#( i tend to love the mentally ill )

[anthonyzoxide]

My contribution to the 'Was 3L!Flower Husbands toxic?' discussion

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[starflungwaddledee]

kirbytober 2023 21 + 26 : fav characters + ship [ prev || next ]

putting this at the top because it's extremely important but i received a message implying that some folks headcanon these two as drastically different ages. you may headcanon whatever you like of course, but in my work i firmly think that they're both full adults who are at least 25+. this is abundantly clear in my work. i'm not interested in headcanoning any of them as literal children and i would never touch that shit. dni if you think that sort of ship would actually be okay. don't be a freak. thanks.

very typical to take your favs and then also shove them together but isn't that the point. anyway i have literally never seen anybody else ship them (if you're out there... hello... 😭) despite them both being very main characters and i don't know why?? they could be so cute i think...

they are both industrious adventurers, prolific hard-workers (team task doers), and a little cheekily competitive!

i think that bandee is no stranger to a wide variety of close and intense relationships; he's beloved by many and loves them all equally but distinctly in turn. magolor on the other hand has been sooo isolated and lonely for such a long-ass time, he barely knows how to be friends let alone really care for someone. bandee is smart enough to be suitably wary but kind enough to give him a chance despite that, which i think would knock him off his non-existent feet instantly. in reply, magolor could give him something unique by loving and prioritising him utterly singularly, in a way bandee wouldn't even have realised he was missing

in awtdy (pictured in the sketch page; if you see a tattered looking magolor in my art it's probably this au) in particular they are both thrown into the angst soup together and come out insanely trauma bonded at the hip. their friendship/relationship is central to the plotline; together they're working on a solution to the timeline anomaly, while also hiding that they even really know each other the whole time

[mudstoneabyss]

actually. the specific phrasing that boy Kevin wants to kill older Kevin with "I must disassemble him, piece by piece, so that everything inside of the Old Kevin comes out. Only then can the New Kevin truly begin." is so incredibly the idea that to heal from trauma and "improve" you have to destroy every "wrong" part of yourself, that everything "tainted" by it has to somehow be replaced by something untouched (which isn't possible)

[jakowskis]

"i hated owen for all/most of s1 i only started liking him in s2" weak. i liked owen since he got choked against a wall by an angry woman and then told her he wanted to shag her immediately afterwards. and then even more when he spent ep3 trying to intimidate and murder a rapist

[petorahs]

when people ship shusumi do they gravitate to the bubbly "kasumi" front during the 1st/2nd semester or do they not count that and portray sumire's character for who she is during the last few hours of the game. do they have both coexisting at the same time but then what's the middle sweet-spot for it? their entire dynamic changes fundamentally as a result of the third semester.

and wouldnt joker feel a bit lied to since the girl he met in the beginning who was so, so nice to him essentially a fake? would this girl still approach him with kindness if she was her true self? how does he want her? is it cruel to miss the "her" when she was parading as a corpse? because after the third semester nothing will ever be the same between them. we as a shusumi society should entertain the idea of their divorce more. in this essay i will

[weepylucifer]

we've considered Uli getting mentored by Kim and Harry, but what if also... at one point, Steban turns up at Harry's, with kind of a look of desperation to him, kind of a drowned cat vibe, maybe a little tipsy, and goes "Look don't ask me how I know this, but I do know you're like me. Please. Everything is so much, and it all talks to me, and it's telling me I have to keep it on this earth and I don't know how to even begin. Please, how do you live with it" and Harry's just like hoooooo boy

[lostusagis]

( shinji ikari is literally the brand of character i would love to write and study )

[theokusgallery]

I freaking love your au and your latest comic because MAN

I FELT THOSE LAST WORDS AND I WAS LIKE "OH FUCK"

First panel was already a bit unsettling itself - like you get it's just intimate manners as you do as a couple but he felt so possessive already and

Sunny's inner thoughts

I'm sure 100% his abandonment anxiety will increase drastically the more he stays with nick and honestly slay

I mean it's kinda obvious

But like I felt that

Yeah

Nick is unhinged

Nick is crazy

Y'all are gay for him

Good 😵💥

Sunny has soooo many issues. So many of them. He's so vulnerable and he makes himself vulnerable to Nick while still being intimidated by him, it's... Dude's got some problems.

