#cuz i think edwin falling in love with charles is anlther thing that has something to do with this

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honestly edwin's obliviousness about what was happening to charles is something I could talk about for ages.

there's so many sides to it, first the fact that it could be just edwin's autism showing cuz he couldn't see through charles' façade and in the other hand charles was.not making it easy, he was trying really hard not to let a single thing filter because he had to be the kind one, the happy one.

but im sure edwin never actually demanded that from him in the first place, but the truth is that charles doesn't need someone expressing that demand to him directly, why? because he's an abused child, he is still afraid and angry, and above all, he is hurt and of course, he is trying to hold on to the little peace he has with edwin, and he's trying to be strong, not to be a burden; and that means avoiding conflict, avoiding hard conversations, or even facing his own emotions cause perhaps the pain is going to be too much for him to handle it in silence.

also, let's remember that edwin comes from a time in which men were not used to really talk about their emotions (and honestly even now most men are not taught how to do that); lato sensu, for him, friendships rarely revolve around talking about what's truly hurting him or the other person involved (not that edwin had many friends when he was alive), add to the mixture his natural difficulty to deal with feelings and the fact they always had something else to distract themselves with...

and there you have:

thirty years of overlooking your best friend's trauma.