#( i HAD TO USE THE LINE )
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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr#warm up#idk . having trouble writing rn#ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum#i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for#i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography#like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days#furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will#actually ever happen#ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum
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oversaturate
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#itadori yuuji#jjk yuuji#been trying some stuff out in an attempt to beat the artblock out of myself with hammers#and i LOVE how it looks but god it takes so long painting like this#i had a ref style i was going for that was a lot more washed out and watercoloury#and to be fair my take on it did start out looking more adjacent to that#u can still kinda see remnants of the initial watercolour washes in the collar of yuuji's jacket in th bottom one#but it Did Not Last fhdjfjjg what can i say im a gouache/oils gal#i can't use soft greys and watery inks i need stark blacks i need the reddest red the colour wheel will provide#one thing i did keep from the refs were the sharp prickly fine lines i think those look real cool against textured colour blocks#anyway ive also been having a lot of fun playing with rly rly harsh lighting on the hair#and even thinner linework put down after the colour as opposed to before#probably one of the reasons why it takes a lot longer but also it mimics traditional art a lot more#ill probably continue playing around with this sort of render ! or at least keep elements of it
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…we’ll show ‘em what we all mean!
#i just wanted to use a line from 'disenchanted'! bc they're the brothers way#mcr#mcr art#mcr fanart#my chemical romance#gerard way#mikey way#my art#artists on tumblr#stayed up wayyyyy too late cranking this out. but inspiration struck me and i've had art block for most of 2024! so!!#it looks like mikey has 3 fingers on that one hand but i promise the 4th finger is there lol the ref pic has it in shadow tho#when we were young 2024#wwwyf 2024
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"Young man, you cut that tsundere bullshit, I know what you're doing, I wasn't born yesterday." - Secret Brat Tamer Volkarin
#emmrich volkarin#dragon age#dragon age 4#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age veilguard#dragon age the veilguard#da4#DAtV#veilguard#dragon age spoilers#Call this man a convertible cuz he's a soft top#he's absolutely considering if he should just spank Rook then and there xD#I obvs had my Rook love the necropolis etc but I love seeing what other sides of Emmrich emerge#if you play a Rook who dislikes it/is reluctantly getting into it a lil' xD#and you get different lore and character trivia from each of your answers#like Emmrich has had romantic encounters in the past but hasn't had time for it the last couple of years#that the Mourn Watch wear grave gold to remind themselves of their own death#these are cool little bits i never learned in my own playthru cuz i picked other options so it's nice to find out#Rook's line in the last pic is all of us old man fuckers lbr xD
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2025 horror pin up calendar!!
print version | digital (/print it yourself) version
a labor of love, truly <3 prepare for the new year with 12 suggestive (and silly) horror characters :) featuring characters from: american psycho, bride of re-animator, the evil dead, hannibal, jason x, frankenhooker, alien, an american werewolf in london, jennifer's body, saw, the thing, and scream! to see the full specs of the calendar, check out the pages above!
#IF you have trouble w the print version website just lmk#ive used mixam before but not their print on demand. so there might need to be some troubleshooting#it is us and uk only though i think </333 very sorry#but if you get the digital one you have my permission to print it whatever way you want#anyways i hope you all enjoy :) this was fun to work on. even if it was exhausting at points lol#there is a free vers of the calendar on the digital one!#paying just unlocks print quality versions#my art#artists on tumblr#procreate#clip studio#<- did the lines in one and colored in the other lol#ok now to tag all the characters. deep breath#patrick bateman#herbert west#dan cain#(hes there too i promise)#ash williams#hannibal lecter#hannibal nbc#friday the 13th#jason voorhees#frankenhooker#ellen ripley#jennifer check#colin gray#adam stanheight#(ngl. had to look up his last name)#macready#ghostface
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elven castle
#geminitay#hermitcraft#hermitcraft season 9#my art#i had a bunch of things i technically still wanna draw for s9 but then i stopped drawing for three weeks#but heres something#also used a different line brush and skipped the shading kinda
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Ghouls night out
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#Scopophobia#Don't be mean Lan Wangji - the dead girl aesthetic is a curated one. Support women's rights to look dead!#I have been waiting for this scene for ages...the ghost girl entourage is such a good look for WWX.#And by gods does the audio drama actually do something interesting with one of them.#Namely that we actually get to see WWX talk with them and learn about who they were and what they left behind.#I love necromancer characters but it's way too common for them to be like “Go! Ghost no.145!” like they're a pokemon#and not...you know...someone who had a whole life that they left behind.#I love me a necromancer who has an awareness to whose soul/body they are using. It adds a lot of flavour!#MDZS is a little hit or miss with this. I think the fans do a lot of the work with making Mo Xuanyu a bigger character.#Yi City has this in spades. Even though we don't individually get character backstories#We get many painful reminders about how these 'corpses' were people.#We also get a few lines about how WWX used whatever corpses he could get his hands on (including grandparents - Woof!)#MDZS often (but not always) likes to remind us that every sacrifice and every ghost was a person.#It is so close to nailing the landing regarding the deconstruction of the necromancer character.#Anyhow. You may have noticed the uptick in quality in the last two comics. Rule of three means next one is going to be a treat B*)#See you all very soon!
