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Chat I think I need a psychiatrist
#I can no longer ignore it. there must be something clinically wrong with me#and if there’s not.#I might just break down for good#because what the fuck is this#one panic attack- one near panic attack- severe (and mostly baseless) paranoia while I’m home alone at night (but not every time- and it’s-#-never predictable)#random weeks here and there that I Do Not Feel like Myself#and I can’t always describe what exactly that means#but it usually turns into some form of apathy paired with self loathing (which comes with thoughts of self harm and/or suicide)#but then sometimes im fine?#and there’s never a clear trigger or stressor#I mean I know my hormones play into it- but I don’t think it should cause stuff this drastic- and it’s also not pms#pmdd** not pms#and I went to therapy for the self harm and suicide stuff and I mean it worked for that- but now I feel like I’m worse off than before#and maybe it’s just because the most glaring issue is gone now so all the other shit is coming up#but I’ve never had a panic attack before (I think I maybe had one once when I was like 7 and very scared of the dark) but this isn’t-#-normal for me#anyways.#vent tw#I really just need a diagnosis for something. even if no one can fix it I just really want to know for certain if there actually is#something wrong with me. or if I’m just really bad at handling life somehow??#bruh I dunno
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it's extremely critical that you see the photo of the perp walk for luigi mangione as being propaganda. i've seen so many people wave it off and instead fawn over his looks. and trust me, i know it ended up being kind of pathetic and weird - but please don't brush it off as a "modelling opportunity" for him. it's a fucking terrifying message the police are sending.
i want to make a few comparisons here, in case you're not from the US or familiar with why the perp walk thing is something to pay attention to. just to set the groundwork for why this is a purposeful, unusual, and cruel act by the nyc police - for why this is not a common occurrence and for why that matters.
the prosecution alleges the show of force is due to the charge of "terrorism." for comparison, in june 2015, tsarnaev was found guilty for the boston marathon bombing, which killed 3 people and injured hundreds. his actions are considered to be an act of domestic terrorism. i have spent the last hour looking through google for pictures of similar to mangione's perp walk - and so far, i have found zero. i also just do not personally remember a moment like that, despite living in boston at the time.
they allege that luigi is a stone-cold killer who carried out a longterm plan, making him particularly dangerous. again for comparison: in nyc, recently cory martin was found guilty of the killing of brandy odom. the murder was planned and premeditated to steal insurance money. and yet no staged perp walk. why didn't her life matter enough for a "show of force"?
but mangione gets paraded by a veritable army of police officers as if he is a rabid animal. for a single citizen who allegedly killed one other single citizen, the "largest perp walk ever" occurs.
so what is the "strong message" that the mayor and the police were trying to send here? the mayor speaks as if mangione is already convicted of terrorism. there is a very thin number of people who feel threatened by the CEO's death. none of us felt like mangione needs to be under massive armed guard.
the message is that you shouldn't resist. they are trying to "make an example" of him - that if you behave badly and kill a single rich person, you'll be treated as if you killed hundreds of people. you will be treated worse than a man who was found guilty of terrorism. you will be considered guilty without trial. the message is that the rich are a protected class, and you cannot touch them without massive punishment. they are trying to prevent a revolution by showing dominance and force against you.
the message is that the police are a puppet of the wealthy and that the law is not equally applied across class disparity. it is "some are more equal than others." it is "one life is more precious than another."
the show of force wasn't for luigi. it was for us. it was a warning. they are trying to remind us who is really in control.
