#Could save so many lives
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Happy tdov to fat trans people. 🏳️⚧️ Biggest thing that helped me as a trans kid was seeing older fat trans people. There were a lot of really irritating "advice" posts going around early in my time on the internet with a lot of misinformation in them, but one that I constantly saw (in addition to people claiming you should wear your pants rediculously low or only wear button ups) were posts saying you had to lose weight to transition. Can confidently confirm that is completely untrue. 👍
#seal.txt#tdov#that 'sky and mike' image of the two old trans dudes hugging was one that I had saved to my phone as a trans teen#and i would look at it sometimes and just wonder how they had made it#idk its just nice knowing we live that long and its not a requirement to be skinnyin order to be respected and loved and get old#some of the old 'advice' posts i saw were really completely bizarre and a lot of them stick with me to this day in insecurities#this would have been 2016 ish tumblr so i know not that long ago but i would have been around 13 for reference#weird that i remember so many of the things i read back then. i could probably fill a post with things i was misinformed on due to Tumblr#specifically tumblrs run by people that i didnt really have the knowledge or awareness to understand probably didnt have my best interests#like 'trans rights ' blogs i would follow and not notice until much later were quite the opposite#this is the consequence of viewing social media before i knew all the secret codewords and my brain was much less developed than it is now
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
the way katsuki just IS izuku's first love drives me nutty. like he just had a big ole crush on him with his huge-ass heart eyes and he chased him around with maximum puppy-love smitten energy
#bkdk#bakudeku#izuku chasing after katsuki with the biggest wettest heartiest heart eyes ever and katsuki is like FUCKER IS LOOKING DOWN ON ME HOW DARE YO#like no bby so close he's down BAD for you i can see where there could be some confusion#it just drives me nutty!!! that's his pookie bear bitty baby boy#it just makes every other ship feel so irrelevant bc katsuki is izuku's first love and fiercest#like fr do we think izuku is getting over katsuki especially now#especially after all bakugou has done for him#how many times has bakugou saved him and in so many ways#my headcanon is that izuku's baby puppy love crush faded but never really died#it was always there#and then they're thrust into each other's lives and katsuki starts growing and training with him and izuku is like fuck fuck FUCK FUCK FUCK#and he just keeps falling for him over and over again#izuku sees him standing on the UA island and is like yeah ok i'm never getting over him he's it for me#he's always been it he's always been the one
474 notes
·
View notes
Text
jily.
jily but it’s james constantly asking lily out/hitting on her/being annoying up until their fifth year
jily but it’s lily thinking james is making fun of her and hating him for being so irritating up until their fifth year
jily but it’s james and lily agreeing to be friends by the end of fifth year, and james accepting that all he’ll be is lily’s friend and that’s more than enough for him
jily but it’s lily slowly falling in love with james throughout sixth year but refusing to admit it because she’s stubborn and never wanted to be with someone like him
jily but it’s james and lily becoming really good friends, finding out things about each other that no one else knows, learning to respect and understand each other, and just overall having so much sexual tension it’s embarrassing
jily but it’s lily initiating their first kiss by seventh year, finally accepting how she feels, but also terrified james doesn’t feel the same way
jily but when they do kiss, james is so excited and taken aback, and all lily wants to do is kiss him, but eventually james pulls away and insists that he’s going to do this right, that he’s going to take lily out on a date
jily but when they do go on their first date, it’s so lovely and wonderful and perfect and they both agree to take things slow, but by the end of the night have sex
jily but they act like parents to the rest of the marauders, and spend their seventh year in love and happy and healthy, lily cheering james on during his quidditch games, james making sure lily doesn’t push herself too hard when studying, both of them balancing the other out in a way others never can
jily but they have their fights and their rough moments, but overall choose to love each other and choose to be their for each other, no matter if there’s a war waging outside their home
jily. just. jily.
#love of my lives#i could talk about them all day#this is how their story plays out in my mind#there’s so many more details but i’ll save that for another time#jily#james potter#lily evans#7th year jily#marauders#marauders era#marauders thoughts
166 notes
·
View notes
Text
Might be a hot take as a bkdk and tgck truther here, but I find izuocha endlessly fascinating, beautiful, but also tearfully tragic.
