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The emotional frustration is next level bro
#Havin a real rough go of it guys#Hate it when ppl ask about my feelings#Instant way to make me cry uncontrollably#It's always at the worst times when I can't seem to get the tears to stop too#I think my body is just primed to allow optimum tear production or something#And I don't think the contacts help much#Gonna really struggle through this class#Just frustrating because I know what my problems are#I don't need help pointing them out#I just need to get to a point in my life where I have even a vague control over my circumstances and then I can start fixing things#And I know it's bad to try and say woe is me and there's nothing I can do to help myself#But that's not what I'm talking about#Like I'm not even meeting maslow's 2nd lowest level of needs#I don't know where I'm gonna end up working I don't have a house setup I don't even have a clear way of getting to my goals#There's so much sit and wait that I have to do right now and it's infuriating#And I know I can't help the ppl I want until I get my shit figured out#It's all just too much right now#And it mainly stems from having incorrect expectations for what was going to happen#Because I was led to believe this would all be way different than it played out
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Scoria and Sakura are best friends! It's so cute when I see the things they do together, and it makes me so beyond happy that they both came to live with me so that they could share their lives with each other. They absolutely insist on it, and does so much good for the other.
I can't imagine how else they could have found happiness if things hadn't worked out exactly as they did. Scoria has basically been Sakura's "emotional support snake" while she worked through things from her past I'll never fully know that caused her a lot of issues with panic and fear. Sakura knows this too, and looks out for her sister, the only one she truly trusts and feels completely safe with.
The moment they wake up they both want each other to snuggle and play with. Scoria loves to be affectionate with both me and her sister who seems to have not had this earlier in her life- but Scoria is showing her how nice it is not only directly but demonstrating with me and Sakura also trying, copying what she has seen her sister do.
Sometimes when one goes to check on the other they'll join in on... I'm not even sure what they were doing. But they had a good time while taking a mandated union break from digging tunnels for the isopods.
So happy I get to share in the adventures of these two best friends! It makes me so happy to see them living their best lives together, and being beyond content snuggled together with their found family.
#cute#pets#snakes#friends#animals#I think Sakura tried copying Scoria and didn't quite get the full memo#So she went down the front bark and Scoria went down the back which leads into diggy dirt#And Sakura was like#“I followed friend into bark but where is friend???”#Meanwhile Scoria was probably oblivious her little sister was trying to find her & she may was well have her front half going into a portal#Eventually they found each other fully#And were very clear they prefer their home far more than this enclosure they helped build tunnels for#I'm glad to know they like their home#While I do want to make it more aesthetically pleasing#the current focus was filling it with things they enjoy#Specifically things they have a lot of fun playing with or on#I want their home to be the place they feel safe but also enjoy being in#not a prison#a bedroom#I think they like their enclosure but they sometimes don't want to go in it because they also really enjoy spending time with me#Scoria really does#but also communicates effectively when she is sleepy from playing and needs to rest#as much as they love each other when they go to sleep for the night they sleep alone#even with the option to stay near each other#I think this is nature rather than something I taught them by separating them into their own enclosures after play time#which makes me wonder if humans classified them as solitary just because they don't want room mates#like plenty of people i know choose to live alone but that doesn't mean they are introverts/solitary#I wonder if wild hoggies sleep alone (not counting brumation) and their social lives outside their den was completely ignored#Like I bet they live in a neighborhood or kingdom or whatever you want to call it#The fact they can communicate“I'm friendly let's be nice to each other”indicates a species that regularly comes into contact with each other
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People be like, how you doing? And I'm like, Loop is never going to see their family again.