#i bring up tsarnev only bc i feel like people DID want blood. i lived in boston. people wanted to rip him apart.#i do not personally remember a moment where he was paraded around like that. and the fact we gave more dignity to him#than luigi .... is startling.#and i just realized last night i was like - i don't really remember a perp walk like that. maybe im misremembering#but i went to google and i was like. wait why the fuck was it so fucking big.#it WASNT a random act of terror. it WASNT to injure/kill as many as possible.#even if we consider it to be premeditated murder: when have we ever done this.#so brandy's life didnt deserve “a show of force?”#the mayor doesn't say ''our city wont stand for this'' when it's a planned murder for insurance money????#anyway . ur not immune etc etc etc#but i also wanted the comparisons in here in case ppl aren't from amercia etc#this ISNT normal or usual. this was overkill by like a million#on the other hand they gotta do this bc they're scared :)#i kept this bc i had ppl ask me not to delete this but i just felt like#it wasn't really poetry just talkin
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I don't really think it's fair to dismiss the idea that that guy might have been framed for killing the CEO as like an unfounded conspiracy theory when NYPD has a proven history of planting/fabricating evidence on people. in 2011 there was a massive investigation of the NYPD and hundreds of cases against people were dismissed after a former police officer testified that they literally have a name for planting evidence on people: flaking. you cannot be out here acting like considering the possibility that cops who do this shit under normal circumstances might possibly also do it when they're under intense global pressure and scrutiny is the same as republicans thinking democrats run a secret pedophile ring in the basement of a pizza restaurant
#it astounds me how willing people are to cosign any shit cops and feds say#cops literally call testifying testi-lying. because they lie so much. its normal for them and they think little of it#that ones pretty easy to source and is well known in the industry wo i wont link you but if you google it you will see lots of sources#like just google the word testilying. so many articles come up its actually sad
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Oh god theres more
#gravity falls#stan pines#stanley pines#stanford pines#dipper pines#mabel pines#the book of bill#book of bill#gravity falls memes#me when#made by me#as seen on tiktok#as seen elsewhere#I might be slowly becoming normal again#nevermind im still mentally unwell#how do I explain this to my therapist
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whichever madman pointed out that the new rift on bill's body in the theraprism is meant to parallel ford's cracked glasses after he emerges out of the portal,,,, MY SOUL IS YOURS TO TAKE ANYDAY MY GOSH
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bonus !!
ford about bill:
bill about ford:
#I DETEST THEM#AAAAAA#please the way ive been lying awake at night thinking about this#alex hirsch YOUR BRAIN#idgaf if this doesnt mean anything at all THE PARALLELS??!!#them. THEM.#they make me sick did i mention this#gravity falls#billford#the book of bill#bill cipher#stanford pines#uncontrollable sobs#this is my magnum opus#i am so normal about them#toxic old man yaoi hits hard#“BILLFORD!” we cheer in unison
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collection of posts for a very specific dynamic
#pallas post its#not sure how to tag this one ngl#zolu#this is about zolu#but also my ocs and me from real life#5927#also.#web weaving#normal dynamics
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Full of Desires
#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi fanart#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#dungeon meshi spoilers#its really just cause of the outfit#farcille#marcille donato#im still surprised this came out of my hands tbh#im not normal about her#curse you dunmeshi for making me fall for the white girl#but god#she looked so good in that fit#i dont understand whyvthe other characters shat on it smh#falin wouldve loved it tho#this drawing is for the gays and theys btw#for the sapphics#lets go lesbians#ok ill shut up now#my art
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where my fellow monster fuckers at 👅👅👅👅👅👅
#dungeon meshi fanart#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#laios touden#farcille#marcille donato#falin#not going to lie labru is the worst thing to happen to me because damn everyones lining up for yaoi and not laios x monsters sniff sniff#sorry cough im. normal#my artwork#rkgk#winged lion#theres not even a ship tag for them im sick#lios..?#laion#😭
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i say i like tragedies and everyone’s all like ‘why do you like sad stories? are you depressed?’ and never ‘how was the catharsis? was the catharsis fun?’
#i don’t know how to explain this to normal people 😭😭#for the record my coworkers didn’t directly question me on this#but i think i have vastly overestimated the amount of the population who is aware of like. Films.#NOT claiming that i have seen a lot - but i’ve mentioned three *REALLY* well-known films in the past four days#and got blank stares each time#the one of them was a REALLY good reference too… someday my top-notch association skills will be recognized#my first act as Mansion Acquaintance of the [redacted] Director will be to force everyone to watch a 40s romcom i didn’t even like#i’m getting off the point#the POINT is that It’s About The Catharsis
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The greatest thing we can do in life is find the power to forgive.
