#(jk I’ll probably be back in 5 minutes when I’ve thought of something else)

[lunar-years]

Okay phew I’ve got other thoughts but they’re mostly the boring ones like yeah oof feeling bad for Ted that is quite the blow?? The MARRIAGE COUNSELOR??? Also very intrigued by Rebecca’s psychic plot but I need more data. Also the Jane and Beard relationship is so toxic it makes me actively uncomfortable to watch on screen if he does not leave her this season—

Anyway. Back to Jamie Tartt a man of many layers!!!

[boragirl7]

devilicious ep 1

1.8k word count 

ep 1 - i love u, who r u?

•jk ff

•first meet in a “chillaxing shower” center

•first date

•virgin reader, virgin jk, reader’s first kiss

•reader oneshot pov

•literally no plot at all

•thought of this randomly in the shower so don’t hate

creator note:: devilicious will be a series! this is just part 1. no smut yet ㅠㅠ but very soon there will be. very very soon. can’t wait to start writing! this is my first ever ff and series.

Effortlessly, I put my robe on, excited for what will happen when I get there.

I’m a grown woman. 22 years old, no friends, no parents, no close family, just me and my grandma. I moved out, but I lived in my grandma’s house for nearly my whole life. My parents on the other hand… they unfortunately passed from a damn airplane crash that could’ve been prevented if some drunk ass person wasn’t on the plane. Oh, well, it’s been years.

I just need someone who’ll actually listen to me. Someone handsome, and someone who has a good personality, not a person who always thinks of having sex. I’ve never even kissed anyone in my entire life. Forget sex. 

I’m the biggest introvert ever. That’s why I have no friends. This person needs to start the conversations. If we stare awkwardly, I most definitely won’t be ending up with him. Or whoever he is.

I start to drive to the center only to be met with heavy traffic…

“Damn it!” 

I scream at the top of my lungs because the GPS says 5 MPH. I originally scheduled my appointment for 6:00 PM, but I’ll be about 30 minutes late due to this hour long wait traffic. It’s 5:30 right now.

I wait until I’m right near a U-turn exit so I can find a better route. And… I speed way past the limit. But the police’s eyes weren’t on me. I get there at about 5:55 PM, luckily.

“Hello, name?” The lady at the front desk asks me, “_____.” I reply back. “Ahhh, you’ve made it a little later than expected, but that’s alright. It takes a very short time to set up. And I think you’ll really love the guy who’ll hop in the shower with you.” She lengthily responds.

And finally…

I’m in the shower, at last. I’m a little shy. I hear a knock at the door. “Hello? It’s me.” He sounds nervous too. I reply saying come in, which of course makes him. I peek out one eye from the silk white shower curtains and get a glimpse of who he is. He does look handsome, I wasn’t expecting him to be this good looking. I only raise one eyebrow and stay silent until he says something again.

“I see you, you know?” He says clearly, looking at my one eye pointing out, grinning. “Shit, my sign to hide behind the shower curtains.” I say mentally. As he strips while I’m behind the curtains, I take a moment to adjust my own bare body. The shower cubicle is quite spacious, and so is the room. The room smells of lavender and mint. Along with the hot steamy water running. I’ve never felt so much peace like this, although I knew it’d turn out awkward in a little bit.

And he finally climbs in. While I’m under the water with my eyes closed, he taps my shoulder. And we make immediate eye contact. “Hi, I’m Jungkook.” But all I can do is blink while making eye contact with him. He looks up and down and then back at my eyes. “H-hi… I’m Y/N.” He isn’t that much taller than me, probably only about 3cm taller. I just look at the wall because I can’t really look anywhere else, and I don’t want to look directly at him. Then, I face him again and look down for about 3 seconds, then face the wall again and cup my face. 

I feel a light tap on my shoulder, “Hey, what’s wrong?” I hear a sweet mellow voice from my right side. “J-just a little shy, I’ve never met anyone in this way.” God damn, I’m blushing real hard. “You must’ve had a reason to come here, right? Why’d you come here?” He asks while gazing into me while I’m facing the wall. “Well… I feel a little too isolated. I don’t have friends, my parents passed, I don’t have any close family but my grandma. But I usually don’t enjoy bringing up these topics…” He turns my body to face his. “Damn, that seems like a lot. I’m sorry you’re going through all that, but let’s focus on right now. The both of us. In this shower.” And he pats my head. His hand gestures for me to go under the water. 

It’s funny that a total stranger is helping me shower and I’m helping him shower. Everything he asks I just swiftly do. 

“You know, you’re my last client for today. And this is work, for me. Maybe after… If we know each other well enough we can uh… Hang… out?”

He suddenly asked me, but every word he said he had trouble getting out.

My blushing became really really visible. “M-maybe… H-how do you feel working here?” I finally asked a question. I praised myself mentally. “Well… I like it here. The idea of showering with random women wasn’t my ideal cliché, but it’s peaceful, like…” And suddenly, he presses the button on his left, which turns on these beautiful star sky lights and turns the bright lights off. “Like this. These lights are my favorite.” He gives a soft smile to me. So I smile to him back. But my eyes can’t help not looking at his bare chest. He has a six pack, so skinny. The type I wanted to see from a man. And god, he’s so unbelievably beautiful. 

He realized he got distracted for a hot minute so he grabbed the shampoo and shampooed my hair. I was just astonished at the way he shampooed it because it’s way better than the way I do. He rinses it off and he goes under the water.

We seem to talk for sometime, it’s like the thoughts of showering just faded away. It was just us two, in peace.

“U-uh, _____?” He mumbled.

“Yeah, Jungkook?” I firmly replied back

“Do you have a boyfriend?”

I’m super sheepish, but I reply with, “No, I haven’t even had my first kiss yet.” I blush at admitting that. Because I’m a 22 year old woman and I still haven’t had my first kiss. I feel him softly brush my hair behind my ear, and his gaze deep into my eyes.

“Can I… be your first kiss?” He muttered, blushing softly.

Looking at his doe eyes, I just couldn’t deny him being my first kiss. I slapped myself in the mind for a hot second, though, “_____, this is a total stranger!” I said mentally. But I accepted his request anyway.

“Y..Yes…”

He pinned me to the wall, then our eyes met accordingly. The tension was super intense. I blushed like crazy. That’s when he kissed me slowly, and I fell into it. My eyes were shut. This is what a kiss feels like?! Being kissed by him just felt like euphoria. After he stopped, I immediately wrapped my arm around his neck and kissed him back. My tongue was sticking out more than ever, hooking onto his. Fuck, my second kiss in my entire lifetime is this wet?! It���s not gross, it’s just… Nice.

“J-Jungkook…?” I mumbled.

“Hm?” He faced me afterwards.

“C-can I hug you?” I was super sheepish again.

He actually hugged me first. Then I hugged him back. 

We actually made out about 8 times this entire shower. 

How can I even like a stranger this much?!

Finally, after finishing, which took about an hour and 15 minutes, we went out separate ways to change, but then he went towards me as soon as I was about to pay at the front desk.

“_____!” He shouted from across the room.

The lady at the front desk looked back. I couldn’t see her expression, but Jungkook grinned back at her.  “About hanging out… You can keep your car parked here. Noona’s got it. Or sorry, I should say the lady in front of you, she’s the manager of this center!” Then he runs passionately towards me. “You liked today, right?” He raised an eyebrow and rested his hand on my shoulder. “Mhm, yeah.” I nodded, then looked at him. He seemed like a completely different person now, especially not seeing him in the “first meet” persona, and with clothes on, and his tattoos showing too, god, he’s soooo fine.

“Noona, introduce yourself to _____.” He says clearly. “Yes, I’m Noona, the lady who checked you out and helped you in.” She gives me her hand and we do a handshake. Then I finally pay. “Next time you may not even have to pay, darling.” She nods and smiles at me. I smile back and say, “Thank you, Noona.”

Jungkook hurriedly grabs my hand and shows off his Audi R8. My dream car, and damn, he has it. My eyes widen and shine at the gleams from the windshield. It’s even the color I wanted. “I’ve always wanted this car, you know? Yours is so beautiful…” I say to him, but he just laughs sheepishly.

“You know, when you applied to go here, I was the first to look at your application. Even though so many people reserve a spot here and don’t usually get it, I just couldn’t leave you out like that, you know, because you’re so beautiful and I was even right about you having a charming personality. I wanted to get to know you more, and still do, and I hope it’s fine with you.” He briefly says to me.

I can’t do anything but blush heavily at his comment. “God, is it embarrassing that you’re the first man I’ve kissed or ever been seen with? I’m just such an introvert and I have n-“ but he stops me there, pins me to his car, and makes out with me again. 

“You’re so cute, also, as an introvert myself, this was a hard job to choose, but it helped me open up a bit more to others, also now I should say you have me. Also, baby, you made the right choice by choosing this place. So come in my car and let’s go to my place.” Baby? No one has ever called me that… But him, and we just met… But I’m highly surprised he’s an introvert, because, he seemed like someone who didn’t have to think twice about what to say, or someone who was never scared to talk to anyone else. I nodded, and he was kind enough to open the car door for me. 

“You’re also my first… My first kiss, and the first person I’m really taking into my home, and the first person that I’m saying I love you to. I love you, Y/N. We only met today, but I technically saw your info last week and I hope this isn’t overwhelming for you.” Now I’m starting to find him cute. He has long but romantic explanations.

“I love you too, Jungkook.” I reply back.

EP 2 - trust u more than myself

ff inspired by velvet, j-hope’s story from the cockpile series: https://www.tumblr.com/httpjeon/174552206438/the-cockpile-velvet-hoseok-m?source=share

[anthonycrowleymoved]

I know this is old discourse but in light of destiel becoming canon, what are your thoughts on neil gaiman not allowing Crowley and Aziraphale to be gay lovers? He said that they're angels, not men, so is that supposed to imply that they're not gay simply cuz they're non-binary (so they're asexual)? I just wanna know if they'e in love or not lol. I ship them so much.

yeah okay this is gonna have to be tagged neil discourse because thinking about this over a year later i’m still mad huh

so like. i know very well what he said at the time. he was basically like, and i’m paraphrasing but that’s because i simply do not care enough to give a direct quote but on twitter he was like ‘oh well angels don’t UNDERSTAND human concepts like GENDER and SEXUAL ATTRACTION so NO they’re NOT GAY’ and then someone was like ‘but they’re in love right?’ and he was like ‘of course.’ right? everyone agrees that’s what happened right after the show aired? and like, okay, i’m not going to begrudge people seeing this as representative of themselves if they’re nb and/or ace, that’s cool and fine, and you do you. i find it interesting that i saw a ton more criticism about it on here than on twitter, but that’s probably just more indicative of who i’m following and how much i’m on here than anything else. anyway.

let’s break this bullshit down and explain piece by piece why i think neil’s quote unquote representation in gomens is a hot garbage fire and why it kind of rubbed me the wrong way from the moment i saw it.

1. he posted it on twitter. he wrote the script and could have like, you know, put it into the show, if them being In Love was like, actually part of the story. he had the ability to do that. gomens was already going to piss off right wing groups because of how it treats religion, this wasn’t something i legitimately think amazon/the beeb would have just said ‘no’ to if neil was serious about it. mean, maybe that’s a bit far into conspiracy territory, but i truly believe if they really wanted to make azcrow canon the one person who could have managed getting a scene would have been the author/showrunner. and because he didn’t if you’re a casual viewer who’s not fucking following his goddamned twitter seeing gay representation is now a rorschach test

‘they don’t adhere to human ways of thinking about gender and sexuality’ MANY THOUGHTS HERE but let’s start with

2. i think hallie originally said this and neil i know you wrote the book but like. did you read the book neil. because i thought one of the main points of it was that aziraphale and crowley had effectively ‘gone native’ and saw themselves more like humans than like celestial beings. and they’d been on earth for all of human history. it’s a bad take i’m sorry i know he literally wrote it but like really. really.

3. look i’m nb and i’d love some nb rep. but that was not nb rep. those were two cis male actors playing (largely) male presenting characters with absolutely no in-text indications that they aren’t cis. there’s one (a few? god it’s been a minute since i watched the show) character referred to by singular ‘they’ and it’s not aziraphale or crowley. and like, look, i get that in real life there’s nb people who don’t go by gender neutral pronouns and that’s cool and fine because that’s what those people feel inside. but, like, this isn’t real life, it’s a tv show, and referring to male presenting characters as he/him and then occasionally putting them in feminine clothing isn’t representation because people who aren’t looking for that kind of representation aren’t going to see it, they’re going to see a joke about a man in a dress

4. and i’m not ace so i can’t speak on that, but i do remember at the time ace people being like ‘that....was not ace rep’ so like, make of that what you will. again, i’m not going to tell you you can’t see them as nb and/or ace, but like, i’m just asking you, was that really representation? like, was it? in your heart like, would you have been happy with that representation if neil didn’t tell you it was representation? because if you’re just starved for content, that’s FINE, you’re ALLOWED, all i’m asking you is to not praise the creator for doing fuck all.

5. ‘of course [they’re in love]’ again where??? where??? where is it neil. where is it in the actual text of the show. like there’s in text evidence that they love each other platonically and there’s lots of jokes made by other characters but like. i hate to say that but that’s it. i don’t know why this off the cusp response still makes my blood boil but boy does it

6. i don’t want to go looking for it because i’ve done that like six times but there’s a post on neil’s tumblr from before the show dropped about how there would be moments that people who ship it would be happy with but it wouldn’t become canon. you can look it up i swear he said that in like....december of 2018ish? something like that. which, again, is fine on its own, but combined with the fact that after he was like ‘lmao that’s what i was going for’......not my favorite look

what i’m saying is like, if he wanted to create an actual queer narrative he could have but he just like, chose not to and then when he realized he could have people watching his show just because they’re thirsty for representation that isn’t there i think he went ‘oh i’ll jk rowling this’ i don’t KNOW that that’s what happened but, like, that’s what it looks like to me.

i used to regularly refer to the “representation” in gomens as nu-queerbaiting, which i still like as a term, because to me it’s the person in charge (not the actors, usually, unless they have some say in the writing process) going, oh no they’re totally in love with each other totally trust me :) and then like, they’re not, not really, not to the people who like, watch the show but don’t fucking follow the author on twitter. and that’s. i’m sorry, that’s not canon to me.

and, to be honest, how this is presented honestly makes me more angry than if it was just maybe in-universe wink wink nudge nudge, because i’m USED to queerbaiting and i know that like, almost nothing ever ever ever comes of it and i get it and i like having fun anyways, so i deal. and like, i was a book fan before the show came out. the book was written in the late 80s, and i knew that it wasn’t going to be anywhere near as gay as the fandom has made that work for thirty goddamned years, and i was fine with that. like, going into it, i joked, but it was fine because it was a relatively faithful adaption of a book i like. i wasn’t looking for gay representation, even though i ship aziraphale and crowley.

but like, there was this wave of people who came looking for representation, and the show is so vague on that concept that they saw it, but it’s like. it’s not actually really there. there’s no one saying ‘yes they’re really irl in love.’ there’s two male-presenting characters who COULD be in love, if you choose to view it like that, but maybe aren’t. and like, that’s FINE, on it’s own, but i hate that someone in a position of power said ‘no you’re right lmao’ even though he didn’t do shit. it was made in 2019. queer representation should be better than that. i’m not patting neil on the back for doing literally nothing.

so like, tldr: yeah the rep is bad in my opinion!!! it’s not good!!!! i don’t like how neil handled it and it’s gross!!!! i hope this answers your question!!!!

anyway that being said azcrow is such a good ship anyway, so like, why does it matter if they’re canon? ship em anyways no one can stop me from doing it even though how it was handled by the actual creator is a garbage fire when you look at it for more than like, thirty seconds. like......why must a ship be ‘canon’? is it not enough to read a book and see two celestial beings, in love with humanity?

[backoftheroomandnotbelonging]

73 questions.

I was tagged by @enchantedamusedslightlyconfused

I tag @iamdorka  @xwonderlandxinxhellx @mrs-machinegun-norris (you’re my top three recommended tags)

On a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now?

