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Hello đ could I please request headcanons for leona's fem s/o defending him everytime one of the other characters start making backhanded comments to his face (if you've seen some of the vignettes you'll know what I mean) she doesn't reveal things like he's depressed or anything (tho he is) she just tells them it's shitty of them calling him lazy/selfish constantly without even knowing him personally
[Everyone treats leona like crap and I take personal offense to it >:( ]
You know i make fun of him on a regular basis. but theres a line thats gotta be drawn when it comes to leona bullying. cause damn this guy needs a real Break he cant even have issues in peace
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Before you got closer to him, thereâs a fair chance the comments didnât even stand out to you at all. It always felt a little unfair, yes, but not in a way that was particularly shocking, they were all just rude comments like any other. Back when you werenât quite friends yet, and maybe even at the start of your friendship, you might have interjected with a simple âhey, heâs not that badâ or "you donât need to be rude about itâ. It was just a gesture of basic politeness then, something the people around you seemed to lack.
But obviously, your perception of those interactions, and the way you see Leonaâs situation itself, soon went through a rather radical change. Possibly even before you two started dating, or even before he âtold you too muchâ â His own words, mumbled dismissively but bitterly, the day he came back after spending a weekend with his family and then proceeded to complain for a little longer than usual â As he warmed up to you, you started to notice things about him more. You started to see the spark of actual passion he has in his eyes during his club activities, the level of detail he gets into when analyzing things, the precise way he moved his chess pieces when you two played...
Above all, though, you started to notice how he often looked actually tired when he took part in any of the âslackingâ heâs so infamous for. Learning the littlest bit more about his family life just worked as the final piece of the puzzle youâd been putting together without even noticing â And then, other peopleâs ârudenessâ started to sound like something much more cruel. It didnât help that he never seemed to react to it whenever he overheard others gossiping, or whenever you told him about the things you heard. âWhy doesnât he care?â The thought would echo in your mind for ages, trying to understand him through the tiny slivers of vulnerability he didnât mean to show.
Now, as his girlfriend, you feel you just canât let people say whatever they want, and you feel it more strongly than you ever have. âWhy donât you mind your own business instead of talking about someone you donât really know?â You snap back on instinct when one of your classmates, who was in Savanaclaw, comments on how lazy their dorm leader is. Their mouth closes instantly, regardless if youâve made your relationship public or not â You realize that, on top of all the negative treatment Leona got, it was also extremely rare for others to defend him in any way at all. Enough that even a response that simple elicits shock from others.
âYou know, itâs crazy to see you hanging out with Leona like that. I never thought I'd see anyone get so excited to spend time with him.â You hear some other day, while spending time in Savanaclawâs common area, sat right next to Leona, and it just makes your blood boil. Heâs just half-glaring at your particularly cocky acquaintance, sighing like heâs heard it a million times before, which you know he probably has. âHey, make sure you donât get too influenced, we donât need another person who just sleeps all dayââ
âYeah, youâre right. This type of person can be such a pain. Iâm so glad I donât know anyone whoâs, you know, actually like that.â You say through grit teeth, just barely holding back aggression, and in the corner of your vision, the subtle flash of surprise in Leonaâs face only encourages you to continue. âImagine if like, the Magift team had this sort of player in it⌠the club would be done for.â
They stare at you with wide eyes, having very much picked up on the aggression. The entire room is silent, you refuse to break eye contact, arms firmly crossed. âWell, I meanâŚâ The student stammers, but then, Leona himself speaks up for once. âDid you not get her message? You need me to tell you to shut up instead?â He snaps, and they frantically shake their head, eyes fixed on the ground. You feel pride swelling in your chest, almost unable to hold back your smile.
âYou know, Herbivore, if I needed a bodyguard Iâd already have one.â He tells you later, in that same day. His tone has that snarky edge that feels like his default, but itâs much less pronounced than usual. You can even see a sort of softness in his eyes while he tries to play it cool. But needing and deserving are two different things, you think. As interactions like these repeat, with you defending him every time, you hope your message fully gets through to him, one day.
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Tips on adding tags to fics
I wrote a guide last year about writing fanfic summaries (check it out here) and thought it might be useful to do a follow-up on tags! (Please note that this is AO3-specific and focuses entirely on the Additional Tags section. And also that all of this is just my opinion.)
I see folks often lament that they donât know what tags to add to their fics; I think the biggest struggle comes from folks not knowing what purposes tags serve. So, letâs discuss that!
Convey Tone
The first thing tags are used for is to tell the audience what tone to expect from the fic. Is it a lighthearted comedy with some sweet moments? Tag it with Fluff, Humor, and Comedy. Is it a dark, slow, depressing tale that ends poorly? Try Heavy Angst, Sad, Bad Ending.
When looking for a fic to read, people want to know what the vibe is so they can find the fic that matches what theyâre in the mood for. The summary is useful for this, too, but the tags are where you can really confirm: Yes, this is a fic with Light Angst, Humor, and Happy Ending.
In short: use tags as tone indicators. Not all fics cleanly fit one tone or the other, so overlap tags accordingly. Itâs normal to have some contradiction; thatâs the nature of storytelling.
Some common tone indicator tags:
Fluff
Tooth-Rotting Fluff
Domestic Fluff
Romantic Fluff
Light-Hearted
Crack
Crack Taken Seriously
Hurt/Comfort
Emotional Hurt/Comfort
Comfort No Hurt
Hurt No Comfort
Humor
Some Humor
No Plot/Plotless
Light Angst
Angst
Heavy Angst
Angst With a Happy Ending
Eventual Happy Ending
Sad Ending
Bad Ending
Happy Ending
Hopeful Ending
Ambiguous/Open Ending
âŚand more!
2. Content Warnings
Next, tags are a great place to add content warnings for your fic. Notes can go into more detail or be used for chapter-level warnings, but putting the broad categories of your content warnings in the tags is a good idea so those who wish to avoid certain types of content can do so, and those specifically seeking out heavy content can find what theyâre looking for.
AO3 has the Archive Warnings function to help with this, but tags can elaborate on or specify warnings that donât fit the Archive Warning categories.
Not everyone likes content warnings or sees the point of adding them, or they feel that they ruin the surprise element of storytelling. I wonât make a detailed argument here, but consider content warnings a sign of respect for your audience and their wellbeing. Triggers are very real things rooted in trauma and the least you can do is give someone a heads up that what you wrote could negatively affect them. Plus, as mentioned, sometimes darker content is exactly the thing someone wants, and a warning can actually be another way to attract a reader.
A very very short list of content warning tags to consider (and hereâs your own heads up for mentions of upsetting topics in this list):
Death
Grief/Mourning
Violence
Canon-Typical Violence
Torture
Blood
Abuse
Alcohol
Drugs
Rape/Non-con Elements
Mentions of Rape/Non-con
Consent Issues
Mental Health Issues (there are lots of more specific tags for this category)
Panic Attacks
Ableist Language
âŚand more!
(There is definitely more that could be said regarding content warnings for Explicit fics, but I donât read or write those, so youâll need to look elsewhere for that.)
3. Searchable/Fandom-Specific
One of the most useful aspects of tags is being able to search the entire Archive via tags and/or filter content by tags (both to include and exclude â familiarize yourself with AO3âs Filter system if you havenât already). So, youâll want to include tags that folks are searching by. Tone indicator tags are used this way, but so are fandom-specific, character-specific, and relationship-specific tags.
If you have no idea where to start, look up the fandom/character/relationship you are writing for and filter AO3 by that. Then, spend some time looking at tags and filtering by different ones. See what comes up. Reading fic is always the best way to learn how to tag them, and thatâs especially the case here. Maybe youâll end up creating a new fandom tag!
While fandom-specific tags are not necessary, they can help make your fic easier to find, especially in large fandoms. Note that fandom-specific tags will usually have the fandom listed in parentheses at the end.
Itâs difficult to make a list of tags for this sort of thing, but hereâs some common structures Iâve seen over the years:
[Character Name] Needs a Hug
Asexual/Aromantic/Demisexual (etc.) [Character Name]
Oblivious [Character Name]
Dramatic [Character Name]
Sweet [Character Name]
Angry [Character Name]
Disabled [Character Name]
Autistic [Character Name]
Agender/Nonbinary/Trans [Character Name]
[Character Name] Has Anxiety/ADHD/Touretteâs etc.
Ambiguous [Character Name] and [Character Name] Relationship
Queerplatonic [Character Name] / [Character Name]
They/Them Pronouns for [Character Name]
Teacher/Superhero/Artist/other profession [Character Name]
[Character Name]-centric
Touch-Starved [Character Name]
[Character Name] is Bad at Feelings
[Character Name] Has Self-Esteem Issues
âŚand more!
Another category is tags for specific scenes, missing scenes, story arcs, episodes/chapters/parts, and so on, such as:
The Night at Crowleyâs Flat (Good Omens)
Cloud Recesses Study Arc (Modao Zushi)
Post-Mogami Arc (Mob Psycho 100)
And there are plenty more that are so fandom-specific that they donât fit an exact category:
Alternate Universe â No System (Scum Villain)
Heaven is Terrible (Good Omens)
Xianle Trio (Tian Guan Ci Fu)
4. BONUS Topic â Canon Divergence and Alternate Universes
One of the most fun parts of fanfic is toying with canon, so hereâs a list of tags that can convey your ficâs relationship to the canon story. These are for fics that maintain a strong relationship with or resemblance to canon.
Pre-Canon
During Canon
Post-Canon
Canon Compliant
Not Canon Compliant
Alternate Universe â Canon Divergence
Alternate Canon
Fix-It
Not a Fix-It
Fix-It of Sorts
Some fandoms have specific tags regarding canon compliance with only parts of the given media â usually the case for franchises or works with big gaps between installments.
Not Canon Compliant With [Media Name] [Season/Episode Number]
Next are Alternate Universes (AUs), which are so divergent from canon to the point of not even being in the same world. There are more types of AU than I could dare list here, and several are also fandom-specific, but hereâs some generic sorts that come to mind:
Modern Setting
Human
High School
College/University
Roommates/Housemates
Soulmates
Superheroes/Superpowers
Fairy Tale
Urban Fantasy
Science Fiction & Fantasy
Meet-Cute (can also be Alternative Universe â Different First Meeting)
Meet-Ugly
âŚand more!
5. BONUS BONUS Topic â Romance
Lots of fics on AO3 are written for romantic ships, and there are a LOT of tags to categorize different types and stages of these ships. These tags are useful to establish reader expectations (and again, for filtering). Some common examples:
Pre-Slash
Pre-Relationship
Developing Relationship
Established Relationship
Love Confessions
Love Realization
Drunken Confessions
Mutual Pining
Not Actually Unrequited Love
Getting Together
Getting Back Together
Moving In Together
Falling in Love
Marriage
[Friends/Enemies/Strangers/Rivals/etc.] to Lovers (can also have three stages, such as Strangers to Friends to Lovers or Lovers to Enemies to Friends)
Flirting
Slow Burn
Denial of Feelings
âŚand more!
There are also tags to specify what physical affection the characters engage in:
Holding Hands
Cuddling & Snuggling
Hugs
Kissing
Making Out
Almost Kiss
First Kiss
Second Kiss
Literal Sleeping Together
Non-Sexual Intimacy
No Smut
Explicit Sexual Content
Implied/Referenced Sex
âŚand more!
Aaaand a few non-romantic ones to toss around, for fun:
Best Friends
Platonic Relationships
Friendship
No Romantic Relationships (goes under the Relationships section, not Additional Tags)
Found Family
Friendship/Love
Ambiguous Relationships
Queerplatonic Relationships
Family
Parenthood
Love
Siblings
Developing Friendships
Parent/Child Relationship
âŚand more!
This guide got out of hand, and I still didnât cover everything I could have, but I hope this was a helpful overview and makes tagging a little easier for you going forward! Hereâs AO3âs tagging page for more info. Feel free to drop your own tips in a reblog/comment or ask questions if thereâs something you want me to elaborate on. <3
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Every week I walk in to the torment nexus and walk out with my heart broken in three places. What a fucking show.
