#And a John hater

[millionsghosts]

thinking about the comparisons of Sam to John and the revenge shit is what really gets me because like. John raised his kids as hunters because he lost himself in his grief over Mary dying and obsession with revenge. Sam almost lost himself to it too at the end of season 1 (he would have if he shot John), but he stops himself because his alive family is more important to him than revenge for Jessica (the big difference between him and john!).

In contrast, when Dean dies in season 3 Sam doesn't have anything left but the revenge. His brother is dead and there's nothing he can do. That's when he loses himself and lets the want to kill Lilith take over. The powerlessness he felt when Dean was going to hell and confirmation that he could do nothing was what Ruby needed to get him hooked on that demon blood, too. This is similar to how John became hooked on hunting Azazel, but is also a more literal addiction (demon blood addiction as a metaphor for Sam's revenge quest, anyone?). Just like in season 1, Sam is paralleling his father here.

However! I believe it's at least a little bit of an unfair comparison to make. Sam's circumstances were a lot worse than John's with Ruby spurring him on (and the actual addiction to the blood). Plus, he didn't have a responsibility to his family like John did until after Dean got back. When that happened he did continue what he was doing, but at that point he was already hooked on demon blood/in too deep with Ruby anyways. He was also convinced he was already unclean! At most he thought he could use it to kill Lilith, right?

Also, Sam's obsession was much further along than John's when the opportunity came to put revenge over family (since Dean had once again. Been dead.). I'm not saying he didn't fuck it up, he 100% did! He betrayed Dean's trust and made a HUGE error in judgement, no matter how sympathetic I am towards him

(Not denying this is a Sam defense post! But I also have enough media literacy to understand that even when I love and am defending a character, that doesn't mean they did nothing wrong. I'm saying Sam is a better person than John was, not that)

Anyways, this betrayal still isn't comparable to John, who started out with two very young children to take care of from the beginning! He doesn't have the excuse of his obsession developing or getting in too deep while his family wasn't around like Sam does. Also, for all the shit Sam's addiction causes, he at least doesn't force Dean into it. This is as opposed to John, who raised his kids to be hunters too!

Anyways Sam, when in his right mind (not an addict being manipulated!), knows to choose his family over the revenge. When he doesn't, it's because he's a victim of severe, completely different circumstances. John Winchester left his normal life for the sake of revenge while he had two kids in the backseat. For all the similarities between John and Sam, despite the many many parallels and connections of their stories, that's the big, important difference between them. That's what matters

[shapelytimber]

Calypso and the Pink Unicorn's pirate drag show !!!!!

[PRINT] - [COMMISSIONS]

Wee john served so hard it should be illegal 16 dead countless injured, I am dead Calypso was so hot

Process (and my french rant on why I hate the choice of la vie en rose) below vvv

Final without the text

Rough colors

Sketch !

Sorry english people, but what follows is too french an opinion to voice in english (I'll sum it up for u in the end <3)

Ok alors je suis désolé, Con o'Neill chante vraiment très bien ca n'a rien avoir avec sa performance, mais vraiment la vie en rose c pas possible. Le man est sur les champs Elysées a me vendre des tours Eiffel en plastique jpp- Franchement pipe et jambe de bois ca serai mieux passer. Ou les demons de minuit !!!!pourquoi pas les demon de minuit ?????? Chanson hyper connu française. Ok c moins cucu que la vie en rose, mais bonus point plus kinky (je pensais jamais decrire les demons de minuit comme etant kinky mais here we are-)

Ou juste n'importe quoi d'autre-

(And words of wisdom from my evil advisor @quijicroix : légende vivante (de Lorenzo) ça va avec tout. Ou une chanson triste de jul (pas bande organisée, tu peux pas ken dessus). Après tout le monde déteste la police ou nik le front national c les chansons les plus romantiques que je connaisse. Y a santiago aussi, avec le gros mat la. Les trois mâts, pour le steddyhands.)

Tout sauf la fucking vie en rose pitier (meme si, encore une fois, Con o'Neill la chante vraiment bien)

Welcome back english people ! To sum it up : la vie en rose is a french song for tourists that set up a fight or flight reaction in every native speaker. I'm glad people enjoyed this, but I cannot describe the cringe and disappointment I felt when they decided to have him sing this song- (even tho he sings it beautifully (which is part of the disappointment))

They are SO MUCH love songs in french, why this one.

PS : at this point (ep7) I don't know why Stede is still bothering with Ed "I'm hitting the banks didn't tell him which one" teach, when Izzy hands is right there ????? Sir please open your eyes

[cod-dump]

Laswell, about a SAS officer: He was supposed to be helping me on this operation but he hasn't delivered on anything

Price: 'Unhelpful cunt' is his middle name

Laswell: *snorts*

Price: slower than a sloth and dumber than a koala

Laswell, shaking: J-John

Price: He looks like he was from the Cambrian period. Weird looking cunt

Laswell: *wheezes*

Price: Breathe, Kate, I have more to share

[zivazivc]

summer and winter vibes

[starlightseraph]

this is a sarah jane smith appreciation checkpoint!

