#🎶 ‘cause i’m in too deep 🎶

[thetrinitytest]

[aheathen-conceivably]

🎶 In the desert you can't remember your name 'cause there ain't no one for to give you no pain

It had been months of looking for work, of walking the compacted sands and hot asphalt of Strangerville as Antoine’s hopes dwindled closer to nothing. The most recent shop that turned him away had given him directions to a ranch so deep in the valley he hadn’t even known anything was there before. He had second guessed going at all, wondering if it was a fool’s errand or a disgruntled local’s cruel idea of a joke. 

But as he walked onto the plateau that spanned the top of the landscape, his worries melted into stunned silence. It was like a different world, suspended above the one below with vistas so grand he didn’t know they could possibly exist in this world. As though his wonder couldn’t grow, he suddenly heard neighing that he recognized from his fondest memories.

There was no word for the horses other than magnificent, no way for him to express how much they fulfilled every dream he ever had of this place or every feeling of freedom he expected to find here. They seemed to live the way he wanted to, simply existing in the hot desert air without any bounds placed upon their heads.

“Hey, mister! Mister! You looking for work or somethin’?”

Antoine pulled his eyes away from the horses begrudgingly, toward the voice that had spoken to him. It was a lone man across the enclosure, his heavy boots marking every step he took across the sand toward where Antoine stood. 

For a moment, Antoine smiled at him. When he left New Orleans he had never expected to see anyone here who looked like him, and the unexpected presence of another black man immediately made him feel more comfortable, “I am, sir. Work on your ranch. I was told you were looking for help.”

Antoine’s relief quickly dissipated as the man narrowed his eyes and spit into the sand, “Well that was before all you Okies started passing through. You know I’ve got a family to feed too right? I can’t just hand out jobs to every straggler who walks by.”

For a moment Antoine went to respond, but he could see the purposefully hardened expression tighten on the man’s face, so he simply tipped his hat and walked away.

Before he could take ten steps a small, breathless child ran in front of him, “Sir, wait! My momma just finished a loaf of bread, if you wanna come inside! She can spare a slice or two and maybe some jam, maybe…”

Before he could finish a loud voice boomed from behind him, “William you leave that man alone, you hear? I’m sorry, mister. My son, he’s a bit soft hearted, I’m afraid.”

Antoine looked down at the boy and smiled, “That’s alright, I’ve got a girl just about your age. Her name is Violette. But you tell your momma to save that bread for someone who really needs it, alright, son? I’ll be just fine.”

The sound of heavy boots approached again, and the man put his arm around his son before looking back up at Antoine, “You ain’t no Okie, are you? Not with that voice. Where are you from, anyway?”

“New Orleans. We have a farmhouse down the way, just before town.” 

“New Orleans, huh?” The man looked back down at his son with a whistle, as though the words themselves were foreign and impressive. Then he gave him a quick tap on the back, “Go back inside to your Momma, Will. Tell her I’ll be in shortly.”

As his small feet ran away, the man looked back at Antoine, “Listen here, I’m Abraham. I don’t have much, not enough to guarantee pay week by week, but at least it’s something. And your girl, Violette you said? She’s welcome to eat here if you need. My wife works down at the schoolhouse but she’s a mighty cook. We can get you set up with schooling too. But don’t expect much else; I reckon the pay round here isn’t gonna get much better with time.”

It was a better offer than Antoine had heard since he arrived, and pay seemed inconsequential next to that fact that Violette wouldn't have to go hungry again; maybe she could even have a friend in this lonely and foreign place. He looked down at the the man’s hand extended in front of him and reached out to it like a lifeline, “I’ll take it, sir.”

[allwaswell16]

A fic rec of One Direction fics based on Taylor Swift songs as requested in this ask. If you enjoy the fics, please leave kudos and comments for the writers! You can find my other fic recs here. Happy reading!

- Louis/Harry -

🎶 would it be enough if i could never give you peace? by hemakeshimstrongx

(M, 129k, Taylor & Travis au) Harry's fresh off a break up when the media starts shoving a romance that does not exist down his throat, and the throats of everyone in the entire world. When he starts chatting with the footballer stuck in the middle of all this with him, Harry ends up experiencing something he'd never anticipated, and certainly had never felt before

🎶 The Devil and the Deep Blue Sea by @kingsofeverything

(E, 109k, cheating) Louis’ life is steady and calm, moored by his marriage, and tied to his hometown, but after a chance encounter with another man, it’ll never be the same.

🎶 even if it’s just pretend (say you'll remember me) by sideofzemblanity

(E, 45k, hate to love) an enemies to lovers au based on taylor swift's wildest dreams

🎶 it always leads to you (in my hometown) by InsightfulInsomniac / @insightfulinsomniac

(E, 40k, Christmas) A holiday story of returning home — not just to a place, but also to a person. ‘tis the damn season and This Love inspired AU.

🎶 the road not taken by teenytinytomlinson / @hs3lt2

(E, 35k, Christmas) the one where Harry returns back home for the holidays after a successful debut album, leaving Louis to unwrap gifts as well as old complicated feelings. Cue: hometown holiday hookups, overbearing siblings, and a disastrous New Year’s Eve party. A 'Tis’ the Damn Season' inspired au.

🎶 it was all by design ('cause i'm a mastermind) by tempolarriefics / @tempolarriefix

(E, 21k, coworkers) the childhood friends to strangers to coworkers to enemies to lovers fic that you never knew you needed

🎶 'tis the damn season by YesIsAWorld / @louandhazaf

(E, 17k, girl direction) Harry returns to her small hometown over the holiday season and starts to think about the road not taken.

🎶 i just wanted you to know (this is me trying) by harrysboy / @calumsboy

(M, 7k, baking) the one where louis bakes to express his love, and harry can't bake for shit, but he still tries.

🎶 Castles Crumbling by babyhoneyhslt / @babyhoneyheslt

(G, 6k, omegaverse) Being an unmated Omega and a king, Harry came under a lot of scrutiny. But when he makes a deal with Scotland, his world comes crashing down.

🎶 in a different life (we would've been timeless) by liberty_barnes / @liberty-barnes

(T, 6k, historical) Five lives in which Harry and Louis met and the one where they got their happy ending.

🎶 So It Goes... by ThoseFookin_Avacados / @harrystomlinson

(T, 5k, spy au) “I’m going to kill you.” “Go right ahead, love.”

🎶 Red by @disgruntledkittenface

(E, 4k, exes) All he wants to do is lie on his couch and listen to Taylor Swift alone. But when the pain is too much to handle on his own, he calls the one person who understands how this feels.

🎶 Twenty Stitches In A Hospital Room by betty_and_i

(NR, 3k, paramedic Harry) H is a paramedic and him and L broke up a few months ago over something stupid which caused them to not talk again. Fastforward L is in a situation that causes someone needing to call the paramedics for him and H is the one to be there at the scene

🎶 Electric Touch by babyhoneyhslt / @babyhoneyheslt

(G, 3k, omegaverse) Harry had given up on love, until his friend Zayn sets him up on a blind date with Louis.

🎶 Timeless by babyhoneyhslt / @babyhoneyheslt

(G, 3k, omegaverse) After visiting an antiques shop, Harry gets transported through time, and discovers that he and Louis are Timeless.

🎶 Lights Are So Bright by QuickedWeen / @becomeawendybird

(G, 2k, famous/famous) Newly first-string quarterback Louis Tomlinson mentions enough times in interviews that he's a fan of mega-famous popstar Harry Styles that people start to notice. At least one person does...

🎶 'Tis the Damn Season by zanni_scaramouche / @zanniscaramouche

(M, 2k, exes) The door will open and he’ll smile wide and genuine at the people who raised him, his teary-eyed mother and rosey-face step-father. He won’t think about the cabin in the woods again until next December.

🎶 You are so gorgeous (it makes me so mad) by @dreaminrainbows

(M, 2k, pining) Louis is a hot bartender and Harry is pathetically in love with him

🎶 I Don’t Want You Like A Best Friend by temptationaccomplished

(M, 2k, established relationship) “I only bought those shorts so you could take them off.” He whispers.

🎶 Are We In the Clear by asphodelknox / @iamasphodelknox

(M, 1k, historical) Louis and Harry meet across a crowded court at a time when falling in love would mean their destruction. With help from a friend, they run for their freedom.

🎶 i see sparks fly whenever you smile by sbreadyn

(T, 1k, New Year's Eve) It's New Year's Eve. Louis's running late because Niall took his car. Harry only agrees to go out because of Zayn and Liam.

- Rare Pairs -

🎶 Taylor Swift Has Probably Written A Song About This Feeling by neerdowellwolf

(E, 20k, Louis/Nick Grimshaw) Nick isn't sure how he ended up fooling around with Louis Tomlinson and he's definitely not sure when he fell in love.

[accio-victuuri]

marie claire cpns by xiao zhan 🤍

let’s start with this one first, i will definitely do a separate cpn analysis of wyb’s songs and the MV, god i hope there’s a music video and we’re not just hoping for nothing. lol. anyway, i started with pointing out the jewelry which turned out to not be that big of a deal as i thought it was. but that’s the reality of clowning. this post is about the shoot itself and the interview.

as usual, all of these are speculations/interpretations of someone with a bxg lens on. 😎

starting off with the photo i used for this post. i’m sure most of us noticed the similarities between the shoot. tho the b&w were very few and that tank top! the long hair! can you believe, after all the hair disasters we’ve been through with this two— that we will get them in magazine covers with long luscious hair? in the year 2023? we are so blessed! i hope this trend doesn’t get banned or something cause i love it. here’s one more! they look so good! 💦💦💦

we have also caught on the art director for their shoots is the same person. you can say that marie claire is not as personal as working on yibo’s single but the this is not the first time that this happened. and it’s one of those cpns that we think they recommend stuff to each other and that includes people and companies they can use for certain projects. ✌🏼

there are elements of the plane and dreams, which are cpns we hade before but i won’t say much cause i think that’s really more of the magazine’s concept. i don’t think xz will have that much say on that and he only showed up their to shoot and interpret the concept the best way he can.

the meat 🥩 is truly in the interview. it’s a long one that talked about his career and personal life so let’s see what he said. 💭

Xiao Zhan held up a handheld fan to dry the sweat from the filming. When the photographer signaled the start, he stepped forward, stepped back, walked again, and continued to retreat.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Is this the 380 yuan fan wyb gave you? It’s just too funny that it’s the first thing the interviewer wrote about.

What he shares is only his sincere daily feelings.

"Don't you think that the emotions between people have never changed? Old movies will always be read and watched, and old songs will always be listened to over and over again, because the emotions sung by truly classic works remain unchanged through the ages. Only sincerity can move people."

This really stood out to me, the message of sincerity. It’s something that both of them has talked about and especially WYB. Bobo was big on sincerity during Hidden Blade’s run and it’s nice to see the same thoughts come up in XZ’s interview. They really have the same view in life and it’s why they are loved by many. Also thinking about emotions that don’t change is so them. After so many years, their love remains strong.

