#^ thing that cried and laughed so much it doesnt know what it is now ^^

[orcelito]

Me painting my nails all black at almost 5 am when I have to be up by 10 to work at 11

Thinking to myself, "Ah. I really am not doing okay."

[femmefaggot]

sleep soon probably maybe idk anyway spent at least half an hour looking at an old fic website i visited like over a decade ago + got so disoriented i died

we have to go back we have to we must

[nestaians]

alot of ppl forgive or not blame feyre much for how nesta has been treated bc feyre is naive or young or “doesn’t know any better” when its not an excuse,,

she is the high lady of night court for 2 to 3? years, a politician, idc if she doesnt do shit or it hasnt been that long for her to study. look not just bc she has been through it herself! but she should be able to tell the simple difference between right or wrong

ffs she is a mother now, some basic thinking would do her good or will she let rhysand decide what to do in any decisions about their child?

she already forgive him so quickly for keeping the fact she was going to die from her and beloved her family didnt tell her either -no angry towards them but god forbid nesta doesn’t just move on from her ptsd from being turned into a fae, the war and death of their father, god forbid nesta likes hanging out in bars -remember how feyre was judging nesta hanging out at such a place? what a loving high lady she is

nesta spending feysand’s money -which should have been given to her for all she went through thanks to them and her own work- is an issue bc its embarrassing to feyre even though they own the entire court, boast about all the money and things such as numerous houses they own and are fucking rich as hell

feyre cried about it, fine she was pregnant but pregnant women cant think clearly?

lets go back to rhysand keeping info about feyre pregnancy from her, after nesta reveals the truth she is taken on the hike bc “rhysand will kill her” but does not once feyre asks to see her own sister the only one who told her the truth? she cant look at her mate’s face and know he wants to hurt her sister?

feyre has always prioritised being to be there her mate then her new family over nesta and expects nesta to happily take part in that new family

ngl feyre was naive in how she talked about her and her sisters’ life at the cabin bc she was gone hunting most of the day & didnt seem to pay attention to anything bc who took care of the house work? nor seems to remember much about their childhood before they lost money so she naively painted a bad picture of nesta to inner circle, “the older sister who let her younger sister go out and hunt”

the fact that these 500yrs old do not take into account that feyre is young and might have missed something or not have been aware of other things and choose to judge nesta on feyre’s words omg

look nobody forced feyre to go hunt but inner circle acts as if thats what happened

who was doing other work around the house? elain? all she had was her gardens

but feyre is not naive is how after years of being a fae she still sees it like that, when rhysand brings it up she doesnt rebuke it, only “shes my sister and i’ll handle her” like nesta is a property

mind you nesta’s human life was ripped away from her and went through trauma after trauma bc feyre the genius involved them into it

nesta knew feyre was not at their aunts, nesta went to the wall for feyre, nesta put aside her own trauma from the cauldron and took care of elain, nesta stood tall and talked to high lords to beron and made him and them listen, nesta trusted feyre throughout the war, nesta helped in the war, saved cassian’s life, help kill the hybern king but she hasnt done enough to make amends for letting feyre hunt?

feyre does not stand up for nesta at dinners, against her new bestie mor’s judgemental comments and cassian’s harassing or her own mate shitty treatment of her sister. feyre lets this go on, laughs or writes them off as jokes

feyre forces nesta to comes to solstice party to be around her family so she can be ignored and feel unwelcomed for hours and then feyre has the audacity to be hurt bc nesta came cause of rent money that feyre had forced her on to

mind you feyre painted their loser of a father and hanged his picture but not nesta but feyre wants nesta to be a part of her family🥺 oh poor her feelings

did feyre ask nesta if she wants to be a part of feyre new family?

did feyre ask if nesta is okay without her mate and new family lingering around?

did feyre listen to nesta when she said no to coming to solstice party?

did feyre listen to nesta when she repeatedly has made it clear she does not want to be around cassian?

did feyre listen to nesta?

does feyre see nesta as her own being?

does feyre care about nesta?

no bc feyre does what she wants, bc feyre will get what she wants

she isnt stupid, she knows rhysand her beloved mate who climaxes at the image of their unborn son will make it happen for her

she shipped nesta and cassian since their first meeting like she has been shipping elain and azriel, so for feyre she wants them to be together. yeah she wants that for cassian but she doesnt want it for nesta or else she would have not had nesta locked up in a house with him

feyre is entitled and has a superiority issue (like rest of inner circle) towards nesta and has helped in drive nesta to her breaking point and locked the door to nesta’s cage

but nesta must apologise to feyre for hurting her feelings🥺

fuck off

feyre is to nesta what tamlin is to feyre

feyre being naive is not an excuse anymore, feyre being uneducated is not an excuse anymore, feyre not knowing better is not an excuse anymore

feyre simply doesnt care to do better

[serejae]

WE CANT BE FRIENDS | 16. BUT ID LIKE TO JUST PRETEND

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warning: im gonna pretend we're in korea for this chapter so jaehyun can drink LOLSIES, i also know barely anything about drinking so if its not accurate OOPS #20y/owhocantdrinkstrugglesbcshesscaredofthelaw

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ps: it doesnt get better from here until wayyy after ;-)

(a few minutes ago) EPISODE 5

"what are we even supposed to do?" jaehyun said as he took another shot. "i uh have to ask you questions" woonhak explained as he repositioned the camera up to face jaehyun. jaehyun hummed as he took another shot "are you okay? you took like 10 shots since we got here and i haven't even started recording yet" woonhak looked up from the camera concerned. "pfft what do you know about drinking" jaehyun laughed looking at woonhak, woonhak scoffed "not much, but i know this relates back to yn". the older one looked away "just record or something i don't know..."

"now we have myung jaehyun. i'll ask you questions and you can answer away from yn. i assure you she won't see this footage...well unless she watches this but that's beside the point." woonhak adjusted the camera a bit. "so i CAN answer the question? i have a choice?" jaehyun asked rather tipsy. "no sorry, you WILL answer these."

"what are your opinions on L/N Y/N?"

jaehyun took another shot before answering. "Yn? she's...I MISS HER" he suddenly erupted into tears taking back woonhak but content is content...

"i cant live without her i dont know how i haven't died yet during these 2 years. shes all i constantly think about, when i go to the store, i think about her, when i sleep, i think about her, when I'm even in my fucking office i think about her and that was the main thing that drove me away from her." he sobbed into his hands. woonhak giggled a bit at the sight and zoomed into jaehyun crying. "I'm gonna have to put a 'her' count in here..."

"I thought you ended things because of music, your job?"

