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residentmara · 11 months

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my ass really be like

*doesnt show up for a week*

hey guys im back heres 50 drawings in one day

#mara rambles /silly #txt #BRO I ALWAYS FORGET TO DRAW FOR LIEK. DAYS #AND THEN WHEN IM OUT OF MY RUT #BAM.#DRAWING TOO DAMN MUCh /sily

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omppupiiras · 8 months

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i loved this bit of the ruoska performance so much 😍

#käärijä #erika vikman #ruoska #my stuff #quick drawing to get myself out of my drawing rut bc i have SO MANY THINGS i want to draw #in my head im working on all of them when in reality im getting nothing done

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a-drama-addict · 5 months

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little grumpy sigrid doodle

#im in a little art rut with inspiration wise. cuz i'll have so so many ideas to draw and then i sit down to draw and my hands just go 'no'#but its getting better :)#so a little practice drawing sig was in order #this is probably circa act 3-ish when her hair is a bit more grown out and messy #my art #oc: sigrid #bg3 #durge #i'm also writing some stuff to explore her character a bit more so maybe i might share that. who knows

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wolfiemun-official · 4 months

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I've got like 2 months worth of stuff from my Twitter that is slowly making its way here

My favorite thing is still werewolf Shadowheart keeping Lae'zel and their egg warm

#bg3 #im deep in shadowzel #especially when it comes to werewolf Shadowheart #the moment i found out her dad was a werewolf #i knew what i had to do #got me out of a 2 year art rut #my style is rapidly changing after not drawing for so long #srry guys

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cloudd-nyne · 5 months

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#having a creative rut feeling #gonna rant #im basically a giant baby and i don't handle angst very well #and i constantly worry that im just. idk mentally weak or a deeply uninteresting person bc of it.#every big fantasy artist i see is usually very into making sad or angsty pieces and like i wish i was like that #like i fall into this mental hole very very often that im just holding myself back with how many subjects i dont write or draw #but also like when i DO write dark subjects it doesn't make me feel any better??#i dont like feeling sad or angry bc once i am its extremely hard to get back out of it.#and thats scary for me.#but also i want to make art that means something instead of my nonestop slew of smut and feelgood content.#i genuinely feel so trapped by my own emotions and its sp frustrating.#i keep getting told how good for you it is to get the negative feelings out but it never helps when i do it #i just feel. worse? i dont feel good.#i kinda wanna delete the one cloud post bc it just doesn't feel good.#ugh #idk i want to have good intelligent things to say and thoughtful art to make #and everything i make feels soft and cheesey and lame.#not that i find those things lame #but just that it feels like im stuck in baby brain.#when i was a teen i would write horror stories!!! i still love horror!!!#but if i make someone suffer in fic now it feels me with this awful awful overwhelming sense of dread and guilt and i end up so upset #im frustrated at me bc this is such a fucking weird sensitivity to have. im tried of telling myself its okay #bc i WANT to feel mentally free enough to create shit that isnt just uwu soft.#i don't think im making sense but like.#you know #I've literally been bullied out of fandom spaces for only making soft content #multiple times.#so idk maybe this is a learned sense of shame #but i feel like a big over sensitive baby and like I'd be able to do so much more if i wasn't #vent ish

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angelstrawbabie420 · 11 days

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in my quest to quell my pain ive only hurt myself worse. damned if i do damned if i dont.