Old songs? My mind immediately went to Wuji. Lol. because personally, that song will always make me feel the love!

Almost every time he shoots a movie, he has a routine: dreaming. I dreamed about memorizing lines, dreaming about acting against a director, or even dreaming about taking a math test, but couldn’t solve any of the questions on the paper, and then I woke up with a start.

Dreaming! The lyrics for Everything is Lovely 🎶 has the same thought as this. WYB saying he loves to dream.

Deep down in his heart, he does not regard himself as a qualified actor, but always puts himself in the position of a newcomer, with an attitude of learning and exploration. Therefore, every time he goes to a crew, he has the experience of starting all over again.

Another same outlook as WYB. They never see themselves as the best in the room, there will always be something new to learn. They are not afraid to look at things with fresh eyes and like a child.

As for what role he most wants to play, Xiao Zhan said: "I have been mentioning it for many years, a cute and charming villain, if I get the chance."

I’m adding it here cause at this point someone should cast him as this type of villain already 😂 WYB sort of got this with Mister Ye but I hope XZ gets his dream role!

Xiao Zhan seems to have a special sense of time. He is nostalgic. Whether singing in variety shows and evening parties, or listening to them in private, he always has a preference for old songs. They are memorable, rich in meaning, and give him space to think.

I have always seen this with XZ, how his taste leans towards the older stuff. It’s so interesting cause WYB has recently been into old rock songs. I wonder if they share songs and what their updated playlist is. WYB can now related to XZ’s old songs! Maybe this is an indirect influence.

During his spare time, he just works out and watches movies. He never regards watching movies as a task. He watches everything regardless of genre, whether it is popular movies such as popcorn movies or niche movies such as art films.

Yes. Yes. ZZ & WYB are not the only people in the world who loves to watch movies. But this little tidbit coming out when we just had that info about WYB watching a shit ton of movie. They don’t even have to be together, we had fake rumors before that they watch movies together even if they are apart. Whether that’s them on the phone/video while the movie plays or recommending movies then discussing it later. 🎬

-END.

[honoviadakai]

What you favorite Hazbin hotel song says about you 😈🎶😇

(This list includes songs from the pilot as well as a few others that are not official but are near and dear to the fandom's collective heart)

I’m always chasing rainbows 🌈:

…so how’s your relationship with your parents?

You have a good heart but you’re way too hard on yourself

You don’t always have to be busting your ass off, taking breaks is not a crime

Also failing is not the end of the world

I believe in you, please be kinder to yourself

Inside of every demon is a rainbow 🌈 😈:

Golden retriever energy

You are so sweet but so naive

I honestly feel like if this is your fav song, I could spit in your meal and you'd just smile and get a new plate

It's ok to go apeshit

If you did ever get mad I genuinely feel like you'd be absolutely terrifying

But you're such a sweet person, i can't imagine someone pushing you to that point

Inside of every demon is a lost cause/Alastor's reprise 🎶👿:

You're a cynical bastard and you wear that shit like a badge of honor

You're on the same page as Alastor in terms of redemption being impossible/pointless

If this song is your favorite, you laugh at children when they fall over

very loudly

You're the one in your friend group that everyone has to warn about before introducing you to new people

You receive the bombastic side eye so often you smile every time it happens

ADDICT🕸️🚬:

You need a hug

All of the hugs

You're doing your best and I just want you to know I'm proud of you

Vox's Interlude📺🎶:

You like Dubstep

You like Dubstep to a concerning degree

You're also disappointed Vox doesn't have the same voice effect in cannon that he has in the song

You're a Vox simp, but you're really chill about it

Royal Flush🥃♥️♠️♦️♣️:

Hello my fellow Pansexuals and Husk Fans~

If this if your favorite song, you're a Mick Lauer fan and you were sad to hear he wasn't coming back to the official series and it made you even more jaded than you already were(I feel you)

You're also a fan of Johnathan Young and Rock music

You lowkey giggle every time you hear the "every hole is a goal" line

You probably have a sever resting bitch face that scares ppl sometimes, but deep down you're a softy

A jaded softy, but a softy

Radio Play📻🎶:

Hello Alastor fans that lament the recasting of Edward Bosco

Hello Black Gyrph0n fans that think he's not receiving enough recognition

How deep in the financial debt hole are you because of your love of Alastor and new found desire to have a retro 30's aesthetic once this song dropped?

You have good taste in music but I feel like you'd say out of pocket shit on accident

You probably know how to do the Charleston pretty well and that's pretty cool

Redemption arc🙏🎶:

Hello my depressed gifted child burnouts and Elise Lovelock fans

You're a girlboss, you really are, but I need you to take more breaks and drink more water

You strike me as someone who takes the phrase "act your wage" as a suggestion at best

If over thinking was an Olympic sport, you'd win gold, silver ans bronze

stop trying to carrying other people's baggage on top of your own, that's not building character, its building more work for your therapist

Assuming you've even allowed yourself to see one!

Insane🦌🔪:

You're unhinged

like Niffty levels unhinged

but you have good taste in music

You're also a very vocal Alastor fan

You need to be watched 24/7 because you strike me as someone who'd commit war crimes for fun

Eyes on me📺🥲:

You like Techno a normal amount

you're probably a Bo Burnham fan

You also give the vibe that you like anime like Evangalion

as well as the vibe of hiding behind a chill facade even though you're kinda depressed

you also give the impression that you're into enemies to lovers and once sided pining in romance

You ship Vox x Alastor in a wholesome way and you're foaming at the mouth for their backstory

You hate Val(as you should)

Change the order 👑🪽:

You lament that Lucifer doesn't have a British accent

You HEAVILY lament Lucifer not being a heartless asshole

You oh so desperately wanna see Lucifer and Lilith in their prime/as a united power couple

You have slight daddy issues

You're also probably someone who grew up with some religious trauma

You're in your villain arc but it's mostly yo protect yourself

i highly suggest getting a dog, a rubber duck collection and a therapist

Get hooked🚬🦋:

Your search history is not suitable for human eyes

You definitely have daddy issues

You desperately wanna see Val on the poles

You're fun at partied but you cannot be left unsupervised under any circumstances

You radiate bad bitch energy but I feel like you'd apologize to a kindly janitor if you had to walk on a floor they just finished mopping

You can run in heels and I respect that immensely

Smile like you mean it😁🦌:

I get it! You love Alastor! Please lower your voice a tad friend!

It's concerning how quick you'd sell your soul to this man

You like jazz unironically(nice)

You wanna experience one of Al's radio shows

...I'm not entirely sure if you wanna hear it or be the victim...and that deeply concerns me

Use me up🕷️🥲:

You wanna see Angle Dust fuck shit up(same)

You don't make friends easily but you're the loyalest son of a bitch anyone could ever have and more people need to recognize that

You probably had a really rough childhood

You give ppl middle fingers and sass the way Oprah gave out cars back in the day

You just want a hug, someone to say they're proud of you(I'm proud of you friend) and a month long nap

We're sure to drown🐈‍⬛🥃🥺:

Hello again my fellow Pansexuals and Husk fans

Specifically the ones with severe depression, trust issues and think mixing Tequila and monster energy drinks will help with the abandonment issues

yeah, i see you, put the bottle down mf

get therapy, this a threat

You're so cynical that even shadow the hedgehog would ask if you're ok

asking for help doesn't make you weak fam, i get where your coming from but you need a good plucking you prickly cactus

oddly enough, you give the best advice to the few friends you keep in your circle but take none of your own advice

You listen to country rock with lyrics so sad that everyone in the car with you immediately get concerned

definitely a cat person

POP!👁️💥:

You either wanna be stepped on or do the stepping on

You probably watched Black Lagoon and loved Revy

If you don't know what I'm talking about, look her up, that's your type

Low key probably a pyromaniac

You're that one friend that's ALWAYS ready to punch your friend's ex's in the face

Honestly, I feel like you're scrappy enough to fist fight god with the confidence of someone who thinks they have a shot at winning

My machine 🐍 ⚙️:

You were really excited to see Pentious be one of the show's antagonists

You're still a little bitter about not getting your mad scientist, steam punk, snake man

You did love his War General outfit though

You probably really like shows like Arcane

You really wanted 'Enemies to lovers' CherriSnake or platonic/rivals CherriSnake

You probably have reptile as a pet

most likely a snake

Happy day in hell🎶🎤:

You're a basic Broadway bitch but your optimism is a tad infectious so I'll let it slide

You're a tad too optimistic though

Like, to a concerning degree

Someone could punch you and you'd ask them if they were ok despite having a split lip

you're definitely a workaholic

take that PTO sweetie, work will be there when you come back

Hell is forever😇😈:

you either really like Alex Brightman or you LOVE villains

you also love rock

You kicked your feet like a love sick when Adam did the guitar solo bit

Probably a fan of bands like Skillet

You have religious trauma but your coping mechanism is to crack jokes about it

some of them are probably inappropriate

Stayed gone📺🦌:

You ship Vox x Alastor a "normal" amount

You'd sell your soul for Vox and Al to have more duets together

You're probably a Vox simp

If you're not, its cuz you're an Al simp

You giggled at "That's the tea"

You also drooled at Al's demon form towards the end of the song

It starts with sorry🐍🥹:

friend, you are way too forgiving

someone could steal your life's savings and I feel like you'd just let them have it because "they probably need it more"

You were very proud of Pentious

Respectless💅📱:

You radiate chihuahua energy

You are 5'2 or smaller and 90 lbs soaking wet

someone need to make sure you don't run these streets lawless

don't get me wrong

You are absolutely a bad bitch that serves cunt like a 5 star restaurant serves gourmet steak

but you're gonna say the wrong thing to the wrong person one day

you cannot afford to fuck around and find out when they're over 5'9 my friend, sit down please

Whatever it takes🦋🩰:

you're the eldest child of your family aren't you

You don't need to prioritize everyone before yourself!

Love yourself first damn it!

You probably like Milfs or goths

You also probably wish Zestial had more songs

I have a feeling your favorite Disney movie is Encanto...

Poison🚬🕷️🥺:

Holy fuck you need a hug

You're either a survivor of some kind or life has just been kicking you in the balls for no god damn reason

Come here, I'm adopting you and making sure you're actually happy

You're low key an amazing dancer

literally one of the best people to be friends with

Loser Baby🐈‍⬛🕷️:

hello my fellow queers, Keith David fans, Blake Roman fans and Huskerdust shippers

You are a connoisseur of slow burn romance

You're probably a depressed hopeless romantic

friend, if you want the Husker to your dust...the loser to your baby...you gotta talk to people...

go touch grass

you're that one friend who bullies your bestie but that's cuz that your guy's love language

If anyone messed with your bestie, you'd fight that person to the death the way Husk and Angel did to those loan sharks

Hell's greatest dad🪽🦌:

You either beef with ppl for fun or you're a very flamboyant theater kid

Its probably both tbh

You probably fell in love with the blonde short king after this song

You ship Radioapple

you want a sitcom ft Radioapple and you'd sell your soul to get it

Your fav Disney movie is probably Aladdin

You totally play "HaHA! Fuck you..." on repeat

More than anything🪽😭:

So how's your relationship with your dad...