"FUCK THE JOB! i'm done, i'll take it all back and work at fucking wendys if it means i can stay with her. my music career is a flop! YOU know" jaehyun pointed at woonhak to which he nods "THEY know" he pointed at the camera "SHE knows" he points at his heart "I just cant take not being around her anymore. we don't have to be friends we don't have to date again I just want her back in my life completely without messing everything up. i'd literally argue with her for the rest of my life even if it hurts me rather than never talk to her at all and it hurts because she makes it look so simple, not missing me, not talking to me. but it's fair enough isn't it? if i had just shut my mouth for that one day i would've realized that music doesn't compare to her, but why'd i have to realize so late?"

"do you still think about her?"

"of course i do" he cried even more, woonhak was pretty sure jaehyuns drink was more tears than alcohol now "you know..." jaehyun giggled for a second 'the roman empire? how its like a joke that all guys think of it often, she, y/n are you watching this?" jaehyun gets close to the camera, his nose touching the lens, too drunk to realize anything. "yn, you're my roman empire, there's not a second i don't think about you. i wake up , its you, i go to sleep, its you, i eat, its you, hell i could strip right now and dance-“ “that's enough" woonhak stops him. "i just wonder why you think so deeply about her, shes just a girl-" jaehyun cuts woonhaks words offended "DONT. shes not just some random girl, shes yn. the first person who understood me, the first person i felt comfortable with, the first person to support my music career, and i just, let her go. for the same music career i left her for. clearly, you've never been in love or never been in love and lost that same person due to your dumb actions..."

"then why were you acting so cold to her today?"

"fuck, woonhak. its all a persona, i'm trying to convince myself I'm over her, but clearly, it's not working, at all. even today i used all the force in me not to fold and when i complained about it on my twitter this random sea jae something account commented...but i remember she did comment under my comment saying "its not like me and her will get together" with a "haha" like what does that mean...is it a sign from the universe?" jaehyun looked over at woonhak with a sad smile trying to convince himself he's not that effected by you despite going on a 30 minute rant about you. woonhak laughed a bit. jaehyun looked down at his shot glass and stared.

"do you think she misses me...like ever?" he turned again to woonhak who stared at jaehyun in pity. "she-" woonhak paused and shook his head "directors shouldn't get involved" jaehyuns body shot over to face woonhak "YOUR NOT A DIRECTOR YOUR A 17 YEAR OLD BOY" "18 in Korea" woonhak added "I DONT CARE, YOUR A 17 OR 18 BOY WHO IS FAILING HIS FILM MAKING CLASS WITH A NEGATIVE NUMBER. WHAT DOES SHE SAY ABOUT ME."

"fine, i'll show you." woonhak logs into his phone and text you to help him out. "oops, phone died" jaehyun groaned and face planted into the table.

(NOW)

you texted woonhak that you were outside and you saw him drag jaehyun out. "damn he's out." taesan said from your backseat. you hum in agreement. woonhak approaches the car and opens the back seat to throw jaehyun in until taesan stops him "put jaehyun in the passenger seat" "but you're back here-"

"woonhak. put. jaehyun. in. the. damn. front. seat."

woonhak placed jaehyun in the front seat and got in the back.

jaehyun turned his head to you as you were driving

"yn?" he asked softly "yeah?" "do you ever miss me?"

you dont reply, looking in your rear view mirror you see woonhak and taesan sleeping. sighing you turn back to jaehyun when you stop at a red light, he looked at you with soft doe eyes that could break any minute. but you couldn't help but admire his features shining in the red light, you hadn't got a good look at him until now and damn, he was still so...

BEEP

right. "back then yeah" you lied, or maybe not, who cares

"i still miss you, a lot. Every day i wake up and my heart aches for you, only to see an empty cold space in the spot next to me. i know, i know everyone tells me and i got the signal from you, i know I'm stupid for ending a relationship over music, SoundCloud especially but i don't want to move on. if i put on earth with one other girl and her only i wouldn't even speak to her, i'd make a stick doll and name it after you, talk to it every day, because yn, you're the only person I've ever needed and i hate that i lost the one person who kept me going, that i still dream of, that i can't move on from, i just wish i didn't let you go at all.

do you...still think we'd be together if i hadn't ruined us?"

you pause staring at the gearstick "maybe in another life" you replied lowly afraid your voice would crack. you blink back tears refusing to even look at him. you hear him catch his breath and realize he's crying "i just wish it could be this life. i want it to be this life, yn, I'll do anything for it to be this life please. let me back in your life."

"jaehyun no, you're drunk"

"drunk words are sober thoughts"

taesan said from the backseat still with his eyes closed. you realize both woonhak and taesan have been faking sleeping the entire time.

"get out" you said. taesan opened his eyes and realized yall were in front of his and jaehyuns house. OH RIGHT, thanks yn" you hum as you watch taesan help jaehyun out. "take care" you said to both of them, before jaehyun gets through the door he turns back at you and smiles softly

"ugh i shouldve recorded that"

oh.

you forgot he was there.

[stevie-petey]

first of all: the new chapter was AMAZING as always!! i know you are probably so so so busy with move in and classes starting and writing come home already, but i had a blurb idea (and it will obviously ALWAYS be dustin and steve interaction) of steve hanging out with dustin alone sometime soon after you get together, and them talking about it for the first time? it doesn't have to be any particular way i'm just SO curious what dustin's reaction was beyond the knee-jerk "ew you kissed my sister but also thank god because it took you long enough you moron"

stebe n dust <333

enjoy !

“you sure youre okay with driving dustin to mikes?”

steve rolls his eyes fondly at you. “yes, angel. its not even a ten minute drive. i can handle the kid.”

“i know. its just,” you bite your lip, unsure of how to voice what youre thinking. your brows scrunch together and steve thinks youre painfully adorable when youre overthinking. “its too hot for him to bike there, but you and i just started dating and dustin is… well. hes dustin.”

“you worried he’ll lecture me or something?”

“more like ask really invasive questions.”

steve laughs and kisses your hand, body leaning over the counter at your work. hes spent the entire days at bookstrordinary just to talk to you since scoops burned down. when he isnt job searching with robin, hes here with you.

“have some faith in me, y/n. im a big boy, i can take care of myself.”

you blink at him. “you cried yesterday when a lizard ran across your leg.”

“okay, thats entirely different. that thing looked at me with its beady little eyes and dared me to fight him.” steve shudders. “that thing was sentient.”

“youre really not making me feel any better about this, honey.” you groan, already dreading whatever your brother will say to him. youre sure dustin will somehow give the most bizarre, overly obnoxious yet endearing lecture known to man.

steve rolls his eyes again and grabs his keys, reluctantly pulling away from you. “i bet the kid forgot we’re even together now. relax, i’ll be back in no time.”

you call one last good luck to him before hes hone, leaving you alone in the store as the late july heat simmers the air.

at first everything is great. dustin is waiting for steve in the driveway and hops inside the car without any complaints. he turns the radio one and even smiles at steve.

but then, as dustin always does, he opens his mouth.

