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daisukekambehateaccount · 6 months ago

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negativity ahead be cautious

is feeling indescribably shitty every single day even more so than normal for the past three months seasonal depression even if there are only 2 seasons in your country

#repressed anger is a b #i think i am gonna reach my limit for this half of the year very soon #anger management issues + avoidant attachment style is like the most bad person thing ever #i mean if you have those you're not a bad person don't listen to me #i am so tired #my eczema and gastrointestinal issues are flaring up like crazy #which means my anxiety is getting worse and worse because it's the only reason i have so many physical health issues in the first place #senior year is effing me up #and i have the shittiest most anger-inducing history teacher known to man replacing my old history teacher #who wants us to do group presentations to cover the entire fucking rest of the syllabus that my old teacher didn't cover #because this fossil is so lazy to teach that everytime she enters the class it's a 50/50 chance that she gives a “back in my days” lecture #for either half the class or the entire class #i genuinely cannot even tolerate my parents anymore #it was easier to suck it up back when i didn't have many issues #but now i genuinely can't hold myself back from snapping at them #now the least hostile route i can go is feigning ignorance #ignoring them and trying not to appear in their line of sight #or staying in my room for as long as possible so I don't have to make contact with them #okay maybe it is my fault that my stomach literally eats itself every day #but if it helps me not unalive myself then i gotta do what i gotta do if ya know what i mean #can't i just sleep for the entire year #i bet my friends hate me for not replying to their texts for weeks #i was sleeping is such a shitty excuse #but i do sleep 16 hours a day #i genuinely can't do anything so i avoid everything by sleeping #the sound of my mom's voice amplified by the small space in the car actually triggers me #i hate it so fucking much when people sexualise arlecchino #she is not someone low scum like you can touch #and i think I've just been sucking up other people's negativity like a negativity vacuum #because my empathetic ass can't stand to see someone suffering without feeling their emotions

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ping-ski · 4 months ago

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highly recommend reading "Dial-Tone Demon" by @sinisternoodles101 and @keplitz

i love the rotary au designs i HAD to stay up and draw em' sorrh its messy im gonna slep now 👍

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triglycercule · 15 days ago

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horrortale waterfall game broke me sorry (hey just like horror!)

#say it with me: average triglycercule art if i locked in #THERES NO FUCKING ART OF THIS CHAPTER YET IS EVERYONE JUST SLEEPING OR SOMETHING!!!!! WHAT!!!!!!!!!#all the blue's supposed to be the light from the core after horror's eye was used to reactivate it btw #and (this was unintentional but anyways) the purpleish tone horror's clothes have is because he said that to aliza in the game #ohhhh my goddddddd....... how much is your life worth......... its worth so much but treated like its nothing #ACTUALLY not EVEN horror's life. just his body. screw the personhood in the first place #hey horror looks awfully similar to another black eyed and mouthed sans out there..... huh...... i wonder who.........#current horror saying that type of shit to past horror AS IF HES NOT SUPPOSED TO BE NICER IN THE FUTURE #this was originally an excuse to draw horror with the new gray eye but then i decided against it smh.......#and also an excuse to draw blood. the ONLY thing i'm good at rendering #my inability to render is really prevalent here. only covered up by the composition and harsh lighting and lineart and whatever the fuck #anyways TRIGLYCERCULE ART???? IN THIS DAY AND AGE?????? when was the last one........... probably my birthday rain of dust art LMAO WHAAAAA #well that completes my shitty trio focused art. killer's bday dust's bday (although it was so ass) and now this! now they all have 1 piece #tricule art #horror sans #horrortale #murder time trio #utmv #sans au #my horror bias has really been showing these past few daus #but i mean........ I MEAN LIKE WHEN HES THE ONLY ONE THAT STILL GETS UPDATES OUT OF THE TRIO IM ALLOWED TO BE OVERJOYED #as the sole horror representative of mtt nation i gotta fucking carry all the other 3 supposed horror enjoyers on my back 😒😒😒😒😒😒😒#bad sanses #bad sans gang #nightmare's gan #eeaaughhhhh hes not part of the gang hes part of the trio...... get horror away from nightmares fugly ass.......euaaghhhhh #but whatever. im so excited for this art to be locked in the Five Note Banger Jail!#IF YOU READ THESE TAGS THIS IS YOUR SIGN TO PLAY THE WATERFALL GAME OR REREAD THE HORRORTALE COMIC 🫵🫵🫵‼️‼️‼️‼️👿👿👿👿👿

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niuxita21 · 4 months ago

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No one:

Absolutely no one:

Meiji: Why would I sit on a chair/the couch when my girlfriend's lap is literally RIGHT THERE

