#DONT LOOK AT ME LIEK THAT
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indirect continuation of this sun kiss drabble
you were being tailed for quite some time now.
you noticed by accident—a strange shadow in the corner of your eye as you made your way through the pizzaplex after hours for your nightly tasks. it was gone almost as soon as you'd turned your head to look at where it'd been. at first you figured you were just seeing things—maybe the shadows cast by the bright neon lights were playing tricks on you. maybe the late hours walking around the massive mall were making you tired.
but when you started to feel the prickle of your hairs standing straight—the burn of a gaze watching your every move—you realized exactly what you were dealing with. or rather, who.
"moon, why are you following me?" you sighed out sometime halfway through your shift, stopping in your trek to the arcade room to fix a few broken machines. hands placed on your hips, you looked up at the ceiling and tried to make out any odd shadows or faint gleams of metal. but when moon didn't want to be found, well... you could spend your entire night looking for him and you wouldn't be able to catch even the smallest of glimpses.
you waited patiently for a few moments, surveying around you in case he'd reveal himself. "moon, i know you're there." silence, complete and utter silence. you gave him another minute, then let out a huff. fine, if he wanted to mess with you tonight, whatever. it wasn't like you weren't used to it.
just as you took another step in the direction of the arcade, you heard it. the faintest, faintest jingle of a bell somewhere to your left. your head snapped in that direction, eyes moving from the polished floor of the pizzaplex to the darkest corners of the ceiling. there was a supply closet not too far from you, its door closed. you squinted at it suspiciously for a moment, then turned to make your way back t—
"boo."
you yelped—of course you fucking yelped—and swung at moon's upside-down face out of instinct more than anything. he was directly in front of you—nearly nose to nose in a way where you only really saw the redness of his eyes swallowing you whole. he dodged your punch easily, lifting himself up into the air with his wire so that your fist passed harmlessly under his dangling hat.
you exhaled harshly, your heart pounding away in your chest and your ears. it felt like you'd gotten the life sucked out of you. "you—!! gah! stop doing that!!" you huffed and straightened up to glare at him. you didn't think it was all too intimidating in his eyes.
he chuckled, a low thing that always made something in your gut feel strange, and said no more. only watched you from where he hung upside down in a pose reminiscent of a past spiderman movie. you eyed him, waiting to see if he'd say anything else. but when he didn't—his head clicking side to side ever so minutely—you frowned.
"what's wrong?" you asked bluntly. his head cocked to the left. "why have you been sulking around me all night?"
moon grumbled something indecipherable. "wasn't sulking."
"was too. what gives?" you pressed further, crossing your arms across your chest. he looked away, avoiding your gaze, and you knew something was bothering him. "you hadn't done that in a while. i thought we were past the 'stalking' part and on the, y'know, 'hanging out like friends do' part."
he only hummed shortly and turned his faceplate to look somewhere off to the side—at the door of the closed storage closet. your foot tapped against the smooth floor for a bit, waiting once more to see if he'd say anything. he didn't.
"moooon, c'mon use your big boy words." you approached him, popping back into his view so he wouldn't have any choice but to look at you. "i can't help you if you don't tell me what's wrong." your words were gentle like a soft, spring breeze.
there was the slightest flicker of his optics as he glanced at your face. then he made a low sound—a groan of sorts—and seemed to struggle with saying something. your patience knew no bounds, so you were willing to wait however long it took for him to spill those pesky feelings of his. but when he only fell silent once more, you decided that this wasn't going to go anywhere.
"okay, fine"—you threw up your hands and turned on your heel so you could return to your actual job—"you don't wanna tell me, that's fine. i'll just go back to—"
you barely got a few steps away before your words were cut off by the back of your shirt being tugged on. your head craned back just in time to see moon flip himself down from his wire—landing nimbly on his feet, quiet as a mouse. and then he was dragging you towards the supply closet.
