. He's such a cute lil' guy nd hes so silly in his own way#so when i saw. the fit. well. yanno#ANYWAYS can I just say how FUN the roguelite is. its RLLY hard though i cant let myself put taion into the Fit tm until i get everyone's#BUT NOAH AND MIO'S IS SO SO SO HARD GOD. ITS SO HARD#its rlly fun though i played it all night between doing hero ascension quests and side stories!#i also need to work on the dlc heroes i dont even have them unlocked yet cuz theres just so much to do in game!#but yeah. jsut a silly doodle of my fav xenoblade guys swapping fits as is needed#has anyone else noticed that taion has chokers in both of his dlc fits? why's that I wonder#now i gotta make one that matches his swim one though. eheheeh#i wonder if he tries the jin fit on n eunie like. just full force jabs him. weak point exposed#jin (xbc2)#taion (xbc3)#xenoblade chronicles 3#xenoblade 3
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Poppy Playtime chapter 3 was rlly somthing omg
The first two chapters were great and fun to play but chapter 3 is genuinely terrifying. Miss delight- hated her, daydog- I got chills seeing him in the prison cell, CatNap- really interesting but scary
And don't even get me started on the Hour of Joy and the big bodies initiative. Like the first 2 chapters made it seem like it just be another mascot scary game, but no it took such a dark turn and I'm lovinggg it.
#the big bodies genuinly made me squirm#like yeah when u get to the playcare its like ok they expirimented on kids#but no its acaully worse then just exposing them to the red gas#some of the kids actually got adopted#and the 'lucky' few got chosen for experiments#not only did they tear out their brains and nervous systems and put them in the smiling critters#they actualy forced the smiling critters to interact with the other kids#who used to be their friends#and then the hour of joy omg#like the name is just scary#i cant rlly blame the smiling critters for being easily influenced into reveng#like they are kids that were hurt#was the prototype just using them? probably#i like how theres not really a clear 'good side' in the game#bcs a lot of the workers didnt even know what went on behind the scene s#and just thought they were helping the kids#i do find it interesting how catnap always tried to keep the kids safe even during the hour of joy tho#ill stop rambling now lol#poppy speaks#poppy playtime chapter 3
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the amount of things my brain has inserted hualian into at this point is astounding. tloz. pmmm. ffx. the epic of gilgamesh. More
#in pmmmverse hua cheng is some kind of fucked up sapient witch amalgamation.#also jun wu is kyubey ahahahahaha#in my final fantasy ten brainworld the story gets more changed up than pmmm bc in pmmm is very easy to draw the madoka-xl homura-hc paralle#but anyways hong'er volunteers to be a guardian for summoner princelian's pilgrimage and eventually winds up#becoming a fayth & princelians final aeon; only; something goes very wrong at the last second and xl is not able to go up against sin#his other guardians mu qing and feng xin leave him too:) and in the end he has nothing but hong'ers petrified body and a broken destiny#i want hc to fuse with sin like jecht does in the original game but since xl doesnt fight sin his final aeon never gets summoned to do that#but honestly its in character for hc to defy reason and the laws of reality for his god anyways so#hong'er gets so upset at witnessing his princes fall from grace from beyond the veil he implodes and half summons himself<3#only he looses it a little and ends up exploding the ruins of zanarkand and most of everything else around him and himself#when he tries to rip sin and/or jun wu into little shreds#get it. like the birth of wu ming#anyways in the resulting destruction xianle is presumed dead oh no:( jun wu escapes injured and is like#oh no!!! the battle with sin was fierce.... its so sad that xie lian died and also failed to defeat it.... that was crazy aha anyways#xie lian swears off summoning for a very very long time after that. hes busy roaming the countryside and pretending to cope mostly#he keeps hong'ers stone tablet with him. hong'er/wu ming/hua cheng was never truly summoned and so he sleeps too for a very long time#mmmmmm#i dont have the attention span to type out what happens after that right now but tldr xie lian returns to make a second pilgrimage#and exposes jun wu fuckery AND kills sin once and for all with his bizarre fucked up huge aeon he seems to be able to talk to#final fantasy ten isnt very popular so this probably isnt very comprehensible without context#but thats ok#its for me anyways
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#i joke about it and all but like. i cannot emphasize enough what an impact it had on me to be uhhhhhb#micro-institutionalized in the way that i was for the first 14 years if my life#and i am honestly going to count the time i soent in ''elementary'' school bc it wasn't a normal school. it was a charter school#that began as a parent organized alternative and swiftly devolved into an authoritarian nightmare#a bunch of people who were simply not ready to educate children let alone ''problem'' children#of which there were MANY because that school got all the kids who had been turned out of public school for behavioral issues#there were hardline rules about literally everything. normal childhood behavior was pathologized and punished and as a kid#you had no way to understand WHY#and so many of your peers were having problems because