#the two of us #yeah my resolution of waiting for all the episodes to come out to watch all in one go lasted all of 2 days lmao #but I had a family gathering and I needed smth short-ish to watch that would give me an excuse to go into a corner and avoid everyone #and when I saw that there was literally no content on episode 4 (aka THE FLUFFIEST FLUFF THAT EVER FLUFFED)#(although the fact that they probably gave us all that because in the next episode we will Suffer was not lost on me laughcry)#I decided to go ahead and make this post that had been in my head for a while #because I absolutely love this #by far my favourite recurring thing they do nawwwwww #(let's not talk about the fact that I didn't even need to rewatch the whole thing just to search for these instances #because I knew exactly which ones they were lolllll)#anyways they have absolutely NO RIGHT to be this sickeningly adorable I'm gonna call the police #they have completely taken over my life like I used to be a normal person with a semi-decent sleep schedule and now look at me #not a single regret though #shitty screencap posts (TM)

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kabukeo · 6 months ago

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0505 doodle before i sleep

#meursault lcb #lcb meursault #lcb #limbus company #selfcest #my art #kabu art #i think ive captioned like five different drawings with <[...] before i sleep>#its my shorthand for <excuse the shittiness>

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aizawaondrugs · 1 year ago

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@rayshippouuchiha : posts something I have absolutely no idea about in a fandom I've never been part of

Me, absolutely not specifically seven crows in a disguise, still finding it relatable/shiny:

Also here's my cat holding still for a picture after I told her it was for Ray (betrayal lol she never does that for anyone else):

#Naruto meme #pls excuse my shitty Photoshop skills #also #RAY #STOP MAKING RELATABLE POINTS ABOUT FICTIONAL MEN OLD ENOUGH TO BE MY FATHER #(or at least they were when I first saw them...)#YOU SPECIFICALLY GAVE ME A DADDY KINK #BECAUSE OF AIZAWA #AND KAKASHI #I'll stop there bc I honestly don't have time for the full round up which is a shame #BUT YOU ALSO GOT ME INTERESTED IN FANDOMS AND CROSSOVERS #my poor sleep schedule 😔#don't take this too seriously #bc I also love you and my cat poses for pictures when I tell her it's for you #I'm pretty sure she just likes the sound of Ray though

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momentomori24 · 3 months ago

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Another Dead Plate AU sketch! Just practicing Shin's uniform again. Since I couldn't make up my mind on a single design, I'm just going to go off the idea that Hiyori just makes him wear a different uniform every day because he's demanding like that. That's one way to step around an issue!

#yttd #your turn to die #dead plate soushin au #sou hiyori #shin tsukimi #midori yttd #soushin #look i had to sneak them in there a little #this was supposed to be all shin rocking different outfits but i decided to add soushin as well. i couldn't repress the toxic yaoi urges #i got new fineliners so i saw this as an excuse to use em #also yes shin is drinking two cups of coffee with straws don't judge him #weird quirks and eyebags and early greying due to sleep deprivation and stress are common consequences from putting up with that guy daily #i like how this is still shin not having a great time 💀 he's just getting overworked by his scary boss i'm so sorry boo #anywho apologies for the shitty photo quality #momento doodles 'n sketches

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albonoooo · 26 days ago

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i've had a headache all fucking day and it's been a rough few days mentally for no reason and tomorrow will be so busy and i just wanna sleep for a week. god i am so ready for winter break

#i'm about to go to bed and i better fucking sleep well #excuse the whining please i've just been feeling so shitty and idk wHY #just gotta get through this week

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great-tusk · 4 months ago

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Ugh. I had a really bad day.

#chat sesh with iris #vent in the tags #had to get a super personal reminder of someone who I used to know who left me YEARS AGO but it still upsets me to hear her name and I #literally saw HER MOM who proceeded to talk a bunch about what she’s been doing #tw suicide mention #tw suicidal ideation #in the tags lol #so warning that it’s in the next tag #like I think about killing myself whenever I have a passing thought about her so this was too much #I’m not going to do it I’m physically safe 👍👍👍 but like #even despite all of the shitty things that happened I was still having a pretty good week because like. people have been really nice to me.#and I’ve been having a little fun #but this is way too far to excuse like practically no matter what else happened or happens 😭😭😭#like hearing how much better her life is than mine #I literally had to physically leave the situation #like she had finally after YEARS(!!!) gotten mostly off of my mind #but not anymore #the heaviest sigh ever #anyway I would apologize for venting but like this is my blog 👍👍👍#I don’t really have anywhere else to talk about it #like even the people who I consider my best friends did not care or respond or ask questions when I mentioned that I was having like a-#breakdown in public #other than one #shoutouts #and I’m probably going to sleep really soon so maybe I’ll wake up and think this is too personal and delete it #like if I’m only posting because of how tired I was #or who knows maybe my thoughts will keep me awake for hours #I still have nightmares about her #BLUE AND DAWN AND HOP AND ARVEN AND GREEN SAVE ME!!!!!