You cried so hard to this song that it scared you

grab the tissues, get your coziest blanket and go get your favorite treat

and some therapy

Welcome to Heaven😇🎶:

Emily is your favorite character

Your gaydar was going off when St. Peter started existing

Your a chill person

A little too chill though…

You might still be an active member of your community

Ya might wanna consider reducing your hours, there is such a thing as too much loyalty

Treat yourself to a vacation

You didn't know😧🪽:

Hello fellow black sheep of the family with severe religious trauma

You freaked the fuck out when the “If Hell is forever then Heaven must be a lie” line dropped

You felt so vindicated after this song and honestly, same

You LOVED Emily by the end of this song

Out for love 💗 🩰:

You like MILFs

You want Carmilla to kick/step on you

You’re either a magical girl fan, a fan of Latin music or both

You cheered so hard for Vaggie at the end you definitely got a noise complaint 🤣

Ready for this🎤⚔️:

You have anxiety

Your favorite character is probably Charlie

Your favorite movie is probably Marry Poppins or something in the same time period/genre

You’ve dealt with Karen’s before and watching Susan become tolerable was so satisfying for you

You want Alastor and Rosie to adopt you

More than anything(reprise):

You're the poster child of sappy hopeless romantics

You cried a little from joy here

You’re definitely not straight

You want this moment, go get yourself a Vaggie cuz you’re definitely gonna be the Charlie of the relationship

Finale🎶🎆:

You're the ultimate theater kid

This song hit all the sweet spots in your depressed brain for you

Let’s be honest, your favorite part of the song was either the Vees or Alastor

It’d your favorite part was with the Vees, your a huge chaos gremlin

You cannot be trusted with information but you’re very fun at parties

If your favorite part was Alastor’s part, get therapy

If you related to that part on a spiritual level, you mask so hard I’d believe you if you said you were born wearing a mask

[kindsoulbuddy]

The thing about praise and worship music at church is that

It’s catchy

Repetitive simple lyrics

It’s played on repeat every Sunday

So even though I’ve been deconstructing for years from evangelicalism, most days praise and worship music from my youth plays in my head.

So every once in a while I’ll sing to myself something joyful like “I got peace like a river I got peace like a river I got peace like a river in my soul!” 🎶

Or maybe “ Better is one day in your courts than thousands elsewhere!” 🎶

Or maybe something peaceful like “As the deer panteth for the water so my soul longeth after Thee…”🎶

Mostly it doesn’t bother me.

But then 90s/Y2K Christian pop music gets stuck in my head.

Like sometimes Rebecca St. James lyrics go through my head like this one glorifying purity culture:

“I am waiting for, praying for you darling! Wait for me too, wait for me as I wait for you! Darling Wait!”

Or you know just songs from DC Talk..

“What if I stumble, what if I fall? What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all?”

Or

“There’s no time to change your mind, the Son has come and you’ve been left behind.”

I think about the awful Rapture Anxiety I had for years and years…

And then i think about being in youth group and yes the fun times but also the moments when we had alter calls.

And the crying and sobbing. The speaking in tongues. The teenagers falling on their faces.

The sensationalized, sometimes violent “Human Videos” (just look up human videos on YouTube there are many).

Teens vowing to die for Christ.

When the Columbine shooting happened all we heard about were the apocryphal stories of students being martyred for Jesus.

I wondered “will a shooter come into our church today and ask us to deny Christ or be shot? What will I do if that happens??”

And what if I lose my salvation just because I had doubts? And what if I get possessed by a demon?

Not to mention purity culture and what it does to a young girl. (All kids suffered but we girls had to be modest and never cause any man to stumble by looking at our shoulder or something)

Abstinence class and signing a pledge to remain a pure virgin until my wedding night.

All the teenagers in every youth group were running around with raging hormones and couldn’t do anything about it. So a lot of us got married quickly. (I was engaged at 19, married at 21).

I mean I’m not even getting into young earth creationism or anti-gay rhetoric or pro life marches, etc..

But you can see that so much of my life (as good as it was for the most part, I was fortunate)was fear based?

And the thing is most of the people (congregation, I can’t speak for all the pastors and church leaders) at church didn’t mean for it to happen that way.

See, I was taught that there is freedom in Christianity. But why didn’t I feel free? That must mean my faith is weak, right?

It’s just so exhausting.

And I went to church regularly for my first 33 years of life. I volunteered, I taught Sunday school classes. I was trying to do it the right way.

Then Covid 19 happened.

I was forced to stop going to church for the first time in my life.

And honestly for years before this I was deconstructing. What really sped this process along was a certain Orange president and his very un-Christianlike followers.

And like Paul in the book of Acts, the scales fell off my eyes. I was blind but now could see. Really see.

The way my Christian peers were acting. The way they refused vaccines and even wearing masks. The cult-like behavior toward Donald Trump. The Christian nationalists.

And after a few months of no church…I realized I didn’t miss it.

After 2020, my deconstruction days really took off. I still don’t go to church (outside of a few weeks trying a gay-affirming congregation).

I used to compulsively pray.

And for hours i would pore over the scriptures trying to glean special meaning. Taking copious notes deep into the night.

(have OCD and I now realize that this brand of religion made my OCD symptoms so much worse.)

But it’s weird…

I have religious trauma. I’m learning about how I was literally in a cult. I’m still trying to unlearn stuff. I still get fearful sometimes about “what if I’m wrong?”.

But I still have good memories of growing up in church. Just like how I still sing old church songs in my head.

I’ve been to many churches, but I grew up in a small country church. I knew it like the back of my hand. It’s how I met some of my best friends and in turn, it’s how I met my husband of 17 years.

I can’t say I regret it. Like anything in life it’s complicated and complex.

I miss the social aspect of church too. I’ve never found another social space like it. I’ve tried! I can’t figure out any other “3rd place” that resembles it.

I’m not sure why i wrote so much down except to say i know a lot of people understand where I’m coming from.

In the meantime, I like to go on r/fundiesnarkuncensored, also i watch Fundie Fridays on YouTube…and I do quite a bit of reading on the subject of others who left the church. Recently I just read Tia Levings’ new book “the Well Trained Wife.”

I’m more at peace about it.

But I think my complex feelings and even some doubts will follow me forever.

[matthewscherrypie]

༊*·˚ the cut that always bleeds.. 🩸🩹 M.S

W A R N I N G S: angst, situationship, sex, alcohol, smoking, kinda toxic Matt?, fighting, swearing, no happy ending

S U M M A R Y: friends with benefits with Matt turns into the biggest heartbreak you’ve ever experienced when you catch feelings but he doesn’t.

THIS IS MY WORK, MY IDEA, NO STEALING !!

4 months ago..

Matt’s hands roamed all over my body, touching every crevice on me, while he pumped in and out of me repeatedly, it was a heavenly feeling I could not get enough of.

After that night, we both agreed it would not be the last time.

It just kept happening, i would find myself in his bed almost every night, and i would find us hooking up at every party we showed up to together.

We agree’d no strings attached, but I can’t help but fall for him more and more every day.

Now..

Matt cleans you up with the rag that was already laying on his floor from yesterday, “I think I’m gonna go” you say, as he stands up and throws the rag in the laundry.

“Why?” He asks. Deep down in your head you know why. You cannot lay on his chest while he plays with your hair again, you cannot go on another late drive to get food and have a deep talk together again, you just can’t.

Your heart falls in love with him a little more every time you spend time with him, “i just need to leave” you say.

“Well okay, bye y/n.” He says while kissing your cheek.

You let out a quick “bye” while tying on your shoes and heading out the door.

You get in your car and start heading towards your apartment which you shared with your best friend Ava.

Ava was the only one who knew about your feelings for Matt, and it was gonna stay that way. Right..?

🎶 I can’t be your lover on a leash, every other week when you please. 🎶

“I just can’t do it anymore Ava” you say while eating ice cream sitting on your shared couch. “I wanted nothing more but to just hold him and kiss him but I know if I would, it would just kill me even more.”

“You have to let him go” Ava says, “no no, I can get over these stupid feelings I know I can.” “I just can’t let him go” you say.

You feel a buzz in the pocket of your baggy sweatpants, you grab your phone to see it’s Matt.

“You have to ignore him girl” Ava says. “I know” you say.

No matter how much it pained you you know Ava is right. So you do just that, you ignore him.

Next thing you know you hear your phone start buzzing again, this time Matt is calling you.

You cant help yourself so you pick up.

“Hello?” Matt says with a confused tone in his voice

“Hey” you say.

“Why didn’t you answer my text?” Matt says, sounding almost concerned.

“I just didn’t, why do you care so much” I say.

I dont wanna be rude, but if I wasn’t then I know I would end up just acting like his little side hoe again, and I couldn’t keep doing that.

“Wow someone’s grouchy” he says.

“Matt what do you want, why did you call”

“Why are you getting so upset with me?” Matt says.

“Did I do something”

“Matt just leave me alone.” I say while hanging up.

- - -

🎶 cause you keep me on a rope, and tied a noose around my throat. 🎶

Fuck me. I think to myself, as I stand in this random persons house, at a party I was invited too last minute.

“Cmonnn, you gotta loosen up a bit” Madi says. I know she’s right, but all I wanna do is look for Matt and lay on his chest while his soft gentle fingers run through my hair.

“Maybe you could find someone else to hook up with even” Ava says. “Okay..fineee” I say.

While glancing around the room trying to find someone at least a little attractive, I see Matt with a random blonde tracing his tattoos and giving him “fuck me” eyes.

I move my eyes down a little bit and see his hand on her ass. Fuck, I think to myself.

As the tears start forming at my eyes, I feel my chest start to tighten.

I run through the crowd trying not to make it obvious that I’m upset, until I find a door and open it, only to find 2 random people fucking each other. “Sorry!” I say while storming out.

I find another door and open it, thank god nobody’s in this one. My back hits the door and I slide down it while heavy sobs escape my mouth.

I hear a knock at the door, “hey y/n you in there?” I hear from a familiar voice, Matt’s voice.

I try to stay silent but then once I feel the door push my back foward, I realize that I forgot to lock the door.

“What’s wrong, baby?” The words escape his mouth so easily, yet effect me so much.

“I’m fine, Matt really just leave me alone” I say.

“No, what is wrong? It’s obvious I did something.” He says.

I’m in love with you Matt. I wanna say, but of course, I don’t.

“Did you not fin- fuck y/n you didn’t finish did you.” He says.

“Oh my god Matt yes I fucking finished dumbass” I say.

“I think you just need to loosen up” he says, picking me off the ground gently

Before I know it, he turns me around an slams me against the door

He slowly lifts up my dress with his hands, and moves my underwear to the side.

Without a warning, he inserts 2 fingers into me. “Fuck matt” I say.

“Now.. you wanna tell me what’s wrong?” He says.

“It’s nothing I’m just going through a tough time right now” I say, breathing heavily and trying not to moan.

