#ComplexEmotions

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

[puttukadala]

I was just sitting on my balcony today, looking at the sky, feeling pretty like I'm in a movie (acted the part well in my head) and grateful for this life. Five minutes into it, I stopped in complete shock and horror. When did I become this person? Last memory of me was crying at the same balcony, wanting to jump off the 3rd floor wishing there was no steel bar blocking my sweet sweet forever slumber!! When did I go from sad, depressed, su***dal to content, happy and motivated?!?!?!

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Oh I forgot I was in therapy for 5 years. Lol.

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Oh wait, I cried like that yesterday. I'm still depressed but grateful. What a sad combo - to be depressed and grateful.

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Or maybe not? What a confusing combo to be depressed and grateful. I hope Inside out 3 addresses my complex combination of emotions (not that I want Riley to be depressed) but well, it's nice to feel seen. Is all this weird?

[reflections-in-t]

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11月8日にリリースされる

The Bad Plusの新譜のサンプル曲を

聴いていてグサリと刺さった

Ben Monderのギターサウンド

RockではなくJazzのイディオムで

プレイするギタリストのディストー

ションサウンドが大好物なのだけれど

Monderのそれはまさにドンピシャ

これをきっかけにBen Monder

名義のアルバムを立て続けに

SONY ULT WEARの重低音とゆたかな

プレゼンスの再現力によって

彼のギターの音とOne and Onlyな

表現力はさらにブーストされて、快感

※動画はソロライブから

https://x.gd/Hzbzt

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#BenMonder

#Jazzguitarist

#TheBadPlus

#DayAfterDay

#Oceana

#ComplexEmotions

#Amorphae

#Hydra

#SonyWHULT900N

#AppleMusic

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[laughingjade192]

Ok so I saw this prompt on Pinterest, typed out a long comment, and they had the audacity to say "500 characters or less please!" so this is option 2.. IMAGINE THIS PROMPT THOUGH. You aren't a human at all. Far from it. You are an alien trying desperately to get a grip on humans ways. So you entered the virtual reality long, long ago and lived it yourself. You have discovered that not only are humans fragile and vulnerable, they are also resilient, complex, fearsome, and can be downright horrible. You have learned the highs and lows of humanity. You have experienced first hand what it's like to be apart of a small speck of a dust particle in space called Earth. You realize now why the humans find it difficult to explain their ways to aliens. How could words properly express the flutters of young love? The gut-wrenching sensation of despair? The slow sinking of dread? Your species is incapable of such complex and intertwining emotions, and therefore could never comprehend the hopeless babbles of human crewmates desperately trying to reason with the other species. Just imagine the possibilities of this prompt, guys.. just.. just imagine...

[lifelearningapps]

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[itssrablog]

The intricate man

Man: Arrggh!!This is so irritating.

Kylie: What happened? Why irritated?

Man: I just recommended Gracy for a job offer in a company that I had good connects with. She attended the interview on the same day that I was present there, yet she didn't bother to talk or meet me.

Kylie: Did she know that you were there? Did she see you?

Man: She didn't see me but she knew I would be there on that particular day as I had informed about the same long back.

Kylie: Oh!!dont worry..Girls are always in their own world,she must have forgotten about it. Just let it go.

Man: Yes, I will let it go, I just felt a bit disappointed with this behaviour. She got the job and I very well know that happened because of my recommendation. Anyways, she texted me a couple of days back saying thank you.

Kylie: Oh!!Thats nice, good for her but when did this interview happen?

Man: Almost 4-5 days back.

Kylie: And are you irritated since then?

Man: (*Silence)

Man: (*To himself) {Yes, I am have been irritated since then but i didn't know how to share it with you Kylie, your my best buddy but I know the reason for my irritation too. Its my goddamn expectations from people.

Gracy is not wrong as she could have just forgotten about it and she didn't see me, I should have presented myself to her but but I had already told her about this.

Arrggghh...this empathetic mindset of mine, I can always fill other's 'shoes' but I want somebody to fill mine.

Somebody who could react the way I wished, the way I expected, I am angry now Kylie and you easily said "Girls are always in their own world,she must have forgotten about it" but again you are not wrong, nobody is wrong.

This is such a simple thing, why am I making such a big fuss. I need to rise above this, think bigger, think smarter, think......but but thats my brain talking, I am hurt...'No heart', you can't use it..you can't be weak...you can't display emotions and show your vulnerability...this is stupid..stop debating within yourself..

And again, I end up keeping this to myself...only I can understand my own pain and only I can rise above it. Everybody has their own pains to deal with, but yes I can deal with others pains for them too}

THE NEXT DAY

Man: Hey sorry Kylie, i slept off...I was not irritated since then, I was for a bit but I just wanted to share it with you. But I am all good now...New day, new challenges..All geared up!!

Kylie: Awesome dude, good to hear that, do let me know if you ever feel irritated again. I am here for you!!

[understandingwecanfly-blog]

Complex Emotions Are A Never-ending Puzzle

Hello,

This is an account of a college student’s first love life. This is UnderstandingWeCanFly

One big hurdle I always run into is the battle of wanting to buy her something. I see something cool and want to buy it for her but does she really need it? The simple answer is no, she does not need it. Yes, it is a nice gesture to her and she loves it when I unexpectedly get her stuff but, one big thing I need to keep in mind is materialism. Our relationship does not thrive on buying each other stuff. Not at all.