VANDER SILCO ENJOYERS HOW WE DOING TONIGHT 🥳🥳🥳
#arcane#arcane season 2#silco#vander#silco arcane#vander arcane#zaundads#arcane s2e7#erio art#erio stuff#that canon AU has got me in a CHOKEHOLD#SILCO FINALLY GETS TO BE NORMAL!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!
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*through tears* HER LITTLE POG CHAMP
#anyway shout out to my big sis for getting me some offical arcane knock-off pogs. I realise the caption makes no sense without that context#and very little sense even with it probably. ANYWAY THAT ARC HUH#im fine. I'm okay. I'm NORMAL :)#Finished the episode and immediately started drawing this. Hope to render it a bit more#Arcane spoilers#Arcane#arcane season 2#arcane s2#arcane season 2 spoilers#jinx arcane#isha arcane#isha and jinx#AUAUAUAUUAGH familial tragedy gets me like no other#Fan art#Fanart#Jinx#Artists on tumblr#My art#Paint the town blue#The message hidden within the pattern#Spoilers
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[What happened to you?]
#arcane#caitvi#caitlyn kiramman#caitlyn arcane#can you tell arcane s2 is making me normal#can you tell i was manic making this#can you tell i love dramatic character changes
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cutest sunshine in the entire universe, space, and beyond 🗣️ 🌺
#my art#daisuke mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing#mouthwashing fanart#daisuke fanart#fanart#procreate#artists on tumblr#art#digital art#mouthwashing daisuke#I’m so normal about him guys#spoilers so don’t read past this but that one scene made me CRY#I’d do anything for him#I haven’t done a fully colored piece in a minute oml#yap session over lmao#daisuke mouthwashing fanart
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so this summer i am nannying a 5 year old who loves miraculous ladybug (my dream) & every day she asks if we can play ladybug and chat noir at the park. these are some comics based on our various games<3
#usually she is ladybug. and i’m hawkmoth#adrien is sometimes a random object or we just pretend he’s there#or sometimes i’m adrien#one time we played where she was ladybug and she betrayed me(adrien) and gave both our miraculous to hawkmoth#and i just collapsed to my knees crying from the betrayal#i’m really super normal about it.#anyway i love my job it’s great#ml#miraculous#miraculous ladybug#my art#ladybug#adrien agreste#marinette dupain cheng#it’s so funny bc i can tell by now which episodes she’s watched bc she’ll want to act them out#usually she wants to act out dark cupid#which is a banger episode. so good#or the paris special#again. banger.
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post-graduation trip airport looks
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itafushikugi#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jujutsu kaisen fanart#these took ages but fr once i am choosing to forgive myself given th fact tht i was coming out of A State when i drew them#im normal now dw drawing the first years wearing merch of my comfort content fixed me#when in doubt play dress up. life hack#i am holding fast 2 my hc tht megumi is a fiend @ indie platformers and is a household name on the celeste speedrun leaderboards#argue with a wall this is my jujutsu kaisen#megumi designated Drink Runner also#alr in line at a cafe texts their gc 'what do you guys want' n gets mad @ nobara fr making him go to a Second shop 2 get her bubble tea#anyway theres not much 2 say abt these just bc i needed sth Light n Easy 2 get me out of my head#no lore to fashion pieces which is both a blessing and a curse but it Is what i needed#nobara serving looks fr a flight i love u so much. it's probably 8 in the morning n she is in a fully coordinated fit#its so criminal tht we don't have more alt hairstyle official art fr her???? iirc it's Just the lost in paradise mv with her in buns no????#robbed. i am fixing it immediately.#wonder where the 3 of them wld go on a trip
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i desperately need to know more about these people
#me#normally people from outside this terrible country romanticize new york or california#but PHILADELPHIA??? US????#HOW?
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