#(really close friends and my parents are sort of exceptions to that but that's bc i'm usually always comfortable with them)

[rollercoasterwords]

heyy, you said some time ago on an ask you hc Lily would give harry tons of mommy issues if alive, and I'm obsessed with this idea, please tell us more?

hi!!!! i did indeed say that….getting back to this a few days late but love this question 🌝🌝

to answer the first thing i have to explain is that in my mind lily is a bit of a cunt. she’s intelligent & ambitious—we know she was in slug club & made top marks despite not growing up in the wizarding world, which in my mind means she was likely competitive & had this sort of “i’m going to prove i’m better than these assholes” mentality & was also a perfectionist. she was used to being the favorite child/special one, bc we know her parents were excited abt her being a witch which is part of why petunia resented her; but then she had her sister & purebloods in the wizarding world putting her down, so i imagine that like…she’d have a strong sense of self worth and a need to prove herself, but also a bit of a martyr complex. at the same time, she had blinders on when it came to her own friend; we know she didn’t actually cut things off w severus despite him getting involved in nasty shit until he publicly called her a slur. this is actually one thing that i think is very similar about lily & james; though they both ostensibly had a very strong sense of justice, their blind spot was their close friends, which i imagine could make them both a bit hypocritical in that they’d say people who do x are bad but then forgive their friends who do x, etc.

ANYWAY. in a canon compliant setting if i am imagining lily & james relationship. well i’ll be honest i don’t think it was the perfect true love story etc that we’re sold in the books like. they were kids. i think that once they did get together it was v passionate & intense, made moreso by the fact that they were both fighting in a war & had the pressure of knowing they could die any day, etc.; if they hadn’t been fighting in a war, i think they would have broken up shortly after leaving school as they both followed different life paths & matured more as people & realized their first serious teenage relationship likely wasn’t going to be forever. BUT in a canon-adjacent/compliant universe war is on, their relationship is tumultuous but the dire circumstances make them cling to each other even tighter, & in my beautiful mind palace what happens is lily gets pregnant accidentally & they have a shotgun wedding. i’ve written an accidental pregnancy storyline w them in a few of my fics now so i can imagine it playing out in a couple ways, but no matter what in my mind lily was NOT planning to have a baby and has very mixed feelings about it—maybe she doesn’t realize she’s pregnant until it’s too late to do anything about it, maybe she considers aborting but decides against it, maybe she tries to abort but for some reason it doesn’t work or falls through…whatever happens, she ends up having the baby. now she’s a mother yayyyy except she’s a mum in like the most stressful circumstances ever & probably not having a joyous experience w her newborn. maybe some post-partum depression etc.

anyway. imagining canon breaking here and her becoming a mum…feel like this could go a few ways, and the exact mommy issues she’d give her kid would depend on which way it went. let’s say james dies on halloween but lily & harry both make it out; i definitely think part of her would sort of resent harry bc suddenly she’s 20 and she has to spend the rest of her life being a mum and she doesn’t get to enjoy her youth and have a normal life, and also she’s expected to raise the chosen one and also he’s kinda the reason her husband got killed. i think there’d be this sort of distance between them & i imagine her at times making an effort to be the loving mum she’s meant to be but ultimately it’s unsustainable, and harry grows up trying everything he can to make his mum really love him and develops a complex over feeling like there’s something fundamentally wrong with him bc that love & parental warmth just doesn’t come naturally to lily. & if this is a universe where voldemort’s still out to get harry then i imagine them moving around a lot, maybe living in hiding, her raising harry to one day take down voldemort…sorry but i do think she would turn him into the priest’s favorite sacrificial lamb. i think she would raise him to be a soldier/human sacrifice who is constantly feeling like he has to earn love, and neither of them would ever fully be able to give the other what they need or want, even though i do think lily would love harry…i just don’t think she’d always do a very good or consistent job of it!

[myokk]

The Babbit siblings, Leonard & Eloise 🫶

Info about their dynamics/more about Leo:

This is also super dramatic😆 idk what sort of mood I was in when I made all of this up🙏

He’s one year older than Eloise. Ever since she was born, he’s been fiercely protective of her and loves her so much. His first year at Hogwarts, he kept sending her long letters about how amazing it was and how he was excited to show her everything the following year (even though it was all but assumed she was a squib, he still believed she would show magic & be admitted). Leonard was going to be such a proud big brother😭😭 not embarrassed about her at all but showing her off etc😭😭😭😭 The summer after his first year was the worst of his life. It was the summer Eloise was exiled from their family….he witnessed the whole thing…their mom completely lost it (á la Bellatrix) and would have killed Eloise if their father hadn’t intervened on time (but their father had watched and let it get to that point😔). Leo was left alone with a dying little sister and he didn’t know how to help her….he’d only JUST finished his first year of Hogwarts…and then she was taken away and their parents pretended like she had never existed. He had to as well…what else could a 12-year-old who’d been taught by birth to obey his parents do??

(it was IMPOSSIBLE to forget her…and yet he had to try bc the parents are really manipulative and emotionally abusive…and he was always raised to be the perfect son) And then when he returned to Hogwarts…he saw two twins who were also quiet and reminded him a lot of his sister. Their parents had just died and he kind of put his energy that he had been going to use to show Eloise everything etc into them and he became really close with them & Ominis. He and Ominis were also close because they have some experiences in common & honestly at the end of the day there isn’t that much difference in their ages) But then…after Anne was cursed Leo was DEVASTATED. He was going to lose another girl who was like a sister to him….bc of his parents he had never told them about Eloise (nobody except their family knew about her existence) and so he and Sebastian got into a HUGE fight. Because Sebastian had never heard of Eloise, when he saw that Leo was just as devastated as HE was… there was just no way that Leo could understand what he was going through, and Leo had no right to be affected as much as HE WAS😤

Like the dumb teenage boys they are, they couldn’t deal with their big emotions (Leo is also a lot like Eloise in that aspect probably bc of their parents…pushing away any uncomfortable emotions instead of dealing with them, until it builds and builds and he just explodes when they’re too much) and he and Sebastian took it out on each other and instead of talking they had a duel that almost killed each other😤😭😤😭 ever since then they’ve hated each other with a passion.

Pffffffff Eloise had no idea….she was really getting along with Sebastian but also wasn’t saying her last name at all and so the two of them had already started to kind of be friends before Sebastian found out that she was LEO’S SISTER😫😤😤 then he hated her too!! Bc he thought that she was in with her brother and they had worked together to TRICK HIM like a little evil inside joke…playing with Sebastian and his emotions like the previous yesr😔😔😔 (Obviously wasn’t the case, Sebastian just jumps to conclusions without thinking which is ALSO what happened when he and Leo had their huge fight😤)

But yeah now that Eloise is back Leo doesn’t know what to do….he recognized her immediately when she walked in the Great Hall to be sorted…🤯🤯 but he isn’t good with feeling emotions and neither is she and neither of them know how to recreate the close relationship they had as children😫😫

Leo is serious, quiet, bad with emotions, but when he lets someone in they are a part of his life forever (yes even Sebastian the dumbass)

Some excerpts from my fic that involve Leo 💓 it’s Eloise/Sebastian alternating POV, so this is all Eloise’s perspective:

“Leo had changed since Eloise last saw him. Of course he had, she thought to herself. It had been five years, after all. The same unruly black curls, same eyes. And yet…he almost seemed a stranger to her. He was taller, face more angular and defined than it had been at thirteen. Voice deeper. But, the expression of vulnerability and guilt written all over his face was something she recognized well. It was the same expression that he had the last time he saw her, the face she sometimes saw before falling asleep. Just as quickly as it flashed across his face however, it was gone, hidden behind a stony exterior. His expression hardened and he sat down just as quickly as he had stood up, averting his eyes. The students sitting around him were looking between the two of them curiously but before Eloise could begin to process this new situation, she felt a gentle push on her shoulder.”

“Her relationship with her brother had always had an undercurrent of fear running through it. No matter how hard she tried as a child, there was always something she had done wrong, and Leo was always there to protect her. Or try to, anyway. The two of them had always lived under the shadow of their parents’ abuse and didn’t know any other way of relating to each other.

But here, with Anne, Leo was murmuring apologies into her hair as she cried, reassuring and comforting her in a way he had never been able to with his own sister.

Eloise felt sick. Sick at seeing them, sick at her own jealousy. Had Leo replaced her with Anne - that year when Eloise was supposed to join Hogwarts - to try and cover the bitter disappointment of not being able to proudly show off his younger sister? They had spent so many nights that summer before her Hogwarts letter never came, sneaking out to the garden late at night, Leo reassuring her that she would be fine and telling her about all of the magic and wonder at Hogwarts that was waiting for her. He promised her that she could sit with him on the train, that he wouldn’t be embarrassed by her.

And then…

Turning away from the two of them, Eloise headed towards the apples. She hated the emotions roiling around inside of her. She should be happy. She had saved Anne, and now things were going to go back to normal, how they were before she arrived. Eloise trailed her hand on the back of the couch, trying to focus on the feeling of soft velvet, calm her racing emotions.”