Some interesting play with structure and framing this episode. At last week's conclusion Soyo was shown discovering Mortis, and the whole scene was framed in slasher movie tones. Here, now that she has a better idea of Mortis' whole, you know, thing, Mortis is instead framed as the angry, lost girl that she really is. I really enjoyed (and did not at all expect) Soyo actually playing along with Mortis' whole 'calling the doctor' bit, it shows a pretty deep empathy that I don't really know if we've seen the character express before? (It's been a while since I watched MyGO, so I may be forgetting something.) Also, she apparently spends 3 whole days sleeping over there trying to patch things up, which, while there's definitely a selfish aspect to her motive (she misses CRYCHiC too, after all), I think deserves serious real one points. I don't think I have the emotional stamina to spend 3 whole days consoling anyone about anything.
Full credit to Rana also, who can just intuit what's going on with Mortis and Mutsumi without even actually being told. (She doesn't actually go out of her way to help, though, and spends a decent amount of time this episode playing with cats. Rana remains this subseries' most mysterious character.) Mortis actually seems to develop a bit of a crush on her, and is that a twinge of jealousy I detect from Soyo about that fact? My god, what a relationship chart this series has.
I like Umiri's brief scene in this episode. Forever the eternal mercenary, she describes the breakup of Ave Mujica as though it happened around her and not to her. And yet when Ricky Taki calls her on this, she gets annoyed. Truly the "fake ass IDGF'er" meme in human form.
The first half of this episode, I must stress, is actually pretty light by this show's standards. So of course, there needs to be a breaking point somewhere. Here, that breaking point is between Mortis and Mutsumi, who stirs for the first time in a solid month only to find how awry things have gone in her absence. This isn't what she wanted, and Mortis is appalled to learn so. The two have an argument in headspace, which of course to anyone outside of the Mutsumi-Mortis system's own head just looks like an argument with herself, and she actually carries on so bad that she ends up tripping and falling in front of Live House Ring and making a huge scene, which of course a throng of anonymous busybodies are nearby to witness. It's SO much that it would come off as contrived if the show weren't so set on showing us how badly this is fucking over Mutsumi and Mortis. It's hard to watch.
There is something admirable about the show's complete lack of handholding with this kind of thing. This episode alone depicts multiple conflicts within a fully-realized mental space, a tug-of-war between Mortis and Mutsumi for their collective fate that is just profoundly sad to witness. I do wonder how legible this is to audiences who aren't plural. Part of me---literally part of me---is worried this series might be too ahead of its time for most audiences to properly appreciate.
(I've barely talked about Sakiko here and she is absolutely going through it up and down this episode. From the horrible, obviously untrue claims she makes about not caring about either band or even about Mutsumi, to the fucking folder of notes she's gotten from Tomori over the years, to the fact that she sadly looks for another one despite telling Tomori off for them last week. To. This fucking expression, just, god.)
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There's a mostly-lighthearted interlude with Nyamu (it remains really funny that her dark secret, compared to everyone else's, seems to just be that she's from the sticks), but even that is twinged with her finding out about Mortis and Mutsumi's public breakdown. The episode then ends with MyGO finding out about Sakiko's whole extremely fucking complicated family situation. Episode 7 is entitled "Post nubila Phoebus," "after the clouds, the Sun." In most other contexts that would be a shining beam of hope, and maybe it is here too, but I'm fairly sure things will get worse before they get better. (Recall, we still have no idea what's going on with Uika, just as one example, and she's the only character from either band who doesn't put in even a cursory appearance in this episode. Where is she!)
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Astarion is not evil, you just donât understand him or what trauma can do to people.Â
I canât even begin to comprehend the level of trauma this man has. People can get severely traumatized by one bad event in their life, now imagine 200 years of them. 200 years of pure shit.
People who were abused sometimes become abusers - then they feel like theyâre finally the ones in control and in the position of power in this dynamic, no longer the powerless victim. They feel like they regained their power by becoming an abuser.Â
People can become abusers because they donât know what a healthy relationship looks like. They may believe relationships are built on domination and not mutual respect. That thereâs always a hierarchy - someone always holds power and theyâll do anything not to be the victim again.
People who were abused will sometimes feel better when someone else suffers abuse - then theyâre finally not the ones on the receiving end of it. Finally they get a break. They may fear that if they interfere, the abuse will turn back at them, so theyâll comply, even abuse others themselves, not to make that happen. Standing up for others always ends up with severe punishment from your abuser.
People who were abused and werenât helped can feel resentment and envy towards those who were helped. Theyâll feel angry that when they needed to be saved so badly, nobody saved them. They were all alone, while all those other people had a helping hand reach out to them. They might not want to help. Helping other victims can also be a trigger that reminds them of what they have gone through.
Astarion doesnât want to ascend for fun, he wants to ascend, because he has this false idea that when he does, he will finally be safe. That this will ensure nobody will ever be able to hurt him again. But that wonât be the case. He may feel strong and he may actually physically be strong, but that wonât erase the mental destruction heâd faced. He does this because heâs terrified. In his head, he still will be that until he processes his trauma and comes out of it healthier.
Ascending him emphasized some of his traits - this is why he will try his best to turn you into the spawn, or wonât let you break up with him or become an equal vampire - he will use his power to stay in control in your relationship, so he will never be the weak one again, nor can he be abandoned again, nor can you turn on him*. That only shows that ascending didnât help his mind, it only helped his body.Â
Astarion can become âevilâ if he lets his trauma win, but heâs not evil yet. The time frame of the game is far too short for him to process his hurt (especially since he doesn���t get to sit around and think - the group is in constant action, traveling and fighting, doom lingering over their heads - hardly a good environment for therapy. Heâs in constant survival mode*.), and expecting him to simply become a nice, helpful teddy bear quickly is unfair and unrealistic. Letâs not perpetuate the âperfect victimâ standards on traumatized people. Theyâre not perfect and after what theyâve faced, they should be expected to be.
*An example of that fear is shown when we meet the hunter thatâs after him, and Astarion says that we should kill every hunter we come across, except maybe Wyll. Itâs framed in a joking manner, but itâs actually rooted in fear. He does fear Wyll (and presumably others) could turn on him. He confirms so when you romance him and he says his plan was to make you develop feelings for him, so that you donât turn on him.Â
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"That would go together so well actually," Rafa jokes, "Being catholic is all about that punishment." For someone who never goes anywhere without his SĂŁo CristĂłvĂŁo necklace, Rafael manages to talk a lot of shit about his religion. But lucky him, Tisha's proposition wouldn't work anyway: "Ah, but midnight mass is from Christmas Eve to the first day of Christmas, minha pagĂŁ. We'll have to find another day when you can pretend to writhe in agony as you make contact with holy water."
Nick frowns, mostly because it reminds him of his own bad choices in the relationship department. And if he wasn't hyper-aware as to who he's with currently, he'd probably dropped a fun little story about that one ex of his who totally had done just that.
So lost in thought, Hari's offer doesn't fully reach the thinking part of his brain. He merely shakes his head, because no, he doesn't need help. But then he remembers that he does want the company, so he corrects himself quickly: "Oh yeah, yeah. Help's appreciated."
He guides Hari by the hand back into the kitchen, as if by now they couldn't navigate each others homes blindfolded. "You can... uh..." Right. Stand there and look good, because the beans are ground and the moka pot does all the magic. "Fetch four cups?" Yeah. Perfect. Covered it up.
"Do you have to brief me before Christmas dinner, or... porra, does your family need a briefing about Rafa and myself? I feel like we might be... I don't know. I don't want it to escalate." Again. "It sounds like it'll be basically two worlds colliding."
Tisha snorts out a laugh and shakes her head. âYes please. Here,â she takes both of Rafaâs hands between hers and rubs them to get some warmth back, then brings them up to her face and blows warm air on to them. âHey, if itâs such a hard sell, Iâll go to midnight mass with you after dinner. Then you can be a good Catholic and be tortured by my family.â
Hari follows Nick inside, pulling his phone out of his pocket to try to stop the buzzing. âIf mom hears another one of her kids has started going to church-â Tisha opens her mouth to bring up the wedding, again, and Hari adds âa Catholic church, she might cancel Christmas from now on.â
âNo she wonât.â She rolls her eyes. âThat would mean one less holiday where weâre all stuffed back into that house. She and Dad canât live on Diwali and Puthandu alone. Besides, even if he does take me up on it, Iâm not sure Iâd be allowed back.â Tisha winks at Rafa and blows on his hands again before letting go.
âYeah, that's what the Catholic church is known for. Not trying to convert people." Hari looks up from his phone and tucks it back into his pocket, finally silent. âDo you need a hand in there, Nick?â
âHey, we could make it an even trade. Nick, how do you feel about-â
Hari reaches out to muss up her hair on the way to the kitchen. âTisha, I would support any decision you make about your life, your religion, anything, you know that - but youâre so full of shit.â
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Wait you people are actually writing Pharma as Ratchet's abusive husband/ex in fics I thought that was just a joke
#squiggposting#pharma apologism#this is actual madness to me aidksmckd did you ppl read mtmte or#like did you read the kind of shit ratchet was saying to pharma about how he deserved#every bad thing that happened to him#and also took advantage of pharma's insecurities to manipulate him#(which also led to escalating a hostage situation and ambulon getting killed)#and yknow ratchet stealing PHARMAS FUCKING HANDS AND LEAVING HIM DEAD#how did ratchet do all that and yet the fandom comes up with#'hrm actually pharma who's still in love with ratchet after vicious verbal beatings and being killed twice'#'might actually be the one who's in a bad relationship and needs help'#guess that would mean acknowledging that protagonist =/= good guy tho
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ok actually yeah. i really need to do dishes and go to bed and not stay up late mentalillnessposting a little too viscerally on tumblr the night before i facilitate a workshop in front of the literal president of the university and the vp of my division (LOL about that btw. actively shitting my pants.) but oh my GOD. so saying goodbye to lia was actually fine in the moment. neither of us cried and we talked about all the ways weâll still be in each others lives and reasons weâll have to interact in the near future. and she gave me an extremely heartfelt thoughtful gift and we left on a very hopeful note and i felt better and content bc thereâs still the rest-of-life and weâll see each other there. but like an hour before that as i mentioned i was HYSTERICALLY sobbing. in full view of people i know AND people i donât. and i just sat there and sobbed while everything carried on around me. everything carried on around me!!! and i feel like im about to sob again thinking about it.