Like, a 5? I’m at a point in my life that I can go in any direction so I have a lot of freedom and choice. But, I have no idea where I want to be going so I’m in limbo and that makes me anxious...

Describe yourself in a hashtag?

#backoftheroomandnotbelonging

I use it to tag any content I’m posting and Tumblr is typically where I’m the most honest.

If you could do a love scene with anyone, who would it be?

Oooo I don’t know

Colson? Yungblud, maybe Mod Sun as well...

Definitely Colson though - that man is a dream 👀

If your life was a musical, what would the marquee say?

I genuinely don’t have the foggiest...

What’s one thing people don’t know about you?

I’ve done pole fitness since I was 14.

What’s your wake up ritual?

Wake up, check the number of notifications I have on my phone, have a wash, get dressed, makeup, breakfast.

What’s your go to bed ritual?

PJs, have a wash, music, lights out, music, fanfiction, daydream, pass out.

What’s your favourite time of day?

Anytime between 2:00 and 4:30 in the morning. It’s when my house is guaranteed to be asleep so I’m finally able to just stop and be me.

Your go to for having a good laugh?

I don’t actually remember the last time I had a good laugh...

KellyVision makes me chuckle though.

Dream country to visit?

America. It’s kinda cliche but oh well. Definitely hitting up Cleveland for EST Fest and maybe NYC. Probably would wanna go to an amusement park as well - I just have this idea that they’re very different to British ones.

And NZ! My cousins are there and together? We’re hurricanes.

What’s the biggest surprise you’ve had?

This is one of those questions that I suddenly can’t think of an answer for.

Maybe @xwonderlandxinxhellx​?

I don’t even remember how we started talking but I never thought (I dreamed but never thought) that I would actually make a friend on Tumblr.

So, thank you 🖤

Heels or flats/sneakers?

CONVERSE! I will die in my Chucks.

That being said, ya girl loves feeling herself in heels. I can’t do normal heels so I have these block heel brogues that I adore.

Vintage or new?

I adore the vintage style but sizing often isn’t on my size.

Also love some dark punk grunge clothing.

Who do you want to write your obituary?

I don’t want an obituary.

When I die I want that to be it. No funeral, no nothing.

Style icon?

Colson, Dom?

I’m very into aesthetics that I could never really pull off.

What are three things you can’t live without?

My glasses

My headphones

The Bloom album (quite literally in this case)

What’s one ingredient you put in everything?

Mixed herbs or sweetcorn.

Love Worcestershire Sauce as well.

What 3 people living or dead would you like to make dinner for?

Colson Baker (needs a heartwarming homecooked meal)

And there are probably others but none that really spring to mind.

My mum, to thank her?

What’s your biggest fear in life?

Fear of isolation

I’m not scared of being abandoned (if you do that to me then you’re doing me a favour)

But I am scared of closing myself off to people that could be there for me and letting things get bad and consume me again.

Window or aisle seat?

Aisle seat!

I like looking at what’s going on about me.

And it’s odd but I also don’t hate the inconvenience of getting up to let people pass.

What’s your current TV obsession?

Roadies.

And nothing else will ever match it. It’s a crime it was cancelled before a second season.

Favourite app?

Tumblr, followed closely by Pinterest.

I think it’s because they’re spaces that are specifically for your interests, dreams, all that mess in your head and I vibe with that.

Secret talent?

I’m not very talented, not gonna lie.

I can rap all of Breaking News which I feel is impressive?

Most adventurous thing you’ve done in your life?

I’ve not had many opportunities to be adventurous.

Skipping school always gave me such anxiety so my body definitely thought I was jumping off a cliff or something.

How would you define yourself in three words?

Witty, fangirl, brave?

Favourite piece of clothing you own?

I have a green and grey checkered suit jacket that I adore.

My Adder Technology jumper is my favourite oversized item.

Black ripped jeans.

Must have clothing item everyone should have?

Brown leather belt. I don’t know why but I’ll never go back.

Superpower you would want?

Power of time? Just to like slow it down. I feel like I don’t have enough time to do anything so to slow it down and get shit done would be great. Or just to give myself a minute to breathe. We don’t get enough ‘time out’s in life.

What’s inspiring you in life right now?

Colson has always been inspiring to me.

He came into my life when I was 15 and literally saved it. He’s always going to mean that to me.

Best piece of advice you’ve received?

Mod Sun: I’ve always been a little bit reluctant to say I’m gonna be the best at something because I didn’t wanna disrespect other people, like ‘Imma be the best at something, you can’t have it’. So I’d never really be like that. But if you don’t say you’re gonna be the best at what you’re doing, your insides, that power that you have, doesn’t know what the fuck to do.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4JUdgoHnL4Q&list=LLF69NADeUPVjZWSlZpeiGWg&index=3&t=0s

Best advice you’d give your teenage self?

Just live, please. We were so close to not living and yet here we are. Please, please, just throw the rule book in the flames. Go to school hungover, pull allnighters to just feel music, smoke, don’t do your homework.

Promise me to be unapologetically yourself.

A book that everyone should read?

In Cold Blood by Truman Capote - just stick with it...it’s an interesting story and raises some questions about life.

The Selection Series by Keira Cass - my favourite YA series.

Harry Potter by JK Rowling - pretty self explanatory? 

What would you like to be remembered for?

I don’t wanna be remembered.

I’m gone, just move on. Find a new energy to bring into your life.

How do you define beauty?

    (That is a purposeful blank space.)

What do you love most about your body?

That it’s never given up on me.

Best way to take a rest/decompress?

Music as loud as possible so you can just lose yourself.

Favourite place to view art?

Oh this has me stumped.

I like art that is significant but isn’t technically legally displayed.

If your life were a song, what would the title be?

It would 100% be a word or phrase that wouldn’t turn up in the lyrics at all.

But you listen to it and the title seems like the perfect title, nothing else could represent this song.

If you could master one instrument, what would it be?

Guitar, bass? No, drums. Vocals...

I just want some musical talent!

If you had a tattoo, where would it be?

Oooo, get ready.

Bee, on my collarbone.

Lace Up, on my wrist.

Tree, on my sternum.

Stars/an astronaut/a solar system, somewhere undecided.

Dolphins or koalas?

Don’t really have a preference...

But the dolphins in Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy were great so...

What’s your spirit animal?

I think maybe a seal?

Best gift you’ve ever received?

My headphones.

I have tiny ears so have always struggled to find earbuds that are comfortable for a long period of time.

I found some!

And then they were discontinued so it’s really difficult to buy them.

I was surprised with 3 pairs once and I practically cried.

Best gift you’ve ever given?

Ummm, I’m not very artsy creative but I once made my mum a birthday card using a teabag, I think she liked it?

I was a teenager so it was really rare that I ever did something artistic so I think she especially appreciated the effort and discomfort I felt.

What’s your favourite board game?

Chess.

Game of Life.

Cards against humanity.

What’s your favourite colour?

Grey.

Least favourite colour?

I used to have this severe hate for pink because it was forced on me as a child (I shared a room with my little sister and she loved pink so pink was what she got.)

I’ve grown out of it: pink is punk as fuck.

Diamonds or pearls?

I don’t really have a preference.

I much prefer simple things.

If we’re talking jewellery then I like plain silver.

Drugstore makeup or designer?

Ummm...I’m not sure how to differentiate.

I try and use Natural Collection for the base of my makeup but my eyeliner and eyebrows are Rimmel London and NYX.

Blow-dry or air-dry?

Air-dry

These curls only work one way and that’s their way.

Pilates or yoga?

Both.

Depends on what I need in the moment.

Coffee or tea?

Neither!

I’m not allowed so it’s hot chocolate all the wayyyy.

What’s the weirdest word in the English language?

The weirdest words are the ones that you learnt reading so pronounce one way when actually it’s said entirely differently.

Me, in Year 10, with the word ‘epitome’.

Dark chocolate or milk chocolate?

Depends on my mood really...

Cadbury released this bar that mixed the two together and that seems kinda perfect.

Stairs or elevator?

Either

I like racing people in the lifts to see if I can get up the stairs quicker. Such a child, I know.

Summer or winter?

Winter, for sure.

Natural ginger so the summer is the worst thing I’ve ever experienced.

You are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat?

Mash.

A desert you don’t like?

Apple pie (or any fruit pie)

And custard.

A skill you’re working on mastering?

Skateboarding.

No time like quarantine, eh?

Best thing to happen to you today?

Woke up naturally alert so felt ready to tackle the day productively for the first time since lockdown began.

Best compliment you’ve ever received?

That my writing has helped someone.

Someone told me that A Night of Many Firsts perfectly represented what they were feeling and helped them feel strong enough to get help.

Favourite smell?

My deodorant, baking, the local library.

Hugs or kisses?

Hugs. Simple as.

If you made a documentary, what would it be about?

Intense case study of teenage mental illness into adulthood.

Last piece of content you consumed that made you cry?

Pretty Toxic Revolver - Machine Gun Kelly

Probably every episode of Torchwood ever

Lipstick or lip gloss?

Lipstick

Sweet or savoury?

Savoury. Vegan corn chowder, garlic bread, potatoes.

Girl crush?

I don’t really have any?

I mean, I’m bi but no one really comes to mind.

How you know you’re in love?

I’ve never been in love but I hope it would be seeing them and feeling peace.

Knowing that they get every part of you, good and bad, and still choose to stay. And vice versa.

Song you can listen to on repeat?

Pretty much anything MGK

Currently feeling the Lace Up album.

If you could switch lives with someone for a day who would it be?

I wouldn’t want to be someone else.

I’d much rather be able to jump forward and experience a day in my future...for reassurance.

What are you most excited about at this time in your life?

Travelling.

I’m leaving and hopefully never coming back to this place, this mindset, again.

[fresh-outta-jams]

Signed, Sealed, Delivered - Part 7

Namjoon x Reader Author: Admin Mo Summary: When your soulmate tattoo shows up, an address, you figure it can’t hurt to send a letter, right? Warnings: Some swears, soulmate fluff Word Count: 2.1k

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, Epilogue

Namjoon’s letter arrived a few days after your first video call. You read it with a grin. You’d just got back from your classes. Any minute, your phone would ring with your daily call from Namjoon, as soon as he woke up, which meant you got to hear his husky morning voice and see his beautiful bare face.

The sudden buzzing sent your heart racing, and as quickly as your fingers would allow, you picked up the phone.

“You thought I would hate you for being RM?” You asked without so much as a greeting.

“Well good morning to you, too.” Namjoon chuckled. “Got my letter, huh?”

“You’re dodging the question.”

He let out a sleepy sigh that turned into a yawn. You watched the way it stretched his features, his eyes squeezing shut. God, he was so cute sometimes…

“So maybe I was a little afraid you would hate me. But can you blame me? You’re literally the coolest person on the planet, it’s no wonder you took it in stride. Anyone else...someone who had been an ARMY for a while, maybe…”

“I get it. That’s scary.” You nodded, setting him at ease. You weren’t mad at him for being afraid. You didn’t think you had it in you to be mad at him for that. “But, everything happens for a reason. There’s a reason I didn’t hear about BTS until recently. Thanks for the song recommendations, by the way, you dork.”

“Any time, darling.” He grinned. Your heart took a little leap forward. Until recently, pet names were sort of uncharted territory, they still were. So even this little one made in jest was enough to get your blood pumping. “What are your plans for the day?”

“Not much. I already finished classes, so I’ll probably just spend the rest of the night writing your letter.”

“Time zones…” Namjoon lamented. It did look a little dark outside your window…

“Time zones.” You agreed. “You’re living in the future, Joon. Your today is my tomorrow.”

“That’s deep.” He chuckled. “I sent out your Christmas present the other day. I was hoping you and I could do a video call and open them together once they both come in.”

“That’d be perfect. I sent yours out too, so it should be on the way there, but the US Postal Service is weird, so it might not get to you for a while.”

“I’m patient.”

“Good thing, too, or this whole thing wouldn’t have worked out.” You laughed, and so did he. Even though you had only been in immediate contact for a little while now, you couldn’t imagine going back to a world where you barely knew what he looked like. Now, however, you had an abundance of information about him ready at your fingertips.

“Hyunggggg,” whined a voice beside Namjoon. He continued saying something in Korean that you didn’t understand.

“It’s not my fault you stay up late playing video games.”

Oh, that must have been Namjoon’s roommate, Tae, you figured, upset that Namjoon was up so early making noise.

“Sorry about him. What were you saying?”

“It’s fine, Namjoon. Tell Tae I’m sorry for waking him up.”

“It’s okay, (Y/N)...” Tae mumbled from the next bed over, shifting and turning away from their fearless leader.

“So I’ve been watching all of your old music videos.” You grinned at the way his face paled, eyes widening. “It’s kind of fun watching little teenage Namjoon. You were what, like eighteen when you debuted?”

“Jeez, something like that, yeah. Ugh that’s so embarrassing.”

“You were still fine as hell, though.” Your face scrunched as you thought. “Well, after the mini-afro, maybe.”

Namjoon shook his head, making a noise of disbelief. “I still can’t get over the fact that you actually find me attractive.”

“Okay, but I’m not the only one, though. There are entire Facebook pages dedicated to your dimples. I joined like three of them the other day.”

“That’s ridiculous.” He laughed, showing them off. You swore, you almost swooned at the sight. “I’m really not that attractive.”

“Are you kidding me? You’re kidding me. Namjoon...I don’t know how to express this in words. You are the hottest human being I’ve ever laid my eyes on. When you’re performing, there’s just this leader energy about you and it is so sexy. And then there are those videos of you at fansigns and you are so frickin cute. I don’t even know what to do with you. You’re not allowed to be that cute and that hot simultaneously. It’s not fair.”

By the time you finished, your soulmate resembled a very flustered tomato, covering his eyes with his long fingers. “Stop…”

“Not until you realize how fine you are. I could go on and on about how much I like the way you’ve been parting your hair lately or how gorgeous you always look, even in the mornings like this when you don’t have makeup on and-”

“Okay, okay, I get it. It’s just...hard to believe things like that when it’s a literal goddess telling me.”

“Oh hush. I’m not-”

“You are. You are so, so gorgeous. All I can think about is kissing your perfect lips and running my fingers through your pink hair.” It was your turn to blush. “I seriously…” he huffed. “I really just need you in my life. I need to hold you. Like. Now. I need to hold you now. I think I’m going to die of (Y/N) deficiency at this rate.”

“Cheesy-ass dork.” You snickered, shaking your head.

Someone knocked on Namjoon’s door. When he looked up, Yoongi was coming through. “Breakfast is ready.”

“Thanks, hyung. We’ll be out in a second.” Namjoon told the shortest rapper, who nodded and left as quickly as he’d come. Namjoon looked at you, a longing look in his eyes. “I’ve gotta go, baby. I’ll talk to you tomorrow. Have a good...right, it’s not morning there. Have a good night. Text me if anything interesting happens.”

“Will do. Have a good day, Joonie.”

And then you hung up, that familiar warm, yet empty feeling settling over your heart. You clicked your pen a few times, looking over the paper sitting in front of you. Recently, you’d purchased some nicer stationary with little crabs and seashells on them. You had yet to send Namjoon one of them, but you figured the purchase would encourage you to write fewer rough drafts.

You lowered the tip of the pen to the paper and the words started flowing.

***

“Dear Namjoon,

I had a very similar dream to yours. I was wrapped up in one of your sweaters. The sleeves hung past my fingers and I was baking Christmas cookies. And then you walked into the kitchen and I woke up. I’ve been trying to get back to that dream, though. It does, however, make me feel a lot better that it won’t stay a dream forever.

As you can see, I have enclosed a picture of myself from a Christmas party last year, something festive to make my Halloween picture a little less lonely. I expect a picture in return, as agreed upon.

I cannot wait to read your book. Send it whenever you’re ready for me to read it. As soon as I get off for break, I’ll have a bunch of time on my hands to work on it. Do you want edits or just feedback? I can do either. Or both. Whatever floats your boat. Ending books isn’t easy. It’s actually really hard. I think the key is to close the doors that make sense to, and leave the rest open. That way, there’s room for a sequel. It helps to read through everything again and make sure you didn’t leave any storylines hanging.

