#AM I ALONE IN MY SUFFERING?!
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Homer!Odysseus and Epic!Odysseus would try to kill each other if they ever met
#Homer!Odysseus: you sacrificed your men to save yourself? Detestable coward! How I wish I was never born if it would ensure you had not the#Epic!Odysseus: youâd understand if you *loved your wife.* But I guess a guy who stayed with Circe for a year wouldnât know that!#H!Odysseus: do not speak of things you know nothing about! I long for my return to sweet Penelope but I have a duty to my men#E!Odysseus: A YEAR. A WHOLE YEAR. I WOULD KILL ANYTHING AND ANYONE TO GET A HOME A YEAR FASTER#H!Odysseus: that was clear when you served Scylla six men like they were cattle!#E!Odysseus: it was them or me! And donât keep talking about my friends like you did any better. youâll go home alone too#H!Odysseus: they doomed themselves when they ate Hyperionâs golden cattle. I am not responsible for their suffering. But you could have ens#H!Odysseus: Now Eurylochusâs body lies at the bottom of the sea where there can be no burial and no honour#E!Odysseus: AND IâLL GO HOME TO MY WIFE. MY BEAUTIFUL PERFECT LOVELY LOYAL WIFE WHOâS BEEN WAITING FOR ME FOR TWENTY YEARS.#E!Odysseus: and when I go home and she asks if I came back as fast as I could Iâll be able to answer honestly#H!Odysseus: WE HAD BEEN THROUGH MANY TRIALS. THE MEN NEEDED TO REST#E!Odysseus: FOR A YEAR???? DID THEY NEED TO REST FOR A YEAR??? AND DID THEY NEED THAT REST RIGHT AFTER A MONTHâS LONG REST WITH AEOLUS??? S#H!Odysseus: IF YOU WISHED FOR ITHACA SO DESPERATELY WHY DIDNâT YOU OBEY PALLAS ATHENA AND KILL THE CYCLOPS#E!Odysseus: *drawing sword* I WAS HAVING A ROUGH DAY#Epic the musical#Epic odysseus#The odyssey#odysseus#Homer#Greek mythology#Jorge rivera-herrans#nuclear war speaks
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as âso bland he's tempted to throw salt on himselfâ and âall he could do is lay around and wait for deathâ (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on âShen Yuan isnât lazyâ is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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AAAAUUUUGGGHHHH *telepathically projects my cramps onto comfort character with my incredibly powerful mind*
#I am NOT suffering aloneâźď¸âźď¸đž#dib membrane#dib#dib invader zim#dib iz#invader zim#iz#my art
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Im obsessed with her. The hyperfixation is deep and I am willingly burying myself with dirt.
#rozzum unit 7134#I am literally obsessed with her#roz the wild robot#the brink of insanity is waiting upon me and the wind blows#roz#the wild robot fanart#the wild robot#art#she is now my new robot wife#vontra get out of the way#she is mine (and finks) aloneâŚ.plus Brightbill he is our son#if i have to suffer so do you#am 1 tyâs art#am-1-tyâs art
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#gif#why do I have to spend every christmas and every birthday alone#for what am I being punished#I am a good person#and I donât think this suffering has any sense#itâs just that in life the happy people have good things coming their way#and the sad people always just get more trauma#I know I could have a relationship if I didnât have such a traumatic childhood#my trauma lets me reject the good guys and waste my time with the aholes#but i donât know what to do about it#every nice guy I met absolutely wasnât attractive to me#and we also didnât have anything in common#so Iâm not even regretting rejecting them cause it wouldnât have worked out#and they deserve someone who actually fancies them#i just wonder why I never met a nice guy that I have common interests with#or who matched my preferences lookwise#it really feels like Iâm simply not allowed to ever meet the right person#and gotten to the point where I swipe for hours have a lot of matches and then ghost everyone#as I just know it either will be someone nice but not attractive to me or an ahole#I just donât have any energy left anymore#I just want to experience love so bad but canât do these dates anymore#Iâm so so tired
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Every time I see Odysseus described as any of the following:
"Simp" (God forbid men actually healthily love their family and wife a completely reasonable amount.)
"Wet Cat" (What does that even mean exactly?? But whatever it means the vibe does not match up at all.)
"Bottom" (This man honestly has more top energy than literally every other character in this musical including the gods.)
"Homeless man" (He did not spend 20 years trying to go to the home that he has and that wants him back just to be denied his belonging there.)
"Monster/Villain/Evil" (He calls himself that enough. Can we please stop with the Odysseus demonization I am literally begging as hard as Poseidon did in 600 Strike.)