“i better not catch you sucking face with my sister.”

“dustin!” steve blanches, utterly mortified by what the boy has said. he almost veers off the road with how violently he cringes.

“im just saying! you two are weirdly touchy, and now that youre together, which by the way took you way too long to even do,” dustin looks pointedly at steve, who sighs. “i dont want you getting any gross ideas.”

the older teen rubs his face tiredly. he lasted three minutes. three blissful, quiet minutes. “good to know youre happy for us, then.”

dustin thinks for a moment. “well, i guess y/n could do worse. better than jonathan, at least.”

“thanks, dustin.” steve deflates, not at all believing the kid.

dustin recognizes the apprehension and he uncomfortably shifts in his head. he doesnt necessarily want to be all touchy-feely with the guy, but he also recognizes how much you love him. how good you and steve are together.

coughing, dustin looks out the window. he knows this is what youd want. “im happy she found you, steve.”

by now the wheelers driveway can be seen, but because steve is so startled by what dustin has confessed, he almost misses the turn.

clearing his own throat awkwardly, steve parks the car and looks at dustin. “you, uh. really mean that?”

“please dont make this any more unbearable.” the kid quips, leaning as far away from him as possible.

“right,” steve clears his throat again and unlocks the passenger door. he tugs at his seatbelt, needing something to do with his hands. “off you go, then.”

dustin quickly unbuckles his seatbelt and nearly falls out of the car in his hurry to leave. hes standing and about to walk away before he stops, turning around. leaving over the window, dustin lowers his voice. “hey, one last thing.”

steves voice catches in his throat, scared of where this is going. “yeah?”

ducking his head down, too shy to meet the other boys gaze, dustin finally says, “dont hurt y/n, alright? she-she really loves you. i know you love her, too. but shes… shes the best person in the world and im trusting you to be kind to her.”

“i…” steve stares at dustin, surprised by the sincerity in his voice and yet incredibly touched that hes being so vulnerable with him. to have your brother trust steve enough to be with you, to trust he wont hurt someone as selfless and soft as you, it means more to steve than dustin will ever know.

after years of being cruel to his classmates and growing up believing he wasnt worthy of anything gentle, steve cant believe hes being entrusted with you in his life.

it doesnt feel real, sometimes. being able to love you.

“i promise i’ll be kind to y/n,” steve says softly, meeting dustins eyes. its weird, being so delicate with the kid, but hes shared a lot with him, so its only fair steve does the same. “its because of her that im kind.”

“me, too.” dustin whispers. his eyes gleam, his mischievous smile is back. “guess we learned from the best, huh?”

steve laughs. “yeah, i guess we did.”

[faunandfloraas]

Aussie question time: when I find out an idol is American/Canadian, their image in my mind completely changes because now it’s like “Oh I know exactly who you are, I grew up with your type around me” there are subtleties that I’m going to understand that others might not. So with all that said, I’ve been curious about what that’s like (if you experience it) w the skz aussies (throw in a lily if you’re feeling it -v-) 🎤

this is wayyyyyy too long so I'm putting it under a read more- also disclaimer: i dont know these guys and these are just my opinions, dont take em too srs <3

Hmmmm... Well I guess I'll start with Felix- I've said it before a bunch but the whole "Felix is a tiny uwuw baby sweet summerchild who is just such a baby" etc. etc. has made me laugh from the get go- because Yep! he is incredibly sensitive and sweet natured and kind and he cries a lot- 100% that is true. Dont think I'm saying it's not. But like. He also grew up in western sydney, he grew up in a area that if you google it one of the first suggestions is "is it safe" but then at the same time he went to private catholic school im pretty sure. and i saw pics from back then that he'd posted back in the day of cool little felix with his gold watch and his fade and all his little homeboys looking rowdy on the train- I know that kid and while that kid can also be sweet and sensitive, he's not incapable and hes not a baby. Good recent example was when he went on that Jewel box show with the gay dudes and people were acting like he was *so uncomfortable* and sooooo out of his element and so this and so that- theres gay dudes all over sydney, there's gay dudes all over australian media- the idea felix couldnt handle that was simply laughable to me- but it kinda shows how many outside perceptions of him still very much fall into that vaguely infantalizing thing. Like when he was the one who was happy to go up to adam levine and dj snake in that skz talker while the other boys were much more shy? that didnt shock me at all. felix went to korea as a whole teenager laregly against his parent wishes- he's actually quite an outgoing and brave guy. Outgoing guys can still be sweeties, though- one doesn't negate the other.

One other aspect of Felix i think a lot of fans just gloss over but is easily noticeable by me is that he can kindaaaaaa be ... a lil bitchy? like he's never ever mean or cruel dont get me wrong- but he has a slight bitchy streak, he rolls his eyes AND he's actually much more sarcastic than people bring up? Again- he does it a lot with Chan and that doesnt shock me- they both are aussie boys, Chan will get it and I think Felix can very much be himself with Chan, he doesn't necessarily feel the need to put up an extra air of like... Sweetie boy-ness? bc when he calls chan a cunt on live chan just laughs and goes OI!! so yuh the main thing with felix is while i do think hes a little sweet guy, ive never from the get go had a hard time seeing him outside of that box, too. Also maybe that's a lil bit aussie humour slipping under the radar here or there 🤔

Chan to me from the get go too was pretty much like. Prototypical overachieving aussie Good Boy. Like, i had a drafted post i never posted bc it was too niche- but it was essentially about how he speaks about sports and the like, and it just said "We get it. You went to zone carnival" which was the sporting event that the kids who got gold or 1st place were sent to. If you went to zone, you were the Successful kid. I think these days most fans perceive him as... a bit of a goofy guy? but I have gone through the archives and i have seen the comments from people talking about how chans such a bad boy- thats shit is so funny to me bc you can show me every iteration of chan and I'd never, ever think he's a bad boy. Like he wishes he was a bad boy, he kinda cosplays a bad boy- even him referencing swearing bc of his australianess and shit over the years makes me giggle a little bc i feel like felix def 100% swears all the time but he doesnt like Smirk about it too much? he doesnt really bring it up? things like that stand out, it to me feels very like Oh yeah I'm this naughty Aussie boy who swears hehe and then all the australians are like ? Girl we all do huh lmao

Otherwise, I dont have as much to say about chan as i do about felix, funnily. Like idk people might perceive differently to me, but nothing too far off? I will say that given Chan's success and the fact he was seemingly a very well achieving kid too (maybe not debuting for such a long time is part of this) he is WAY more humble than I'd expect. Like not to besmirch Australian men but a lot of them can be really loud and cocky, especially the famous successful ones (any sport star) it's almost encouraged to be like that if you're a dude (but only to a certain degree, anything beyond a certain point and you'll be roasted lol) So I have to give credit where it's due and say that Chan *Seemingly does have a very good nature and I appreciate that about him! Its probably why I like him so much bc he actually very much doesn't give off those vibes- he doesn't seem like that overly macho cocky bloke I know very well. So that makes him good fun for me- he's very successful and he's confident and yet he doesn't activate any of my bitch instincts- thats impressive! I don't know him, so I'll never know for sure of course, i feel like i need to make that disclaimer but still I do believe he has a good heart, and he tries so hard! and I appreciate that.