I see their love for each other as something representative of their innocence and naivety when they only knew so little about who they were, and what was to come.
I think the main barrier of their relationship is that its rooted in how they see each other very idealistically, specifically that they're attached to the image of their Best Heroic Selves, and not the deeply selfish, destructive, freaky, and egotistical parts of them. To each other, they need to keep fulfilling that image or else that same person they looked up to would almost die in front of them, and that would be too cruel. Although that hero is still there, that same person they looked up to is not the same now because of...well...everything.
Izuku had barely even talked to girls when he first met her. She was Izuku's first ever real friend (Sorry Kats, everyone and him knows he was terrible), so he saved her in that entrance exam even if it was so dangerous. She gave a new meaning to his derogatory nickname just by being a friend that believed in him. After that, she saved him several more times (Blackwhip and Megaphone are the biggest samples iirc). It makes perfect sense that she is Deku's hero.
Ochako hardly knew what it meant to be a hero when she first got into UA. Just by reaching out to some kid tripping, she made a new friend who would then save her in that exam, then save him again in return. This boy then became someone who was always working so hard to save everyone in trouble, and she realized she wanted to be just like him too. "I want to save people"
But...Deku changes. The weight of One for All is on his shoulders and he needs someone to carry this burden with him. He continues to want to save other people at the expense of himself, still not letting his true selfishness and ego ever show- and it only grows more and more unbearable.
Then...Ochako fell in love with Himiko. Truly, relentlessly, selfishly and devotedly in love with a girl who then dies giving her blood to her- the greatest expression of love Himiko could ever give.
Not that they can't love each other because of this happening (and...so many other things oh god), I'm honestly not sure how to explain it- But them ending up together after losing that innocence and naivety? After Ochako will forever grieve the girl who showed her love in its most beautiful and ugly form? After Izuku changed so fundamentally as a person that the butterflies of a nice girl talking to you doesn't exist anymore? After that simple image of being a hero and being in love has completely changed for them both?
Even so, I believe they still love each other. There is no label I know of that can properly describe them though. They are each other's image of being a hero when it comes to saving people. Aside from Shoto, no one else can grasp the grief of the person you tried to save dying in your hands. They would no doubt try to cope with these losses together, and just try to get better together...but so much has changed. They've changed. The world changed. What are they now? Who are they now?
"What happened...to us?"
#I just think the tragedy of falling out of love for the person who represents who they Used to be is so...so painful#Kacchan isn't even here yet and it's already so complicated.#also. Izch healing together after all this would also be really nice#if u like them ending up together thats also perfectly fine too. im just a bkdk and tgck truther myself. thats kinda my whole thing#but izch forming a deep bond from their experiences and saving eachother#and maybe later on trying to date too...oh boy#and them being able to just...be more casual again. talk abt their lives and dreams together too just so they know they have each other#oh itd be so healing and beautiful#im so glad izuku talked to ochako on that cliff man oh man...#izuocha the underrated tragic love that they could've been if ppl werent so close minded abt them#only the real izch fans understand just how much these two actually mean to each other. god bless yall I swear even if I dont ship ship it#thank u to that person who wrote abt them being characters than run in parallel#that narrative structure for them is permanently in my brain. I love these two so much its no joke#my Extra hot take is that izch wouldve been treated better by the fandom if it was gay.#but we'd still agree on bkdk as the endgame after all that happened. maybe. idk this is a hypothetical.#if you switch ock and kats genders...this wouldve been a very different story and fandom. insane food for thought with this one.#ok thats my yap for the night oh god i have so many feelings about them...#evelynpr bnha#bnha#mha#my hero academia#izuocha#actually confidently putting this tag now. sorry for the angst you guys...and maybe being seen as a traitor#im a strong girl I could take on potential haters hahaha...#izuku midoriya#ochako uraraka
78 notes
·
View notes
Text
2023 year in review with hyunjin [it’s a wrap] 🎉
#hyunjin#skz#stray kids#*with hyune#they are not positioned as they came. i wanted to match him with the hyunpics 🥹#this is not nearly half of the shit they did this year#but a girl can only add so many pics.#2023 marking the year i could actually see u live too.. is crazy it’s so sosososo crazy and it still brings tears to my eyes#waited for it so much and for so long and it blew my expectations away 😣#i keep being so hooked on u year after year and it hasn’t changed at all this year too..#ig im just in this hyunjin shaped ride for life#ilu… i wish i could thank you personally for saving me every year 👍🫠#also happy new year to mutuals and all the other followers 💘 i love u and i appreciate u all and i hope#all the good an lovely things come#to your way in 2024 💖 let’s all assemble in europe when skz comes here heh#<- this is me manifesting.