I lose a piece of my sanity.
Obviously I'm not personally attacking anyone btw. I'm just venting. Joking around is one thing but why do I see so many people treat these as canon traits? Am I in some weird corner of this fandom that I shouldn't be in?
#epic the musical#epic musical#epic odysseus#the oddyssey#odysseus epic#jorge rivera herrans#if i had a nickel for every time a strong assertive leader man got uwu-fied i would be a very sad millionaire#it happens every time and i am seriously wondering why#is it wishful thinking??#if so y'all have very different wishes from my own#leave him alone please he has suffered enough#truly ANYONE topping odysseus is cursed asf to me#have you seen him??#did we listen to the same musical?#it genuinely shocked me to see how he was perceived when i first entered the fandom#i had listened to the musical in my own time before coming here#maybe considering this happens every time i shouldnt be surprised#but somehow i am every time
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Linktober 2024, Day 1, Mirror (Self)
Alright here we go again.
Technically a sneak peak of a bigger thing to come in the future that I'm repurposing, and the result of my final playthrough and readthrough before EoW dropped being Four Swords Adventures and that made me sad about Shadow Link again.
Note that this is for the Four Swords Adventures iteration of Shadow Link that might evolve into an LU Shadow, not Dark Link in either LOZ or LU, I have other plans for him.
This one shot was brought to you by Scars by The Crane Wives, Ribs by The Crane Wives, Ruin by The Amazing Devil and Two Minutes by The Amazing Devil because the author's playlist decided to be incredibly cheeky when they blacked out to write this like an ancient seers being cursed with visions and then called mad and hearing they've been put up for execution.
As always the nature of the relationship can be romantic or platonic, mostly due to the author's time constraints and further plans.
Anyway enjoy the reading!
It was cold.
The sort of cold after a wildfire, when everything's turned back to ash, the sort that left burned your vision white after the flames licked through your veins and left an ache in your bones. He shuddered, coughed black onto the stone floor, shaking with a muffled whimper.
It never got any easier, being dragged from the Dark World and into the Realm of Light, the goddesses' world itself revolting against an intruder, wanting the wound torn asunder into their oh so precious realm cauterized. To purge the intrusion and smite it where it stands.
Too bad for them (and for him), his master didn't particularly care about what the world wanted. Didn't particularly care that he hadn't grow accustomed to the pain or the cold, he had to stand up. There was work to be done.
(Shadow gritted his teeth, willed himself not to think about the prophecy of a golden haired princess- because whether he liked it or not, it was prophecy. As those with divinity running through their veins are wont to spill from their throats so carelessly- of violet eyes and a smile a third moonlight and hands holding a hammer.
It always hurt more, after one of the heroes liberated one of the maidens, or the jewels, the pain lingering for days afterwards and carving a home in his metaphorical bones. But just this once he'd take the cold bite of the Four Swords over the pain in the hole in his chest that Vio's betrayal had left, something that felt so much worse than every other time before.
Just this once he wished that maybe, just maybe, the hurt would be too much to bear, that he wouldn't wake up again-
Why? Why does it hurt so much but he's still here? He already knew the Light was uncompromising and unforgiving, but he thought them at least above curses.)
His ears twitched as soft, almost silent footsteps came up to his side. Someone crouching by his fallen form, setting a cautious hand over his own that Shadow couldn't help but draw away from with a hiss, blinking as his eyes adjusted to the world again, to your face, carefully blank as you guided him to lean against your side, a silver choker with a crimson gem winked mockingly at him, the shade closing his eyes and going boneless against your side.
Shadow was so, so tired.
He heard you quietly sigh, plucking his cap from his head and running your fingers through dark amethyst, smoke and mist made hair. "I told you so."
"Shut up." He grumbled, nuzzling further into the crook of your neck. One clawed hand curling against your free wrist, digging into the skin. Absentmindedly noting there were new scratches just above the metal.
It was routine by now, the warmth of your existence against his own a welcome balm, not quite of the Realm of Light where it's unpleasant, not too close to the Dark World where he felt like melting back into the embrace of the darkness, only to howl in agony at being dragged out.
Memories not quite his own bled into his mind all the time. How you'd shape ice into flowers for the princess in winter with nary a though, of blinking and from one second to the next you'd have whatever sword he had hostage if you though it was time for a break with a smile brighter than the sun.
His master had changed that though. It took months for you to stop trying to claw the collar out and to stop trying to fight Vaati.
(Funny how holding a mage's dragon as a bargaining chip is just as effective as kidnapping a ruler.)
