#(Not a tough bitch just a repressed bitch)

[hajihiko]

when you tell yourself you're a tough bitch who doesnt cry but then the exact motivational video you needed slaps you kindly in the face

Also I just wanted to draw that face lol

[violence-infatuation]

William Petersen as Will Graham in Manhunter (1986)

[teaandacigarette]

I hate it so much when people say that after the divorce Crowley would cry and drink and just be depressed in general. Like, people, wake up! He is the inventor of repressed feelings, the origin behind “I don’t feel enything I don’t know what you mean.”, the blueprint behind “Too tough to cry.” If he is going to be anything, it will be the petty slutty bitch that we know and love!

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

Sorry if this is weird/annoying but I keep thinking about the twerk off competition and how Minos is a lot thinner than people usually draw him and I don't think his ass would be that good because of it. You'd think the fact he's the king of lust would give him an advantage but he wasn't sent to hell FOR being lustful he just works there. Gabriel has spent his entire life repressed and would struggle to twerk because hes embarrassed. Sisyphus has a fat ass and is confident in this essay I will-

You’re right, but I must grade your opening statement here

We don’t really know why Minos was in hell. Everyone liked him so he wasn’t in there for being a shithead. Maybe he did just bust it down too hard. A case of “You Smoke Too Tough. Your Swag Too Different. Your Bitch Is Too Bad. They’ll Kill You” it seems. Tragic..

V1 has a $5 webcam for an eye we can’t really be judging that too hard but.. he does appear to be less caked up than you’d expect. Maybe he should lose the shorts for an accurate measurement. What? Who said that-

Anyway. Sisyphus does win you are correct you get a B+ on your essay <3

[bubblergoespop]

My Top Guy Quotes

silly pizza manヽ(*＾ω＾*)ﾉ @capitalisticveins @miya-akiko he has been delivered!!

“You’re a jerk. Well. I like jerks.”

“We can’t be getting outta bed before 10, that’d be crazy, that would violating countless labor laws.”

“Oh, you are getting close. Hi! Hi baby. I love youuu~”

“I missed you. I always miss you. Days are long when you’re not around.”

“Jealousy’s a disease, get well soon to those bitches.“

“Come on, take my hand. Well if you don’t, I mean you could get lost on the way. Anything could happen.”

“I am not a menace. I am the menace. And I am your menace. I love you, honey.”

“I don’t need all that shit. I love you just like this. Eye rolling and grumbling is a totally valid love language.”

“Dishes? Dishes? You want me to do dishes? […] Honey, I like a little degradation as much as the next guy, but can’t you just put me on a leash instead, like a normal couple?”

“Let go of me, ahhhh I’m being repressed!”

“Oh, no, no I’m kidding, come here, don’t pout. Yes you are, you are pouting. It’s cute.“

“I vacillate wildly between either looking like an Adonis sent down like a gift or a literal gremlin that couldn’t pull numbers if his life depended on it.”

“No, you smile plenty. And it’s a beautiful smile when you grace me with it. It’s special when you smile.”

“But you are a softy with me. And the other people you care about. You feel things deep. That’s not a bad thing.”

“And how exactly do you expect to keep me in this bed now that you’ve got me here, hmm? Thought about that? Ooohhh gon’ tie me down, fifty shades of honey oooo~”

“You look really cute bundled up in bed like that. Shut up, yes you do. My cute little grumpyface. Aw is my grumpyface mad at me?“

“Aw. That’s so sweet. Who are you and what have you done with my lover? [hit] Ow, okay, there you are.”

“What do you mean you’re gross? You’re not gross, you’re amazing.”

“Thank you for seeing something in me. Something that mattered. Nah, I was talking about my ass.”

“You know wordplay reminds me of? Tongue-twisters! You know what tongue-twisters remind me of? Tongue-kissing, let’s explore that topic shall we—ow ow ow”

“That’s not nothing, that’s called quality time honey.”

“I only wanna be supine if I’m being supine with you!”

“I’m a bad bitch, you can’t kill me~”

“Ew, you can’t give me a forehead kiss, that’s too sweet! Who are you? Why would you do that, being all tender and sweet, that’s gross, you’re gross. No, don’t go. I like you tender and sweet and gross.”

“You have a wonderful hand. It does exquisite work. Ooo don’t make a boy a promise, you betta use it to cover this mouth, fifty one shades of honey ooo~.”

“Making my stupid jokes isn’t as fun without you rolling your eyes and pretending to hate it.”

“Is that why you put up with my memes and shit? Cause I got a big dick and a great ass?”

“I’ll never be sorry for a chance to spend a day at your side.”

“—eh, “Buy Low”, “Start Low”, what’s the difference? You say tomato, I say I wanna put my head between your thighs, it’s semantics.”

“It’s about your thighs wrapped around my head like you’re trying to crush a watermelon. Aw, come on, I’m made of tough stuff. Or not, but hey, that’s a hell of a way to go.”

“You know what this means though, right? Oh my god, they were roommates!”

“Honeybabydarling.”

“But I’ll restrain myself. At least until I can convince you to restrain me. Preferably to our bed. Unnhh.”

“I want to make you squirm under the touch of my fingers and the heat of my mouth and the weight of my tight, straining body pressed flush against yours. And then at some point you can shampoo my hair, cause that always feels nice.”

“Okay, okay, very serious… Canasta. Nasty canasty. Ow—!”

“I’m ready for instruction, professor. Mmm. Mmhmm. I think you’ll find I’m a very hands-on learner. Unnhhh.”

“Do they have to match suite kiss me. Hmm? No, I asked do they have to match suite kiss me, like does the whole canasta kiss me have to be the same suite please kiss me. I don’t know what you mean kiss me. […] kiss me, kiss me really hard.”