#i need better coping mechanisms but it’s so easy to just turn to substances when you’ve never learned how to cope w your emotions #and physical pain. however a lot of it has been brought on by the substance abuse aka i did it to myself #so i probably deserve it #but i started with them in the first place to get rid of pain that was so overwhelming and constant #it feels like every time i do something to preserve myself im punished for it #and im so sick of it. i cant believe its gotten this bad #i drink to help the pain -> i get hungover and the pain is way worse -> i drink to stop that pain #and the worst part is it always works #realistically ive depended on substances for like a decade #i started drinking at 13 and fell into a rut of alcoholism at like 15/16 #my mom was going thru a phase of alcoholism and roped me into it so bad if be woken up by her bringing me a drink at 9 am #and we’d drink till she passed out and i had to walk her to bed and cook for everyone and do all the chores #it went on for months one summer #then it was weed and i smoked every day from like 18-22 #only thing thwt stopped me from drinking until i started again after both my parents died #i havent recovered since.#im still so traumatized and depressed that i looked for any method of relief #the dph phase was the worst. i think alc is even better than that lmfao it was horrible #once i got access to alc i stopped all that. wouldnt have if i hadnt had alc tho #it’s honestly been one addiction after the other for a decade #and my parents fueled so much of it #‘oh id rarher you drink under my eye than do it behind my back’#BRUH YOU WOULDNT LET ME GO ANYWHERE OR DO ANYTHING. HOW WOULD THWT HAVE HAPPENED #crazy how i was obsessed w drugs and shit by the time i was 10 and i remember thinking wow im gojna grow up to be an addict.#why am i so irreparably fucked up #idk whatever. like im not gonna drink abt it lmao.

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byrdtrollsunoreversearchive · 5 months

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robin will be like [experiences something traumatic] why am I not able to draw immediately one day after this

#robin rambles #sighhhhhhhhhhh #just when I was getting out of my rut #im trying very hard to be normal #but the paranoid psychotic in me #finds it so so hard to feel safe #after something like this #it does not help that the video of me being arrested was so widespread on the internet #like strangers walking up to me saying they saw it #idk. what happened has not left my body.#not yet

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the-kestrels-feather · 6 months

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Anyone else have big dreams and no idea how to realistically achieve them and a fear of inadequacy so they're worried they're going to stagnate in their current situation because they're too afraid to leave it or is that just me?

#personal #inferiority complex #i have so much shit i want to do #i want to leave the job im im because i dont like it #i want to be using my degree for mkre than i am #i want to be working full time in theagre and/or film #and i keep applying for jobs and just get every door slammed in my fucking face every time #and now im almost 26 so i have to worry about any job i *do* take offering insuramce #and the job im in right now 'much as i hate it has insirance for when i turn 26 #and I'm afraid to leave because of that even though they don't even pay me a livable wage #if i wasn't living with my parents I'd probably be homeless or have 0 savings #and its not like i can really say fuck it and quit and move somewhere more conducive to what I want to do because I have savings #because I need a job somewhere that can pay me enough to support rent and has insurance and those are in short supply #i just feel like shit #i feel like im stuck in this rut and don't know how to get out of it and am never gonna get out #im just exhausted

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theindulgencebin · 1 year

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it was a really weird chapter but the costumes were cute idk

#KuruLee #my art #(also basically for context; Kururu puts the four humans under hypnosis #so that they can fight the other four members of the platoon #because Kururu wants to use some convoluted and ridiculous way #to basically kick his teammates into high gear #so that when an actual threat suddenly appears #they just kick his ass and go right back to fighting their friends #as soon as the legit threat is dead he stops the hypnosis immediately #and is like LOL IM BORED NOW BYEEE #it was his way of him basically shaking them out of their ruts bc they were all getting too cozy on earth #but he can't just do it in a normal nice guy way he has to do this weird shit #anyways #context delivered... have some of my own personal stupid fanservice #hehehe)

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sorenlionheart · 10 months

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i have to admit its kinda crazy being involved in fandoms again since the last time ive really been involved in a fandom was during my steven universe days

#soren.txt #aka when i was a teenager and what was happening in my life at the time was really Not Great #so i guess ive spent the past couple of years recollecting myself and everything #its nice that im finally in a stable point with my mental health so that i can actually connect with other people again #among other things #in case you're wondering. the o/wl h/ouse fandom doesn't really count bc i was sticking to the sidelines 90% of the time #with my own little niche in the corner lol #i do appreciate t/oh a ton though even still for getting me back into writing #there was straight up a period in 2021 where i was just writing a ton and not posting any of it bc 1. i wasn't confident in my skills #and 2. i was extremely depressed. like extremely *extremely* depressed so i didn't feel worthy of posting any of it #im actually glad i didnt. i think it was better to just have this little story solely for me and not worry about quality #im pretty sure writing was one of the things that helped me crawl out of my depression rut #so im grateful for it

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crowlore · 11 months

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i love art and making art so terribly and yet. i cannot do it. lol!