Your gaze flicked to the polished obsidian of the Dark Mirror, to the gold, ornate frame. "The offer is still open, you know. Let me take the suffering from you."
"No." He scowled, leaning back to glare into your eyes, a hint of fangs poking out from a maw struggling to keep the shape of a human jaw, "You helped him. Helped them." Shadow spat, there is that hurt again.
You shrugged, a movement that's just slightly awkward as you flinch, "That I did." You confirmed simply, it almost made Shadow see red as he leaned away, knocking your hand from his head in the process, but if there's anything him and the heroes shared, was a lack of a desire to hurt you. It was a little grating to be honest, "Vio even offered to take me with him, to be honest."
"Then why didn't you leave?" He demanded.
Why did you stick around?
Your eyes shuttered, a hint of conflict in your pursed lips. Before you found your words, they come out softly, "You wouldn't believe me if I told you why. You'll just have to find out yourself."
You tug your wrist from his grasp, and Shadow lets you go.
(Stubbornly pushing down on memories and emotions that arearen'tarenotanymore quite his.)
You stand and turn away, pushing the curtains away from your sight, you turn your tired eyes to Shadow with an emotion he can't put a name to. "Just keep it in mind that there's more than one way to end this. Nothing is truly inevitable."
Shadow watches you go. 'There's nothing that can be done. He tells himself, hand hesitating above the Dark Mirror, briefly, it curls into a fist. The hero's original self stares back at him.
'⌠Does he really believe that?'
He shakes his head, and focuses on willing the Dark Mirror to show him his counterpart.
His chest still hurts.
#summer writes linktober 2024#lu shadow x reader#well implied#shadow link x reader#lu vio x reader x shadow link#lu four x reader#if we count both Vio and Shadow as part of him which I both do and don't (it's complicated)#lu four x reader x lu shadow#You ever think that considering how Shadow isn't human and a reflection of someone else#that he likely struggles with human feelings and putting a proper name to them?#and that he might share memories and emotions with Four/Link and have a hard time discerning what is his and what isn't#and just possible identity issues in general from being separated from what's essentially every other part of himself?#because I do. A lot. It lives in my head rent free#man I want to write more about this guy#is Reader from Hyrule? Are they isekaied and just doing their best to blend in and somehow ended up a magic user?#Are they a secret third thing or a guide au iteration?#Who knows! (the author does but is too sleep deprived to elaborate)#All they know is that they're have feelings (up to interpretation) for Link and are close to Zelda#that Shadow may have stolen their dragon but they don't want to let him suffer alone now that Vio is gone even though they could have left#and that they would fistfight Vaati if not for their magical restrictions (it will be expanded in it's own one shot)#not necessarily in that order#yes I am adding to Shadow's extensive crimes and making it so that the dragon in the manga in this was Reader's.#They just wanted their scaly puppy back and now they're trapped in the drama and absolutely over it#linked universe x reader#they commiserate with Dot/Zelda over this fact over tea which can probably be an one shot of it's own
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Orin gave the Dark Urge amnesia because she was trying to carve the memory of Enver Gortash out of them.
#i'm not sorry#i've been sitting with this for months and can no longer suffer alone#i wrote the scene of Orin lobotomizing the Durge last month but it's going to be the last chapter of my fic and it's just been festering#durgetash#the dark urge#orin the red#enver gortash#oh no more durgetash brainworms#ugh i am so feral
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Does leopard still have 3 lives in her final battle? Or was that changed?
Yep. I think she drowned her once, then Leopardstar lunges up refreshed, and she gets the upper paw on Mistyfoot with 2 lives to go.
(MAYBE tw gore, but I really did try to be tasteful about a head being smashed on a rock.)
On her back, splashing and thrashing furiously against Leopardstar's claws dunking her head under, Mistyfoot glimpses a wave breaking just over the tip of a stone-blue rock. Her only chance.
With a surge of power, her claws sink into her leader's golden shoulder and they tumble and roll to the right. Before the tyrant even realizes what's happening, she's yanked up, and then whipped backwards with a wet CRUNCH
And then again
And again
And again, until Mistyfoot can't even make out what's left of her leader anymore. All she can see is that it's a red, brown, and yellow blur, because her eyes burning with salty tears and her whole body is trembling.
She drops the corpse onto the stone and it slides into the water, lifelessly. After a moment it spasms aimlessly one last time, like an insect does after its head is bitten off, unlike the deliberate, agonized throes of Tigerstar suffering through his doomed lives. And then it's still.
There's only the tranquil sound of bubbling water, and Mistyfoot's frenzied panting. Her pounding heart makes it hard to hear either.