“Because no one’s gonna tell me I’m too sexy to be who I am.”

“And maybe I wanna get some, I don’t know! Who said that? Wait— who said that? Wait, who was that? I mean that wasn’t me… shit.”

“That’s my brain, and the only thing that’s gonna wake it up is some kisses. Slow sexy kisses. With tongue. For. You know. Kinetic energy. Transfer. In my mouth. Our mouths.”

“Thank you, honey. I don’t know. For a lot of things. For the water. For hanging out with me. For putting up with me. For being so hot and sexy. I repeat, for putting up with me.”

“I’d lick it off the fucking floor at this point if that’s what you want— anything. That’d be pretty fucking hot actually.”

“I love you, hun.”

“Ah, mm, no. I saw the smile. Yes you did, you can’t hide it from me.”

“Anyway, I am half naked. You are very mean. That’s very hot. You and me honey ain’t nothing but mammals so, uh, whaddya say we do it like they do on discover channel, unhh? Well, you know, personally I was thinking a little less nature documentary and a little more battle bots, you know? Like, I want you to just fucking snap me like a twig!”

“Can’t steal what’s already yours. That’s why you can’t steal my heart cause it’s already yours. Do not groan at me!”

“With you, silence doesn’t feel bad. You looking at me doesn’t feel scary. It feels really good. Feeling seen by you feels good.”

[prying-pandora666]

The Castlevania: Nocturne discourse is stupid

It’s not that Castlevania Nocturne is a perfect show. Not by any means. It has a lot to criticize.

But it also has a lot to praise and grapples with historical AND still relevant issues unapologetically in a way you rarely see in media.

And yet discourse has been so, so stupid.

Why are there gays?

People angry about gay characters, as if vampires aren’t inherently gay as hell. Look at them! Do vampires scream “tough, gender conforming dude bros”? Or Christian good boys?

No! They’ve always been gender bending, rich and bitchy little deviants who will fuck and eat anything.

Annette bad!

People upset a black lady character exists and is allowed to be angry after having escaped literal chattel slavery.

Even though she isn’t some pandering palette swap, she is organically relevant to a story set in the French Revolution dealing with themes of oppression and class.

Richter is a weak soy boy bitch! The downfall of masculinity! Other fragile bullshit!

People upset our protagonist man has realistic PTSD from watching his mother be violently killed right in front of him as a small child.

He represses himself, goes with the flow, and doesn’t lead for himself. Still he is brave and skilled until he is triggered and set on a path to rediscover his agency and true potential. A story of overcoming not with physical strength alone, but with spiritual and mental strength as well.

What do they call such a fleshed our character?

“A little bitch who needs women to boss him around”.

I just…?

Is media literacy THAT friggin dead?

Is it really?

Or is everyone only half-watching the show while on their phones?

I can’t even begin to explain how demoralizing it is to see so many people so upset about mere aesthetics while completely missing the point.

In conclusion…

Nocturne’s pacing is whack and the 3D animation can be choppy at times, which is all the more jarring when the animation gets smooth and gorgeous. Almost as if they’re skimping out on some of those other scenes to save budget for the big set pieces.

Still worth the watch.

There’s an Aztec vampire that can turn into a giant feathered snake and is generally against all factions and just wants to live his best life and I never thought my werewolf-named self would relate to a vampire of all things, but I love him.

Sorry, Richter.

[dentiststoothfairy]

🟢 𝐍𝐀𝐈𝐁 𝐒𝐔𝐁𝐄𝐃𝐀𝐑 🟢

"𝙸'𝚖 𝚜𝚘 𝚝𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚍."

"𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘰 𝘵𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘥 "

𝙎𝙡𝙚𝙚𝙥𝙮 / 𝙁𝙡𝙪𝙛𝙛𝙮 𝙝𝙘

𝙂𝙉 𝙍𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧

*＊✿❀○❀✿＊*

- This poor man.

- He has been kiting for the last how many matches? He's lost count.

- He's got the biggest damn migraine and has definitely become snappier throughout the day

- I think he'd sort of be kind of bitter especially if it's a cursed loss streak that he can't seem to get quite right. Curse those hunters and their detention!

- The thing is, Naib is a soldier at heart. He's not the type of person to bitch and whine.

- He's like a cat. He'll repress his 'sickness' or frustrations in silence. But my god the glare a poor soul will GET from this man if you so much as look at him the wrong way.

- Anyways. Naturally you know something is wrong and he denies it. he'll probably act tough for the rest of the day until it's just the two of you.

- He adores your touch. Especially when you slowly smooth your hands over his tense muscles.

- pester him about it. He can't say no to you for too long.

- "I'm so tired... Idiots can't kite." You cracked him. Well done. Best thing to do for him right now? A massage, some TLC and some sweet words. As long as you're the one who's got their hands all over him, he really doesn't care what do you.

- Listen. I'm not saying feed him but no that's absolutely what I'm saying. Anything. It'll help not only keep his mouth shut, but it'll also fill his stomach while you fill his heart of love.

- a few cheeky neck kisses couldn't hurt either could it?

- If anyone tries to mention that he seems to be in a better mood after spending a few hours with you? He'll just shrug his newly loosened shoulders.

[marie-scary]

saw someone do this with Glee, so i decided to try my swing at yellowjackets as Grey’s Anatomy characters🙂‍↕️

(only from seasons like 1-10is. bc that show (as a fan) has no business being that long) also most of these are crack😭🙂‍↕️

Shauna: Meredith Grey, slutty mistress, need i say more?

