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Design doodle dump! Lots of slugcat thoughts.
#A lot of these were from a while ago#I didn't update them like I did the actual design refs xP#rain world#flickerdoodles#art#slugcats#group pic
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Learning to celebrate the little wins!
#fersona#While I don't have the capacity to do Hourly Comics Day#I did journal my day hour-by-hour and the sheer difference in my self-care and routines is *staggering*.#Honestly both Feb 1 2024 and 2025 were rough days...but this year I had a far better outlook on it all.#The funny part is that when I drew this a few days ago I actually *was* celebrating not crying.#Might have still cried on Feb 1st. A meagre 4 times. But I also had lot of good moments!#January is a very hard month for me and frankly I've been in a fugue state for most of it.#Drawing helped me pull through these last 2 years but this year I've been finding myself so upset at how I can't seem to focus anymore.#So updates and posts have been slow. I'm just slow. I'm tired and burnt out from work and grieving.#But you know what? The days I do manage to post; I'm never shamed for how long it took. You're all just as excited and kind.#I'm coming home and eating better and sleeping more and spending time with loved ones.#This is all to say; you can be a lot happier when you realize that life can be taken a little slower.#I'm more grateful that words can possibly convey.#If you related to the mindset of constantly feeling like you've 'failed' the day; please know you have done more than you realize.#I'm struggling with it everyday! I'm in the trenches with you!#Life is too short and painful to not celebrate what you *do* accomplish! It's hard work but it is worth it!#Bit by bit...we will learn to live. *Really* live. And enjoy it!
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#myhouse.wad#myhouse#doom ii#tradional art#vidkun draws#long post#i always loved this entry of the diary from the game. something about it .#the “happiness has to be fought for” line felt like a lot of people were interpreting it as a W but to me it felt bittersweet#this game has lived in my head for a while its months past when it came out. but it sticks with you.#edit: i know i made this almost a year ago but i fixed some of the panels#they were bothering me really bad but now i can rest. enjoy.
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Here's a big post of some of my doodles of [Cap'n and crew] that I haven't posted yet! Couple are comics, couple are shitposts, you know how it goes.
(Also have some extra character tidbits beneath the cut!)
Cap'n (she/they) has become a Spongebob-adjacent "married to the job" type with sprinklings of "they are not immune to rose-tinted Company propaganda". Cartoonishly loyal to work, she's more upset about lying to the boss about her condition over actually becoming a monster on work time (though she isn't particularly a fan of being a monster, either).
Skeets (she/her) was already implied to be pretty optimistic and curious, but I've doubled down on this. She's constantly curious about entities and the state of her co-workers, asking questions and absorbing new information. She's also extremely lucky when it comes to encountering entities.
Mav (she/him), as implied by her nearly leaving Cap'n behind in the first comic, has become a "I won't hesitate, bitch" bitch. Split second decisions aren't an issue for her, she WILL shoot first and ask questions later. (She also now has a gambling addiction, haha. LOVES betting credits on things)
Kid (he/him) is now Irish. I will not elaborate. He's kind of literally the same otherwise. He's also in major inherited debt because of a Company-caused clerical error, but don't worry about it.
Uh. That's about it, I suppose!