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partydummyy · 11 months ago

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Some doodles I have been drawing due to the lack of creativity

Probably gonna delete this at some point

#it’s 4 am I need help I need to sleep #horrortale #undertale #underswap #undertale toriel #undertale papyrus #undertale frisk #undertale undyne #undertale au #underswap asgore #underswap undyne #underswap sans #underswap frisk #underswap Chara #horrortale sans #excuse the shitty calligraphy #there’s nothing romantic here/srs #my art #aik-is-tired

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edenfoxi · 1 month ago

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At this point I refuse to listen to anything writers on Twitter have to say about shit they wrote unless I see it in the media they wrote. The only exception is if it's so undeniably funny that I must accept it as canon. But even that has a breaking point.

#this may be about dragon age #i won't confirm or deny...maybe #but I've seen it elsewhere too #this isn't a twitter only thing obvs but it always seems to happen there doesn't it?#Ok fuck it Lucanis being a virgin is kinda funny #but i don't think he's asexual or demi i think it's an excuse #for her being shit at writing romance #im not ace but im aro. i don't appreciate a similar identity being used as a scapegoat for shitty writing #or for unfinished writing. even if the author isn't at fault #idc if ppl headcanon him as ace or demi. do whatever #but don't tell me it's canon bc a shitty writer is running away from her shitty writing #Emmrich sleeping standing up is funny but so dumb i refuse to accept it #just admit you didn't have time to finish it bruh

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thnksfrthmmrs · 9 months ago

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#i do not want to work tomorrow i want to lay in bed and be sad #i’m really realizing how miserable of a person i am i am always fucking Sad and when i do feel happy i cry when it’s over #and i can’t even resemble a human being without medication and i know that’s fine but i’m still always sad. it doesn’t go away #i feel like nobody deserves to have me weighing them down like i’ve cried in front of people three times this week and i know it’s fine #but i feel so fucking guilty about it and i feel guilty about everything i feel like i’m doing nothing right and i’m not dealing with thing #right and i’m not living right and i feel like it must be so fucking difficult to love me and i don’t know how people do it #i don’t even feel capable of asking for. any sort of love ever #i feel like i don’t deserve like anything. i feel like nobody actually wants to do things for me lol #every single dsy i’m like wow i want to be held and every single dsy i feel bad even asking for a hug from someone #when i need reassurance i’m afraid to ask because what if i’m just being annoying and overbearing and too much Bad #i never feel like too much good. only bad.#i know a lot of these shitty thoughts are just because i’ve been unmedicated (meds will be ready tomorrow lol) but it just like #it sucks to know medication just kinda hides these thoughts better and that deep down i feel like this because i don’t want to #i feel like everyone in my life doesn’t deserve someone who doubts everything all the time #i think my mother deserved a stronger daughter and i think my friends deserve someone that’s not always breaking and i just don’t feel Good #i don’t know why anyone keeps me around #sometimes i feel selfish for sticking around and that sounds so awful and i’m not gonna act on it but i just feel like a waste of a person #the last week has been so good and now i’m just a fucking mess and i feel so fucking guilty about that :)#i feel like no matter what i always just default to miserable #i don’t feel like i’m doing enough at all #i’m struggling in school i don’t work enough i can barely take care of myself #like i wouldn’t even properly take care of myself if taylor wasn’t helping me i feel so guilty about that all the time #i feel so guilty for even thinking any of this right now and i’m trying to remind myself that i’m unmedicated and i’ve had a long day #and my best fucking friend just went back home and i’m allowed to be sad about that but i just. feel like i’m making excuses i guess #it’s not immoral to be sad but maybe when i’m wanting to die all the time i’m the problem. idk #anyway i’m gonna go to sleep and i’m gonna try to convince myself tomorrow will be better #sndnsksjkakejdkalwosjhdkwosjdjsk. i will be fine

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yunogf · 1 year ago

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#been sitting in my car for 30 min after clocking out then just making up errands to have an excuse to do smth #so i dont have to go home &be alone until i have smth to do again (go to work the next morning) :(((((#hate how u can go a whole day w out seeing someone &think ok maybe i can get a good nights sleep but then they show up #10 min before u leave for the day &then ur night is ruined bc u have trouble falling asleep #then have stress dreams when u do finally fall asleep #😞😞#ik its bc i havent confronted anything but i dont see myself ever doing it or rather initiating the confrontation bc idt it's my place #like what right do i have to disrupt what someone else has going to bring myself some ease #idk this probably doesnt make any sense i just need to vent bc i have cried in my car everyday after work for a month 😭#im ok ive just landed myself in a particularly shitty situation but only for me #everyone else is fine 🫠#&im a chronic overthinker so i have all these thoughts just swirling around &festering #im driving myself insane &then whenever im around.....the other ppl in this situation.....theres never a chance to let any of it out #im gonna explode at some point i know it &i dont want that to happen bc i dont want to be mean :(( but i also dont want to grow to resent #anyone bc this shit hasnt been properly dealt with :(((((#ugh .#changing of the weather isnt helping i feel like im 16 again in my dark bedroom driving myself insane 😭😭