#purrs#delete later#idk. i typed a bunch here and then deleted it and now idk what to say. i just feel so lonely. i have had fucked up relationships with every#single older adult in my life and never had someone who could a) stay in my life b) be consistently present in my life c) meet my emotional#needs d) actually See me and accept me for who i am. Like not one person who can be all four of those things. and i have to be all four of t#those things for myself now because im 24 and i missed my chance. but how fucking shitty and painful is that? especially after a year like t#this. the way itâs literally ending the SAME way last year did. huge scary promotion (which i havenât even talked about on here or to anyone#but lia today actually. but it might be huger and scarier than i thought. which is good but also HUGE -âd scary. and not a bad thing of bc o#course but itâs so fucking⌠perilous? like it makes me feel profoundly imperiled because i have extremely good reason to feel that way. and#i have to endure the mortifying ordeal of applying for my own job AGAIN after the first time was so horrible. lol) and also losing a beloved#mentor figure who understood me in a way no one else did which mattered immensely even if they couldnât do the whole presence thing or#whatever. and now i only have one older adult in my life left (aside from my therapist who doesnât really count bc i only see her once a#week and we barely know each other still) who is like. here and helping me and i KNOW i am so sick in the head i KNOW and i should not be#writing it but every single day i am fucking terrified that i am being or will be separated from him emotionally or physically jsut like all#the others so. LOL!!!!! i am normal and well adjusted. but itâs like so fucking painful because im grasping at straws but again the reality#is im 24 and the only people on this earth who it is fair for me to expect all 4 from and who shouldâve provided it to me are my parents.#and i missed my chance with them forever and now i have to do it myself. and thatâs ok sometimes and i can handle it⌠except in the moments#where im sobbing hysterically and everything carries on. when i am in my darkest moments i want to run to an older adult and have them#comfort me but i truly cannot do that with any of the ones i still have left / regularly interact with for so many reasons. and itâs so#painful it makes me sick sometimes. and now i have to be the romy and the lia i wish to see in this world. but how can i do that when i#havenât finished grieving over them leaving which feels like leaving ME â NOW â in this moment when i have never needed more support of that#kind more. how can isummon it within myself. im not ready yet. i need a long hug and a hand to hold that wonât (have to) let go. when im#crying i need someone to take me somewhere and comfort me and calm me down. and im 24 so i canât ask for it. but oh my god i need it. and i#missed my chance. and lia left today and she only ever did that for me metaphorically but⌠tonight i feel more alone than ever.#and itâs like i donât even have the emotional intelligence or whatever to ASK for that. bc im playing by ear and i donât know how to read#the music of it. im self taught. that fucking sucks. that SUCKSSS. also thatâs too strong a way to put it liek obviously my friends who are#closer to my age are INTEGRAL to me being able to function and i learn from them and cherish their support. but just like i canât be a mom#to me my friends canât either. so itâs like what the fuck do i do. get steamrolled by relentless grief and rage every day i guess.#also side note. everything carried on when i was in brighton too. i came home early ofc but itâs like nothing changed in my absence. and#that has fucked me up SUPREMELY. i think that might be a root of it. like hm⌠it seems my presence doesnât have impacts. but idk
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Ë��¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽ Mr. Crawling
âĽI know people have written about how he gets jealousâŚbut I donât really think he does? Or at least not terribly. The scene with Mr. Chopped and the cat ears show that Mr. Crawling wonât pout or get sad at you showing affection to others, just that he wants to gain the same attention (the ear sceneâŚ). So jealousy with Mr. Crawling isnât too bad, just be prepared to shower him with more affection than the person you originally did.Â
âĽOn the other hand, I do think his jealousy may increase if you ignore him. Say you give more attention to Mr. Scarletella, Mr. Crawling would get a bit sad and pouty, thinking you donât like him anymore. If this happens, give him lots and lots of attention and reassurance, heâll be super grateful. I mean he loves your affection anyways, so might as well give him some extra headpats and kisses. Even better if you only show certain signs of affection with him, it makes him feel special.Â
âĽOverall, not the most jealous, but not completely unaffected either. Make sure he gets his daily dose of attention/quality time and heâll be as right as rain.
Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽ Mr. Gap
âĽUh, he gets more jealous than youâd think. LikeâŚhis whole thing is he wants to be special to youâŚin his own strange way. Doesnât like the thought of someone taking his place as a jokester to you. Also why he brings you things heâd think you like from time to time, just to make sure you still have that special place in your heart for him <3
âĽHates hate hates when you call him bad or not good. Heâs good! He swears! Remember how heâs helped you before! Gets all frowny when you call him not good and then call someone else good. Heâs good too! Guess he has to prove it, AGAIN. Itâs honestly kind of endearing how he has no clue how he actually kind of does like you? But not exactly in a romantic way? Itâs honestly hard to label his feelings towards you, so why should I?
âĽIâd say heâs the second most jealous in this list of characters, watching on angrily as you praise someone that isnât him. Be prepared for magazines and books galore when heâs in this mood, trying to prove his worth to you. Kind of strange for someone to try so hard when they claim to not like youâŚ
Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽ Mr. Silvair
âĽDefinitely the chillest one here. Doesnât really get jealous at all :/ If anything, he finds it entertaining when youâre affectionate with others. Gives him more insight to his lab rats. Yes, he sees everyone as a lab rat. Idk, I canât really see him get jealous.
âĽMaybeâŚMAYBE if someone else tries doing research on you, or if Ms. Nurse treats you instead heâll feel a bit off. LikeâŚyouâre his test subject, he knows you from the inside outâŚliterally and not in the fun sense. Why would you go to someone who doesnât know as much about you and how this world affects you? Itâs very hard to spot his jealousy, doesnât even notice it/recognize it himself. He just doesnât want anyone to mess up his dataâŚthatâs allâŚtotally.
âĽIn conclusion, not really jealous. Doesnât feel like he needs to be. Youâre âfriendsâ, doctor and patient, mad scientist and lab rat not many others threaten that balance between you.Â
Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽ Mr. Chopped
âĽHonestlyâŚMr. Chopped Iâm kinda mixed on how heâd be. Like on one hand, I could totally see him getting jealous if you call others cute or pay too much attention to them. On the otherâŚhe could probably care less. He loves himself, you love him, why does he need to get jealous? Itâs clear how much you like him with the way you pamper him. I mean we get so many examples where youâre affectionate to Mr. Crawling in front of Mr. Chopped and he doesnât really bat an eye.Â
âĽNow, I can see if he gets a bit insecure he might get more jealous. Whether it be because Mr. Crawling pats your head or tucks you into bed, Mr. Chopped feels a bit sad. Heâd like to tuck you in, you look so comfy. Might be just a bit pouty, eyeing you like a dissatisfied cat. Easily rectified with head pats or even cuddles. Gets side tracked from his jealousy as soon as you give him a sliver of attention honestly.
âĽMr. Chopped is fifty fifty when it comes to jealousy, but itâs never too bad. Heâs pretty comfortable with what you both have and doesnât really feel threatened by others. After all, you did call him cute.
Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽ Mr. Hugeface
âĽI wouldnât say he gets jealous? More possessive than anything. Like that scene when Mr. Machete stumbles into his little makeshift dollhouse that he made for you and gets all angry that heâs there. Itâs more of a âyouâre not supposed to be here, this is our playtimeâ more than actual jealousy. Throws a little fit whenever someone messes up your playtime. Very accusatory lmao.
âĽDoes not like when you try to escape. Was he not providing enough for you? Were you unhappy? Youâre not allowed to leave! Youâre his cute human! He canât just find another one yâknow. Mr. Hugeface may be lenient if he sees you happier, you need enrichment after all. Feels extra happy if you come back on your own violation.Â
âĽThe most childish out of all the characters on this list. Isnât afraid to throw tantrums, will also punish you by putting you in a solid concrete cube if heâs really upset. YeahâŚnot the most healthy of relationships to haveâŚBUT! I do think you could convince him to be a bit betterâŚ? Maybe? Only if you put enough work in communicating with him though. Maybe punish him in your own way like leaving for longer if he threatens to trap you.
Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽ Mr. Scarletella
âĽUhhhhhhhhhhh. Top of the list when it comes to jealousy. Watches your every move with curiosity and spite. Why are you doing that to Mr. Crawling? Do it to him instead. Why do you look so happy braiding Mr. Choppedâs hair? Style his hair instead. Why are you looking so fondly amused at Mr. Gap? Donât you find him amusing? You do like him, right? He likes you. He likes you a lot, and he thought he was enoughâŚwas he not?
âĽWill stare through your skull. It is so intimidating. His smile? Strained, it makes your skin crawl. You have to make sure he doesnât hurt your friends, heâs so close to snapping, but he knows that would upset you and thatâs not his goal. So instead he stands ominously in the background, body staticing in and out while his hand clenches the handle of his umbrella.Â
âĽNot that easily mended. Likes to monopolize all your time and affection. Needs constant reassurance as well, heâs quite needy. If you like constant validation and no social life go for it, just donât get too upset if he threatens your other monster friendsâŚhe canât stand that you could like someone that wasnât him.
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If youâre someone who needs reassurance from loved ones that they love you, thatâs really valid. But the way you ask for it matters. Hinting at it with comments like ânobody loves meâ can actually be hurtful to your loved ones. Itâs also a good idea to try and reassure yourself first!
The truth is that for a lot of people, giving reassurance constantly is exhausting. It can lead to issues in a relationship over time, and negative feelings on both sides because they may end up avoiding the other person. This is especially true if someone doesn't ask for reassurance directly but hints at it with things like "No one cares about me."
My advice is if you are finding yourself struggling is to first try and self soothe either with skills or things that have helped in the past. Here is my post on self-soothing ideas! And if that doesnât work, then ask for it in a healthy way.
Some other examples.
Keep screenshots, letters, cards etc that affirm you are cared about by your loved ones. You can even ask someone to give you a recording of them saying it that you can listen to. Bonus: Keep these things in a self-care box that you can use in times of crisis and pull out that has other things in like affirmation cards, favourite treats, self care items, etc.
Examine the evidence. By this I mean try and keep a list of things they've done to show they care about you. For example, I have a list of things my partner has done for me besides saying "I love you" of both big things and little things that I can read when my brain decides to be rude to me and make me doubt he cares.
If the other person has done something specifically to make you feel they don't care, it's important to step back and look at the situation and check the facts. There's a difference between someone lying to you or doing something intentional and someone not replying to you because they got busy. Hereâs my post on checking the facts!
Hereâs a post on Challenging Irrational Thoughts!
ACCEPTS is a really good skill for distractions! Here's a post on it.
TIPP is a good skill if you are needing to calm down in immediate crisis. Here's a post on it.
If you're having urges to accuse your loved one of not caring, consider Urge Surfing (here's a post on it) and then using a skill or plan that helps you.
If you aren't able to self-soothe that's so valid! It really is. I recommend trying it because sometimes you will be able to. But then sometimes you won't be able to and that's okay. In this case, if you need to get it from someone, ask directly for it instead of doing it in a guilting/passive aggressive/hinting way. You might say "Hey. I know you care about me, but my brain is being rude. Can you please give me some reassurance?" instead of "Sorry I'm such a bad friend/person/burden/etc".
It might also be worth having a conversation when calm with the other person to establish some boundaries and ideas for communication.
For example, if your friend regularly feels drained by you asking for reassurance, they could set boundaries on how often they're okay for you to ask for it.
You both might decide that they will try and message you randomly to offer reassurance because it can mean a lot when that happens.
This might be where they send you messages/recordings/etc that you can read in times of need.
If the friend is doing something specifically, even unintentionally, that makes you question things then it's really valid to have a discussion about it! I recommend using some I-Statements or other communicative skills to talk about it. Even if they aren't doing something wrong, it's still valid to talk about your feelings and see if you can come up with a solution. For example, maybe it's really hard on you that they disappear randomly for a couple days when their energy levels plummet. And this causes you to spiral and think they're ghosting you or etc. In this situation, maybe you and your friend come up with a solution where you establish a single emoji (specific for this purpose) that the friend can send with low energy that says "Hey. It's not you but I'm feeling drained and need to not reply for a bit."
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Early seasons Spencerâs gf joining the team and quickly realizing just how used to Spencer she is bc the rest of the teamâs reactions to him are so different from hers
Cinnamon Sticks - S.R
a/n: obsessed with the idea of baby spencie having a gf who just gets him while he's still an awkward, nerdy little genius! thanks for requesting bestie so sorry it took so long i am the worst LOL
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pairings: early!seasons!spencer reid x fem!reader
warnings: established relationship, secret relationship, relationship being exposed bc these two are just so in love
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Garcia burst into the bullpen like some sort of whirlwind that was painted in neon, her scarf fluttering behind her almost like a cape. She juggled a precariously full cup of coffee, while her phone teetered between ear and shoulder as if testing the limits of human dexterity.
"I swear to all that is holy, if my life doesn't slow down in the next five minutes--"
The sentence derailed as she misjudged her pace, the coffee sloshing dangerously close to the rim of the cup. She stopped abruptly, her arms a flurry of motion, but not quick enough to stop the scalding liquid from spilling over and searing her fingers.
"Oh, fantastic! Just what I needed!" she huffed, waving her hand like it might stop the sting.
She threw herself into the closest chair with a huff, slumping back and fixing the coffee cup with a murderous glare, like this was just another tally in a long line of grievances.
Your eyes darted up from your work, only for a moment, enough to confirm what you already knew. You hadn't been working here long, but it was long enough to recognize the phenomenon that was Garcia: a blur of motion and words, mid-rant before anyone had the chance to catch up. It was like clockwork really.
You risked a glance across the desk at Spencer, who was so absorbed in his notebook it was a wonder he even remembered to breathe. If Garcia's antics registered as white noise to anyone, it was him. But then, almost like he had a radar for being watched, he looked up, catching your gaze.
His eyebrows lifted into a subtle what can you do? expression, and you couldn't help but smile back.
That was the thing about Spencer. He had this uncanny knack for knowing exactly what you were thinking, almost as if he had a cheat sheet for your brain. And maybe he did--like his brain worked three times faster than everyone else's in the room (which, let's face it, it definitely did). But instead of that being intimidating, it was oddly reassuring.