Also, after reading your letter and talking to you face to face every day since the first time, I can’t believe you were so nervous to tell me who you are. I mean, I can believe it. I get it. It’s tricky. You’re a worldwide superstar, a rising American heartthrob, if you will. I’m just a film student with no idea what she’s going to do with the rest of her life. Meanwhile, you’re filming music videos the likes of which I couldn’t even dream of creating. Spring Day’s MV seriously made me cry. The cinematography in it is so beautiful. The lighting, the colors, the song, your face...it seriously blew me away. Not to mention all of your other MVs.

I also watched some of JK’s Golden Closet Films, and I’d just like to ask: HOW? How does this boi...this BOI with no formal film education churn out something as beautiful as he always seems to? The editing, the skill, I just...wow. If you could ask him for some tips for me, I would be super grateful.

Talk to you soon,

-(Y/N)”

***

“Dear (Y/N),

I don’t think you were baking Christmas cookies in my dream. I don’t really remember all of the details. I’ve been trying to get back to it for the past few weeks, but I can’t seem to, unfortunately. I’ll keep you posted, though.

You should have warned me that you were going to send me the cutest picture on the whole planet. I love your Rudolph sweater. Does the nose light up? Also, is that your natural hair color??? You said you’d never had any crazy colors before pink, but I guess that doesn’t really apply to colors that could be deemed ‘natural’.

I have also attached a picture of myself. It was really hard to find one of me that isn’t already online, so I asked the other members for help and they managed to dig up that one that they had been saving to use for my birthday this year, but forgot. Consider it a sneak peek.

As far as my book-to-be goes, I would love edits and feedback. Really, whatever you think needs to be fixed, I will do it without a second question. After so many NaNoWriMos, you have to be a pro, right? I’ll email it to you. Mine is namjoon94@naver.com.

I think you forget that I’ve seen one of your film projects. I have. And it made my cry uncontrollably. It was beautiful and heart-wrenching and every other emotion I can think of. Though, to be fair, I didn’t have much to do with the production of the video. That would be our director, who has tons of experience in the field. All you need is time and then you’ll be cranking out masterpiece after masterpiece. That Oscar is right around the corner, baby, just you wait.

I asked Jungkook for some tips for you, and he said the key is to just keep playing with things until you like how they look. Play with the colors, the music, the speed, the cropping, whatever you want. Granted, he basically grew up in this industry, so it’s no wonder he’s so good at it.

I can’t believe Christmas is coming up so soon. Your last letter put me in a cookie mood, so if I put on weight because of it, I’m blaming you. Jin’s been trying out some recipes at my suggestion, and they’re all really good. His only request was that I stay the hell away from the kitchen. I don’t know if you’ve heard, but I’m clumsy as fuck and I break and/or burn everything I touch. You have that to look forward to. Sorry jagiya.

Hope to hear from you soon,

-Namjoon”

***

Snow drifted down, covering your little city in white fluff, truly transforming it into a winter wonderland. Namjoon’s latest letter was between your fingers as you read it by the fireplace, a mug of cocoa sitting on the table beside you. At long, long last, you were home for Christmas. He’d told you in your phone call about a week ago that his tattoo had changed, and you’d had a mini heart attack before he read off the new one, only for you to discover it was your home address, where your parents lived.

So, you sat there, as cozy as you had been in a long, long time, wrapped in the softest sweater you owned, a warm blanket draped over your legs. Every once in a while, you would look up and imagine what it would be like to see Namjoon’s tall figure leaning against the doorframe to the den, mistletoe hanging over his head. Everything would be better if he was there, you decided. And yet, because of the miles and miles and miles stretched between you, you’d have to remain separate for at least a little while longer.

Your thoughts were only pulled from your warm thoughts of Namjoon when there was a knock at the door. When you opened it, it was all of your friends standing outside in the snow, wearing the ugliest Christmas sweaters they could find. You let them in with warm hugs and well-wishes.

“Merry Christmas, (Y/N).”

You smiled. “Merry Christmas...”

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[coffeeandcalligraphy]

Here are the questions I was most curious about: 5, 10, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 25, 26, 30, 31, 36, 37, 41, 46, & 47. Hope you have fun answering them! :)

oooh these look fUN!

The Basics:

5. How much writing do you get done on an averageday?

lol none!! jk, though this is kind of the answer…? I don’t often write during the week because I spend the majority of my afternoons/nights on schoolwork (the grinddd), so on most nights, it’s about 0-15 words? Though this is very unpredictable, because there are some nights I do have time to write, and I on average write about 200 words during those sessions! I usually don’t break 1k during these writing sessions (unless I’m on vacation and things are really flowing)!

10.  Doyou set yourself deadlines?

No actually! I’ve never really been a deadlines person (is this why I get nothing done lol), but with my writing, I don’t (of course writing for school is an exception)!

The Specifics:

13.  Describeyour writing process from idea to polished

Ooooh I don’t even think I have a writing process, but if I were to list it: 

Get an idea. 

I admittedly don’t do this very often (new ideas specifically) because I’ve been writing the same series for five years help

The idea phase might include basic conflict, plot points, etc, though it’s usually vague. 

Work out the characters

This is very intuitive for me because I’m a pantser. Usually I can just feel out a narrator/the pov (my process involves a lot of guess work)

Start writing! 

Pray this all works out

When the draft is done, edit! A lot! Though I’m admittedly not very good at this lol

Here’s an example of what writing my latest short story (untitled so far) has looked like:

Get an idea

This was a one sentence note I jotted down in my phone: girl moves in with her sister and boyfriend

Work out the characters

 I first put a name to the main character because I can’t really work with a character if I don’t know their name/a distinct characteristic, and I was starting from nothing! I also knew she had a sister, an ex girlfriend (intuitively) and her sister’s boyfriend, so I put names to them too.

I then fleshed these characters out. For example:

Linda: MC, quiet, kind of weird, lives with her sister… WHY? because she’s dropped out of college/has gone through a breakup HOW? her sister agrees she can live in her house so long as she helps renovate it, WHAT is this house? Her mother’s property, an old commune her sister is now trying to uphaul etc etc etc

 Start writing!

I refer to writing I like in times of feeling stuck/try to identify if there’s a problem a few lines before. 

And so on! 

14.  Howdo you deal with self-doubts?

Oh boy… I usually just like to remind myself that no one is a perfect writer: even the words I looove in my favourite books/from my favourite writers probably didn’t always come easy

15.  Howdo you deal with writer’s block?

omg I cry. I’ve cried so many times because of writer’s block lol hahahahaaa. I’ll be honest: I usually don’t feel motivated enough to find solutions to writer’s block, so when I run into a block, I like to give myself the chance to just… take a break? I often find I have writer’s block because I’ve been working all day, and I realllyyyy want to write 500 000 words in the 10 minutes I have to write before I need to hit the hay, which doesn’t create a very good environment to write in? So taking a break is helpful. Writing something else (like a short story, an alternate storyline or even notes for the book) helps too!

16.  Howmany drafts do you need until you’re satisfied with a project?

For the majority of my work (fostered), I’ve actually only ever written one draft of every book, but I’d still say I’m satisfied with a lot of the work. I could go back and continuing editing/redrafting, but I love the idea of preserving improvement through every book (especially for that series). For the excerpts I share on here, they don’t really go through many passes of editing? Maybe two passes for line edits! Though I’d say this is case by case, that’s just my experience with fostered! I also edit as I go, so that’s a factor to consider as well. 

17.  Whatwriting habits or rituals do you have?

GREEN. TEA. 

18.  Ifyou could collaborate with anyone, who would it be, and what would you writeabout?

Oh man… Just going to shout out my literary moms (and moms in general): @sssoto​, @shaelinwrites​, @sarahkelsiwrites​

19.  Howdo you keep yourself motivated?

I’m so bad at keeping myself motivated, lols, I give up on myself a lot! I would love to be motivated all the time, but this can become really difficult! I find that consistently working/thinking about/doing anything related to my projects is helpful! Even if I can’t write every day (which I definitely don’t), even just thinking about my characters for a few minutes can help keep up momentum. 

20.  Howmany WIPs and story ideas do you have?

Not very many! For novels, I only have the FOSTERED series which is (unfortunately loool) ongoing. I have a few short story ideas I’m tinkering with. Though I don’t have many projects! (my brain can only come up with ideas for fostered I-)

The Favourites

21.  Whois/are your favourite character(s) to write?

Yessss let me pick between my children!! mwahahaha. In order for fostered’s main squad:

Lonan (ew)

Reeve

Harrison

Darren

Foster

Foster gets no credit he’s truly so interesting I just like horrible people (which I would say this list is in order of too hahahaah). We need justice for Foster this is blasphemy. 

As for side characters that are interesting to write with:

Lincoln

Izzy

Emily

Anna

22.  Whois/are your favourite pairing(s) to write?

Oh I looove writing about (in order): 

Lonan/Harrison

Give. Me. The. Drama. This just in, they’ve been beefing for five books straight, and it’s still not over!

Also my entire sketchbook is just them help

Lonan/Reeve

Always trying to come for each other’s wigs, but if someone dare get in the way of their siblingship, they’ll magically team back up and cut YOU

Reeve/Darren

A new favourite! When you try to be nice to a new person you meet and then she won’t stop trying to marry you

Reeve/Izzy

Reeve and her mother have such an interesting relationship because they are basically the same person. Except neither of them realize this? You wanna drink cheap margaritas and smoke cigarettes in your motel room with your daughter? Sign me uppp

Foster/Harrison

This friendship be stronger than my wig y’all, you want some bromance in your life? Bromance you shall RECIEVE. 

Reeve/Emily

The amount of… shit? these girls get into? I love it?? Give me moreee they’re so magically mischievous together

Reeve/Foster

This relationship gets no credit (my fault) but I’m really loving planning the evolution of their relationship especially in the next books, as they’ve gone from lovers to friends to ghost busting partners? We stan? (how did this happen) 

25.  Favouritepart of writing

In terms of process, I love drafting the most! Picking words is also fun lol

26.  Favouritewriting program

Microsoft Word is my bitch.

30.  Favouriteidea you haven’t started on yet

Does the intro to book 7 count? We got overdue rent, we got running from your problems and a ghostbusting alliance, who could ask for more? (truly just want to finish book 6 and write this book!)

The Dark

31.  Leastfavourite part of writing

I’ll say revisions, not because I don’t like revisions, but because I’m very bad at revising my own work. I can target the problems, but can’t find solutions.

The Fun

36.  Lastsentence you wrote

I’ll keep in touch and send his daughters souvenirs—Iheart NY, Lady Liberty printed on t-shirts. 

37.  Firstsentence or your current WIP

I’m going to share the first sentence of the chapter I’m working on since I’ve shared the first sentence of the book before and I *despise* it:

Whenmy mother was nineteen, she packed up her stuff from small town Minnesota andmoved to New York.

The Rest of It

41.  Anyadvice for new/beginning/young writers?

Take it easy! Write what you’re interested in--not what you think you should write, and allow yourself room to make mistakes. There are no failures in writing: you’re always going to learn something, so don’t get caught up in the fear of something not being good (

46.  Doyou reread your own stories?

Yes! I find it’s harder to when I’ve sent it to someone (teacher, friends etc etc) and I’m worried it’ll be bad, but I really do enjoy reading my own work. It’s just nice to transport to a different place in my head. Also narrating my work is so entertaining, lol. I read my old books to fall asleep often (I’m currently re-reading book 5 of fostered). 

47.  Bestway to procrastinate

What’s the best way not to? (My personal fave is re-reading all my old notes instead of writing)

Thank you for the questions! :))

--Rachel

[bullet-proofgirlscouts]

JiminXReader - In One Week, Part - 10

Part 1; Part 2; Part 3; Part 4; Part 5; Part 6; Part 7; Part 8; Part 9;

You went back to university the Monday after. The funeral was over, your parents were back and there was nothing left to do.

You were staying over at Yoongi and Jin’s place until the day of the funeral. It was only when the whole ordeal was over, were you ready to go back to your home.The memory of your grandfather had finally stopped bringing tears to your eyes. The pain was still there, but you were slowly getting used to reality.

Walking up to the college, you smiled as you saw Jimin waiting for you at the entrance.

Catching your eye, the boy smiled and waved at you.

Everyone had been nothing but supportive, making you feel loved in this difficult time. And Jimin was one of them, being there for you through the whole thing since he found out. You reached him, accepting his warm, short hug, ignoring the people who stared at the two of you. Parting, you and Jimin walked into the building. “How do you feel about going for a movie today?” he asked. “Sure.” you said, with a shrug, “I have nothing to do.” “Awesome. When?” “I’m packed with classes today.” “I only have dance practice. So i’ll meet you outside once your classes gets over?”

You nodded in response, smiling as Jimin ruffled your hair, parting ways with you as he walked towards his dance practice room. “See you!” he yelled out, waving goodbye and you waved back. You smiled as he left. Things weren't as awkward as you assumed it to be. Of course, your Grandfather’s passing took priority and you didn't have any alone time to properly figure out how you were feeling. Jimin came by your place the other day, claiming that he wanted to check up on you as you didnt show up to university in days. It made you incredibly happy and warmed your heart that despite the confession and following rejection, Jimin was still the kind man you fell for. With a warm feeling in your heart, you made your way to class.

~~~

“Five, six, seven, eight!”

A funky music filled the air as Jimin, Jungkook and Hoseok started to dance to Kyle’– Don't Wanna Fall In Love, with the eldest in the center while the other two accompanied him in the background.

Energy flooded through Jimin’s exhausted body as the music took over him. Moving and popping his limbs in sync with the other two, he watched in awe as Hoseok danced his few seconds of solo, being in absolute control. The older boy was someone Jimin looked upto immensely in terms of his dance. He knew the struggles and pain Hoseok went through when he was younger and how he overcame it all, driven by only his passion.

The three of them were practicing for a competition that demanded solo’s of each member of the team, and if they nail this, it could mean incredible outcomes. So to say that they were taking this seriously would be an understatement.

Finally, they were done and the three of them plopped onto the floor in exhaustion. Jungkook lied down on the cool wooden floor, spreading his arms and legs out. “Jungkook,” Hoseok said, “get water.” “Nope.” he replied, placing his arms above his head and stretching, “not moving. Get it yourself.” “Yah, i’m older you know.” “Yes. So the elder generation has to make things easier for the younger ones.” “But you younger people-”

“Jeez!” Jimin interrupted, exasperated, “I’ll just get it.” Getting off the ground, he made his way to the back of the room where their belongings were kept. Bending down, he picked up a water bottle. Turning around, with no warning, he threw it towards them. Hoseok let out a hilariously high pitched scream as the bottle hit the ground beside him with a loud thud. Jimin burst out laughing at his expression, making his way back to them, sitting back down.

“You.” Hoseok said, shaking his finger at Jimin, “You’ve changed, you weren't this sassy.” Jungkook piped up, “It’s because of those new people you hang out with. They’re influencing you too much.” Rolling his eyes, Jimin looked at the younger, “People I hang out with? What about you? I know you and Taehyung play Overwatch together all the time.” Jungkook’s eyes snapped open, confused, “How did you-” “Taehyung’s best friend is my friend too, remember?”

Pouting, Jungkook sat back up and grabbed the water bottle, gulping it down. “How is she, by the way?” Hoseok asked, “It’s been awhile since I've seen her and she hasn't come by the studio either.” Jimin nodded, “she came back to university today, a family member passed so she took some time off.” Getting up on his feet, Jimin walked away, back to his belongings. “I’m taking her to the movies today. We have to leave in half an hour, so i’ll get going. See you guys tomorrow!”

Accepting the goodbyes and ignoring Jungkook’s sly look, Jimin shouldered his bag and walked out making his way to the locker rooms to change clothes and get ready.  

It was four thirty, which left him half an hour to bathe, plenty of time. He walked into the showers, stripping off of his clothes and turned on the water. He sighed as the hot water poured over him, washing away the sweat. He stood underneath the stream before he started to properly wash himself.  Twenty minutes later, he was out, dried and dressed. His hair was still a bit wet, the towel only drying it so much, but he didn't see it as a problem. He had slipped on his giant black and white striped turtleneck over a pair of ripped black jeans. Still in the locker room, He picked up his bag, rummaging through it to check the time, but wasn't able to find his phone. He slowly started to panic as he looked through it few times.

“Hey.” a voice suddenly called out, startling him. “Hyung.” Jimin rasped out, “don’t scare me like that.”

Hoseok grinned sheepishly, looking slightly apologetic, “Sorry. Just came to return this.” He had Jimin’s phone in his hand, handing it over.

Jimin took it back, hesitantly, “Why do you have my phone?”

“That girl came by, blonde hair, bunch of other people with her.”

“Jihyo?”

“Yeah, her, she came by the practice room begging for a phone because she left hers at home. Jungkook and I didnt have ours either but she refused to leave and asked for yours.”

“And you just...gave it to her?”

“Yes, i’m really sorry but JK is terrified of her, you should have seen his face, and i thought it would benefit everyone if she got what she wanted and left.”

Jimin frowned, unlocking his phone and looking through his call and text logs. Nothing new.

“You sure she used it?” he asked, confused. Everything was exactly as he left it.

“Pretty sure she sent a text. I even heard the notification that someone replied.”

Shrugging, Jimin keeping the phone inside his bag. “Maybe she deleted the number. Probably texted one of her friends.”