ofc those ''problem'' kids were typically severely traumatized#or were actively being abused#so even if it wasn't happening TO you you were being exposed to it in a hundred little ways every day#so i was confused and miserable all the time AND was struggling academically bc i had undiagnosed adhd#(or possibly just trauma?? i honestly neither know nor care which came first at this point)#so my mom pulled me and my brother out. him at 11 and me at 6 and said ''i'll just do it myself'' and#raised us in a way that wasn't religious but resembled evangelical or lds stuff#i couldn't watch commercial tv or listen to popular music bc my parents didn't want me exposed to what they considered inappropriate#and while i still had extracurriculars i was always the odd one out bc i had no exposure to pop culture or normal socialization#for my age group#it resulted in me always feeling alone and like i didn't belong. and since most of my social life was my parents and their friends#that was the perfect soup for adultification#i was fine with adults. put me with my peers and i was a mess#it made the transition to high school incredibly difficult but i DID make it#but that was only 4 years still in an institution. everything began to unravel once i tried to move into anything resembling ''real life''#and then my dad's suicide which was a major trauma in early adulthood which only made my mom's grip on us tighten#i did get to START life until 26. not really. and it's just been a game of catch up for the last 5 years#and im so *angry* at the unfairness of it all. at the time and experience and milestones that were taken from me. at how i blamed myself#for it for so many years and the problems i developed because of it all. dissociation and substance abuse and suicidality#the fear that still has a death grip on me#the courage required to just exist#it's *exhausting*
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5 songs you associate with / remind you of your muse
it's alright - mother mother
i had a night, i had a day i did one million stupid things i said one billion foolish things i'm not okay i got a baseball bat beside my bed to fight off what inside my head to fight off what's behind my meds i'm lonely, lost in pain it's alright, it's okay, it's alright, it's okay you're not monster, just a human and you made a few mistakes
fire - bts
hey, burn it up like you're gonna set everything on fire hey, turn it up until the dawn is gone just live because we're young who are you to compare me to others? i'm only human, so what live however you want, it's your life anyway stop trying, it's okay to lose err'body say, la-la-la-la-la say, la-la-la-la-la throw your hands up, scream, burn it up
young and menace - fall out boy
we've gone way too fast for way too long and we were never supposed to make it half this far and i lived so much life, lived so much life i think that god is gonna have to kill me twice kill me twice like my name was nikki sixx i woke up in my shoes again, but somewhere you exist singing oops, i did it again i forgot what I was losing my mind about i only wrote this down to make you press rewind and send a message, i was young and a menace
cut deep - matt maeson
i'm about to cause a damn ruckus how you bleed when you bleed nothing? how you sing when you can't trust 'em? ah, jesus, please, let me feel something that's why i hate to be alone that's why i don't pick up the phone i just keep moving 'til i'm numb we're all just tryna see the sun cut deep and i'm still alive i talk my shit 'til the day i die 'cause oh, baby, i live oh, baby, i try
one of the drunks - panic! at the disco
orange juice, pour out half the carton grey goose, pour it, get it started good times, remedy your sorrows baptize, don't worry about tomorrow shake it up, shake it up, now it's time to dive in share a cup, share a cup, now you're screw-driving every weekend with your friends every weekday when it ends damn it's all good, i guess
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#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ dash meme.#i have such a love hate relationship with music association dash games#mostly bc it exposes how little variety i listen to lmfao#but i tried to recycle fewer songs this time!!! and i had two new additions thanks to spacy which helped a lot#anyway fight me but fire is SUCH a byan song literally fight me do it
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I saw something on twitter
Arabs: This is orientalist
Idiot white incels who barely step into the sun and thus do not understand how it works: no it isnt because if u wear too much clothing in the desert your brains will melt
Arabs: you will literally die of heatstroke if you wear these clothes in the desert
Idiot Incel who can’t fathom how heat works: actually that’s orientalist to think that all women wear full clothing
This person has negative braincells if you interact with them you lose your own braincells. If you just searched what people wear in the desert no one is wearing a fucking crop top and a thin skirt with slits on all sides like shut the fuck up??? The people who literally live there are telling you’re wrong and because you don’t like it when other people ruin your stupid sexual fantasies you get butt hurt about it and try to defend it when you have no leg to stand on.
then later on a guy from brazil started supporting this incel by saying oh its not orientalist because these aren’t african characters these are just belly dancers and then they continue to feed into each other and its actually so painful to see.