#Isat#Isat spoilers#Isat loop#I'm just. Thinking so hard.#About Loop and what happened at the end of the loops#And what dev said about when you restart the game#Is it a different loop is it the same loop will loop every be free?#Did loop wish themself into a new loop of helping other thems reach their goal?#Either way.... Loop will never see their family again. Because they have Changed and their family has not.#God fuck fuck I love them and I hate them in equal measures#If I ever met them I don't even know what I would do first#Probably give them contact information to a real good therapist???#But honestly I think I'd hug them if they'd let me cause I would burst into tears if they were real#Loop is my worst nightmare because I was loop and I think that's the bad part of the whole ordeal#What do you do when your family can not help you but you help yourself? Are the bonds the same? Different?#How do you reconcile that with your love for your family?#God this little bitch makes me feel so much
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did some digging and i THINK what actually is causing this new kidney decline is that back in may at my appointment they doubled the dose of one of my blood pressure meds that can really fuck up your kidneys if taken at high doses for a long time and lo and behold a month and a half later there's Problems
#:)#they're treating it as a diet thing but i've been eating the same stuff constantly since i left hospital in march#and this is a sudden downturn that would track with too much blood pressure meds in my system#sucks that i don't get to see my kidney consultant until august because this probably needs dealing with asap#since if it is meds no amount of restrictive dieting will actually help lmao#might hope that the endocrinologist tomorrow will be able to help somehow because it's all technically one expanded care team for me lol#if not i gotta call the gp on wednesday (i'm out and busy monday and tuesday) and hope they can somehow contact someone about this#that said i think the fact that Every Single blood pressure med they've given me has had detrimental effects is not a good sign lmao
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My friends don't hate me, they're just busy.
My friends don't hate me, they're just busy.
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#hitting that fun point where my brain starts insisting that my friends are secretly think I'm annoying#it doesn't help that I'm not getting an answer from like three of them?#which happens every so often#one of them (who was my best friend) actually ghosted me like 2.5 years ago and i'm still recovering lololol#the other two drop out of contact sometimes cause Mental Health Issues#it's just not helping that they both did it at the same time this year#one of them it was like less than a month after i flew out to visit her in person#so that's great#we're like two or three months into no reply from her#and my last friend from high school that still lives in the area doesn't really hang out without me setting it up#i realized that and decided to hold off on asking to hang out after work to see when she would start sending messages#one month in and nothing#i know it's kinda dumb to do the wait to set when they message first thing but I was kinda curious to see#i honestly thought she'd text something by now#instead i'm coming to the realization that maybe i don't matter that much to her?#maybe she doesn't even like me#when we meet up we talk about her work and life a lot but it feels like she doesn't pay attention when i talk about mine#like i'll be talking about work and she'll be on her phone texting her boyfriend#i've made some new friends but i'm no one's best friend#god i miss having a best friend
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played swtor one time with a stranger who invited me to a group (after accidentally stealing their dataport they had to destroy and giving them the next one): this is my meet-cute
#swtor#i have NEVER played a video game with a stranger before. it scares me. i don't understand how that social interaction works#but i felt so bad and awkward and like i couldn't say no#but it turned out fine!! we jumped at each other and did a few quests#and then i said i had to get off cause it was late and thanks for playing with me#idk if they saw it cause they didn't say anything back but hopefully they didn't think i just abandoned them like a dick#but now i'm like what if i met someone on swtor and we started playing together and never really talked much#but we played together for months and then we started messaging a little bit while playing like good job! and let's do this quest!#and do you want to do this heroic? and stuff like that and it morphed into a little more talking and eventually exchanging contact info#and then we fell in love? and we played video games together and did star wars cosplay together and idk what they would do for a job#(but i'm sure it would be neat and cool!!) and we could support each others dreams and shit and we could meet irl and kiss#and we could have a star wars rp and watch shows together and lots of other stuff#(ignore most of that is about star wars. i am obsessed currently i can't help it)#it would be cute and fun and i would like it and people would be like how did you meet?? and i could say star wars mmo lol
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DIANA x ALBERT WESKER / template.
