oc asks....... i know razz has evolved but do you still have your other fangan ocs......
absolutely i do & theyve evolved the same way :-)
the main change besides the context theyre in now is that i shifted focus really drastically. fred and noemi and kita are all still here and theyre at the forefront now; its less clear bc they werent as developed back then, but even Q and molly were meant to be in the old story (in the reserve course & working for the foundation respectively lol) so they existed and evolved since then too
unfortunately i did scrap two of my former main ocs, maddy and amari, for everything except incidental roles in the au i still kick around with vanpires and shit. that decision was solely bc i was uncomfortable w them being direct self inserts; they were the first of the cast i made bc they were literally sonas for myself and my friend who got me into dr ^_^.. and as a result the 'main' group with ross (formerly russel i changed his name for fun) and alex got super destabilized. and i had to rethink where to fit them into the plot and social circles, which worked fine with ross but not so much for alex bc i literally dont know what to do w that guy
if ur curious abt anyone else in particular i can give a rundown of their current whereabouts & any changes that have been made 🤓☝️
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I swear I’ll make it my life’s goal to come out with some sort of self indulgent dating sim game or visual novel. That’s the one thing I’m dead set on wanting to create… just a story w an MC that has hot ass people fawning over them!!! 18+!!! LMAOO smh the only thing that deters me is the technicalities of learning a new program… Smh like do I gotta make deadlines for myself to figure it out. Because I HAVE ideas, I have characters… their designs… I just need to focus… It’s one of those things where I work easier if I was accompanied with someone else doing work as well LOL. That feeling of camaraderie of getting shit done ahhh, that’s one thing that I miss when I was still in college… being in a room full of equally stressed people that need to finish an assignment for deadlines LOL
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I think the reason why Shira is so chill is because she already had her whole revenge journey and stuff when she was like, a teen/young adult, so now she just chills 23/7. This on parallel to Sheina who NEVER truly got her revenge so she's so on edge constantly.
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Why is Catrina crying in the new art?
This is unintentionally personal-
So Catrina started off as a self insert but she's the opposite of me culture wise. Both my grandparents on my mother's side and my father are immigrants (from Mexico, Ecuador and El Salvador respectively). So my dad had that culture but hid it away when he came to America. My mother was raised in the culture, she even did folklorico when she was in highschool. My family even owned a taqueria azteca as my grandparents restaurant. They were surrounded by the culture. It was a part of them.
When my grandmother died my mother ran away from the culture due to memories of her mother. So we weren't raised as part of the culture, rather having the world tell us what our culture should be. Now that I'm older I've been looking more into my culture. In a sense it was like I looked the part but wasn't a part of them. But I love ny culture and the uniqueness of it, something my americanized mother isn't proud of.
Catrina is the opposite. Her culture was such a big part of her upbringing. It made her who she was and connected her to her family. But even her culture couldn't save her brother. It was his death that made her run away from her culture and family and into Emiliano who capitalized off of his culture (one that he didn't know) while sterilizing it. Catrina did the same. She turned far away from her culture to be acceptable in fame. Dyed blonde hair, no cultural clothing and no Spanish (and hiding her accent). She is inspired by La Calavera Garbancera and La Calavera Catrina. She was a woman who pushed her culture away to seem different than who she was, to be "better".
When she finally escaped the marriage she had nothing to turn to but could fall back into her culture. And once she did she wept for the years where she censored herself. She hid who she was for what? Some approval of strangers who don't know who she is outside of her husband?
So you have me who is happy to finally learn this part of my that someone hid from me versus Catrina who censored herself to try to be something she'd never be. And when she finally returned to her culture she wept for joy because she finally understood the lessons her abuela tried to teach her. And now she teaches her children what she learned. She is both happy to feel the warmth of her culture while feeling shame for how she thought of her culture.
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So I'm writing down things for my Ralia characters, as I'm trying to flesh out everything. Basically, what I'm doing is writing out the broad strokes of their characters, so I know what I want to do with them and what I can change. And I came to a conclusion with doing this
Namely, that Marcus, Julian, Marilyn and Lauren have absolutely nothing to do with the plot in any way. But the main problem here is Marcus
Marilyn originally had no role, but I can maybe do something to give her and her family more importance, since they're supposed to be an influential family that's mostly jerks outside of her with the right guidance. And with her comes Lauren, who doesn't have much outside of her. Which maybe I should fix
And as for Julian, I know I've considered him taking a scientist role like his grandfather, and also him being associated with his grandfather in general due to looking similar, which can at least pull him into the Striker plot
But Marcus? He has nothing to do. All he's really got is whatever situation is going on with Marilyn, and then his rift with his brother. He shows up in other stories, but only as a side character, and similarly his issues with his brother are supposed to be happening on the side. And if that gets explored, it would only be on Julian's side, because he was originally supposed to run away and have his own adventures in a circus
But I don't really want to get rid of Marcus. But then, what do I do with him? I genuinely don't know, because he's never had much of a purpose
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I’ve tried to draw Dakota upwards of 5 times now and have failed each time
I get the pose down everytime and then I start the first draft and suddenly I sit there and go, “I must draw a different character. My hands simply demand so.” And then next thing I know the goblet of sand kool-aid (because honestly that koolaid is probably super with all the unmixed sugar in it) is gone and now I’m putting a bow in the hair of Larry Ahlgren the legionnaire.
One day I’ll draw Dakota. Hopefully.
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