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trust you to find a sad bratty bottom and immediately make them sadder. death taxes and lena’s agenda against pining bottoms love ya gal

lmao rude

is it really an agenda against or an agenda for the promotion of? but yes you do have a point. i have a type and a style and ykw it works just fine thank you very much

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title: break the silence (damn the dark, damn the light)

summary:

As Agatha stepped past her, a short breath fell from her lips, a breath she hadn’t even realized she had been holding. She shouldn’t have been concerned. If there was one defining feature of Agatha Harkness, it was her survival instinct and her single-minded desire to survive. She burned brighter, more alive than anyone Rio had ever encountered over eons.

The boy had the same expression all Agatha’s victims did. Shock, betrayal, hurt, anger, all swirled together in a pathetic frown. How many had stood in this boy’s place before her? How many had followed Agatha on her twisted little road only to realize too late they were being led like lambs to the slaughter?

read it on ao3

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I can’t believe you brought couch scenes to agathario and I can’t believe we got a 13k rio doom spiral right off the bat

it’s all about that doom spiral bb all i need is one emotionally damaged (+ bratty bottom) who’s a bit too in love for her own good and we’re off to the races

also you can pry couch scenes from my cold dead hands

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lena!!! you made it to agathario!!!!

hahaha did the 13k 24 hr brain rot give it away?

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super fun little agathario fic that's basically a what if the last two episodes weren't a bit of a nightmare

find it on ao3

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Are you open to translation of your stories? Some authors are, some are not

so long as you give appropriate credit back to me, i don’t see an issue with it!

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Do you think Arizona would've felt differently if Mark was a woman? I mean obviously the main problem was their co-dependence and that wouldn't change just because Callie's ex happened to be a woman. But there maybe was an added element of insecurity because Arizona was technically Callie's first serious girlfriend (Erica was basically Callie's experiment if she even liked women or not) so Arizona might've been just as annoyed at Callie's ex gf but she wouldn't feel as insecure as she did w/Mark

i think in a way yes, and in a way no. i think she might feel less generally weirded/creeped out with callie’s female ex fwb. like the whole mark stares at her boobs thing - a) probably just wouldn’t happen with a woman in the first place tbh and b) she might not feel as viscerally uncomfortable as she was with mark, not thrilled or anything but it’s just less creepy. i also think she’d be more understanding of callie maintaining a friendship with her. like idk it just feels less odd that callie would remain friendly with her than it does with mark.

but also in another way i think she might be more jealous of her than she was of mark. fundamentally female friendships are different than whatever weirdness mark and callie had going on. idk lbr it’s just different. i think it’d be easier for arizona to express her feelings of jealousy and insecurity bc i think she’d be able to define more easily.

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Why do you think people have such a visceral reaction to Arizona's cheating that everywhere you look, it's always "I hate Arizona because she cheated"? Or did people always prefer Callie and Arizona cheating was just an excuse to openly hate her? Also, I'll never understand why people interpreted Callie as such a flawless character. She had many flaws. She made many mistakes, including in her relationship with Arizona.

i sort of think most are pretty predisposed to prefer callie over arizona by the shows design - callie is the pov of calzona. not only is callie introduced first, she’s a much more fleshed out character and almost everything that qualifies as a calzona scene or plot point really goes through callie. the larger scale version of this would be how merder goes through meredith. obviously callie isn’t the narrator in the way meredith is, but really every “moment” is callie’s pov. which is totally fine and understandable! it’s an ensemble show and they’re both very much supporting characters. callie’s the one the audience is familiar with so it makes sense that it would all go via her

however that does lead to more people having a negative reaction to arizona. bc it’s through callie’s pov, her faults and mistakes are arguably downplayed while arizonas faults and mistakes are shown more especially through callie’s reaction to them. we see callie breaking down and crying with cristina in s6 post baby break up but we only see arizona at work seemingly okay-ish with everything. callie processes things aloud with mark and meredith and bailey whereas arizona doesn’t have those same moments on the scale callie does. so the audience naturally finds it easier to empathize with callie bc they understand how she’s feeling bc she actively says it and/or it’s explicitly shown.

i’d also say there’s something to be said for the way people react to arizona cheating vs the pile of men who cheat. something something misogyny something? like i don’t feel like you see the same energy towards mark or owen or derek or alex or george as you do towards arizona (and addie on perhaps a slightly lesser scale) for the men, it’s a poor decision and a mistake, for arizona, it’s a defining character flaw that proves she’s a bad person.

also also bc callie was cheated on before i think the audience is already sensitive to the issue. they’ve already seen callie be cheated on (in perhaps a worse way bc there were a lot of emotions involved with george and izzie). it seems like rubbing salt in an old wound.

