#But I forget about them

[inkskinned]

she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.

my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.

my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.

my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.

at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.

my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.

i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.

two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.

it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.

[lemongogo]

life of regret

[coralineandthesapphicfantastic]

What doesn't get talked about is that when you're grieving, eventually you're going to forget. Doesn't matter how big it is, but eventually the grief will slip your mind, and you'll be a you without that weighing on every molecule of your body. Then, the moment will end, and you'll feel so bad about it. You're going to blame yourself for forgetting, and it'll probably be in a grocery store or running an errand. It'll be okay to forget, it'll be okay to feel bad, it'll be okay to be whoever you are after the grief starts, and it'll be okay to be whoever you are after the grief fades into the background. It's normal, all of it, and it sucks. You'll be okay, and it'll be okay to be okay, it'll be okay to be not okay about being okay. I've lost so many people in my life, so much death. You are not beholden to self flagellation, but you are free to, like you are free to move on

[lotus-pear]

learning to love

[claypigeonpottery]

painted some of this with my fingers.

for authenticity?

no. I didn't want to wash my brushes

[batshaped]

the continued adventures of an internet user who was frozen in 2004 and defrosted in 2021: some things are just the way you left them

previous 2004 internet user comics are here: one, two, three, four, five; or just in my 2004 tag

[iitf]

UhuUhuHhuh wellllll, this?

I always enjoyed art that imitates magazine covers and wanted to try to do something like this myself. Jon was a good inspiration for me, so I guess there it is! Pretty not bad for the first try? I like how it went out anyway, I’d say.

[barghest-land]

drawings from paleo expedition to dagestan, done right on the trip. sometimes messy when it was cold and rainy, but i won't correct it. i think it's cool to leave it just the way it was done, and not retouch it after. there will be more drawings later, but those will be done from home

[nhyhu]

devotion

[egophiliac]

do skully have pokemon?

Pumpkaboo is the obvious one, but y'know, sometimes the obvious one is the right one! (we'll say SUPER SIZE Pumpkaboo, just for fun. big pumpkin for big skeleton boy.) and another person actually also suggested Greavard, which I somehow hadn't considered, but feels so perfect that I feel like I should have. dangit.

(they can also have little Nightmare Suit costumes :D)

[eggdrawsthings]

having the mando feels again how r we doing today chat 🫠

[0039pf]

can i get a kiss?

and can you make it last forever?

i said i’m ‘bout to go to war

and i don’t know if i’ma see you again

[percabethluv]

probably one of my absolute FAVORITE percabeth scenes that is absolutely not talked about enough is in botl when percy goes to visit her in the athena cabin and she starts crying because she’s scared and weighed down by the weight of this quest. she holds out her arms without saying anything and he immediately hugs her.

what makes this scene so ultimately meaningful and sweet to me is that this is BEFORE they are together. when they are just best friends. obviously their male/female friendship ended up being something more but it’s so sweet to me how close they were without it being romantic or weird.

percy and annabeth were like those two friends you had in high school that were male/female but just knew each other better than anyone else and worked great in a team and always stuck together at events or capture the flag.

and i love to imagine everyone at camp just looking at percy and annabeth and understanding how close they are and seeing how their relationship develops.

Camper like Silena or Clarisse or Beckendorf: “yup, that’s percy and annabeth, they’re best friends, they’re pretty much inseparable”

New camper: “are they dating?”

Camper: “uhhh. not yet.”

[sunsestart]

This IS basically journal 3, right?🤨

[iztea]

🖤🐈‍⬛🖤

[corpsentry]

pick your battles