The blood is carried off by the shallow water in scarlet swirls, but the lake runs pale red as if it's washing it away. Some were aware of this prophecy, but Mistyfoot was not.
It isn't closure to her, or a fulfillment of divine decree. It's just blood that should be on her paws, slicked away by the complicit river. She wished it could feel like it's over, but she's smart enough to know the truth. Has been through enough terrible events like this to understand what comes next.
Her body will move foward. Her mind will need to consider her deputy. Her paw will come down on code-defying cats like Blackclaw and Greenflower. But her heart will stay here, next to the remains of Leopardstar, the same way another piece of it remains at Stonefur's side across space and time.
#Tw gore#Juuuust in case but I did try to stay tasteful#While also trying to write it as gut-wrenchingly violent as I imagine in my head#Because it's important that it haunts her#The kill wasn't pretty and clean. It was awful. She didn't want this. It wasn't heroic#'Why did you do this to me? Why did you make this so cruel?'#'Why was the last thing you ever did to me such a horrible command as a leader?'#'And why did I obey your orders until the bitter bitter end?'#'How could you turn my defiance into a new kind of cruel obediance? Did I not suffer ENOUGH for you?'#'And now there is no head to bury with your body. I am cursed with the last memory of your face. I alone will know how you looked at me'#'That the last expression on your face wasn't pain or confusion or realization.'#'It was all fury. For me.'#OF COURSE tho I will continue to make funny rock jokes until the day I die lmaoo#Duality of Bones#Hmm maybe when I get to this in BB!TNP I'll be quick and objective about it and save the Misty Emotions for like...#I miss how the field guides used to have stories told in 1st person.#It would be fun to have a BB!Mistystar Speaks#Because I do LOVE writing Misty's verbose and philosophical speeches.#As you can see from the tags lmao#BB!Mistystar#Better bones au
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Put these 4 in a room together who would be the first one crying and who would be the last one in a room?
My opinion? The first one out? Duchess. The last one in the room? Ramona.
#ever after high#eah#ramona badwolf#faybelle thorn#duchess swan#kitty cheshire#hiding in tags as always#now let me explain how it went down#ramona wanted to get alone in a room with kitty to confront her about her almost reveling cerises secret#being protectiv older sister and all that#so she decided that the weekest has to go first#Ramona: âlooks directly at Duchessâ Honk#for Faybelle she would probably remaind her of that one time when she littarly help the evil queen just to get used in the end#Ramona: okey miss âi am jealous of people who get invited to partys and im so pathetic and misreble so i make other sufferâ#faybelle's out#Ramona:*glaring at Kitty* now your turn you motherfucker *pulls out a spray bottle*#or maybe a water gun#thats it#I said my peace
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Imagine. Imagine a new ritual in-game where the temple tries to convert a demon PC back to a normal human again. Like some type of shit involving a high rank temple member cumming inside PC 7 times (Because 7 is the holy number supposedly? Jajsjajsja)âPreferably Jordan
Spoiler: It doesn't fucking work. This is just an excuse to have porn with plot, ok??? I am at my wit's end cuz I haven't been able to draw Jordan in a GOOD while and I just need them???
I NEED YURI SEX, YAOI SEX, WHATEVER THE FUCK IS AVAILABLE WITH JORDAN đ
#THIS IS A CALL FOR HELP#SOMEONE DRAW THEM FOR ME#TAKE THEM TO THE MOON FOR ME#I NEEDâ#I AM CAGED LIKE AN ANIMAL BECAUSE OF COLLEGE AND I BARELY HAVE TIME TO ANSWER ASKS LET ALONE DRAW MY POOKIE#This is not a rambling this is just a pure display of suffering#and horniness#do I want to fuck Jordan? no#but I WANT MY PC TO DO IT#YURI SEX DOESNT LEAVE MY MIND#Idk just smtg about sister Jordan lately#I am probably going to wake uo in a few hours and ask myself what the fuck did I just write#and you guys are going to see my full blown embarrassment as soon as it happens#I am down bad#fuck#dol jordan#jordan the pious#dol#an apology to my followers and moots in advance#BUT I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE
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Hangman Adam Page // Anakin Skywalker
eventually, even stars burn out
#aewedit#starwarsedit#hangman adam page#hangman page#anakin skywalker#aew#star wars#ep iii#my gif#hanger gif#sw gif#i am suffering with this and i love it#once again making these for me and me alone lmao#okay bye
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There are reviews on YouTube though spoilers free and at one point my thought was "bdsm could have saved them...". idk any German for safewords, penisstoppen.