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hi!! do you have a link to the discord server?

here ya go: https://discord.gg/2fguhYxN

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Omg I love it. Lucia who wants to make up for lost time with Sofia but clearly doesn't think Lizzie is her granddaughter too. But now this baby that isn't even Callie's has her mother's name as her middle name. Lucia hates it. When Callie wakes up maybe it's Lucia who brings Sofia to visit because she happened to be with her, and Callie is overjoyed. But then Lucia still won't even look at Arizona and acts like Lizzie doesn't exist.

lucia who refers to lizzie as “the other one” and arizona as “that woman” and callie who doesn’t fully understand what she’s saying at first bc hello coma. but she catches on and makes a big point of saying “my wife” and “my daughters” and lucia who always nearly rolls her eyes and sighs gently.

and lucia making some little comment to callie like “you know that girl isn’t really your daughter right?” and callie snapping back “just like aria isn’t dad’s?”

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No but the image of a pregnant Arizona sitting next to Callie's bed, begging her to wake up because she can't do this alone, she can't raise 2 kids without her. Arizona who is in denial that she's in labour because Callie can't miss the birth of their baby and Bailey is like "honey this baby is coming whether you want her to or not"

yes exactly!

arizona who’s like struggling through the pain and telling herself if nothing bc she can’t have this baby right now. callie’s supposed to be there. they’re supposed to do this together. they promised. and bailey who’s all but begging arizona to at least let a doctor check her out

and what finally gets through to arizona is bailey saying something like “callie needs you to take care of your baby” and then like borderline catatonic arizona who’s just totally out of it and bailey talking her through things

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Lucia who shows up in Seattle after they're rescued because even if she disapproves all of Callie's decisions, that's still her daughter lying in a coma. She had a change of heart regarding Sofia and wants to meet her but she doesn't even acknowledge that Arizona and the new baby are anything to Callie. Which is making the situation for Arizona even worse because now when she visits her wife, there's a good chance she'll run into a woman who doesn't believe she and the baby are really Callie's family.

lucia who’s constantly around and insists on being super involved. but then won’t even look at arizona or the baby. like she’ll have perfectly civil conversations with the robbinses and then not even acknowledge arizonas presence.

and arizona who knows how badly callie missed her mom so she’s not going to push her away or make a fuss if it means callie can have her mom back. but also arizonas on the brink of a meltdown so that’s neat.

lucia who’s very much trying to make up for lost time with sofia so she keeps planning activities for her and taking her to the zoo and the aquarium and wherever else. and arizonas not 100% cool with it but also she’s kinda struggle to manage two kids by herself and not have a breakdown and maybe it’s a positive sign that lucia’s so interested in sofia. and babs who definitely reinforces that bc she’s the queen of keeping the peace and not causing trouble.

also if callie and arizona had already picked out names and lizzie’s middle name is lucia’s mother’s name bc she was callie’s favorite grandmother. which just causes all sorts of weird tension. bc like callie never expected her mother to know she had done that. but she desperately wanted to hold onto this little piece of her mom and her family.

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I hate Mark too but in your AU he lost Lexie and his leg. Damn that's harsh.

truly can’t stand the man so my sympathies are limited

i suppose i could’ve killed him off?

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how would it work after they’re rescued? Does arizona have the baby on the mountain? or after they’re rescued? What happens to Callie or Mark? How do they handle having a newborn in the middle of the fallout of the plane crash?