If you read all of this….You’re amazing & I love you🥹💓🥹💓 tbh I have MORE about the two of them & their family, but this was already getting so long😵‍💫

[drarry-soulmates]

If Draco Malfoy had been sorted into Gryffindor (my thoughts):

I can’t even think about that without blushing TBH XD Where Drarry is concerned, JKR really saved herself with her decision to put him in Slytherin. (Not that it helped much.)

He would’ve been deeply loyal to whichever House the Hat picked for him, even if it was different than his family’s. Especially once he sees that Harry’s in the House too (becos we all know boy was instantly down bad for Potter).

Even though Draco insulted Hagrid and Ron initially, Draco would’ve eventually become Harry’s #1 bff (aside from my admittedly incredibly biased opinion that Draco’s character is far more complex & interesting than Ron’s, I also firmly believe his storyline would’ve been more closely followed in this alt-universe, considering his family is working with Voldemort).

If he were in Gryffindor, he would’ve quickly weaseled his way into Harry’s life and heart (because mutual obsession would be there). Don’t tell me 11 is too young to fall for someone—I had a full-blown obsession with a kid in my school at that age.

He would’ve made peace with Ron & Hermione in order to get into Harry’s good graces. His prejudices would’ve died fairly quickly having to be friends with Hermione.

He would’ve been another Sirius (who was sole Gryffindor of Slytherin family, BFFs with the leader of the Marauders). He and Harry would’ve been besties and played together on the Quidditch team. Their friendship would be kinda like a more angsty Scorpius and Albus, their sons (who are canonically gay in the revised final version of play!), because of Draco’s willingness to be his friend, even before knowing who he was.

Even when he first met Harry, a skinny, seemingly poor, shabby and small boy (reminiscent of a more down-trodden raven-haired, green-eyed Weasley), Draco was nice to him, talking bad only of Hagrid. Like, what??! LOL. His last words to Harry in their first-ever meeting was “Well, I'll see you at Hogwarts, I suppose!” Awee >//<

On Twitter, JKR said jokingly (but we all know it’s not a joke, as I will address further down) that the rejected handshake played over and over again in Draco’s mind consistently in bk 1. The reason this was likely the truth was because in HPCC, Draco admitted to Harry, “I envied you those friendships more than anything else.” More than his fame, all the attention, all the favoritism… Draco confirmed what shippers all knew: he was legitimately just pining for Harry the whole series. 💀😭 AKA, he just wanted to be friends with Harry! Therefore, Draco was only making fun of Harry because that was the only way he could continue to be in Harry’s life. (my hEART</3 ;______;)

Considering how obsessed with each other the two were even as rivals… Can you imagine as friends? They would’ve been CANONICALLY GAY XD Like a Dumbledore x Grindelwald except where Grindelwald was a good guy lol. Draco would’ve been a great asset in their fight against Voldemort, helping Harry with finding the Horcruxes. Imagine Hermione and Draco, the top 2 smartest Hogwarts students, working together!

Draco would’ve saved Harry’s life continuously because it’s canon that Draco is brave for the people he loves. In HPCC, he admitted he felt he didn’t have anyone, not even his parents. He scoffed when Ginny brought up Crabbe and Goyle. Pansy wasn’t even mentioned. He had no one worth fighting for after he thought Harry was dead. Of course Draco would seem cowardly (aside from that time he lied about not recognizing Harry��.. >___>“ Because it always comes back to Harry.)

Draco admitted in HPCC that the only reason he went dark was because he didn’t have any real friends or anyone he felt he could count on. He would’ve been good throughout had he been put into Gryffindor bc even in Slytherin he still had such a moral struggle. He was just so good (in actions, not his words). There’s simply no doubt in my mind that had he been surrounded by the love and light of Harry Potter from the start, he would have never even considered straying.

Okay, maybe just a little, because his wand was Hawthorne, which meant he’d be conflicted, but because of the unicorn core, it meant he was canonically a GOOD person. Any conflicting thoughts would’ve been much briefer and more quickly squashed out IMO, with his epic love Harry by his side. >.<”

Drarry and Jily have sooOOOoo many parallels:

Via @the-crooked-library (the link isn't working so I just copied/pasted the post):

JAMES:

Annoying Pureblood Rich Kid

barges into Lily’s compartment on Hogwarts Express with his annoying rich kid buddy

offers friendship

simultaneously insults her poor kid best friend and is therefore rejected

proceeds to make himself a nuisance for the next 5 years

Obsessed as heck w Lily but only calls her by her last name

every time she’s around feels the need to show off

makes the fool of himself every time she’s around instead

good at Quidditch though

hangs about with his gang of Cool Kids

picks on her friend partially out of jealousy, partiallly due to the whole Gryffindor vs Slytherin shit

begins realizing the errors of his ways around year 6

somehow betters himself as a person, loses the ego

becomes a truly sympathetic character at about year 7

Which I believe we can all agree sounds extremely familiar, so to sum this up…

look joanne you can’t just draw all these parallels, put jily on a pedestal as the ultimate Soulmate Bond, and then somehow expect me nOT TO SHIP DRARRY

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Oh, and JKR calls Jily the ultimate ‘soulmates’ while falsely claiming that Harry and Draco could never be friends……. A few years after that comment, she approved and helped write the canon HPCC, where Harry and Draco…. y'know, become actual legit friends LOL….. and also heavily implied to later become related thru marriage by their sons XD so… Draco will certainly have something to look forward to at family events with the Potters.

Reminder: Despite being hated by the author, Draco lived and fought as one of the main players in the Great War and didn’t kill a single person (good or bad) throughout the entire series.

He was never violent except to Harry on the train ride, where he was likely trying to get Harry to go back home, even covering him up with the Invisibility Cloak, since that was the year he was planning on letting in the Death Eaters.

And of course in the bathroom, where Harry was literally stalking him all year… But immediately after that, when Draco had to be hospitalized AND never received any apology from Harry, he still refused to ID Harry at Malfoy Manor.... so he gets a pass.

Draco Malfoy is the epitome of: looks like he can kill you, is actually a cinnamon roll.

[neurotonic]

Hello! :D

I was hoping to take you up on the offer and as some questions about the Phillipines for my Phoenix! (but no pressure ofc)

I've found it sort of difficult to find resources that aren't big-picture historical facts or tourism info lol

• What holidays do you celebrate, besides the standard Catholic ones?

• And I guess on that note, are religious celebrations a big thing? Baptism, patron saint's day, etc

• Culturally, is there a strong focus on family ties? (Curious bc it's very different on two sides of my own family)

• Do you have any recommendations for figuring out a name for my Phoenix? Are there common trends in naming, resources you know, or anything like that?

• I read that English, Spanish, and Tagalog were all the national language at one point - is it common for people to speak all three?

• Also, any sort of miscellaneous cultural things that you can think of would be really helpful!

• And I guess, if there's anything you think someone writing a Filipino character should know! Stereotypes that should be avoided, anything like that

Thank you so much in advance!! ^-^

Hiya hello !! I'll definitely try my best to help, because I agree - shit's hard to look up ;-; !!

Lots of these are based on my own experiences LOL but also I hadd to double check many historical details. Also this got way too long AKSJDHF

What holidays do you celebrate, besides the standard Catholic ones?

Aside for the Catholic ones, a lot of our local holidays are either birthdays (and deathdays) of famous Filipinos, major historical events, like Independence Day on June 12, the EDSA Revolution on February 25 (though this occurred in the 80s IIRC), and the Day of Valor on April 9, OR more localized holidays about when a province/city got established and such. Honestly these don't have a loooot of special stuff you have to do during that day, unlike Christmas for example. They're not days that you have to Celebrate(tm), but if you're aiming to put your character in a period close to these events, then you could technically give meaning to them :3c Though that'll require a bit more research heh

And I guess on that note, are religious celebrations a big thing? Baptism, patron saint's day, etc

Religious celebrations are def a big deal...Depending on your religion of choice, of course LMAO In the Philippines, Roman Catholic is the biggest religious domination, but there's also a very big Islamic population here especially in Mindanao. There's also INC (Iglesia ni Cristo) that I can't say much on because I'm personally not part of this group, but I think it's a variant on Christianity ?? Anyways, talking as someone who was born in a Roman Catholic household: people spend a lot of time and money into these celebrations. there are festivals for saints, church weddings are a pretty big deal too but I think that's common across a lot of cultures.

Culturally, is there a strong focus on family ties? (Curious bc it's very different on two sides of my own family)

Oh, absolutely! Like it's a thing where people say Asia in general has a lottt of collectivist cultures, and the Philippines is no exception. It's veryyy common for one household to house multiple generations of families, and I've even heard stories from friends where their extended families literally live next to each other in a street/subdivision LMAO There's a lott of focus on listening to your parents and looking out for your family, doing what's best for your family vs what's best for you is an interesting contrast to give to your Phoenix if you choose to go that route. Of course, it differs between families, but I've noticed family-first is a very big thing here.

Do you have any recommendations for figuring out a name for my Phoenix? Are there common trends in naming, resources you know, or anything like that?