353 notes
·
View notes
Text
DANNY MOTTA MADE A REACTION VIDEO REACTING TO DEAD BOY DETECTIVES!!
If you don't know who Danny is, he's a popular YouTuber who reacts to fun TV shows — I know him most from his series in which he reacted to Good Omens. He has a very large platform, so boosting videos like this will help a ton with introducing DBDA to a wider audience. Plus, he is incredibly funny and I thoroughly enjoyed watching his reaction, so go help the show out and watch his video!!
youtube
It is worth noting that he's only reacted to Episode 1 so far. But he has made it clear that he'll be sure to react to more if there is a demand for it. So please please please, go like, comment, and make the fandom heard!
#there were so many wonderful gems in this video#i think one of my favorite being when he said esther could ruin his life and he'd thank her for it 😭😭#realest statement ever#dead boy detectives#dbda#edwin payne#charles rowland#not-the-living-ghost#dead boy detective netflix#payneland#dead boy detective agency#monty finch#monty the crow#save dead boy detectives#danny motta#Youtube
78 notes
·
View notes
Text
Culinary appreciation
[First] Prev <--> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#xiao xingchen#lan jingyi#lan sizhui#jin ling#And the mysterious red and green lads! Gosh I hope nothing bad happens to one of them in 6 days.#ouyang zizhen#nameless red disciple#(Note for latecomers: I did not tag Ouyang Zizhen in any of these comics until I made the red vs green poll. Where only one could live.)#I think a lot about how wwx thought about how he'd want to be friends with xxc#then him 'meeting' xxc and trying to save him. With flamin' hot congee.#It's true that many friendships can be forged via food. I have a hunch this one wont turn out so well#Let's give a good round of applause for xue yang for his outstanding performance. He nailed the role of xxc#specifically the fact that xxc if the kind of guy who gets handed dirt 'milkshakes' and leaf potions that children brew and drinks them#Then says he loves it.#I know we still have a day left on the cooking poll but I wanna just say that I think wwx also cooks like he's making dirt and leaf potions#in the sense he cooks by vibes alone and it does not always turn out well for other people#His little moment of throwing shade at the juniors for not knowing what good food (spice tolerance) lives rent free in my brain#sorry to break your confidence king; the one guys who said he liked it was lying to you because he wants something from you.
849 notes
·
View notes
Text
Katya’s killer boot collection
#I guess I’m a fashion blog now lol#I have so many of these saved so I decided to post#basically she has every type of black boot imaginable these are just a few#gcds/rombaut/steve madden/haus of honey respectively#I could try to ID her clothes but she mostly makes her own so it’s harder#I admire she can make an amazing sparkly dress from $5 a yard fabric#I could do her out of drag shoes but it’s mostly colorful campers and then like super expensive designer sneakers#really living true to the high/low rule#$$$ shoes and cheap clothes
65 notes
·
View notes
Text
campfire nights 🏕️
#our wonderland#art: ow#art: iggy#art: genzou#art: genzy#dragon's dogma 2#dd2#dragon's dogma#ok this is definitely the sappiest line of all...#and he always says this when he's got the biggest most smitten grin on his face#and blushing like crazy#sob sob sob#all he wants it to live happily with iggy#for time to stop and they could just live in peace together#no dragon to fight no people to save no story to finish#just the two of them around their little fire enjoying a moment of repose#i like to make iggy sit on the ground by the fire thanks to a mod i have that lets me hotkey in-game animations#if i place him just right it looks like they're doing this (in the drawing) and it's so so so sweet#sometimes i'll just sit them like that and enjoy the ambience for a few minutes#my heart...#this series of drawings is really helping my art lakjdfasd#been drawing so many new interesting poses and angles and lighting that i've never tried before#a lot of fun#carrot plays dd2
64 notes
·
View notes
Text
OKAY FUCKING IMAGINE WITH ME
The original concept for the manga comes true; it all comes full circle.