[outromoony]

I don't think Greyback gets enough hate, and that should absolutely change.

[muzaktomyears]

When Lennon's anxiety about having lost contact with reality became alarming, he would bring himself back to earth by a simple expedient: "When it gets too bad," he told his biographer, "I have to see the others." The value of the Beatles to him at such moments was that they were "someone else like me." In other words, the Beatles embodied the identity that John Lennon was always losing. But their own identity was by no means simple. Consider how various were the ways in which the public perceived the Beatles. Initially everyone saw the Fab Four as one man repeated four times. Soon, however, this perception was superseded by the vision of the Beatles as four different men wearing the same costume, which is how they were seen by the typical fan, who then identified with his favorite Beatle. The more sophisticated Beatle watchers, however, had yet another take on the group: they saw the Beatles as one man with four different faces. This was an idea that appealed to the Beatles themselves, but it raises a basic question: who was that man? The best clue is provided by the finest description ever written of the Beatles as a collective identity. According to British Pop critic Nik Cohn, the most remarkable thing about them was their self-sufficiency, which was the product of their perfect complementation, each Beatle interlocking with and counterbalancing the other like the works in a Swiss watch. "Lennon was the brutal one," Cohn observed, "McCartney was the pretty one, Ringo Starr was the lovable one, Harrison was the balancer. And if Lennon was tactless, McCartney was a natural diplomat. And if Harrison seemed dim, Lennon was very clever. And if Starr was clownish, Harrison was almost sombre. And if McCartney was arty, Starr was basic. Round and round in circles... and it all made for a comforting sense of completeness." Exactly.

The Lives of John Lennon, Albert Goldman (1988)

[fangomango]

I.AM.TALKING.ABOUT.EVERY.SINGLE.FACE

(As we know this is from the scene where branch tells them grandma died and he raised himself)

So bruce..I don't need to talk about Bruce

Jd, that's guilt...

Obviously they're all guilty and I would read 1000 fics of them being guilty (WHERE ARE THE VAN RIDE FICSCJDNSBS)

But he is the one who left first (despite clay leaving the band first)

He was the first domino to fall that led to such a ruined man

It also looks..pitiful? It's probably not all pity but it could be

If it was a smoothie it would be guilt, pity,regret, concern...worry maybe?

CLAY LET ME TALK ABOUT CLAY

...again

It's guilt...obviously

But I think it's different guilt..

I think (it's canon to me) because he could've gone but didnt...

It's a man who had every chance to just do something more than nothing and because he did nothing it had horrible consequences (branch's years of self blame for his grandma's death and the years alone because of it)

If he had just gone to see branch when he was like...6...the impact it could have had on a CHILD that is all alone and saw his grandmother die.

And he knows it...

BUT THATS NOT ALL THATS THE BEGAINKMG

It worry...or shock..or a mix of both

Because like

Branch hasn't done anything up until that point to raise eyebrows

He quite frankly hasn't done anything other than sing, be upset, and make clue board

Like yes he showed displeasure seeing jd

And told jd how he felt about seeing him

But jd brushed it off

And he ONLY told jd about how he felt, clay and Bruce have no idea branch is mad at them for leaving.

THE BROTHER THEY DIDNT KNOW WAS HOLDING IN ALOT OF RESENTMENT FOR ALL OF THEM

To them he snapped out of nowhere...

He showed that their attempts to change did change them , but changed branch the most,,,in ways that none of them expected

[thetrinitytest]

[ringosmistress]

[karkatbug]

hs2 update has me giddy

[acecroft]

All that crap he dumped on me, about protecting Sam, that was his crap. He's the one who couldn't protect his family. He's the one who let Mom die. Who wasn't there for Sam. I always was. He wasn't fair! I didn't deserve what he put on me. And I don't deserve to go to hell!

[dazednstoned]

Dutch's supposed "progressiveness"

Some people, both in-game and in the fandom, consider Dutch a very progressive man, especially for the time. He did include marginalized groups of people in his gang, but that was only because those people were so desperate they were willing to follow him blindly and obey him to preserve the security and safety provided within the gang.

He didn't help Eagle Flies because of his morals, it was to serve himself. He didn't "rescue" the women because he's a good man, it was because they could offer him things like free labor, assistance during jobs, and in Abigail's case sw. He saved John and Arthur, orphans with no $ or family, to mold into perfect outlaws who wouldn't disobey him.

He isn't progressive, he preys on struggling people and then uses them to his advantage and disposes of them when they no longer serve him. We see this with the Wapiti Tribe, his readiness to abandon Abigail once she got kidnapped, and his refusal to rescue John (+ etc).

Dutch's love and care have always been conditional. He didn't love anyone for who they were, but for how they could serve him.