#mine.#pair: ewskers#oc: diana#click for better quality ♡#posting this before i start changing more things lmao but yes i went nuts and made my own psd from scratch... don't look at me#changed ages to birth years cause of how much time passes in the story!! and also gives cheeky fc for you hehe runs away#the checkboxes make me scream like he almost had a clean sweep it's so funny. and he could've had one more i'm not even joking. cause their#first kiss was technically both of them... like idk how to explain this but they were already standing close then diana moved even closer#and was tracing his jaw and such and they were just lingering while holding eye contact but he was the one who actually closed the distance#so i mean... yeah. she was just about to and he beat her to it!! but diana made the move to get them into that position in the first place#is what i mean. i just couldn't give him more it was already too hilarious lmao#can't tell if i like the lil icons but i can't doodle so peace and love on planet earth but yes i'm happy with how this came out hehe#clueless levels are cause they are clowns <3 i have a lot of thoughts about all that but yes they both take hints in some aspects but i#think they both have trouble telling if they are genuine or not or if they are misreading the situation or whether something is romantic or#not (unless ofc it's over the top and ridiculous. ahem. excella. cough. explodes her with my mind) but yeah hit him with the tism so he's#learnt how to read people very well as he's gotten older but i think when it comes to actual just genuine like wanting to get to know#someone and not just someone wanting to get in his pants he seconds guesses it a lot. and diana's all stems from being rattled by her past#experiences oughguhh and i mean her not actually having experienced proper feelings for someone until him lmao but she's got trust issues#also there were so many tropes i could use (thank you to bestie elliot for helping me finds names of things) but i had to do i got you a#drawer specifically because that moment has such a special place in my heart!! like i need to finish the wip where i talk about that cause#it makes me so silly i'm not even joking#anyway omg i hope the mentions work because doing this on the legacy editor after copying the html for beta one because the image just#didn't want to work in the beta image for some reason rip
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#im like. really upset and bitter rn and probably will delete this later in embarrassment but i cant hold it in anymore#has anyone actually ever contacted these services to prevent... certain things. like just to chat someone and actually got genuine help#because my brain is. a horrendous place#and i tried phoning a mental health service years ago for nothing to come of it#and then i emailed this other service - just for someone to talk to. and again. nothing#i want help. but it feela like all the responsibility is put on you. and im so exhausted and already feel like i dont deserve any help so#pray tell why i would ever Go Out Of My Way to try find help?#even doing this little has taken so much from me.#i don't know what to do and i feel so alone.#this is something id usually put on my secret sideblog but im genuinely just so at a loss#right im posting this before i can think too hard about it#le text post
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after the recital today maestro asked me how it was going w grad finance stuff and i told him the honors program was gonna offer me a fellowship and he was so excited he like immediately put his arms out to hug me and then awkwardly hesitated cause i was holding my giant bag of music stuff and my concert shoes and had no space for hugging available between us
#also i don't think i've ever done more than shake his hand before physical contact wise#and he's one of the only people i know who still regularly wears a mask indoors#anyway it's sweet how happy he is for me and how much he tries to help#he was like 'is it a full ride? because if it's a full ride then i can't get you any scholarships for music :(' like#maestro don't worry i'm still gonna play in orchestra even if i'm not being bribed to lol#i wanna talk about me#sasha speaks#also very odd to be that we have two conducting professors both called maestro s[...]#but one of them we call maestro [last name] and the other is maestro [first name]. why do we do this#maybe it's because no one can pronounce maestro [first name]'s very italian last name correctly...
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OUGHGHGHGHGGH thank you so much for the compliments I'm gonna 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭that means a lot coming from you!
I rarely post art though haha, I think all I've got on Tumblr is my one (horrid) MineDai render, and that Mine study I'm sure you've seen on Twitter. So I can probably speedrun all my works right now and save you some scrolling: x x x
I live for the contrast between Ichi's design and the others' honestly! Love that Jo's and Arakawa's remained all moody and sober while Ichi and Aoki wound up wearing opposing primary colors. Mitsu's a fun case because he's always been a mix; dark and colorful in the 2000s, and his suit in 2019 is about the color you'd get from mixing Ichi and Aoki's suits and desaturating it.