Lily is weirdly like Chan. like she's hilariously like chan tbh- I wonder how they really get along sometimes bc I feel like they might look at each other and be like Hm... we the same............ ? Lmao I will say though, lily is a bit out of pocket and half of that I believe is her personality but half of it is just.... I think she's just australian 😭 like i cant lie you get me as a teenager to early 20 something and put me on a live and I can promise I would be saying as much ?? shit. Like, I do think Australians are a little loud and not necessarily always.... tactful (again Not everyone, but yk.) lily certainly fits that bill to a T. I appreciate that regardless of her idolhood she does still say things that maybe she shouldn't, she shrugs off a shoplifting confession, she says she'd murder someone if she had to, she bought and wore a shirt that fans quickly tracked down and found out all the proceeds were going to Palestine- she would have known what that suggested. she clearly had this goal of being an idol since she was a baby, like literal baby but she hasn't sacrificed her broader personality, even the parts that could potentially be off-putting to those idol fans that expect perfection and nothing else. I appreciate that in her! and I hope she never loses her little weird girl spark bc it does make her very dynamic! Her slightly gruff aussie girlness is very fun for me to see in the idolsphere bc it def feels out of place, but in a refreshing way...

so yeah. Idk if this was sensical, I was making dinner so I put my phone down a bunch and it's probably disjointed but thats my opinion... my thoughts, my ideas! Idk my take on them. Thanks for asking 🫡

[hiddenwritingsintheworld]

Cruel Summer Chapter 1 (Chris Evans x Actress/Singer!Reader)

(Okay, So Ive been away for a hot minute. And I've been through quite a bit. But I got inspired to write this and I hope yall love it!! Couple of things. 1.) Taylor Swift doesnt exist in this series, the reader is like taylor swift! 2) dont come for me, I've been chewing on this idea for a few months now lol. 3.) Im almost done with chapter 1 of My Alpha, I know I've gotten some messages about that!! Also, half way through chapter 2 of Midnight rain ;) Enjoy! Let me know your thoughts on this!! love you guys!!!)

Thoughts? Suggestions? General opinion wanted here!!!!!

You’d be delusional to think that he wanted anything more than hookups with you. Being a movie star was hard enough to make a “normal” life ...falling in love with your co-star though...that made everything even worse. That’s what led you to becoming a world famous pop star, releasing smash hit after smash hit. Your smile; when up on that stage, tens of thousands of fans screaming your songs as you sang them, standing ovations, tears of happiness, excitement, thrill, it all made that heartache ease just a little bit. But not all the way. 

“Tonight is a HUGE night, I can’t believe you’re going to announce another album. I’m in awe, really I am.” Your mom said, grabbing your shoulders and looking at you in the mirror of the room you were currently using backstage. “Mom, thanks so much for traveling with me during this tour. It means so much to me.” you smiled softly at her, “especially after everything I’ve been through recently. Wanna know the surprise songs tonight? Or just be surprised like everyone else?” you asked with a soft laugh. 

Your mom and dad were your biggest and best fans you could have ever asked for. Even during the worst time of your life, you’d had your parents support when changing careers. “Awe, let me be surprised like everyone else dear. Your cue is up….come on,” she gave you a big hug and kissed your cheek. “You’re going to be amazing, just like every other night” she beamed before walking out of your dressing room. 

You stared in the mirror, touching up your red lipstick before turning around and walking out. Your bejeweled bodysuit in the colors of your most favorite album you’d put out, pinks and blues. You smiled at the stage crew and everyone working behind the scenes as you walked with your assistant. “Another great sold out crowd out there, the VIP tent is dead center, lots of celebrities are here tonight too.” She smiled before you walked away standing on your mark. 

Listening to the entrance music you’d had custom made, caused the memories to flood your mind. 

You looked over at him grinning as you both reached for a piece of popcorn. “Soooo I thought you wanted to do something else when you asked me to come to your hotel room 10:30 at night.” you smirked as he laughed, throwing his head back. “While yes, I’d love to do that too….I figured it would be nice to watch a movie or two, enjoy a snack and relax together too. I ordered some wine and chocolate covered strawberries too.” he said leaning closer to you, as you bit your lip leaning into him, letting his lips brush yours. The next thing you knew, he had you pinned to the bed, popcorn littering the floor as he kissed down your neck, slowly pushing your shirt off and attacking your chest. 

“Ready? Have fun!!” Your assistant shouted over the music and screaming fans as the platform started to bring you up from under the stage. You plastered a grin on your lips and got in your stance with your mic. 

The moment your back up dancers pulled back the large fabric fans to reveal you, you began to sing one of your songs. The roar of screams, cheers and cries erupted throughout the entire stadium as you came into sight for everyone. The platform continued to rise as you sang, smiling at everyone. 

“It's you and me, that's my whole world

They whisper in the hallway, "She's a bad, bad girl"

Oh, I just thought you should know (you should know)

It's you and me, there's nothing like this (like this)

Miss Americana and The Heartbreak Prince (okay)

We're so sad, we paint the town blue (paint it blue)

Voted most likely to run away with you.” 

The music ended as everyone cheered even louder and you laughed softly, the platform lowering back to the mainstage level; you grinned as the next song began instantly. You loved performing for a crowd, they never made you feel like you weren’t worth the love and attention. You strut toward the front of the stage, beginning to sing the bridge, along with the crowd, when a sight almost threw you off your performance. He stood there in the VIP tent with a cold beer in one hand, his other arm around the shoulders of a petite brunette. 

“I'm drunk in the back of the car

And I cried like a baby coming home from the bar (oh)

Said, "I'm fine, " but it wasn't true

I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you

And I snuck in through the garden gate

Every night that summer just to seal my fate (oh)

And I screamed for whatever it's worth

"I love you, " ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?

He looks up grinning like a devil” 

You belt out the bridge, the crowd screaming louder toward the end. You tried to not to look at the VIP tent, the urge to see him again, standing there happy with some other girl, you danced around, happily grinning at the crowd, encouraging them to sing along. You finally took a break, smiling wide as everyone clapped and cheered. “Hi!” you said cheerfully. “My name is Y/N and welcome to The Eras Tour,” you grinned as the stadium erupted again. 

