#Cuz it was painful for me too

[barghest-land]

drawings from paleo expedition to dagestan, done right on the trip. sometimes messy when it was cold and rainy, but i won't correct it. i think it's cool to leave it just the way it was done, and not retouch it after. there will be more drawings later, but those will be done from home

[temeyes]

not feeling too well today, so just some quick busts for now

[casualavocados]

"Who is Ai Di to you?"

Nat Chen as CHEN YI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)

[livrere-green]

honestly edwin's obliviousness about what was happening to charles is something I could talk about for ages.

there's so many sides to it, first the fact that it could be just edwin's autism showing cuz he couldn't see through charles' façade and in the other hand charles was.not making it easy, he was trying really hard not to let a single thing filter because he had to be the kind one, the happy one.

but im sure edwin never actually demanded that from him in the first place, but the truth is that charles doesn't need someone expressing that demand to him directly, why? because he's an abused child, he is still afraid and angry, and above all, he is hurt and of course, he is trying to hold on to the little peace he has with edwin, and he's trying to be strong, not to be a burden; and that means avoiding conflict, avoiding hard conversations, or even facing his own emotions cause perhaps the pain is going to be too much for him to handle it in silence.

also, let's remember that edwin comes from a time in which men were not used to really talk about their emotions (and honestly even now most men are not taught how to do that); lato sensu, for him, friendships rarely revolve around talking about what's truly hurting him or the other person involved (not that edwin had many friends when he was alive), add to the mixture his natural difficulty to deal with feelings and the fact they always had something else to distract themselves with...

and there you have:

thirty years of overlooking your best friend's trauma.

[aria0fgold]

With a glass body

You bear the weight of the world

Praying for safety

[pepperpixel]

Yadda yadda yadda jinx is generally seen as a loose canon, does whatever she wants type of character, totally unpredictable. When in actuality, up until the last few episodes all of her choices and actions r motivated by wanting to please someone else. Hell. Even in the last couple episodes, the very Last thing we see her doing is ENTIRELY MOTIVATED by devotion and love and grief for silco, she’s taking out her frustration at herself and the world, and also honoring his wishes and dreams. By shooting a fucking bomb at piltover, she’s ensuring his life wasn’t in vain, she’s honoring him. In that moment

Her entire, self!!! is centered around love and loyalty. Is centered around other people, She’s motivated by an insatiable urge to prove herself, to be useful to those she loves, to show that she can help them and be there for them and be WORTHY of there love. That they haven’t made a mistake in loving her. To prove that she can be as pivotal to them as they r for her. She goes to the ends of the fucking earth to do this. And it ends. Terribly.

She puts the people she loves on pedestals and supplicates at there feet, she has no motivations most of the show outside of making the people she loves happy… she yearns for connection and love and safety. For a home that will never leave her behind, or crumble under her feet, (an indestructible home, That she can’t destroy just by being her…)

Which is why.. it’s so. Interesting and intriguing. How now, she has no one on that pedestal to worship, no one to drag sacrifices and offerings to the feet of, no one to spiral around and build herself off of. She is a person so *affected* by her relationships w others, but there is no relationship now, no one is stepping up to the plate to love her. She’s too much. For anyone. The one person who seemed to have unlimited patience for her is dead, because of her. and maybe vi could still love her.. but. She’s already soured that relationship. Already broken that one too. Broken all her favorite toys that made her so happy. That were there for her. And scared all the rest away. (There is a limit to what vi can support and forgive to reconnect w her sister. And I believe terrorism is crossing that limit ghgh)

And maybe, jinx is cutting that part of herself out on purpose. To be stronger, she’s realized she just. Isn’t made for love. That she ruins it all in the end. That it just makes everything worse. Messier. More complicated. She’s better off on her own, but for what PURPOSE! Who will she be now! What choices will she make!?! Almost all of her actions in the show were for others, what is driving her now, now that she has this gaping void at the center of her being. Where love used to be… what kind of person will she become, Without a guide to follow… a sun to orbit around. it’s sad honestly ghghg-!!! like yeah it’s not healthy that she is this way but there’s no THERAPY IN ARCANE. THIS IS THE WAY SHE IS! And now. She’s alone… it’s rough. But also intriguing…!! And I honestly have no clue how she’s gonna act in season 2,,, or what sorta shit she’s gonna get up to. but I’m excited.

[0xeyedaisy]

It seems I have lost all of my art on my computer. Very unfortunate

[ivycrownedpanther]

🍇💘 happy rural dionysia! 💘🍇

This is my altar for today! Theres a candle for Dionysus in the middle (back), bracelet I made for him on the left, fluorite hearts carving on the right, and a peen shaped cookie in the middle (front)

As for dionysia activities, today I’ve prayed to him and accidentally fell asleep, made sugar cookies (with vanilla frosting & sprinkles), read hymns, prayed again, and now I’m probably gonna play some video games and maybe later watch a movie :3

[britcision]

Regular reminder that sudden and severe weight loss is a pretty serious sign that something is very, very wrong

[vehemourn]

born wicked

[b0tster]

non-animal leather is actually worse for the environment. Since animal leather generally comes from animals that also bring other products (meat, milk, etc), the enviromental impact of leather as a single product is much lower than the alternative. n-a leather is most commonly made up from plastics like pvc and has to be fully constructed. So it's per product more energy intensive and even aside from that has a longer negative impact due to micro plastics. I hate that it's like this. I want lab meat and sustainably created envo-positive leather and lab cheese that tastes good :(

like i said in the previous post im not doing this for environmental reasons. us individuals reducing our carbon footprint isnt going to do shit because an astronomical percentage of the carbon footprint can be traced to like 100 corporations. going vegan to save the world isnt it, and judging vegans because of that is silly. im not doing this to be a beacon of morality. i just dont like animal cruelty.

[casualavocados]

I asked myself why I failed to notice. It was the first time we'd been apart that long. I found the birthday gifts you prepared for me in my room, from my 18th to my 21st. ...Shut up. I started to think about what you were doing back then. Were you celebrating my birthday all by yourself?

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 12

[cali]

darkraiiiiii

[sh1-n0bu]

woke up at nearly 3am in hot sweat and pain that nearly made me scream out loud cuz of my period cramps and now i cant go back to sleep unless the painkillers kicks in and im spending these awake minutes wishing endometriosis on the bitch who told me that im being dramatic and haven’t experienced real pain bc i havent gotten pregnant yet

[toji-bunny-girl]

genuinely shitting and crying and screaming and throwing up at the intimacy and affection Gojo and Getou share (either yall see it platonically or romantically) only for it to end right in front of Gojo. that man just watched as his best friend spiralled into the dark and wasn’t able to stop him only to have to kill the closest soul in his life oh lord 😭😭😭

[contagious-watermelon]

it's a little patronizing sometimes the way people treat trans guys binding. i don't think we need to act like trans men are babies and insist they don't know how to be safe and that they'll drop dead if they pass the eight hour mark. honestly with all of this fearmongering even within trans circles, it feels more like they're trying to keep us from binding in any way possible