[stergeon]

for the writer ask

💭🚦💛 💌

💭 What inspires you and your writing?

this is a real marketing major-ass answer (from your local marketing major), but i love sharing knowledge and telling stories. writing’s one of those things that’s a bit of a compulsion for me—i’m always writing something. i took a five-year break from fiction writing before i stumbled ass-first into fanfic last year, but even in those years when i was focusing on my career, i was writing guides and trainings and a ton of other stuff—just not anything fun, lol.

writing is also so cathartic. sometimes i set out to tell a specific story, but at other times, a particular emotion gets me in a vice grip and i have to put it to words before it’ll go away. my stories tend to wind up as emotional dumping grounds as a result.

i don’t write things pulled directly from my own life, but there are bits and pieces of myself and things that have happened to me scattered throughout stuff i’ve written, and usually when i’m about 75% of the way through a piece, i’ll realize it’s absolutely related to something i’m currently going through. funny how art works that way, even when you don’t intend for it to.

and occasionally i just have a fire lit under my ass about an issue and i get so hot about it that i gotta compile my thoughts. looking at you, silver snow

🚦 What sort of endings do you prefer to write: ambiguous, bad, happily ever after, etc.?

look, i would love nothing more for them girls (pick whichever girls you please) to have a happy ending where they kiss and are stupid in love for the rest of forever. i love reading those kinds of stories. but in my heart of hearts, i love an ambiguous ending. i like when there are still questions after the story ends. i like thinking about where things could go or how the characters will go on after the events of the story. like, shared space could be read as having a happy ending, but i don’t really think it is. and with the victors; the vestiges, well. you’ll see :0)

come to think of it, i’m not sure i’ve ever written a happily-ever-after, but i don’t think i’ve ever written a 100% bad ending, either. i read too many bury-your-gays stories and watched too many sad european queer coming-of-age films in my youth to ever be happy putting that kinda thing out into the world. i want to write about love with all its ugliness, but not despair or hopelessness. i think what most appeals to me about an ambiguous ending is that lingering feeling of hope. it’s not the same as the kind you get from a happily-ever-after, and something about it speaks to me.

💛 What is the most impactful lesson you’ve learned about writing?

honestly? how to take criticism. i took a creative writing class in high school where we had to read our work out loud and then receive feedback on it from the other writers in the class, and that did a lot for me. going into that class, i’d already been writing for forever and had won some little local writing contests and such, so i was a wee bit of a pretentious douche. but i’d never gotten real critique before beyond, essentially, spelling and grammar checks. it humbled me lol. it made me grow so much as a writer, and i could see where i needed to improve or where my head was wedged way too far up my own ass for others to follow. it also helped me recognize strengths i didn’t know i had, and that was huge. it’s easy to get into a self-doubt spiral when making creative work, and good, constructive criticism can do so much to help avoid that.

to this day i love critique. i like knowing what worked or didn’t work so that i can continue to improve as a writer and do better next time. did my themes land? did something really work, but another part fall flat? i’d love to know!! i try to treat everything i write as practice for the next thing, and frankly that’s helped take some of the pressure off so i don’t go into total Perfectionist Mode.

i know critique is kind of a sensitive topic in fan spaces, but i think that’s because a lot of people have gotten unsolicited criticism that is purely critical and isn’t constructive. but getting good, constructive criticism will do so much to help a person grow as a writer. it’s scary, and sometimes it hurts! writing is very personal for most people, and it stings when things aren’t received the way you think they will be. but i know i’ve grown more from having my failures pointed out (and, very importantly, having the good things about those efforts acknowledged) than anything else.

💌 Is there a favorite trope you like to write?

actually Just answered this in another ask!

[trickstersaint]

Hmm… is April your favorite month? 🧐

well it is the cruelest month... haha for real though that's a good question! i am realizing how much april-specific poetry lives on this blog... my default favorite-month answer is always october (my birthday AND halloween. superior by far) but i do love april. it's my testosterone anniversary (my tboy birthday lmao. which is also my half birthday which i think is really cool) AND escapril... beautiful things that i love... and it's at that point in the year where the rot of the spring that always gets to me starts to fade away (or summer starts to fade in). every april i look up and something is bright and warm again and i get a little sunburnt and i start to feel like things are going to be okay. i'm not going to say that april is always kind to me but april in my mind is... well. see also: flush by bracken valentine. happy flush april etc. etc.. that's how i feel about april.