#what i desperately need to do is get back in the habit of just. doodling. every day. anything is fine #just to build a rhythm back up like i had when i was in school. cause im in this rut now that im struggling to get out of #like when i started college i was so excited to get up first thing and paint the sunrise. it was amazing #oh god i started college 8 years ago. what the hell am i doing #im sure im just delirious from not eating a full meal since sunday and i'll feel better once i can find something to eat but man #anyway i should have some free time this weekend i just need someone to hold my feet to the fire and really get on my case to draw

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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streaming comic-makin sessions would be a nightmare cause i know damn well id just be digitally pacing between twitter and youtube before actually doin shit. it'd be like trying to host a writing stream where everyone would look at a blank canvas for half an hour as i try to figure out what the fuck im gonna do

#snap chats #having a whole ass crisis ignore me #this is one of the rare times where drafting a comic is taking longer than five minutes uh oh #i have one more commission to do this week but i wanted to finish the outline to a comic i wanna do #but the problem is i wanted to try writing it as a full fic first just to see if i could get myself familiar with the vibe i wanted #and now aint NOTHIN gettin done cause yk my comics are At Max six pages long with me #but this one should only really max be one or two but when i put shit into fic form i feel like i gotta make that shit longer ?????#like bro you coulda wrapped this up a thousand words ago bro we JUST needed an outline we dont need all this extra shit #like Welcome Back To The Demo We All Know i hate having the conundrum of not knowing if i wanna make an idea a fic or art.. horrendous #so now im stuck in that very familiar rut where its like. Thing I Want to Do vs Thing I Have To Do vs Other Thing I Want To Do #cause alternatively i could just go straight into making a rough draft of the comic cause In My Mind's Eye i think i have what i want #but yk. wanted to try 'scripting' for once in six months and now look where we are..#in any case im just gonna go make a rough sketch of that commission i guess and see how i feel when i come back #i especially want to finish that commission cause i do want to try streaming again this weekend so.#best to have that out of the way so i dont worry #ok im gonna stop procrastinating now bye

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audarcy · 1 year

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tip for writers: read awful shit sometimes. not just to be able to pull it apart and get a better understanding of what works vs what doesnt, but also because it will make your own prose go down like figs and honey on a hot roman summer day in comparison

#maybe i shouldnt be proud of this but when im in a rut nothing helps me out like reading mediocre to godawful prose.#just puts such a spring in my step.#emmaposting #writing

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aastarions · 1 year

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thinking filthy thoughts

zhongli and piss

#c shut up #it just invaded my brain and knocked me tf out #everyone in l*yue sees him so proper so old fashioned maybe even slightly boring #but hes so filthy so filthy with you #he has no restraint #so when you come into his office sitting pretty in his lap #distracting him from paperwork #just when hes about to bend you over the desk you try and get up claiming you have to pee #and the most wicked thought crosses through his mind #so he doesnt let you go #ruts his thigh up between your own and revels in your surprised expression #OK BYEEEEEE IM NOT WRITING A HWOLE THING IN THE TAGS #cw piss

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girlmania · 2 years

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one of the worst things you can do is log onto your social media you used throughout junior and high school as an adult

#i had to talk myself out of killing myself for like a good hour #like why is everyone living the life i want #like everyone is traveling and/or dating and everyone has gotton so so pretty and are getting degrees #I also saw the profile of this guy i had a crush on back then and like dating for a week and he got so hot and is becoming an engineer #like why do I feel like im the only one struggling and is still confused and on what they want to do and what they want to be #like everyone said life gets better after you leave school but it didn't #it wasn't good back then and it just got worse after like when is my life going to become something i dont hate #i feel like ive been stuck in this rut of i dont even know and years later and im still stuck

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day-mark · 1 month

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supposed to be finishing dreams birthday art but got incredibly side-tracked by a very self-indulgent dteam x fire emblem game idea

#i was thinking about stat allocation and classes but THEN I REMEMBERED EVERYONE GETS A CUSTOM SKILL TOO #also this birthday art is killing me Oh My God #why did i sign up for so many collabs when im in a major art rut rn 😭😭😭😭#(i was trying to force myself out of it but it just lead to procrastination and not liking what i make 😔)

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