But still, I want to give her all of the attention and care she deserves. For example, we went to see one of the college’s main plays and it ended at 10:15pm and I felt bad that I wanted to go back to my dorm and relax instead of going to her place. Sure, you can say I could get some attention from her but I also need time for myself. But then the question arises, do I need that time right now or is this a want? Do you think she is absolutely heartbroken by me not going over to her place and spending time with her? I don’t think she is but I am not too sure. When I hesitated at responding to her question of “Do you want to sleepover?”, she got really quiet which usually means that she is hurt or it’s not the answer she wanted. She tends to blow things up out of proportion though, so her true emotion is shrouded once again. It’s hard to interpret emotions normally, but when the stakes are high and it’s about someone you deeply care about, it makes it all the more intense.

So, I went back to my room trying to tell myself that it is ok that you’re here. But I still can’t shake the feeling that she is hurt. We had a great day today, went to some school events and saw the play. That’s a lot of time together, right? She shouldn’t be upset by this decision, right? But she also can blow things out of proportion. I hope when I wake up, she is feeling better and is the happy girl I fell in love with. Probably, it’s not like this is the first time I have experienced this problem and it probably won’t be the last.

Thanks,

- UnderstandingWeCanFly

[claytonmdavis]

Reposted from @sarahmariannmartland More than one thing can be true at once. More than one experience can be valid at once. More than one feeling can be felt at once. More than one emotion can be held at once. Even in one person, one body, one moment. ・・・ . . . . . . . . . . . #Complexities #Complexity #ComplexHuman #Human #BothAnd #Layers #Multitudes #IContainMultitudes #ListenToYourBody #TheBodyRemembers #BodyMemory #BodyMemories #BodyTrust #BodyReclamation #Compassion #Empathy #SelfCompassion #SelfTrust #SelfAwareness #SelfCare #CollectiveLiberation #Freedom #Liberation #Truth #MyBeautifulMess #ComplexNeeds #ComplexEmotions #Contradiction #Whole #Wholeness https://www.instagram.com/p/B-nDfTohsey/?igshid=10wxs64omnqxt

[anmartin]

It's hard to believe my time in Rwanda is almost up. This has easily been the most rewarding, challenging and unexpected year of my life, and I wouldn't change any of it. I couldn't have predicted half of the twists and turns that happened on this journey that began in October 2015 when I first visited Rwanda. I was scared to death before I returned in June 2016. But my fears were unfounded. You can survive and thrive anywhere that good people exist, and I have found many of them here. My favorite song from the recent Disney animated film "Moana" features the following lyric: "I've been standing at the edge of the water long as I can remember, never really knowing why...." Why, you may ask, is a 31 year-old woman quoting a song from a children's movie? Because the line reminds me so strongly of something I told a friend before I moved to Rwanda last summer. "I'm so scared." I had said. "I have no idea what's ahead. I don't know if I'll love it or hate it or succeed or fail miserably, but none of that matters because I feel called to go." What is a calling? For some people it is a religious sentiment. For others, it is simply a deep and steady tug that cannot be ignored no matter how hard a person might try.

This post is about fearlessness and why 2017 is my year, not because I decided it is but because that's how it feels. Actually my sister declared it so way back during Christmas 2015. She said that 2017 was the "Year of Allie". Please don't ask me why--my older sister is known for occasional proclamations that are seemingly out of left field. But maybe she thought I needed to make an effort to "get my life right" (I suspect she worries about me). If the theme of shedding fears sounds familiar, well that's because it is--everything that has happened in the last 19 months happened because I decided to bury all my logic, doubts and deep-seeded reservations and just go. Dive right off the cliff. Damn the consequences, as they say.

And the results have been brilliant. Not perfect or always producing happiness, but always worth it. And I still worry all the time, and I make so many mistakes. I frequently say the wrong things. I still apologize a lot, but I move on faster than I used to. I dwell on the small things for fewer minutes, and I care just a smidgen less than I did in the past about whether people like me or not (please trust me, I still care. I REALLY care. But I don't live and die on it like I used to.). These changes are the result of relying on myself more and deciding to always move forward. Because there's something better ahead for you (for me, too).

Finally, the primary comment I've received from friends and family who follow me on social media in relation to posts from the last year is "you look so happy." I am most of the time. Genuinely happy. I also recently saw an article online about countries that are more likely to produce people with complex emotions. Confession: I didn't read past the first paragraph because the only question that I wanted answered after reading the title was "what is a complex emotion"? In short, it's feeling all the things. And that's me in a nutshell. In the last year, I've experienced extreme heartbreak, professional disappointments, and all the associated ebbs and flows. I choose to keep my social media presence as positive as possible, but that shouldn't be misconstrued as an absence of pain or struggle. At some point or another, I have felt it all. Sometimes I feel it all at the same time. Again, I wouldn't change any of it. 

And it's only April. Which means there are more than eight months remaining of the so-called Year of Allie. And I can't wait to see what happens next.

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

It's difficult to explain, so I stay quiet.

[palmtreegypsy]

#complexemotions #complexcreatures #gardenismagic #lotsofweeds

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[unknownnyc]

"...Flooding my mind with music as I visit, explore and release that's which lives inside my soul. "...You know it ain't easy For these thoughts here to leave me There's no words to describe it In French or in English 'Cause, diamonds they fade And flowers they bloom And I'm telling you These feelings won't go away They've been knockin' me sideways.." #love #complexemotions #family #wokeupthismorningwithasonginmyheART #sideways #nowordswerespoken

[thericht]

Sigh...

Me: Why is it that we fight every time we talk on the phone, but when we see each other we hardly ever argue?

Victoria: I don't know. Maybe its because we can't stand being so far away from each other.

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