~~~

“Hey, i need to talk to you about something important, come to the music room.”

You raised an eyebrow at the text Jimin sent you. You were going to see each other soon anyway, all your classes just got over. But Jimin wasn't the type of person to change plans without reason. Sending a text back with an affirmative, packing your bag, you made your way to the third floor. You climbed up the flights of stairs, sighing in relief as you finally reached the hallway.    

“Jimin?” you called out as you walked into the music room. The whole place was empty, just an array of various guitars, violins, a keyboard and a drum set.

Eyebrows furrowed, confused, you pulled out your phone, about to dial in Jimin’s number when suddenly, a hand shot out and grabbed it from you.

Startled, you quickly turned, bracing yourself on instinct when you were met with the face of Jihyo.

She had your phone in her hand, her group of cronies behind her. You counted four other people, two boys and two girls.

“How nice of you to come by.” she said, with a smile, walking forward while simultaneously forcing you to move back further into the room, “I’m glad you got my text.”

“Your text?”

“I asked you to meet me here,” she said, faking innocence, “although, to be fair, you thought it was Jimin.”

You sighed in annoyance as you realized that you were duped. Rolling your eyes, you reached your hand out, “give me back my phone.”

Jihyo twirled the said object between her fingers, “Why? So you can call him?”

“No, because it's mine and I don't like you keeping it.” you retorted.

She simply chuckled in response. “You really think you’re in a position to be sassing me right now?”

“You really think I find you intimidating?”

“Just can’t help yourself, can you?” Jihyo asked, staring at you, a smug look on her face. Turning her head, she nodded towards the people standing behind her. In response, one of the guys left the room, standing by the door, his back against them. He was looking down the hall, probably to alert them in case someone shows up.

“What part of ‘stay away from Park Jimin’ don’t you understand?”

She circled you like a predator observing their prey. The other followers were blocking the door, making sure you can’t run away.

“So what's your plan?” You asked, “is keeping me in here a part of ingenious plot to make Jimin like you?”

Suddenly, there was a sharp pain on your cheek, your head snapping to the side.

Your eyes widened in shock, startled.

“...what are you doing?” You asked, voice deep addressed to the girl beside you who had hit you.

“I'm showing you what's going to happen if you decide to not take me seriously.”

You grit your teeth in anger, “do you think Jimin’s going to let you run into his arms when he realizes you tried to beat me up?”

Jihyo tried to reply but you cut her off before she could, “he is going to find out. And when he does, he's going to hate you.”

“I’m not going to beat you up, I have something else in mind” She said, quietly, “And he’s not going to find out.”

“Oh really, and why’s that?”

“Because i’m sure you don't want me to reveal that you’re the creator of that little podcast of yours.”

Your eyes widened, the color leaving your face, “How-”

“You really shouldn't make an enemy of someone who’s father is a CEO. It wasn't hard to figure out it was you. Jimin didn't shut up about that stupid podcast for a day! You know how annoying that was?”

“...I find that flattering, you’re complaining to the wrong person here.”

Jihyo shot you a glare before she continued, “I’ve seen how carefully you’ve maintained your identity, no name, no pictures, everything is free to listen, you wouldn't want all that privacy to go away now, would you?”

You grit your teeth, furious that she was using your own work against you. You loved that none of the fans knew who you were, you were proud of how well you kept things under wrap, you worked so hard on your falsettos (except for your singing voice, for some reason, you never got that down, it just sounded like you) that no one would ever be able to tell that you were the one voicing them. This podcast was your baby, you worked day and night to get it to where it was today. A reason why it was so special is because of its mystery! People loved it when this anonymous stranger released new content about a space adventure, there were even theories going around that you are an inhabitant of outer space and you’re telling your story before the enemy gets to you, and that's why you’ve never released your name or face. They constantly flood your twitter with questions and request and you always make sure to answer them. It was a big step to even reveal the little bit of information about yourself at the first anniversary day, and some people were a bit mad. That anonymous yet intimate relationship between the listeners and you was what made the podcast work! And now, Jihyo was here, ready to blow all of that out of the water.

“What do you want?” you asked, “For me to stop being friends with Jimin? It isn't that easy, not all of us have the capacity of throwing people away like they’re nothing!”

“Of course it's easy!” she said, smiling, “Just tell them they’re worthless, break their heart and never speak to them again! That way, when Jimin realizes what a bitch you are, he’ll come to me.”

You closed your eyes in frustration, pinching the bridge of your nose, “There are so many things wrong with that sentence, i don't even know where to begin.”

“Doesn't matter.” Jihyo said, “Are you gonna do it?”

You sighed, frowning. What choice did you have? You couldn't let your identity be revealed.

“Sure.” you said, lying through your teeth, “I’ll stop being friends with Jimin.” of course, you weren't going to do that. You could just explain the situation to him and keep a low profile when it comes to seeing him. Or work out something else. No way were you going to stop being friends with him just because this pompous bitch wanted you too.

“Good.” she said, with a smile, “But, just to be sure…” she turned around and walked outside the room, but not before she snapped her fingers. Immediately, the other three people were suddenly onto you. The guy surged forward, grabbing your arm, sweeping his leg under yours to make you lose balance. You fell onto the floor with a thud, groaning as your head hit the wooden planks painfully, making you a bit dizzy. That gave them ample time to restrain you. You yelled as they pinned you down. There was one girl on each arm and the guy was pinning down your legs.

Jihyo walked inside the room, a bucket in hand, clearly struggling with the weight of it. Your eyes widened at that, a bit frightened at what was in it. You tried your best not to throw up as various incredibly disgusting scenarios passed through your brain. You tried to fight it, kicking your legs, trying to aim at the guys crotch, but he saw what you were trying to do and changed his position, pushing your legs so firmly to the ground that you could hardly move it. It was impossible to even make your arms slightly budge considering they were practically sitting on them.

“What are you doing?” you snarled as Jihyo stared down at you, clutching the bucket tighter.

“Just a taste, in case you decide to ignore my warning.”