That's the X-rated version
Nosferatu: We're Doing a Threesome About It and the Rats Get to Watch
#I am sorry for putting these words into your eyes#but they appeared fully formed in my head and I will not suffer alone#nosferatu#nosferatu 2024
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Have an itty bitty tiny piece of stasis in darkness, just so you all have an idea of where the story is going after the godly reveal. and also have proof that i am, in fact, still toiling away at this (as well as hawkins halfway house.)
A week and a half later, Steve entered a town heâd never seen before. He wore simple traveling clothes and carried no weapons aside from a couple of carefully hidden knives. Heâd left his armor and shield behind. His satchel held only the essentials one needed for travel and a single stone as large as his fist. The stone was wrapped in layers of cloth to keep it safe during the journey.Â
I need you to find someone.Â
He felt very bare but he hadnât been given much of a choice. Speed was of the essence for his quest, and little no-name towns tended to be wary of strangers in plain clothes, even more so around strangers decked out for battle. Steve wasnât sure this place could be called a town. It was so small it hadnât been on any official map. It didnât even have an inn. Hopefully, Steve wouldnât be needing an inn once he found who he was looking for.
Heâs too far from me to reach.
He asked around, laying on the charm generously. He explained he had been a friend of a friend and had been trusted to deliver something. Eventually, he was told where to go. The house he found far beyond the villageâs boundary was small. It looked like it had once been well cared for but it was old and had fallen to disrepair. Steve took a deep breath and knocked on the door.
A sallow old man opened the door. He was bald but had some scruff on his face still. His shoulders, stooped from age, trembled. His eyes were bloodshot. He looked so tired.
Heâs my very last worshiper in all the world.
âWayne Munson?â Steve asked.
âWho wants to know?â The manâs voice was phlegmy and rough. He coughed into the crook of his elbow almost before he could finish speaking.Â
âIâm Steve. Ser Steve Harrington, pledged to the Lord of Night.â
Wayneâs eyes widened. His grip on the open door weakened and slipped. Steve caught the door before it could hit Wayne.
âHe sent me to you,â Steve explained. âMay I come in?â
yep, that's it for now. i told you it was small. i'm not even gonna bother with a read-more here.
#trensu tells stories#stasis in darkness#i technically have another 4.5k words written already#but it is very much still a rough draft#it's all clunky chunks of stone with all that i want to happen but has not been carved and smoothed out properly yet#also i have decided to include at least a couple of prayers#because i hate myself apparently and want to make myself suffer#a poet i am not#and i haven't stepped in a church or said prayers in literal decades#well#that's a lie#i did attend ONE mass in that time only because my mom asked me so she wouldn't have to go alone#the priest went off on the queers during his sermon and my mom never asked me to go with her again lol#so i remember none of the prayers#and even if i did#i learned all my prayers in spanish#i have no idea how they go in english#ughhhhhh why do i do these things to myself
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i swear everytime i feel a little bit crazy i can reread your fics at the back of my mind so i feel alive. miss rhi dont ever go away I BEG U
i may be a bit (lot) slower with my writing atm but you will pry this blog and writing these fics from my cold, dead hands.
#if i am to be plagued with visions of hot anime boys being obsessive little creeps#it is my duty to ensure i do not suffer alone#hfjkdjvhf#ty bby#ily#rhi answers
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help a black woman in need
tldr; beat homelessness just in time to have my car repossessed.
hi ive been putting this off as long as i can because idk how to ask for help but i really need it rn. some of you might know, i was homeless since oct 2022. we found a place and have moved in at the start of this month (july). unfortunately this morning i was on my way out to work only to find that my car had been repossessed due to me falling behind on the payments (see: being homeless). i had to call off today but i need my car to get to work the rest of the week. im not asking for a specific amount because i need a lot and this will most likely be ongoing.but ANYTHING helps. please share even if you can't help out financially. words of encouragement/advice also appreciated. thank you đđžđŤśđž pypl: @mkwats cshpp: $mkawatson vnmo: mk-watson
#i've literally been crying all day i have no idea how im going to make it through this#i do not like asking for help and only like 2 people knew about my previous situation but this is just so#all encompassing i feel completely defeated i really dont know what to do#sorry ill probably be annoying rb this#please do not be rude this is incredibly vulnerable i genuinely dont know how to even#put into words how defeated i feel#maybe its my own fault for waiting so long to ask for help#maybe if i asked sooner i would not be where i am right now but i genuinely hate feeling like a burden#im very much suffer in silence type but this is so much more than i can handle alone
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