"hey! moon what—" you were crowded into the closet with little flair, tripping and stumbling over yourself no thanks to moon's tight grip on your shirt. the door closed behind you with a small snap. and suddenly you were in darkness, illuminated only by the soft glow of moon's ruby eyes. you blinked widely in the hopes of getting your vision to adjust faster.
your foot accidentally kicked a bucket somewhere to your side, sending it rattling onto the floor. it was cramped in here, especially with moon's lanky figure pressing against your front. his hands gripped tightly along your upper arms. you could feel shelves stocked with cleaning supplies pressing uncomfortably into your back. there was hardly any room to move.
you felt small—overpowered. caged in with the only exit blocked off by an unrelenting robot.
you stared up at moon with what you hoped was a flat expression, his face and upper arms just barely visible to you in this absolute void of a closet. "what are you doing." it felt like you couldn't speak any louder than a whisper for fear of breaking something you could not see.
moon's gaze trailed over your face, cataloguing every feature, before it landed on— on.... your mouth suddenly felt like it was stuffed with cotton, dry and unpleasant.
"you..." he suddenly spoke up in a quiet, raspy murmur, leaning himself down further into your space. it allowed the strain on your neck to abate slightly. "you and sun..." you slowly nodded your head, maybe as a way to encourage him to continue when it was obvious how hesitation lined his voice. "...you gave him a kiss."
your heart picked up its pace, thrumming in your ears. you did give him one some time ago—saved only from his strange pestering when the daycare's lights had switched off and you were able to escape during his painful-sounding transformation into moon. you hadn't seen him since, too rattled by his intense insistence. it made you feel... weird. "i did. and?"
"i... would also like one." the words came out in a rush—like he was forcing them out in a hurried exile.
something burned ferociously at the sides of your face and neck. you wondered if he could hear how erratic your pulse was. you hoped not.
"is that why you forced us into this dinky closet?" you whispered, refusing to let yourself sound anything but casual. like his request wasn't causing something torrential to swarm around in the pit of your stomach. you were suddenly reminded that their dual A.I.s allowed them both to see what was happening no matter who was in control. that moon had been watching sun demand a kiss from you before. and that sun was watching now.
you swallowed heavily and moon's gaze followed the bob of your throat in a manner that made you suppress a shiver.
"yes," was his simple, hushed reply. closer and closer, his face was but a hair's breadth away from your own.
your breaths bated. you closed your eyes for a short moment in a vain attempt to collect yourself. his request was simple. you didn't need to make a big deal out of it. it was just a kiss, and he was just a robot. it didn't mean anything. the words became a mantra in your head.
you exhaled, low and slow. "okay." an agreement that weighed more than you realized at that moment.
curiosity is not a sin, you reminded yourself. but yet— you were being forced to face something you knew would have repercussions. you only hoped it wouldn't be anything strong.
after bolstering yourself with as much courage as you could, you raised yourself up on your tiptoes to close that minute distance between you and moon. to press a gentle kiss to his forehead and hope that it would be enough for him.
but moon— moon had learned from sun.
and before you could realize what he was doing, he shifted himself forward in a rather fluid manner—towards you. so that your lips would land soundly in the middle of his static smile instead of where you'd intended. something leapt up in your chest.
you weren't sure what you'd expected. fireworks and confetti? the soft plushness of another person's lips pressing back against yours? had your mind been tricked into thinking it would be something familiar with his facsimile of a mouth? but no, there was just the cool solidness of a metallic smile. it was like kissing a wall—immovable and unyielding.
and yet... and yet it wasn't.
for the grip moon had on you was tight. tight tight tight. unwilling to let you go. his hands had shifted so that one pressed hotly (hotly? your hazy mind registered distantly) against the small of your back while the other wrapped around your shoulders. and he held you so fervently. like he could press you into him and meld you both into one. like he was scared to ever let you go.
and that was enough, you think, as you lose yourself not to a kiss, but to a hold. that was enough.