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chaos-coming · 2 years ago

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And now for my weekly sunday complaint post about how much i hate hate hate christianity

(The church bells woke me up way too early, again)

Good morning, happy lack of sleep and high blood pressure, the christians are rhythmlessly banging metal for three!! entire!! minutes!! They have to make sure you cant go back to sleep because its their God Time.

And since they need to insert themselves into every facet and moment of your life, you are also having Their God Time now. Fuck you nobody gets to sleep on sunday this is europe, conform or be destroyed.

#im so sick of waking up cranky on sunday #but is swear the so called bells are ugly rhythmless clanging metal #and besides being ugly to hear and an imposition of their shitty religion on my life #it rips me out of sleep and i think something terrible is happening because it Does Not Sound like this cacophony is intentional #and my sleeping brain registers emergency of some sort #and i wake up tense and swearing and it takes an hour to get my heartbeat back to normal #seriously unpleasant but theres no way to complain bc the church is more powerful ghan the govt in thiis backwater excuse for a country #one more month in this hell #at least in scandinavia they arent quite so mideival about christianity #i cant take it anymore i hate those bells so mucb #i wonder if i can leave an anonymous complaint on their google maps listing #but asking them to not go fucking apeshit with the bells 3 times a day on sunday will probably be perveived as a hate crime #to these entitled babies living in this country #ggggrrrrr tldr im so fucking sick of high blood pressure first thing. i hate the church.#i wanna go back to bed but theyll be banging away again in like an hour #get me tf out of this mideival joke of a country i hate central europe so much

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naturalld · 8 months ago

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#love having to buy a lawn mower because the downstairs neighbor used to do it but because he is moving out first it is now my problem #but I don’t have a lawn mower and now i have to use money I’m saving to move to buy a fucking lawn mower or else charges the landlord #I hate it I hate it I hate it #why whywhywhy #vent #i hate the state of living in this country and I hate that I have to basically find an entire month’s worth of work amount in money just to #move to a tiny ass thing that won’t even be mine #i hate that if I don’t have the knowledge of every single law/ ordinance of this tiny ass town memorized the landlord makes a angry face #the lack of money angers me #money in general angers me #WHY DOES THIS SHITTY GREEN PAPER DETERMINE MY LIFE #I CANT SLEEP #I CANT THINK #I AM FALLING APART AT THE SEAMS BUT I HAVE TO HOLD IT ALL TOGETHER MY SOURCE OF INCOME WILL TELL ME IM NOT DOING ENOUGH #THEN I HAVE TO DEFEND MYSELF WITHOUT DEFENDING MYSELF BECAUSE DEFENDING MYSELF IS AN EXCUSE AND I JUST HAVE TO GET CREATIVE #i wish i could step out of time and space and just exist alone for a little bit because being a human being is overwhelming #im so tired

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iamfuckingsorry · 8 months ago

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what are you sorry for

I was very sorry for just about everything back when I made this blog in like 2013

#i've talked about this at some point but it took me like a full month to come up with my tumblr url #and then one afternoon i was sitting in french class and i wasn't having a very good day #and i was trying my best to look like i was normal and doing just fine (though i did probably cry a little bit lets be honest)#but the only thing going through my mind was.#“im so sorry for what a failure i am. so sorry for everyone who has to meet me and deal with me.”#“sorry for my parents who got such a shitty worthless kid. im so sorry so sorry so sorry for being alive”#just like on repeat. for the entire class. i was just sitting there blinking aggressively not being able to think of anything else #and i was like. yeah. that's the essence of who i am as a person. i am sorry. i am a sorry excuse for a human and i fuck everything up #it'll be a good tumblr url.#needless to say my entire adulthood's been a breeze compared to that shit lol. so there's good sides to it too i guess #like it hasn't always been good or easy. but no matter how bad stuff goes i can always look at how i was doing at 13 #and go #“you're nearly 30 and you're still alive. you have a job that pays your rent. you don't cry yourself to sleep on most nights.”#“your 13-year-old self would be so fucking impressed. i'm pretty sure she'd think you were making shit up if you tried to tell her.”#“you're doing better than you could ever have hoped for my friend. keep it up.”#herr's personal tag #noelleaxolotl #ask

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