But sort of on the topic of Nice and Beautiful and Arakawa doing light makeup for him........
thank you for dropping the links (and preemptive apology for me spamming your notifs in a minute OOPSIE)
the contrast between ichi and aoki's designs is SO good and i love it so much- like Y7 really couldn't stress enough that aoki and ichi were the exact opposite to each other and i live for it 👏👏
PLEASE HE LOOKS SO NICE WITH THAT SHADE THOUGH..
#snap chats#oh i love mitsu tho- its cute how his dress shirt in 2019 has the same design as his shirt from the 2000's#moreover i love how he's like. a part of the family but in the sense where you have that one friend that stays over so much#he might as well live there right. thats the energy mitsu gives and i love it (even if he is technically a part of The Arakawa Family)#his suit being purple is a lot more abundant in rggo's art but i like how its still discernible in his Y7 model#it's a nice way to show him as sort of a bridge for ichi- like helping him get back in contact with arakawa and to get the full scoop#also it was just great to see him again :] he's got My Guy status#ok have i talked like a normal person long enough.... is everyone else gone.... nice....#what movie/show's this from asking for a friend and the friend's me jaLKJAKLEJ#this is just reminding me though that tsutsumi has such a cute smile 😭#bless Why Don't You Play In Hell cause he smiles so much in that movie.. even if its at The Funniest times..#i just wanna go back and watch all my fave roles/scenes with him now.. i shant tho but i will think of them..#but in an attempt to stay on topic maybe i'll dig through the treasure trove of arakawa + makeup ideas i have hoarded#i know i posted that Arakawa Properly Glams Up Daigo one but i know i got jo and masato in the back#no promises though im very fickle but it's necessary to let everyone know I Am Thinking A Lot..
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one thing ive noticed about the way i use tumblr is i don't reblog posts based on whether i think they're "correct" or not. im not combing through every word and tallying up how many unlearned biases the op is displaying. i reblog posts that are emotionally raw. i reblog people who are venting and hurting and being genuine, even if it's messy or unfair in some ways. posts i reblog aren't a moral value, and they aren't teaching materials. im finding moments of community where someone was frustrated or hurt and then dared to be vulnerable and raw. i just find that i value these posts. people's experiences matter, even if their emotions about the experience reveal where they are in their journey. idk it seems like not everyone uses this site in this way
#internet diary archive#even if i don't agree or i notice unlearned bigotry in the expression of the experience.#that was still an experience that someone in a community had#i think i started being able to do this when i learned how to set boundaries in an adult way#someone else's racism can't infect me like a virus. and a limited tolerance for bias can at times help me teach others#and when i am not in the position to teach others then refraining from reinforcing the bias in fact helps others move past their biases#so many tumblr users are obsessed with forcing another to change their mind. and that isn't like ethical or moral per se#it's not right to force it. in fact it's often harmful to try to rewrite someone's biases in a hostile setting#as much as it sucks we can only distribute information and preach kindness and refuse to interact with harmful individuals#we got stuck somewhere with the idea that it's necessary and possible to educate someone who is biased enough to not accept it#and that simply isn't the case and it is significantly more powerful to exclude harmful individuals until they demonstrate that they are#ready to learn and accept responsibility for their own harmful actions and commit themselves to learning respectful behavior#having a community external from abusive parties is so necessary and helpful and it means none of us have to wait until something changes#it's rly hard seeing transfems and intersex folks fighting because usually the hostile party is demonstrating white supremacist ideology#and that isn't unique to any specific group that's just that dogshit rhetoric that got propaganda'd into a brain. nobody is immune#but fascist and white supremacist ideology so often gets ignored in favor of calling out someone's identity. which does not help#i think large swaths of activists are trying to do good and they don't realize that by singling out a victim based on identity then they are#inhibiting and detracting from that person's ability to unlearn the bias they displayed which caused the attack on their identity#idk strawmanning or ad homeniming or no true scotsmaning basically negatively reinforces contact with peers who would otherwise be resources#if we really want to teach others using the tumblr method then we really just have to stop name calling and identity carding#but i suppose i am preaching this t the site which has new teenagers joining daily and which assumes the majority is correct unconditionally#.txt
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Curse of Strahd session got moved up by one day, so now I'm sitting on my hands vibrating and waiting for Saturday.