- - -

🎶you know what your doing when your coming back, and I don’t wanna have another heart attack🎶

He puts my clothing back on, kissing all over my body. “So pretty” he says. “And your all mine” he says. Killing me

“fuck I love you” he says. Killing me.

I agree to go back to his house and hangout for a bit. I knew I shouldn’t, but at the end of the day he is also my best friend and I just missed it.

“you know, i enjoy fucking, but I also just enjoy your presence and hanging out with you.” He says while rubbing my thigh. Killing me.

“Yeah me too” I say. “Then why have you been so distant?” He says. I know I shouldn’t admit anything, but maybe he deserves to know something at least.

“Well when we were at the party earlier, and I saw your hand on that girls ass” “I kinda got upset and I-“ I say before he cuts me off

“Y/n, we never agreed to not seeing other people.” “We are just friends with benefits right?” He says.

“Right.” I say. Killing me

- - -

🎶 but even though your killing me, yeah 🎶

Everything he is doing is killing me. The kisses and praises he leaves all over my body after sex killed me.

Every time I seen him go on a date, or dancing with another girl at a party killed me.

But most importantly, every time he has to remind me that we are just friends kills me.

I know this is not good, I know leaving his house bawling my eyes out was not good for me.

Everyone tells me I need to tell him. My therapist, my friends, even his brothers, which now know about my feelings because I mean come on it’s pretty obvious.

It could be the fact that it’s midnight, or the fact that that I smoked 2 j’s, but i think its time to tell him.

I get into my car, put some music on and before I can think I start driving.

- - -

I arrive at his door, and immediately knock. Nick & Chris don’t stay up that late but Matt does so Matt answers the door.

“Hey y/n, you didn’t tell me you were coming”

“I know” I say. “Can I come in?”

“Yeah sure” he says. Opening the door wider for me to come in.

We arrive to his room, and the tension is high. He can tell something’s off, and my heart is pounding out of my chest.

“Y/n what the fuck is wrong?” “You ignore me, and then we have sex and you don’t let me even hold you!”

“I don’t fucking understand, you say your going through a tough time but you don’t tell me anything!” He says.

“Matt it’s cause I’m fucking in love with you.” I say.

…. The silence is a unbearable amount of loud and the air becomes even more tense if that’s possible

“Every time you kiss me it kills me because I know we won’t ever be able to do that without fucking.”

“Every time you hold me, it kills me because I know your just doing it because you just nearly took my ability to walk away.”

“Every time you call me yours it kills me because I know that I’m not, and I never will be”

“I thought maybe if I ignored you it would get better and these feelings would pass but the more I ignored you the more it hurt and I couldn’t take it anymore” I say.

“I can’t just fucking be your lover when you want me to be, and then see you eye fucking a ton of other girls at parties” I say

“You don’t deserve this, you don’t deserve me. I caught feelings and this is all my fault.”

“But I also don’t deserve this, I don’t deserve to feel like I’m getting stabbed anytime I come near you.” I say while leaving his room and slamming the door on my way out.

My chest feels tighter then it ever has, but I also somehow feel relieved. I finally let it out, I don’t feel so locked up anymore.

I run out of the house ignoring all of the “y/n wait!” “Y/n comeback” s that come out of his mouth.

- - -

🎶 beat my heart to black and blue 🎶

When I arrive home, I walk in sobbing and Immediately drop to the floor.

“Oh my god y/n what happened” Ava says.

I am on the verge of passing out, everything around me is tuned out and my eyes are blurry, quite frankly I don’t know how I survived the drive home. I felt light headed and like I was about to puke.

“Y/n stay with me, everything’s going to be okay” Ava says.

- - -

Everything from that night is a blur. I know what happened and I know what I did, but all the details are erased from my brain.

My room reeks of alcohol, weed, and just disgustingness considering I haven’t cleaned my room, nor got out of my bed for 4 days.

I haven’t gotten any messages from Matt, he hasn’t came here, he’s just gone.

There’s been music blaring in my room for 3 hours straight, the songs going from sad, to chill, to hype music where I start convincing myself I’m over it until it turns back into sad music again.

“The cut that always bleeds” by Conan Grey turns on, and I immediately turn it all the way up.

This song can explain me and Matt’s relationship more then I can, and I can’t listen to it without bawling my eyes out.

“Oooh, oooh, but even though your killing me” I sing while my head lays back on my headboard

Tears start streaming down my face, Matt’s shirt I haven’t token off for 4 days getting soaked from my tears.

“I need you like the air I breath”

“I need, I need you more than me.”

No matter how much I don’t wanna admit it, I need Matt more then anything. I need his hands rubbing all over me, i need his lips against mine, I need our hands interlinked. I need him………

…. The end.

A/N, this is my 2nd fic ever, I think this fic is way better then my 1st one, but I still don’t know if I would consider it good, anywho I love the cut that always bleeds but I can’t listen to it without crying so I thought why not make a fic about it!! I love angst and couldn’t wait to write it so I did just that. Hope you enjoyed!! 😋😋

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[odetodilfs]

hii, its me again🦈🦈 i have request in my mind rn.. can you do agent whiskey x male reader where they argue and agent whiskey suddenly say that m/n is annoying, so m/n decide to give silent treatment and agent whiskey want m/n attention 🎶🎶 and the rest you can just go crazy with it like they having sex or maybe cuddles time💙💙 anyway love your writing, keep it up💫💫

-anon🦈

Apologies

Hey anon, super happy to have you requesting here!! This was really fun and lovely to make!

Pairing: top agent whiskey x bottom male!reader Content: Established relationship, praising, breeding and soft Whiskey.

“Jack, you can’t just tell me you’re gonna be gone for a day then actually take 3 days then say your phone ran out of battery!” you were mad at Whiskey, he pulled this stuff regularly, “Sometimes I wonder if you cheat on me” you sighed, “Wait, sugar,” he called you, but it was too late, you were angrily stepping towards your room now, deep down you knew he wouldn’t ever cheat on you. The man was all over you when he was at home, but the fear was there.

You had booked a date with you and him at this fancy restaurant which was usually always full for yesterday, but he decided to come back a day later without even telling you, which made you so mad and you didn’t know why. Whiskey once again entered the room following after you, “Sugar- please-” he begged you to listen. You just sat on your bed, with folded arms, you shook your head, he frowned and stepped outside your room.

After a few more attempts over the next few hours that failed miserably he decided to stop and just let you do your own thing, ny now you regretted giving him the silent treatment and worried if you were going to get the same from him, so you walked up to him, he was in the living room, looking anxious, you had a sorrowful look on your face, his eyes lit up when he saw you, but he didn’t say anything, “Listen, I’m actually so sorry” he started 

“No, it was me, I over reacted, I was just pissed cause I booked this place at a fancy restaurant and you couldn’t make it in time, I was silly” you admitted, “No, no, sugar, you weren’t, I’ll charge my phone often, I’ll tell you when my missions are prolonged” he held your hand as he said it, “Jack…” you went in and hugged him tightly, you could feel him melt in your arms, “We’re good now?” he asked you, “Yeah, we are, but maybe I want something to make up for missing the table I reserved at that fancy restaurant…” you flirted while grazing his inner thigh, “You sure you wanna ride me, sugar? This cowboy is tired” he said, pointing at himself. 

“Well, I don’t have to ride you, you can fuck me missionary” you said, getting closer to him, “and get to see just as much of my face as you do whatever you want to me,” you continued saying seductively, “Fuckkk… when you put it that way-” he smirked, 

“Yeah, you’ll still be in charge” you kissed his neck as he flipped you over on the couch, “Over… here?” you asked, surprised he wanted to fuck you in the living room, “Yeah, over here, I’ve wanted to get these clothes off you for too long now” he immediately started removing your clothes, “Already hard for me, hm?” he asked seductively, smirking at you, “I always am” you giggled and he started putting lube on his fingers.

It was clear he was desperate for you by the way he was frantically trying to get his fingers in your ass, even missing a couple times. When he finally put a finger in your as you moaned in pleasure, the first touch your man gave you always felt so good, “F-fuck- Whiskey-” you moaned 

“Shh, it’s alright, I’ll add in another one, you’re taking me well sugar, so well” he praised as he started to push 2 fingers. When his fingers grazed your prostate you jumped in pleasure as a shock went through you, it felt so goddamn good. 

“W-Whiskey, please-” you begged having no idea of what you were begging for, 

but the way your legs were shivering and the cries you let out were more than enough to let him know you liked what he was doing, his fingers always worked magic on you. As he withdrew his finger from your loosened hole, you saw him lube up his dick, “Gonna make everything up to you sugar, getting late, making you lose money, I’m gonna make it worth it, gorgeous, just relax” he whispered into your ear as he smiled sweetly, “F-fuck- do whatever you want-” you whimpered as he started to go inside you, “My sweet boyfriend, he’s so tolerant with me, sometimes too tolerant” he chuckled, you were feeling so much pleasure but even then you chuckled too, “I love you” he said quietly as he started to thrust, you were feeling so much you couldn’t even say it back, it was absolute bliss.

As he kept thrusting, his dick hit your spot over and over again, you were moaning and groaning in pleasure, all Whiskey could focus on was the tight feel of your walls on his dick, how tight you were, how sorry he was, he leaned in and kissed you with full force, his mustache tickling your lips, “Mmm-” all you could do was moan into his mouth as he fucked into you with thrusts that were progressively getting harder. The way his dick felt inside you was heavenly and he nuzzled your shoulder as he saw you getting more desperate to cum, “J-Jack-” you sobbed as you felt yourself tip over the edge, you bit hard into his shoulder as your dick sprayed you and him with cum, when you clenched around him he couldn’t hold it anymore and he shouted your name as he came inside you.

As you came down from your high he looked at you and kissed you again, not as rough, but sweeter this time, you moaned and sighed into each other’s mouths as you kissed him back, “Do you want more, sugar? Anything for you” he smiled, you were honestly exhausted so you shook your head and instead roped him in for a hug, “No baby, I’m fine, I just really wanna cuddle you” you smiled as you kissed his forehead, “So we’re good now?” he asked with the cutest, dorkiest smile he could have, “We’re good my love,” you said as you held him towards you, “I love you” he started to say, “I’ll try to work on my timing” he smiled, “Thanks love, I love you too, more than anything” you stayed talking until eventually you fell asleep, warm, happy and in love.

[gabykatttt]

Monstrosity

Chapter 2

The two rageouns were walking around Mount Rageous. The moon was very bright.

Who even are you anyway? The rageoun asked.

Would like to know here’s a hint the rageoun said turning around.

She had green hair,fully pink eyes,and pale white skin along a dark red dress and a pendant.

What’s your name? The rageoun asked.

My name is Velvet and I’m a siren so don’t take it personally kid Velvet said.

My name is Olivia so you can stop calling me kid Olivia said.

Sorry like I said don’t take it personally Velvet said letting out a chuckle.

Is it too late to be scalping around Velvet and Olivia heard a voice and they see a boy with long green hair with wolf ears,a tail,yellow eyes,white pale skin and a scar on his face along wearing a black top,sweatpants and black shoes.