Deku gets support items. They mimic the quirks of ofa. He uses up his embers and continues to be a hero quirkless. He does not falter and continues to grow and improve. His power is never like it was but his experience and determination are what made him a true hero.
He and Bakugou still compete and they do not give up hope on being a hero duo.
They get a hero agency together and Deku is extremely popular as not only the new symbol of peace but as a true embodiment of how anyone can be a hero. He is an inspiration to quirkless kids and normalizes it. Kids who think they have useless quirks or are quirkless realize that they can do and be anything they want to.
Deku becomes the number one hero and competes with Bakugou as to who can maintain that rank the longest (their ranks are constantly shifting and they are always battling for who’s one and two,, Todoroki gets number one for like a month and both of them lose their minds)
It comes out that All Might was also born quirkless and he opens about it in an interview for a retrospect. He explains how proud he is of Midoriya and how he admires how he continues to fight as he, himself, had lost his spirit to keep fighting after he lost his quirk.
Deku continues to be a pillar of hope. Of the belief of good. Of reform and understanding. And under his influence, the world becomes more like what he embodies.
The essence of what a true hero is.
#an angstier version that is brewing#is he continues to be a hero quirkless#but can’t keep up#and Bakugou tells him that no matter what the ranks say#he has saved more lives than anyone on the planet. combined#sorry im having a moment#but I need quirkless hero deku#it truly would be the most beautiful and inspiring thing#he never needed a quirk to be a hero#he needed to be the person that got through to Shigaraki#it was never about how powerful he was. or how many powers he possed#*possessed#what won the battle. what saved the world. was the compassion and determination to understand#it’s what beat Toga. it’s what beat dabi.#taking responsibility and understanding and reaching out is truly what saved them#and it’s such a beautiful way to culminate this story#deku always embodied that#and I need him to continue doing so#because that would truly make the message of this story come through#bnha#bnha spoilers#bnha manga spoilers#bnha save#deku#izuku midoriya#bakugou katsuki#bakudeku#<- could be platonic or anything but it is undeniable their intrinsic love and care for each other that can not be broken#and how intertwined they have and will always br#I also wrote this in such a rush so bear with me
60 notes
·
View notes
Text
I know everyone likes to make fun of Ezra for believing Maul, but I honestly really liked that, because. Like. He's been working so hard to learn to trust people again. His new-found family is teaching him how to open up and how to let himself love others without being too afraid of losing them to connect
And he doesn't immediatly trust Maul, which shows that even if his trust issues are much better now, he's still not stupid and knows to be careful around strangers, especially if you found them inside a Sith Temple
But. Maul shows and tells him what he wants to see; he acts kind with him, reassures him when he's in doubt, and manipulates Ezra (who is a CHILD) into beliving in him so he could get what he wanted
Then he betrays him, and by blinding Kanan, he proves Ezra's 'little me' right
#i actually think it's beautiful how he still keeps trying even after having been hurt so many times#and it's not even about maul hurting him. it's about maul hurting kanan#like if maul hadn't done that then ezra would've been perfectly fine w having him as a slightly evil friend that his entire family hates#part of the reason why i love ezra is because bc even though he's been betrayed#he still works to be better#he still fights for what's right#still helps others. he can and will jump in the middle of the battlefield to save a stranger because that's who he is#and he always trusts his family to watch his back#he's been tempted by the dark side so many times and yet he's still “dark side? never heard of it”#and even when he DOES use the dark side. he gets better. he realices that what he's doing is wrong and GETS BETTER#ezra's world was violently taken away from him when he was only a child#he lived on the street for years with nothing but himself. he learned to never trust anyone and to always think for himself#he couldn't afford to help others (unless it wasn't TOO dangerous and he could get smth out of it) because he can't put himself in danger#he learns to forget his parents's beliefs#then the ghost crew comes along and they show him that world again#and now that he knows it he will never leave it again#star wars#star wars rebels#sw rebels#swr#ezra bridger#darth maul#star wars meta#sw meta#twilight of the apprentice#avis' post
101 notes
·
View notes
Note
I honestly dont trust Ollie either. I do wonder if he’s tried to tell drew to not trust daddy or pops. Cause like poppy Ollie seems to not care of the bigger bodies die or live.