Honestly, even I have trouble looking up new Filipino name ideas LOL there's not a lot of resources out there, but I'll still share stuff that I found useful :] BUT FIRST ! The naming trend in general is kind of loose and flexible! I've noticed that English/Spanish first names are very common, then they're either paired with a surname of Filipino/Spanish origin. You don't have to look too far for an example: IEYTD 2 has Chancellor Chelsa (English origin. I think?) Magpantay (Filipino origin) . Filipino first names are harder to come by these days and it's a shame </3 This is also entirely optional but Filipino full names include middle names (your mother's maiden surname) as well! For example, names are usually written like: Jose P. Rizal, with P(rotacio) being Rizal's middle name.*

*little aside, but Rizal's full name is actually much longer... but it's because he lived during the Spanish occupation. You can give your character multiple first names honestly that's also a thing I noticed SDKJFH but Firstname Lastname is usually satisfactory

For traditional Filipino name resources, Behind the Name has a few examples for first names, but you may notice some of them are just literally what they mean - "Ligaya" is happiness, much like how Joy is a name people have LMAO so stuff like that you can use as inspiration :] For my own Phoenix, Adarna is a legendary bird from a traditional epic, so mythological inspos are cool too - unfortunately that stuff is also. SO hard to find for. Fuck colonization lol

FOR traditional surnames, I actually found this webpage really interesting !! The info isn't complete but these are some legit surnames, considering I've seen a lot of them used by people I've met/known. Some of them have regional origins too which is very handy!

I read that English, Spanish, and Tagalog were all the national language at one point - is it common for people to speak all three?

Okay, so this bit HEAVILY relies on the era you want your Phoenix to live through. Spanish was the national language during the Spanish Occupation (from 1565-1898, that's more than 300 years!), but after the PH gaining "independence", spanish was pretty much dropped instantly as a national language...... Mostly because spain actually sold the PH to the US. OOPS !!! LOLLL as an attempt to fully make the PH their "own" thing, the US just kinda swept any Spanish rules and declarations away once they got ahold of the country, including making the Spanish language mandatory. So from 1898 onwards, English and Filipino are the national languages of the PH. Despite Filipino having a lot of Spanish loanwords, Spanish hasn't been declared a national language since then, and thus has never been a required study. Your Phoenix can read the time in Spanish if their parents/grandparents refer to time like that (like my own parents do), but unless they voluntarily study Spanish, they probably wouldn't consider themselves a Spanish speaker from that alone.

So um tl;dr due to politics, it's uncommon for Filipinos to speak all three, unless under special circumstances. If you're going for the common fanon of 1960's, Filipino and English are your best bet.

Also, any sort of miscellaneous cultural things that you can think of would be really helpful! And I guess, if there's anything you think someone writing a Filipino character should know! Stereotypes that should be avoided, anything like that

HOKIE !! as a general rule, you can write a Filipino character the same way you write any other character: give them a well-rounded personality and a solid motive, their own interests and all that jazz B) I'm actually not familiar with Filipino stereotypes specifically, ngl?? There's a lot of overlap with Asian stereotypes and discriminatory opinions against immigrant workers, Especially those coming from "third-world" countries. I'd also suggest avoiding making them too "mystical" or "exotic". I don't know how helpful this part is, specifically. Just make sure to make them their own person with flaws, strengths, and personal motivations, and you should be good. sniles.

[trickstarbrave]

TCS FRIDAY BABEYYYY

i just wanna talk about steren because i love him. sorry for what will no doubt be rambling u_u @the-elder-polls i will be including art and stuff as necessary bc i love my boyyyyyyy and ive drawn him a lot

he's technically a nerevarine. he isnt nerevar's reincarnation though, instead nerevar (trans) and voryn had a kid by accident and well. steren is the reincarnation of THAT child.

first lifetime in his early life he was born at kogoruhn and raised in house dagoth. The cover story is nerevar was on a pilgrimage for azura and voryn had a drunken affair with a woman. steren is born, voryn fakes the death of the random woman, now he has a son. very few people know the truth. nerevar wanted to raise him but he was originally born a commoner and while he's strong enough to protect himself, he wouldn't put it past anyone with a grudge to target a literal infant just to spite him. nerevar still visits often though, under the guise that of course he'd be nice to his closet friend's son

steren was born a few years before the war of the first council though. tensions were getting high between the chimer and previously quiet dwemer, and house dagoth being the spies for the chimer by and large discovered what kagrenac was up to. you know the rest (mostly). nerevar and voryn die, the tribunal become gods, the dwemer vanish, everyone becomes dunmer except ayem and half of vivec... tribunal had caught on though that steren was nerevar's son as well though and they think it is particularly cruel to kill nerevar's only child just because he's of house dagoth blood. so they pretty much wipe his memories for the most part and have him raised in house indoril.

steren grew up in house indoril, and eventually realized he was of house dagoth. he confronts vivec who had become a sort of mentor to him, and vivec tells him to leave it in the past. he was spared because he was an innocent child. house dagoth were destroyed because they were traitors. they had to be purged from morrowind. there is nothing in the past that will give steren the answers and comfort he wants and will only lead him to his doom. this goes over as well as you would expect with him leaving house indoril and looking for answers alone. at some point he got married and had a kid, but his mission was about uncovering the secrets of house dagoth the tribunal tried to bury and learn more about his parents. he's killed during a collapse of some ruins. his wife takes the kid and promptly leaves morrowind, fearing what the temple may do now that steren is dead

family line continues for a while, and during this time nerevar's ghost has been watching over them. he felt too bad leaving his son all alone in the world, so he silently watched over him, heartbroken. then steren died and nerevar followed his child, his child's child, and so on. up to the third era where steren is reborn to a dying woman on the run from some illiac bay nobleman. after she dies, steren goes to an orphanage. unknown parents, born under a certain sign, fulfilling the prophecy. he's arrested when, after leaving a house he was robbing, he stumbles upon a dead body at the completely wrong time. the trial is shit because this is the TES universe (guilty until proven innocent is canon fsr, dont let me ramble about why we'll be here all day) and he develops a fear of large crowds having their eyes all on him (idk what thats called). he stays 3 months in prison before being pardoned and shipped to morrowind. despite it being his home province he never heard great things about it.

he follows the storyline pretty closely. except that this is my world so mods like tamriel rebuilt are canon for me. he joins house hlaalu and the mages guild. he's really freaked out by all the sleepers who know him by name saying weird shit calling him 'prince' or some shit so he decides to take the opportunity to visit the mainland when the mages guild asks him to. on the mainland he does a bunch of stuff but finds vissamu and an ancient tome from house dagoth. he doesnt know why but he cant let go out of the house dagoth stuff. its familiar. but it also makes his heart ache.

more importantly though on the mainland is he comes across a dunmer who didn't know what house or family he was from. a nearby temple has you gather ingredients for a ritual to summon an ancestor spirit. steren does it correctly and then after seeing the guy happy to know who he is and able to build a relationship with his deceased family, asks the temple to do the same for him. an ancestor spirit is in fact summoned but before they can reveal who steren is, nerevar shoos them away. all steren knows is it fails but the priest sees what is clearly saint nerevar watching over him and tells him he doesnt know why it failed but that he is watched over well. steren hears a voice urging him to go outside and does so. there, nerevar reveals himself, able to communicate with him now, and tells him he stopped the spirit. she wanted to come and talk to him, but she was a woman of house dagoth (voryns mom specifically) and nerevar feared what might happen if his lineage was revealed to others. steren is kinda freaked out, asking if he'll go insane like some of the sleepers he sees, but nerevar assures him he wont let that happen.

back on vvardenfell steren continues his questing. gets corprus, cures corprus. goes to kogoruhn and finds at the old family hearth a bottle with what was originally his baby teeth as well as locks of hair from both parents, typical things to leave near the family hearth for protection. steren takes it with him, not knowing why he's so attached to it.

after getting the ring though he gets his past life memories back and realizes he's not nerevar reborn. he has memories of "uncle nerevar" in his first life. he demands answers, crying, and nerevar comes clean that no, he isn't nerevar reborn. nerevar didnt want him doing this either, but azura has no other options because nerevar refused to reincarnate and apologizes to steren. but steren asks how he can wear the ring then and nerevar is quiet before explaining that while he was alive he asked azura to modify the enchantment so that nerevar and his descendants can wear the ring. that steren's other parent was always nerevar, but nerevar couldnt be open about that fact because he couldnt bear the thought of his own child being killed

fighting dagoth ur is particularly painful because dagoth ur recognizes steren as his son but well. he's still insane. dagoth ur thinks steren is too corrupted and blinded by the tribunal who stole him away and brainwashed him, but dagoth ur can kill and remake him, just like he did his brothers. then he can bring back nerevar, purge the empire from morrowind, and live together as a family, proud and openly. defeating him was not easy emotionally or physically tbh, but steren did win.

also at some point he got trueflame. i havent figured out when he did the tribunal dlc quite yet. it might be while he was on the mainland if im being honest but i feel like almalexia would def spill the beans on who he is. maybe he takes out the assassins, comes back, gets the ring, and then goes to deal with the rest of the stuff from tribunal.