"At this rate, I'm one bad email away from alphabetizing my entire pantry for stress relief."
Spencer's notebook hit the desk, and there it was--the shift. His shoulders drew back, face lighting up--the kind of thing that signaled his mini-lecture was incoming.
"Organizing your pantry is actually a practical stress management technique. By categorizing items, you create a structured environment that reduces decision fatigue. Its why people feel calmer in tidy spaces, it's psychological."
Morgan held up a hand. "Psychological, huh? Sounds like youâre just trying to justify your weird love affair with labels, pretty boy.â
âDonât forget,â you added absently, flipping a page in your report, âit also saves time when youâre cooking. I think you called it practical efficiency."
The words slipped out without much thought, but as soon as they did, the bullpen stilled. You glanced up, heart sinking as you saw every face turned in your direction.
Morganâs grin was the first thing you notice--wide and knowing, stretching across his face. He tilted his head, eyes bouncing between you and Spencer like he was putting pieces together in real time.
âWait a minute,â he said, sitting forward with a gleam in his eye. âDid you just quote him? Like, word for word?â
Your cheeks heated instantly. âWhat? No. I meanâmaybe. I donât know.â
âPretty sure you did,â Morgan shot back, smirking. âMan, what else has he been teaching you? You got the periodic table memorized too?â
You rolled your eyes, leaning back in your chair. âOh, please. If youâve been around Spencer long enough, youâre bound to pick up a few things. Heâs like a walking encyclopedia.â
âWell,â Spencer said, his head tilting slightly as he spoke, âyour cinnamon sticks always end up at the back of your pantry. Thatâs why I figured you might appreciate the idea of organizing by use frequency. Like I said, practical efficiency.â
The moment the words left his mouth, you knew heâd made a tactical error.
Garcia gasped, her eyes lighting up like sheâd just been handed the juiciest piece of gossip of her life.Â
âOh. My. God. Spencer Reid, how exactly do you know what the back of her pantry looks like?â
You froze, rooted to the spot as the realization hit you like a cartoon anvil. This was bad.
Spencerâs expression mirrored yours for half a secondâwide-eyed panicâbut he quickly scrambled for an answer.Â
âItâs, um⌠a logical assumption,â he stammered, his fingers toying with the pen in his hand, a nervous tell he couldnât quite suppress. âSpices like cinnamon sticks always seem to migrate to the back of the pantry unless thereâs an intentional system in place.â
Morgan let out a long, low whistle, rocking back in his chair with enough force to make it creak. His grin was insufferably smug, the kind that practically begged for something to be thrown at him.Â
âNice save. But I donât think Garciaâs buying it.â
Garcia tapped her chin, clearly enjoying herself far too much. âOh, no, no, no. This is too good. I mean, logical assumption my fabulous behind! Cinnamon sticks in the back of her pantry? Really? Whatâs next? A detailed analysis of how she stacks her cereal boxes?â
You laughed, though it sounded more like a bark than anything natural. âYouâre all reading way too much into this. Spencer just knows weirdly specific things about, well, everything. Thatâs kind of his thing, remember?â
âMmhmm,â Garcia hummed, clearly unconvinced. âAlright, genius, Iâll let it slide this time. But Iâm watching you.â
âPlease donât,â Spencer muttered under his breath, earning a round of laughter from the team.
Garcia spent a solid ten minutes in full interrogation mode after that, her eyes narrowing with each and every pointed question she lobbed your way. Morgan, of course, was no help. He leaned back, grinning like a kid with a front-row seat to the circus, his smirk practically screaming that he knew they were this close to striking a nerve.
Spencer and you had been so careful. You'd been dating long before you joined the BAU, but the moment Hotch had called to offer you the position, you both knew you'd have to keep things under wraps. Dating a coworker was one thing; dating Spencer Reid, a genius with an accidentally too-honest mouth, was an entirely different challenge.
You hadn't expected it to be this hard, though. Keeping the secret wasn't the worst part--it was pretending he wasn't the center of your universe every time you walked into the room. It was keeping your hands to yourself when all you wanted to do was smooth out the messy strands of hair that always fell into his eyes. It was biting your tongue when someone interrupted his long-winded tangents because the truth was, you loved hearing him talk.
The hours stretched on, and the bullpen slowly thinned out. Garcia was the first to leave, blowing a kiss to the room. Morgan left soon after, pausing to flash you one last grin before disappearing. Even Prentiss packed up for the night, muttering something about needed an extra shot of espresso tomorrow morning.
"You handled that well."
You looked up from your report to find Spencer by your desk, one hand tucked into his pocket, the other skimming lightly along the edge of the divider. His expression was surprisingly soft, almost bashful, as though he had been waiting to get you alone.
"Handled that well?" you repeated, raising an eyebrow. "You were the one who almost blew it, Spencer. Cinnamon sticks? Really?"
He smiled, lips twitching upward as he shifted his weight from one foot to the other. "Okay, I'll admit that wasn't my most subtle moment. But in my defense, they do end up at the back of most pantries."
You couldn't help but laugh, shaking your head as you leaned back in your chair.Â
"We're lucky Garcia got distracted. If she'd pushed any harder..." Your voice drifted into a soft sigh. "That could've been bad."
"That was a close one."
The quiet that followed wasn't uncomfortable, but it felt a little more substantial, if that was the word, filled with that soft ache that always bloomed in your chest when he was near.Â
Spencer stepped closer, his hand brushing against the edge of your desk. His body angled toward you, like even when you werenât touching, he couldnât help but gravitate toward you.
âYou know,â he said, his voice softer now, âI donât think she actually suspects anything. But we should probably be more careful.â
"Probably," you replied, drawing out the word in a teasing, sing-song tone. âUnless youâd rather keep showing off how ridiculously well you know me.â
His cheeks flushed a soft pink, but he didnât look away. Instead, that shy, boyish smileâthe one that always made you a little breathlessâspread across his lips.
"That's going to be hard," he admitted, voice barely above a whisper. "I noticed a lot about you."
The words hit you like they always did--soft enough, but with the force of a thousand butterflies taking flight in your chest. You could feel the flush creeping up to your neck, and you mentally cursed him for how easily he was able to do this to you.
"You're lucky I like you."
His smile widened, and his eyes crinkled at the corners in that way they only came out at specific moments. Like when he successfully performed a card trick for the team or when he stumbled across an original copy of a book at a library sale.Â
The same one you'd seen when he talked about his mom on her good days, or when you asked him on a date.Â
You leaned forward. "And since I like you, any chance you'd want to kiss me right now?"
"How could I not, with you looking at me like that?"
The angle was clumsy--your chair too low, his frame leaning awkwardly over--but all of that melted away the second his hands found your face. His thumbs brushed soft circles against the place where your cheek met your jaw.
His lips were soft against yours at first, testing, before growing firmer, more sure. The kind of confidence that came with a hundred familiar kisses before.Â
Time seemed to slow, or at least for you it did, the rest of the world nonexistent.
The sound of a throat clearing broke the spell, and you jerked back from Spencer, your chair wobbling slightly as you turned toward the sound. You immediately regretted it--your lips felt swollen, your face hot, and there was Prentiss, leaning against the doorframe.
"We were... uh, testing something," you blurted, avidly avoiding eye contact. "You know, like... oxygen exchange! For scientific purposes."
Spencer blinked, then mumbled, "Oxygen exchange? That's the best you got?"
"Shut it," you hissed through gritted teeth, not daring to look at him.
Prentiss arched a brow. "Relax, lovebirds. If this is your idea of scientific research, I'll make sure Garcia doesn't find out. You're welcome."
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neighbors (tf141 x fem! reader)
Introduction: the universe is never on your side.
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wake up, go to work, eat, read, and go to sleep.
that had been your routine for the last couple months ever since you moved in to your new place. your new home.
it really didnât bother you at all. the solitude, the quietness, the undeniable lack of socialization you had, it was okay with you even if might have looked like the most miserable life to others.
it was a great place to the say the least. your last resort to finally getting the fuck out of the apartment you had shared with your now ex-roommate. you couldnât bare living there another day hearing her constant sexual acts with every guy she brought in like they were some kind of rabid animals. gross.
there was really no need to say goodbye either. jumping out of your bed in excitement when you got the message from the real estate agent that the place was ready for you to move in.
finally, finally after so many years of busting your ass and saving just enough, you had your own place. not hesitating to pack your things that same day and shove everything into your old but still functional car.
you were free.
the moving was tedious and exhausting, working your muscles out when your furniture finally arrived and giving an awkward smile to your next door neighbor which you later got to find out that her name was charlotte, but insisted on you calling her just auntie lottie. she was a nice old lady, mid 70s who frequently brought you some of her delicious homemade baking with every new recipe she came across. who were you to reject free food?
auntie lottie was probably the only person you had actually talk to ever since moving in, occasionally sitting on her porch just to chat or helping her out with her garden at times.
it was one friday afternoon where the weather was a bit too cold to sit outside and found yourself sitting on auntie lotties couch as she talked about her children, grandchildren, or just the latest gossip. you were more on the listening end of the spectrum, at times putting in your two cents when she asked of your families whereabouts and pointed out âhow such a young lady shouldnât be living by herself! you ought to have a husband by now.â
you knew she didnât mean it with bad intentions but it made your cheeks heat up in embarrassment with the reminder that you were truly utterly unsuccessful when it came to relationships. sure, you had your fair share of partners and they never lasted longer than a few months before they were heading out the door when they realized your lack of intimacy.
it just never felt right and you really couldnât blame them, despite it leaving an ache in your chest. you really donât quite remember how the topic of conversation was brought up but she had mentioned that your other neighbors just across from you would be here soon.
âreally? I thought no one lived there..â furrowing your eyebrows in confusion as you brought the cup of tea up to your lips. it had been empty ever since you got here. no visible cars or sign of life making itself known for you to determine if someone actually lived there. you just figured it was empty.
âtheyâre an odd bunch but theyâre sweet and handsome. most of the time theyâre gone. no worries though, Iâll introduce you to them, dear.â you really werenât fond of that idea and by the way her eyes wrinkled with that sly look she gave you, a worried chuckle made its way past your lips.
âsure, that would be nice.â
true to her word, they arrived the very next day.
the engine of a black SUV waking you up from your three-hour nap that had your joints popping back in place after stretching your limbs out of their locked positions with how long you had been lying down on the couch.
that wasnât really what caught your attention though, fighting off the idea of just going back to sleep before your ears caught on the multitude of voices from outside. reluctantly, you get yourself out from the confines of your soft blanket and sit up on your knees to open one of the blinds with your fingers.
your eyes widened at the sight before you. four big men, all of them carrying a variety of duffle bags make their way out of the car. some of them stretching after what you presume a long drive.
you canât quite get a good look at them but you could tell they were all pretty good-looking even from the distance. starting with the one who probably had better hair days with the way his mohawk was a total mess, leaning against the tallest man you have ever seen as he rubs the sleep off his eyes. skull mask doesnât seem to be bothered by the shorter manâs tactics. an arm wrapped around his waist to keep him from falling face first on the pavement as they make their way to the front door.
flicking your eyes towards the other side of the car, you zero in on probably the most gorgeous guy you have ever seen. he wears a cap, the UK flag displayed on it and you almost gasp when he turns just enough for you to see how smooth his skin looks. totally not jealous. the last of the group finally gets out from the drivers seat. he looks older than the other three but his stance screams authority and respect once he adjusts himself. these were the neighbors lottie was talking about?
but before you could ponder the fact that you were living across four big scary men, mutton chops turns around towards your direction and makes eye contact with you.
you flinch away from the window a little too hard, tumbling your way over the couch and down onto the floor.
âshit!â you quickly cover your mouth, lying on the ground in defeat and your pride more broken than it already is for at least a few minutes before you slowly get yourself up and warily open the blinds again only to find that they had already headed inside.
letting out a small sigh of relief, you sit down on the cold floor. tilting your head back to rest against the cushion of your couch as you beg to any god out there that they didnât catch you basically eyeing them down.
auntie lottie will definitely hear about this on your next âgirls nightâ.
a/n: this is me forgiving myself after not uploading something for 2-3 months.? Iâm sorry ;-;
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PLEASE MAKE SUGAR MOMMY!WANDA. It can be when she already left Westview and is now living a lonely life alone missing her children. Then there goes new neighbor R who just left home and is struggling financially OMG!