[rosecabenson]

The Squad playing ‘pass the phone’

Casey: I’m passing the phone to someone who dated a walking red flag with a receding hairline line on and off since season 1.

Olivia:…OKAY CAS—

Olivia: I’m passing the phone to someone who has IAB fighting for their lives.

Eliot:…I’m not that bad! That’s an exaggeration- anyway, I’m passing the phone to someone who KEEPS DISAPPEARING FOR SOME STRANGE ASS REASON-

Alex: I HAD A REASON! MOST OF THE TIME- Anyway, I’m passing the phone to the bodyguard of the squad, love you fin!

Fin: I’ll take that, anyways I’m passing the phone to the bony ass that refuses to retire-

Munch:…First of all-

Munch: what ever, You know back in the day in the—

(John say the line!!)

Munch: fine! I’m passing the phone to someone whose hair has been left at an AA meeting for the past 30 years-

Cragen: Okay so fuck you-

Cragen: I’m passing the phone to the man who started the sassy man apocalypse-

Rafael: And I stand on business- I’m passing the phone to the person who’s family genuinely needs psychiatric intervention-

Amanda:…OKAY-

Amanda: I’m passing the phone to someone who we can all agree makes the meanest pasta-

Sonny: Period- anyways, I’m passing the phone to someone who almost went gray dealing with Casey Novak trying to charge the military with murder-

Branch: She’s gonna kill me one day- I’m passing the phone to someone who is in desperate need of a vacation-

Olivia: me again- okay, I’m passing the phone to someone who we all randomly hated for months until we randomly stopped, kinda- one day-

(Then I accidentally fell inlove with her)

Casey: I’m still telling my therapist about that- anyways, I’m passing the phone BACK TO THE WOMAN WHO CANT GET OVER ELLIOT-

Olivia: AND IM PASSING THE PHONE TO SOMEONE WHOS HAD MORE HAIR COLORS THAN I CAN COUNT-

Casey: IM PASSING THE PHONE TO SOMEONE WHO CANT KEEP A HAIR STYLE FOR ONE SEASON-

Olivia: IM PASSING THE PHONE TO SOMEONE WHO IS IN SO MUCH DENAIL IT SETS OFF EVERY GAYDAR IN THE AREA-

Casey: HEY THA—

Olivia: I’m passing the phone to someone who defends and is STILL NOT OVER HER EX -

Casey: THATS DIABOLICAL.

[trenchcoatimpala]

I just rewatched "In my time of dying" and I have some things I need to say about that speech John gives Dean before he goes off to die. Let's touch on the points, shall we?

John apologizes to Dean for making him grow up too fast, putting too much on his shoulders, having Dean be the one to comfort him when it should've been the other way around, and he tells him he's proud of him.

The fact that Dean has to ask if it's really John talking is the first clue at how messed up this is. But what I want to talk about is that you'd think this little speech is kinda nice actually. You’d think wow, look at John acknowledging everything he made Dean do/go through. You’d think hey at least he said he’s proud of Dean for real this time! You’d think that, right? And yeah it is nice. John does mean what he’s saying.

But it all gets ruined by what John does after he gives his little "I'm sorry I screwed up so much" speech. Because he then tells Dean that he may have to KILL Sam. That whole entire speech just gets fucking NEGATED by that in my opinion, because what did he just tell Dean he was sorry for? Oh, that's right, putting too much on Dean's shoulders, making him look out for Sam when that was supposed to be his (a father's) job.

He tells Dean to "watch out for Sammy" and of course Dean says "yeah, Dad, you know I will" but it's a double entandre. Watch out for Sam as in: he’s your kid brother, keep him safe, but also as in: he’s dangerous. It’s giving Dean more responsibility that he SHOULDN’T HAVE. After literally having just told Dean that he's sorry for dumping all that crap on him, he goes and dumps more crap on him. It was a deathbed confession of his sins, maybe even hoping that telling Dean he was sorry might absolve him of terrible torture in Hell. If he wasn't about to die, he wouldn't have told Dean any of that. Not to mention the fact that he's also leaving Dean in charge of finishing the hunt for yellow eyes.

And of course, after John dies, Dean's left with so much suvivors guilt, and he's confused and scared about what his Dad meant when he said he may have to kill Sam. This in turn leads to Dean sacrificing himself for Sam because "I'm not even supposed to be here" so in his mind it's evening the scales.

Dean carries so much with him and it all comes back to John fucking Winchester and his A+ parenting.

[nobodymitskigabriel]

Thinking about how Dean idolized John, imitated him at every turn, made himself malleable to become whatever soldier or weapon he needed, but was ultimately convinced that he'd never live up to the man John was or expected him to be.

Thinking about how Jack idolized Dean, imitated him at every turn, made himself malleable to become whatever soldier or weapon he needed, but was ultimately convinced that he'd never live up to the man Dean was or expected him to be.