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ITS ETHO DAY YIPPEE!!!! etho day!!!!! (redstone break)
#my friend and i recently had a conversation#about drawings which use lineart as a crutch#my friend said using shapes to portray ideas rather than lines is important#i've been thinking about that and so i tried out coloring lineless#lots fun highly recommend#but yeah experimental piece#would have more etho but alas this is barely on time and i draw etho plenty he'll be ok#etho#art#fanart#digital art#mcyt#digital drawing#hermitcraft#ethoslab#hermitcraft fanart#hermitaday#etho tag#ethos lab#ath art
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scenes i loved from Real Enough to Get Me Through by @marriedzukka <333 [ids in alt]
#zukka#zukka fanart#sokka#sokka fanart#zuko#zuko fanart#atla#atla fanart#avatar the last airbender#zukka fic rec#myart#yall. yall. dani. this FIC#first off it made me cry twice. not like 'oh im crying' internet speak no. like. eyes are too blurry to read let me stop this for a sec#it is SO GOOD#your prose? amazing#your insights on grief? life changing#THEM??? THEM their relationship and trust#'zuko looked at him and his world shifted on its axis'#ive been thinking about that line for WEEKS STRAIGHT#i can't tell you how many passages i screenshot just because of how beautiful or cute they were#the moment of seeing the painting of sokka's mom? how did you manage to make it so telling character wise--so sweet so PAINful AND so#cute with their relationship?!!?!#'oh so you think i'm beautiful too'#GOD#i had so many scenes i wanted to draw it was crazy#also#'Our loved ones leave impressions on us that can still impact our decisions and feelings even after they're gone'#fuck. had me crying AGAIN#seriously this fic is so wonderful and not just through a zukka lens. truly life changing you're an AMAZING writer#the fandom is so lucky to have you and i can't Believe it took me so long to get around to reading this masterpiece
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I love libraries.
I'm browsing the WWI shelves (as you do) and notice a very old book about the war. I glance at the first pages that talk about how one day the war will be over and we'll look at this place and not see any signs of the battlefield.
Then it hits me. And I check the publishing date.
This book was printed before the war's end. Not written. Printed. The physical object was created in 1918, while the war in question was raging and the end was as yet uncertain.
Now I'm standing on the other side of the apocalypse, with this physical link to that era in my hands. I'm living proof that the war did end and life did go on and we can all look at the end of the world as a long-ago memory.
Reading old books is cool enough, connecting our minds and hearts through the ideas of people who lived long ago, but there's something extra profound about holding a copy of the book that comes from the time that it was written. It's a physical link between the past and the present connecting me to those long-ago people. A piece of the past come into the future that gives me the chance to almost take the hand of some long-ago reader, to hold something they could have held, connecting not just mentally but physically to their era, a moment of connection across more than a century.
Excuse me while I go weep.
#books#history is awesome#of course i checked it out#i had no real intent to read wwi non-fic but i couldn't just leave my new friend there it'd be lonely#i want to break out in tears every time i look at it#it's so stupid but sometimes something stupid just kicks you straight in the heart and you just gotta deal#it's old front line by john masefield#i know nothing about it except thinking the author's name sounded vaguely familiar#also the interior design is fantastic#these old books know how to use white space and make something super readable#if you must know i was in the wwi section because i was at the history museum the other day#and saw a local author had a book of wwi letters#thought i'd see if the library had it#looked at the selection of non-fic surrounding it and thought of the wwi persuasion#saw many books that could be useful#and thought 'oh no this looks like fun'#it won't go anywhere i know i won't be able to focus long enough to do real research#but darn if it wasn't an appealing little daydream
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Until someone from the staff says otherwise, I will stake actual, genuine money that this was an exchange from the writer's room that made it into the show.
#camp cretaceous#jurassic world: camp cretaceous#ben pincus#brooklynn#kenji kon#jwcc#yasmina fadoula#also I was always too dsitacted by this line#I never noticed their FACES#brooklynn Cannot Compute#Kenji is Aghast#and Yaz is wondering if she's allowed to sleep while this kid is in proximity to her#BUT IT'S TRUE#THEY MADE A WHOLE MOSASAURUS MODEL#and then used it for one scene#I think they kinda had a glimpse of it at the start of season 2#then thety got to use it in Hidden Adventure#and got to have a cameo in 3#and then one last big moment at the start of 4#but that was a WHOLE MODEL#they paid money for and GOOD MONY TOO#IT'S ONE OF THE BEST IN THE SHOW#AND SHE GOT ONE SCENE#THEY PUT ALL OF THAT MONEY INTO THE MOSASAURUS AND LEFT NONE FOR THE TRICERATOPS#rexy couldn't even have her scars!!!