#hush frenchy#it really helps that my dm is a coworker and she's as excited about it as i am#the other players seem to enjoy the games but i think they enjoy things much quieter than i do#so i feel like I gotta be Chill about this#so it's REAL NICE that the person i have the most direct outside contact with is also impatiently waiting for Saturday#ive been putzing around wyn's pinterest to get back in the Mood#I don't get autumn vibes in my state so i must MANUFACTURE THEM
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A general cane guide for writers and artists (from a cane user, writer, and artist!)
Disclaimer: Though I have been using a cane for 6 years, I am not a doctor, nor am I by any means an expert. This guide is true to my experience, but there are as many ways to use a cane as there are cane users!
This guide will not include: White canes for blindness, crutches, walkers, or wheelchairs as I have no personal experience with these.
This is meant to be a general guide to get you started and avoid some common mishaps/misconceptions in your writing, but you absolutely should continue to do your own research outside of this guide!
This is NOT a medical resource!!! And never tell a real person you think they're using a cane wrong!
The biggest recurring problem I've seen is using the cane on the wrong side. The cane goes on the opposite side of the pain! If your character has even-sided pain or needs it for balance/weakness, then use the cane in the non-dominant hand to keep the dominant hand free. Some cane users also switch sides to give their arm a rest!
A cane takes about 20% of your weight off the opposite leg. It should fit within your natural gait and become something of an extension of your body. If you need more weight off than 20%, then crutches, a walker, or a wheelchair is needed.
Putting more pressure on the cane, using it on the wrong side, or having it at the wrong height can make it less effective, and can cause long term damage to your body from improper pressure and posture. (Hugh Laurie genuinely hurt his body from years of using a cane wrong on House!)
(some people elect to use a cane wrong for their personal situation despite this, everyone is different!)
(an animated GIF of a cane matching the natural walking gait. It turns red when pressure is placed on it.)
When going up and down stairs, there is an ideal standard: You want to use the handrail and the cane at the same time, or prioritize the handrail if it's only on one side. When going up stairs you lead with your good leg and follow with the cane and hurt leg together. When going down stairs you lead with the cane and the bad leg and follow with the good leg!
Realistically though, many people don't move out of the way for cane users to access the railing, many stairs don't have railings, and many are wet, rusty, or generally not ideal to grip.
In these cases, if you have a friend nearby, holding on to them is a good idea. Or, take it one step at a time carefully if you're alone.
Now we come to a very common mistake I see... Using fashion canes for medical use!
(These are 4 broad shapes, but there is INCREDIBLE variation in cane handles. Research heavily what will be best for your character's specific needs!)
The handle is the contact point for all the weight you're putting on your cane, and that pressure is being put onto your hand, wrist, and shoulder. So the shape is very important for long term use!
Knob handles (and very decorative handles) are not used for medical use for this reason. It adds extra stress to the body and can damage your hand to put constant pressure onto these painful shapes.
The weight of a cane is also incredibly important, as a heavier cane will cause wear on your body much faster. When you're using it all day, it gets heavy fast! If your character struggles with weakness, then they won't want a heavy cane if they can help it!
This is also part of why sword canes aren't usually very viable for medical use (along with them usually being knob handles) is that swords are extra weight!
However, a small knife or perhaps a retractable blade hidden within the base might be viable even for weak characters.