Lottie: Jo Wilson, they’re both goofy and dorky, and if i remember correctly when jo and alex were drinking she talked about stealing something. (i’ll rewatch and confirm this🤝🏼)

Misty: Cristina Yang, one of the twisted sisters. Cristina is very cutthroat and i feel like the misty killing jessica robert’s is pretty cutthroat. also yang is just super fucking smart, and so is misty. (i would like to note cristina yang would hate misty)

Javi: Andrew Deluca, just bc he’s sweet and he dies in the end. like i’m sorry bro but yeah😭

Tai: Owen Hunt, my fav sleepwalking adulterers <3 no but the way they both deal with trauma is so funny. like no let’s not deal with it. lets repress it and act like im not the problem (tai is not the problem tho, women are never the problem)(i actually hate owen hunt. fuck that bitch ass ginger (this is just a slide at owen. other than that ginger women {bc i don’t fuck with the male specimen} are so hot. thank you for existing))

Laura Lee: April Kepner, do we even have to ask that? i love me some bible thumpers. also i like how their environment challenges/strengthens their faith. holy women for the win ❤️🙏🏼

Mari: Lexie Grey, honestly i’m still not sure about this one, but idk i think they’re both so cute and goofy and bc mari is pit girl and lexie died in the woods😔

Gen: Callie Torres, gives off mean vibes but it’s lowkey a cutie. but also a total bad fucking ass

Ben: Arizona Robbins, twinnsss😝🤞🏼(arizona got one up on him with the prosthetic and being able to be openly gay tho😔)

Akilah: Izzie Stevens, something about hallucinating shit that isn’t there is crazy. but idk what’s crazier. hallucinating having a pet rat but it’s actually been dead the whole time or hallucinating fucking your dead ex-lover/patient/someone you stole a heart for?? idk chat, shits wild asf😭

Van: George O’Malley, only the good parts bc those parts george was sweet and cute and all fun go lucky.

Travis: Preston Burke, arrogant, narcissistic, sexist, fucking douchebags, god complex’s 😒(but also burke, like travis, had his good moments. i will say i do favor travis’ character more tho. bc he’s a kid and that’s understandable. but at his big fucking age burke knows better (okay i’m sorry let me stop before i get heated😭) anyways yeah)

Nat: Alex Karev/Amelia Shepherd, let’s be honest here, alex is so nat, when it comes to the brooding, dickhead, boyfriend, who came from a tough childhood and swears he’s tough as shit just bc he boxes. but is a fucking puppy dog and follows you around and laughs super hard at shit you say even tho you just said that persons shirt looked weird. she’s also very Amelia coded. and yes bc of the drugs and the daddy issues with seeing him get shot. maybe not the same circumstances or relationship but it played a big role in her life.

Jackie: Derek Shepherd, let’s be so fucking fr rn. of course jackie would be charming, annoying, stuck up, pretentious, McDreamy, loyal to a fault, himbo man. “it’s a beautiful day to save lives” headass😭im sorry but i totally see it. also they both die in crazy ways after both surviving a plane crash. if anyone needs to be studied, it’s them.

[theyapper0]

How does Lute feel about what happened between her and Vaggie in your AU?

Lute is a commander dedicated to her cause, dedicated to Heaven, everything she knew and believed in was taught to Vaggie by HER. Vaggie was practically an EXTENSION of herself (both literally and figuratively)

I DO think that Lute cared for Vaggie, I think before Vaggie fell, they both cared for each other IMMENSELY. They literally did everything together even outside of training and stuff. BUT.....

My Lute is a very................. unemotional person. Like, she's cool to hang around with and stuff but, she's kinda like your emotionally distant dad. Her and Vaggie were close and I think Vaggie's 'betrayal' (that's how she sees it) really did hurt but since she's not one to want to or even have TIME to think about those feelings, Lute on the outside is cold and unaffected.

Okay this is long so rest is under the cut 😋

I think she tried reason with herself that this was BOUND to happen. 'Vaggie has always been too nice', 'she was never cut out for this anyway', 'She only got as far as she did by sheer dumb luck', stuff like that.

She tells herself this but on the inside, this shit hurts like a BITCH!!!!!!! Because FUCK!!!!!!!! They were each others' everything at one point!!!!! (In a familiar sense) Lute literally taught her eveything she knew!!!! She was her mentor!!!!! They LOVED EACH OTHER!!!!!!! And it fucking HURTS to know Vaggie had gone against Heaven and had broken one of their rules that Lute KNEW that she ALWAYS followed.

I imagine that sometimes, during the RARE instances that Lute finds herself with nothing to do, she thinks about Vaggie. She would wonder what made that Extermination Day any different from the THOUSANDS they've done before? What about one child made Vaggie do a complete one 180? What made Vaggie spare a Sinner?

(What would have happened if Lute pretended not to see Vaggie do it?)

But it happened and it was done. Lute HAD to de-wing Vaggie, she HAD to leave her in Hell. It was punishment. Heaven doesn't do second chances when it comes to the exorcists, it just doesn't work like that (Lute never questioned why).

And you can totally skip this part if you didn't read my fanfic (I wouldn't blame you for not LOL)

(SPOILERS BTW‼️‼️‼️)

Towards the 2nd of the fic, during the Extermination when Vaggie and Charlie reunite and Lute approaches them, Lute has on full Exorcist Angel armor obvi so the others can't see her face or how she's feeling IT'S A METAPHOR BC IM SO ARTSY FARTSY!!!!!!

Lute puts up these walls so no one, not even Vaggie, knows how she truly feels, she does this because of her position, so it makes sense for her walls to personify in her ARMOR!!

In the fanfic, the entire scene, Lute is paying NO MIND to Charlie, her attention is on Vaggie the whole time, which should be concerning as she's a literal exorcist and the princess of Hell is standing right in front of her.