“Poppy ain’t perfect, but trust me when I tell you that she cares. But you’re right about one thing, I don’t trust Ollie worth a shit.”
(This is a joke, please do not take this seriously! I thought it was funny)
#no Poppy slander in this clown car/lh#okay but seriously I ADORE Poppy’s whole character#OML I could ramble for ages but I’ll keep it short for tags sake#Poppy cares so much and I will die on this hill#she wants to be free; she wants to expose/uncover the company’s secrets so that SOMEONE knows what happened to them#she wants to LIVE#Yes Poppy kept us from leaving but she said it herself#she NEEDS the player. she physically can’t do anything on her own#and we see through her interactions with Kissy that she DOES want to save who she can- remember that she had no idea Dogday was alive!#likely why she never says anything about it#SO#What Poppy is doing; trapping the player. forcing them into this savior role so that she and anyone they can find can be saved#is incredibly human of her#trading the freedom of the one for the validation and seeing and possible freedom of the many is so human#and I adore it so deeply#phrart#art#ask phrog#poppy playtime#ask the three d’s#the three d’s#Ollie ain’t shit though lmao#that’s GOT TO be the prototype#poppy playtime chapter 3#poppy poppy playtime#will smith meme
93 notes
·
View notes
Text
hey you!! yes, you!
do you want to watch Colin Morgan in All My Sons (legally and for free)?
do you want to celebrate the Ides of March by watching an excellent production of Julius Caesar with Ben Whishaw? (of course you do??)
as well as other plays?
you can use the code SORTEDATHOME to get free access to National Theatre at Home for 1 month! (also access to some "recipe packs" if you're into that)
More info here. I've just done it and it's very straightforward (you need to provide the details of an active credit card though, there's a card check). Just remember to cancel your subscription before it renews :)
ETA: Offer available until 18 March, while stocks last (from the NTL newsletter)
#I'm not in any way affiliated to the national theatre#this could save so many lives. mine included#colin morgan#ben whishaw#ides of march#< lol. I want this to reach people ok! it's important#national theatre#national theatre at home#fleabag#all my sons#julius caesar#shakespeare#signal boost
145 notes
·
View notes
Text
I don't know what I love more, the fact that as rook you can make a statement in NO uncertain terms that you are NOT responsible one way or the other for the theological implications of the shit you're discovering in the 'regrets of the dread wolf' memories. not my jurisdiction. quite simply none of my business. not my chantry circus not my chantry monkeys. irrelevant to the matter at hand here we'll kill that god if we get to him he can get in line. or if the best thing about it is seeing the lone little 'lucanis approves' that pops up right after choosing it. corvid with a knife about to commit deicide keeping it real and sensibly, pragmatically, wilfully agnostic with me here in this magical lighthouse today
#we do not see it. we cannot read all of a sudden.#rye having war flashbacks to watcher conferences and firmly going 'we are *not* getting derailed by the metaphysics here folks'#rare stern moderator/dad hat moment from ingellvar lol. he's Seen Some Shit in his time (debates that raged over the multiple#and not always concurrent life times of the participants involved. ain't no academic rivalry like watcher academic rivalry#because watcher academic rivalry doesn't stop even when everyone involved is dead. and the rest of us have to live with it)#I. do not think the way I'm getting this quest is how it's meant to be experienced so I'm a bit at a loss as to how to pace it out#I've been an annoying little completionist so I have ALL the statues and could just marathon it out#but that does not feel like the best way for the story and upcoming reveals to work. hm. how to do this#I'm supposed to go fail to save weisshaupt right around now I can't be having study group with all of you rn as much of a delight as it is#rye is nominally an andrastian as mainstream nevarrans generally are but as I gather is the case with many of the watchers#what he *actually* believes in is the grand necropolis itself haha#(and the philosophy of history memory death and relationship (as well as responsibility) between the past and the present#and indeed the future that it represents. we have a duty. to what has been to what is and to what will come after us. good shit)#the nevarran/mortalitasi element just makes their lack of care or respect for chantry orthodoxy *mwha* that extra bit special#the nevarran lack of concern bordering on quiet condescending disdain for official chantry doctrine and policy my beloved#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#poor harding really is living through the most relentless 'if this is the maker testing my faith he sure be testing me' gauntlet of all tim#good news: god might