#artists on tumblr#lethal company#lethal company oc#lethal company eyeless dog#eyeless dog#blind dog#werecreature#wereeyeless dog#eyeless weredog#I started adding to this draft back in the beginning of july gUHJNFKFD I'm really bad about posting my stuff#I thought about waiting till I finished up a DIFFERENT comic I'm working on rn but like. man whateverrrr it can be posted later#Anyways I've actually been drawing a lot of stuff with another friend's LC OC too! MAYBE those will get their own post later?#(Mav's voice has shifted to Linda Belcher's and Skeets to BMO from Adventure Time cause of their suggestions!)#(also for Kid... by major debt I mean like... a cool 1 million credits type of level of debt. maybe more. and it was The Company's fault)#they also all have canonical least favorite entities but I might make a sketch about that later hOILJKFD#I also have been quietly developing that were-kidnapper fox concept I posted about a while ago because. I'm? Predictable???#also also jsyk I love the maneater. I LOVE THEMMMMMM love them! ZEEKERS!! MAKE A MANEATER PLUSHIE AND MY LIFE IS YOURS!!#blood cw#capn tag#sfw#my draws
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moth-flowers #21
#moth flowers#comics#my art#blood cw#autobio comics#pen and ink#Made this one a few months ago a little after we first made out and i was lowkey getting rlly obsessive and it sucked ass#Like recognizing its infatuation doesn't make it go away as it turns out ToT#Anyways. we were fwb for a while and it was cool n chill then they ended it. and i thought i was cool n chill and over it but SIKE#They get a BF and I am consumed by an overwhelming amount of the Jealousy Beast and overall lots of Big Emotions.#That was what the 'dyke drama' post was about btw#Its been a few days I'm doing a lot better and I'm greatful for that. lotta help from my friends by just hangin' out and talking and asking#For their opinions n shit. been pretty good. made a cake and it fucks and im so sexy for that actually#Like damn the person who was lowkey my ideal partner told me they weren't in a place for commitment#And then they get into a commitment. and although i know it realistically wouldn't have worked out in the long-run (I'll b moving. they def#aren't) I was still fucked up about. But I bet I'm a better cook than him. and also sexier and cooler#(IM ACTUALLY FRIENDS WITH THE GUY AND HE'S PRETTY COOL BUT ALSO LIKE. LET ME BE A PETTY I THINK I'VE EARNED IT)#Annnnywayssss. This is lowkey one of my fav comics i think :D i mean i feel that way about most of them.#But i REALLY like the way the perspective n stuff turned out. like ough fuck yeah#And i make references to the last line all the time with friends that I've shown this to.#ramble in the tags#Thank u to whoever is reading this. pls share ur thoughts and experiences! connection and shit is one of my fave parts of this <3
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kanto mons
#my art#fanart#pokemon#charizard#venusaur#blastoise#these were from a little while ago to practice shapes#lots id change looking at it again now but oh whale
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Slowly coming from "neither Odysseus nor Penelope would ever cheat on each other, this is deeply out of character and all the sources claiming this are simply hating on Odysseus"
To "while still mostly agreeing with this opinion, it doesn't really matter this much if either of them had sex with someone else during those twenty years, it still changes nothing about their love and faith for each other"
#and what if during those twenty years they were able to find some comfort in someone else's hands for some time#and what if during those twenty years they were able to step aside their grief and loneliness for sone time#is this really this bad#it changes nothing about the fact that Odysseus still was doing absolute everything what he could to return to his wife#including even rejecting immortality while being very familiar with death and knowing that there is nothing good about it#it changes nothing about the fact that penelope waited for him for twenty years while she could have been happily remarried long time ago#wich would have been a lot easier and what everyone was expected from her#odysseus#penelope#odysseus of ithaca#penelope of ithaca#the odyssey#tagamemnon
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Vr46 academy keychains
Set of five charms that all match in different ways



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I ran out of tags so I'll say it here but i would greatly appreciate a reblog, especially if you share your thoughts on these pieces in tags (。•̀ᴗ-)✧
(Also i forgot that bez have matching part with luca so I didn’t add that to tags sorry