It's a moment of weakness for Lute. She doesn't say anything but it was important that she saw Vaggie. She knew Vaggie would survive in Hell, not just because (at that point, what they all still believed) Angels couldn't die, but also Because, despite all the things Lute tried to convince herself about Vaggie after she was banished, she knew that Vaggie was tough, that she could handle anything.

The surprise wasn't seeing Vaggie, it was seeing Vaggie, narrow eyed (single eyed, because of her), and with her spear pointed at Lute.

Lute was now an enemy to Vaggie.

So Vaggie was an enemy to Lute.

TLDR; Lute did and STILL DOES care for Vaggie and she was SUPER upset about Vaggie sparing a Sinner and she does wish things turned out differently but has repressed her emotions so much that all she could reason within herself is that Vaggie got what was coming to her for betraying Heaven and after seeing her fight on the side of Hell, she understands that they're enemies for all of eternity

[till-death-us-do-part]

Have you been able to find the booklet or any lyric information for Philiae’s Scapegod? I’ve been working on transcribing the lyrics manually but some are tough

Hey! I did not find the actual booklet (as of yet at least) but I did find the lyrics from an official source (their official now defunct website circa 2004), some of them are missing certain stuff, like repetition, background words etc, but with having these in general you can fill in the blanks really easily when listening, I hope this helps! I'll update this if I find the proper booklet <3

Putting under the cut the lyrics copied exactly as they are on the site:

1. GOLDEN GOD what do you think we come around what do you think | you hear that sound what do you think | how do you think to use the nose what do you think | how do you like to overdose the missing link | what do you think i justify myself and i | i’m not that guy what do you think i love that lie | how do you think i try to deny what about you | i’m like a bitch i’m like a queen how do you do? || they always take a lot of what they give: drugs | i’m on… || what does it mean to be a drug what does it mean | it was the inc. that called it rock your slates ain’t clean | the jesus freak that called his dad the G.O.D. | he is a product that I call S.H.I.T. ||

2. FOR THE DECEASED all proud and pretty people | how mouldy can you get? | when the son breastfeeds the daughter there’s mud inside the bed | with flowers on his back he’s trying to feed the death | hides the hickeys on his neck | the blood it tastes like ash | ”didn’t it?” | all their warm and slender bodies | filled with a cold and lonely soul | wanted the white and spooncooked love | to crawl inside another hole | they never ever understand | what by “sacrifice“ is meant | and searched theirselves inside a kiss to repress that they live | “I bet right now: you don’t know if you wanna kill me - or fuck me! i wish i could believe | we go to a better place | but science has damned my innocence | and now I damn your faith” | splinters of assurance | strong enough to devastate | see i’ve to discover they’re not strong enough to free our hate | whatever’s lost is found today | tomorrow's dreams assimilate | an empty crib of burning hay | no more the need to medicate | delete the ground under their feet | to reveal what lies beneath | the guilty one dies on his knees | the head in hope, the heart deceased | we’ll never die | it’s already done | we’ll never cry | for the deceased son

3. HATEGRENADE fuck revolte and fuck anti | fuck your life, fuck suicide | fuck the pope but fuck divine | fuck your judgement, fuck your lies |fuck religion, priests and fate | fuck suppression, fuck constraint | fuck real love and fuck blind hate | fuck this song, fuck hategrenade | fuck the holy, fuck them hard | fuck you satan, fuck you god | fuck the fraud and fuck the truth | fuck the me and fuck the you | fuck the vice, I rape to fuck | in my heaven is no god | fuck the people’s hollow soul | fuck sex and drugs and rock n roll || doors down, fuck you | born into this world tonight | hate | the last innocent child || I made my sins but are they just seven? I tried to resist, o lord I can’t stand them | oh no I can’t oh no I can’t stand them | I’m trying, I’m craving, I’m praying for heaven || learn to hate | hategrenade | learn to hate

4. CRUCIFIXION DAY someday i’ll escape to space | searching for a bitter place | someday i will find a way stop breathing your nonsense all night all day | even blind apes can see | i’m already dead and already free | all the hollows are taught to be to be deceased and dead as me | the “lie“ in beLIEve may save you from your selfmade hell | someday i’ll give the startshot for the last hour | maybe today, maybe right now | the taste of faith is not enough to swallow | rest in pieces in your WTC’s | finally god wasn’t true | see the elected dying with you || see the stars | refuse so hard | they deny the descent of god || slaves give birth to slaves again in your beautiful “master & servant“ world | cut your teenage wrist to end your subhuman creature sustaining world || in today’s tomorrow is no god | morning has come | it’s already day | the sun feels numb | he’s not on his way | on the black grass | dead bodies shot | where are the stars now | where is my god?

5. SCAPEGOD the exit flag is furled | the clock counts five to twelve | the baptized son in a hater’s world | is never strong enough to keep it well unfurled | we laid down when there was nothing left to scar in our childish-discouraged hearts | one day we fold our hands to pray unto || the exit flag is furled | the clock counts twelve | to hate this world | to kill ourselves | the scapegod flag is… || “father what have i become, the hate i feel is almost fun!“ | we were right when we were singing songs of love about a world high up above | the real and true below was never enough | could never be enough | homogenicly raised to score and fit | our strangled soul had enough of it | now we just don’t give a shit || all heil, now it’s furled | for a wretched scapegod world | pure silk all soaked with dirt | the scapegod flag is… || we live fast and we die young | we torture and suffer on our run | this is what we all deserve | legal through the barrel of a gun | we live high, we’re on the trip | we’re the scum of adam’s rib | we commit suicide or assassination | we’re dying to breath salvation | the hate I feel is almost fun || fuck you!