“I just want to say thank you to everyone who is here tonight and I hope that I don’t disappoint. I usually perform only two surprise songs a night, however, I’m feeling…fun tonight, so I want to add another song to the list for you all. It’s one that I don't usually perform live. But, I hope you enjoy it.” you smiled as the platform rose and you looked around, the soft jazz music starting as loud cheers erupted. You couldn't stop the smile that landed on your face as you began to sing. 

“We were crazy to think

Crazy to think that this could work

Remember how I said I'd die for you?

We were stupid to jump

In the ocean separating us

Remember how I'd fly to you?

And I can't talk to you when you're like this

Staring out the window like I'm not your favorite town

I'm New York City

I still do it for you, babe

They all warned us about times like this

They say the road gets hard and you get lost when you're led by blind faith

Blind faith” 

You smiled looking around, your eyes landed on him again, he had a look in his eyes, just like how he used to look at you, hunger and desperation for your touch. You put your lips back up to the microphone and made eye contact with him again. 

“But we might just get away with it

Religion's in your lips

Even if it's a false god

We'd still worship

We might just get away with it

The altar is my hips

Even if it's a false god

We'd still worship this love

We'd still worship this love

We'd still worship this love

I know heaven's a thing

I go there when you touch me

Honey hell is when I fight with you” 

You didn’t mean to stare for so long, but the way he looked at you, watching your body move. You wanted to jump off stage and run into his arms again, kissing him, telling him how in love with him you still were, even after the three years that had passed. You felt a tightness in your chest when the girl turned and kissed his neck, and began to dance with him. 

You finished the song not soon after and took a small bow as everyone screamed out. You stood still smiling as the platform began to lower, before diving off to get changed. “I need a minute,” you said as your assistant came up to you. She looked slightly confused as they began to help you into your next outfit. How were you going to continue this concert with him staring at you? You didn’t think you could do it honestly. 

“I can’t believe you changed the set list, We’re going to have to cut one of the surprise songs.” You looked at her. “No we can’t but we are changing them tonight.” you said as they did up the back of your dress. “What?! Why!” she gasped. “Chris is here,” you said looking at her as her face fell. “With some girl.” she sighed putting a hand on her head “Jesus fucking Christ……okay. Tell me what you need.” you looked at her again as tears filled your eyes. “I need a fucking minute.” you grabbed the new mic rushing off.

[lulablogss]

bear it; misunderstanding

𓆩❤︎𓆪 FEAT. gojo satoru × reader ft. geto

𓆩❤︎𓆪 SYPNOPSIS; you become a percentage of the women that plan b doesnt work for. just your luck the father happens to be your steamy one night stand, gojo sator. and even he can't deny it, that's his kid.

𓆩❤︎𓆪 CONTAINS; MEAN!GOJO, angst, mentions of depression, mentions of abortion, nsfw scenes; degradation, lewd words, under the influence, so dub-con, pregnancy (these r just warnings for part one this is going to be a short series w one-shots)

𓆩❤︎𓆪

the night of,

the ambience of the club now making your temples ache. “thank you for the drinks but i should get going,” you shouted, trying to be heard over the ear deafening music. “you’re driving?” you heard the him ask. you nod in response. “you shouldn’t be driving while tipsy doll, it isn’t safe.”

you almost laugh at his attempt to get you home with him, you aren’t stupid. you were aware that’s what it’d lead too. but all you let show is a sly smirk. “did you or did you not drink to?” you remark with sass. “yes- but i didn’t drink as much as you,” he defends with a deep laugh, showing off his teeth in a grin. “c’mon lead me to your car then.”

one thing leads to another and now here you are back at his place, once again. desperate to have his hands on you, the arousal now getting to an aching point. a lust for release, only oh so much teasing that one can take. oh but so much teasing gojo satoru can give. if anything it’s his speciality.

-

“gonna beg for my cock now or do i have to tease that greedy cunt some more?” he looks at you, getting off to your desperate position. what a pervert he is. but youre not the type to just bend to someone’s will. quite obstinate to be honest. only gazing up at him in reply to his vulgar question. “what a stubborn little slut you are. but sluts like you are meant to be broken, and that’s just what i’m going to do,” his tone laced with condescension but a smile accompanying his features, lidded eyes just barely visible behind his shades. he goes to grab your chin with a tight grip, forcing your head up to him.

“fine, since you can’t be honest with what you want. i’ll fuck the honesty out of you.” he slides his rough hands down to your neck and pulls you up from your knees. regardless of your height the 6’5 stature of the male intimidates you and makes you feel less compared to him.

he turns you around and forces your head into his sofa, now bent over the arm of the couch. he pulls your hips up even higher and positions a pillow under you. just so you can lay comfortably while he fucks your brain out and so your hips can reach his. he sits and admires your cunt for a second.

your wetness almost glistening on his finger tips as he spreads it all over your leaky hole and clit. his prodding fingers elicit soft moans out of you. forcing you to put your head into his throw pillows to not give him the satisfaction of knowing he’s making you feel good.

“i’m going to put it in, bear it for me baby,” he says as you feel his tip slide up and down your cunt, eventually slipping inside you. he abruptly thrust to the hilt of his length drawing out a lewd moan from you.

“i’m going to make you feel really good, gonna have you creaming all over me baby.”

and that, he did.

—

3 weeks later,

“what the fuck-” pure disbelief painting your features as you blinked and blinked again. positive lines. “mai- i- i could’ve swore i took the pill,” you cried out to your best friend. she too, stared at the test frozen in shock. “y/n.. what are you going to do?” she asked, looking up at you with a blank expression, shy of an reaction.

call it a primal thing, but you could feel something wasn’t right. opting you to take a test, putting you in your current situation.

𓆩❤︎𓆪

you couldn’t do anything but sob. for a few days, til mai forced you out of your hole of wallowing self pity. making it aware all that crying wasn’t good for the baby. but you had every right to be as down as you were. how were you going to finish your college courses while bussing out the seams. sure enough it was your last year, but you did not have children anywhere in your near future.

crazy how one careless night can change your life. abortion wasn’t even an option. not only was it physically not available, your mother swore to disown you if you even thought about harming her grandchild. the audacity of her. she suddenly cares about a unborn child when she barely cared about you.

𓆩❤︎𓆪

“well how are you going to tell him y/n,” your roomate, mai asked. you stared at her a bit, still contemplating yourself how you were going to tell your steamy one night stand, gojo satoru. literally the only thing you knew about him was his name and number. no one has their full name on the internet these days. making him even harder to find. and his number? messages failed to deliver.

did he block you already? impossible, he gave you his new number and didn’t have yours. unless he got it from his “broken phone” and blocked you. faulty number? more possible. though you were familiar with a face he hung and clubbed around, geto suguru. but you’d have to catch him at a club since you had no other way to contact him.