Velvet smirks and Olivia stops her.

I recognize those ears your brother Veneer he’s a werewolf he’ll kill us both Olivia said.

Don’t worry I got this Velvet said approaching her werewolf brother.

Veneer bro it’s so nice to see you again miss that much? Velvet said.

Who’s this little friend of yours Vels? Veneer asked crossing his arms.

Just a victim that I saved but don’t worry she’s not a threat swear of my life Velvet said.

I see well- Veneer was cut off by a male voice. He turned and sees KidRitz the one and only Vampire.

Veneer my darling you miss me babe? Ritz asked.

Hello again you little prick Veneer said rolling his eyes.

Who’s this girl fresh new blood? Ritz asked.

Her name is Olivia Ritz Velvet said.

It’s nice to meet you prey Ritz said still looking at Veneer.

Veneer grabs Ritz by the shirt getting annoyed.

Cut your shits you guys are the only reason to give me information about the monsters and the full moon and now you guys show up with this helpless girl pathetic.

Come on Veneer I haven’t done any terms I swear Ritz said.

Yeah leave the kid out of this Veneer she’s been through enough Velvet said looking at Olivia.

And come on there’s gotta be something between although you’re holding quite interesting baby Ritz said looking at Veneer and smirks.

Veneer lets out an angry growl growing his claws pushing Ritz towards the tree.

Say that again and I swear I’ll rip both of your hearts Veneer said letting Ritz go and leaves.

It’s nice to see you again bro miss you already Velvet said.

Are you crazy provoking and flirting with a werewolf do you guys have a death wish or something? Olivia asked.

Nah me and Veneer we go way back Ritz said thinking about Mal.

Hey don’t worry stick with us and I promise I’ll keep you save Velvet said.

Alright Olivia said as the three monsters continued walking.

Idiots Veneer said looking at the the full moon letting out a loud howl.

How I hate sirens always casting spells to their sing please Veneer said to himself taking a deep breath and started singing a song.

Veneer 🎶🎤

Close your eyes

Close your eyes

Close your eyes

You take a drug, I take a sip

I want your legendary kiss

You know I got designer taste

And your design's too good to waste

When the beast comes out at night

Yeah, it always wants a bite

And I try, try to the resist

But then the devil always wins, yeah

Time, time, time

Time to close your eyes (close your eyes)

Time, time, time

Time to say goodnight (say goodnight)

I feel it coming on

You've got nowhere to run

There's no way you'll make it out alive

Oh, when it's after dark

I'm gonna eat your heart

Don't try to fight it, just close your eyes

Close your eyes, close your eyes, close your eyes

Close your eyes, close your eyes, close your eyes

Go on and say, say your last words

Sometimes the best things kinda hurt

'Cause this is real, it's unrehearsed

My final touch, your fatal curse, yeah

Time, time, time (time)

Time to close your eyes (close your eyes)

Time, time, time (time)

Time to say goodnight (say goodnight, say goodnight)

I feel it coming on

You've got nowhere to run

There's no way you'll make it out alive

Oh, when it's after dark

I'm gonna eat your heart

Don't try to fight it, just close your eyes (woo)

Close your eyes, close your eyes, close your eyes

Close your eyes (close your eyes)

Close your eyes (close your eyes)

Close your eyes (close your eyes)

Close your eyes

Woo-ah

I feel it coming on

You've got nowhere to run

There's no way you'll make it out alive

Oh, when it's after dark (after dark)

I'm gonna eat your heart (eat your heart)

Don't try to fight it, just close your eyes

(Just close your eyes)

Close your eyes, close your eyes, close your eyes

Close your eyes (close your eyes)

Close your eyes (close your eyes)

Close your eyes (close your eyes)

Well gotta head back Pammy and Floyd are waiting for me Veneer said heading back home.

@simplydannie @once-ler-ask-blog153 @angiesstarss @goreroll @zephyrmars @horrorartist23

[startseeingstars]

Echoes - Ollie Sway (Song of Sway Lake)

CH07 Tess’s POV

🎶 Upper West Side - King Princess 🎶

Jacob placed the shot in front of me at the bar, and I rolled my eyes, but couldn’t help grinning.

“You’re a terrible influence,” I remarked, raising my glass. We clinked them together before throwing back the fiery liquid. Jacob’s dark eyes studied me with a hint of something more, the familiar look that meant he was hoping for the usual outcome—another night at his place.

Jacob and I had some history, but nothing too serious. I’d known him for a few years, and we’d catch up whenever I happened to be in town. He was undeniably attractive—tall, broad-shouldered, with dirty blonde hair and a smile that could make anyone’s heart skip a beat. For some reason, he’d taken an interest in me years ago, and now we were friends who occasionally hooked up.

“I’m surprised you’re still in town,” he said, his voice casual. “Where are you staying?”

His question caught me off guard, but I shrugged it off. “Just a place nearby.”

“You know me—I love this place,” I said, trying to keep things light. Jacob’s gaze lingered a little longer than usual, and I quickly looked away, avoiding the question about where I was staying. I knew he’d offer a place to stay and I didn’t want to go through the awkwardness of turning him down.

“I thought you just liked my company,” it felt heavy under his flirtatious gaze.

His hand slid to my bare thigh, warm and familiar, and I glanced down, feeling an unexpected unease settle in my stomach.

When I looked up again, I forced a smile, but it didn’t quite reach my eyes. My mind was elsewhere—back to Ollie. I remembered his scent, faint aftershave mixed with mint, just as I kissed his cheek in the car.

“It’s always good seeing a friend,” I said, my voice more distant than I intended. I took a sip of my drink, hoping the distraction would settle my thoughts.

Jacob’s hand crept higher up my thigh, and he leaned in to kiss my cheek.

“You know I’m more than that…” His breath was warm against my ear, and I felt my heart pick up speed.

Part of me wanted to give in, to let the familiarity of Jacob’s attention pull me in. I knew it’d be a good time, but something felt off tonight—something I couldn’t quite put my finger on. The nagging thought of Ollie wouldn’t leave me.

I pulled back, laughing nervously, and my eyes flickered past Jacob to the doorway of the bar.

There he was.

Ollie’s face fell as he caught my gaze, and I saw the disappointment in his eyes before he quickly turned, pushing past Nikolai who had followed him in.

“Just a sec,” I mumbled to Jacob, but he looked confused as I rushed toward the door.

By the time I stepped outside, I saw the brown station wagon pulling away. I stopped in my tracks, a wave of regret crashing over me. I’d blown it.

xxx

Cold rain poured down on me as I stumbled up the driveway in the dark. I had let Jacob talk me into a few more shots at the bar before my social battery wore out. Luckily, aside from a few flirty comments, he didn’t seem to press me further for sex.

I fumbled through my bag, finally finding the keys, and awkwardly made my way to the front door. When I stepped inside, the pitch blackness of the house hit me like a wall. I always left the downstairs light on, but tonight, it was off. My heart skipped a beat.

Nervously, I reached out, running my hand along the wall, searching for the light switch. When I flicked it, nothing happened. Click. Again—nothing.

A tightness started to creep into my chest, and I forced myself to take a deep breath. The storm had likely caused a blackout, but I had no idea where the fuse box was, or how long the power would stay off. My gaze drifted to the open front door, and just then, the wind slammed it shut with a deafening bang.

I jumped out of my skin, my heart racing, and I bolted toward the door, desperate to escape the suffocating darkness.

Outside, I sucked in air, my chest heaving as I squeezed my eyes shut for a moment. It was pitch black out here, but at least there was air, and I could feel the cool raindrops sting against my skin. After a few shaky breaths, I forced myself to steady.

The rain was relentless, the thunder rolling like distant drums, and lightning split the sky above. I glanced toward the Sway house, its soft glow of candlelight flickering in the distance.

I hesitated for a moment, but the thought of staying alone in the dark, uncertain house made my skin crawl. I knew I couldn’t stay here.

My shoes squelched in the mud as I made my way up the driveway. I knocked nervously, hoping Ollie would be the one to answer. The alcohol in my system made me unsteady, and I shivered from the cold as I waited.

Thunder cracked overhead, and the door swung open suddenly.

“What do you want, harlot?” Nikolai’s thick accent and sharp tone made me freeze for a moment. His words were like a slap, and I stared at him, unsure of how to react.

“I-Is Ollie here?” I tried to ignore the insult and glanced past him, relieved to see Ollie step into view.

He looked surprised when he saw me standing there, clearly caught off guard.

“Nikolai, piss off,” Ollie muttered, casting a glance at his friend, who just shrugged and walked away, disappearing into the house.

Ollie stepped back, holding the door open for me. I hesitated before stepping inside, the warmth of the house a welcome contrast to the cold night air.

I glanced around at the wooden walls and floors, which were dotted with vintage furniture and half-packed moving boxes. The place felt lived-in, but there was an odd sense of disarray to it, like it was in the middle of something bigger.

“What are you doing here?” Ollie’s voice was soft, but there was something in his eyes—confusion, maybe a little hurt.

“There’s no power at my place,” I said, my voice quieter than I intended. I didn’t want to admit that it wasn’t just the lack of power that had me running here, but the fear of being alone in the dark.

“Well, there’s none here either.” He gestured around at the dozens of candles flickering, casting warm yellow light over the room.

“I’m not with him.” The words left my mouth before I could stop them, and I immediately regretted it.

Ollie gave me a quick glance, shrugging as he looked away. “Sure looked like you were.”

The comment stung more than I expected, and I found myself stepping closer to him. “Well, I’m not,” I said, trying to hold his gaze, my chest tight.

He paused, eyes flicking to mine for a second before scanning my face. There was something in his look, something unspoken. My body was still shaking from the cold, but there was another kind of tension building between us.

Without thinking, I moved closer, almost instinctively. The small droplets of rain that had clung to my clothes fell to the floor as I leaned into him, my head resting on his chest. My heart was pounding, but it felt strangely calming, feeling his warmth wrap around me.

For a moment, everything else disappeared—the storm, the tension, the awkwardness. It was just the two of us, here and now, in the quiet glow of candlelight.

[lovelyinspiration1463]

Loki S2 E3 Spoilers Ahead!

My thoughts while watching the episode for the first time:

Is that him as a kid?

I considered for a hot second that Loki might be that horse.

There is never a moment too dire for Mobius to grab a snack, and I relate to that on a deep and personal level.

Boy, Marvel will do anything to plaster their name on screen as much as possible.

*science mumbo jumbo*

I think this variant has gotten himself electrocuted one too many times. 

I wouldn’t be standing right in front of that, my dude.

Well, yeah, now he’s giving off more ‘take over the world’ vibes. Proper Frankenstein over here.

Prototype? Yeah, no kidding. That thing let off a few bright sparks and then just died.

Mustache guy looked so scandalized, I can’t  😭😭😭

“Hornswoggler”? That is my new favorite word.

Is that an offer or a threat? Sounds more like a threat.

Where can I get myself a guy who will pass out money at the snap of my fingers???

I know it’s loud in there, but is no one else hearing the talking purse?

Nice cover, Mobius.

