#((u ever just))

[bugboybuck]

the evan buckley who willingly hurt himself so that his parents would dote on him and give him the attention he craves so badly is absolutely eating it up now that his boyfriend is indulging his silliness while still lovingly taking care of him and all his needs 😭😭😭

buck doesnt have to hurt himself for attention any more he has absolutely every drop of love and doting he could possibly need and he can fill himself up on it every day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[fihyn]

every time I commission another artist there’s this jumpy anxiety in me about not coming across as shady with payment so at every paragraph break I’m over-analyzing when is a good time to ask what payment method they use (paypal or w/e) and when in the process they usually accept the money it’s like fighting with a dog going “pay? pay now? good ready pay now pay important. ready to pay! here money good money pay for art. pay for art good!” and I am scolding the dog with a rolled newspaper like “not yet you also have to not be weird about it!!! remember basic social convention!!”

[shlebbie]

Is it me or is anyone feeling super gay today?? 🌈✨

[snickerdoodlles]

[blackwoolncrown]

I get it, I really do, but I feel like ppl w decision paralysis related to Gazans are also suffering from a kind of non-malignant egotism

"who do I decide to give it to? everyone needs help! I can't help them all!"

You're not the only person they're asking!!!!!

If you choose one person to help that day, a bunch of other ppl choose others

stopping to overthink your inflated importance as an individual versus one in many is what's giving you paralysis

the more you burden yourself as an incapable hero the less you all act as a group-- which is the exact answer you're looking for

fkn close your eyes, scroll on OOB and donate to whoever you click on first

you're not god, it's not your job to save everyone

JUST DO SOMETHING

[hinamie]

10 years later

[nihilaraarchived]

❛ just relax and let me take care of you. ❜

sunday was such an odd addition to his, and mimi's little ship. but most certainly not an unwelcomed one. his feline companion was great; but his presence reminded kuro how badly he missed human companionship. and of course it didn't help that he had a terrible habit of losing track of time. maybe that was why things had shifted so quickly between them.

the halovian straddles his lap now, and undoes the buttons of his shirt, as he gently tells him to take it easy, to relax, to... easy enough.

" awfully forward of you. " letting him pull away each layer, till his chest was finally bare between them. it's only then that kuro reaches for both his wrists. bringing both their hands up, till sunday's palms brush the line of his throat. " i like it. but if you want to really take care of me... " a shallow breath, gaze lowered to some place between them. " you should start here. "

𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[lemongogo]

life of regret

[skellydun]

I don't think I'm meant to be employed. It really cuts into my goofy silly haha time. and it makes it nearly impossible to have any wow life is beautiful let me take it in time.

[suspicious-scarecrow]

[beldaroot]

there has been more moments than i can count in the past seven months where i felt destroyed by all the death and carnage i've seen due to the colonialism and imperialism of the world. but there was something in particular about hind's death that made me think the world would stop turning bc how could anything continue given how gruesome and inhumane her death was? and yet, the world did not stop. and i thought we were once again left to remember her story only in our minds as she became another number, as her murderers went on killing unpunished, and as her mother grieved with rage when all she wanted was to keep her daughter warm and as safe as she could manage in this man-made hell on earth.

however, hind, a girl who only got to experience her kindergarten graduation, is now being immortalized in universities across the nation. her story did resonate to the masses and we will not let her be forgotten nor forgive those complicit in her death. real justice would be having hind alive, but these students are showing that they will stop the world and burn the status quo it upholds to the ground if it means her people can truly be liberated.

[fanaticalthings]

just another night in gotham

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[evercelle]

i think yjh should've had a turn in the kdj humiliation qipao </3

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

redraw

@/vinndas made a post about how different wekser and ethan r and how much ethan would absoluetly hate him and it got me thinking about the dynamic again

[ronanlynchbf]

tshirt that says NO LIVE ORGANISM CAN CONTINUE FOR LONG TO EXIST SANELY UNDER CONDITIONS OF ABSOLUTE REALITY