[tacagen]

man do i love green goblin and do i HATE how he's usually handled

[pinkhysteria]

"dni if you *thing that applies to me*" - "i hate people who *thing that applies to me*" - "*endless posts and/or tweets vaguing thing that i said*" ← somebody who will be following me.

[silvermarmoset]

this is a half-brained thought but one that keeps coming up to me. does anyone else think framing ADHD as a disorder rather than a different way of processing information is a mistake? like i get that framing it as a disorder makes it easier to find treatment via insurance and that it helps give ADHD the dimensions of something innate and not a personal failing when you have to describe it to someone who doesn't have the same problems—but sometimes when I see it called a "disorder" I'm like, why does ADHD have to be considered divergent from the "norm"? in whose terms are these "norms" and these "divergences" set? in what circumstances does an ADHD mindset become a bad thing to have, why would we assume ADHD is a lesser or disabling thing to have when we barely have a word for its opposite? (the word "neurotypical" springs to mind, but "neurotypical" is just a way to frame "normal" without offense. Whose version of normal? I thought I was normal until people who could keep schedules and manage deadlines told me I wasn't.)

People with ADHD get distracted, can't stick to one subject, and lose track of time: thus, a disorder. People with ADHD can also work with several ideas at once, draw info from multiple sources and combine this info into a new concept, daydream or focus so intensely they can creatively work on projects for hours without checking the clock. These are the same traits, just set in different situations: one is disordered because it doesn't stick to a certain framework (and who put that framework there?), while the other is full of strengths and creative value. I don't really see why ADHD would be considered a disorder unless the order it deviates from is so rigid it doesn't allow for multiple approaches, different strengths and weaknesses.

idk, just seems to me that framing ADHD as a "disorder" assumes that its undiagnosed opposite—the "neurotypical" way of doing things—is somehow normal: when it's just different, a different work style for a different person, and a workstyle that happens to be conducive to today's production-oriented, hustle-oriented culture. What turns ADHD from a simple trait to a disorder is that it doesn't function in a way that's compatible with today's workflow, not any actual problem with an ADHD person's mind.

from where I'm sitting, ADHD looks like just another way of processing life, with pros and cons, in the same way some people are quiet and some people are loud, or some people can't help getting up at dawn and I just happen to work better at night. It's not a disorder, it just is.

(disclaimer: I have no background in psych and these are just my own personal wonderings)

[halinski]

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[spookyboywhump]

22, 23, 33, 38, and 44 for cain!

Ehehe thankie :3c

(22) What are the moral lines they would absolutely never cross? Are you sure there’s no exception at all?

Cain has a few. There are certain grievous injuries that he thinks are absolutely wrong to cause a pet for any reason and not only would he’d not cross it, but he does attempt to intervene when made away of it. Along with that he is strongly against outright killing pets. Despite how terribly he treats the people who have been placed or bought into his care he still seems to think he has some kind of responsibility to keep them alive, even if just barely.

(23) What is the worst thing they have ever done to themself?

Get romantically involved with Nicholas :)

(33) When they’re sick, what comfort do they prefer?

Cain likes to be allowed to rest and relax, while also being frequently checked up on, comforted by the right person, brought things he needs ect. He honestly does not have very many memories of being genuinely cared for when he was sick growing up so he kind of just makes Zander do things for him and accepts he won’t get any actual emotional comfort. Sometimes Nicholas will comfort him and he’ll actually be soft and gentle and really just spoil him and make sure he’s well taken care of, which Cain absolutely loves.

(38) How self-aware are they of their traumas, and do they do anything about it?

Cain is aware that he is likely traumatized from the everything growing up. He is not aware of how trauma actually manifests or affects his mental health he just knows it’s there and he doesn’t intend to do anything about it for a long while until he really doesn’t have much of a choice and other people are outright telling him what needs to be done.

(44) When, if at all, did they first realize they were being abused or had been previously abused? What made them realize it?

I think Cain kind of always knew something wasn’t quite right just from his mother’s reactions to how his father would treat him or behave around him. After that it was when he started going to school with people who had normal families or maybe had families similar to his in the sense they were involved in the same business, but were by no means treated the same, and he realized how horrific the treatment he faced really was. For the longest time he’d swear he wouldn’t wish it on his worst enemy, the things he personally endured or witnessed were just that horrible. He didn’t want to be around it and he tried to leave multiple times but when that didn’t work things ended the way they did

[scattered-winter]

houghhjh I really hope my parents will still help me pay for college even though I haven't been Working As Much As Possible this summer