#motogp#marco bezzecchi#pecco bagnaia#valentino rossi#celestino vietti#luca marini#mb72#fb63#vr46#cv13#lm10#vr46 academy#okay so i fear tags won't be enough for me this time but I'll try tell everything anyway#firstly i used nicknames (should have used maro but didn't think at the time) for everyone because it brings more of a family feeling than#when i do initials and that's exactly what i wanted with them. on the same note the wolves#the wolves were tge first thing that started this idea because i wanted to make bez charm and picked one up and then it expanded very fast#because let's all face it - they are basically a wolf pack and it's extremely fitting. also after taking these pictures i found mettalic on#for cele. and it's a huge slay because i really don't like mismatching colours of metal#probably the only one that i did mismatch is vale but amazingly it looks pretty neat. i also put as many turtles as i physically could#also except for wolves he also has matching beads with cele and luca if you can spot them#while cele matches luca and bez#bez matches cele and pecco while pecco matches only bez. it was quite a challenge to find beads that would suit their different#colour schemes while looking organic in keychains#also for bez i used a wrench bc of his family and i think that's pretty neat detail#it was absolute mindfuck to find beads for five different keychains at the same time because of how different they all are but i tried#also put a lot of effort into not repeating myself as much as j could in structures so they all have their own personalities outside of set#also i love that “bez” part looks like fangs icl#if you see bead that stands out by colour from all others in keychain it's probably for their eye colour because i love to add that too#also used old bez livery because what we had this year was horrible#actually i made it some time ago just never had time to post
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i also did the movie list... mostly to check if it let me put norwegian or czech movies on there (it did!). it's only 80 movies because i felt it most important to stay true to myself and for the last 20 i was scrolling lists of movies to remember what even existed. anyway
#i will probably always forget like i forgor something important but i must live with that#feel like*#also something being important to me doesn't necessarily mean it's Good#sometimes they just struck a chord or were a temporary obsession for a while#and with that i must apologize for the two movies with johnny depp in them. it would be dishonest to not have them on there#but i think he has pretty much ruined the experience of those movies for me thanks.#i made an effort to think of live action movies that are my Faves but. well. animation sticks better in the brain#i was actually gonna stop at 50 movies but then i suddenly had 51 and didn't feel like removing any#IT DOES ALSO NEED TO BE SAID that i have been fairly disconnected from mainstream pop culture#some of it due to age or not being american or being autistic - there's just a lot of big things i never got around to seeing#and there's many that im working my way through now at a leisurely pace!!! such as seeing titanic for the first time two years ago#KNIVES OUT. I FORGOT KNIVES OUT
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I AM AT MY LIMIT
Snoopy #90
30/12/2024
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[description: a cartoon-style drawing of Snoopy's head. Snoopy is a white dog with black ears. His eyes are shut and his mouth is a horizontal line. There are two large blue teardrops, one under each eye. The text "I am at my limit" is handwritten across the top of the image.]
#peanuts#snoopy#art#90#based on that emoji face meme but i can't find the original ANYWHERE#at least not the entire image unedited. other than on like redbubble listings but i don't want to link those haha#if someone has a link to it please send it to me!! so i can link it in the post. thanks :)#also i have decided to start doing descriptions for each image (which i have been meaning to do for a while)#now that people actually follow this blog and interact with it and stuff#tbh i should've started doing them a long time ago#but the idea of retroactively going back to every post and adding a description kept putting me off... which is silly because it's only#gonna become more work the longer i leave it. so you know. just gotta start doing it#i will endeavour to add a description to all the previous snoopys of the day soon 🤞#anyway i made this because i sent a friend the original emoji image (taken from a redbubble screenshot LOL)#because we have been trying to book a place to stay for a group trip (6 people)#and like i did all the research and made a list to start us off (while letting people know they could add to the list) and sent that around#and made a poll for people to vote for their preferred place#and some people in the group have been taking FOREVER to respond with their opinions about accommodation#like to the point where all the other good places on the list have been booked up now and there is just one left#which luckily is the one with the most votes#and today i was like (about to book that one) ok well before i book i'm just checking that everyone is ok with these dates?#and some of them were like ohhh actually no. we haven't booked our flights yet so we're not sure which days exactly we'll be there#WHAT DO YOU MEAN!#in fairness i should've checked that we were all on the same page about dates beforehand#but like. the trip is literally in like 5 weeks AND during a public holiday like omfggggggg everywhere is gonna be booked out#do you know how hard it is to find accommodation for 6 people#and i don't even know the people who haven't been responding/haven't booked their flights/whatever#they're friends of a friend (who will also be coming on the trip) and i know nothing about them#i think i would be a lot less annoyed if it was just my friends because we would've just hopped on a call and sorted everything out in like#one night. otherwise we know + trust each other enough to make decisions for each other if we can't/don't want to be involved in planning