With that, she tilted the bucket, right over your head.

~~~

[survivorelara]

Episode #11: “I ain't gonna be a hero anymore” -Sam

Lmaoooo drew is soooo bitter he’s soooooo Mad 😂😂😂😂😂 not my fault that u were kind of a brick wall to talk too!!!! I hate how these entitled bitches think if your not being flashy your not playing the game at all I know I’m probably not gonna win the game but I’m still trying anyways and outlasting these bitter bitches always makes me feel soooo good. I also have an idol in my pocket and like I feel like I got allies to that will listen to me last round I threw John Coffeys name out and he got out I just gotta let the other people do my dirty work but since it’s near the end I am gonna get More aggressive now to make these people feel sorry that they saw me as a goat it’s kinda pretty hard to make a move pre merge when your constantly on the winning tribe tbhhh I’m gonna take Drew’s final words with a grain of salt because he’s soooo wrong LMAO don’t come for me when ur big three placements are shit.

Honestly I don’t hate him tho I’m not trashy enough to hate somebody over a game I always did like drew he’s cool and he was  my first hosting duo buddy but if he rude to me in ponderosa or FTC I’m legit coming for him.

Woo F8. (This is all I have in me at the moment. I have a lot going on right now, and it's more of a me problem than anything else.)

So yeah, I ended up voting in the minority which is a little awkward since ciere is still in the game but I'll survive. I was just tryna save someone close to me and I knew i could trust but I guess it wasn't meant to be. I knew I wasn't going anywhere last vote but it was so important for me cause it was gonna set the whole pace for the rest of my game, and even though things didn't exactly work out, I believe I can recover and still cause some major damage in this game. I tried to play a "real" game, but that's usually pretty difficult to do on a vivor org. The gloves are off now, it's time to play ruthlessly. Who's ready for shit to go down, I ain't gonna be a hero anymore

Everyone is trying their hardest to be on the opposite side of Andrea sort of double-agent-esque without being caught but it's so freaking obvious. Roxy seems to always dance around the idea of voting Andrea, and Drew just blatantly suggested voting someone else even though Andrea is logically the best boot.

NOW that 4-some of Myself, Roxy, Ci'ere, and Drew are supposedly voting Emma at the moment, but it's like... Why? Also I'd rather not considering Emma is probably the least likely on that side to vote me out, which is why I'd rather keep her, as well as she's in my ideal F3 plans almost always given everyone's perception of her.

Kori wants to gun for Drew T. Purrfect! 😺 Drew H. must have some kind of...sixth sense because destroyed us all in that challenge and I thought I did well! When I got to the puzzle, he had already found & solved the entire thing. A beast.

Okay, hello! 👽 Since things have finally died down, for the moment, I’m going to reflect on the happenings of last round & this round. This will probably be an obese confessional with a ton of grammatical errors so, sorry in advance lol. Where do I even begin ASDFG

Kori told me that since Drew H. was immune, we should go for Drew T. & I was down for that. I confirmed this with the rest of the Revatis: Andrea, Emma & Loris. That was the 5 we needed for majority.

However, Sam has a different agenda. Drew T. informs me that Sam is coming after me when I just subtly tried to let him know I wanted to go to the end with him... Kori tells me that Andrea said she wasn’t voting for Drew T. & that’s when I realize things are starting to turn against me. There were already 3 votes on Drew T. (excluding myself) so if I could flip Roxy or Drew H. that would be a majority to save myself. I immediately went to them both & told them that I might be able to secure the votes next round for at least a tie because Kori was interested in flipping. I think I mentioned this previously, but Roxy has been telling me that Drew T has been throwing her under the bus which I confirmed to her to be true. I mention this again to her now to turn her against him. Drew T. then explains that he wants for us to vote Andrea & I’m all for this blindside, but how do I know that he isn’t trying to trick me into splitting so then I would be eliminated instead :O He seemed very genuine about this plan tho in which I felt comfortable.

I make an alliance chat for the four of us & we agree on Andrea, but Roxy seemed to be indifferent about the idea in pms. She doesn’t feel comfortable with giving Drew T. power after he threw her under the bus. I ultimately give her the choice because our votes would make-up a majority & I would be able to place the blame on her for picking Drew hehe. With less than a minute left she decides Drew T. & that was all she wrote.

I believe this move definitely strengthens my relationship with Roxy who seemed kind of like a third wheel to the Drews. Had Drew T. stayed he would’ve assumed Andrea’s position as the person with the most connections & Sam would’ve been in his pocket. I guess Drew H, Roxy & I could’ve countered that, but what’s done is done. Sam has now lost his closest ally & me who had his back, so now he’s tied to Andrea (and Loris apparently).

The vote impacted Heuser negatively because Roxy & I didn’t tell him about it...which was a mistake. He said he “would’ve been okay with doing the other Drew & that was probably our only shot at taking out Andrea”. Maybe we should’ve taken out Andrea because she still has several connections & the Revati idol is still floating around somewhere, ugh. Heuser says he’ll win every single immunity challenge from here on out if that’s what it takes for him to get to the end (and so far he’s on a 2-win streak).

After the votes were revealed, Sam was expecting me to be angry & blow up his pms. Nah. I’m going to give you the Dani treatment because boys can’t stand when you don’t respond to them hehe. I kept my composure & was really cool about the situation which I am SO proud of myself for because usually I’d be popping off on everyone and their mother by now lmao.

Loris admits that he has to vote out people he’s gotten close to & since he’s telling me that, he’s not playing me. He wants to take me to the end. That sounds rad! Another person that thinks they can beat me in the end and will take me there. Loris tells me everything about his day & he’s hilarious. Loris is a f u r r y.

Fast forward to the present day. Right off the bat Kori warns me about Andrea coming after me because I’m “mad & hate her.” I legit hold no hostility against Andrea nor did I give her any reason to think that, so I’m slightly offended she would say that. All I said to her was that we agreed to Drew T., but she sheeped Sam and tried acting like Drew T.’s name never came up... I also asked Sam what happened and tried to guilt trip him just a bit. Sam says that he felt closer to Drew & tried to save him by going for what he thought was the easy vote aka me. Well guess what...I’m still here, binch. You thot wrong. I tried socializing more with Sam for the past couple of days and even subtly hinted to him in my last tribal answer that I wanted to go to the end with him. His loss.

When things get slightly spicy in the tribe chat between Andrea & I, she exposes Kori. Kori says that Andrea implied coming after me, but she says she explicitly said my name and she said she didn’t know. I’m starting to see Kori’s game & maybe he’s not as slick as he thinks. He claims to actually want Drea out, but he’s pulled tricks out in the past & I have my eye on him. Oh & someone told Andrea that there was an alliance made to vote her out. Roxy says Andrea came to her about it too so I presume Heuser went to her about, but I already exposed him to her hehe.

So I gather up my messy peers Heuser, Kori & Roxy forming a squad of Rexhars & Bad Binches. We seem to all want something different & the trust there is severely lacking... Roxy wants to vote Loris, Kori wants Andrea, then there’s Drew and I that pushed for Emma.

Here’s our current plan: We’re all in agreement to at least make this tie. We would like to avoid this though by getting Sam to flip. To accomplish this we’re going to pitch Emma because no one’s connected to her besides Andrea probably. Before that though the other 4 will probably vote together for one of Roxy, Kori or I. After the vote initially ties, we lock in our revotes for Emma & get Sam to realize that he’s putting his own game on the line for her. If he flips then we succeeded with Emma being voted out & we have the numbers for next round. No one would use an idol on her either unless this plan is foolishly leaked. If Sam decides to go to rocks then the odds are still in our favor with Andrea, Loris & Sam drawing against 2 of us. And trust me bby, I’m ready for ROCKS ROCKS ROCKS.

Heuser thinks I’m actively trying to get the other side to vote for me because I would be safe in a rock situation. Of course that’s a perk of my plan, but I’m really just trying to do what’s best for us & it would make the most sense to turn them against me. He also gave me this compliment that I would like to note: “you're amazing with numbers in games, you see layouts really well”

I’m being nice to Sam because I like talking to him and hopefully he won’t try to push for me again. If I shunned him then that would automatically lead to him wanting me out, so it’s time to do damage control for the move he made against me. He says that Andrea and Loris are trying to take each other out. :O Maybe me @’ing Andrea wasn’t such a bad thing after all if it means these two big players take each other out hehe.

HI!!! trIBALS sad and boring and scary bc names are getting thrown and then retracted and I’m gonna fall asleep and then wake up and I’ve gone home??? most likely. Jk I don’t think?? I’ll go??? I love Sam and Emma and Andrea and love ciere ok basically the majority of the cast I don’t have more than 2 f3 deals which statistically means I’d have to betray someone.. no way!! ALSO TWO TRIBALS TIL LEGACY WOOOP WOOOOOP

As the days go by and the number of people start to dwindle, I feel myself becoming more and more ruthless. ever since john left, I had promised everyone in the game I was with them, and even though I betrayed that trust to a certain zosma last round, I still find myself having to cut someone im close to loose. it's incredibly risky, because all these people claim to be loyal to you and wanna go to the end with you, but you gotta cut most of them off so that never happens. so it becomes a game of, am I cutting people that were truthful to me, or keeping the people that are truthful to me. for all I know I could be voting people that do want to keep their word with me, or I could be saving them. i'm just hoping im making the right call.

so right now I do have a f4 in mind that I would like to see happen, and im gonna do what I have to in order to make that happen. obviously like I said before, it means cutting allies loose and pissing people off. but hey, that just makes the game more exciting, it could end up biting me in the ass if i make it to the end, but least im gonna have fun getting there and who knows, maybe i can pull out a win? man we love being the villain.

so the vote started off with this whole andrea vs kori ordeal, which somewhat bothered me since I wanted to go far with them, but I definitely had a preference between the two. now, it seems like it's gonna be an emma vote, which I don't want to happen yet. so I came up with an idea to get numbers on roxy, because I feel I can beat her if we did go to the end, but I don't trust her as much as I do others, and she isn't in my end game plan, so now seems like a good time to cut her loose. plus, everyone knows loris has been after her, so it was mad easy to throw him under the bus so roxy doesn't flip out on me until the moment she gets blindsided. that'll be a fun time, but if this all works out and she goes over emma, then im set for f4 unless I ended up trusting the wrong people. god I hope im making the right choice here.

so after the results of this vote and roxy screams at me, other people like kori are definitely not gonna trust me anymore. but that doesn't matter, because he isn't in my ideal f4 or even f5 scenario. im tryna get ciere back on my side, which I hope is working. he seems like he could be biting, idk if he really has anyone else or not. esp since his name seems to be floating around again and I told him id let him know if it was, so nows my chance to extend an olive branch of trust again

all of this could end up blowing up in my face and getting me voted out, but the thing is in order to win this game, you gotta take risks. and that's what im doing, im taking another massive risk here. I dodged a sniper bullet last round after the ciere vote didn't quite work out, but ive rebounded hard and back in the drivers seat, and it's time for roxy to go just as drew t predicted. man that'll be a fun time for those two in ponderosa!

If just once my game could not depend entirely on these absolute fucking idiots that would be amazing. Only thing i'm waiting for at this point is to leave another alliance chat at 8:01

Well from Ci'ere and Andrea two ideal boots for me to Roxy or Emma two non-ideal boots... this game just knows how to take the most violent of turns.

I guess we'll see if Sam's being even half honest with me if he votes Emma. If he does I think I've got some ideas for moving forward, but we'll see. I just don't know how things are gonna go moving onward, and I just hope this doesn't go to rocks or an idol play that totally isolates or knocks me out of this thing.

I'm also just hoping I don't end up regretting voting Emma instead of someone else.

Tribal sucks. Idk what going on and idk who i wanna ally/work with.

MY ORDER: EMMA SAM LORIS ROXY

CIERE DREW KORI

is how I feel in terms of trust rn w big gap with roxy and ciere~  

but cant have a f5 lmao huh idk i am confused n lost

Vote Emma they said, it's the best thing they said, Roxy agreed to the whole thing but ofc apparently something happened in the last 10 fucking minutes, and she voted for me in some sort of fucked up attempt to save Emma?

I'm pissed to fucking hell, if I have a chance to cut Roxy I'm fucking doing it, this was bullshit and a half. That's assuming I somehow survive this shit. I think Drew is keeping me, and my understanding is Sam is keeping me.

That's 2/6 so I just need 1 of Roxy, Andrea, Loris, or Ci'ere to keep me. Ci'ere might keep me because the odds of Andrea or Loris going are technically good, and Sam isn't a terrible option gone for her, but I don't know if the others would/will, and it's just UGHHHHHHHH

I hate this, and I hate that it ended up being me that was stuck in this situation, though I likely brought it upon myself trying to kinda play all sides and be in the know for this whole thing. I'm just hoping for the best. (Regardless Roxy's a goner if things go the way I hope.)

Well, I did a LOT of scrambling and clawing, and I've got a F3 deal with Loris and Sam, which I honestly think could have been the best deal for me given the circumstances.

Provided nobody flips and Ci'ere, Drew, Sam, and Loris all vote the way they claim they will, I might actually come out of this alive, and hopefully I get a chance for revenge.

If it goes to rocks then ideally it'll be Andrea that goes, but that's a 1/4 chance and probably knowing my luck it won't go that way.

I just hope that everyone's being upfront at the moment, when there's not shot of an idol play there's no reason to lie about which way you're really voting at this point.

im going to cry like fuck this game for a minute.. idc ab it... sam is just too 💗💗😍😍😍💗🏋🏾‍♂️😍😍🏋🏾‍♂️😂🏋🏾‍♂️❤️👀 i love him what a soul. idc ab this stupid revote or anything just going far w him hopefully.

I'm having a very calming moment right now, I'm feeling good about my chances and I think I've overcome this voting situation. Roxy is trying to appeal to my goodside, but the farthest I'll let her go is 6th because if I can take Andrea out first for my own self-assurance I will.

This is just the calm before the storm, it's a storm in my mind, and it's a storm outside, this whole situation has been a storm. Everything is a storm, and I'm gonna ride it to the finish.

Emma is voted out after a 3-3 tie in a 5-1 vote.

[marculees]

Tag

85 questions tag thingy

Rules: When you get tagged answer the 80- something questions. After that you’re supposed to tag 25 people

Tagged by my cutiepie @kachuwritings, thank you!

What was your:

1. Last beverage: Water

2. Last phone call: On the Luas with a friend I was meeting in town

3. Last text: My kpopsistar <3 @jaexmins

4. Last song: Egyptian Pools - Jinsang

5. Last time you cried: Last night when I thought it would be a good idea to listen to emotional piano music while reading fluffy scenarios

Have you ever:

6. Dated someone twice: Nope. It ends for a reason.

7. Been cheated on: Thankfully not. It doesn’t really count as cheating but a mutual crush asked if he could date my friend (literally after we made plans to start dating the next month after our exams). I never got with him in the end and he then began dating another friend of mine while flirting with the other so...

8. Kissed anyone and regretted it: Lmao yes because it was only one person and I never enjoyed any of the kisses. Here’s tip for ppl: don’t go straight for tongue or pressure someone into it T-T

9. Lost someone special: Of course

10. Been depressed: I’ve been sad but I wouldn’t call it depression

11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope! I don’t drink >.<

List your three favourite colours:

12. Purple

13. Pink

14. Blue

In the last year have you:

15. Made a new friend: Soooo many and I’m really happy with them ^-^

16. Fallen out of love: I wasn’t ‘in love’ but I did lose feelings for a crush after he started ghosting me and being a dick for no reason lol

17. Laughed so hard that I cried: Yes XD

18. Met someone who changed you: My new friends, I suppose. They made me feel more confident and welcomed :)

19. Found out who your true friends are: Yup

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Probably but I obviously didn’t care enough to remember lol

21. Kissed anyone on your FB list: Nope

22. How many people do you know on your FB list: I don’t have that many friends on my list so I’d say like 95% of them since I don’t really add randos

Randoms:

23. Do you have any pets: A cat and a dog now too ;-; <3

24. Do you want to change your name: No, I love it! I don’t even want to change my surname if I get married tbh. Its really uncommon and no one has ever heard of it before :o

25. What did you do for your last birthday party: My mum insisted I dress up really fancy (and while I do normally do go fancy, this was like princess dress fancy) and she even put a tiara on me lmao. I thought we were just going for dinner with the four of us and then suddenly all my other relatives (including my dad’s side who are just horrible and don’t care about us!) were there to surprise me ;-; They even made me wear this fancy 18th birthday banner and because it was a buffet, I had to constantly walk down past everyone in my little prom dress and tiara lol. I kept making eye contact with this one girl in particular and we ended up making friends later in college before even realising we had seen each other before :O

26. What time did you wake up this morning: at: Around half ten?

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Talking about ice cream and aggressively sending each other heart memes with @kikitsaaa ^-^

28. Something you can’t wait for: To adopt our little doggo <3

29. Last time you saw your mother: Like twenty minutes when I went downstairs to make myself a bowl of cereal

30. One thing you wish you could change about your life: My health so that I wouldn’t have to worry so much and could have more freedom

31. What are you listening to right now: Try Me - The Weeknd

32. Have you ever talked to a Tom: Yeah, I worked with a Tom for a group assignment. There was also one in another one of my classes and we’d have some banter together

33. What’s getting on your nerves right now: The amount of bugs and shit that keep flying right in my face anytime I open the window for fresh air

34. Most viewed webpage: Tumblr, Youtube and WordHippo (because I’m a writing nerd and that shit is amazing)

35. Nickname: Niamho, Niamhie, another one but that includes my surname so I won’t say it here...

36. Relationship status: Single and I’m kinda indifferent about it?

37. Zodiac sign: Leo

40. College: I won’t give out the name but its amazing ^-^

41. Hair colour: Blonde

42. Long or short: Medium, I guess? Like its just past my shoulders

43. Height: 161cm/5′3″

44. Do you have a crush on someone: Unless idols count, then no haha

45. What do you like about yourself: A lot actually, it just took me a while to do so. Physically, I like my lips the most? Personality, I like my hardworking nature and the passion I put into my work.

46. Tattoos: None

47. Right or left handed: Leftie!

48. First piercing: My ears but they aren’t anymore because I had to take them out for hospital scans and had such pain putting them back in that I was just like “Fuck this nope”

49. First best friend: Daniel. He was my childhood sweetheart. We don’t talk anymore and we’ve both grown up and found different people. Our mums are still friends though!

50. First sport you joined: Karate when I was 6 and did it right up until last year >.<

51. First vacation: Lanzarote

53. Eating: Well, I just finished my cereal a few minutes ago?

54. Drinking: Water

55. About to: Continue working on a song I started writing last night

57. Listening to: Somebody Else - Vérité

58. Waiting for: “a brand new day” jk jk but go listen to that bop (Kodaline need to pay me for me promoting them all the time istg) I’m actually waiting for my sister to wake up so I can ask her if we can play her ps4 together haha ^-^

Your future:

59. Want kids: No thanks!!!!

60. Get married: Yeah, I think so? I’m not in any rush to do so though.

61: Career: Would love to be an author but I doubt that will happen realistically. Probably a marketing executive. Not that its shit, but I’d just rather be doing what I love XD