“mai.. i don’t know honestly.” you state in defeat. “i don’t even want this right now, im majoring in fucking engineering for christs sake, how am i going to raise a child. i can barely take care of myself,” you sob, words barely audible through your exasperated cries.

mai moves over to comfort you,

“y/n, baby we got this, i’ll forever be here for you.”

———

4 years later

she was there for you. throughout your whole pregnancy. through thick, thin, and every mood swing. not even your mother was there for you despite her acts of cruelty towards you for even suggesting aborting a not even formed child.

mai, your biggest supporters when you introduced baby boy ren into the world. what hurted the most was how he didn’t even look of you. he looked more of his father. his deadbeat father. who was there for nothing. but little did you know it was nothing of his fault. he didn’t know, despite the lengths you went to tell him.

𓆩❤︎𓆪

there he was, geto. it took a couple trips to the club to with mai to finally see him. he was your only chance you had at telling gojo about his unborn child. you approached him while he was sitting at the bar, drink in his hand.

“geto,” you said, he automatically twisted his head to look at you as you sat in the stool beside him. “you look familiar, i know you right?” he inquired. you nodded and took a deep breathe before you explained everything to him. not leaving any detail out, his eyes sort of boring the truth out of you.

“are you sure it’s his,” he asked, probably not aware of the offensive nature of his question. “are you serious?” you ask, now looking at him with an annoyed expression. “he’s the only man i’ve slept with in months, and just my luck the time i decided to sleep around i get pregnant.”

“i’m sorry, i- i’m just shocked okay? but here, i’ll do this for you,” he pulls out his phone and asks you to put your number in, and in return he puts a contact in your phone. under the name of gojo. “that’s his number, text him tomorrow, he’s probably sleep right now.” and with that geto gets up to give you a hug, and leaves but not without kissing your forehead. strange.

-𓆩❤︎𓆪

next day

you: hey, this is gojo right? this is y/n

gojo: Oh hey? How’d you get this number?

you: geto gave it to me bc i wanna talk to you abt something

gojo: Oh okay What’s up?

you: i’m pregnant satoru

gojo: What? Are you sure? Didn’t you take plan B?

you: i swear i did i don’t know what happened

gojo: Y/n i’m sorry but please never contact me again. I don’t want anything to do with that child of yours. It’d be best if you aborted it.

*blocked.

—

gojo not wanting anything to do with the child had to be one of the most heart breaking parts of your pregnancy. your heart still aches when you think about his last text before he blocked you. even now as you held his child, with the light hair and same hypnotizing eyes of his father. only thing in common with you was his hair texture and skin tone.

now it’s 4 years from then. the year 2023 and you’re 27 years old and your baby boy is four. you and mai moved out of that shanty shack of an apartment you were in and moved to a more downtown area of tokyo, japan. into a far more accommodating apartment for you, her, you’re baby ren, and mai’s boyfriend. with a lovely living and dinning room, with a way bigger bathroom, and a lovely bedroom for you and your child.

after all you deserved it. after giving birth about 3 months til you were done with college. then after landing a steady job after recovery you worked from home for about a year and a half, then worked the rest in person up to date. mai was the only one who was there for you. not gojo and hell not even your mother.

-

small world one could say, maybe it was a coincidence mai’s boyfriend and gojo worked together. or maybe it was just destiny to run into him again.

and that’s why you’re in your car now, heading to the park with ren in tow. dressed your best to see his father again, after all these years. why now was he okay to meet with you? what made him agree to terms? did he now want to see his child? did he want to pay me off? only time can tell.

you pulled up to the destination that you two agreed upon and you and ren walked over to an empty bench. waiting for him. waiting for your answers.

—

it wasn’t until at least 10 minutes after you sent ren off to play in the park did you see him. a white haired male standing out amongst everyone else. wearing shades regardless of the sun barely shining. you see his eyes land on the only light haired boy at the play ground. ren obviously standing out. his facial features unreadable. a mixture of disbelief and disappointment.

you called ren over, gojos eyes staying put on him watching where he was going. til he saw you. you watched as his face dropped. it took him five seconds to actually approach you.

“wait.. y/n? what are you doing here?” he stands there looking at you almost speechless. you have such an unforgettable face. “is he- is he yours, wait.. is he mine?” you can’t do anything but nod. you watch his facial expressions turn into a blank expression into an angered one. “are you serious? were you just going to keep him from me? and i though you were on the pill back then? were you going to keep him from me forever?” he bombarded you with questions. his questions made you confused, why was he pretending as if he knew nothing of this child.

you look down at your child, him staring up at his father in curiosity. “ren, baby, go play at the park for a minute,” you smiled at him and watched as he waddled away. the smile you had for him faded as you looked back up at his “father.” “are you fucking serious right now, why are you acting as if you know nothing of this child. as if you didn’t block me when i told you i was pregnant. like i didn’t tell you the plan b didn’t work,” you whisper shouted, your angered tone visible to him but not alerting anyone else.

“what the fuck are you talking about?” he asked. you stared at him in disbelief for a minute then pulled out your phone. although the messages hurt you, you never deleted them. it was the only thing you had of your childs father. you went to your contacts and pulled up a contact under the name of “gojo” and showed him the messages.

as he read the messages he looked up at you in horror. “these arent- these aren’t my messages, i’ve never said this to anyone,” he told you, prompting him to look at the message senders number. his face almost instantly distorted in anger once he recognized it. he knew this number, it was his best friends’ number. suguru geto.

but as his world was falling apart so was yours. you examined his left hand as it held your phone. and there you saw a wedding band. was he-? did he? did he get a wife during these 4 years? how could he have made a bond like that so quickly? was she always there? do you even have a right to be mad?

but no doubt, gojo satoru, the father of your child was now married.

a/n: gojo got married? it was geto all these years? find out what happens next in part two.. 🫣 coming in the next 2 days teehee

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[chaoticsomeone]

ATSV CHARACTERS REACT TO

Shadow Summoner reader create shadowed area filled with Volcras, bloodthirsty monsters. To trap a villain

Enjoy!!

You were walking out of the shadowed area you created out of annoyance and anger. Eyes pure black after you used your powers. Only to suddenly fall crying feeling guilty, knowing the villain will die and you can't do anything about it.

Miles Morales

Hugs you

Reassures you slowly

"It's their fault they mentioned your pain"

"They deserved it"

(Romantic) he kisses you, then whispered words to reassure you ane calm you down.

*platonic he kissed your forehead saying "shhh, calm down.."

