#And me losing my mind on the tumblr blog

[imminent-danger-came]

You ever feel slightly too weird for weird spaces

[incorrectskyrimquotes]

joov, dougdoug, and the laughing simon r my skyrim youtubers of choice rn

[deoidesign]

Joked about Adam being divorced one too many times that now I'm getting anti-divorce ads

Adam think of the children... Please...

[llitchilitchi]

been reading the Alexander Trilogy and kept making fun of Hephaistion for being so thoroughly whipped for Alexander but then actually decided to draw him all bright and a little sweaty after exercise and yeah, yeah I see the vision

(referenced these ivory sculptures for the face reference, this would be when he's maybe 18-ish, presumably before exile)

[xoxoraexoxo]

Im back 💋

[kindahoping4forever]

Ash IG Story

[bleaksqueak]

(okay, I don't want this website to stay broken and struggle under big daddy apple's boots, so I thought i'd see if they had any goodies for decorating my blog that I liked... and oh my god the moon badge is neat and the little bone guy is so cute. I guess i'll finally retire the funny checkmarks because they ruin THE VIBE of moonbones)

[thinaiir]

I've officially pivoted this year from "S*brina C*rpenter is really talented and has a few nice, clean songs like 'Fast Times,' so I will ignore her raunchy songs and listen to the clean ones and call myself a fan" to "S*brina C*rpenter's overall image is just too cringe for me to enjoy because almost ALL her new songs and on-stage dance routines (??? if you can call them that) are just based on sex appeal and shock value"

I can't even be a casual fan without exposing my eyes to stuff that makes me want to bleach them lol

She's a great singer but I just can't tolerate all female pop singers being this over-the-top raunchy, and she is the most over-the-top I have seen in a long time. No hate, I just needed to get this off my chest, and I constantly feel alone on this.

As a woman and as someone who felt inundated with sexual imagery in pop music as a teen (and I believe it negatively impacted both my self esteem and my views on sexuality as a young adult), I just feel so bad for the young girls today who are encouraged to see these pop stars as some kind of role models. Heck, I even feel bad for the pop stars themselves, seeing as this hypersexual behavior is just self-destructive as a whole.

Anyway, yeah... I want to consume art, songs, etc. that align with my values, but it's so hard to in this day and age. And I used to use "it's too hard in this day and age" as an excuse to listen to stuff I shouldn't be listening to just because I wanted to be "up-to-date" and listen to what's popular and have something to talk to music fans about, but lately I have been taking genuine steps toward changing my behaviors.

If we keep consuming art that's essentially just a woman twerking or singing openly and graphically about her bedroom habits, then other people (and the heads of the music industry) will keep thinking that's what we want to see and hear. I'm trying to keep reminding myself that there's no excuse for encouraging poor behavior.

[anxeious]

yes i agree!!! i am single and happy that way as well, not searching for anyone to date rn because i don’t wanna. i’m happy with my fish and frogs and myself 😌 it isn’t shameful and i have no clue where that anon or the person who called you a femcel got that from. and even if you were a femcel, so what??? i could name a million WORSE things that a person could be but okay… 🤨 don’t worry about it too much!!! haters are jealous of your game.

-anon who thought you had 100 cats

hell yeah me too!!! it started because an anon clocked me w a message that said that it seems like i’ve been single for a while, and i was like HOW did they get that thru my blog like how am i blogging like someone who is single? how would they know that? i was so confused so i sent it to my irl and she (whom i love dearly) was like no dude they’re right it’s giving desperate & femcel energy and i was like HELLO?? REALLY?? HOW?? im not upset at all i am just so confused as to what is giving that energy, i’m just girlblogging!!!

[ashfdhfgdsfk]

might remake to a new account entirely and change the name i go by

[simcardiac-arrested]

[synthshenanigans]

Im trying to get a bunch of posts to draw for the incorrect quotes & I legit cant find this one

If anyone has like a link or screenshot to it please give i cant find my own damn post help

[eyvi444]

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

Some days like today I wish I could start this blog over on a new account so it’d be easier to engage and interact with everyone ❤️ if there were a way to export this blog and restart anew I totally would but alas I am in sideblog hell 🙃

[manwithoutaspleen]

more transition rambling

as upset as i sometimes get about not passing, i still love what transitioning is doing for/to my body so much. like i never get sick of seeing how hairy i’m getting, i’m impatient for more facial hair and so excited to have stubble and one side burn (and i would love for both side burns to come in.) my chest hair has started coming in the past few weeks and THATS been a thrill.

every time i hear myself singing and actually like how i sound? every time i laugh weird and sound like my brother, who i love so much? every time i see a friend for the first time in awhile

it’s just, life has been so hard for like, a year and a half now, and while i do think i’m finally on the upswing, there’s a lot of new trauma to deal with. but one thing i’ve learned from all this is how to take care of myself so, so well. i can love and care for myself now in ways i never imagined being possible. and having a body that actually brings me joy makes that so much easier.

and like, it’s especially resonant to have a body that actually brings JOY when i’ve had chronic pain since i was 12. when this all started because i got a new disability. my body can do less and hurts more and i still love it more. its harder to care for, but i’m trying harder.

transitioning has saved my life in SO many ways i could not be more grateful that i finally did it

[neilfinnaesthetics]

I am so in love oh dear, I feel so sick