after daogth ur's defeat, azura comes to usher nerevar to moonshadow. spirits arent supposed to remain in the realm of the living for too long and he risks being completely destroyed. nerevar is worried, but steren assures him he'll be fine, and nerevar goes to rest. then azura says she'll give steren any gift within her power to him as a reward for doing such a difficult task, and steren says he just wants to be with his parents again. azura frowns and says she cant bring back the living. steren knows. azura is even more upset because steren is not that old for dunmer and is already asking to die. but instead of killing him she sends him to another world where his parents ARE alive. and also 200 years in the future where theyre together in hopes steren can be with his parents and live happily there. she's going to let this worlds nerevar and voryn have the memories of steren's world too so it wont be weird.

mephala though intervenes with the reasoning "you can just send people to different worlds and time periods. you'll fucking break the dragon." and drops him off not in mournhold but in blacklight, outside of a brothel where the reincarnation/child of vivec (named vivienne, who belongs to @wellthebardsdead) is currently being kept. in this world nerevar was the nerevarine, azura restored him to his status, voryn reincarnated, i wrote about them getting together here. steren, strongly resembling voryn, is taken in by force and fed poison to both diminish his strength and keep him from healing the injuries from dagoth ur. but he and vivienne save up money from tips and escape. steren couldnt take his ring or sword but he figures the brothel madam probably pawned them off and he should just gtfo of morrowind before the temple figures out theres two copies of nerevar's ring and sword and if theres an impersonator running around. they hop on a boat like a day or two before voryn and nerevar track down the brothel in blacklight to look for steren.

they get off the boat in.... SKYRIM!!! surprise, vivienne is the dragonborn too. he and steren are very close but very shy about admitting the fact theyre in love. theyre both traumatized and afraid of hurting the other or being rejected. im sure you can imagine.

look at how cute they are...

also since steren isn't the dragonborn he doesnt do much of the msq. he is more like a follower but he has some side content he does. he joins the companions, contracts lycanthrope (thanks hircine, not helping steren's opinion of daedra at all), ends up doing the forsworn conspiracy and after breaking out of the mine the forsworn take over markarth. vivienne does the thieves guild and steren helps with that bc he does know some dwemer from being taught it by both nerevar as a ghost and voryn when he was a kid. also he did the mages guild in morrowind so he knows a lot of dwemer stuff. oh steren also got fucked up by the heart of lorkhan a little and during the peace talks he did make the throat of the world start shaking when he got violently angry. steren is also not at all impressed with delphine (he already didnt like the blades for obvious reasons)

oh they also adopt a scrib. named mr scribbles. its later revealed scribbles is a girl but (sorry i cant draw bugs well)

alduin is defeated and vivienne comes back. steren was worried sick but is happy to have his beloved back. they confess, its cute, and steren gifts him a necklace he made with traditional house dagoth craftsmanship

shortly afterwards though miraak's cultists show up and despite what they want they have to go to solthsheim and deal with it..... ugh. while all this is going on nerevar and voryn arrived in skyrim and were trying to track their son down sort of on a wild goose chase. by the time they catch up steren and vivi are on their way to solstheim.

on solstheim they try to keep a low profile. steren uses a bandana to keep the big red star on his face covered. vivienne ends up getting turn grey and cold like vivec which doesnt help the vivec allegations. after he's turned steren starts getting some gold patches on him too (i forgot the red star like an idiot sorry)

one of vivienne's clients though survived the purge that voryn and nerevar did. his name is sen dres and he's been hiding out on solstheim getting enough political power to either go to skyrim and find vivi or get vivi when they come to solstheim. sen hates steren thinking steren is the one who convinced vivi to leave and his plan is to kill steren and take vivi back to morrowind to live with him forever. when he finds out vivi is the reincarnation of vivec he wants to force him to become vivec too because then he can have a god as his slave/husband. i hate sen dres so much. anyways he manages to get steren and vivienne alone and convinces vivi if he comes quietly they'll leave steren alive. only to promptly stab steren straight through the stomach and leave him there to bleed out while vivienne is gagged so he cant shout and drugged.

nerevar and voryn do arrive in time to help steren and heal him up. they were told by the house hlaalu dude actually what sen dres' plan was because that guy saw steren had the tattoo of a house hlaalu grandmaster and he doesn't want a potential high ranking member of house hlaalu to die. they get steren to safety and with the rest of the dragonborn gang rescue vivi and the two of them are happy together again while recovering :))) and steren gets to see his parents

steren and vivi also end up getting married eventually. yay!!!!!!

other stuff i couldnt figure out where to put it-- at first the good three think vivi is vivec. mephala sent steren to vivi to see if he'd betray steren to alleviate his own suffering. but vivienne did not, instead he took care of steren and wanted to escape with him. boethiah and azura both try to kill vivienne though. and molag bal thinks vivienne is vivec and should be married to him ugh. do you see why steren hates daedra.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for yelling at my friend over discord?

@aita-throwary-blogggg1456789 for finding later

so. um. i realise i come across as massively assholey here but idk man. this might just be teenage angst/drama

basically i (16FTM) have this friend. lets call him O (16M) we met last year since i showed him around the school on his first day. we sort of clicked and became friends.

at the time i was questioning my gender identity and was talking to a couple professionals about possible mental health issues and disabilites i was suspected to have, and when i talked to O about it he was super supportive. when i came out as enby he accepted me, and when i eventually came out as trans he accepted me then too. i told him about the adhd and the anxiety and the depression, and he was cool with all of that.

the main problem starts at the beginning of the new academic year. i'd introduced him to a really close knit friend group of mine, and he also clicked there. i was pretty happy about it, before he started saying some um... iffy things. i had recently found out my parents were severly abusive and i had been conditioned to believe that it was normal. so i'd talked to my friend group about it and they had all been really supportive. except for O. he'd conveniently kept quiet whenever i'd start talking about it. recently i asked him (quite nicely i'd like to add) why, and he said he doesn't have the full story, and that i was probably exagurating. obviously i was hurt, since it took a long time for me to finally talk about this shit, but i brushed it off since he had a relativley smooth life and didn't really know.

later i was diagonsed with osdd, and i told my friends. O admitted to me he thought i was faking it for attention, since he had become close with another person in the friend group T (16FTM). again i was deeply hurt, and didnt talk to him for a couple months. afterwards i started talking to him again, but he kept making jokes at my expense

one night i was highly emotional after a whole thing which led to me to cry for a couple hours. he made yet another joke at my expense in the discord gc and i just snapped. i went into dms and yelled at him for a paragraph and then some. he hasn't replied or even talked to me and i'm scared i did the wrong thing and overreacted

i feel really bad about it but my firend told me i wasnt the asshole... but am i?

so tumblr, aita??

(if this posted again bc of tumblr being wierd im sorry)

[starstruckodysseys]

one day i’ll make a lanie insert au that involves the entire nsbu cast. today im talking royalty au

the woodwards are, on the surface, a perfectly normal royal family. a perfect royal family, some might say. some, however, don’t know the secrets that lurk beneath the surface.

jenna is technically first in line to the throne, on account of being the oldest. however comma. she gives this up to follow her heart. aka Be A Lesbian, which is not so much frowned upon as it is just more difficult to continue the bloodline and such. so she turns down the throne and fights with their parents for years about it until they finally give up. there’s a knight she’s had her eye on for a while. they’re chilling. jenna is not in line to be queen anymore.

inevitably, this all gets dumped on lanie, as second in line and et cetera. now. the fun part about this is that lanie + wendell have technically been in an arranged marriage for A While. does this make sense? idk. transgenderism makes it slightly clearer. i guess. To Me. except they don’t meet until they’re older (like 16/17 maybe?? idk) so lanie goes through her life like “ughhh i have to get married to this guy im gonna hate” bc she sort of already hates him out of spite and the principle of the thing. and then they meet and it’s. wendell. and she’s like “hm. well. okay.” like i think there’s a little bit of antagonism at first but also. they’re stupid. so who knows. either this or childhood friends/pen pals moment which is the exact opposite vibes but also very fun.

josh is Also Here. he’s fine. he has a thing for a girl from one of the neighboring kingdoms, and she’s not royalty but he doesn’t care. lanie and jenna tease him about it relentlessly.

the thing is, though. lanie is a dumbass. and this still applies even when you’re technically up to be queen at some point maybe. her arranged marriage is fine. she’s cool with wendell. and it’s not that he’s not enough, but—

liv is one of lanie’s attendants. lady in waiting. is that the term idk it’s 12:36am. so they’re close — arguably closer than they should be, even given their positions. lanie has been So Normal about this fact for months. years, even. liv might be the closest thing she has to a friend outside of her siblings.

but liv doesn’t want this position, she realizes. not because of lanie — god knows she’s the only thing keeping liv here — but because of the reputation of it. the femininity. she can’t stand it. and it breaks lanie’s heart, for a moment, when she thinks it’s her fault, but then again there used to be two princes in their kingdom until one went missing, so. you know. wink.

and so liv trains to become lanie’s bodyguard/knight/whatever instead. and lanie is possibly even less normal about this. and she feels awful for it, because she also still really likes wendell, and it’s all really complicated but only to her until they watch the knight training together, one day, and wendell notices liv and is like “oh. okay. no i get it.” and then their plan sort of devolves into “how can we make this trio thing work.”

it’s very convenient they’re getting married, though. makes it much easier to allow your knight into the room with you. just saying.

that is. most of my thoughts for now. i think. ill probably come back to this later bc there’s a lot left to figure out and such but for now. they <3

[ramblin-tiger]

So I'm in a sort of dilemma.