6. FOR THE BELOVED this feeling hurts like hell | it’s almost physical | cause rationality is too vulnerable | who sees goes blind | who gives is bleeding | who loves will find || we’re dry like biblepages | hollow like a soul | billions of white coloured cases | there is no tomorrow || don’t think i feel | don’t think i’m real | i walk through decayed crowds | masses of moaning vacuum holes | automatic and cold | death remote controlled | leave me in emptyness | i’m beyond and love is dead | and love is dead || we’re dry like biblepages | till eden isn’t shown | billions of white coloured cases | tomorrow i’m alone | memories are crossing my way | like shooting stars in a dead white ray | reattached emotions and reflexions | of the past lessons | i see masses of slaves (but no master) | i feel infinite hate (but no ventile) | i got boundless love without an aim | but to make me feel || you set the needle | i know you needed me | i regard reality stealing the content of my fantasies | this song means nothing more | than a dream about one love | that lets me cry for someone | for the frail and scarred | this song means nothing more | than a dream about one love | that lets me cry for someone | for the beloved

7. BEAUTIFUL LIE || cause i’m a liar there’s no desire | a lie | there is no fate | yes, no, right, wrong || we are so fresh | so very clean | swallowing all secretions | and licking all our queens | yes, no, right and wrong || we’re only well | when somebody’s god | only having fun | when somebody’s not | yes, no, right and wrong || there’s no fate in our direction | just the will of an erection ||

8. WHITE SUN you taught me not to feel and how to see all the shadows in my truth | how could I’ve done it cause you knew it’s all so relative when you want it absolute | love’s an insect dying in slo-mo | recycled and remote controlled | inserting ‘bout a thousand hands to create a feedback in the soul || I’m like a million and you, you are just like one | I loved a spitting image resigned to your white sun || we are waiting to die some day but we are not yet on the way | a million points of view through hours like delays | i love you, i wish i could explain that i hate you anyway | there’s nothing left to take from me | not even the fucking – responsibility || hate myself for loving you | love myself for hating you | i’m like a million and you’re just like one

9. FOR THE HOLLOW come on | in times we wrote these words we were living like you yet | if you ever read these lines we’re still but already dead | we always tried to avoid responsibility and guilt | but now we’re getting on top of it | on the top of it || when I’m not your favorite model on the covers | then I’m the untrue virgin denying lovers || what was the eden tree without the snake | what was jesus without pilate? It’s just this death we live it’s just what we create | we always tried to avoid responsibility and dead white lines | cause the world she whispered “give it to me like it was for the last time!” || I’m not your face of indifference to the others | if you need a scapegoat you blame on one another | if we need a satan we just blame it on us | if we need a god we just pray to us |

10. SEVEN MILE PLATEAUX what comes behind the end | is it numb like under the sea when the whole world gets undone | the scratched mirror jaw cries to overthrow | gain the steeples | sweat the pills | revive your own jane doe | on a seven mile plateaux || never kill the world for you | tumbling puppets in a row | i don’t care, i’m walking on my seven mile plateaux | never kill the world for you | push the maggots in their hole | i don’t care, i’m walking on my seven mile plateaux || when we are feeling fine we sell you our believe | when we are feeling bad we push you on your knees | before you fainted through your nostrils i saw god | the crucifix is turning to the pain you had ignored | you’re feeling so adored || never kill the world for you | keep on walking on my seven mile plateaux ||

11. PLEXUS the wasted generation is the right complication for the righteous swollen men | rule the roost away | refuse the nerves and cut them to sway in the wind of pollen strands | never try to escape | never try to be great || yeah motherfucker you‘re nothing to me | trying to be satanic? | trying to be the new christ? | you got a mind to hate but a heart to feel | as long as you’re mechanical it ain’t alright || billionaires corrupting nations | brats bored on vacation | love statistic’s low and down | devil versus adonai | begging for my decay | i’m the king without the divine crown || yeah motherfucker you’re nothing | instead of loving you | they will cut your head off | instead of crowning you | they will push your ass down ||

12. SCARRED TEENAGE WRIST i saw a black rose in the garden | her sight gave me the creeps | although i cut her stalk | she pricked my heart and cracked | today i lie to you | tomorrow you will die for me | yes i had an unrequited love | but that’s not everything about me || can’t you see | this is me | i’m signing the contract with the enemy | can’t you see | the unguilty boy i’ve been | i’m signing the contract with the enemy || from his eyes like a shot | with a smile and hard as hell | he forced me to recognize | the begetting was a sacrifice | today i lie to you | tomorrow you will die for me | no i don’t know much about my father | but that’s not everything about me || today i lie to you | tomorrow you’ll die for me | may i’ll make a deceitful decision | today i lie to you | tomorrow you’ll die for me | would you even understand | what i’ve been elected to? ||

[monsamborabutterfly]

Okay as every week here are my thoughts on this week's of EP and oh boy do I have thoughts lol

1) atom you dirty little shit I hope karma fucking gets you good. Zero empathy for him. I get it realizing you are queer can be tough & so can be sleeping with someone for the first time but falsely accusing Boston like that is horrible.

Title I think you're a great actor but stop playing such fucking annoying people please and thank you🙏🙏

2) the fact that all his so called friends just went with it without even thinking about it shows me that they all fucking suck. I hope atom will tell the truth and they'll apologize to Boston for once.

3) sorry to all my topmew babes out there but my god do mew and boing have chemistry. I want book and mond in a show together so bad now.

ALSO TOPMEWBOING angry sex give it to me

4) boing is a shady little bitch but God I'm living for it!!

5) low-key hope we see sand and boing kiss!! I love my sandray but the "not me ghost shipping part" of me would be fucking delighted to see it ngl.