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You can have Ed all
#this was sitting in my drafts long enough#I honestly had it finished ages ago I just never got around to experimenting with some vhs effects till now#I think it came out pretty good way better than the first time I attempted it#anyway here is my proof I am alive in the fandom more fun things hopefully on the way#essentially with this I kind of wanted to highlight the early episodes#where there was a lot of really admirable quiet moments and scenery I just find really beautiful ngl#like the show really does encapsulate the feeling of summer so well#just rewatching it while doing minor fixes made me yearn for warmer weather#I hope I got to effectively highlight that here#for those eagle eyed fans out there yes I have clips from an episode in season 4#I felt they were fitting because I genuinely really liked those silent moments featured in it#felt very season 1 imo so I'll give its inclusion slack on that front#eene#ed edd n eddy#amv#my amvs#my edits#cartoon network#yo la tango#90s
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Do you think you will ever check out Raincode? It's made by the same people who made DR but with a more focus on mystery. (It has the same vibes and stuff, I feel like you would like it a lot) another thing, the writing is so banger
Yes, I've already played Raincode!! Really enjoyed it, especially for the DR-like vibe and I actually made charms of the main cast:
I have sketches of Yomi and Yakou that I've been meaning to add to this set for ages but haven't been able to bring myself to refine them ;v; Makes me happy when people recognize the Raincode merch at cons tho! I'm really excited for Kodaka's new game too, I haven't played the demo yet!
#i think raincode just didnt have the same grip as DR for me#while i enjoyed it a lot and the general plot kept me hooked i think there were plot points that i wish had been explored more#and the ending was a bit predictable to me which doesnt necessarily make it bad but it set it up to be very shocking and then it was kinda#like yeah... saw that coming ages ago#i think there was a lot i wanted from the premise of the game that it just didnt provide which tbf happens quite often in DR too#but i think the biggest thing is that the characters in raincode feel a bit one dimensional and dont really get devloped as much as id like#now i played before the DLC content was released and have yet to play the DLC so ik that the charas get more fleshed out in that but the#game felt a little bit incomplete to me without that#i think dr appeals to me so well bc the main plot of the game allows for extremely strong archetypes of characters so even when theyre bein#comically over the top or die off early there's still a lot of room for personal headcanons and theories#but raincode misses the mark on that just a tiny bit#perhaps its also just that the cast is so small too#i like the dr murder mysteries bc whether im attached to the victim or murderer or hate their guts im personally invested in the trials#with raincode i didnt like that most of the mysteries felt so impersonal and the NPCs more often than not were generic#it def removed a layer of investment for me#ALL THAT TO SAY. I DONT DISLIKE RAINCODE#like i said i really enjoyed it and i think chapter 3?? Or whichever chapter they infiltrate the school in was my favorite specifically bc#it actually does kinda hit the mark with having NPC's with proper designs and also i really like desuhiko and his ability despite him being#the “pervert” archetype#all of this is mostly reflection on why it doesnt have as much of a vice grip as danganronpa has on me even after all these years#but as a game it was really fun to play and i did enjoy the overall storyline#i think yomi mightve been my next kokichi if his writing didnt flop so hard towards end game#he was so my type of character and then he just kinda. ended up doing nothing.#also i think makoto is ugly. no offense. send tweet#askibble#OH ONE MORE THING i really enjoyed the initial chapter and how the game opens up but im really mad that they didnt call back to the prologu#detectives at all#like i really thought maybe they'd at least haunt the narrative but nooppee#i really like that one girl pucci. or wahtegver her name was#ive been wanting to replay it recently tbh
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this is basically my crazy origin story btw