(pregnant!arizona in the plane crash with callie who has similar injuries to mark for ref)

maybe let’s go with arizona having the baby after they’re rescued but callie’s unconscious.

and similar to bailey, arizona doesn’t want to have this baby without callie. and since bailey (i think) was one of the ones who met them after they’re rescued, bailey who helps arizona through it since she understands better than most. elizabeth miranda robbins-torres anyone?

so if callie has similar injuries to mark, i guess we can vaguely follow mark’s injuries. like she’s unconscious for an extended period of time but bc i don’t want to, she survives. like callie who’s in a coma for almost a month and arizona who has a newborn and a toddler and is genuinely only not having a fullblown mental breakdown bc she doesn’t have time for it.

zero chance the robbinses and carlos and maybe even lucia don’t descend upon seattle. their kids were in a plane crash and they have a new grandbaby

carlos and daniel would absolutely try to help out and set up the nursery for arizona but declare it completely nonfunctional as their apartment is not an appropriate size for two adults and two little kids and carlos goes and buys a house while daniel builds furniture and babs organizes the move like a gd general (and if we want to be fun lucia who’s also involved and callie can tell the moment she enters the house like full blown disturbance in the force)

now let’s sort out the other injuries. if callie’s on the plane, someone else isn’t. so my first vote to not be on the plane is meredith. all the others kind of make more sense as to why they’d be there i guess. but also she has the less notable injuries imo

so lexie still dies. as does the pilot.

we’ll give mark arizonas injury - mark’s losing his leg i’m sorry

derek still has his hand injury - and he’s probably not going to regain use of it bc callie’s in a coma

maybe cristina is still mobile and just has like the dislocated shoulder or something that callie had to talk arizona through setting and everyone was yelling at each other

(i can’t remember all the injuries exactly im sorry i hate the plane crash episode and have never watched all of it) (or any of s9 for that matter) (and honestly not sorry about it at all lol)

so we’ll mainly focus on mark since that’s the most relevant to calzona

mark who callie promised on the mountain that she’d save his leg and mark keeps asking for callie and lexie and he breaks up with his gf immediately. and mark keeps bugging arizona to bring sofia and arizona genuinely can’t deal with mark atm so she sends sofia with either her dad or carlos figuring they’re the scariest option

but mark who’s similarly delusional to how arizona was bc callie promised she could save the leg once again. and he’s really not processing that callie’s in a coma. and he’s freaked out and stubborn in his own way so he doesn’t even want to have the conversation about an amputation

and much like arizona he crashes and derek is the one who makes the call about cutting off marks leg

when mark wakes up from surgery he demands to speak to either derek or arizona. he blames derek for everything and probably throws something out there about how his dad would be ashamed of derek or something. and as for arizoan he all but blames her for lexies death and arizonas seriously on the edge of a breakdown

and just when everything seems hopeless and arizonas fully prepared for callie to die and be a single parent to lizzie and coparent sofia with mark, callie wakes up

callie wakes up and arizona almost doesn’t believe it at first and she’s convinced callie’s still going to die and she almost doesn’t want to see her

but bailey talks her into it and helps her bring the girls to see callie and callie who immediately bursts into tears when she sees them

like calzona both sobbing into each other and lizzie who’s fussy bc of it and sofia tugging at baileys sleeve and bailey just shaking her head and trying not to cry

and callie who’s super weak and unwell still trying to hold lizzie but arizonas hovery and nervous and callie’s frustrated that once again she’s not really able to hold her baby and she’s missed so much.

callie grumbling to arizona “next baby we’re staying home the whole time”

the robbinses and carlos who practically never leave callie alone whenever arizonas not there and callie who’s very touched even though she feels like she should maybe be annoyed but she’s not. she and her father had never gone back to how they were before and now he’s sitting and talking with her. and she fully didn’t think the robbinses liked her at all but they’re here too. and callies just feeling very loved and happy despite almost dying

meanwhile arizona still hasn’t had any form of meltdown but it’s definitely a matter of time. she’s just forcing her way through everything and not handling any of it bc she feels like she has to be the strong one

and maybe mark who tries to get released by saying arizona will just be across the hall and finding out about the house and everything explodes. like mark accusing arizona of stealing everything from him etc etc

callie who wakes up in the middle of the night in her hospital room to someone sobbing and it’s arizona curled up in the corner sobbing and she didn’t want to bug anyone but she wanted to be near callie

and callie who feels so useless that she can’t even comfort her wife or help out with their kids and she’s so tired of always being the one in the hospital bed who’s stuck and useless

callie who’s trying so hard to get better but it’s always one step forward two steps back and hearing arizona crying breaks her heart

soft calzona who end up as curled up as possible on callie’s bed and it’s probably the most sleep arizonas gotten since the plane crash