6) oh daddy dan...hun I love you but it's time for you to go babes

7) sandray angst hurt so bad but I believe in them. They will make it🤡🤞

8) NOW TO MY FAVOURITE PART OF THIS EPISODE:

Oh BostonNick. This is everything I wanted and so much more than I hoped for. And it was perfect in my opinion. From Nicks pic on Boston's phone to them talking to them making love. I like that it wasn't dragged out. I like that it was so very BostonNick. I cried. Multiple times lol I hope they are allowed to be together now and won't have to go through too much shit anymore. I can't wait for next week's BostonNick in love era

9) I'm glad they're showing ray going to rehab. I don't think we've ever seen something like this in any bl before. I love it!!

10) last but not least I wanna talk about neo and marks acting in the talking scene. I've already seen some shitty takes. And yeah maybe I'm biased but I think they're talented as fuck and some people seem to forget who Nick and Boston are. Mark didn't overact. Nick is just a highly emotional person. He feels things so deeply and he's so in love with Boston it makes fucking sense for him to full on sob cause everything breaks out of him. And Boston cried too but he's very emotionally repressed. He's terrified to show emotions. He's not the type to full on cry in public. I mean we got more emotions from him than I thought we'd get. It was very fitting and I'm sure it's exactly how Jojo and everyone else wanted the scene to be.

Okay done ranting now! Great episode as always!

[kimbapisnotsushi]

hey all welcome to me rating hq schools based on how homophobic they are on completely arbitrary-not-arbitrary rules LET’S GET IT

(i feel like i need to clarify that high score = not at all homophobic and that low score = disgustingly homophobic hope that helps!!)

karasuno: 1000000/100000 i’m including BOTH teams in this to represent the whole school boys’ vbc i don’t even think i have to cite reasons BUT girls’ vbc i just know that poor little underclassman had a heart attack when michimiya grabbed her face like that

seijoh: i’m going to take off a point right off the bat bc i wanted to deck oikawa so bad the first time i saw him. 9/10 the day is saved because kyoutani and yahaba put so much yearning into that one panel and also because kindaichi has multiple breakdowns over what kageyama means to him every few days or so. kunimi would commit gay-on-gay crime but i’ll allow that he has the right to

date tech: i know for a fact we’ve all been kogane at some point in our lives and also i’m pretty sure all the first and second years were in love with moniwa at some point. onagawa’s nickname is pantalones. aone hyper focuses on the aces of rival teams. having nametsu as a manager is mlmwlw solidarity. 4/10 i took points away because futakuchi is a little bitch and isn’t afraid to show it and would accidentally come across as homophobic in the process when he isn’t

shiratorizawa: see this is tough bc tendou reads all that shounen and semi is SO gender and probably holes himself up in the dorm writing song lyrics about having the biggest crush on tendou and also goshiki and shirabu are obviously pining for their upperclassmen but ushijima has some SERIOUS repression going on and washijou looks like he’d say that being gay is a disease BUT i do think he’s open to learning so like. 6.5/10?

johzenji: they have cute nicknames for each other AND i think they’d kiss the homies good night. also terushima fell in love with daichi within the span of fifteen seconds. 7/10 i took away points because they think saying “no homo” while holding hands stops it from being homo

kakugawa: komaki, asamushi, and minamida all rotate the brain cell between them. they all look like middle schoolers next to hyakuzawa to the point where i keep forgetting they’re not. komaki does the glasses push so i’m giving extra for that. 7.5/10 because when hyakuzawa comes out to them they freak out (out of concern and trying to figure out how to best handle it!) and then freak hyakuzawa out so everyone is just freaking out for a full five minutes

wakunan: nakashima and tabi deserved SO MUCH MORE also i love tabi’s hair so 11/10 the extra 1 is for their break down

nekoma: 1000000.5/10 mostly because i’m biased but hello???? we have DIVERSITY here we can go rivals to lovers AND childhood friends to lovers AND friends to lovers all in one team. nekomata is self-explanatory. the .5 is because i already mentioned before that lev would be such a top tier ally if he wasn’t already swooning over kenma and yaku

fukurodani: akaashi will go on tangents about how historians will say they were just best friends. whenever yukie and kaori cuddle in front of everyone konoha makes gagging noises bc of how sickeningly sweet they are. it’s funny but i’ll be taking points off for that and also because bokuto once got the school computers infected with a virus trying to google “two guys making out”. 2/10

shinzen & ubugawa: i’m putting them together bc daiki and masaki are in love and eri and mako are in love. they go on double dates all the time and also chigaya is a bro he gets trusted with all the secret “dude i think i’m _____” talks and never tells a single soul about them 100/100

itachiyama: iizuna is the mlm awakening at itachiyama. iizuna was SAKUSA’S awakening. komori and sakusa fight because they say can’t both be the gay cousin. whenever iizuna interrupts their bickering they call him homophobic. 9/10 i subtracted a point because their uniforms make me want to claw my eyes out

nohebi: we all know daishou had a thing for kuroo way back when so like. also have you seen hiroo’s hair? those bangs are emo as hell what even is that. 8/10 because they’ll be homophobic against other teams in the middle of the goddamn game to bait them and the only reason they haven’t lost MORE points for that is bc i love kuguri

inarizaki: -117478492/10 i’ll fight miya atsumu myself. i don’t think he’s homophobic he just pisses me off sometimes

kamomedai: they get 475828929392/??? just because i love them so much

mujinazaka: usuri instills fear and admiration in me. also unann and mami are basically an old divorced couple who want to get back together but don’t know how to. honda probably gets shit on a lot for having his whole entire name sounding like car dealerships. ezo is the only one with a brain cell and for that i’ll give 8.5/10

niiyama: maiko doesn’t even know there are labels for it she just thinks girls are pretty and she’d kill for them 500/10

tsubakihara: the headbands are really cute and i like their motto 100/100

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

You know, like, 90% of my ships are directly your fault lol You just make them so damn compelling! Like the witcher, i've seen the 1st season and i'm trying to watch the 2nd one, but honestly i just find it kind of... ok? There are good things, but it just feels so... a man's show about a manly man made for MEN. and those to me are usually just, like, meh. But damn if I'm not reading geraskier fics becase of you lol