#i realize i can yap here too since it’s my account who gives a fuck#see if you told me when i first got into lt that i would end up drawing daffy and porky. together every day#a big thing with me is that even after dafpork took favor for me i still kinda liked baffy for a bit until a couple folks started with ‘this#is nice BUT erm i like baffy more’ ‘I think baffy is better’ blagablahblah YKNOW THAT REALLY. THAT REALLY IRKED ME#seriously i don’t CARE if you like baffy that’s cool man you and every other person with vague knowledge of these guys but im. not even#talking about that!! i am showing my dafpork art that has nothing to do with baffy and that is what you’re bringing up in a pretty rude way!#im showing my drawing of the most underrated pair in the series and youre telling me the most popular thing i alr see EVERYWHERE is better!!#anyway that’s what originally started pushing me away from it altogether :/ and then as i learned more abt the characters and seeing how som#e folks were about it i just didn’t like it :// and then yk there’s the way porky is treated on the behalf of it usually :///#just a lot more stuff added on over time yk but yeah#anyway someone not that long ago tagged a post of mine on here as baffy (unbelievably it was not baffy) and that irked me enough to#block the tag :/ SERIOUSLY i don’t care if folks like baffy i just clearly don’t want it dragged in on my dafpork blog that isn’t what i do#(unrelated honestly but in a similar sense there were a number of folks that were very adamantly calling em brothers for a bit and while I#think it’s fine to see them like that bc of the movie That is um clearly not what i do here lol)#<like in my tags specifically i meant#did NOT mean to type this much but like only a few of yall even listen to my nonsense so who cares
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ive posted so much every single day on this blog for weeks now i feel weird having barely posted today . ive been busy but uhhh heres a random image i never posted from my tadc art folder?
#i know i dont need to post a lot or anything and im deliberately not gonna make that some sort of rule for myself#can post whenever i want to. its just become smth i do so much that it feels strange that i didnt today#worked on that image then complained abt smth silly to my friends for like an hr and then did smth i cannot remember anymore#then watched some circus videos from my playlist again#and now its 11.... i still need to finish the art#i think im at the intimidated stage of it#bc everything i have to do for it is so finicky#im putting off some parts of it bc idrk how to render a hammer and ribbons realistically#using some ref images but theyre at diff angles of diff colors and w diff lighting...#but. yeah. i made sure i did draw pomni today though. keep my bones safe#(its not the image in the post. its in my sketchbook#this image is from a while ago... back when i was playing around w pomnis design still)#(i played around a while w the idea of one of pomnis eyes being upside down but it never actually read right or was clear#that thats what was going on so i gave up)#but gonna spend some more time on the image. its hard but itll haunt me more if i put it off#also actually a quick note:#my posting habits will prob change next month#sister and my niece r coming to live w us so that might change when im online :)#and around may/june im gonna be back in the ento labbbbbbbb#so. expect activity to go down in the summer#oh and this is too many tags uhhh but i dont feel like making it its own post either:#that like. asks r open and if were muts i have a discord. uh thaats it#im not in any silly circus servers but some day id like to be#idk why im saying that now. but i like talking to people but idk how obvious i make that#i mean. im inconsistent sometimes w replying but. grims and sniles ok
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i'm not saying people shouldn't talk about him or that we shouldn't find him hot.
i just believe that certain people are only contributing to his dehumanization which isn't what he needs rn. a lot of fanfic blogs on here (of which i'm not a fan of) advocate for him, share updates, everybody was so heartbroken after seeing him on feb 21st. that's people who thirst over him all the time, but they're very active and vocal and bring the attention where it needs to be whenever something happens.
but the people who are like "omg let me see the sex tapes plz!11!" joke and that's it, without even try to open people's eyes on what the fuck is wrong with the media then it's useless. they're using him as a trend, like he's not a guy that hasn't chosen to be a part of this circus and doesn't deserve all of this. like you said, this is a 'out of sight, out of mind' generation, so they probably have a laugh, retweet and then scroll past it.
like i said, it was just "selfish" wishful thinking because people are being truly heartless towards him, tho i agree that this is better than radio silence. but some of the attention is making people forget he's a human being in a very dangerous situation, imo.
