#Being a loser

[sage-is-in-fact-very-tired]

thinking about ari and icarus again . mmmmm.

I can't actually remember at the moment if they had a full meeting after ari found fully fully out about violet - but if they did . gods imagine how guilty they'd have to feel; noting icarus is there falling apart over him and his death, and knowing he's alive but not being able to tell him . and if they didn't have any meetings- she still probably felt guilty because imagine knowing just behind the curtain your friend is falling apart over a dead friend and you know that friend is still alive . mmmmm . yeah . also also also like the character parallels in general but God I was thinking about this a bit during dinner and I had to say something

[miiilowo]

non-practicing slut. is this anythign

[hunny-k]

This is the funniest way you could've put it

[justaholeinmysoul]

I don't want to be with people, I don't want to talk to people, I don't want to be around people BUT LIFE HAPPENS WHERE THE PEOPLE ARE. IN ORDER TO HAVE EXPERIENCES AND FUN AND LEARN YOU GOTTA BE WHERE THE PEOPLE ARE AND I HATE IT

[foetry]

Self-Portrait as Self-Care Mantra 

BY ELIZABETH THERIOT

Head tilted back, eyes to the light, I squeeze single tears of moisturizer from the glass jar: forehead, cheek, cheek, a cross, martyr mystic blessing that promises to unblemish me.

//

After the hospital everyone brought facemask sheets. In meager bursts of human feeling I’d unpeel the wet paper cut into alien likenesses of a panda bear or cat. I’m not through them yet, gestures of wellness, I am working at them like a rosary, residue oily and chemical so I disobey the package’s advice and rinse my face. Yes okay I am refreshed, I am good, I am doing good.

//

I wish I had a tender nickname for myself. “Don’t believe it Lizzy” and “Lizzy you are perfect.” Anyone who used a nickname on me is long gone. I call myself worse things and I am still the company I keep, alive and unhappy. It’s not the being alive that makes me sad but the living part, my nerves so cliché and hysterical.

I fail to protest, compost, to write edgy poems about genitals, fail to scribe care onto my body, translate myself to myself, to stop lying, to know the lie, to build a marvelous cavernous boat and push its belly out to sea, to swallow anything, to sing.

//

In my mother’s bathtub I drink her syrupy $5 wine, squeeze pink goo from its envelope and smear the mask like sticky melted jellyfish debris on my face, wait, something to peel away in 20 minutes. Wine drips and disappears into the steamy water. My face tightens, is tightened around. All of it will come away beneath my nails.

Elizabeth Theriot, "Self-Portrait as Self-Care Mantra" from Sugar House Review, Issue 22.  Copyright © 2021 by Elizabeth Theriot.  Reprinted by permission of Elizabeth Theriot.

[swordsonnet]

i'm sorry but i don't think we should call this the "autism website" when there's still posts with tons of notes mocking people who:

struggle with social skills / have anxiety around social settings

are unemployed / unable to work certain jobs

have intense or "age-inappropriate" interests

haven't had certain life experiences that are deemed universal/essential

struggle with personal hygiene

don't have any friends or dating experience

don't go outside much or at all

take things literally / don't get sarcasm/jokes

have unusual ways of speaking

generally aren't "normal"

[erabu-san]

Rizz fail

[jade-len]

yeah twink shen yuan this hunky binghe that, in all honesty the image of some scruffy awkwardly tall lanky mid 20's nerd with a half shaven tired face standing next to a seemingly perfect almost androgynous gorgeous beauty of a man is 5x more hilarious, bc imagine witnessing an absolute supermodel influencer (who's known to be a ladykiller) crying and clinging to some guy who looks like he's on the verge of having a midlife crisis at only 24 tiredly patting said supermodel's head and in a deep dead pan voice saying, "no dumpling, you can't murder that girl just because she said my xianxia themed legos were stupid." like you can't tell me that the stark contrast and impact would be nearly the same if it were your typical twink sy and hunk binghe.

[fruitface]

"You know you didn't have to start like a whole fight club just to date me."

[bixels]

Rewatched 1978 Superman and remembered how much of a total dreamboat Christopher Reeve is, both as Clark Kent and Superman.

[anxrroz]

(He did win the hawaiian shirt wearing competition)

[plutonicbees]

I've been totally fixated on the fact that gwen stays with hobie when she's not on spider-team missions so here's some fun notes

gwen says that hobie lets her crash in his universe- not "house" or "place" or "apartment", because hobie is homeless

she wears his chucks (how is she fitting into his shoes?) which is funny because hobie's original spider-punk costume included him wearing chucks, but in the movie he only wears boots

in the comics, the gwen stacy of earth-138 was, in hobie's words, "the greatest artist of [their] generation" who died a punk-rock legend, and hobie was/is a big fan of hers. gwen thinks his universe is cool and thinks it's extra cool that she's famous there, so his universe is probably something of a comfort place for her

gwen is apparently in his band (possibly his friend group which he calls the spider-band despite the fact that they're not actually a band and the others are not spideys), though gwen once rejected hobie's proposal of making an album together because his singing voice is awful (still, this was after they saved the world by playing punk rock together)

also, it's interesting to read "coming out as a superhero" as a queer allegory and it works in this situation as it parallels queer kids being kicked out of their homophobic homes and staying with friends in the aftermath

anyways. support the gwen and hobie besties agenda <3

[introspectivememories]

was it casual when i sat in your lap in public? was it casual when i said "recently my heart is crying because you're leaving"? was it casual when we decided how your last name would fit with mine? ("yuki tsunoda-gasly" / "no tsunoda, only gasly" / "yuki gasly?") was it casual when we sang adele's "someone like you" together at your going away party? was it casual when i knew it was you just by touching your ass? was it casual when i knew it was you by smell alone? was it casual when "will you miss me?" / "for 2-3 minutes maybe" / "i'll take that. even if it's just 2-3 minutes, i'll take that"? was it casual when that bus was completely empty and we still sat right next to each other, all the way in the back? was it casual when i picked you up multiple times so you could dunk a basketball? was it casual when i begged to come over to your house multiple time and then you finally let me and we cooked fried rice together? was it casual when we played christmas twister together and i said "your big eggplant is touching my ass"? was it casual when we were pressed up against each other on a scooter going two miles per hour? was it casual when-

[blackkatdraws2]

Grown men giggling and kicking their feet.... [Blank Scripts AU]

[bluepandadraws-log]

Ragapom Nation, how we doin'?

[captain-flint]

He's so confident, you know? He's interesting. He has a cleft.