Ohhh I just sent you an ask yesterday about the witcher, I hope it didn't come off as me badmouthing the show! I was thinking about it and got worried about how I said it. I know you like it and I wouldn't do that, promise. I just meant it in the sense of how it's funny to read fics about characters without necessarily having seen the show they're on, just based on posts about how good their chemistry is

no worries, i wasn't offended at all! twn season 2 is... well... let's say that it's flawed. some parts of it are impeccable, such as geralt and ciri's relationship and jaskier's songs, but they turned eskel into a tree for fuck's sake. they killed roach. for that alone i would throw hands.

the fandom has strong feelings about s2 and most of them aren't great. and yes, there's a certain "this show was made for gamer bros" vibe to some parts, but it's far from entirely like that. i haven't watched vol II of season three yet due to being in a good omens haze, but vol I was wonderful, character-wise. from a technical standpoint it was also quite flawed, but if you're there for the characters it was delightful.

and while geralt is definitely a Tough Manly Man with Repressed Emotions, he's never one of those guys. he risks his life to save people, he's grumpy but kind, he regards rape as a serious crime and treats women with respect, he's endlessly gentle and supportive with his daughter, he refuses to kill except to protect others... and he does it all while being a grumpy, sarcastic bitch. i love him SO much.

and of coure i love jaskier, who joey put his entire pussy into portraying as a queer poly man who falls in love with everyone he lays eyes on, who's a prissy little brat but also endlessly kind and giving. i love how he's never scared of or intimidated by geralt no matter how the bastard growls, and i love that he's the only one who ever asks geralt what he wants.

ugh, they fuck me up so bad. i'm glad to have infected you. wish i had a blog badge for that lmao. since you're reading fic, have you read the accidental warlord series by @inexplicifics? it's like, the geraskier fic for me lol, i've read it like a dozen times or so by now.

[sedgewick-gayble]

Okay, so, here's my idea/theory/whatever you wanna call it: What if Fish only really started dating his girlfriend as a way to distract himself from the fact that he was attracted to men/Wes.

Hear me out, I'm not saying he's not Bi or that he's not at least somewhat attracted to women. What I'm saying is, what if he started to realise that he was also attracted to men, so as a way to hide/deny this, he started dating someone he didn't really have feelings for/someone who didn't really have feelings for him.

From the very limited we've seen (or rather, what we've heard) about Fish's girlfriend, we know at least two things; 1) She likes to be taken out on weekend nights and gets upset when she's not, and 2) She apparently "settled" for Fish's face. Now, this is incredibly limited information, but I think we can garner at least a little bit from it.

In relation to 1, it's less about the girlfriend's reaction to not being taken out and more about Fish's reaction to how she feels. "My girl's already upset I can't take her out weekend nights." That doesn't really make it sound like Fish was looking forward to taking her out or that hes also upset about it, more that he's just upset he has to deal with her being unhappy about it.

In relation to 2, there's at least two points where we can kinda judge her feelings for/thoughts about Fish, namely "She's gonna dust off when she sees my face." And "She settled for my face. Now it's worse." This kinda feels like it's hinting that Fish's girlfriend is with him less because she likes who he is as a person and more for superficial reasons. We know these reasons are not his looks because she "settled" for them, and rather than be concerned that Fish got injured, is gonna be more upset that his face is "worse." If I had to guess, maybe his social standing?

Maybe she was the kinda girl who wanted to date a tough guy in a gang and she just settled for Fish cause she figured that, even if she didn't consider him attractive, he was still a tough gang member, only to realise later on that Fish's line of work meant he couldn't take her out when she wanted to go out. Or hell, maybe she got involved for the same reason Fish did; to hide a part of her that she knew wouldn't be socially accepted, and to give off the outward appearance of being "normal".

Another point/idea I had is based on something you mentioned. That being, the fact that Fish is more willing to be open sexually around men than women. Like you said, Fish is possibly very vanilla with women outside of very basic things, possibly repressing or hiding a lot of the parts of himself that he thinks women would find undesirable, both sexually as well as just basic parts of who he is. But with men, specifically Wes, he'd probably be more willing to let those parts be seen.

I'm not saying Fish's girlfriend is awful or a bitch, or even that Fish doesnt actually like her. I think he does care for her, and that's why he doesn't talk about her within the gang to keep her safe, thus why Wes only knows her as "The Mystery Girl."

I'm just saying that, by the sounds of it, she seems to be in the relationship for the wrong reasons, just like Fish.

So i feel like this be true in the sense of his relationship being a bearded relationship (something meant to distract the people around him from his queerness (also think this was what mitzi and atlas's marriage was but UNRELATED)) as well as it being a partnership that he's gotten himself into as nothing more than a last ditch attempt to convince himself that he's straight and, at the least, give him something romantic and sexual to focus on that wasnt his festering yearning for his work partner

From what i can tell from the very limited information i have, both him and his girlfriend aren't toxic in the way that they're hurting eachother, or even really dislike eachother, but they're both in it for more superficial reasons and a want to achieve a fantasy (fishs being a normal, heteronormative life, and his gfs likely being getting to date the cool dangerous gang member, as you said)

[mortiium]

     𝐰𝐡𝐨  𝐢𝐬  ..  𝒔𝒍𝒐𝒂𝒏𝒆 𝒐'𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒚 ? 

tip  of  the  iceberg. 