as always, you spit the facts 10/10 i have nothing to add
#also the hearing on 21st changed how i saw everything in this case too#i saw the mainstream media making headlines about how his shackled ankles were “pornographic”#and let's not talk about the rolling stone article that came out a week ago where i jokingly pointed out the media frenzy of that day#only jokingly because i wanted to call for truce when they at least talked about him in almost neutral light something nobody else has done#and this was about a 20 minute hearing where KFA said the feds are still considering pursuing charges which could result in execution#while standing a foot away from him and talking about how they were refusing to transport him to PA to fight charges#i was always against the death penalty but i realised just sitting and watching wouldn't help i gotta do what i can#(i'd already been interested in this because of a number of reasons including relating to his health issues a lot because of my own issues)#and like whoever gave 30k at one go saying they were against the death penalty i think a lot of people woke up that day#like a lot of people suddenly realised this was a person who could be murdered right in front of millions because the law permits it#luigi mangione#free luigi#asks
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To be honest I am a huge Nalu shipper. But the thing is I want to know the difference between the way Natsu cares about his guildmates and Lucy. Like what is the obvious difference since that boy sees every as Nakama so how can we say that the wag he cares about Lucy is different?
Like even when Erza passed away? (All the way back in first season there was a segment where the guild was gathered at her grave and all) Natsu was still very reactive. Plus he was also said to be depressed even when Lisanna passed.
What's the difference between all of them and Lucy?
the fact that he stayed. the fact that before he met Lucy, Natsu wasn't one to stay in a group or even want to work with anyone besides Happy at the start of the story. hell, he was ready to just file Lucy down as "New Guildmate" once they reached Fairy Tail
but then, Lucy doesn't leave. she follows him on his mission to save Macao despite her not needing to or even really understanding everything about it. she stays and then fights with him and saves him. it's no secret that Natsu is strong and can take care of himself really well. he's been going on solo missions for years now, and no one has really stopped him, but that means he's been in a lot of sticky situations where he and Happy are on their own and have no backup. and yet, without asking, Lucy offers it

and i think this is the moment when Natsu considers that maybe it's okay to have someone there to have his back (sans Happy)


"but Natsu only needed Lucy for the next quest because of the requirements," well, Natsu also wouldn't have taken or even considered that quest if it weren't for Lucy, yeah? he was not a team player (in the picking job's sense) or really wanted other people to help him on his quests sans Happy. and then he goes and picks a job that caters to their team whilst ensuring that Lucy can't say no

or maybe i'm reading too much into it 🤷🏻♀️
or maybe Natsu's got horrible abandonment issues that he will latch onto people so fast (Igneel & Lisanna) but also cause him to distance himself so far when left behind (his 1st time at the guild, Lisanna's death). Erza and Gray are Natsu's closet friends after Lisanna and yet they cannot reach him when he closes himself off. and then we have Lucy, who stuck by and had his back, so who is to say Natsu didn't make some contingencies to ensure whether or not she'd join him?
but maybe it's the rose, colored ship glasses i have on
because yeah, Natsu cares for all of his guildmates. the power of friendship is his biggest motivator. when we meet Natsu, our first introductions of him is defending his guild's reputation from Bora (who was using it as a guise for human trafficking) and saving Macao. and our 1st big arc (Galuna Island), where Natsu adamantly refuses to allow Gray to use Ice Shell and sacrifice himself despite how antagonistic they've been to each other. we get Natsu 100% at Erza's defense throughout the Tower of Heaven and he is even ready to defend Wendy though they only met hours ago
Natsu is a character with a bleeding heart and cannot help but wear it on his sleeve, but we don't really see him allow others to fight his battles or have his back until Lucy comes in. to be honest, i don't even think he had his heart on his sleeve until Lucy. he still has a bleeding heart (i don't think anything could stop that), but he was not ready to be open in receiving company because he was so used to it being ripped away from him
that being said: of all the characters he interacts with, he finds Lucy to be someone compatible enough for him to start going on team missions and inviting her on them (for example, his 1st S-class mission, which he stole, he went to her house to show it to her. the fact that part of the reward was a celestial key might be a coincidence, but i wouldn't doubt it as Natsu and Happy's trump card in case she refused)
but yeah, the difference is that he stayed and didn't push her away at the beginning, but instead continued to invite her along with him to the point that doing a mission without Lucy wasn't his regular anymore. compared to the rest of the guild, of whom he spent most of his childhood with, even if he spoke to no one, they would still be around and talk to him anyway. he might not invite them on job and only challenge them to fights, but the guild is his home and a constant in his life, a constant he needs (bc heavy abandonment issues).