Bases have a lot of variability as well, and the modern standard is generally adjustable bases. Adjustable canes are very handy if your character regularly changes shoe height, for instance (gotta keep the height at your hip!)
Canes help on most terrain with their standard base and structure. But for some terrain, you might want a different base, or to forego the cane entirely! This article covers it pretty well.
Many cane users decorate their canes! Stickers are incredibly common, and painting canes is relatively common as well! You'll also see people replacing the standard wrist strap with a personalized one, or even adding a small charm to the ring the strap connects to. (nothing too large, or it gets annoying as the cane is swinging around everywhere)
(my canes, for reference)
If your character uses a cane full time, then they might also have multiple canes that look different aesthetically to match their outfits!
When it comes to practical things outside of the cane, you reasonably only have one hand available while it's being used. Many people will hook their cane onto their arm or let it dangle on the strap (if they have one) while using their cane arm, but it's often significantly less convenient than 2 hands. But, if you need 2 hands, then it's either setting the cane down or letting it hang!
For this reason, optimizing one handed use is ideal! Keeping bags/items on the side of your free hand helps keep your items accessible.
When sitting, the cane either leans against a wall or table, goes under the chair, or hooks onto the back of the chair. (It often falls when hanging off of a chair, in my experience)
When getting up, the user will either use their cane to help them balance/support as they stand, or get up and then grab their cane. This depends on what it's being used for (balance vs pain when walking, for instance!)
That's everything I can think of for now. Thank you for reading my long-but-absolutely-not-comprehensive list of things to keep in mind when writing or drawing a cane user!
Happy disability pride month! Go forth and make more characters use canes!!!
#mobility aid#cane user#writing tips#writing advice#drawing tips#art tutorial#art tips#art reference#art resources#art help#my art#long post
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negativity ahead be cautious
is feeling indescribably shitty every single day even more so than normal for the past three months seasonal depression even if there are only 2 seasons in your country
#repressed anger is a b#i think i am gonna reach my limit for this half of the year very soon#anger management issues + avoidant attachment style is like the most bad person thing ever#i mean if you have those you're not a bad person don't listen to me#i am so tired#my eczema and gastrointestinal issues are flaring up like crazy#which means my anxiety is getting worse and worse because it's the only reason i have so many physical health issues in the first place#senior year is effing me up#and i have the shittiest most anger-inducing history teacher known to man replacing my old history teacher#who wants us to do group presentations to cover the entire fucking rest of the syllabus that my old teacher didn't cover#because this fossil is so lazy to teach that everytime she enters the class it's a 50/50 chance that she gives a “back in my days” lecture#for either half the class or the entire class#i genuinely cannot even tolerate my parents anymore#it was easier to suck it up back when i didn't have many issues#but now i genuinely can't hold myself back from snapping at them#now the least hostile route i can go is feigning ignorance#ignoring them and trying not to appear in their line of sight#or staying in my room for as long as possible so I don't have to make contact with them#okay maybe it is my fault that my stomach literally eats itself every day#but if it helps me not unalive myself then i gotta do what i gotta do if ya know what i mean#can't i just sleep for the entire year#i bet my friends hate me for not replying to their texts for weeks#i was sleeping is such a shitty excuse#but i do sleep 16 hours a day#i genuinely can't do anything so i avoid everything by sleeping#the sound of my mom's voice amplified by the small space in the car actually triggers me#i hate it so fucking much when people sexualise arlecchino#she is not someone low scum like you can touch#and i think I've just been sucking up other people's negativity like a negativity vacuum#because my empathetic ass can't stand to see someone suffering without feeling their emotions
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shoutout to my rock-solid circadian rhythm for successfully tricking my body into thinking it wasn't a fucking crime to be running around on a few hours of scrolling-phone-in-bed time. they all said it couldn't be done but you did it.