Which is better:

62. Lips or eyes: I love both but I’m a sucker for puppy eyes c:

63. Hugs or kisses: Neither lmao but I’ll go with hugs since I’ve grown to tolerate them more. My hugs are like 0.4 seconds long or I just kinda stand there and be like “can we pls just stay like this for another minute k thx” T-T

64. Shorter or taller: Taller but not too tall because then I actually feel kinda scared XD

65. Older or younger: Older or maybe my age, but not younger because boys my age are immature enough as it is T-T

66. Romantic or spontaneous: Define romantic...? Because my idea of romance is like going to Build A Bear and getting ice creams ^^’

67. Nice stomach or arms: Certified arm enthusiast oops >.<

68. Loud or sensitive: I’m a mix of both so finding someone who has a healthy balance would be nice lol. Too loud and I feel overwhelmed and frustrated if I can’t get a word in, too sensitive and I’ll feel overwhelmed again because kdfljmdsb I’m not good with dealing with other’s emotions

69. Hook-up or relationship: Realtionship 1000%. Hookups are a big nonononono for me. I can’t even kiss someone if I’m not in a relationship with them tbh. Call me a prude, its just who I am ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

70. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant because same bro lets just chill together

71. Kissed a stranger: Never

72. Drank hard liquor: Never

73. Lost glasses/contacts: Don’t wear them so no

74. Had sex on a first date: Noooo I’m pure >.<

75. Broken someone’s heart: Yes, but you can’t force yourself to like someone and vice versa

76. Been arrested: Nope

77. Turned someone down: Yep and then he bullied me even though I actually stopped the bullies from picking on him in the first place? XD

78. Cried when someone died: Yes

79. Fallen for a friend: Yep, that’s how most of my crushes begin

Do you believe in:

80. Yourself: Deep down, yes. I just that little bit from someone else though ^^’

81. Miracles: I’m more a fate person?

83. Heaven: I’m not religious so...

84. Santa Claus: I wish T-T

85. Kisses on first dates: I don’t do them personally but I wouldn’t judge others if they did :S

Okay, I’m not sure if I have 25 people to tag so I’m gonna go with these lovelies: @kikitsaaa @staarchild @happysmilebtr @kpopismyasethic @jungkooks-bunny @cosmicrailwaybisexual @thefroghyungwon @ltaeyonqs @jaexmins @plaisirgrief @jacksonsdeer @marcus-lee9 @oppafeels @lamptastical

[omgspookykookie]

My Experiences with the Types

FROM THE PERSPECTIVE OF AN INFJ

***I am only referencing people who are CONFIRMED as these types, not people who I THINK are these types***

***Also, I’M NOT EXPERT. I just find MBTI to be an interesting way of understanding people***

ENFP

well fuck you guys are great

you’re strong where i’m weak and weak where i’m strong

i always find i’m so drawn to you guys and your energy and i hAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHY AND IT SCARES ME

every person i’ve become really really fast friends with have always ended up being enfp, go figure (which is a total of 5 people now)

anyways you guys are super whimsical and random and quirky and it’s infectious

your minds aren’t always super grounded but your hearts are, and that’s why i love you

never fail to flip my perspective on something, or at least shake things up for me

always fuel me with great ideas (that i end up having to integrate because bOY do you guys hate organizing thoughts)

seemingly random and wild but you really have hearts of gold

if i piss you off, though, it’s silent treatment for a whiiiiile

and passive aggressive disses

it’s low-key scary because i can just tell you’re not unleashing their full wrath on me lmaooo

never have i ever seen an enfp that doesn’t care about society at large; my enfp friends are so passionate about liberalism and how everyone should be accepting of people despite race, sexuality, gender, etc.

and they’re totally right, but it’s just rare to see someone who’s an outspoken advocate for such people

IT’S DAMN BEAUTIFUL

INTJ

i’ve only met two intj’s and it’s always a deep mental connection

like yOU GUYS GET ME AND I GET YOU AND I LOVE IT

we both tend to think the same way but in completely different spheres of life, so when we get together we just get glimpses of these other areas of life that we never would’ve given thought otherwise

that te though

that tE THOUGH

y’all efficient and cutthroat (in the nicest possible sense of the word) as fuckkkkk

you can analyze events like nobody’s business; people tend to confuse this as an infj trait, but i’ve noticed that i’ll recognize what a PERSON will do next rather than what will happen next

i can sit in complete silence right next to you and not feel obligated to fill that silence, and that’s the introvert’s dream right there

you teach me how to be more goal-oriented and get things done, and i do my best to teach you the beauty of relationships and people

the intj’s in my life have given me the best advice on how to just go after something that is important to me, and i find myself coming to you guys a lot if i’m feeling insecure or my fe starts to turn unhealthy again

as much as we bicker about things (anyone with strong te tends to trigger my trickster te and makes me paranoid, so intj’s aren’t an exception), we will always come back to that little nest of comfort that we have

ALSO YOU GUYS GET MY SENSE OF HUMOR AND LITERALLY NO ONE ELSE DOES SO THANK YOU FOR THAT

ESFJ

okay not gonna lie my first impression of the esfj’s that i’ve met were that they were kind of ditzy AHAHA

that inferior ti is a pain in the butt when i’m trying to help them with something, but that fe is so charming that i just keep helping them

besides that, though, literally the sweetest human beings ever

the stereotype of being the mom friend is totally true

honestly the type of people to make you a care package or bake you cookies if you’re sick, upset, sad, or any other situation where you’d need a pick me up

no matter who you are, THEY ARE YOUR BIGGEST CHEERLEADER

they know they’re not good at the nitty-gritty, logical stuff, but they make up for it with a whole lot of smiling, good times, and good feelings

the BEST house party hosts because they make it a point to make everyone feel like they’re part of the group and make sure everyone’s enjoying themselves

that one person at a party who insists everyone eats at least two plates before they even start piling up their first one, even if they’re starving

love anything cute and fluffy, or something that reminds them of their childhood

FOR SUUURE one of those people who dress nice and put makeup on to spend 10 minutes at the grocery store

always look good, always make you feel good... just good people in general

APPLAUSE APPLAUSE APPLAUSE FOR ALL THE ESFJ’S OUT THERE

INFP

you guys. are. adorable.

it’s so cute seeing you so passionate about so many things and it’s SO CUTE that you have all these little interests that you spend so much time learning about

that friend that always motivates me to get organized at school but honestly are just as much of a mess themselves AHAHAH

but when you’re in a funk though, or someone decided to piss you off...

i feel like i need to hold my breath and back away, making no noise

otherwise, they’re mushy-gushy and easy to please

GIVE THE BEST CUDDLES TBH LIKE YOU GUYS ARE SO CUDDLY AND CUTE

most of you are disney fanatics... and you probably love rapunzel or mulan

you guys have cool creative outlets like poetry and music and it’s so cool to see how much you guys express through them

ESPECIALLY poetry

you guys are so passionate about your ideas and passionate about your values that it’s infectious

it’s hard for me not to care about them too

10/10 would recommend being friends with an infp

ISFJ

mom friend 2.0 (sorry, isfj’s, esfj’s still got ya beat in that regard)

have like two planners that are color coded and colorful to keep your schedule in check and make sure that you maintain your little system

you guys are so hardworking and grounded and i fucking live for it

not typically into school and learning, but you’re super task-oriented and will get a job done no matter what it takes

great integrity too

as long as your fe isn’t unhealthy or doesn’t get carried away, you guys are the most responsible and dutiful people i know

you guys will have like ONE dish at this ONE favorite restaurant in this ONE specific location (no other locations if it’s a franchise)

or like ONE specific way your food needs to be made or it’s not the same for you

one of the two isfj’s i know irl needs to have red apples and rainbow carrots in her japanese curry or she will literally make a face and almost refuse to eat it

IT’S SO CUTE THOUGH LOWKEY AHAHHA

also if you’re an isfj and aren’t in love with puppies i seriously think you’ve mistyped

^jk but really, you guys love cutesy stuff haha

That’s all I have for now! As you can see, I’m usually attracted to the same types of people, haha. I really need to work on that.

Until then, enjoy this completely useless and probably boring post about my take on the types! :)

[speedreiding]

Get Her Back (Spencer Reid x Reader)

A/N: Hey guys! This one was very fun to write, I had to research what Stockholm syndrome was and turns out it's a fun one (jk it's horrible) but yeah 😂 Warnings: brainwashing, lots of angst Pairing: Spencer Reid x Reader Prompt: Reid and the reader are newly married and loving life with each other and one day the Reader goes shopping for dinner and asking Reid what he wants over the phone. Then the reader is taken and the unsub brainwashed her to fear and hate her husband. It takes years to find the reader but when they do she has Stockholm syndrome Request: ✅ Upcoming Imagine: Reader has been kidnapped and escapes… - You pushed the shopping cart with one hand and held your cell phone to your ear with the other. “What sounds good to you, baby?” You asked your husband, Spencer, as you looked at the new wedding ring on your finger. You and Spencer got married last week and you are finally having some down time for yourselves. Spencer suggested that you both cook dinner as a bonding activity, which made you laugh, and that’s what brings you to the store. “Umm something sort of simple. I don’t know about you, but I’m not a master in the kitchen.” He said adding a small giggle that made a smile creep upon your lips. “How about spaghetti?” You said turning down the noodle isle. “That sounds great!” Spencer said happily. “Alright, I’ll let you go. I’m at checkout.” You said putting the two items on the conveyor belt. “Okay darling. Call me if you have any questions, concerns…” “Spencer I’m 5 minutes away from the house. I think I’ll be okay.” You said staying on the line longer than you had hoped. “Hold on Spencer.” You said as the cashier asked “cash or debit”. “Debit.” You said taking your debit card out and swiping before taking your groceries and leaving. "Hey I'm back." You said holding the phone to your ear again. "Hey. I can't wait for you to be home." He said letting out a huff afterwards. "Spencer I've been gone for 10 minutes." You said getting your car keys out of your purse. "But it's felt like an eternity." He said. "Damn it." You said dropping your keys on the ground. "You okay?" Spencer asked worried. "Yeah I just dropped my keys." You said putting the key into the lock and opening your car door. "Well I should be home in…" Your sentence was cut off and interrupted by your own scream as a masked man swung open your door and pulling you out. He put a damp rag over your mouth, and being in the position on the ground you were in, you couldn't defend yourself. You kicked and punched but he had a tight grip around your throat as he drug you farther away from your car and closer to his. You couldn't hear them, but Spencer was screaming your name from the other line. He begged that whoever had you to let you go, but it was no use. Soon enough, you blacked out and were taken to an unknown destination. - You woke up with the disability to move your hands or legs. There was a white screen in front of you and the room was dark. You looked around the room, trying to identify your surroundings, but your attention was brought to the screen when a man appeared on the screen. "Your awake." He said looking into the screen. All of a sudden the door opened and the same man entered and stood in front of you. "You see this man?" He asked holding a picture in front of you. "No no please don't hurt him. He's innocent please leave him alone." You begged as tears pricked your eyes. "We aren't going to hurt him. This is the last thing your going to see of him so take a good look at him." He said holding the picture in front of you. The picture was taken a couple of weeks ago. You and Spencer at your wedding. He was smiling so big and hugging you to his side. You felt something set on your head. You jerked your head forward, trying to avoid whatever was being put over your head. "Stay still." The man said putting the picture on a stand in front of you before pulling your hair back and placing the helmet like contraption on your head. You heard a switch and then a loud buzzing. "That man… you are going to fear him, despise him. He is your worst fear and he's done horrible things to you." He said spitting lies into your ear before feeling a contraction on your head before a immense sharp pain. You screamed and attempted to thrash in the chair you were bound to. You slowly felt the happy memories of you and Spencer slip out of your head and replace with horrendous, painful thoughts. You tried to deflect the lies that were being put in your head, but then you couldn't reject it anymore. You had no clue how long these images were being set into your mind but it all stopped and you felt the biggest relief in your life. You opened your eyes to see blue eyes, unrecognizable ones. The man sat in front of you and held up a picture of… a man. You looked at the picture and then to him. "Do you know who this is?" He asked. You tried to pull memories from your mind, seeing him for a second and then vanishing the next. "Maybe… I've seen him before but…" You were interrupted by a slap in the face. It wasn't even painful compared to the consistent zapping at your brain. "Look at him!" He yelled putting the picture in your face. "I don't know who the hell he is!" You yelled back, earning another slap in the face. He harshly put the picture back on the stand and slammed the helmet back over your head. You felt the agonizing pain shoot through your head as you let out bloodcurdling screams. It stopped and you saw the man sitting in front of you through your tear-filled eyes. He reached across and wiped a tear from your cheek. "You know I'm doing this because I love you, Rosie." He said stroking your face. Rosie? That wasn't your name. "Let me go please. I won't tell anyone I promise." You begged as your wrists burned from the rope that was holding them to the chair. "I can't darling you know that. I have to see if something worked." He said turning around and picking something up before showing you a picture. Your eyes ran across the man in the picture and an overwhelming fear flew through you. "No no get that away from me! I-I don't want to see him ever again! Please get it away." You yelled thrashing in your chair. "Perfect. You did so good, Rosie. We'll be perfect together." He said stroking your cheek. After seeing that picture of that man… this caring one wasn't as scary anymore. "Oh and please… call me Sebastian." He said untying your wrists delicately. You nodded and smiled, feeling at ease with Sebastian. "I won't let him come near you again." He said kissing your forehead before taking your hand and leading you to another room. - Spencer was absolutely devastated knowing you were out there probably scared and hurt. He didn't sleep or eat for weeks due to stress. He kept himself isolated other than getting more information on how to find you. Eventually months have passed and the team was slowly losing hope. There was no body, no more clues, no more time. But Spencer will never give up. The team would start a new case and he would work both; the case with the team and yours by himself. When he would get frustrated, he would cry alone by himself or to JJ. He had this feeling in his big heart that you were alive and out there somewhere, and sure enough you were. You were out there, with Sebastian, belonging to another man. A man that used his sick tricks to make you fear the love of your life. To hate him. The months have grown into years, and there was still no evidence or body belonging to you. Spencer has been told that you would have wanted him to move on, but he remembers promising he would never leave you; to always belong to you. And you promised back, long ago. You sat at the clean breakfast table in yours and Sebastian's house, your wrists loosely chained to the chair. It's been years and you've always felt… safer this way. Sebastian had control of you, he kept you safe. Being limited to space made you feel secure, like no one else could get in or release you; except Sebastian. He was running his hands through his hair, he does that when he is nervous. Earlier, you and Sebastian went to the park and a dark haired woman followed both of you. Sebastian instantly prompted that you both go home and that you were in danger. At that moment, a pair of handcuffs would have made you feel safer, but Sebastian quickly leaded you too the car where you drove to your secure home, where you ended up now. You heard sirens in the distance, nothing new, but Sebastian quickly unlocked the chains from your wrists and took you downstairs. "They're going to try to take you Rosie, but you'll be safe down here." He said cuffing you again and kissing your forehead as he went back upstairs as you sat in the underground attic. A few minutes later you heard yelling and the door being slammed open. You jumped at the noise, instantly curling into a ball. It went silent, but was soon disturbed by close footsteps and someone calling… your name. The voice was closer, probably right in front of the little opening. You saw light stream in and a man walk in. It was… It was him. "No no get away from me! Don't touch me! He'll kill you if you touch me! Sebastian!" You yelled as the man crouched down in front of you. "Y/N it's me." The man said reaching out to touch your face but you screamed as he got closer. He instantly walked back, tears flooding his eyes. "It's me Spencer." He said quieter as you looked into his dark eyes. "I know who you are. I hate you. I hate you so much please don't touch me. Don't hurt me please." You begged as tears rolled down your cheeks. He flinched at the word "hate" but didn't leave. "Please remember me sweetheart please." He begged covering his mouth to muffle sobs. Spencer knew what had happened. Hotch say the brainwashing helmet. He saw the chair. And Spencer was right behind him. JJ climbed through the little opening and he turned into her shoulder and started sobbing. She looked at you on the floor; crumpled in a ball with chains on your wrists. Little did everyone know, that's when you felt the safest. "He did this to her. She-she's scared of me JJ I can't scare her." He said pulling out of her shoulder. "It's okay Spence. Give her time and we will fix this. He's going to prison for the rest of his life." JJ said. "No! He didn't do anything wrong! Don't take him away you have no proof!" You yelled at them. "Y/N! You've been kidnapped for 2 years, brainwashed and tricked into…" you immediately flinched as he yelled at you. "I-I'm sorry I didn't…" before he could finish his sentence, he bolted out of the basement. "I'm going to take the handcuffs off of you okay?" JJ said slowly approaching you. "I-I don't want you to take them off. Where's Sebastian?" You asked. "What Spencer said was true. Sebastian had kidnapped you, tortured you and made you think that you were safe. He made you hate Spencer, Y/N. Your husband." - You woke up to a bright light. You have no clue when you blacked out or how you got to the… hospital? You looked to your side and saw the man again, sleeping in the chair next to your bed. You tried to move away as best as you could, the heart monitor beeping faster and faster. His eyes shot open and he immediately stood up and walked to the far corner of the room. "I'm not going to hurt you." He said putting his hands up before rubbing his eyes. "Leave." You said weakly as you realized all of the tubes and needles in your arms. He hesitantly looked at the door and back to you. "Can I ask you a few questions please? I promise I'll stay on my side of the room." He said. "If you have questions have someone else ask. I don't want to talk to you." You said. You saw his eyes gloss over as he bit his bottom lip. "Do you really not remember me?" He asked quietly. "Yeah I remember you. I also remember that I hate you and every time I see you, I want to run away. So yeah I remember you." You spat making him quickly leave the room. - "Stockholm syndrome. It's a very rare illness where the victims actually become attached to their abductor on an emotional and sentimental level. That's why she is refusing to testify against Sebastian and why she feels safe in chains or handcuffs, she feels he's the only one who can release and put her in them." Spencer told the team with his head low. "Fortunately it is somewhat curable but it will take time. Slowly introducing people should familiarize her surroundings hopefully making her feel safe. I know I can't be the one that helps her… she's too scared of me. That monster turned my own wife against me and every time I see her… she says she… she hates me. I can't stand looking at her gaze into my eyes and all I see is hatred." He added. JJ walked across the little circle the team has formed and hugged Spencer. "She's not gone Spence. Like you said it takes time but we will get her back." She said rubbing his shoulders. That's all Spencer could hope for right now; that they can get you back.

[thumper-darling]

All of the "Distract me" asks?

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life?

I mean, I know plenty a gender. But for the record, no. 

2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?

I’m indifferent 