#genshin impact exposing racism by feeding into it#lovely#after baizhu arrives im dropping this game honestly#if they dont release him im still going to drop the game#i hate the fandom a lot of the time#come to twitter to look at the artists i follow but you can't escape racism#although in here someone tried to tell me not to feel bad about how what a character said made me feel and i was just like yo#stop#and i think they blocked me so thats nice
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Enneagram Types
Tyᴩᴇ 1 - Tʜᴇ Rᴇꜰᴏʀᴍᴇʀ Perfectionists, responsible, fixated on improvement.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀People of this personality type are essentially looking to make things better, as they think nothing is ever quite good enough. This makes them perfectionists who desire to reform and improve; idealists who strive to make order out of the omnipresent chaos.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀Ones have a fine eye for detail. They are always aware of the flaws in themselves, others and the situations in which they find themselves. This triggers their need to improve, which can be beneficial for all concerned, but which can also prove to be burdensome to both the One and those who are on the receiving end of the One's reform efforts.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀The One's inability to achieve the perfection they desire feeds their feelings of guilt for having fallen short, and fuels their incipient anger against an imperfect world. Ones, however, tend to feel guilty about their anger. Anger is a "bad" emotion, and Ones strive sincerely and wholeheartedly to be "good." Anger is therefore vigorously repressed from consciousness, bursting forth in occasional fits of temper, but usually manifesting in one of its many less obvious permutations - impatience, frustration, annoyance and judgmental criticality. For this reason, Ones can be difficult to live with, but, on the high side, they tend to be loyal, responsible and capable partners and friends.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀Ones are serious people; they tend to be highly principled, competent and uncompromising. They follow the rules and expect others to do so as well. Because they believe so thoroughly in their convictions, they are often excellent leaders who can inspire those who follow them with their own vision of excellence. Reform movements are frequently spearheaded by Ones.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀Ones are often driven and ambitious, and are sometimes workaholics. But whatever their professional involvement, they are definitely active, practical people who get things done. They are natural born organizers, listmakers who finish everything on the list, the last one to leave the office, the first one to return, industrious, reliable, honest and dutiful.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀The relentlessness of their pursuit of the ideal can make Ones tense people who have a hard time relaxing and who unnecessarily deny themselves many of the harmless pleasures of life. They tend to be emotionally repressed and uncomfortable with expressing tender feelings; they generally see emotionality as a sign of weakness and lack of control. They are seldom spontaneous. They have multiple interests and talents however; they are self-reliant and seldom run out of things to do.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀Ones are often intelligent and independent and can easily mistake themselves for Fives, but unlike Fives, Ones are primarily people of action, not thought. Ones tend to worry and are prone to anxiety and can sometimes mistype as Sixes, but they are far less affiliative than Sixes and their standards are not reached by seeking consensus with a group. Finally, the relentless pursuit of perfection can take its toll and lead to depression. At such times, a One can mistype as a Four. But Fours have a tendency towards self-indulgence whereas Ones are self-denying. Fours are emotionally expressive; Ones are emotionally constrained.
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#﹙⠀❄⠀⋮⠀ꜱᴜʙᴊᴇᴄᴛ:LIANG⠀»⠀ᴅᴇᴠᴇʟᴏᴩᴍᴇɴᴛ:HEADCANONS ! ﹚#��⠀☣⠀⋮⠀ʙʟᴏɢʜᴀᴢᴀʀᴅ ᴄᴏᴅᴇ:DASH GAMES ! ﹚#﹙⠀ long post ! ﹚#( NOW EXCUSE ME ~ )#( THIS MAN HAS BEEN PUBLICLY EXPOSED LADIES AND GENTLEMEN. )#( it's not even funny. )#( as I said to my friend D he has a personal hatred towards robots because os the clan's pursuit of a perfect soldier. )#( and it also translate on how he was severely judgmental when it came to his apprentice Frost. )#( but at the same time he just tried to mimic everything he's been told all his life. though it was still his fault to an extent. )#( also in the latest animated movie where he was very critical of himself and and actually felt guilty using his powers the ''wrong way'' )
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