It's long and I know maybe like 2 people will think about reading it so I made it super condensed for people to scroll by.

Let's just call this a vent with a request of others insight lol

First some backstory.

I've been in the same town since i was about 12/13, and yet I know no one in it really. The few friends I did have have all moved away or lost contact in some fashion. The only real source of social interaction outside of work and my union classes i have is my parents and brother.

So pretty much for the 14 years, when i work a job I'm loyal and stay about 2 years because that's usually when I end up finding a better paying job or opertunnity. But I've luckily almost always had a stable income and such. (They're have been 2 stints of unemployment that lasted 4 and 6 months respectively). Currently I'm about a year off from becoming a Journeyman through the union I'm apart of as well.

That being said, I'm not a risk taker obviously. I work hard, show up on time, and in general just do what I have to to get by.

The dilemma however, is that I more or less have an opportunity that I WANT to take, but am honestly too scared to. It would be a major change all things considered, and it's been decades since I've had a change like that.

Let me explain.

About 8ish hours from me is what i call the "family home". It's a house that been in the family at least since my great grandmas time. (I used to visit her a lot there). Back in July, my grandfather who was living there passed sadly. (That's a whole other thing I've written some about before if anyone cares to look up my lore lol).

Now, we've been trying to figure out how to keep up with the house. Currently, the deed is split between my mother (who got my grandfathers part), one of my aunts, my cousin, and one of my uncles (i think). They (except the cousin) send money to pay taxes on it, and that's it.

The house is OLD, and needs a good number of repairs although most are not massively worrying. But it's stuff that I could possible do myself over time, honestly. The main thing is some minor roof repairs to fix a leak, and the front porch having a damaged strut that's currently held up by a bottle jack lol. And part of the kitchen floor in front of the sink needs fixed. But I digress.

The big dilemma is that, I could theoretically move there, and find a simple chill part time job that would cover my basic living expenses (electricity, internet, food, gas) and more or less kinda retire super early in a sense? Like, yeah I'd be taking care of the place and fixing it up, and over time amd updating a few things that absolutely need it but otherwise I'd just do a little bit of work somewhere on the side and just really get into gardening and such. Keep up with everything there and all the plants and fruit trees and such.

Like, I really REALLY want to, but I'm scared because of the stability of everything I have right now. Aside from just leaving a 40hr job (about 2400 mo, but still only get barely half of that after base bills/rent), id also be away from family for the first time honestly. Family is a big thing to me because we're so close.

Really though that's all that keeps me where I am. Like I said before It's not like I have friends or any real commitment aside from family and work that keeps me here.

I dunno. It's just been something I wanted to talk about but don't really have a way to. I haven't brought it up with the parents yet bc I feel like as much as they would support me they would just as quickly point out the stability and longevity of my job/union stuff.

*sigh*

I just dunno what to do, or even IF i should consider going down this road.

[ramjams-obssesion]

Going insane bc freeze your brain could LITERALLY WORD BY WORD PERFECTLY BE SUNG BY NICOLE (except the parents should be gender swapped)

I've seen some ppl talk about heathers x Class of 09, but my hot take is Nicole isn't Veronica, but JD. Perhaps Jecka is closer to being Veronica, as she's gone to this school since primary and used to be best friends with Karen, who is also similar to Martha. (Also the lyric "you'll go to some colleague and marry a lawyer" fits her really well)

It's just JD and Nicole, the new kinda emo and sarcastic kid at school who seems to hate everyone, is sort of apathetic to everything and has a troublesome house life... also one of their parental figures is implied to have killed themselves, and the other is just. Terrible. Is also constantly moving from state to state. Also also ends up being to blame for the death of a bunch of... morally questionable people.

The only issue is that it doesn't leave much room for heathers,,, who are quite important for the musical heathers. So, Kelly, Emily, Ari, and Megan. Tbh, I have no clue who to assign who. Ari and Megan specially aren't really close to being stereotypical popular girls.

Ram and Kurt are a bit easier. Literally any of the boys that isn't jeffrey and Kylar. (truly the "very straight non-rapist" duo)

Jeffrey is just the random guy who wants to watch the heathers be eaten by rats.

Ms Ames would fulfill the role of Miss Fleming pretty well too.

(thinking about toxic yuri... and Emily could also fulfil JD's role, having Nicole Veronica. But this post isn't about that so.)

[anexthetxc]

idk what this is, I just...guess this is a "get to know the mun" moment bc I don't think I've ever written one before so if you want to know more about me...so here's a "about libby" list of fun facts

I'm a '97 liner, aries, and claim the gen z title proudly

I'm a BSN-RN and have been working as a nurse since Jan 2019 (pre covid). Currently head nurse of an orthopedic/oncology unit with a specialty in chemotherapy administration

I live in east coast florida, lived in florida all my life born and raised

I have 2 cats and they are my babies. I've grown up with cats my entire life, got my girl Natalia when I was 19, my boy Taeyong when I was 23. I am 95% a cat person, the other 5% really loves golden retrievers and borzoi dogs

I'm a certified Disney adult as in I live an hour from disney and go bi-monthly. Annual pass holder and proud!

Currently a home owner of a condo that I renovated in 2023

I have a deep love for european history, mostly between medieval and renaissance era

I was a historical tour guide in college where I pretended like I liked in 1815. I can start a fire with flint rock and steel! I also have a ton of now useless knowledge about historical Florida, I'd say about 5 hours worth of lecture history

I love baking. If I'm ever stressed, I'll blank out and when I come to my kitchen is full of home made desserts. I've mastered most bread making, including authentic fermented french baguettes. Have yet to master sourdough.

I'm a phenomenal baker, but a very average cook. I'll hold my own in a kitchen, but not amazing

I'm a minimalist. My condo is entirely black/white/grey as color is just too bulky. My home is usually very organized and clean, exception to a small portion of my kitchen counter where I keep my purse/bag. I have a no shoes inside rule.

I'm a proud christian woman and attend church regularly!

By choice, I did not drink alcohol until I turned 21. I hate the taste of alcohol, and also by choice, stopped drinking at 23 considering I never found a drink I liked and it was expensive. By default, I've never been drunk in my entire life.

I'm a massive kpop fan...I do not have any posters in my house. I keep my favorite photocards on my fridge. I have kpop art decor throughout my home. I keep all my bias plushes (if the group has a cartoon character) on my bed. I have 2 complete sets of different BT21 plushes. My goal is to have a complete set of all my favorite groups.

I don't vacation often as any spare cash I have are usually to fund concert trips., but I plan on hitting Disneyland next year as I've never been

I go to manhatten ny twice a year since my brother lives there. If there's one of my groups in ny, then that's when I'm visiting

My dream vacation is a train tour of irelend with a historical tour of renaissance England

I have an autoimmune disease that's chronic and attacks my heart. I'm someone who rests a lot and typically doesn't do much on my days off. I get chemotherapy infusions every 6 months to fight this.

As a nurse, I work full time, which is 3 days a week and I have 4 days off.

On my days off I usually sleep 10 hours a night.

...I'm single. *shrugs*

I'm very close with my parents and visit them a few times a month (they're an hour away)

I'm from a small family on both sides, and rarely visit extended family. I sort of like it this way as holidays I'm off (hospital nurses are obligated to work half of major holidays) we usually all eat and chill together

I eat like a child and hate vegetables. Due to my autoimmune disease, my meds limit the amount of fresh produce I eat and I can't eat cold lunch meat anymore and I miss cold cuts every day.

I'm a certified theme park sicko. I usually have a theme park podcast on when I'm home

I have over $20000 in student loans, otherwise I'm completely debt free

By phone case has kpop meme pictures on it

My phone wallpaper is currently a pic of heeseung and niki (my bias is jungwon idk I don't make the rules)

My best friend and I attend our kpop concerts together

I suffer from severe motion sickness and even a 5 minute car trip I'm not driving will make me sick. I've been like this since I was a baby, apparently as an infant I threw up a lot and who knows, it's my life now

I don't have any allergies but I'm a picky eater. The smell of seafood makes me gag and I think it should be illegal for seafood to be reheated in work break rooms

I don't get scared easily as in, horror movies don't freak me out and I don't scream in haunted houses

My favorite movie is Interstellar, my comfort movie is Signs

I can't watch any film where a cat dies or I will cry

I want to be a Disneyworld duck in my next life. I love ducks. If there's a duck in my canal, I will try and feed it

My cause of death will most likely be trying to pet something that isn't supposed to be pet

I can handle certain types of spice depending on the type of food.