#if it wasnt obvious im placing a lot. more weight on the fact that theyre robots lmao#creates sum good fckin drama YUM#dca x reader#daycare attendant x reader#moon x reader#fnaf moon x reader#fnaf moon x y/n#moon x y/n#moon x self insert#damn this wouldve gone crazy with liek 20k of buildup#if u see me reusing some of these lines in a future wip... no u dont#i went crazy#moondrop x reader#moondrop x y/n#some#sun x reader#if u squint#shay scribbles daydreams#fnaf dca x reader#no one look at me#mounty look away#dca x y/n
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best work friends forever
#inside job#reagan ridley#brett hand#admin draws#fanart#hey so remember that wip i posted months ago that got WAY more attention than i ever thought it woukd#yeah i finally finished it#dont mind the bg i just got Tired and wanted to be done with it and making it look liek the screenshot wasnt working#trust me i tried#anyways i got over my bitterness over this show being cancelled and finally put down the final touches#brettsties youll be forever famous. in my heart </3
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it genuinely kills me very slowly to think that some people can only ever think of jack as the destiel kid and not like an actual person with a myriad of maladjustments or silly funny personality quirks. like he has a whole special red and white fleece lined Christmas jacket and is canonically acknowledged as looking like a stupid hot white boy without any thoughts behind his eyes. He killed a whole fucking archangel and then decided that he really wanted to try making some friends like a week later. they wanna be normal and nice so bad and pretend to be some normal small town boy next door all the time but they were literally so angry once that it took three gunshots fired in the back to make him calm and reasonable.
he stress eats and stays in their room for weeks on end when they’re depressed or upset. they line their shoes up and fold their shirts and wear bright yellow vans and red hi-tops. he’s narratively paralleled to Anakin but his favorite character is Ahsoka. he pretended to be a coke addict and pretended to be a pretty new boy next door again to flirt with a hopelessly romantic girl. women want him and he’s absolutely clueless about it. women and men and probably fish fear him too. he dresses like a combination between an elderly man and a 70’s sitcom hippie. he was literally called Bieber and Suite Life. they like stripe patterns and Hawaiian pizza and movies and computers.
they’re literally an autistic person who just explodes shit when they get overstimulated. They watch riverdale and constantly sweep their hair back in a specific stylistic choice bc he likes looking like that. he fucking decapitated a whole Gorgon and then stole the guy’s snake as a trophy. he says shut up when he’s mad and calls things stupid and says they suck. he’s a teenage girl. he’s. A Teenage boy. He’s non-binary. He sat on the throne of god in grass stained jeans and clunky grandpa sneakers and left it all behind without even blinking as soon as his shitty bunker home called out to him. He sticks his tongue out when he’s focused on something and his left eye pulls up into a squint when he smiles reallt wide and his smile is crooked and he has sleepy eyelids . They decided to defy death herself just to rescue someone he mildly remembered caring about once and then blackmailed a reaper into helping with said rescue plan.
He got turned into the tiniest ugliest dog ever and got a thermometer shoved up his ass in the same episode where he’s narratively symbolized by the ouroboros symbol and makes the deliberate choice of destroying his soul just to selfishly keep his family bc he legitimately cannot handle thinking about losing them without going insane. his nicknames are sweetheart and darling boy and pal and buddy and Jackie Boy and slugger and he apologized to a girl for upsetting her like two episodes after ripping a man’s heart out and eating it raw. He literally actively wants to be a silly little guy that everyone likes but he’s so insane and unwell at the same time. he’s the best character ever and I need the entire world to understand this and to see him as more than just the destiel baby or I will also explode. .
#okay gn I have a teeth cleaning thing tomorrow#that’s enough word salad from me I’m just being autistic and gushing about how much I love jack#spn#jack kline#supernatural#he smiled while he killed Michael too….dont even get me started on what he did with Nick …. god he’s so#he’s so ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#literally the character of all fucking time I will not be arguing about this I love him so much#jackposting#spn fandom#I’m . Augh .#having emotions sorry gang#liek yes yes we get it he looks like them both can you say something else please#he’s like . a fully functioning person with thoughts and development btw. if you even care#he’s so cool and awesome and silly#category 7 autism event#jack spn#destiel#but only briefly
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deep in the kingdom hearts trenches..