Oop. Old hornswoggler is back and wants a refund. I’m shocked. The machine looked so impressive just… fizzling the way that it did.

This has very quickly become a Charlie Chaplin sketch.

Okay, first of all, Mullet Hair, can you chill??? Killing the same dude over and over and over again is not gonna secure free will for people! Can we discuss? For even just a millisecond?! Are we able to think through our actions?

He ruined your life? Listen here, Sylvie; while you’ve been living it up at McDonalds, the universe has been falling apart! Think outside yourself for two seconds!

His face! 💀💀💀

Are these two seriously having a moment? Cease and desist immediately.

“A long time ago-“ in a galaxy far, far away. No, wait; wrong franchise.

That’s your biggest takeaway? Seriously?

“Rat bags”? Mustache Man is just full of zingers!

Did Loki literally just run in a circle??

Ooh, Miss Minutes is a bit snappy. She really wants everyone to know how clever she is.

Oh my gosh, they are not cramming another slapdash love story into the show 😫 I do not care about this! I came here to see Loki! Every second he’s not on screen, a little part of me dies…

Miss Minutes in the background: 😞

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.

I have a feeling Renslayer is suddenly gonna be much more amenable to joining Loki and Mobius now.

All those mannequins are so creepy. 

A Rolodex? That’s his life’s work?

Okay… this just got weird on so many levels. 

OKAY THIS JUST GOT SUPER WEIRD! 🚩‼️🚨 IF SHE POSSESSES ONE OF THOSE MANNEQUINS I AM SO OUTTA HERE

🎶 People always told me, be careful of what you do, don't go around breaking young girls' hearts. And mother always told me, be careful of who you love.  And be careful of what you do, ‘cause the lie becomes the truth - hey hey!🎶

Dude, how did she even get here?

*dramatic entrance at the perfect time*

Mobius, look at her! I don’t think Ravonna is in the best headspace rn.

How many people are gonna barge in here??? Does he have any security at all? Even a single lock?

Also, are we really doing this again? This episode is bloated with will they/won’t they moments. It’s a “won’t” from me. I’ve decided.

The hair! 😍💯

So is Loki just gonna lie there and watch, or…?

So everyone gets free will but him? How do you know he won’t make better choices? He can’t be the one singular person in all of existence that is fated to be something specific!

Okay now I’m starting to feel a little bad for him.

“I can make my own choices.” That’s what I’m saying!

Who put Sylvie in charge? I’m sorry, but last time I checked, Loki doesn’t answer to you!

Seriously? You’re just abandoning her there??? Murder was a bad thing two seconds ago and now you’re both chill about it?

Aww, poor Sylvie. She really is the greatest victim in all this. How dare she be forced to decide to obsess over something 🙄

Yeah, I’m not sure sticking the two of them together is a good idea. I mean technically he’s dead, but what has that ever meant in the MCU?

Oooh, never mind - he’s dead dead. …Well, even so. Loki’s come back from worse.

Can any of these characters just pick a side?! Stop betraying each other so often; I can’t keep up! Who’s working with who???

[blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk]

Can I request “I Choose” by Alessia Cara for Jumbo or Snake? They deserve all the love.

yessss absolutely!! they do ;w;

I've done at least one songfic for Jumbo before so I did Snake this time around!

🎶 Songfic Meme 🎶

DISCLAIMER: This is a (mini) songfic to the song “I Choose” by Alessia Cara! I don’t own the song, don’t claim to, and am not profiting off this piece at all.

All of my life, I thought I was right looking for something new stuck in my ways, like old-fashioned days but all the roads led me to you the house that you live in don’t make it a home but feeling lonely don’t mean you’re alone people in life, they will come and they’ll leave but if I had a choice I know where I would be

Aside from the few memories SNAKE has of his parents, he’s gone through life looking forward.

He’s trudged along, trying to keep his head down, and searching desperately for something that will make him feel whole. In his mind, what good would it do to dwell on his memories from his life before? It’s behind him. He’ll never find his parents again, he’ll never see them, and… it’s his past.

So he has to keep going, not looking back. Sometimes even now, with the good life he has and the family he’s surrounded by, the ones who want him… sometimes he still keeps looking, even though he’s sure he’s happy now.

It hurts, to still have this deep aching in his chest despite knowing that he isn’t alone anymore. He has his family in the circus… and he has you. Someone who wants to be with him, sleep beside him, kiss him. He never thought he would have something like that.

Despite that thing that feels like a hole inside of him, he can’t imagine wanting to ever leave any of you. Not for something else, not for any reason. He’s weaved in and out of the crowds, among so many people; you all are the only ones who’ve stayed with him.

So he wants to stay with you, too.

through the lows and the highs, I will stay by your side there’s no need for goodbyes, now I’m seeing the light when the sky turns to grey and there’s nothing to say at the end of the day, I choose you

It happens often when he looks at you, wandering among the tents after a show. You’re a bright spot in his entire life. Your smile could cut through even the darkest night and he doesn’t know what he did to deserve something like that.

There are so many times that Snake is afraid that you’ll be ripped away from him, the same way his mother was ripped away from him. It’s happened before, and that memory makes him acutely aware that it could happen again. It could happen to anyone he’s come to love. It’s not fair, but it’s a hard truth that he has to acknowledge.

When he looks at you, he’s reminded of just how fiercely he’s ready to fight so that he doesn’t have to lose you. You, or any of his family. Despite that he doesn’t like fighting, if he has to do it to keep you with him, he will.

It doesn’t matter if bad things happen. There are lots of bad things that could happen. So what? He can’t just sit in his tent for his entire life, terrified of losing you. He’d miss out on everything good that could happen.

Every day, every moment, he gathers his strength and he chooses to be with you.

now I found the strength to make a change and look at the magic I found no matter the name or where you came from ‘cause no one has much figured out the house that you live in don’t make it a home but feeling lonely don’t mean you're alone I finally found where I feel I belong and I know you’ll be there with wide open arms

You twine your fingers with his and laugh, “You look like you’re thinking hard about something, sweetheart! Penny for your thoughts?”

He doesn’t even think his thoughts are worth that much. His face turns pink anyway, prompting him to hide against your neck. All his memories run wild, from the wonder of what his parents named him to the abuse he’s been through to every single incredible thing he’s experienced since finding you.

The whole circus could vanish tomorrow, and as long as he still had you and his family, it wouldn’t even matter. You would all be alright if you had each other. He knows he’d be alright if he had you and his family.

Everyone accepts him here. You do. His family does. If all those material things burned to the ground, he’d still have you, no matter how scary it would be. He’s safe inside your embrace. No matter what happens.

“I’m happy,” he finally murmurs, “that I’m not alone. That I have you. … Says Webster.”

through the lows and the highs, I will stay by your side there’s no need for goodbyes, now I’m seeing the light when the sky turns to grey and there’s nothing to say at the end of the day, I choose you I choose you

He doesn’t think anyone could pay him enough to let go of you. It’s simply frustrating that he doesn’t feel like he can express the depth of his love for you, or his family. He’s stuck because of how he was treated before, unable to speak on his own.

He wonders: does that even affect the weight of his words? Just because he uses his snakes to speak, does that water down what he’s saying? Because at least he’s trying to say it. He wants you to know just how fully he loves you, how secure and important you make him feel. He wants to be able to say it himself.

It’s not something he can do yet. With your support and his family’s support, he thinks he will one day.

For now, maybe this is enough. Maybe the cling of his embrace is what expresses it better than the things he could ever say.

For what it’s worth, you seem content with that answer as you give him a squeeze. “I’m glad you’re not alone, too.” Your voice is soft, caring. He could crawl inside your voice and sleep there forever. “You deserve lots of love, my darling. I’ll never let you be alone ever again. Alright?”

… Ah. It is very alright.

through the lows and the highs, I will stay by your side there’s no need for goodbyes, now I’m seeing the light through the lows and the highs I will stay by your side there’s no need for goodbyes, now I’m seeing the light when the sky turns to grey and there’s nothing to say at the end of the day, I choose you

Who cares how bad things get? Snake has a family. He has your hand to hold his, even and especially when he feels unsteady.

Who cares about all the people passing by, staring at the scene as you hold him and kiss his cheek? They don’t know a damn thing about him, or about you.

Who cares if life is shaky from one moment to the next? All of you have something constant, when the rest of the world isn’t, something to hold onto.

He doesn’t want to ever let you go. He doesn’t want to lose you.

So he holds to you as tight as he’s ever held to anything.

He thinks he’s going to wake up and choose to be with you, every day for the rest of his life, regardless of what that life will look like.

He loves his family. He loves you.

There isn’t any great or terrible thing in the world that can touch that.

oh, I choose you I choose you.

[19dayz]

Jian Yi: All due respect, I love you.

He Tian: Don’t you dare say what you’re about to say.

Jian Yi: You know you’re not my type.

He Tian: You’re not my type either. Bitch.

Jian Yi: How the fuck am I not your type?

He Tian: Beacuse I like them a little more rugged than you.

Jian Yi: I’m rugged!

He Tian: You’re not really rugged.

Jian Yi: I’m so rugged!

He Tian: You’re not rugged.

Jian Yi: Look, I’m very rugged.

He Tian: Look at you

Jian Yi: …

He Tian: You’re not rugged.

Jian Yi: How am I not rugged? Why, beacuse I’m not wearing a fucking flannel in 80 degree weather, you stupid, dumb idiot.

He Tian: Yeah, but look at you now. You’re too angry too, you fly off the handle I don’t like that.(Irony cause of Mo)

Jian Yi: *Deep voice* That’s a very rugged thing to do.

He Tian: No, it’s not. *Laughs*

Jian Yi: *Deep voice* This not rugged for ya.

He Tian: You don’t even want me.

Jian Yi: I don’t want you.

He Tian: So why do you need me to—

Jian Yi: —But I want you to want me.

Both: 🎶 I want you to want me. I need you to need me. 🎶

[hitchell-mope]

(Third film. After “the whole being dead thing”. Two weeks later. Uma’s back in therapy. And she is NOT happy about it)

Milo: there’s no shame in being here you know?

Uma: that’s an easy thing to say when you’re not the one on the couch.

Milo: touché. Looking forward to the combo eclipse?

Uma: one year of school and I still don’t understand what that is.

Milo: well this eclipse is a lunar eclipse. The sun passes in front of the moon temporarily blocking it out.

Uma: that sounds....awful.

Milo: oh no it’s actually quite pretty. Bonus points you don’t have to wear protective glasses for it. And it can be seen anywhere in the world.

Uma: hm. Sounds interesting.

Milo: it is. And with your magic you can slow down time and make it last as long as you want.

Uma: really? Huh. Um. What was the combo thing about?

Milo: lunar eclipse and a meteor shower. Both very pretty. And for me a thrice or more in a lifetime experience.

Uma: oh yeah. You’ve got those crystal thingies.

Milo: yeah.

Uma: how’s uh. How’s Ned doing?

Milo: he’s fine. He’s worried about you though. Everyone is.

Uma: I don’t need him to be worried about me. I don’t need any of them to be worried about me.