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Fabian Seacaster, Maximum Legend that you are
#My art#alternate titles include “the only my-own-his-darling-man-boy in the whole world” and “sir tap shoes are NOT a practice piece of casual wea#Anyways I love him. He’s so fun to draw actually he’s so pretty#I tried to keep him looking a bit like Lou with the nose and mouth but I’ve always pictured him with a much softer face? Than he’s usually-#-portrayed? At least in all the official art. Idk I think it’s because he’s a half-elf but it might just be vibes#also I tried giving him arm and chest hair but it looked wrong. He’d probably wax anyway#anyways this is sorta inspired by the cover art of Leon Bridges’ “Gold Diggers Sound” album#Ironically enough I was listening to a Leon Bridges song from a different album the whole time I was drawing it#fabian aramais seacaster#fabian seacaster#fabian seacaster fanart#fantasy high#fantasy high art#d20 fantasy high#dimension 20 fantasy high#fantasy high fanart#fantasy high junior year#fhjr#d20#d20 fanart#d20 fhjy#d20 art#dimension 20#intrepid heroes#lou wilson#I had SO much fun doing the patterns for this as well!!!#The sheet had one originally too but it looked too busy with the shines as well#But for the shirt I used the radial symmetry tool: I included a sword some waves and a music note if you can find them all!#and for the pants I just fiddled with a squiggly line until it lines up so I could repeat it then I just copied the layer flipped back and-#-forth till I got a whole pattern
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#itadori yuuji#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk 266#fanart#jjk fanart#itafushi#jujutsu kaisen fanart#used th itfs tag bc its implied and this is an itfs piece i said so#i dont think ive seen this parallel made yet??? but its ok if it has#i just had the idea hit at gross o clock last night when i ws alr exhausted n had 2 force myself to sleep instead of drawing it#i just . clutches chest . YUUJI#th char development the emotional maturity..#the willingness to put aside his gojo voice personal feelings in favour of giving megumi agency over his own life#rather than burden him with expectations the way every1 has done fr both of them over the course of the series...#tears in my eyes thats my mc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#anyway art notes i think lower one is some of the best yuuji hair ive drawn 2 date#it's kind of similar to one of my 265 redraws but i think i struck a better balance in how thoroughly i rendered it here#proud of my me but also SO grateful tht yuuji has not been fighting me lately#so much yuuji content these past chapters i cant imagine th frustration having to Also fight him in order 2 create content fr them#anyway itafushi kaisen is real and canon and alive and yuuji singlehandedly discovered th cure 2 my mental illness w this line
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favorite part: when she clearly wanted to call him a motherfucker and yet restrained herself. incredible
second favorite part: she said dictators around the world would manipulate him with flattery and how putin could/would 'eat him alive'
i wished so badly she could have said that he was obviously easy to manipulate because she was clearly doing it the whole debate through. every single time she went after his ego (his crowd sizes, being laughed at by world leaders, etc) he ALWAYS had to jump into defend himself. every single time. she pushed his buttons all night long. this fucking guy
#presidential debate#us elections#us politics#she had some very solid delivery lines#and i think she presented her policy points really fucking well#my third favorite part was every time djt fuckin said something and a mod was like 'thats a lie'
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More than anything in this world, I hate the fact that if you leave your apartment and go do things, it makes you a happier more interesting person. I know I make this exact text post every two or three months, I have done for literal years, and yet every. single. time. it surprises and frustrates delights frustrates delights makes me feel some sort of way.
#I went to a reading of a 17th century play in a coffee shop.#they encouraged us to react (gasp. laugh. go ''oooh'' when characters threw shade.)#(which - given that it was a 17th century play written for court there was a LOT of opportunity.)#and we took them up on it! someone in the audience literally snapped in a z formation at one of the lines it was great.#I had a marvelous time.#I hate this so much. can't believe this works on me.#celestial emporium of benevolent knowledge
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#heres some data from my rewatch of good omens#i definitely had to draw some lines between which instances I counted and which I didn't and it was harder than I thought it would be to do#Anyways the lack of “Aziraphale” references in s2 compared to “Angel” is crazy!#lmk if you disagree or have suggestions#Crowley invented using “Angel” as a term of endearment#remember this is not everytime they say eachother's names#its every time they say eachother's names when talking to eachother... not to other people#pet names#good omens#data#numbers#aziraphale#crowley#ineffable husbands#pie charts#aziracrow
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