I loved every single one of your Wanda fics and I'll never shut up about it đ
Everything Again
Fandom: Marvel
Pairing: Wanda Maximoff & fem!Reader
Genre: Smut & Dark-ish fic
Words: 8K+
Summary: Wanda has nothing in her life that brings her joy once she let go of Westview, but then she meets you. She makes sure to be everything you want and need, and youâre all she needs⌠for a while. But what happens when some of her wants from Westview come creeping back? Can Wanda suppress it or will she do whatever it takes to have everything she wants again?
Warnings: light stalking, not the healthiest relationship, Wanda is controlling, toxic!Wanda, mind manipulation, top!Wanda, bottom!R, rough sex, magic strap-on, slight breeding kink, degradation, magic restraints, light choking, slight dubcon, maybe possibly unknown risk of pregnancy but no actual pregnancy.
A/N: I hate this title but I couldn't think of a better one... Anyways I kinda took a dark turn with this request that's my bad. Enjoy folks!
When Wanda saw you, she knew she had to have you. It was like the stars aligned all of a sudden and a splash of color came into her bleak world for once since leaving Westview. Sheâd been wandering all over since that⌠incident. All she felt for months was this horrible, nagging, hollowness and she had no idea how to solve it. Part of her wondered if she filled this void with something to at least stave off the boredom, maybe it would be better. But so far, her only method of occupying her time was figuring out the scope of her power. And every time she dabbled with that it just felt like the hole inside her ripped open even deeper.Â
She had made her way to a small college town when she bumped into you. Or, more accurately, when you smacked into her, your eyes glued to your phone at the time. When your body collided with Wandaâs she felt anger bubble inside her for a moment and that familiar tingle at her fingertips as she decided how she might act in response to your inconsideration. But when your panicked eyes looked up at hers, suddenly it was like the fuse inside her was doused with ice cold water.Â
Wanda couldnât help but smirk at your immediate apologetic response once you realized you were now fully pressed against an utter stranger. At the time, you were so panicked over the email you had just received that you forgot to look up. But when you felt strong hands bracing your elbows as you hit another personâs body like hitting a brick wall, it brought you crashing into reality. The guilt and embarrassment you felt were burning on your cheeks, but the eyes that met yours were only angry for a brief moment. After yours locked with hers they shifted from anger to surprise and then, curiously enough for the both of you, to intrigue.Â
âIâ I am so sorry,â you sputtered as you attempted to take a step back. Key word there was attempted. To your confusion, the woman in front of you didnât seem to want to let go.Â
It surprised Wanda too, but not in a bad way. The moment she heard your voice things lit up even more. That splash of color turned into a sea and she didnât want to let go just yet. Her hands wrapped tighter around your elbows and for a moment she didnât even care that it could possibly startle you. She just knew that for some odd reason, having you, this wide-eyed, terrified random girl she bumped into on the street, was bringing part of her back to life in a way.Â
âAre you okay?â Wanda still didnât let go. If anything, she pulled you ever so slightly closer as she swore she could feel your heartbeat like crazy against her own chest. Â
âOh, um, yes.â You again attempted to take a step back. âThank you, umâŚâ
âWanda,â she replied and finally dropped her hold on you. It didnât go unseenâ the disappointed frown she had for a moment as you took a wide step back.Â
âWanda,â you echoed. âIâm sorry about that. I shouldâve watched where I was going. Are you alright?â Your head tilted and your eyebrows scrunched as you asked her that and Wanda was taken aback for a moment that you even thought to ask. It had been so long since she was asked anything if she were being honest.
âWhat made you so distracted?â Wanda ignored your question and chose to ask one of her own. She didnât even know you, but she realized she suddenly wanted to learn everything about you, starting with what had you so wrapped up in a tiny screen that you ran straight into another human being.Â
âOhâŚâ Your eyes dropped to the ground and Wanda took note of the way you shuffled nervously in front of her. âUm, nothing justâ It wasnât something that shouldâve distracted me like that. Iâm sorry for running into you.â You were trying to go at this point. The way this stranger was looking at you had you anxious and you had no idea why. The fact that she was also asking you this rather than just going on her own way also made you feel self-conscious and scrutinized by the woman before you.Â
Wanda just blinked back at you, the frown on her face showing yet again for a moment. Your eyes searched hers and the confusion in them grew. Did this total stranger really want to know your business? If you were to say it out loud to her, surely you would seem pathetic. But she still stood, waiting for you to answer what was so important that you completely missed the person standing still as you walked right into her.
âOkay,â you sighed, âI got an email about my funding. Iâm aâ Or I guess was a student here. My funding got pulled. No funding means no grad school⌠So I have to figure that out, I guess.âÂ
There was a moment of silence as Wanda just stared down at you. Her facial expression was impossible to read for a moment. It was pensive, almost neutral and you waited for any sort of response to her.Â
âIâll figure it out,â you continued for whatever reason. Trying to fill the silence as Wanda just kept staring. âThereâs other programs, other schools. I can apply again.â
âIâm sure it will all work out,â Wanda finally said. She put her hand on your shoulder for a moment, trailing it over you as she finally began to walk past you. When her hand left you and she went her own way, you just stood there stunned.Â
You thought that encounter with her would plague your mind for days, but as if a switch had flipped suddenly that strangeness that was filling your mind faded into nothing.
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That encounter may have left you utterly confused, but to Wanda it made things so clear. She finally had a plan, something to do. She was wandering aimlessly since Westview with nothing to fill the time. She had said she would find her children again in some dimension, somewhere, but for she had no real leads. She was losing hope, she was spiralingâ That is until you bumped into her.
The gears in Wandaâs mind began to turn the minute you confessed to why you were so distracted that fateful day. And ever since then, she was going to put a plan into motion. First, she had to learn just a little bit more about you. But it wouldnât do if you suddenly left the place she had found you in, so she tweaked some things. Starting with an anonymous donation to your department (of which she found quite quickly from just a few days of watching you) so that they might be able to fund their graduate studentsâ Specifically youâ and that you might be able to stay and continue your research and studies while she worked on a way to draw you closer to her.Â
After a few weeks of watching you, she quickly learned that despite her donation, they didnât give you enough funding to comfortably live on. You ran from job to job when you werenât on campus studying and Wanda quickly decided, if you were to be her new fixation, then having multiple jobs would not do. You had her undivided attention, so now she wanted the majority of yours. She decided you could have your studies, but the rest of you⌠The rest of you she was going to make hers.Â
It only took her a few more weeks after watching you carefully to approach you again. One thing about her new powers was that, rather than captivating a whole town like she did with Westview, she could easilyâ and with a lot less catastrophic damageâ erase a small part of peopleâs memories. Namely, their memory that Wanda even existed in the first place. It wasnât possible for the whole world to forget her, but a small college town she definitely could handle. Just another reason to keep you inside this town and not let you wander much further. With her handle on this new aspect of her own power, she took it one step further with you, erasing the very first day you two met. That day would always replay in Wandaâs mind, but she knew it confused and frightened you and she needed to paint herself in the best light possible when she finally approached you face-to-face again.
It was quite easy to approach you this time too. She posed as a professor in your own university. She twisted and turned the minds of the university until it was as if she had been there a long time. An established part of a university department outside of your own. She knew your schedule too, so she knew that you would always sit at the corner of the university coffee shop for about an hour in between classes. Thatâs where she finally approached youâ or, to be more accurate, she made you approach her.
She almost felt bad about it, but at the same time she knew it would be her way in. She knew your eyes would be buried in a book as you walked to your usual spot and she used that moment to use an invisible force to trip you. And, like the knight in shining armor she wanted to appear to you as, she swooped in front of you and caught you skillfully.Â
The first look you gave her was back on your face this time too. The panic and embarrassment that burned in your cheeks as you looked up at your savior was evident on your face. Wanda gave you the best, charming smile she could muster, but if you were being honest it made you feel almost as if you were a fly that landed right in a spiderâs web.Â
âAre you okay?â Wanda said the same line to you and you nodded, immediately trying to apologize like last time.Â
Wanda knew by now that this was your personality. You were shy and anxious, but also patient and kind. All the things that were the opposite of how she considered herself and all the things that had her captivated by you.Â
âYeah, Iâ Iâm good,â you again tried to step back and this time Wanda let you. âIâm so sorry! Thank you for catching me. Are you okay?â
âIâm fine,â Wanda chuckled as her hands fell to her sides. âWhat are you reading? Must be interesting.â The crooked smile she gave you was what finally drew you in. It was charming and warm and the way her eyes sparkled had you wanting to see more. When Wanda took in the wide, curious eyes looking back at her she knew she had you.Â
And that was really all it took for her to wrap you up in her web and never let you go.
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In the following months things happened rather quickly. After the day you had officially met Wanda, you saw her way more often. She would always sit near you at the coffee shop, or bump into you on other parts of campus, until finally you two established a date. And from that date things happened even quicker. It was like you blinked and suddenly your whole life was wrapped up in Wandaâs. You quickly said goodbye to your rundown, tiny apartment and moved into Wandaâs extravagant house right outside of town. Instead of taking the city bus to and from campus, she was driving you whenever and wherever you needed to go. There was now a lot more free time in your life to focus on both your studies and this new relationship you found yourself in with Wanda, as she had insisted you quit your job. That she would take care of every single one of your wants and needs. And how could you say no to that? Although, it was all a little too fast for your comfort, if you were being honest, but at the same time it was Wanda⌠You couldnât picture your life without her from the very moment you met her and she made it clear that she intended for you to never find out what it would be like without her in it.Â
She took care of you, she took care of everything. You needed only to focus on two things: her and school. Wanda loved the passion you had for studying, so she let you keep one thing outside of her. But she was still near, even if you werenât aware. She was always near.Â
But as months stretched on and her attachment to you became even stronger, things shifted a bit. She was feeling⌠anxious. The life she had back in Westview began to pop up in her mind again and she felt that hole inside her chest once moreâ The one that you had filled when she first saw you. There was only one part of her Westview life that kept running through her mind though. It wasnât Vision. No, it was never Vision. Not when she had you. You were a brighter light in her life than Vision ever had been. A deeper love that felt soft and gentle, even if she had orchestrated a lot of events in order to make the two of you happen.Â
Vision wasnât what kept her up lately. It was her boys. There were dreams of them, flashes of them in her daily life. It was almost as if the more she loved you, the more she missed them. You had healed this wound, but in the nights that you wrapped your arms around her and fell asleep, she felt that familiar tug she had in Westviewâ the one that longed for a family. A life of peace and completeness. That made the wound feel fresh again.Â
So Wanda began to withdraw. She wasnât going to let you go, but for now, as she contemplated these feelings and how to fix them, she needed time and distance. Each time you smiled at her, each time you kissed her, that tug in the pit of her stomach felt stronger and stronger. The longing grewâ The thought of recreating a Westview with you was tempting. But she knew how well that worked out last time.Â
Late at night when this longing grew particularly strong, Wanda would sneak away when you were fast asleep to contemplate her options. She had hoped that you wouldnât notice her withdrawal, but when your whole world was Wanda⌠How could you not?Â
As these days of dealing with a withdrawn Wanda stretched on, you were getting restless. Something was clearly bothering Wanda and it was causing a rise of anxiety in you. At first you tried to approach it gently, but Wanda iced you out. The problem grew and Wanda warned you not to poke at it, but you couldnât just leave it be.Â
With your life being filled with Wanda nowâ Her withdrawing left you painfully lonely. So you began pushing unspoken limits Wanda set for you. Fights started and time and time again Wanda would shut you down.Â
The more she did so, the more it felt she was putting you on the shelf. Like you were her little play thing and she was bored of you. There was an ache in you that you didnât quite understand and the more confusion she left you with the closer you were to being utterly done. How you could even live without Wanda, you werenât sure, but you were almost a little tempted to figure it out.Â
There was no way you could ever leave Wanda, though. You didnât want to, even if she was withdrawn, you still loved her deeply. But you wanted attention, acknowledgement, anything.Â
Unfortunately for you, the only way you knew how to get that was to push her buttons more and more each day.Â
You had no idea what was going through Wandaâs mind, but she had been particularly aggravated lately. What you didnât know was that Wanda was stuck in trying to find the solution to the feelings that were plaguing her. She had played with an idea, but knew that in order to do so she would out her true nature and risk the memories she took from you to come flooding back. What would you do then, if you remembered who Wanda was? Her name was all over the news and the whole world knew she had fallen far from where she was when she helped the avengers. That was so long ago to Wanda. It was a different time, a different her. One that didnât know her potential and didnât know her own heart until she finally found all the pieces.Â
The problem was, sheâs never had all those pieces all at the same time. She wanted you and her boys. She wanted the picture perfect family that she had in Westview, but she wanted it with you this time. She wanted you as her little housewife and mother of her twins. In the past week she had been engrossed in ways to make that happen. She had a theory that if she tried to create her children again it would be the same children she once had. All she needed was to share her DNA in some way with you and a little bit of magic to add to that. Then, all would be right in her eyes if she had them in this way. For whatever reason, she felt that that was the true way the universe was meant to be. If she built this family with you, then it would never be taken from her ever again. The tricky part was actually creating them with you in a way that didnât have you questioning how it was even scientifically possible. That would have you questioning a lot about who she is and what she could do. And she didnât want to ruin what she established with you just yet. Even if the more you pushed at her the more she was tempted to say let go of her control.