Milo: I think you know them well enough by now to know that it isn’t going to stop them.

Uma: yeah. They’re annoying like that.

Milo: we have 4 minutes left. Anything else you’d like to say or would prefer to stew?

Uma: why is it like this?

Milo: why is what like what?

Uma (venom dripping from every syllable): emotions.

Milo: ah. Of course. Your and Ned’s mutual crush.

Uma: I don’t have a crush on your son Professor Thatch.

Milo (not believing her for a second): okay

Uma: if. If I. Did. Have a crush on your son. I could talk about it and you couldn’t tell him. Right?

Milo: nope. Perks of doctor patient confidentiality. I can only tell if I think you’re a danger to yourself or others.

Uma: can I talk to you about your son? Yes or no?

Milo: yes.

Uma: thank you! Gawd. Okay. So.

(This is when “I can’t believe my heart” happens. After the song. Ned is in Ben’s office)

Ned: I’m worried about Uma.

Doug: we’re all worried about Uma.

Ben (jokingly chastisingly): Doug.

Doug: 🎶sorry🎶

Ben: why are you worried?

Ned: every time I see her she poofs away.

Ben: poof?

Ned: you know.

(He teleports from one end of the room to the other in a cloud of aquamarine smoke)

Ned: poof.

Ben: ohhhh. I just call it teleporting.

Doug: Uma’s standoffish by nature. Unless you’re Gil or Smee’s sons then you’re basically out of luck.

Ned: I thought we were making progress. But. Evidently not.

Ben: look. Don’t sweat it. Uma is ah Uma.

Doug: she’s the iceberg that sunk the titanic.

Ben: that too.

Ned: thanks(.)

Mal: hey guys.

Ben: hey honey.

Doug: your ladyship.

Ned: hey Mal.

Mal: Jay’s going out with Carlos and Jane tonight so I thought you me, your brother and Lonnie could go out to Tony’s. Sound good?

Ben: perfect.

Mal: coolio. This way Doug has the night off to help Evie rebuild their macrame roo-

Doug: never speak of it!

Mal: hehehe. What’re you guys about?

Ned: Uma.

Mal: ahhhh. So she’s still skirting around you then huh?

Ned: yup.

Mal: hmmmm. Maybe you could try the caveman option?

Ned: c-caveman option?

Doug: Ned can’t bop Uma over the head and drag her to his house. For one thing it’s illegal. And for another. It could cause an international incident with Atlantica and Atlantis.

Ned: and it doesn’t sound very polite.

Ben: plus that’s our game.

Mal: oh yeah you’re right. Tell you what. I’m gonna go and get someone to help you with this. You guys keep talking shop. I’ll be right back.

(She teleports away)

Ned: does anyone else have a bone deep sense of malicious foreboding?

Doug: yup.

Ben (cheerfully): nope.

Doug: you never do.

Ben: what?

Doug: you always think the best of Mal.

Ben: you always think the best of Evie.

Doug: that’s because

Ben and Doug: I’m proud of how much she’s accomplished in such a short amount of time

Ben: exactly. Mal, Evie, Uma. They’ve done so much. They’ve been through so much. So yeah. I’m gonna celebrate my fiancé no matter what.

Doug: good point.

Ned: that’s what I want to be for Uma. Someone to talk her up whenever she needs it.

Doug: do you you know what she went through?

Ned: bits and pieces. I know she’s made a few mistakes

Doug (scoffing): more than a few.

Ben: but she’s made up for it. That’s the important thing to remember.

Doug: right.

Ned: what can I do?

Ben: wait. That’s what I did. That’s what Doug did. Wait. And given time. Uma will go to.

Ned: does waiting work?

Doug: Ben and Mal are getting married. Evie and I have a house and a daughter. So you tell me.

Ned: it’s just like. I dunno.

Doug: like what?

Ned: it’s like

(This is when “waiting for superman” happens. After the song. Mal comes back in, pulling a bleary looming Persey along with her)

Mal: 🎶I’m back🎶

Doug: so we can see. What did you do to the boss? Sedate them?

Persey: I have begun operating on double time recently and it has left me-

Ben: a little bit tired?

Persey: fucking shattered, your highness. Fucking. Shattered. Could one of you electrocute me please? I should be fine then.

(Doug zaps them with magic and they regain their lustre)

Persey: thanks Doug. Now. Mally. Why’d you drag me in here?

Mal: normally I’d ask Hadie. But he’s trying to do-something-with this club so I thought you could help Ned and Uma.

Persey: ahhhh. Well then. Two bucks

Doug: I’m sorry?

Persey: oh no. Not you m’lord. My lil sis. Nothing in life is kiddo. And I want a new beanie. So chop, chop. Thank you. Now.

(They walk up to Ned and slowly caress his cheek)

Persey: you may or may not feel a slight pinch.

(They slap his gently on the cheek and he gets sent into a marionette theatre on Ben’s desk. Doug slings his arms around Ben and Mal)

Ben: what’re you doing?

Doug: plausible deniability. Good luck.

Persey: don’t need it. But thank you.

(Doug teleports himsekf, Ben and Mal out of Ben’s office while Persey gets behind the marionette theatre)

Persey (addressing the camera): I assume you want to see what happens next? Mhmm. I knew that you would. You see

(This is when “I put my hand in” happens. After the song. Uma is furious at Persey and more than lets it be known)

Uma: you BASTARD!!!!

Persey (materialising out of the ether): yeah, yeah, yeah. I’ve heard it all before. Now shut up and work through your issues before the combo eclipse is finshed or I’ll never let you leave. Laterz!

(They disappear in a crack of lightning)

Uma: I hate it when they do that. Well. Bysie bye.

(She teleports away. Only it doesn’t work)

Ned: a thing you should know about Persey is that they always mean what they say. They meant what they said and they said what they meant.

Uma: so they’re a bitch a hundred percent then huh?

Ned: basically yeah.

Uma: why’ve you gone a funny colour?

Ned: what?

Uma: all. Kaleidoscope-y.

Ned: huh? Oh! The combo eclipse is starting!

(Sure enough. The sun is passing in front of the moon and meteors are soaring past them)

Uma: oh my god.

Ned: want me to make us somewhere to sit?

Uma: uh. Sure. I guess.

(Ned sets about making an amphitheatre with his magic)

Uma’s Id: now’s your chance. Go tell me.

Uma: I can’t tell him. He needs a princess.

Id: which you are. Or are you saying that gramma and cousin Attina are full of shit?

Uma: Attina is. She shits where she swims.

Id: all of them do that. It’s kind of like the mermaids prerogative. So go tell him.

Uma: I can’t.

Id: maybe I can help.

Uma: how?

Id: like this.

(He freezes Ned in place and starts floating around his head. This is when “dark star” happens. After the song. Uma realises that she’s just been vulnerable and hastily runs away)

Uma: I can’t believe I just did that.

Id: it must be the combo eclipse. Makes people open. And nice.

Uma: am I not nice?

Id: you’re, uh, prickly.

Uma: meaning?

Id: well there’s a reason on Ben, Gil and Ned consider you a friend. And you kidnapped Ben.

Uma: Mal, Carlos and Doug are my friends.

Id: eh. They consider you family.

Uma: shit. So I only have three friends.

Id: you could have a boyfriend if you play your cards right. Check it. Here he comes now

Ned: are you okay? You ran off and I got worried.

Uma: I. I’m fine.

Ned: okay. You wanna um. Walk to the lake? It’s quite pretty this time of night. Especially with the combo eclipse.

Uma: uhhhh. Sure....

(On the way there)

Ned: seriously though. Are you okay?

Uma: why do people keep asking me that?

Ned: because we’re worried about you.

Uma: well you don’t need to be. I’m fine.

Ned: you know. My dad has a reputation for being all touchy feely about everything cause he’s the schools therapist. But he is very good at his job.

Uma: I know he is. If he wasn’t I wouldn’t be talking to you.

Ned: that’s fair. Can we talk? You know. Properly? Only cause I’ve been really, really worried about you. Are you sure that you’re okay?

Uma: argh! Why does everyone keep saying that? Who cares that I haven’t been sleeping? Who cares that I’ve mostly been subsiding on coffee cake and tiramisu since we won? Who the fucking hell cares about anything I do as long as I keep Ben alive?

Ned: because I lo-

Uma: don’t. Don’t say it. Please don’t say it

Ned: what’s wrong with me saying it?

Uma: it won’t do. Har-he. He said it to me for years and I never believed it

Ned: well I mean it. And if you let me I’ll say it as many times as I possibly can.

Uma: no, no that’s not gonna work on me.

Ned: then what do I need to do.

(Uma subconsciously slows down the combo eclipse. This is when “I need more” happens. After the song. Uma looks mortified and runs off again. Ned follows her and finds her at the Enchanted Lake looking at her reflection in the water and freaking the fuck out)

Uma: what’s wrong with my hair?

Ned: it’s look great. It always does.

Uma: no. No you don’t get it Nedahk. My hair isn’t lavender. It hasn’t been lavender since I was a child. My aunt turned it turquoise to match hers so I wouldn’t look like my mother. It’s been like this for years. And now it’s turning lavender again. And I don’t know why.

Ned: you’ll figure it out.

Uma: god I hope so. It feels like everything I’ve ever done is being thrown back in my face

Ned: sometimes people hit a wall. It’s nothing to be ashamed of.

Uma: it’s not just one wall though. It’s like I’m being slingshotted into whole entire buildings one after another. And it’s all because of what I did to my cousin and my boss.

Ned: ah.

Uma: Ben washed his hands of me you know. After we were freed from the stone. And I deserved it. I know I did. Honestly I wouldn’t be surprised if you left me too. I really wouldn’t hold it against you if you did.

Ned: I won’t.

Uma: trust me. You should. But I really don’t want you to.

(This is when “dark side” happens. After the song. Ned goes to comfort Uma but she flinches away and goes to the end of the dais)

Ned: I’m sorry.

Uma: don’t. Please don’t. Don’t be sorry. Don’t be sweet. It just makes me feel worse.

Ned: why?

Uma: the last proper conversation I had with Harry was an argument. We never really patched things up. And. Now he’s dead.

Ned: but that isn’t your fault.

Uma: isn’t it? I couldn’t stop Jas from killing him. Ergo. It’s obviously my fault.

Ned: no. No it’s not. Can I give you some advice?

Uma: sure. Fine. Whatever. Please.

(This is when “little wonders” happen. After the song. Uma thinks for a moment then gets up and holds out her hand to Ned)

Uma: dance with me.

Ned: pardon?

Uma: you’re right. I need w new perspective. And the sky is looking the best it’s ever going to look. So dance with me. Please.

(They start dancing. This is when “c’mon” happens. After the song. Ned and Uma continue dancing. Meanwhile Uma’s Id rematerialises out of thin air. This is when “can you feel the love tonight” happens. After the song. Uma and Ned are still dancing. But Uma’s started to hear Harry’s cruelly taunting voice inside of her head)

Harry: ah go on then. Forget me. Just like you did the first time you traitor. Cause that’s what you do innit? You make people loyal and then you throw em away. Wonder how long it’ll take for you to do the same to princey over ‘ere. A year? Two? Half a week? Hours? Sec-

Uma (pulling away from Ned): ENOUGH!!!!