full  name :   sloane  dierdre  o’malley

age / dob :   twenty - four  /  june  sixth  ( gemini  ass  bitch ) 

gender / pronouns :   cis woman  /  she + her

sexuality :   queer 

species :   human - hunter , empath

dwelling :   locke row ,  spark park

occupation :   clerk at age of vintage 

in  a  word. 

ardent. convincing. headstrong. sharp.  stubborn. loyal to a fault. selectively apathetic. tough. thrill seeking. snarky. prideful. thick - skinned.

strangely laid back. attention starved vs attention disgusted. complex. complains about things before she's even tried them. bit as a child, not really above it now.

scraping your knuckles on the sidewalk, wedging yourself between a rock and a hard place, playing a never ending game of catchup, middle child syndrome, balancing relationships on a thumbtack, you don’t recognize yourself anymore, growing up too fast, your legs were never long enough, broken hairbrushes, diy piercings, rolling down a hill, weightless, flipping a coin and changing your face, wearing shoes that are too big and hand me downs that are too old, kicking up dirt, mud pies 

let’s  talk  about  sloane. 

sloane is the middle o'malley sibling. born just a couple years apart each, sean is her older brother and fia is their younger sister. her parents divorced when she was in elementary school - and things were difficult financially for the family ever since.

sloane's older brother, sean, began work as a hunter almost by accident - picking up odd jobs from the men that used to hang around their father's apartment. with the three siblings living in a cramped trailer in spark park, sean saw it as taking care of his family in a way his alcoholic father wasn't. sloane resents her father to this day for this.

sloane's abilities as an empath were never something she shared, except with her sister fia whom she shared a room with. they scared her, more than anything. the things she sometimes felt she could do. for so long, all sloane knew was a general lingering fear.

that terror would come to a head the night they all lost sean. it was a job gone wrong - the young adult now pushed beyond his limits with no abilities to protect him and no proper training to fall back on. that was the day sloane vowed to pick up where her brother had left off. to never allow anyone to take anything from her again.

so she's a hunter. and .. she's kind of really good at it. there is a rage that lives in sloane that is near primal and never quenched. i mean .. like. she's a girl. so.

doesn't really acknowledge she's an empath because it is unsettling to her. tries really hard to convince herself other people's emotions don't overwhelm her. also always trying to make people laugh and lighten the mood so she's receiving positive feedback. parties a lot when not on a job ( tbh also when on a job ) perhaps because it dulls her senses. perhaps she has a big reckoning coming with that little detail.

besides having a strange and kind of fucked life, she does like to have fun and friends and hobbies, etc. etc. she skateboards and raves. steals things to feel something. etc.

repressed the hell out of everything that has ever gone bad in her life because she's too busy being drained by other people's emotions to feel her own fr fr.

hi  sexy.  yes  ...  u  reading  this  ...  i’m  alli  and  this  is  sloane.  tldr  she’s  really  chaotic and quite frankly a problem.  i love her.

[chewbokachoi]

Boka Commentary - Sublimation

Well, here it is! The first of the reflection posts.

No real organization to these things/posts | This is definitely a place where if there is any form of constructive critique you wish to provide, please do! (I accept it on the AO3 pages themselves, but if you aren't comfortable doing that there, that's totally understandable).

General thoughts: -I enjoyed writing it! Despite all my whining and bitching. -This was definitely a piece that was above my skill level, in the end, I think. What I wanted to do with it vs what I ended up doing with it did not line up. -Song title chapters was a mistake RIP -I’m proud of the title and the sequel title (Deposition) damn it -I regret how I characterized/handled Bi-Han at the beginning

The story wound up way more meandering than I intended. Definitely meant for there to be angst, but I feel like it was laid on too heavily. And if it wasn’t angsty and meandering, it felt like it was going in circles.

The Enenra’s motivations were a tough thing to figure out. I ended up settling on it’s what you’d get if you got a sentient pit-bull with separation anxiety mixed with an Aussie shepherd that lost its herd. It doesn’t mean to actually cause harm–it’s just very focused on what it wants. You could argue it’s a selfish creature, but it’s also a demon, so by demon-logic it’s probably an incredibly nice and benevolent thing. It didn’t succeed in killing Liu Kang or Kuai Liang and it didn’t try again, so why is everyone so upset and yelling at it? (Kind of like a dog that peed on the carpet yet everybody’s yelling at it like it killed the pet rabbit.)

Regarding this piece being beyond my skill level, though–lots of things. The pacing and what I tried to establish for ‘immediate’ (within Sublimation) and ‘later’ (Deposition and then some). Characterization. The things the characters deal with. Structure in general. It really was a bit too ambitious for my ability, and despite my planning, it still became difficult to put together. 

Versus, say, what’s developing with Rain’s side of the story. It’s more or less entirely plotted out and what I’ve sat down to write and work with hasn’t been as unwieldy. Same with when I was working on Good Dog (which had less planning). Even Deposition is proving to be easier to pin down. Honestly, I think this one just had too much riding on it, so the pacing just exploded out like toothpaste.

There was also a lot going on with the other characters. Whether or not that was conveyed…ehhhhhhh not the way I had hoped. Even if  this is Part 1 to a series, I feel I could have done more to make it stand better on its own.

I’m sure there’s going to be disagreements with some of  the characterization, which loops back to establishing things for later (or as the kids say these days–”skill issue!” on my part, which is fair). Sareena likes to build things because she feels guilty about all the destruction she caused. Kaui Liang ended up way more pathetic than I meant to have him be because he’s also repressing all the trauma he’s had to deal with–including being rejected by his mother for not being a cryomancer. I feel I did okay with Tomáš's characterization.

Anyway. That’s my rough commentary on it! Thank you for your time.