She knew you were getting fed up with it too and the more you pushed her the more she contemplated letting her resolve slip. She tried her best to keep you at arms length while she tried to figure out her predicament. But she was feeling stuck with no alternative other than to reveal herself and what she could do. She kept going in circles to feel less stuck, but the more stuck she felt with this problem the angrier she was. And unfortunately, the angrier she was the easier it was for you to push her buttons.Â
Unfortunately for the both of you, it only took one final push for her to actually snap. When you thought of Wanda breaking, you thought it would mean she would be forced to talk to you. Never did you expect the outcome of your plans that night.Â
Your classmates had invited you out for drinks and, since you met Wanda, your answer was usually no. But tonight things were different. Wanda was so wrapped up in her own thoughts she didnât pick you on campus. She was kind enough to warn you to take an Uber and she would pay, but you were still angry about it. So when you were invited out, you said yes.Â
Saying anything other than no wouldâve already irritated Wanda. Even a maybe. She didnât like the idea of you going out to bars, especially without her. Usually if you wanted to do something with anyone else youâd at least ask her and she would be nearby to make sure you were safe and no one was tempted to take advantage of the time she was allowing them to have alone with you. But this time, you werenât even going to ask. You were just going to go. Something you hadnât done since before Wanda.
You knew what you were doing. It was all entirely intentional. Right down to the outfit you picked and the way you walked past Wanda, making just enough noise to get some of her attention. Even if she didnât look up at you.
âWhere are you going?â Wanda asked as she flipped a page of a strange book she was reading.
âOut,â you muttered. Even if Wanda wasnât looking at you, you wanted your tone to register that you were rolling your eyes at her. The fact that she didnât even look up just pissed you off even more.Â
âIâm not planning to leave the house tonight.â She still wasnât looking at you and that just made your hands ball into fists as you got more and more offended by her lack of attention.Â
âI know,â you scoffed. âI donât have to go everywhere with you.â
Suddenly, an eerie silence filled the room. You watched Wandaâs face as she kept her eyes glued to the book she was reading. There was a slight change in it, a tightening of her jaw, but she still didnât look at you.Â
âYou know thatâs not how this works,â Wandaâs response was calm, but you could tell you were starting to get to her. Never had you been defiant to her. She gave you everything you wanted and you did whatever she asked. There was an unspoken rule to go where Wanda goes, be where she wants you and an even deeper unspoken rule to not question or defy any of the other arrangements you two have made. But tonight, as you watched her jaw clench and unclench and realized you were getting under her skin, you decided to push more.Â
âSo?â You shrugged and that silent uncomfortable feeling in the room felt like it intensified the very second you uttered that one word. âI donât see the harm in going out just for one night on my own.â
Wandaâs eyes slowly slid from her book to your face the moment you uttered the phrase on your own. That definitely wasnât something you shouldâve said to her. There was an understanding that anything you did âon your ownâ was something that Wanda would be nearby for. What you were asking for was a night completely away from Wanda, and it was breaking the biggest unspoken rule she had for you. This was new waters you were treading, but you were so sick of her lack of interest that you didnât care. Any attention from her was a change from whatever was happening now.Â
âYouâre not going,â she ordered as she snapped her book shut and stood up.Â
You just snorted at that, anger boiling in your blood as you stood your ground. âWhy not? You seem preoccupied with just about anything other than me. Whatâs the harm?â
She was right in front of you now, her jaw was clenching and unclenching like it had before, but this time you looked down for a brief second and noticed her fists were doing the same. Still, though, you wanted to keep pushing.Â
âWith you dressed like that,â Wanda warned, âI think you know exactly what harm it could do.â You knew what you were doing when you got dressed. A tight, cropped shirt and even tighter short shorts to match. It was something meant to catch the eye of others and definitely something you knew would get an extra rise out of Wanda to add to that. What you didnât know was what exactly Wanda meant. She was already picturing in her mind the droves of people who would come trying to pick you up at whatever trashy bar you decided to go to. And when she pictured people trying to touch what was hers, she also pictured all the ways in which she could make them suffer so much as daring to think they could have you.Â
You were playing with fire and on some level you knew that, but something in you couldnât stop pushing her buttons. Even if you didnât know what exactly you were getting into, even if you didnât know to the full extent how possessive Wanda could be of you and how much of a monster she was capable of being when provoked.Â
âI donât think itâs that big of a deal.â You shrugged again and Wandaâs eye twitched as you kept challenging her resolve. âAt least someone will appreciate it.â
If you thought the tension was bad when Wanda stood up, now it was suffocating you. Wanda just stared back at you, her eyes burning with anger. In fact, she looked so angry you swore you saw a red flash in her eyes. For a moment, you kind of just stood there, waiting for Wanda to respond, but on her part she was trying to calm the possessive rage that you just caused to boil over inside of her.Â
Part of her wanted to force you to your knees and have you beg forgiveness for defying her like this. You hadnât even done anything yet, but just the idea and threat of disobeying her wishes had her furious. She was so close to figuring out how to have everything she wanted and now of all times you were trying to defy her? Trying to let a pathetic stranger swoop in on you at some dive bar when you know youâre hers? No, this was unacceptable to her. Never have you done anything other than be good for her. The way you so easily obeyed her is a small part of what drew her to you in the first place. And she did realize she had been neglectful, but couldnât you see it was for your own good? For the good of the family Wanda was trying to rebuild with you? The more she had you the more she wanted. She had you completely already, that was true, but she wanted you in a way she wasnât sure you were ready for. In a way that would show you exactly who Wanda really was.Â
So in order to find a solution to the raging beast inside of her that wanted to claim you and have her family back, she thought it was best to withdraw.Clearly she over calculated and now here she was. But as you stood with your arms crossed over your chest, daring her with your eyes to do something, suddenly thatâs when all her control just snapped. You felt the shift too, even if you didnât understand it. It was like the calm before the storm. Wanda took a sharp, deep breath through her nose before exhaling and taking a step into your personal space.Â
âOkay,â Wanda growled. âThatâs about enough.â In a blink of the eye you were thrown over her shoulder. The way you yelped as you felt yourself hoisted off the ground echoed through the room. You knew Wanda was strong, but you didnât know she was that strong. She had you thrown over her shoulder like it was nothing. Your hands grasped at her shirt, terrified she would drop you at any moment, but it was as if she had no struggle at all.Â
âWanda, what the fuck?â You cried as she walked towards the bedroom. With a grunt, you landed hard on the mattress. You couldnât even begin to sit up before she was already on the bed with her legs on either side of your waist, essentially pinning you down onto the bed with her body.
âLanguage,â she hissed as she started to pull her own shirt off before immediately reaching for yours.Â
âHow did you- What- When did you get so strong?â You couldnât collect your thoughts. They were scrambled up by the display of sheer strength and also maybe a little bit by the fact that Wanda was sitting on top of you without a shirt.Â
âYou wanted attention and now youâre questioning how I give it to you?â Wandaâs voice was dripping with irritation as she began to yank both your own shirt and bra off of you.Â
âIâ No, butâŚâ You were now naked from the waist up beneath Wanda. Her eyebrow arched as you struggled to find your words. You definitely knew your little stunt would piss her off, but you didnât expect this outcome.Â
âNow tell me,â Wandaâs nails began dragging down your chest as she spoke, âwhy would you want anyone elseâs attention, when Iâm all that you need?â Her nails dug down a little harder as they reached your stomach and you hissed at the slight sting of the red marks they left behind.
âTell me,â Wanda ordered again as her hands made their way back up to your chest. âI give you everything you could possibly want.â The way she was palming at them was rough, but still it had you squirming underneath her. âSo why,â she took your nipples between her fingers and pinched just a little harder than she usually would, causing a slight pain as she spoke, âwould you ever think about anyone else?â
You winced as she palmed at you even harder, but you couldnât help the flood of shame at the arousal it sent straight to your core. The way she was handling you, like an objectâ like something to be ownedâ was new. Sure she could be intense when she touched you, but she was never intentionally rough like she was being right now. She never purposely caused any kind of pain, even if right now it was mild and (to your surprise) enjoyable.Â
âItâ it wasnât like that!â You were stumbling over your words as you began to feel Wanda grind down into you. It wasnât slight or subtle, the way she was moving her hips. She was pressing your body harder into the mattress as she dragged herself against you from where she was straddling your waist.Â
âHm, then what was it like?â Wandaâs tone was degrading. She was practically seething on top of you as she spoke. âBecause to me it sounded like my little toy wanted someone else to play with her?âÂ
âIââ You couldnât stop the wince at her harsh words. She had called you that before, but still there was a loving inflection in her voice when she did in the past. This tone she had now, the way she said, it was filled with nothing but rage. âWanda, I donât want anyone else. Noâ No, I⌠I just wanted you to-âÂ
âOh look at that,â Wanda interrupted, her tone utterly condescending. âNow youâre trying to cover your tracks.â You watched curiously as one of Wandaâs hands left your body. âI thought you understood when we started that youâre mine. I canât have a single ounce of doubt in your mind about that fact. Now I need to remind you of who you belong to. Who owns you.â She hissed that word and your eyes widened as you watched her fingers twist and twirl in the air, a red glow following them as they moved. In a blink the rest of your clothes just vanished. Your eyes widened for a moment as you stared up at Wanda. But then, in another flash of red you felt your hands fly up and pin themselves above your head. No matter the struggle, you felt a constant, unwavering invisible force hold your wrists in place.Â
âWanda, whatâ how did you do that?â Your eyes shifted from above you, then to her fingers and finally to her face. Now you definitely noticed the matching red swirl in her irises.Â
âI think itâs time I properly taught you just how important it is for you to be good, so that we can have everything we want.â If she heard your question she was clearly ignoring it. Your mind was racing trying to keep up with what was going on top of you. Her words definitely confused you too, but you didnât get the chance to question them again.Â
Wanda looked down for a moment and saw the look in your eyes before rolling her own and pressing her glowing fingers to your temple. In a split second you suddenly realized exactly who she was. Your heart raced and you gulped, but oddly you werenât as terrified as you were just shocked.Â
The Wanda Maximoff was on top of you telling you that you belonged to her. You should be running and screaming for help, or at least attempting to. All the news headlines and stories flooded your memory and you knew exactly how they painted her. She could end you in a second; you should be afraid. But for some reason, you werenât. Instead, seeing this powerful woman on top of you and thinking back to all the times she told you she loved you, that she would take care of you, that she wanted only you. Knowing the truth, it stunned you, but not in a bad way.Â
âAre you scared?â Wandaâs tone was still the same, taunting and demeaning as it was before. Only this time, you saw a little beyond that. There was a seriousness there. A curiosity of what your reaction was. Wanda thought if you reacted badly she could just go back to how it was. Wipe your mind of her existence entirely yet again, restart with you, and enjoy the dynamic you two had again. Was it a healthy plan? No. She would have to start from scratch again. Get you to fall for her once more. But Wandaâs obsession with you has gone far beyond the point of return. She would do what was necessary.