Promising to help you control your powers better

He creates some jokes and tries his best to make you smile

He was secretly very much frightened

Miles - 42

doesnt caee what happened to the villain

He listened to your rambling

Kissing you to calm you down, hugging and patting your back.

He promises that he wouldn't care about the villain and he would do anything for you

Gwen Stacy

Her first thought was to report to Jess

When she saw you fall and cried, she hang up on Jess to run to you.

She was thankful she hanged up, you could've been in so much more trouble.

She asked you to explain what had happened

You told her everything, the volcras, the villain being tortured and attacked bit by bit. And your guilt.

She holds you close to her chest saying

"I know your guilt. I killed Peter."

"You deserved to kill him"

"You were blinded, its alright"

You knew she was afraid as her voice was unstable

Hobie Brown

Not shocked

He knew you were capable

Yet he was worried the moment you started sobbing

He held your hand as he is patting your back.

Jess was calling

He didnt bother picking up, all he cared about now was comforting you

He did his best to reason that what you did was right

Peter Parker "Dad figure"

Runs to you

Holding you up to his side

Pats your back and ruffles your hair

Tells you its alright

Promises to protect you

Promises to be by yourside

He made sure you had no injuries

Even a scratch would worry him

He put his hand abit into the shadow

Asks you about it more

Listens and tells you its alright and that its a pure accident.

Pavitr Prabhakar

Runs to you faster than everyone else

Thinking your hurt

After you explained he was afraid

He took a step back

But when you look into his eyes he doesnt care abt anything besides helping you now

He promised to treat you to Chai with Gayatri and Him (can be romantic or platonic)

You agreed then slowly was brought to your feet.

You smiled at him

He now has started rambling how its the villains fault

SpiderNoir and Peni

Wows and gasps

Peni was first to run to you when you started crying

Spidernoir was trying to piece things together.

These two hugged you

They both went on to talk about their mistakes and said its alright

And how its partly the villain's fault

Peni and Him then told you that they'd create a power dampener just incase you would need it.

Miguel O'Hara

Angry as hell

"THIS IS NOT CANNON" and whatnot

Jess and the others defended you

He got angry and casted you out

He slowly realized his mistake

How you were experiencing what he felt

Guilt

Pain

Regret

He ended up talking to you and promising to not get angry so quickly again.

Lyla

She can't do much besides call for Jess

But she will still talk to you

She showed you how Miguel did wayyyy worse

She showed you Miguel's mistakes and bad photos to make you smile

You laughed a few times, she was glad

She dissapeared when Jess arrived

But you could see from her eyes that she cared

Jessica Drew "Mom"

At first she was confused and worried

When you fell and sobbed she ran to you

Asks you whats wrong

You told her everything

Her eyes seemed scared for a moment.

She doesnt care for now what happened she was just now trying to comfort you

She tells stories when she accidentally killed her first villain/person

She promises to help defend you against Miguel

[lilyystarr]

um this is because @fuck-i-love-october was making me sad about wolfstar angst and nsfw :(

um so thinking abt post azkaban wolfstar. remus said that he thinks they need time before they dive right back into a relationship. i mean, sirius just spent 12 years being tortured and remus spent 12 years trying (failing) to hate the man who murdered his closest friends, only to find out he's innocent, it isnt the right time for either of them.

but sirius, oh sirius :( he's convinced its partly because he doesnt look the way he used to. his skin is sagging, hes all bones that click uncomfortably when he moves, his eyes have sunken in, no matter how much magic they use, his teeth will never fully recover. remus was there to help shower him, brush his matted hair out and wash the caked mud away from his skin. remus was there when he acted manically, or when he talked to hallucination. his voice gone rough from the years of screaming. he would walk around like a kicked dog. and sirius knew, he knew all these things to be insecure about. so of course, that had to be part of the reason remus doesnt want to continue things!

its only months after that they finally do kiss, its so sweet and gentle, far too gentle for someone like sirius, whos become all sharp and jagged edges over the years.

when the kiss does turn heated, sirius drops to his knees and desperatly tries to get remus' cock in his mouth, because before and after azkaban, sirius knows he was made for this, his mouth carved to fit the curve of remus' cock. despite his upbringing, he didn't mind the degrading position it put him in, loved it even. it was like he was worshiping remus.

before azkaban, sirius loved making eye contact as he went down on remus, it was so intimate and he knew that he'd always find love and adoration in remus' eyes. post azkaban, sirius couldn't bare to look up. he didn't feel pretty enough, didn't want to ruin it for remus by having him look at him. he also couldn't bare the rejection. before azkaban, sirius was a bit of a slut (lol we know). he would moan around remus' cock, pull off and ask "is it good? am i making you feel good moony?" post azkaban, sirius was quiet, and shy. he was so insecure and felt that if remus realised that it was sirius down there, he'd be disgusted and wouldn't finish.

when remus does finally finish he pulls sirius off and says "open up baby" (sirius tried to ignore the fluttering feeling the pet name gave him, he knew remus only said it in the heat of the moment) and remus came all over sirius' face. he licked some of the come around his mouth and couldn't help the cheeky grin that spread over his face. remus smiled with a flushed face as he reached forward to caress sirius' cheek and just gazed at him. "what?" sirius would ask, "you just look so beautiful, i want to take a photo" and sirius immediately pulls back with furrowed brows. and all sirius can think is 'is he making fun of me?' because why, the fuck, would remus, genuinely want of photo of sirius now? when he's old and hagged?

sirius' eyes well up with tears and when he finally pulls out of his thoughts he finds remus looking down on him with concern. he tries to stop the tears from falling, his bottom lip wobbling pathetically, but the tears relents and soon he's sucking breaths of air in. "pads whats wrong?" remus would say a bit frantically. before azkaban, sirius never cried, well, he would cry late at night into remus' neck while they both pretended it wasn't happening. so now, remus was a bit out of his depth. and if we're being honest, if he wasn't so concerned he would def be laughing at sirius covered in cum, while sobbing.

remus pulls sirius into his lap, his body had become awfully pliant in the past 12 years. "sirius whats wrong? look at me, tell me whats wrong" sirius chokes out an apology and remus would just tell him he's done nothing wrong and he doesn't need to apologise, he'd rub his back and murmur things like "its okay, just deep breaths" even though hes so fucking confused.

when he does calm down remus has to coax out what made him so upset and sirius confesses he just doesn't understand why remus would want a photo, he isn't beautiful anymore and remus is just so ??? like how could sirius, Sirius Black ??? not think he's beautiful. and again, remus is so out of his depth because before azkaban, sirius was the least insecure person he knew, as far as looks go. and while remus is thinking, sirius is babbling on about what he thinks his flaws are and remus just stops him and he sounds so, idk, shocked? and he's all like "sirius, how could i ever expect you to love me if all i cared about was looks? you are so much more then a pretty face to me sirius, i love you for who you are, and i never stopped, no matter how hard i tried, i could never stop loving you" and they both just kinda 🧍‍♀️cuz that was the first time either of them said the L word and sirius just kisses him and when they pull back remus adds "and the pretty face is just a bonus"

then they fuck nasty after that >:)

[pigeonmilk-216]

House MD makes me absolutely FERAL.