#also shoutout to the woman that was about to back out of a parking spot#made eye contact with me#and continued backing out#eventually getting very literal inches away from hitting my car before i escaped#i hate you i hate you i hate you#and to the walmart employee who opened an interaction wherein i needed a stupid sticker on my stupid return items for some stupid reason#by looking me dead in the eyes and saying 'we're out to get you you better watch out!' in a jokey tone of voice#i do not understand what you were referencing but i assume it was something about my mask. i will never know bc i had headphones in#that was the first thing i heard. i hope it was a joke with your coworker but why would you make eye contact with me while saying it then.#i do not hate you because you confused me too much#but! i do take great delight in the fact that you said that‚ i had a complete non-reaction bc i just needed the stupid sticker‚ & suddenly#suddenly you straightened up a bit#because you realised you said something very fucking crazy to a complete stranger whose entire understanding of you will perhaps forever#hinge on this strange and horrible interaction#i'm glad i helped you see that#if that is indeed what you saw#adam yaps#no ykw we had already greeted each other#he dead-ass looked me in the eye made fun of me and i did not respond except i think i said 'i have two returns'#like you think i'm crazy for masking?? when YOU'RE the one threatening a stranger 🤔#😮💨 maybe i misunderstood. i don't fucking know.
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IT CUT OFF HALF OFMY TAGS NOOO
me: *reads over symptoms of autism once again* “see but i don’t get upset over changes in routine, we change the routine all the time and i’m totally okay with it!”
also me since i was a kid: *gets irritated, stressed, angry, aggravated, and depressed for the rest of the day after something is switched to another day* *gets angry, stressed, and depressed, and has a breakdown when i find out we have to cancel plans, even if i didn’t really wanna go to wherever we were planning to go* *gets aggravated and is easily upset and is depressed the whole day after i get to cancel something that i had been planning for but also are relieved that i don’t have to go since i really didn’t want to* *is depressed, angry, irritated, and stressed after we cancel plans that i had zero feelings for up until that point* etc.
#<- I have to say that some of your tags were honestly heart-breaking near the end because I absolutely don't want to ignore you#<<< thank you for being willing to helpme it was not agiven and i'm genuinely sorry they were heartbreaking#and there was the possibility you'd ignore me also because i randomly started telling you things about me without asking if you were okay#with it or giving you a choice whether to listen to me or not in the beginning. i just started saying things so yeah#In fact#If anything#I was terrified that I was being too blunt and that you would hate me for it#<<< no no i wouldn't hate people for being blunt we just communicate differently sometimes but i'm often blunt as well#would never hate people for being blunt instead thank you for the help you're offering me#I am going to try to answer your questions in as much depth as possible and to the extent of my knowledge#Honestly#As I do more research on neurodiversity I will try to keep you updated because I think that might be helpful for you#<<< thank you you're a very kind person genuinely thank you#Also#Apologies for the delay in responding to this but I was trying to answer some of the asks on my main about Greek Mythology and it got late#Not me randomly typing out a whole entire essay on one of my major interests past 11 pm in just slightly more informal English than usual#<<< don't worry i completely understand that i sometimes do similar things as well lol plus people have things to do it wouldn't be right t#ask them to be online constantly. if anything it would most likely be harmful to be online constantly#<- Okay that is absolutely fine#I will try to explain it as much as possible#Masking is common with many neurodivergent people and it essentially involves acting more neurotypical#Ergo hiding some of the person's symptoms which often means that the person would not have to face continuous disrespectful comments#Such as 'you're so loud/annoying' or things more like 'you only ever talk about [your special interest (s)]'#Often#Masking is not even something that someone does on a concious level#Sorry I don't know if I am explaining this very well but masking often does lead to burn out because it tends to take a lot of effort#<<< oh okay thank you for the explanation!#If I were you#I would try and look into examples of (autistic) masking on a platform like Pinterest#This would include things such as forcing eye contact and sometimes ending up staring
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