As if to purposely test your limits, Wanda reached for your throat, pressing ever so slightly. âAre you?â She repeated as she leaned down to look you in the eye.
You swallowed hard for a second, already feeling the slight strain on your throat as you did. âNo,â you breathed out lowly. You werenât at all. You realized all you wanted was her attention and finally she was giving it to you. Was this secret that kept her so withdrawn lately? âNo, Wanda, Iâm not.âÂ
You were nervous, but you werenât scared. No matter what Wanda was before, no matter what she has become now, you were hers from the moment you crashed into her. A memory that was returned to you. If she hadnât wiped that one, you wouldâve still been drawn to her and fallen for her just as hard as you did when she was posing as a professor.Â
Wanda knew your acceptance was true and took your answer for what it was. This moment right now opened so many doors for her. The void she had been feeling, it could finally be fixed in the way she wanted to fix it. Things in her life were falling into place. As Wanda sat atop of you she finallyâ for the first time in her entire existence âfelt like she was winning. Not once did she ever feel so powerful until this very moment.
âNow that you know the truthâŚâ Wanda trailed off in a low voice. She was thinking aloud more than she was talking to you. Her eyes stayed locked with yours but you could tell she was pondering something. When you saw the now familiar swirl of red in her eyes you began to question what Wanda has in store for you.Â
âDo you love me?â Wanda now spoke directly to you. Her eyes were still glowing red as her hand finally relaxed against your throat.
âYes,â you replied breathlessly. Wandaâs face melted at your admission. The harsh, contemplative look she was wearing shifted into a soft smile finally. It was perhaps the first time in weeks she gave you a glimpse of her softness and you reveled in it.Â
But after just a split second it was replaced with a bigger smile, one that gave you that feeling of being prey caught in a trap again. It was a feeling you werenât unfamiliar with. And, if you were being honest, you enjoyed the thrill you got from seeing it. âWeâre going to try something,â Wanda purred as she sat back up, but remained on top of you. âSomething that weâll both thoroughly enjoy.âÂ
You looked at her with curious eyes, squirming underneath her only slightly as she shifted and began to move between your legs.Â
âIt will give us both what weâve been wanting,â Wanda continued as she now knelt between your legs, holding them open for her as she spoke. Her eyes raked down your body, from your flushed cheeks all the way down to the wetness that dripped from your thighs. She couldnât help the satisfied hum at the sight, thinking this might be a lot easier of a task than she thought it would be.Â
With another swirl of red in her eyes and a matching red shimmer around her twirling fingers, you followed her eyes down as the rest of her clothes disappeared and something materialized. Wandaâs smile grew as something you couldnât fully see appeared between her legs.
You strained your neck up as best you could from the pillow, but with your arms still pinned above your head it was difficult. You caught what looked like shimmering, deep red straps resting around her waist and could only imagine what those led to.Â
When Wanda leaned forward and you felt a cool, silicon tip pushing between your folds, your suspicions were confirmed. The contact made the both of you shiver, and as you felt Wanda run the toy slowly from your entrance to your clit and back down, you could see her taking sharp, deep breaths.
âThis is going to be⌠incredible,â Wanda practically hissed. âIâll be able to feel everything, to feel every part of you when I make you cum.â
Wanda hadnât even begun fucking you and the idea of it turned you on so much you couldnât stop the moan that slipped from your lips in a response.Â
âAnd then,â Wanda lined the tip up as she spoke, âIâm going to fill you with my cum and hopefully it will work.â With that she pushed forward and you both took a sharp breath at the feeling.Â
Wanda eased in as slowly as she could while fighting her every instinct to just ram into you and fuck you until she felt you fall apart. But she knew that at least for the start of this, she should go slow. This was, after all, the first time sheâs fucked you using her magic. It was the first time sheâs fucked you using something this big too. For all she knew, youâve only ever had experience with her fingers. She didnât want to break youâ not completely. But as her cock sank into you inch by inch she was beginning to slip.
âGod this feels better than I imagined,â Wanda hissed as she bottomed out inside you. âWhy didnât I do this sooner?âÂ
Your teeth were digging into your lip as you tried to stop yourself from crying out from the sheer feeling of being so full. To have Wanda fill your pussy in a way she never has before, it was taking all your willpower not to turn into a moaning, whining mess before she even really began to fuck you.
Wandaâs hips were currently completely pressed between your legs and you were taking her so surprisingly well. You were tight, but the way you squeezed Wandaâs magic strap was delicious. There was a pause for a momentâ just a brief second for you to adjust to the size of her toy. But it was all she could manage to give you. The sensation of actually feeling you in this way had her head swimming and she needed more.Â
She pulled the toy out slowly, so much so that only the tip stayed inside you. Her chest was already heaving as she looked down at you. The way her eyes were filled with hunger made you shiver as you looked back up at her, restrained, helpless, and thirsty for more. Your legs spread open for her even more without her prompting you and she groaned at the sight before her. Your wetness smeared on the parts of the toy that she could see, your arms still pinned over your head. It was all too much. She couldnât help what she did next. Her hips snapped suddenly and her cock pushed deep into you.Â
The cry you let out echoed through the room and Wanda swore sheâs never heard a prettier sound. Her hips pulled back again until just the tip was left in you. Again she snapped them forward hard, making your eyes screw shut as you cried her name.Â
âFuck, if I knew it would feel like thisâŚâ Wanda groaned as she began to pump inside you at a brutal pace. Her hands were on your thighs, nails digging into your skin as she kept your legs spread open. Your hands were balled into fists above your head as she fucked you. You couldnât stop the moans and cries that fell from your lips even if you wanted to.Â
As Wanda kept fucking you, she fell forward, her entire body pressed against yours, as her lips captured your own. You whimpered into the kiss as her tongue filled your mouth much in the same aggressive way as the way she was currently fucking the toy into you.Â
Wandaâs hands still had a hold of your thighs as she hoisted your legs over her waist, giving her a better angle to fuck the toy into you. You struggled to keep up with the way Wanda was licking into your mouth and biting at your lips. Her cock was hitting a spot inside of you, you didnât even know would feel as good as it did. Your knuckles were turning white as your whole body began to shake from the sheer pleasure she was giving you. Even though you felt as if your whole body was on the brink of exploding, Wanda just kept going.
When Wanda began to moan more and more against your own mouth, you knew neither of you would last much longer. Wanda couldnât keep kissing you anymore, and instead buried her head in the nape of your neck as she hoisted your legs higher onto her hips and fucked you even deeper. Your eyes had rolled back and cries of Wandaâs name fell from your lips nonstop as she picked up her pace.
âI can feel how close you are,â Wanda groaned as she pumped particularly harder into you. âBut youâre going to wait. I want you to cum when I do.â
All you could do was whine in response as the sensation of her fucking you made it impossible for you to let out any coherent words.Â
âYouâre going to look so pretty,â she moaned against your neck, âfilled up with my cum⌠and even prettier after.â Wandaâs movements were becoming erratic as she spoke. The words hardly registered to you as she kept fucking you harder and faster.Â
âYou wanna cum, baby?â Wanda purred in your ear. You nodded desperately, your whole body trembling as you continued to take her. Her teeth grazed against the most sensitive part of your neck as she felt you nod and she could feel her own body tremble from how close she was. âThen come with me,â she ordered. Her hips pumped harder into you and after a moment you felt a sudden warm rush of fluids inside you. The sound of moans filled the air even louder than before and you werenât sure if they were coming from you or her.Â
The moment you felt her cum inside you, you followed after. Your body arched off the bed and you felt tears prick at the corner of your eyes. Wandaâs forehead was pressed to your bare chest as she came. The way your pussy tightened around her magic cock was intoxicating. Neither of you had felt so good in your entire lives and Wanda made a mental note to fuck you like this often.Â
When she felt your body finally collapse against the mattress she did the same against you. You realized quickly that your wrists no longer felt restrained, but you kept them above your head either way. Too exhausted to even lift them yet.Â
âThat wasâŚâ you couldnât find the words. You had never felt so amazing on so many different levels than you did tonight. Your body felt spent and sensitive, but all you wanted was more. More of that, more of Wanda, more of everything she had to offer now that you knew who Wanda was.Â
âYeah,â Wanda didnât need to hear you finish your sentence to know she was feeling the same way you were. Her head rested on your chest, listening to your heartbeat begin to slow as you came down from the high Wanda gave you.Â
âCan we⌠do it like that more?â Your face was flushed as you asked.Â
Wanda lifted her head and gave you a beaming smile. To anyone else it would be dazzling, but curiously, to you it gave you that feeling againâ the one where you were nothing but a sheep caught in a wolfâs clutches.Â
âOf course we can, baby,â Wanda purred as she looked up at you. âAs many times as it takes.âÂ
The word choice was odd. Your eyebrows furrowed as you looked down at the woman on your chest. Her eyes were dark as she looked back up at you and something about the way her fingers traced up and down your stomach made you shudder.Â
âAs many times as it takes?â You echoed Wandaâs words back to her as a question, but she just gave a small hum of agreement as she placed a few kisses on your skin.Â
âUntil I have everything that I want again.â Her voice was low suddenly, almost threatening. You looked down at her eyes and saw how they darkened as she continued to trace her fingers against your body. âAnd nobody will take it from me again.â
Her words felt like a threat to an invisible entity. You knew it wasnât directed towards you, you had no idea the source. But you knew she was serious, even if you didnât quite understand why. Her words felt as much as a threat to someone as they did a direct promise to you.Â
As Wanda laid on your chest and recovered some of her strength she thought about how she was one step closer. She could have her perfect family; her happiness. She didnât need to control a whole town, she didnât even necessarily need to control you. Once you did understand, she knew you would be accepting. Shocked, maybe, but ultimately accepting and even happy to build the dream Wanda had. She would have her boys, she would recreate them again with you. And then it would be the four of you, forever.Â
For your part, you didnât know what Wanda meant exactly. It wouldnât be until later that evening, when Wanda decided you recovered enough to go again, that you put the pieces together and realized exactly how magic Wandaâs new toy was. She was right in her assumption of your reaction, shocked but accepting. Just like the good girl she knew you would be. Whatever Wanda wanted, you decided you would give it to her, knowing she would do the same. Wanda was one step closer to her happiness and it finally felt as if she was building it on solid foundations. There would be no one to take you from her, no one to stop her from building a life again with you. And there was a silent, chilling understanding between the two of you that if anyone were to ever threaten her happiness again⌠they would not get very far.
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HAZBIN HOTEL X READER HC #1
Head canon: what it would be like to date them.
characters: Alastor, angel dust, husk, vox
disclaimer: everything i write about these characters might not be accurate to the actual story, please take everything in the fic with a grain of salt, none of this is canon!!
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Alastor
he hasnt been in an actual relationship in a while so being close and vulnerable with someone is quite hard for him, especially as someone who associates emotions with weakness.
First off, its safe to say he adores the ground you walk on. He's in love with everything about you, your clothes, the smell of your hair, your sickly sweet voice. his loves it all.
If there was ever a problem you needed fixing, a person you needed taken care of or even a errand you needed to run he would tend to it himself. he would not let you lift a finger.
PDA is a iffy thing for him, he wouldnt do grand big gestures but maybe a hand on the hip or a few words of affirmation.
everyone in the pride ring quickly learned of yours and radio demon's relationship. And no one dared to mess with you, ofcourse there was people who wanted to test their luck but they would have to pay the price later.
his love language is definitely words of affirmation, he will sweet talk the shit out of you. At night when it's just you two in bed, he will have his hands stroking through your hair whilst you rant to him about your day and he'll reply with sweet nothings
"oh darling, i've missed you all evening"
"you looked ravishing today my dear.."