#beep boop you want fries with that#kingdom hearts#vexen#lexaeus#riku#ansem#i wanna draw lexaeus more but HIS HAIR IS GD NIGHTMARE#on the topic of lexaeus ik he doesnt raise his voice often but i made him do it for the bit. can you forgive me#btw vexen owes like. 50000 munny.#ALSO. riku-ansem. i liek in kh1 when ansem acts liek a gd FREAK in his body like sir WHAT ArE YOU DOING.#he does the exact same mannerisms and everything liek wooahh i love the attention to detail in kh and kh1 specifically.#guys did you know it took ppl many years to realize you can freeze the stove in trickmasters fight to make it easier wooaaahh#unfortunately riku-ansem in kh2 doesnt really have riku’s mannerisms reflected in ansem’s body which. sads#that wouldve been cutes.#the only time i cant think of that happening was when riku appeared hooded in front of sora in the mulan world#teh little gesture he does. and sora is liek. that must be him the only guy who does that is riku#but liek. the gesture is cute and awesome but riku’s expressions dont show up on ansem’s face sadly.#if you think he did then you are probably thinking of the manga. or theres a scene i havent seen yet#bc my kh2 knowledge is sloppy (LOL DAYS REFERENCE) due to me not having played the game when i was young#i only wwatched a cutscene comp when i was little#and memes. lots of meme videos#also hey can we all look at riku’s deranged smile when he was going to hit sora with the keyblade of the heart#FRANKLY ADORABLE.
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what if fnf was awesome
#im back on my fnf shit bc of the news LMFAOOO#i havent been seriously into it for years so im very out of the loop........all i know is exe/creepypasta mods still reign supreme#17 bucks gives me hope that oc mods will get a resurgence tho#i can only hope#anyways ignore how they kinda dont look liek sackpeople im still learning..........#i tried using textures to make them look more like cloth/fabric but everything was ugly sorry#anyways TAG ATTACK#littlebigplanet#little big planet#lbp#lbp fanart#friday night funkin#fnf girlfriend#fnf bf#fnf fanart#fnf#☆ my art
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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WTF EVEN R ABS THEY R SO WEIRD
unrendered rrrrr ver ig lol cause its funny
heres the song i listen 2 4 the 4 hrs i worked on this skhfkf
#1 day ill make a ref of konnlike i sid w/bart#RAINBOWS WEEEEEE#CAN U TELL I HAVE NO IDEA WTF AM DOING??#also y tf do i draw sunblock on the nose liek??? Y?? I DONT REMEMBER WHEN I STARTED DOING IT 2#it kinda looks like a doe just a wee bit like the smallest resemblance#i ahve other things 2 draw but i had 2 draw scruff#DONT EVEN ASK ME WHATS GOING ON W/THE AHIR I DONT LIKE IT EITHER SJHFKFK#reminder that i need 2 look up referances especially 4 shading#uhmmm ill do it next time :D#kon el#dc#puppee art#most of the scruff went away bc i didnt render it in only over it lol dkjfof uhhhhhhhhhh#ignore ignore#Spotify
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Update this is how my bag looks like now yipeee 🥳
Closer look onto the badgeeees \>∆</ !! (android camera quality is total ass so sorry if uc snt see much 3:)
(Uhh credits to the awesome tfota and soc artists for this amazing fansrts 🤯 idk theres like too many fansrts form diffrent artidt on this back so yh 🗣️ )
#six of crows#soc#crooked kingdom#jesper fahey#inej ghafa#kaz brekker#nina zenik#wylan van eck#matthias helvar#kanej#wesper#helnik#the cruel prince#the folk of the air#jude duarte#cardan greenbriar#madoc duarte (hes actually there if u squint a bit :3)#mindless self indulgence#<- i dont support msi bte judt their music is awesome sauce 🤯#this looks so unbelievably overwhelming ☹️ /pos#like not a single inch of the surface being seen oml 😭😭#anwyays it kinda took me liek two hours to do this but thats ookk#thank you so much six of crows and tfota artists#once again they serve with this delicious fanart!!!#i love this backpack it like brings character depth 😜#now everytimy i look at it i cna just see kanej doing eye contact and thats rlly special to me#ok bye
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this is what it feels like to get into a ship then looking it up on ao3
#dude when i first got into gakuyuuma#(which was liek. 6 years ago)#I looked it up on AO3 andlike#there were 2 fics uploaded in 2015#and they were like poly with kaito#i was like oh okay! nice cool#but then#i looked it up again#what the fuck#ok actually genuinely what the fuck#and dont even get me started#on vy2/kaito#STOP#PLEASE#text post#pocket talks