I only drink water and milk. I can't stand soda, I very rarely drink juice. Milk is delicious...and when I'm feeling fancy, I'll drink chocolate milk out of a wine glass

[shima-draws]

Hi all thanks for letting me infodump about my new kids <3 Anyway here’s their general info and personalities. They don’t have names yet so suggestions are welcome. Also elemental power suggestions are welcome (remember, this is within the ATS verse so it’ll have to be 1 of the 15 elements). Some of them are already set but not all of them so ;)

Protag boy: THE boy of all time. He’s lovable. He’s stupid. He’s absurdly powerful. He’s really chill UNLESS you mess with his friends then he goes apeshit. He’s got a boyish charm that every single member of the group is attracted to. He’s the official leader of the group and they would do ANYTHING for him. His childhood friend passed away due to an incurable illness so whenever someone gets sick he mother hens to the EXTREME. He rarely ever cries so when he does the entire group flips their shit trying to comfort him or trying to beat the hell out of whatever made him cry. And most importantly. He is BABY

(Yes I got inspired bc I’ve been watching too much shounen lately. I NEEDED to make the boy ever)

Mute girl: Originally she was a VERY famous singer but she “vanished” five years ago. She’s kept this a secret from the group. Due to trauma she has chosen to go mute and has not sung in a long, long time. She communicates solely through sign language and eventually the rest of the group picks it up. Is generally closed off, but opens up to the group as time passes. When she does finally get the courage to use her voice and sing again, everyone absolutely loses their shit at how beautiful her voice is and they all cry and it’s very emotional.

Rabid feral girl: Little feral child that is just a gremlin and was taken in by the group bc she had no family. She thinks of protag boy as her big brother and absolutely adores him. She’s also a BEAST in battle, one of the strongest members of the group. She has no memories of who she was before she met the group, and has a mysterious past that will soon catch up with her. She’s probably the most blunt out of everyone and can sometimes say rude things without meaning to. You want to get roasted by a 10 year old? Yeah she’ll roast you alright

Edgy boy: He’s stoic and strong willed and stupidly powerful. Has more of a physical fighting style rather than using magic. Was the first member of the group to fall in behind protag boy. Would do ANYTHING for protag boy, even betray the other members. Is surprisingly a really good dancer, but will only dance in public if it’s with mute girl (who’s also had dance training). Everyone is jealous of this. Is one of the few people to have known sign language from the get go, so he translates for mute girl a lot at the beginning. Might also secretly come from high society.

Standoffish mechanic: He’s a jerk, but he’s so lovable. Would die for protag boy. Protag boy gushes over his inventions and it boosts his ego way too much. He comes off as arrogant and cocky but he’s a real softie deep down :’) He butts heads with edgy boy a LOT. There’s some weird sexual tension going on there that nobody else wants to bring up. The “everyone is so not worth my time except for the people I love and care about” kind of guy. He will be brutally honest with you.

Non-binary parental figure: The oldest one in the group who watches over all the others. Very gentle and kind hearted, but willing to be strict if necessary. Acts as a sort of mentor figure to protag boy (and p much everyone else tbh). Is arguably the most powerful member of the group, but rarely ever uses their magic. They’re the kind of person that lets their kids learn their lessons the hard way. Is the first one to figure out mute girl’s story and acts as her confidant.

Violin boy: Has a history with mute girl and went through a similar trauma as her. Due to a misunderstanding he holds a serious grudge against mute girl which is eventually solved. He probably ends up joining the group. Or just runs into them once in a while. He’s socially awkward and can’t hold a good conversation to save his life…unless it’s with mute girl. Is actually very attractive but hides his looks due to low self esteem. Thanks trauma.

Himbo: I’m holding out for a himbo til the end of the night

(Dumb and strong and respects women and ride or die. Also gremlin girl’s best buddy and unofficial guardian. I really don’t have much else to say about him I honestly haven’t given him a lot of thought yet.)

Healer girl: Soft spoken and kind, she takes care of the group’s injuries and provides support in battle. Everyone’s a little intimidated by her bc she’s scary when they don’t immediately come to her for medical treatment after battle, or brush off their injuries. Grows close with mute girl. Is the calming presence of the group, and everyone comes to her when they are stressed. (This causes her to have a complex about being the calm one, the cheerful one, the one who always has their shit together. This is unhealthy. Lmao)

Smart girl: “I’m surrounded by idiots but they’re MY idiots” kind of person. Brilliantly clever and quick witted and has a sharp tongue. Thinks protag boy is SO dumb but she loves him anyway and has absolute faith in him. Has a loving family back home and gets embarrassed when her softer family side is brought up since she’s kinda arrogant and cold. Regularly spars with edgy boy. Gets easily flustered and then gets angry about it.

Cute baker: His pastries are SCRUMPTIOUS. He wears glasses. And has freckles. And he’s nerdy and kinda shy and awkward and he’s perfect. He’s more of a behind the scenes kind of strategist. He works with mechanic boy a lot to improve on their gadgets and gizmos and also on food related things. Is also wickedly smart but more in the book smart kind of way (while smart girl is street smart. Life experience smart.)

Now that you’ve met the squad…

(Also pssst tell me who you voted for in the tags/comments if you wanna!! I’m curious ��)

[littleprincefan]

oh my god i made that post about sarah from labyrinth and neil from dps and in the tags joked about them being siblings but now im thinking about it seriously……… guys hold on

neil and sarah being siblings with them both having a thing for acting and being rlly rlly close until neil is shipped off to welton

their dad (mr perry evil evil evil) is very strict but is harsher to neil bc he expects more from him and neil Knows That and uses that to keep mr perrys anger away from sarah

neil told sarah about the play and she was rlly happy for him and promised him that she wouldnt tell anyone . when mr perry found out he pressed her to know if she already but she stood her ground and said she didnt know

charlie knew her for a long time (being neils best friend and all) and loved her like a sister (hed never tell neil but she was his favourite perry sibling. if neil knew hed get Jealous (not really) that his sister was stealing his friends). sarah found him really funny

neil was the one to gift her the labyrinth book as a birthday gift and she got him a shakespeare anthology for his

ANGSTY BITS INCOMING

sarah went to see his play and sat with the poets (that was the first time she met todd, immediately liked him because she knew how much he meant to neil. they had a really nice chat). she was clapping the loudest out of everyone (except for maybe charlie)

when mr perry saw she was there he was even angrier. when the four perrys sat down to talk in the study neil made sure mr perrys rage was directed at him since she had no fault in anything. sarah tried to defend neil when mr perry told them he’d pull neil out of welton but neither of them managed to talk him down.

sarah tried to stay with neil in the study after the conversation but their mother made her leave him alone, thinking that’s what he’d want

she was the first person to hear the gunshot and the first to get to the study (she knew exactly what had happened)

sarah tried to get her parents to drop the blame from keating but they didnt listen. she found out charlie was expelled and was enraged.

after the divorce her dad remarried, and they had toby -> enter labyrinth storyline

she was so angry to move into a new house and have a new sibling because of neil. she wasn’t supposed to be the eldest sibling. her brother wasn’t supposed to be younger than her. he wasn’t supposed to be blond, and his name was supposed to be neil, not toby.

she was so attached to the labyrinth book because it was a gift from him. she wished toby away partly because she wanted her older brother back.

enter the goblin king.

he’d probably know part of sarah’s wishing away of toby has to do with neil, and he’d definitely use it to manipulate her in the labyrinth.

maybe shed even see a bit of puck in jareth and be torn

after rescuing toby she would be a bit more ok with being a big sister, and know that even tho she lost neil toby isnt a replacement, and she would tell him all sorts of stories about their brother

i have many thoughts as you can see

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - February 23rd

marauders kin anon (new), remus anon (new), the anon, school trip anon (new), therapist anon, stag anon

marauders kin anon

i have no idea who my marauders kin is bc i'm just like a mixture of them so i can't even pinpoint one. like i care too much about my grades and i'm a good test taker like barty because of my memory but unlike him i live for academic validation like lily but at the same time i'm also a burnt out gifted kid (i'm working on that part) like marlene. i'm overly ambitious like regulus and dorcas and i lie and cheat to get my way in literally anything like idek really know who (lowkey barty and sirius maybe?). i act like i don't care except i care far too much like evan and i don't think good things will last like him and regulus but at the same time i don't think good things will even happen like barty. i love my friends but i like spending time alone like reg, evan and remus and i overthink too much like lily. i'm sarcastic and most people seem to think i'm a bitch like dorcas. i'm introverted like reg and remus and i have slight attachment issues with my friends like barty. i don't trust people and i have commitment issues for no valid reason like sirius and my love languages are words of affirmation and acts of service like lily. my parents pressure me to do well like reg and barty's but i put more pressure on myself than anyone else dorcas and lily.

probably too long of an anon for something so stupid but i asked my friend and she was like "idk" very noncommittally. lowkey kinda frustrating because she's the only other person in my friendgroup who knows about marauders but we aren't very close so there's that.

I mean I'm getting mostly Reg vibes overall but you don't have to just kin one person! You can just be yourself and kin everyone a bit!