3: What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?”

Bitch. Meow bitch, meow

4: What’s something you really want right now?

Fall BINCH. Gimme them crispy crunch leaves and chilly air. 

5: Are you afraid of falling in love?

Not really, I’m more afraid of it be unrequited. 

6: Do you like the beach?

Not for swimming purposes. 

7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?

Oh for sure. Those sleepovers/naps as a kid were lit.

8: What’s the background on your cell?

A pic of Tomothy in the spidey suit w/o the mask. His face is all squinched and this binch is cheesing so hard. :’)

9: Name the last four beds you were sat on?

Mine, My sister’s, My mom’s, and probs Lila’s 

10: Do you like your phone?

Yeah, so many mems

11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned?

I don’t like to make plans too far in advance. I prefer things to just go with the flow. Things aren’t going the way I planned from a year ago, but they are going as planned from a week or so ago? Timing is key

12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts?

Probably somebody from work tbh 

13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler?

Rottweiler. I can’t have a poodle coming for my brand, my hair always has to be the poofiest. 

14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?

Emotional. The scars last longer 

15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?

An art museum with pieces based off of animals. obviously. 

16: Are you tired?

A bit yeah, I keep having restless sleeps. 

17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact?

For 6 years

18: Are they a relative?

Nope

19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes?

NO

20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?

It’s been a good minute. 

21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?

If they were the right person, we could wait to get married until we were both older tbh. 

22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Probably not 

23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?

024: Is there a certain quote you live by?

I don’t think so 

25: What’s on your mind?

Thrift shopping & Coffee

26: Do you have any tattoos?

Sadly, no

27: What is your favorite color?

Red or Pink

28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?

Hopefully soon, but realistically, not for a while

29: Who are you texting?

My boss

30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?

Yes

31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?

Yeah, I usually get a feeling in the pit of my stomach 

32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?

Yes, but I’m bad at talking 

33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you?

I don’t think so 

34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?

I’ve had a few people say so, yeah

35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?

I’d cut a bitch? Because that’s rude and disrespectful? Right in front of my salad?

36: Were you single on Valentines Day?

Yeah

37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed?

I don’t think so

38: What do your friends call you?

Annoying :’) 

Jk, they don’t call me :’’)

JUST KIDDING, usually Becca or Becs

39: Has anyone upset you in the last week?

My boss (tm)

40: Have you ever cried over a text?

A few, yeah

41: Where’s your last bruise located?

On my left knee

42: What is it from?

I kept hitting my knee on the rides at the fair last weekend 

43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad?

A week ago I stowed away to Frankenmuth at 2 am because I just had to get away

44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

My mom 

45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes?

My converse homeboy

46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day?

No, I look stupid in hats 

47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style?

I would look stupid without hair dude. 

48: Do you make supper for your family?

Nah, I can’t cook. But I’m really good at preheating the oven. 

49: Does your bedroom have a door?

Don’t they usually? 

50: Top 3 web-pages?

Tumblr, Instagram, 123movies 

51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping?

My mom hates shopping 

52: Does anything on your body hurt?

My eyes kinda hurt 

53: Are goodbyes hard for you?

YES :’)

54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?

Probably a smoothie or Powerade 

55: How is your hair?

Kind of greasy and kind of poofy from the braids I had it in 

56: What do you usually do first in the morning?

Check my instagram 

57: Do you think two people can last forever?

Maybe, I just haven’t seen it 

58: Think back to January 2007, were you single?

I was a CHILD, so I sure do hope so

59: Green or purple grapes?

Purple 

60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug?

Whenever somebody wants one? 

61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?

I don’t think so 

62: When will be the next time you text someone?

I don’t know? 

63: Where will you be 5 hours from now?

Probably at home 

64: What were you doing at 8 this morning.

Sleeping 

65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked?

God no 

66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

My sister 

67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today?

No

68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

I listened to sleep meditation, so probably something about my most ideal self 

69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

EVERY TIME I HAD TO TAKE A MATH EXAM 

70: How many windows are open on your computer?

2

71: How many fingers do you have?

10

72: What is your ringtone?

Default bell tones 

73: How old will you be in 5 months?

18 binch 

74: Where is your Mum right now?

At work or in her car

75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love?

I’m not really sure 

76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?

My step-sister

77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?

I’m not even friends with the people I was 6 months ago 

78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7?

Yeah :’)

79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike?

My mom’s boyfriend 

80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?

Yip

81: How many people have you liked in the past three months?

082: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?

I don’t think so 

83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

I don’t like (tm) anyone rn??

84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?

Lila, but I honestly don’t see myself yelling at hot people. 

85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care?

I’d try not to, but if it got between our relationship or started to become a serious substance abuse problem, yeah I would care. 

86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie?

BOY OH BOY WERE LULU AND I OBNOXIOUS AND IT WAS AMAZING 

87: Who was your last received call from?

My sister or my mom. I’m too lazy to check 

88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you?

If it was already dead, yes. If not, then no I couldn’t hurt a precious flapper

89: What is something you wish you had more of?

MOTIVATION DAMN 

90: Have you ever trusted someone too much?

L O L 

91: Do you sleep with your window open?

Most of the time, yeah. I really like the sounds of the outdoors. 

92: Do you get along with girls?

Yes, girls are beautiful 

93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?

I don’t think so? 

94: Does sex mean love?

Not always 

95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?

YES GET ME THE FUCK OUTTA THERE 

96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?

No

97: Did you sleep alone this week?

No, I had a sleepover not too long ago. 

98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?

I’ll miss you most of all Scarecrow :’)

99: Do you believe in love at first sight?

I think so 

100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise?

Probs Lulu the last time we were drunk and sitting in the bathroom.

[disneymoviethoughts]

Thoughts I had while watching The Little Mermaid

1. Before Tangled came out, this was my favorite movie. I'm so excited to watch it. 2. I can't believe this is the first princess movie in thirty years. 3. And so begins the classic castle start to princess movies instead of the books. So sad. 4. I wonder when they stopped doing the books in non-princess movies. 5. Eric's ship looks like a lot of fun tbh. 6. He really is an attractive cartoon. 7. One of his shipmates mentioned Triton, I see you movie. 8. I've never wanted to deep sea dive more than I do when I see this intro to Atlantica. 9. I aspire to be a mermaid and be pulled by dolphins. 10. Fun fact: Sebastian was supposed to be British. I can't see it. 11. I feel like if I were Ariel's sisters I would be bitter that my father clearly loved her more than us. 12. I can't tell if this is a performance for the king or a coming out thing for Ariel. 13. Ariel loves the sunken ship but it looks like there are several sunken ships around that area. 14. Flounder pretends to have a cough but can merpeople and fish even get sick? 15. I would be Flounder in this situation 100%. Ariel is too adventurous for me. 16. But also Flounder is so loyal, going places with her even though he knows he'll be scared. 17. I want to get that excited about a fork. Excuse me, a dinglehopper. 18. Ariel is remarkably calm that this shark is attacking her. 19. This scene is so awesome. Such excitement in the first ten minutes. Disney really revamped their princess movies.

20. Her bag should have fallen apart by now from being underwater like that. 21. I've always wondered where Scuttle learned his words. He obviously spies on humans. Has he never seen someone use a fork? 22. Let it be known that I haven't called a fork a fork in years. I use dinglehopper in every situation. 23. Ursula is also one of my favorite villains. I love Pat Caroll's voice. 24. I would 10/10 watch a movie about her days in the palace and what made her the way she is. Is she Triton's sister? Niece? Cousin? I NEED ANSWERS. 25. If this concert was the pinnacle of Sebastian's career, he shouldn't have counted on Ariel to be the star when she didn't even go to rehearsal. 26. Flounder telling Triton the story of a shark attack is how my mom tells stories. (Badly). 27. Jk i love you mom 28. "I'm sixteen years old I'm not a child" I’m twenty three years old and I’m still a child. 29. Okay she's sixteen years old but she doesn't need a babysitter. That seems excessive. She's just a little rebellious. 30. I need a cave for all of my collectibles tbh. 31. If you don't sing at the top of your lungs when Part of Your World comes on, you're not a Disney fan. 

32. I'm pretty humans would like to know how mermaids live. 33. "Bet you on land, they understand- bet they don't reprimand their daughters" LOL girl no. 34. I would probably get sick of swimming too. 35. This song is amazing. Alan Menken at his best. Besides all the other brilliant songs he's written. 36. I wonder how long Ariel has been collecting stuff. This is a really impressive cave. 37. I wonder how Max smelled Ariel. Does she smell like a fish? 38. The way Ariel looks at Eric is me when I look at pizza. 39. This scene where the ship is in the storm is why I'm terrified to go on boats. 40. This is actually way more like the original story like I thought and I am so into it. 41. This is such an action packed movie. I love it. 42. I can't believe Ariel swam all the way to shore basically carrying Eric but his crew couldn't even wait for him to resurface. 43. This reprise of Part of Your World might be better than the regular song. 44. I DONT KNOW WHEN, I DONT KNOW HOW, BUT I KNOW SOMETHING'S STARTING RIGHT NOW!

45. Sorry, the music overtook me. 46. I just bought a shirt from Hot Topic that had these lyrics on it. I'm obsessed. 47. Look at all the souls Ursula has collected. I'd love to know what they wished for. 48. Out of seven girls, how is Ariel the only one that ended up with their mother's red hair? 40. Under the Sea. Another freaking classic song and beautiful sequence. 41. "Up on the shore they work all day" you know what Sebastian, you make some good points. Where can I find an Ursula to make me a mermaid? 42. Or a Morgana. Points to anyone who gets why I said that. 43. Ariel did look really into this but then she just swims away in the middle of all the fish being awesome musicians. How rude. 

44. The king says lately Ariel has been distracted and daydreaming a lot but it's literally been half a day since she met Eric. 45. Flounder really is a great BFF but how did he get Eric's statue into the cave? 46. Sebastian telling Triton about the cave was SO low. I know he didn't know he would break all of her collectibles but still. 47. I do love this movie and like I said, Ariel was my favorite princess before Rapunzel came along, but it's so silly that she loves him. She saw him for like ten minutes. 48. Triton destroying Ariel's stuff destroys me. I would die if someone did that to me. 49. Flotsam and Jetsam are such creepy sidekicks. 50. At least she tried to resist. A for effort. 51. Poor Unfortunate Souls. Great villain song. 52. Have I mentioned how great these songs and Alan Menken were? I could go on forever about him. 53. "Now it's happened once or twice, someone couldn't pay the price" Ariel look at how many souls she has she is LYING girl. 54. Ariel considers never seeing her father and sisters again and decides Eric is worth it after never even speaking to him. 55. I wonder what Ursula would have taken from her if she didn't know Eric loved Ariel's voice. 56. I get goosebumps every time Ursula starts the spell to take Ariel's voice.  

57. Disney villain laughs are my favorite thing ever.                                           58. Her fins splitting into legs looks like it would be really painful.                           59. Sebastian is the best. He's so funny. 60. At least Max smelled her before or he wouldn't have recognized her. 61. "You can't speak? Then you couldn't be who I thought" MAYBE SHE HAS LARYNGITIS ERIC. 62. Ariel would be horrible at charades and I would not want her on my team. 63. She's so excited by the bubbles in the bath but she did all this to get OUT of the water. 64. I really love Eric's castle. I'd live there. 65. Eric thinks Ariel is beautiful and is excited to see her but still won't let the girl who sang to him go. 66. Grimsby is such a curmudgeon. So cute. 67. I feel like Chef Louis is probably an accurate portrayal of French chefs. 68. That is an excessive amount of knives to throw at a small crab. 69. If you don't get the warm feels when Eric and Ariel look at each other you're heartless. 

70. Since Eric is a prince I feel like he should have guards. 71. Kiss the Girl is another iconic, classic, beautiful scene and is definitely one of my favorite songs. 72. I know I keep saying that. This whole movie is my favorite don’t @ me. 73. I wish someone would take me on a romantic boat ride. Maybe I'll go hang out by a lake. 74. "The little tramp" says Ursula, who told Ariel to use her body language. 

75. I know throwing away his flute was symbolic but like that's your flute man. 76. I wonder what Ursula put in the potion to hypnotize Eric. Was it just Ariel's voice or something else? 77. Eric SOUNDS like a robot, why does Grimsby not notice this 78. A sunset wedding on a boat? Seriously, where can I find a prince? 79. Ariel sitting alone on the dock crying is so sad omg. 80. I LOVE that shot of Vanessa looking into the mirror and seeing her Ursula self. (I couldn’t find a GIF. So sad).  81. Sebastian is such a good delegator. He should have more responsibilities. 82. Vanessa just straight up KICKED MAX IN THE FACE. That is more villainous than anything she's done so far. 83. All of the villains' eyebrows are so on point though. 

84. Eric is not shocked enough about Ariel being a mermaid. Or Vanessa turning into a purple octopus. 85. I do think it's cool that even Triton's trident (lol) couldn't destroy the contract. 86. So if Ursula lived in the palace maybe Triton took the crown from her somehow? Or she was bitter that he was next in line instead of her? 87. There's no way Eric could dive down that deep without equipment and hold his breath. 88. Can you imagine if a life sized octopus like that existed? I would stay as far away from the water as humanly possible. 89. I'm not gonna lie though, having all that power and the trident would be pretty fun. I could make endless food appear whenever I wanted. 90. I think this is the most action packed princess movie there is. 91. Second time out of two that a villain has died because a prince stabbed them. That's so dark, y'all. 92. I think Triton could've given Ariel the power to turn back into a mermaid whenever she wanted so she could come see him. 93. I love her purple sparkly dress. Where can I get one? 94. I'm really glad Alfred Angelo makes princess inspired dresses instead of exact copies because those are some very poofy sleeves. 

95. I really would not be able to leave my family or my best friends for a guy. She has some resolve. 96. What do the townspeople think of Eric having a bunch of fish at his wedding? 97. I still love this movie. 10/10. Excuse me while I go listen to the soundtrack on repeat.

[mangon3cta]

After Forever

SIMON DOMINIC

GENRE: IDEK

WORD COUNT: 2,239

for this anon

i always go too deep into these requests. there was actually more i wanted to add but it would’ve gotten too long

a/n: i should’ve used his real name but i liked typing simon better srry

I turned left through the hallways, reciting the directions Jay had told me in my head like a mantra. He had asked me to deliver a message to the second CEO of AOMG; Simon Dominic. Jay lost his phone and now I was his texting app.

I finally found the studio Simon worked at and knocked on the door before slowly opening it. Simon, who was seated in front of the computer, turned around to look at me and I smiled. “Jay told me to tell you that he wanted to see you,” I informed him.

“Is it urgent?” Simon asked.

“It must be since he sent me all the way down here.”

Simon nodded and stood up. “Alright then.” He brushed past me out the door and I watched disappear down the hallway. I looked back at the room which was wide open. Without another thought, I walked inside, shutting the door behind me.

The room was wide but slightly cramped and there was soft music occupying the still air. I moved over to the computer and clicked the chrome icon. YouTube popped up. The song that was playing was “Hyung” by Dumbfoundead featuring Dok2, Tiger JK and of course, Simon Dominic himself.

I smiled. Ever since Simon filmed Show Me The Money 5, he had started becoming more busy. Usually, he’d keep to himself. But nowadays, he was doing features, working more on his music and basically trying to get out there again. It was cool.

“I really shouldn’t be doing this,” I whispered to myself as I started snooping around in his things to maybe find a teaser to what he was working on at the moment. I wasn’t going to look too deeply or I might find something I’d regret seeing.

I clicked here and there trying to find something. “Having fun?” A voice said behind me. That voice only belonged to one person. I froze in the seat, cursing myself for my stupidity. I slowly rolled back and stood up, facing Simon who had a quite irritated expression on his face.

“I…I was just…you see,” I tried forming words in my mouth but everything just sounded lame.

“Yeah, get out,” Simon replied and I quickly ran out the door, heated with embarrassment. I’m sensitive so I almost teared up as I walked back to Jay’s office.

“Hey, where were you? I thought you’d come back,” said Jay as I entered the room.

“Nowhere,” I mumbled, sighing deeply.

“Well anyway, I’m taking work off early and I don’t really need anything else so you can go home.”

I bit my lip in frustration and picked up my bag. “Thank you sir, if you need something else you can call me,” I said sarcastically.

Jay laughed. “There’s no need to call me sir, we’re friends.” I could’ve cursed at him but I held my tongue because I would’ve cried at the same time.

“You know, I really, really hate you.” I slammed the door and stormed out of the building towards my car. Those hateful feelings I sometimes felt towards my older brother were coming back. He was only a year older but he acted like he was the boss of me.

Technically, Jay was my boss. Ever since AOMG became popular, I was dying to work with him. I used to do a normal job at an office, but Jay Park being the CEO of AOMG and my brother came with some advantages (and disadvantages but that’s not for now).

I also loved music. But when I asked to work with him, Jay had gotten the wrong idea. I wanted to produce, make music, but Jay thought I wanted to work for him, not with him. Now I was his office assistant. I couldn’t speak up to him about him because 1) he didn’t know I’m good at music and 2) he’d probably just say no. My insecurity towards myself and my admiration towards my brother really gets in the way.

Now I didn’t want to lose this job because this is the closest I’ve ever been to real life musicians. I was friends with everyone, but I’d seen them work and it really inspired me to do my own things; not in the company, but at home.

When I returned to work the next day I contemplated apologizing to Simon. I was in the wrong and Simon’s scary when he’s mad but I knew it was the right thing to do. I knocked on the door to his studio.

“Come in.” I pushed the door open and walked inside with a forced smile on my face. Simon didn’t look angry but rather annoyed that I was here again.

“Listen,” I started, licking my lips. “I just wanted to apologize for yesterday.”

“Go ahead.”

I sighed. “I’m sorry I was looking in your things…I really didn’t mean to.” I looked around for a chair and sat down. Simon watched me with a look on his face that seemed to say “are you for real right now?”.

I continued. “I’m really sorry. The thing is, ever since this company grew big, Jay’s been acting like he’s better than me. I wanna do music too…but he just doesn’t understand. I try to be around here – around you guys, that is because you’re so cool and it really inspires me and I want to be like you…to do what you guys do because I love it so much.” Before I knew it I was just spilling my heart out to him.