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I know im a baby and just want my game play to be Easy Peasy Lemon Squeazy, but when i see people asking to make w101 content harder i simply want to pass away
#oki says a thing#like the whole reason i got SO into it as a kid was bcos its was so easy to understand. buff a decent bit. hit. some schools hit better tha#others. some can tank. some heal. all mobs/bosses work similar to players#when they added cheating bossess.... mad eme sad. like UAGH idk whats going on#i hated having to look up and learn all the different stuff. like it all made sense before. now idk whats going on half the time if im#ighting a boss#thats just me tho. also i dont liek when high lvl players get mad idk what im doing#like girl i dont!! i dont know!! i here for the story not the gameplay oTL#anywho. my two cents
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Day 51: shdou
#daily shidou#milgram#i drew this at a cat cafe#i dont rlly liek it#bc i derw it at a weird angle#oh well#i showed it to my mom and she said 'oh he looks likes he's smilign a little this time'#i infodumped to her about shidou last time i drew him on paper#idk how she feels about me being obsessed w a depressed 29 year old man
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Is that character gay? *points at Mine*
Allegedly.
#snap chats#depends on what day you check the wiki. schrodinger's homosexual#i couldnt FATHOM showing mine to my mom i know she'd be so annoying 😭😭😭#actually i cant even imagine what'd happen. 'is he gay' 'yeah' 'oh-' LIKE WHAT. WHAT NOW MOTHER WHAT HAVE YOU SAY TO THAT#like i think my mom asks that so much as a cope for my existence when i dont even like men mom As Per Usual mother you got it wrong#she's so weird because her. 'best work friend(? boss?)' is gay so she doesnt care about gay people she just doesnt like. me LMAO#but my moms selective hating aside i do wish i could show her characters i like#not because i want to bond with her but because it always seems funny when everyone else does it with their parents#but id just be too embarrassed ... or i can just imagine her saying like. every other chara is scary lookin. or ugly. liek my grandma did 💀#my sisters keep telling me to show her daigo since they think he looks like our dad and im always tempted to#god wait that just reminds me how when i did a daigo cosplay last year my dad saw me and he was like 'you're like a mini me :)'#like .... cmon dawg youre not helping LCKAEJLKCJAE love him. hope to see him again soon <- literally just saw him#wait while im rambling my dad came over and our 'uncle' (no actual relation just dad's friend) gave us. 12 fucking bottles of wine#when no one in this house drinks enough to warrant TWELVE BOTTLES ?? so funny. at least my sis and her husband drink#and i have one (1) friend who drinks LOL so thats cute. do i have any other unnecessary lore bits to drop before i disappear for a week#our ac broke and its been hot as balls. yeah thats it thats the end of it see you guys next week
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Remembering the toxic hellscape that was 2015-2019ish SU fandom and just how much hate the show got is really insane when you rewatch the show after it's been a while. Like the show is good what the hell were any of these people talking about
#do NOT quote me on those numbers i pulled them straight out of my ass#like the ending was rushed and the diamonds didnt get to be fully developed but liek#the whole reason that was the case is there was an entire 6th season planned#and then the show got axed early because rebecca sugar and crew refused the back down on the rupphire wedding.#and even rushedness aside like the point of the show was never that you should hug fascists and forgive people no matter what#the diamond were rose's (and his) dysfunctional family whose personal suffering became the basis for the cruelty of gem society#bismuth in The Real World would have been right to want to kill the diamonds as a force of revolution#but the point of the show is that even the most complicated people are still people who can change. even if you dont forgive them#even steven quartz universe the most loving boy in the world very obviously does not like being around the diamonds. but that is how it is#it was a children's show that emphasized compassion and communication and family as themes. of course steven didnt kill the diamonds lol#i really fully believe the stevenbomb format (which was not the crew's choice or fault) cooked