Ned: what is it? What’s wrong?

Uma: GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!

Ned: Uma what’s wrong?

Uma: HE’S IN MY HEAD!!!! HE’S IN MY HEAD!!!!

Ned: who’s in your head?

Uma: I need to go! I need to get out of here! PERSEY I WANT OUT!!!!

(Percy teleports in a flash of lightning next to Ned)

Persey: I heard her screaming. What happened?

Ned: I don’t know. We were dancing and she just started screaming.

Uma: there you are. I need to get out of here now!

Persey: there’s still about ten minutes left of the combo eclipse.

Uma: Ned. I’m very sorry. But I can’t be around you anymore. It’s not worth it. And it’s not fair to you.

Ned: give us five minutes?

Persey: eh I’ll give you six. I like even numbers.

(They teleport away)

Ned: I’ve been thinking about how I’m gonna do this. So I’m just gonna say it. I love you Uma.

Harry (in Uma’s ear): no he don’t.

Uma: it’s not enough.

Ned: I always thought so.

(This is when “elephant love medley” happens. After the song. Harry flickers into Uma’s line of sight causing her to push away from Med and fall backwards into the lake)

Ned: UMA!

(He jumps in Uma but she’s already crawled out and is now looking around frantically for someone who isn’t there)

Uma: where’d he go where’d he go where’d he go WHERE’D HE GO!!!!

Ned (gently): Uma. There’s no one there.

Uma (smiling like a psychopath): I’m very sorry Prince Nedahk but whatever was going on with us has to stop now. Harry’s back.

Ned (worrying for Uma’s sanity): Persey! Six minutes are up! Little help please?

Persey: what the hell is happening to her?

Ned: I don’t know. We almost kissed and now she’s raving about Harry being back.

Persey: ah.

Ned: “ah”? Whadya mean “ah”?

Persey: if I were an expert I’d say she was currently in the midst of an extremely severe grief induced psychological breakdown.

Ned: but you’re not an expert

Persey: oh yeah.

Ned: so....?

Persey: she’s a balls to the wall nutjob.

Ned: thanks(.)

Persey: welcome. C’mon now cousin. Let’s get you back to the palace.

Uma (pointing at Persey with a truly terrifying grin on her face): do deity’s dream cuzzzz-en?

Persey: ye-yes we do.

Uma: do you dream of failure? Of what you can’t have?

(Persey goes to gently take Uma’s arm but she violently flinches out of their reach)

Uma: NO DON’T TOUCH ME!!!! I WILL HAVE MY SAY!!!!

Ned (comfortingly): okay. Okay Uma. You can have your say. What do you want to say?

(This is when “dreams” happens. After the song. Persey and Gil are hurrying to Uma’s suites as fast as they can)

Gil: so what happened exactly?

Persey: I don’t know but long and short of it is she thinks Harry’s come back to life.

Gil: how?

Persey: I don’t know but I shudder to ask. Here we go. I’ll wait outside.

Gil: Uma?

Uma (with a mad glint in her eye): GIL! Can you see him? Please tell me you can see him.

Gil: what happened to your hair?

Uma: FUCK THE HAIR CAN YOU SEE HIM?

Gil: no.

Uma: HES RIGHT THERE!

(She furiously points to her bed where, unbeknownst to Gil, Harry’s ghost is sitting and enjoying the show)

Harry: 🎶heya Gilly🎶

Gil: I’m sorry Uma I don’t see him.

Uma: but-

Gil (thinking quickly): I know you want to see him. But you’re not well. You need help. Please let me help you.

(This is when “who better than me” happens)

[1d1195]

a couple years back i made a playlist called ‘songs i want played at my funeral’ and it was just songs i was really into at the moment but my mom somehow saw it and she was maaaaddddd😂 NO I GET IT THERE ARE JUST SOME SONGS THAT WHEN YOU HEAR THEM AT A WEDDING ITS LIKE YOUR HEART STOPS WORKING IDK WHAT THAT IS

went out with my oldest brother to run some errands today and i made us listen to 1D in the car nwbdjejwh it’s a hit with everyone, no matter who they are, he had the time of his life even if he would never admit it🤣

i’m glad you liked it !! i sat down and really listened to the lyrics and it was just so cute and sweet

hidden writer is so real of you lol. you’re literally changing lives out here and then living a normal life behind the screen, humble queen🙂‍↕️ you’re like our super hero (i laughed at u telling him u took a writing class when you didn’t just as an excuse, you’re so funny for that) i think it’s really therapeutic to have something just for yourself like this, idk but i really like to keep things to myself, as much as i love my family and friends and all that. even if it’s something small (or a hit tumblr blog in your case)

I LOVE NORMAL PEOPLE !!!!! i bought the book a couple of years ago when i was traveling and one time my sister picked it up and was like “i couldn’t even get past the first few pages, it was too confusing!” 😭😭 not for everyone i guess, but i really enjoyed both the book and the show.

SAW THAT YOU LIKE MADELINE MILLER AND GREEK MYTH STUFF ??? TWIN !!!! i read the song of achilles and jwhdidjwhaks i was in LOVE with it, ive been meaning to get to circe for soooo long but idk i just haven’t, gonna get that one on the next bookstore trip hopefully 🤞

i got Love & Other Words, The Book of Goose (saw something abt this online, super psyched for it), A Certain Hunger (cannibalism i think?? fun!!😃), and a Mary Oliver poetry book !! i have this obsession with reading deep, serious, (sometimes dark n sad) books because the writing is just sooooooo good !!! and i just always go back to them, they’re my favorites, but ive realized i have to balance that out with a cute, soft, easygoing romance afterwards cause i can only handle so much😭😭 even if it’s just a cute fic i need to remind myself there’s still happiness somewhere🤣🤣

HOPE YOUR HAVE THE GREATEST DAY EVER SAMMMM MWAHHH😚✨

~🎶

THAT'S SO FUNNY regarding the funeral playlist 😭😭

OF COURSE HE HAD THE TIME OF HIS LIFE. I do that to my bf all the time. I tell him "this song is a bop. Do you remember who wrote all the bops?" And he'll be like *sigh* "Louis..." it's my favorite thing in the world. He doesn't need to admit he had a good time, it's an internal thing that he needs to feel and nothing more 💕 ask him what his favorite song was and report back. I have my bf take 1D quizzes from Buzzfeed all the time 😂

I never thought about how much I keep from him and other people I love, but really it's just this blog. A HIT 😭😭 You're so sweet 💕

I LOVE Greek Myth stuff. I've read Elektra, Galatea (short story by Madeline Miller, didn't love it tbh, but anyway), Ariadne (Theseus is a D-BAG idk why I was surprised but still), I also have A Thousand Ships on my shelf as well as Pandora's Jar (which is actually looking more like a book describing all the greek myths in terms of why men suck and women get blamed for it anyway). I liked Circe more I think--been a while since I read it so I don't remember why, but I did. SO good.

PLEASE tell me what you think of Love & Other Words. I just got it back from my sister, I was rereading parts of it--it is my favorite of theirs so far 💕

I'm intrigued by The Book of Goose! Let me know what you think! I think I would skip A Certain Hunger personally, but I can't say it didn't reel me in a little. That's cool you picked up a poetry book. I'm not very into poetry--I think my brain is broken for higher order thinking. I can only do fluffy stories these days and historical fiction. But yeah. I think that's pretty cool you like the deep serious stuff! Nothing wrong with that! It's probably very thought provoking and I can't wait to hear your reviews! 💕

LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

xoxo

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Fight song 18+

Summary:

Acceptence its hard to find even from loved ones but when you get it you fight to hold on too it but their are those that are so set in their ways that won’t accept you for you and if your in that situation this one is for you

Close Volleygay friends

Sho has added 4 servers

Tooru:Little bro who have you added 

Sho:🎶 Like a small boat On the ocean Sending big waves Into motion🎶

Mr Oikawa:What are you on about son

Kenma:🎶 Like how a single word Can make a heart open I might only have one match But I can make an explosion🎶

Mrs kozume:Kenma what do you mean?

Keiji:🎶 And all those things I didn't say Wrecking balls inside my brain I will scream them loud tonight Can you hear my voice this time?

AkakenOi:🎶 This is my fight song Take back my life song Prove I'm alright song My power's turned on Starting right now I'll be strong I'll play my fight song And I don't really care if nobody else believes 'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me🎶

Bokuto:Oh OH OH…🎶 Losing friends and you’re chasing sleep Everybody's worried about you In too deep Say you’re in too deep (in too deep)🎶

Sho:You noticed bokuto san 

Bokuto:Mhm

Luna:🎶 And it's been two years You miss your home But there's a fire burning in your bones Still believe Yeah, You still believe🎶

Mrs Kozume:Luna what is this about?

 Tooru:I suggest you listen to your kids even you mom and dad

Kenma:🎶 And all those things I didn't say Wrecking balls inside my brain I will scream them loud tonight Can you hear my voice this time?🎶

Akakenoi:🎶 This is my fight song Take back my life song Prove I'm alright song My power's turned on Starting right now I'll be strong I'll play my fight song And I don't really care if nobody else believes 'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me🎶

Keiji:🎶 A lot of fight left in me Like a small boat On the ocean Sending big waves Into motion🎶

Kenma:🎶 Like how a single word Can make a heart open I might only have one match But I can make an explosion🎶

Tooru:🎶 This is their fight song Take back their life song Prove their alright song🎶

Kuroo:🎶 their  power's turned on Starting right now they’ll be strong (they’ll be strong) They’ll play their fight song🎶

AkakenOi:😁

Iwaizumi:🎶 And we don't really care if nobody else believes 'Cause They’ve still got a lot of fight left in them🎶

AkakenOi:🎶 Know we’ve still got a lot of fight left in us🎶

Kenma:Parents  this is us saying we don’t care what you think we are together we don’t want your approval or blessing just to accept that we are who we are and things are the way they are lets face it read the chat name we are all fucking LGBTQ+

The parents: .......

Mr Oikawa:I--

Tooru:Save it dad like kenma said you can’t accept my brother you won’t accept me and Iwa chan 

Mrs kozume:Luna i-

Luna:Spare me i have 2 gfs don’t even start with your bullshit talk to me when you get out the dark ages actually that goes for all you adults talk to us when you get your head out the dark ages and out of  your arses then you get rhen you have the right to speak to us till then I’m kicking you

Luna has kicked 4 servers 

Luna:C**ts 

Authors note That word I censored I don’t want anyone using it I’m using it because I’m an adult but I don’t want anyone else using it for find out you have I will snitch on you to your parents /hj also don't want to get banned on here 

AkakenOi:LUNA Language

Luna:Hai hai gomen gomen

Tooru:Sorry akaashi i need to steal my little brother 

Keiji:Thats fine 

Anyway I don’t know how to end this so the end i guess