"mm your hair smells amazing, my love"
Angel Dust
Angel is one of, if not, the horniest mother fuckers out there but somehow, he manages to somewhat make a healthy relationship with someone.
you two are seen as "the bad bitch" couple. you're always out together, always getting into dumb shit together. You'll get yelled at by vaggie at early hours in the morning because the two of you where playing a childish game of tag in the hotel halls.
his love language is definitely physical touch, he'll have his arms slung around your waist almost all the time. Kisses are a MUST every 5 minutes, like this boy will NOT part from you. especially in the mornings when you have to leave for work;
"mmnnnnoooooooo...stayyy for five minutes pleasseeeee"
"but sweets..you're soooo warm"
"sweetheart please, you feel so comfy"
yeah good luck with that.
nights with him are VERY eventful, if it wasn't obvious. You two would usually be at it late hours into the night but sometimes, when you two where too exhausted to fuck like rabbits, he would be sprawled across your lap whilst you stroked his fur.
Husk
Despite his harsh tone and uncompromising demeanor, you understood that Husk wasn't trying to be malicious towards you. It was simply his way of communicating, and you knew that his behavior wasn't personal. Even though he could be abrasive at times, you loved him for his rough edges and authentic personality
You and Husk's time together was mostly spent at the bar. You didn't like to drink much, but you loved seeing him work and make cocktails like a pro. You didn't mind that it wasn't considered a typical date, because you liked spending time with him in whatever way he felt most comfortable.
Husk is not used to receiving compliments, as he didn't often receive them in his past life. When you complimented him, it caught him off guard and he was surprised. But he eventually learned to appreciate it, and it even made him feel a little sentimental.
Despite the difficulty, you were able to help Husk realize that you genuinely cared about him. He had been used to being surrounded by dishonesty and hypocrisy, but you were always sincere and real. He held you in high regard, as you were the only source of light in his life, and he didn't want to lose you.
vox
You were known as a strong and independent person who didn't need assistance from others. You knew how to stand up for yourself, despite being harsh and tough at times. Despite your exterior, no one was aware of the soft spot in your heart that Vox's affection and touch alone could melt away your severity.
He appreciated seeing your affectionate side, as it felt special and intimate, like a shared secret between the two of you. He knew you valued your privacy, and he respected it by never sharing photos or other details on social media. He didn't want to betray your trust.
You were often feared and respected when you were with Vox. People found it hard to believe that someone as intimidating as yourself could have a tender, caring side that was kept hidden from most. Vox was glad that he was the only one who got to see that side of you. He didn't want to share something so special and personal with anyone else.
Quite often, he would call you on the phone, knowing that sweet words could be just as effective as a kiss. He enjoyed hearing how your voice softened from its usual seriousness to a more affectionate tone. He was aware that when he said loving phrases to you, you would blush and smile shyly, and sometimes he even regretted not being able to witness it in person.
"i've missed you today babe.."
"mhm look at my pretty girl/boy!"
#Hazbin Hotel#Hazbin Hotel x Reader#Hazbin Hotel headcanons#Alastor#Alastor x Reader#Vox#Vox x Reader#Hazbin Hotel oneshots#Husk#Husk x Reader#angel dust#angel dust x reader#vivziepop\
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I firmly believe that Kabru is autistic but masks so hard that heâs convinced himself and (almost) everyone around him that heâs neurotypical.
That manâs special interest is people and how they work, but he just thinks itâs him Being So Good At Socializing â like he doesnât spend 95% of his time people watching and adjusting his personality in response to the traits he witnesses and obsessing over the intricacies of human interaction while mapping an ever growing relationship chart in his head. For fun. He even admits it in the manga!
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Like, look at him!!!
Itâs such a shame that â because heâs the narrative foil to Laios and his interest is generally considered more âsocially acceptableâ in both their world and our own â more people donât realize this about him. Heâs constantly misinterpreted as a horribly manipulative person who only acts the way he does to use the people around him, when thatâs explicitly shown to not be the case at all. Kabru is naturally empathetic and is almost always thinking about other people, regardless of whether or not theyâre right there with him or a thousand miles away.
I mean, his most defining motivation is his desire to do everything he can to avoid another tragedy like the one at Utaya. Someone who doesnât care wouldnât have a goal like that, and they most certainly wouldnât go about it the way he does. Heâs constantly working to help people who can help everyone else and tries so hard to make sure that anyone who seems like a threat is actually someone he needs to worry about before doing anything about it. His supposed aversion to Laios is only because of the ridiculous trolley problem heâs set up in his own head.
Outside of that, he (rather justifiably) hates monsters but is desperate to understand Laiosâ love for them and his apparently most selfish goal in getting close to the guy was literally just to become friends with him.
When heâs interacting with the canaries and they imply that theyâre going to take him and all of his friends to the West, his first thought is of Rin and how much sheâd hate to be stuck in the place that gave her so many bad memories.
He helps Kuro learn Common when Mickbell is asleep and firmly looks forward to the day that the half-foot and Kuro can communicate properly so that their relationship can get properly started without any miscommunication.
And he understands Mithrun with only a handful of weeks AT BEST interacting with him, getting enraged when the elf seems to give up and immediately trying to help him find a new motivation for life.
Iâm excited just thinking about the day that Kabru starts unmasking more and more around his friends â both new and old â because if being with my current friend group has taught me anything, itâs that hanging out with anyone so unabashedly themselves is bound to make you more comfortable with yourself too. Itâs part of the reason why I like Labru so much! Thereâs something nice about imagining them hanging out in the throne room or laying in the grass outside and talking for hours on end about their special interests. They might not strictly understand what the other finds so fascinating about monsters or people, but they can grasp that shared feeling of love.
They probably influence each other in really good ways too, with Kabru helping Laios figure out what people are thinking even when it doesnât make sense or Laios helping Kabru understand that not everyone and everything needs to be analyzed a thousand times over. They both get to learn that there are people like them and people who will love them without them ever having to change a thing about themselves. They deserve to know that theyâre fine the way they are.
#I have so many more thoughts about these two#like how Laios is actually the one who couldnât really care about people outside of his immediate friends and family#that his love is the one that would burn down the world if it meant the people he cared about got to be as safe and happy as they should be#always as themselves#never as the corrupted versions of them in their nightmares or by the winged lions distortions#which is how Kabru would learn to be more selfish and needy#encouraged to act on his own desires and help other people at the same time#these two have ruined me#especially Kabru#because Iâm predictable and my other two favorite characters are Tachihara Michizou and Nara Shikamaru#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#dungeon meshi kabru#kabru of utaya#dungeon meshi laios#laios touden#dungeon meshi rin#rinsha fana#dungeon meshi mickbell#mickbell#dungeon meshi kuro#kuro#dungeon meshi mithrun#mithrun#labru
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decentering men and recentering urselfâ.ŕłŕż*:シđ
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the secret to decentering men and not having ur entire world revolving around them (bcuz it should be revolving around you, duh) is having a fulfilling life. it makes me ICK so bad when im watching a video or reading a post and im rly loving it, and then it'll find SOME way to make it revolve around men. like can we not?âŚđŹđ
WHY WE CENTER THE OPPOSITE SEX ;
a lot of people find themselves centering their lives around the opposite sex in an attempt to fill a void within themselves. they do it because they aren't happy with themselves or their lives, or maybe its learned behavior. whatever the reason is, its NOT hot.
some things that someone who centers men might think are "oh my life is so boring, maybe it would be spiced up if i got with a man" or "maybe it'll bring some excitement into my day" like EUGHHH. obviously the solution is to find ways to make our lives fulfilling but how do we do that? and how do we get to the root cause and squash this self sabotaging behavior?
SELF AWARENESS ;
if u have nothing going on for u, ofc ur gonna be energetically desperate and accepting anything and EVERYTHING. practice self awareness and try to get to the root cause of why u center men through things like shadow work, therapy, or just straight up having an honest conversation with urself cuz i swear it helps.
when you make the conscious effort to build ur dream life you'll notice that people that are on the same mindset as you will vibe with the REAL you. the need to fake/adjust urself to fit in with other people will dissipate because ur fitting into ur own standards and ur connections will be more meaningful because of it.
TAKE UR POWER BACK ;
no ones actions should ruin ur day or make u upset for more then a day (even less) cuz its YOUR world. đđ°
make time for YOU, doll. plan self care routines for urself every week. doing face masks, journalling, vision boarding, WHATEVER U LIKE TO DO. making time for urself reminds u that ur the main character of ur life so u dont have to settle for crumbs.
stop giving that power to someone else and dictate how u feel, NOT the actions of a significant other or the opposite sex or anybody. the reason why its important to make sure that ur the center of ur own life is so that you can be happy and fulfilled regardless of if there is a man or if there isnt a man present. so the objective is to decenter men -> and then put yourself at the center
GET A HOBBY ;
find something to make ur life fulfilling. pursue ur OWN interests and try out different hobbies if ur unsure of what ur interests are yet. cultivate ur world to the point where it GLEAMS with perfection and then do a little extra. build a life that u love so much that whether u get male attention or validation doesnt even matter cuz their opinions have little to no relevance đ
challenge yourself: next time you catch yourself thinking, âwould a guy like this?â flip it and ask urself "hey, do i like this?" start checking with yourself first instead of checking with others.
MAKING THE DECISION TO DECENTER MEN ;
decentering men simply means that ur deciding to no longer think, feel, act, dress, or plan ur life around a man or for the validation of any manâŚđŹđ
relationships will actually get BETTER when u decenter the opposite sex. cuz ur not looking for someone to compete with and ur whole on ur own. this sets the stage for balance and mutual respect and THATS hot.
you can be in a relationship and still decenter men. decentering men simply means that you are the priority, not the relationship. how can we tell if we're decentering men or not? here are a few questions to help you know if u are ->
if i did not care about looking good to the opposite sex what would i actually like to wear?
if i did not get married, how could i create the best and most abundant life for myself?
what hobbies/interests do i have that dont involve being around men/have male attention as a component of it?
#honeytonedhottieâď¸#it girl#becoming that girl#that girl#it girl energy#self care#self love#dream girl tips#dream girl#dream life#hyper femininity#hyper feminine#hyperfemininity#girly#girl blog#girl blogging#self improvement#self reflection#food for thought#centering yourself#self obsession#fabulous#fabulousity#glamorous#pampered princess#doll#dolling
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Anyway, while people are discoursing about men and not sharing Shubble points, hereâs the actual advice I got from watching the stream bc I think that probably needs to be spread more. Shubble elaborates it much better but if you canât watch itâs better than nothing.
Physical abuse is not just hitting or kicking, anyone causing physical pain intentionally to you without consent is physically abusive, regardless of how that manifests or if it seems silly.
Pressuring someone into using a safeword on something thatâs not, like, a mutually agreed thing and is just something one partner wants is controlling and creepy.
Partners who push at the edge of your boundaries and avoid safewords are abusive.
A partner insisting youâre remembering things wrong and making you seem crazy is abusive (specifically, itâs gaslighting)
Grand romantic gestures from the beginning can very easily be a sign of abuse, as abusers use it to endear themselves to their victims.
Controlling behaviour and refusing to break up while also refusing to make changes is possessive and unhealthy at best.
Abusers will manipulate things to make it seem normal to those outside of their victims- by being kind and helpful even as they neglect their victim, by pressuring their victim to treat their abusive behaviour as a joke, ect. Itâs often very hard for an outside observer to know if something is abusive, and making assumptions off of what you know in front of closed doors isnât helpful.
Itâs very hard to tell that youâre being abused, and you'll often still retain affection for your abuser for a long time- this is normal, and this isnât your fault if you wanted to stay friends.
Even if an abuser is struggling with their own problems, taking it out on you is not acceptable. People can be bottling up their emotions and struggle with depression and past trauma and that gives them no excuse to hurt you.
If your partner relies entirely on you to take care of them, and support them financially, thatâs financial abuse one way or another.
Abusers tend to hurt more than one person, and their actions escalate without outside influence (be it intervention if possible or something that keeps them away from victims if not.)
Listen to your gut, if you think a relationship is bad. Even if youâve been through this before, sometimes you canât realise in it, but youâll feel it subconciously.
Also, Shubble is being supported by friends who helped her cope and went through different but similar things. She's specifically mentioned right now keeping the stories anonymised, but she might change her mind, if I interpreted the last bit correctly. She's doing alright, she's healing, and it sounds like she's being believed by her friends, at least most of them. I wish nothing but growth and healing for them, and wish them the best moving forward.
#Shelby shubble#I will not say Iâm not guilty of this but Iâm genuinely suprised I havenât seen anything summarising this#I get it the immediate response is anger after denial innit#But I think this is far more important
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