peoples' brains#you had months between major arcs so every wrongdoing by a character had months to be warped and misinterpreted and so no resolution could#ever satisfy fans who were festering with their own opinions for way too long#like these arcs looking back are not that long and they resolve in fairly reasonable manners but they took fuckin forever in real time to#wrap up#and ppl on the internet with no other hobbies than arguing made the fandom suck to be in and gave su a bad name#even if you dont like steven universe i think the amount of vitriol thrown at the show is/was fucking INSANE for what it is lmaooo#people were so so jolly to accuse rebecca sugar (a jewish lady) of being a fascist/fash sympathizer and paint every writing shortcoming or#morally dubious character action as a sign of pure fuckin evil#ok that was a long ass fuckin rant in the tags i am so sorry i'm just kind of opinionated on this matter as i am all matters#i've been rewatching su with my dad lately and this very normal and well paced and fun watchthrough experience has been illuminating#just how insane and uncalled for the hellish discourse sphere around su was/is#i say was/is i have no idea what su discourse is like nowadays. i'm too scareds to look in the su crit tag
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guys I can't take it anymore I like her so MUCH i just wanna LOOK AT HER and BE WITH HER and I just thinka bout KISSING her bcs she's SO GODDAMN PRETTY and I just can't stop LOVING HER but at the same time I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO THAT do you see my problem
#ah.. the struggles of a queer middle schooler#the horrors#STOP ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY ANYMORE#look at my search history its the most lame ass shit liek#how to kiss girl wikiHow#I CAN'T#UGH#WHY#rant#vent#lesbian#i kidna dont wnat anybody ti see this#gay#i just watched but im a cheerleader and shes so me shes so me frrr frfr#AAAAAAAAAHH#google how do i initiate a kiss#wikihow tutorial save me#wikihow tutorial#save me wikihow tutorial#thinking about throwing up maybe idk#at this point im just going to use tumblr as a diary actually#fuck digital footprints#i want 40 year old me to look back at my tumblr page and see the desperation of a pathetic little lesbian boy#idc anymore#shes my roman empire#she fell first i fell harder i think#right person wrong time#or whatever#james yapping sessions
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would love if people would be normal about tourettes
#the bin#of qll my disabilities tourettes is the one i have the most to say about. and its the one i deal with the most social bullshit from#i hate how people treat me not ticcing like its a good thing. its good for you. for me its miserable.#and how they feel entitled to the knowledge of how my tics have been#i hate so much when ill do something very strange or disruptive and immediately get asked if i ever did that at work#every conversation about it feels like im being made fun of or looked at like something so other#its either treated like a nuisance to others. a source if entertainment. or like a horrible curse i have thats bad because of the social#impact it has and others treating me bad. insulting pity. they treat it so different to all my other disabilities#the other ones are treated like a quirk of the body that sucks. like how people i know talk about their own pain#but pain caused by tics is different. people talk wbout it not like a disability but like a magic curse#and no matter how much i ask for it to be ignored by others they refuse. they act like theyre helping me by asking me wbout it#or giving commentary qbout it when i tic. leawve me alone. you treat it liek a tragety because i have to live with such a visable thing#that others dont understand and deal with weird looks and commentary. and then give me weird looks and commentary#i hate it. tourettes itself kinda sucks bc tics are physically unpleasant but its tolerable. thats just how my kife is#what isnt tolerable is howw people act about it. nobody in my family is normal wbout it. after iw was diagnosed its like they all saw me as#a different person. ugh
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i begam a rottmnt comic/tmnt 2018 and i dont know why
#i an suffering#its 3 am#soeone save me#tmnt 2018#rottmnt#i have no idea where im going or what im doing#but i have 5 panels of a fancy rename of 'star travel' bc i like the fancy words#it looks liek crap#but i dont care
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