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Remus anon

hi Cas :)

I guess this is lowkey a vent bc I’ve been wanting to talk about it to, like, EVERYONE 😭 and I’m dying inside. there’s this guy that I really think I like and I know he likes me (at least I hope so) and we’ve been talking for a month and a half or so and we’ve been out a few times and we’ve kissed, too. He’s just straight up my type and matches my quirks so much — like my favorite character growing up was always Remus and he is LITERALLY him. Tall, nerdy, sarcastic, etc. I think he’s just adorable and I’ve never really properly liked someone ever, much less been in any sort of ‘talking’ stage or relationship. I guess I just REALLY don’t want to mess this up and I’m scared that either one, he doesn’t actually like me and just decided it’s maybe time to be in a relationship, or two, he does like me but as time is going on, he’s growing annoyed or something.

I guess I’ve just been overthinking so much and I really don’t want to lose this bc I think I really like him. But I’m so scared I’m going to mess it up in some way, either because I come across too clingy or not interesting enough.

Idk. I guess I’ve just been wanting to talk to someone about it and I don’t want to annoy people.

Hi!

I mean if he's kissed you then I'd guess he likes you lol. I totally understand the feeling of not wanting to mees things up, but you don't want that fear to stop you from trying, you know? I think the thing is, with a good relationship, communication is VERY important. So I would try telling him you're nervous. You don't have to share everything, just say "hey, I really like how much time we've been spending together and I'm nervous about doing somethin wrong." I know it's scary to be that vulnerable, but his reaction will actually be a really good indicator of if he's a good fit anyway. If he gets mad, then he's not good enough for you!

I'm sending love and keep me updated if you want!

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The anon

SO SO SO

Hi, Cas!! It’s the anon back with some random things (talk about my bf/partner and some good things)

So, my family booked a sudden trip to Vegas (I’m super excited, but that’s another thing)

As soon as my partner found out, they kinda seemed upset. And the last two days, they’ve been making comments about it and how I’m ‘abandoning’ them or smth for a week.

It’s honestly kinda getting to me- like, I just wanna enjoy the holiday with my parents and younger brother, but at thé same time I feel like crap.

But on the positive end of things!! My mom said I shouldn’t need to put on my ‘straight cosplay’ for Vegas, so I’ll be able to wear my usual outfits and such :D OO, and I get to ride in a limousine from the airport to my hotel, so that’s pretty cool

Anygays- that’s all for my brain ❤️❤️

Hi!

It sounds like maybe your partner could be feeling insecure. Like you'll forget about them or things will change if you're gone for a while. I know they way they're reacting isn't cool, but I'd try maybe saying something reassuring like "remember, nothings changing. I'm coming back, and I still care about you" or something like that. See how they react <3

I hope you have fun in Vegas!

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School trip anon

Hey cas, idk how to rlly start this but this happened?

Basically i went on a multi day overnight school trip and was rooming with this girl in the hotel. And we were talking and she showed me a photo of her baby sister and i was like cute picture for cute picture and showed her a photo of my friends dog. She asked some questions and i answered but then she asked me how i can assume the dogs gender. I laughed a bit and was like "oh haha they then" and she kinda dragged it out which whatever.

Then like 2 minutes later when we were done talking she goes "do you support the trans trend- i mean do you support transgender people"

I didn't really answer, and she pressed me about it, so i said, "i mean... yeah" (im genderqueer myself btw if it's not obvious yet that i defo support trans people)

Then she was like "i just dont get the people who get mad that you misgender them when its obvious that they are either a man or a woman you know"

I didnt know what to do so i just kind of stopped talking to her.

Then later that day she called me girl and was like "oh sorry did i misgender you" but she seemed kind of sincere. I said like "no im a girl ur good"

Then she goes "do americans actually apologize for misgendering people?"

I said "yeah, i mean if you get it wrong and someone corrects you i would probably just apologize and correct myself"

And then she asks if ive meant a trans person and i said yeah bc i have and she asked if i misgendered them and i said the first time i met them i did on accident but i corrected myself

And then she fucking says "oh but its like their fault you know"

I just what the hell. And both of these times we werent talking about anything to do with gender, or trans people or anything of the sort. She brought it up every time. I guess i just want to ask should i have said something more? And like been more outward that i wasnt transphobic? Bc im never gonna see her again and i was gonna have to room with her for a few days and like idk it was weird. If it was a friend that i was gonna have to deal with i wouldve said something but idk. Am i a bad person for not saying anything? Does it make me part of the problem?

Honestly it sounds like she was being annoying about it. Like she wasn't being kind or curious, she was being rude. So in that case, I don't think there's any right or wrong way to deal with it, because any answer you give her will just end in her getting more pissed off about something she has no right to be pissed off about. Like it sounds like she wanted you to be part of her angry echo chamber.

I don't think you did anything wrong. Yeah, you could've tried to educate her, but she was obviously making you uncomfortable and if you felt unsafe then you absolutely weren;t required to put yourself in an even more unsafe position.

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Stag anon

hi cas, it's me again

I don't know what's wrong with me anymore LOL I can't catch a break atp

so I'm copying a post I made but this is the gist of it

I feel like I don't love the right way

like no matter what I do, I always feel like my romantic love isn't genuine, or it's skewed

I always question if I've ever had a real crush on someone, because I don't know how I get over people so easily

I got broken up with my first bf in 8th grade and I feel like he's the only one that (at the time) i didn't get over him in like a week

and then all my crushes

they fade so fucking easily

at this point I just confess to get the feelings over with, because I know they'll die out eventually

And with my bf freshman year, I liked the dude for like a week before I confessed. I didn't expect him to say yes bc well, I'm me, but he did and we dated

and he made me really really happy, but there would be brief times— that I never admitted— that I was scared I didn't like him, that my feelings weren't real

same thing with my first bf to

and when my freshman year bf ghosted me, I got over him so easily, that when a month later he told me he didn't wanna be together I was fine

I had already moved on

and even now, with one of my more recent exes

I don't know how I felt anymore, I know I loved them

or at least I think I did

I don't know anymore. Cause sometimes it feels like I choose my crushes but sometimes it doesn't

I had a crush on my best friend irl for almost two years, but not consecutively. I'd get over him, like genuinely, and then somehow like him again

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me and I hate it

because sometimes I want that connection, I want to be so undeniably in love, but I don't know if I can be

I think I can, I think I have been, but I don't know anymore and that scares me

I want to love someone as much as I want someone to love me

Am I like, going insane for feeling this way? or do I have commitment issues? or am I possibly aromantic? I have no idea and I'm so confused and scared

-🦌

Hi! <3

I don't think you're insane at all. Feelings can be really confusing, and things you have experienced in the past can affect the way you experience your feelings now. I think it's important not to judge your feelings, whatever they are. So many people look at their feelings and judge them, but feelings just ARE. They aren't good or bad or right or wrong. It's okay to have feelings that change quickly or feelings that aren't logical. Try to be a little kinder to yourself and allow yourself to feel without judgement <3

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Therapist anon

Hi cas therapist anon here!

My best friend got a girlfriend recently and I'm so beyond happy for her

But...because we're close and have been for years (since I moved so over a decade) and it's in no way awkward between us bur I'm just wondering how I got about our friendship now

Just cos I'm a touchy person and call people names like 'gorgeous and lovely" as a greeting (just cos I like making them happy) as in I'll go hey lovely how are you or hey gorgeous what question are wr on

But I don't want to like not upstage (G-d this is awkward why are words so wordy) but make her feel uncomfortable or make her girlfriend uncomfortable (we havnt met yet but talked through messaging like I message my friend and then she tells me what her gf said kinda thing)

Do you have any pointers on how I can make sure I'm not upstaging( is thay the word?) Their relationship and not making my friend uncomfortable because hey ill stop as soon as she says the word but I dunno how to ask her without coming across as weird or jealous

Thanks and have a great weekend!

Hi!

Honestly I don't think you should change how you're acting at all! That's how your friendship is and it shouldn't change just because of a relationship. I mean if you two were making out for fun it'd be different, but friends can be affectionate in a platonic way. I think unless your friend or her girlfriend says anything, just act the same <3

[akuabel]

ranting about my fantasy ocs ; maria

okay okay, so i’ve decided to write abt my ocs on tumblr bc my memory is getting so shit and i’m gonna forget everything if i don’t jot it down. anyway, my fantasy story (currently nameless) is my oldest story! i love it sm and i hold it very close to my heart, i’ve never really told anyone about it bc it’s complicated and long. it has two (three?) parts so i split the timeline into pt. 0, pt. 1, and pt. 2!! we’re gonna start with characters from part 0 (pre war) soooo

maria

this is my baby girl, which is a bit self centered bc she used to be my self insert :3 but i love her so so much

maria is a witch, witches in this universe have a limited amount of magic at birth and they’re stuck with that amount for the rest of their life, the more powerful of a spell they cast, the more magic they use up, and no magic = death for witches so most have to use their magic sparingly

maria was born into a poor family where her father worked as a cook and her mother worked as a maid for this noble family, once she’s 7 years old they end up abandoning her at an orphanage bc they couldn’t afford to take care of her, the orphanage lets the children wander around during the day (mainly playing in the forest behind the building)

a noble girl named valkyrie, the same age as maria, ends up meeting maria in the forest, val had slipped into the river and maria had helped her up and (unknowingly) used her magic to heal the scratches val got, after that val came to play with maria every day until eventually she begged her mother to let her take maria home

at the age of eight, maria becomes val’s personal maid but they’re more like best friends that always hang around each other

this dynamic continues until they both turn 15, valkyrie is sent off to live with her aunt bc her mother died and maria is sent to work at another noble’s home (close friends of valkyrie’s mother)

maria starts working for the nevorwinn’s, an extremely noble family consisting of lord nevorwinn (no first name at this moment) (werewolf) , his wife rosie (werewolf), and their two twin sons malcolm and duke. duke sneaks out and is extremely disrespectful to his father which leads his parents to make maria his personal maid to make sure he doesn’t get into any trouble

duke and maria don’t immediately become friends but eventually, duke breaks down and vents about his life to maria and maria vents to him and they silently agree to always be there for each other, no matter what

the two end up going to each other a lot for comfort and have a friends with benefits sort of situation, they both have feelings for each other but duke doesn’t want to admit it

valkyrie comes back from her aunt’s house at 18 with her new boyfriend, phoenix, and reunites with maria. they end up forming a friend group of sorts consisting of maria, valkyrie, duke, malcolm, phoenix, aragon, and hyacinth.