"okay, but he still pushed her away after he watched Igneel die right in front of him. and he left the guild for a whole year, too. so what's the difference there?" you may ask.
so 1) Natsu never thought the guild would disband. he returns to Fiore after a year and is the last to know that they disbanded. he assumed, like all the other times before and while he and others were sealed for 7 years, that Fairy Tail would still be there when he returned. he assumed that his disappearance would not impact so hard because the guild would still be around and Lucy would have the others with her
which, did not happen :)
and like, so many guild members go off on jobs, quests, or even just leave for an indiscriminate amount of time (which i, personally, believe was his rationality for leaving), so him being gone for a year was nothing! right? no harm, eh? his plan was never to be gone forever :))))
2) he just watched his father die and lose any chance of having some semblance of a long term reunion with Igneel. he literally lost one of his main driving motivations for getting stronger and taking jobs. before Fairy Tail, before anyone, it was Igneel. and to learn that a) Igneel was always with him to begin with and b) he only got to see him for less than a day after 14 years of nothing......i would feel lost too ngl
man's needed space from everybody. and he also needed comfort, but Natsu has been shown not to really be the character who asks to receive comfort (and when he does receive it, it's usually when he's already emotionally compromised). he is in the habit of shutting people out after being abandoned or losing someone close to him, with his next rationale being to "get stronger" in order to prevent what happened in the past to ever happen in the future.
anyway
what makes this different? well for one, he sent the letter only to Lucy (or it's implied since no one else is shown getting one) because of how the two spend most of their time together. even the line that goes with the panel makes it sound like Natsu is unsure on how the note will be received (maybe even hesitant? but that could be my own hopes)

and one of the 1st people he reunites with after a year is Lucy and we get such a similar parallel to the first chapter of Fairy Tail between the two as if the narrative itself is slotting them together to say "ah yes, now everything is back to normal and new journeys can begin"
but yeah, this is just a long way of saying, that Natsu does love his friends and guildmates but even when he is close to them, he kept to himself (and Happy) and sort of stayed in their orbit but always with some emotional distance because of his fear of abandonment. and then you have Lucy where he will stay for and allow her to orbit around him and he will invite to new adventures no questions asked
that's the difference
#this is 100% unrelated but reading the older chapters had me realize how Cana's hair is a lot curlier than in the anime#my girlie's waves got straightened T^T and they were so gorgeous too#also love the translator's notes at the end of each volume <3#fill me with so much joy and why they chose to go in what direction for each translation#this post is longer than i thought oops#like i was gonna leave it at 'bc Natsu stayed for her' and then be done#but no i can't just leave it there and not back it up#also me saying Natsu stayed for Lucy is not me trying to undermine his other relationships in the guild#Natsu's bonds with Fairy Tail are the very core of this story so to say that he loved any of his guildmates less would not be right#his love for Lucy is different#it started the same but shifted as the arcs progressed#his priorities with her are different than they are with his friends and guildmates despite being on a fairly even level#fun fact! i started writing this 6 hours ago. had class. got distracted w/ old ft plot while searching for manga panels. and now we're here#btw: this is not excusing Natsu's act of leaving without so much of a warning. this is just explaining his personal rationale and emotions.#ofc Lucy was right to feel upset and betrayed for being left behind by Natsu and then to be alone bc the guild disbanded. i would too!#but we aren't talking about that. we're talking about what makes Natsu's feelings for Lucy different from the rest of the guild#also sorry i got a little lazy with the manga panels after the first couple T^T and mayhaps distracted (rereading Igneel's death is sO fun!#fairy tail#natsu dragneel#nalu#fairy tail nalu#ft meta#also like how natsu loves is very open and through action#no matter whether its familial or platonic or romantic#how he shows it is the same fierce protectiveness and attentiveness#personally i see natsu's love being in equal fervor for all. none really trump over the other. they're just different
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