arizona who’s doing her best to make sure that callie gets to see lizzie as much as possible after she missed all those early moments with sofia and most days callie’s thrilled but some days she’s her and frustrated and angry and it’s not fair. it’s not fair that they were in a plane crash. it’s not fair that they were in a car crash. it’s not fair that callie’s missed both of her kids first moments. and she’s just so frustrated and it’s not arizonas fault but she does sort of carry some resentment for her

finally when callie gets released from the hospital, arizona showing her the house her dad bought and callie’s tempted to be agitated about it but it’s kind of perfect and suits them and she’s exhausted

and then callie who ends up staying at home with the girls for at least a couple months bc she’s still recovering and she wants to spend so much time with them. arizona insists on having someone with her so callie doesn’t over exert herself and callie argues a bit until arizona tells her she won’t be able to work bc she’ll be so worried about them and callie gives in

and slowly slowly things start to go back to normal or a new normal

callie doesn’t end up going back to work until lizzie’s first birthday and sofias second

mark continues to be a bit of a pain but the distance helps

lauren boswell shows up and does her surgery and flirts with arizona but arizona barely notices bc she needs to head home for dinner with her family

calzona decide they’re happy with two kids and honestly they’re a little afraid to tempt fate again

and they all live happily ever after

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how full is yr inbox

apparently 488! now some of these are like the multi part asks that i combine into one, duplicate asks, test asks when tumblr’s really acting up etc. some are ones i just never got around to/got swallowed up amongst others. oh and the weird requests that i’ve kept for posterity.

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What do you think would have happened if Teddy had come back to help Arizona after the plane crush?

I think Arizona would have tried to send her away but Teddy would have just stayed there, let her rant and then pull her out of her shit either literally screaming at her or using reason and logic

hm yeah that’s interesting. honestly i think literally anyone other than callie would be a net positive on arizona. she needed to have someone else to lean on to her than callie. which sounds harsher than it is. but they were on such a island and they were both so incredibly isolated.

and teddys a really great option tbh. for starters, she’s very removed from the plane crash. callie’s obviously wrapped up in the leg aspect and all that follows there. alex is the reason she was on the plane (by her own doing ofc). and teddys sort of the only person arizonas close to left.

especially when we consider that this is post henry’s death teddy and she’s in a bad way too, she’d just be pure tough love in a way callie couldn’t be. and she might feel like she needs to save arizona from herself bc she couldn’t save henry.

plus teddy has her own history with traumatic injuries during her time in the army so would also have a perhaps more sympathetic perspective than others. bc she understands the cross section of trauma from the plane crash and trauma from the amputation in a more acute way than i think callie for instance might. plus she’s not married to arizona, she’s just her friend. and that frees callie up to be arizonas wife not her caregiver.

i think also teddy could pull the tim card better than most. she can tell arizona to suck it up and get out of bed and does she think tim would act like this? and yeah arizonas gonna bitch her out but also it probably sounds more legit coming from major altman than callie or bailey or whoever might be ballsy enough to pull that card.

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I’ll admit I was very opposed to Arizona turning down the grant but you made good points. How do you think Callie would react? She wasn’t happy about the whole grant in canon but if Arizona turns it down, she probably feels like Arizona chose her over her career. And do you think Arizona would come to regret her decision? And would she ever resent Callie for it?

haha changing hearts and minds out here

for your first question, i would guess that callie would be happy in general. it reduces disprution to their lives, no one’s leaving, no long distance, no breaking up in airports etc. and yeah she’d probably see it as arizona choosing their life together over the grant/her career. even if arizona never actively said that i think she might make that leap. which isn’t an unfair assumption even if arizona says it’s about something else. for callie i think it would make her feel even more secure in their relationship and would completely cut away the whole arizona’s bailing, arizonas noncommittal etc thing.

as for arizona, i think it depends. if she purely makes the decision by herself without even talking to callie (a likely thing for arizona to do) then i think she’d never get to a point where she blames callie. bc *she* made the decision entirely on her own with outside interference. and maybe years later she’d feel guilty or regretful for not going but presumably she and callie have built a life together and are happy together. obviously if she makes the choice after callie’s been stroppy about it then the chances of her being regretful increase exponentially. with arizona it’s all about her choices and how much control she has over them.