be real! bad news: god might not even be a real thing but more like a magical accident or vibration or something#honestly tho. if we could get full lovecraftian incomprehensible to human conception the maker -- He is a particle and a wave style --#that's the only way I'd be cool with him or them actually answering the question of his existence. that'd be kind of sick#'yes. but no. but maybe. depends on how you define god. and exist. and he. and does.' *ingellvar sets of the METAPHYSICS!! klaxon#that's a time out folks good game but easy on the jargon and navel-gazing definition of terms next round#rye and lucanis have some slightly differing views about at what exact stage of a problem murder becomes a valid solution#('well you just kill them and then I'm the one who has to deal with the next much longer part')#but they're surprisingly kind of vibing on a lot of other stuff lol. good for them <3#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar
47 notes
·
View notes
Text
It's probably too early to discuss this but once this is all over - if this is ever over - we WILL have to discuss the gendered aspect of it
And I don't just mean the mass rape etc. and not even the women in leading security roles that everyone doubted when they were appointed but were actually the ones to save everyone's lives under fire
I mean the female observes who for FOUR MONTHS have been telling their male commanders that they were constantly noticing weird things over the border but were just dismissed and ignored for being hysterical?
Yeah, that
#the way i am furious...#SO MANY LIVES COULD HAVE BEEN SAVED IF THESE GIRLS WERE JUST LISTENED TO!!!#but no they and so many others lost their lives thanks to male hubris#might get cancelled over this but idgaf this is INFURIATING#rape //#war //
178 notes
·
View notes
Text
so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-
but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again
(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)
i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)
weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward
but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.
right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#ganondoodles rants#sorta#suicide attempt mention in the IRL stuff im talking about in the following tags btw#theres some construction stuff on our house going on#and my father is extremely stressed about it#he used to be very explosive- being silent and then exploding out of nowhere .. probably left me with lasting damage yippie-#but now he much more lets it eat at himself bc hes old and feels bad for the past stuff so now it makes him irritated and depressed#my older brother is the most normal cis straight guy you can imagine and incredibly impatient and bossy (you CANNOT talk with him)#(brother doesnt live in our house)#and while hes helping out hes doing it exactly how my father doesnt like and since you cant talk to the guy (explosive +200) it stresses hi#to the point of my father yesterday saying that “it would have been better if i had just died back in the day”#likely referring to the time when he was drafted for the military against his will and tried to kill himself#which i learned only like .. a year ago- theres so little my parents tell me ....#its like my mother telling me- while my father was in hospital for heart surgery- that she not only almost died back when i was a young tee#and only survived bc of some incredibly unebelievable lucky coincidences (medics on a travel being there that knew what she had-#-while our local doctors said welp- nothing we can do lady AND them beign there with a helicopter and emergency transferring her#to antoher bigger hospital while giving her immediate treatment our local one didnt do- AND at the big one just so happened to have-#-an expert on that illness in the facility when she arrived who was able to narrrowly save her life#BUT ALSO while she was recovering and weak and frail as a dust bunny witnessing someone stealing hospital surplies-#not noticing she was in the room at first (which .. the nurses left her in the nurse room while going on break ... which uhm .. yeah cool)#and if my mother hadnt acted in time like she was fully asleep and the lady stealing stuff beign in hurry- she might have killed her#without my mother being able to fight back bc she could barely even talk (the nurses didnt want to believe her when they got back either)#ANYWAY that comment from my father brough me to tears#and my mom is trying out more ... other medication shes not prescribed in hopes of it helping agaisnt her many pains#but i worry it will interact with the other stuff shes on ...#and i worry so much about both of their mental and physical well being#always trying to be the one to calm them down or help with communication bc that is a big problem in this houesehold#but i myself am also a very much not normal and not medicated shut in who has trouble dealing even with my own feelings
33 notes
·
View notes