“Why are you telling me this?” Simon asked. He was leaning back on his chair. I flushed and stood up.

“Sorry, I got carried away. The point is, I hope you forgive me.” I walked over to the door and opened it.

“Wait,” said Simon and I turned to face him. “Close the door and sit back down.” I hesitantly closed the door and took my seat again.

“You do music?”

I smiled excitedly. “Yeah I do. It’s a hobby but I’ve been trying to turn into a job.” I shrugged.

“How come no one knows – I mean, how come Jay doesn’t know?”

“I just never told him….I’m too scared I guess.”

Simon looked up in thought. “So have you worked on anything?” I enthusiasm returned as I reached for my phone.

“Lots actually. I made something that was inspired by you and GRAY on Show Me The Money,” I began to play the track. “It’s like an epilogue to Forever.” I handed Simon the phone so he could listen clearly. The entire song was about 3 minutes, while the part I had produced was a mere 1 minute, but I was so proud of it.

Simon sported a poker face for those entire 3 minutes and I suddenly felt sick. Maybe he didn’t like it. When the song had ended, he returned my phone and nodded.

“First of all, where did you get the beat?”

I lowered my head in shame. “I found it on Jay’s computer. I know its stealing but I wasn’t going to show it to anyone.” I chuckled guiltily. “You probably think I’m the saddest person on earth, but I’m just really desperate.”

Simon laughed and I relaxed a little. “It’s actually much better than I had expected.”

“Really?!”

“You should really get someone to rap on it – like an epilogue,” he suggested. I flushed and shook my head.

“Nah, I don’t really know anyone anyway.”

“Well, you know me.” I looked up in disbelief. Whenever I listened to the track I always imagined Giriboy or San E’s voice. I’d never imagined Simon Dominic to be on it. “If you want, that is.”

I nodded eagerly. “That would be a dream come true.”

“Okay, I’ll talk to Jay and I’m sure GRAY will let us use the original song since this is just the demo. I think this will be good.”

+

In the afternoon, Jay called me to his office and I went there reluctantly. He looked disappointed and I knew what this talk was going to be about. “Simon talked to me yesterday –“

“I know,” I said, plopping down on one of the chairs. “I know what he talked to you about and I already apologized to him. He’s okay.”

“Why would you do that? Mom and dad raised you better than this, I’m embarrassed.”

I groaned. “Well you don’t have to be. Oh, and I don’t want to be your assistant anymore.” Jay looked taken back by my serious tone.

“What? You said you wanted to work with me.”

“With you, Jay, I wanted to work with you, not for you. I don’t wanna be your dumb office assistant. All I do is sit around in your office and get you coffee whenever you want. And send your stupid messages. I’m sick of it.”

Jay blinked and sat down, confused. “Well…I didn’t know you felt that way.”

“I like music too. Stop acting as if you’re better than me just because you have this huge popular company and lots of cool rappers. I wanted to do music with you, Jay.” I sniffed.

“Oh.” Jay nodded. “Why did you tell me before?”

I shrugged. “I don’t know…I thought you wouldn’t like it. I mean, you’re Jay Park and I’m just me.” Jay chuckled.

“You’re my sister,” he walked over to me and sighed. “Are you mad at me?”

“Yes, I am.” Jay put his arms around my shoulders in an awkward attempt to hug me. “Well, I guess I’m not that mad. I just wanted to get that off my chest.”

“Then I hope you feel better. Tell you what, how about you show me your stuff and we can work on it together?”

“Actually, Jay, Simon was helping me. We were discussing it before you called me here. He said he was gonna talk to you about it too.”

“You went to him first?” asked Jay.

“He asked me,” I told him. “Or else no one would’ve known.”

+

So we worked on the track for days after that. GRAY GROUND was where all the magic happened so I occupied myself in there; me, Simon, Jay and Gray. But some days it was just me and Simon. There wasn’t much to write considering the remix was just a minute longer but, according to Simon, lyrics were hard to write. You needed inspiration and a clear mind.

“You give me inspiration,” he told me. I was sitting on the floor with my laptop on my lap. I looked up, laughing.

“That’s going a little too far, don’t you think?”

Simon chuckled and shook his head. “Really? I was being completely serious.” He left what he was doing to face me. “Someone like you, diligent, young and fresh, that gives me inspiration. You’re like a burst of cold air on a hot day. Seeing you work hard makes me want to work hard too, to write witty lyrics as fast as I can.”

I smiled and looked down at the keyboard. The thought that someone like him could get inspiration from someone like me was a little overwhelming. It triggered me to work even harder so that he could take from me and we could help each other.

With everything going on, I was finally formally introduced to the rest of the AOMG family as a “rookie producer”. They liked me and Gray told them he was proud that I had chosen his beat for this track.

Jay really liked the finished product and said he would release it as soon as he had contacted some people. I told him the title of the remix was called After Forever and he complemented my sense.

When the song was released it achieved an all-kill on the charts. I knew it was because BeWhy was so popular and the fact that Simon Dominic made a somewhat comeback. I was proud of my work and Simon said I should work with more people.

And sure enough after that I was getting phone calls from media outlets and other companies asking me to produce for them too. I needed a little break because the sudden attention was making me emotional.  

“Here’s to Y/N!” Jay announced. There were cheers for me and Simon patted me on the back. I smiled and bumped champagne glasses with everyone near me. I was at an AOMG party – strictly for AOMG label mates only. This was my first time being invited despite having worked at the company for a year now.

“Also,” Jay continued. “I got a call this morning from guess who?” I looked at Jay, listening intently. “From Lee Byung-Yoon. He said we wants a collaborative album with you, Y/N.” More cheering and I flushed, goosebumps rising on my skin. “I just couldn’t deny such a heavenly offer. What do you say, Y/N?”

“DO IT, DO IT, DO IT!”

“A whole album is a little –“

“Wouldn’t that mean we’d get to spend more time with each other?” Simon whispered in my ear as I considered the suggestion.

“I’ll do it.” I would be lying if I said there wasn’t an ulterior motif in my answer. Although working with the one and only BeWhy would be a glorious experience; the fact that Simon probably would be helping me the entire time was something else to look forward to.

[alexinafterglow]

1-100 for my baby i love you

Awww I love you too baby thank you for asking!!!1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? There’s a perfect boy in my life named Key 💖
2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? I have forgiven them for it bc it was a long ass time ago. 
3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. I couldn’t find a book near me fast enough so I typed 17 on “my” chrome book. 
4: What’s something you really want right now?
 Key and Mexican food tbh. 5: Are you afraid of falling in love? I would say yes but I’ve already fallen head over heels for my baby!
6: How can I win your heart? You already have!
7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? Yes plenty of times with you!
8: What’s the background on your cell?
 So after questioning for like 5 minutes what cell was until u told me it was short for cell phone it’s a set of flowers and you bc I’m gay. 9: Name the last four beds you sat on? Key Key Key and mine. 
10: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? Na not at all because it was my mom lmao. 
11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned? They are going a billion times better than I ever could have dreamt of!
12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? Probably Quinn’s idk I don’t have a lot of friends riiip. 
13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? NEITHER I HATE DOGS FIGHT ME
14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? Emotional because it’ll never leave you. 
15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? How bout yes please. 
16: Are you tired? I’m always tired I barely sleep send help. 
17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact? I’ve had them since 2009 when I had my first phone. 
18: If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2008 so I wouldn’t be so fucked tbh. 
19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? Lmao I’ve only dated Key ripppp. 
20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? I talk to my first love and first kiss every day
21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? I know I have the right person and yes I am gonna marry Key!
22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? It’s Key so hell yes a billion times over!
23: When was the last time you were disappointed? About a month ago. 
24: Is there a certain quote you live by?
 “This is the anthem throw all your hands up. Y'all don’t have to feel me sing if you’re with me”25: What’s on your mind? Tbh key and I wish my internet would work so I didn’t have to use data. 
26: Do you have any tattoos? I wish but not yet. 
27: What is your favorite color? My favorite color is red it’s lit. 
28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? Tomorrow when I see my baby Key!29: Who are you texting? Lmao the one and only Keeey. 
30: Are you superstitious about anything? I believe in a lot of superstition but not any about black cats they’re the good pusses. 
31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? Oh yea plenty of times. 
32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? I have plenty just because girls are better than guys to talk to tbh. 
33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you? I know my beautiful future Key does. 
34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? You have my beautiful emerald!
35: What was the reason for your last breakup? I haven’t had a breakup and won’t soooo. 
36: Were you single on Valentines Day? Lmao na I had the most amazing Valentine’s Day ever!
37: Name one physical feature that you like about yourself, and one you dislike. I like that I breathe I hate that I’m very clumsy. 
38: What do your friends call you? Dill Bill!
39: Has anyone upset you in the last week? My family every day. 
40: Have you ever cried over a text? I cried when Key said yes when I asked him out!
41: Where’s your last bruise located? On my elbow. 
42: What is it from? I hit it on a wall. 
43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? Probably about a month ago honestly I wanted to be away from the world. 
44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with? I’m always on the phone with Key!
45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? I love all of my converses!
46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? Na I don’t look good with hats on. 
47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style? Oh no I don’t look well bald. 
48: Do you make supper for your family?
 Every now and then I make dinner for them. 49: What’s the toughest decision you made this year? Probably to convince myself to be me. 
50: Top 3 web-pages? Probably any social media site tbh. 
51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping? No and I’ll fight them. 
52: Does anything on your body hurt?
 My knees because I have no protection to them when I walk. 53: Are goodbyes hard for you? I never say goodbye unless the other person says it first. 
54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? Coffee like a month ago. 
55: How is your hair? It’s medium length and very faded denim blue in it. 
56: What do you usually do first in the morning? I tell Key good morning and then use the bathroom. 
57: Do you think two people can last forever? Key and I are going to so yea of course. 
58: Think back to January 2007, were you single? Lmao I have been until like almost year ago. 
59: Green or purple grapes? Purple are the best. 
60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? As soon as I see Key!
61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? Right next to Key
62: What did your father teach you? How to treat women correctly. 
63: Where will you be 5 hours from now? Probably asleep or waking up randomly. 64: What were you doing at 8 this morning. Trying to go back to sleep while waiting for Key to wake up. 65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked? The same person I liked for like 3 years and I love now and am gonna marry!
66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Key!!!
67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today? I wish I did to Key but no unfortunately. 
68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? I hope Key sleeps amazingly tonight!
69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Oh yea but I’m pretty sure everyone has. 
70: How many windows are open on your computer? Only one and that’s this site called rabb.it key and I use!71: If you won 100 million dollars, what would you buy first? Anything and everything Key wanted and spend like maybe $100 on a new recording Device so I could lmao. 
72: What is your ringtone? Why don’t you get a job- the offsprings 
73: How old will you be in 5 months? I’ll be 19!
74: Where is your Mum right now? Asleep like I should be lmao. 
75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? I am tho???
76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? I hold Keys hand everyday that we see each other, which is like every other day, so yea I have. 
77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? Lmao nope they all dropped me it I dropped them with the exception of Key. 
78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? I didn’t really start crushing on people until like the end of grade 8. 
79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? Lmao my dad goes by mike. 
80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? Every other day I do in Keys!
81: How many people have you liked in the past three months? Um let’s see here: key, KeY,Keeeeeey, and lastly keywi!
82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? Lmao I sleep pants less so yea. 
83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? I get to talk to him every night!
84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? Well first of all I’m not drunk ever so this question is already invalid. 
85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? Well once again we’re straight edge so invalid question. 
86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? Well I went with Key and I got to snuggle up next to him so there’s that. 
87: Who was your last received call from? KEEEEY
88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? Um no satin I wouldn’t. 
89: What is something you wish you had more of? Key and money to spend on key. 
90: Have you ever trusted someone too much? I used to trust everyone too much until I got bullied as a child lmao. 
91: Do you sleep with your window open?
 Um no I’m not dumb and don’t appreciate losing my goods. 92: Do you get along with girls? Lmao almost all of my current friends RN are girls so yea. Males are usually douches. 
93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
 No I tell the truth as soon as I know it. 94: Does sex mean love? To me if I have sex with someone aka Key, then it means love, but in a hypothetical world that I don’t wanna live in where Key doesn’t exist and I just have sex with random people not necessarily. 
95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? I’m sorry did you mean the only person I want to spend forever with, Key???
96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? Oh no I’ve only kissed one person. 
97: Did you sleep alone this week? Na I slept with my baby Key every night!
98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? I definitely do his name is john cena jk it’s key. 
99: Do you believe in love at first sight? I believe you can want to be friends with someone as soon as you see them but you can’t love them until you know them. 
100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise? Every night I pinky promise Key something.

[bellarosepope]

Make Your Dreams a Reality – How Much Do You Really Want it?

This is something I’ve thought about and learned a lot about since starting my novel. 

How much do you really want to make your dreams a reality? When we were little, our parents, teachers, and guardians told us to fight for our dreams. They told us to do everything we can to make our dreams a reality and that it was possible for us to accomplish whatever we put our minds to.

Then we entered high school and, for the most part, those encouragements stopped. They told us to be realistic. They told us to plan for college. They told us to let go of silly pipe dreams that would never work out.

Well, you know what? I didn’t listen.

I may not have known what my dream was when I graduated high school early, but I knew that I wanted to be my own person. I wanted to make my own choices and follow my own path. Fast forward a couple years and I fell back in love with writing.

When I made the decision to someday be an author, it was not just a dream to me.

It was my new reality.

I made a conscious decision to work. Because that’s the only way you can ever make your dreams a reality. You can’t expect to have these big dreams and then have them handed to you on a silver platter.

You know what that “silver platter” looks like? Hard work. Every single day. No excuses.

If you think you have a dream that means everything to you, something that you talk about all the time, that you want to make happen more than anything else in the world, do you really want it or do you just want to have the “label” of whatever it is? Ask yourself these questions if you think you really want it.

1. Are you doing something every day– no matter how small – to get a step closer?

Working toward anything takes time and hard work. Even if you’re ridiculously busy with life and work and even school, there’s time to work toward your goal. Even doing something 5 minutes before you fall asleep is enough to get you there someday. The point is, if you really want something, you should be working toward it daily. Every single day. No excuses. You may work harder on some days than you do others, and that’s okay! So long as you’re putting in the work, that’s all that matters.

2. Do you talk about it more than you’re actually working toward it?

I think a lot of people love the idea of being able to say they want to be something someday. Take being an author, for example. There are tons of people who say they want to be an author someday. They talk about the book they’re going to write and how they’re going to “make it big” like JK Rowling. But when you ask them about their progress or for details, they shrug, mumble something about not having time, and move on to the next person who will listen to their ramblings about eventually becoming an author.

If you really want something, and I mean you want it more than anything in the world, you do more than you say. You put in the work, then tell people about it. You can back up your dreams with concrete evidence of work and effort (not that anyone else needs to see evidence of it, but still).

3. Are people able to dissuade you from doing it?

Now, I understand when you’re young and have parents or guardians who thwart your progress because they want you to be “realistic”, but if you don’t have that and other people are able to change your mind about it, do you really want it? Assuming your dreams are moral and don’t harm you or anyone else, a few people chattering in your ear about how hard it’ll be or how much time it’ll take should never be enough to make you stop trying. If it is, then you don’t want it. If you truly want something, nothing can stand in your way.

4. Do you make a lot of excuses for your lack of progress?

There are hundreds of excuses you can make every day as to why you haven’t done anything that’ll help you reach your goals. You can be tired, sick, busy, and a lot more. But how many of those excuses are legitimate? Probably not a lot. If you’re in the hospital because you’re sick or you’re caring for someone who’s injured or ill, that’s obviously fine. But if you just pick a lame excuse to justify your lack of work (and let’s be real, laziness), you don’t really want to make your dreams a reality.

Stop making excuses and start making progress. Even if you know you’re tired and being lazy, don’t sugar coat it. Don’t make the excuse that you’re busy when you’re not. Admit to yourself that you’re being lazy in your pursuit to make your dreams come true. Doing this may actually give you the kick in the ass you need to see clearly about how you’ll reach your goals.

5. How far are you willing to push yourself to get there?

Let’s just take Simone Biles, Olympic Gymnastics Gold Medalist, and use her as an example. Do you think she didn’t contemplate how much work it would take to get to the Olympics? She had to think hard about that decision. The moment she made the choice to put in the work to make it to the Olympics, she realized how far she would be willing to push herself.

And you need to start thinking about that if you really want to make your dreams a reality. I guarantee, no matter what it is you want to do, that it’ll be hard. You will have to work and work hard to make it happen. Are you willing to be tired and busy and not have the extra free time you have now? Because that’s what it’ll take. But if you really want it, you should be willing to do whatever it takes.

To me, it’s not a matter of if I’ll be an author someday. To me, it’s a matter of when. If you want to make your dreams a reality and accomplish something that means the world to you, you have to put in the work to make it happen. You have to want it more than anything.