i need to explain the kingdom lord but, long story short, the king is awful and everyone hates him

i’ll go into this in more detail later but basically there’s a revolution to overthrow the king

during the revolution, maria ends up pregnant and she panics, cries, breaks down, etc, until she finally tells duke, thinking he’ll fire her or have her killed, instead he comforts her and says he’ll be there for her and the baby, no matter what his father says, he’ll tell everyone about the relationship once she starts to show

sadly, due to the stress of the revolution, she loses the baby and duke suggests keeping their relationship a secret

that’s basically part 0 maria! (technically once the revolution starts it’s part 1 but no one except duke and maria know abt the baby so i just included it as a part 0 thing!)

[spookyrobbins]

What were Callie and Arizona like in college?

very fun! obviously i’ve done a few little hints of college age calzona in smbr so this will sort of build off of that

arizona:

i stand by my interpretation that arizona went to an ivy league or equivalent school (based on her overall deal plus callie’s insecurity over where arizona went to school)

she knew she was going to be pre-med going in and was super focused on that

depending on what type of robbinses you choose, there’s all sort of routes you can go with how arizona funded school - her dad’s gi bill, her parents just paid for it, loans, etc

i think arizona was generally popular like she got invited to all the parties and all that and bc she moved around so much she’s good at making acquaintances

she knew she was a lesbian before she went to college but she wasn’t really out to anyone except her brother and nick at that point and she really just wanted to be kind of anonymous and not have anything really noteworthy - like she wasn’t joining clubs for lgbt students or anything

once it was known she was a lesbian she had a lot of girls who were just experimenting hook up with her and like it wasn’t necessarily good for her self image but she had fun too idk

i could see her playing some sort of sport - not like d1 but like inter mural for fun

she graduated near the top of her class of not the top and spent a ton of time in the library

she kept in touch with some of her friends from college but not super closely

callie:

i think callie went to a good school but a tier 2 school (again referring back to the general chip on her shoulder about arizonas schooling)

she really didn’t know what she wanted to do when she went to school and was just trying out a bunch of different things

callie always enjoyed and did well in school so she had broad interests but eventually probably landed on something that was sciencey enough that it allowed her to go to medical school

callie probably had one or two serious boyfriends and didn’t do the hookups quite like arizona did. callie’s very much into serious relationships imo but she also didn’t really see a future with any of her college boyfriends

she stayed on the east coast but not in florida but her parents visited regularly and paid for everything

callie very much was the friend paying for everything for her friends and was more than happy to do so

callie wasn’t like crazy involved in campus activities but tried lots of different things at least once

callie’s still pretty close with her college roommate but the roommate never even met arizona bc everything was such the time

callie absolutely graduated top of her class but then was really directionless afterwards before she joined the peace corps on a whim

[rebelliouswhirlpool]

Cavalier Yang

@yellowmagicalgirl on your theory about Yang being the Second's Cavalier in my recent Qrow fic in the Locked Tomb AU, I have some Ideas

(I have have thoughts on Maria/Alecto, but they'll have to wait bc this got long)

there is a nonzero chance I end up writing a fic set at Canaan House from Yang's pov at some point but I really really do need to sit down and sort out all the things I'm writing

Yang, by birth, is the first daughter of the Ninth House, and so should have been its heir. Except, she isn’t a Necromancer.

As a young child, she was raised on the Second, with Raven and Tai coming in and out of her life between missions (and Tai likely spent longer periods at home with her until his duties as Cavalier called him away). Thus, there was always a degree of separation between Yang and the other kids on the Second. They, and she, were constantly aware that she was a child of the Ninth (not truly one of them).

Then, Raven became a Lyctor, and the reason for Yang being on the Second—her parents keeping her relatively close while they where on missions—stopped being valid. Tai was gone, and Raven could no longer return home. Yang loved the grandmother she lived with, but she also fully expected to be called back to the Ninth (even as a child, being on the Second would instill a sense of duty in her, and the Ninth was her House).

Except the summons from the Ninth never came. Yang, so soon after losing her parents, felt rejected by the last family she had left.

In truth, politically, the situation was a bit more complex than she was aware of (due to being a kid).

At the time, the Ninth was going through a transitional period. It was slowly realizing that Qrow would be the Head of the House permanently, since Raven would never return, and begrudgingly coming to accept that.

Additionally, the Second saw an opportunity to exert power over the Ninth in Yang. They could withhold her from Qrow until he gave way to their demands (something like ‘we want to be sure the conditions on your house are suitable for the Child of a Lyctor, who we’ve been raising, so we won’t give her to you until you do x, y, and z’).

Qrow, who was already dealing with the Ninth truly recognizing his authority, considered what it would mean to bring a non-necro child, whose homecoming would be accompanied by the Ninth’s loss of autonomy to the Second, into the mix and claiming her as the heir, and decided against it.

From his perspective, Yang had her grandmother, probably friends, and an entire life on the Second, it would be cruel to drag her away from everything she’d ever known, just to force her into the center of a politically tumultuous situation. She probably didn’t even want to come to the Ninth anyway.

Except Yang did, and that rejection stayed with her as an unresolved hurt as she grew up. Especially as, a couple years later, news would reach the Second that the Ninth had declared its Heir, a girl child that Qrow adopted.

(I have the idea that Qrow would try to pass Ruby off as his bio kid, who he claims he didn’t know about for the first years of her life. He had a reputation for being somewhat promiscuous, so there’d be enough plausibility that, outside of the Ninth, where everyone knew the truth, it would be hard to challenge. The other Houses suspected but never saw enough reason to make the contestation.)

As a tween/young teen, Yang definitely would try to make a challenge. It hurt immensely that her uncle not only had refused her (that she wasn’t enough for him), but accepted some random kid as his own. Reaching those angsty years, Yang would realize she does have a valid claim to the Ninth. However, her efforts would never make it far. Though she had the bloodline, she’d still be a non-necro challenging a necromancer who could potentially claim that same bloodline. The support she’d need to succeed never materialized.

Back to those those first years after Raven’s Lyctorhood, Child!Yang would decide that she wants to train as a Cavalier. Her reasoning being that it’d be a way she could still go home to the Ninth. She could never be her House’s Necromancer, but she could do this one thing instead.

Except then Penny arrived on the Ninth, so that never panned out for Yang either.

So, Yang would grow up and be trained as a Cohort Cavalier. Her combat skill (as well as her status as a Lyctor’s daughter) would allow her to become the Cavalier Primary and travel to Canaan House when the summons come.

After some thought, I’ve think I’ve decided that the Second’s Necromancer will be Cordovin. Yang won’t be her first Cavalier (Cordo has extremely high standards for what she expects from them and isn’t afraid of demoting anyone from the role if they don’t meet them), but she will be her last.

Yang is vehemently against Lyctorhood. She doesn’t know the specifics of how Raven and Tai achieved it, but she does hold it as the thing that took her family from her. Yang goes to Canaan House not to achieve it with her Necromancer, but to stop everyone there from achieving it.

During her teen years, Yang’s reputation as being hotheaded at times and socially isolated from her peers (who also never forgot she’s of the Ninth), caused her to be targeted by the Blood of Eden to potentially turn as a spy/informant. The person they send to recruit her is Blake.

At Canaan House, Yang secretly works with Blake (off-planet, but who she maintains a covert line of communication with) to try to ensure no one comes close to becoming a Lyctor.

Cordovin finds out, and blames Yang for everything that’s gone wrong at Canaan House (including some mysterious deaths), but before she can act, Cinder makes her final move.

(I haven’t quite figured out Cinder, and, by extension, Salem, but they’re definitely A Threat similar to Cytherea).

Cordovin dies in the fight against Cinder (largely because she refuses to work with Yang at that point), while Yang and Blake manage to get the survivors off-planet.

They witness Ruby becoming a Lyctor from the sky, where they see her, in her grief over losing Penny, use a massive amount of necromancy to kill Cinder.

(Yang has feelings she can’t quite describe about it. A personal motivation for her coming to Canaan House was wanting to meet the girl who replaced her in the eyes of the Ninth, but she wouldn’t wish Lyctorhood on anyone.)