For instance, I finished rewatching S3 E15, "Half-Wit", the one when House fakes cancer so he can get high (typical). And

AHHH

Everyone's response to House potentially dying is EVERYTHING. And displays both the characters and their character growth SO WELL.

Wilson, ofc, is offended that his best friend *cough* *lover* *cough* didn't say anything, and hid it. And something I think (and forgive me if this is not actually how it went down to everyone else, it's 1am and I have brainrot) is really interesting, is that beyond Wilson giving House shit for not saying anything, Wilson doesn't give any of the platitudes that everyone else gives. We don't see Wilson trying to "fix" anything or say, "House your dying, can we have an actual human connection for once?". No no, Wilson just lets him be.

Now, either Wilson is pissed and reeling from this news , and is just distancing himself (which tbh feels ooc, like House has crossed worse lines before, and Wilson deals with cancer everyday, idk).

OR you can look at the option of Wilson knows House well enough (and cancer, let's be real) that trying to fix it, won't change anything, that coming up to House and trying to "console" him won't do anything. House is House, and Wilson KNOWS THAT. Wilson knows that if House really and truly wants a conversation about it, or any comfort, House will just be like, " Yo, can we go get wasted?" and that's that.

AND THEN HIS FUCKING ANALYSIS AT THE END AND HIM FUCKING LAUGHING AT THE IRONY.

And Cuddy, I feel like, is the middle ground between how Wilson and the kids react. She doesn't go out of her way to say something, but in an almost hand-on-the- doorknob-as-I'm-leaving type way does she say something. AND THEN THEIR BANTER IN THE HALL IS FUCKING EVERYTHINGG. And her FUCKING smile as House grabs her ass (istg I can only say this in real action to this fucking show) but still dismissing him coming to the bedroom with her

Like both her and Wilson and obviously hurt, right, but they don't outright change their behavior toward House or anything, but they accept it (kind of) and don't go out of their way to change anything,

AND THEN THE KIDS' RESPONSES. ANHHH

I love Chase's moment. He's just like, "Dad, shut up and let me hug you" AND FUCKING STARTS CRYING

CHASE IS LITERALLY THE ONLY ONE WHO CRIES

He's like, "Goddammit, I'm going to lose two of my parentals to this cancerous bullshit. Tf."

AND HUGH LARUIE'S ACTING I CANT

YOU CAN SEE HOUSE REALIZING THAT, "oh shit, they really care and this is really going to hurt them" LIKE WHAT THE HELL. MY HEART, FUCK THIS SHOW WTH

And I love how Cameron is shown in this episode, over the first three seasons, we can see her kinda of coming to her own, and learning from House, so instead of like, backing down from helping House she just fucking kisses him so she can steal his blood. Like. YES CAMERON. GET IT.

AND AGAIN

HUGH LAURIE. YOU CAN SEE HOUSE'S HESITATION, WEIGHING THE PROS AND CONS BEFORE KSSING BACK.

And tbh I feel like House is low key proud of Cameron for a moment in a "she is taking after me" type way.

And Foreman trying not to care, but caring the whole time, and HIS FACE WHEN HES TELLING HOUSE HE DOESNT HAVE CANCER. LIKE. JXNKSCVJVXFBJKBFVSKJ

And I just love everyone's reaction five seconds later when they realize

"House is an addict. Right. Fucking this was a sham, fuck"

AND THEIR FACES ARE EVEYTHING

Cameron is crestfallen, outraged. Foreman is slightly pissed but completely nonplussed almost? Like a I should have expected this/this is such a House thing, which is why I dislike the man. And his sarcastic response is EVERYTHING And, Chase, oh Chase. He's so disbelieving and hurt. Like my baby I'm so sorry.

And House like really understanding how much this hurt them, and kinda of being a fucking TOTAL IDIOT and like slightly scared I feel but arrogant enough to just fucking like. Trying to blame so he doesn't feel guilty (he does) pushing them away so he doesn't have to face consequences (he's spiraling) and and after Wilson (finally) talks to him, having to stop and THINK about how fucking miserable is he really (he's such and idiot) and just AHHH

AND THEN HIM FUCKING GOING INTO THE RESTAURANT AT THE END?????? ITS A FUCKING CRIME THAT WE DON'T SEE THAT CONVERSATION BETWEEN HIM AND THEM. LIKE SIR, I WANT TO THIS POTENTIALLY EMOTIONALLY CHARGED MOMENT. LIKE

And honestly, Ilove how House interacts with the patient in the episode, it's on par with the boy who had autism earlier this season. Like the piano part is what really intrigues him, but still goes forth to give him his life back. Idk, just felt special.

Okay, um so thank you for coming to my Ted Talk. Idk what happened.

[ithildinwrites]

haikyuu dumpster battle movie review

btw i copied this directly from my letterboxd review lol my acc is linked here if u wanna follow me there :)

THIS IS A REWATCH REVIEW THIS IS MY SECOND TIME SEEING THE MOVIE

*cracks fingers* alright here we go i pulled out the laptop to write this review i have so much to say

this is my first rewatch of the movie and i think when i watched it the first time in the cinema i was just so hyped and happy to be watching it that i just wanted to enjoy it and i didnt really think about it too deeply you know? but now rewatching it lets me think about it more and kind of analyse it properly so :)

okay first of all !!! i spent the entirety of this movie either grinning ear to ear OR crying because i love it sm. and i do not exaggerate how much i fucking cried bc istg i would wipe the tears away and calm down and then start crying again the second the next scene started like it's not even funny

i adore the relationships between karasuno and nekoma so so much like it's so cool seeing the characters and their parallels and then also their rivals yk like how daichi and kuroo are both captains and they've got that whole thing going but then there's also the rivalry between kuroo and tsukishima!!! and it's the same with shoyo and kenma and then shoyo and inouka LIKE IDK I JUST ADORE IT

furudate writes relationships so wonderfully whether you choose to interpret them romantically or platically i just think they're all so deep and important and have so much depth and importance to the plot and the characters' own development and growth it's so lovely

so the relationships! first of all yamaguchi and tsukishima. we didn't see too much of them in this movie but the little bits we did i ADORED SO SO MUCH!!!! like tsukishima saying "he's someone who's going to surpass me" about yamaguchi OH MY GOD SO CUTE and then their little high five :((( i love them sm

tsukishima himself i just love a lot especially in this movie. he has one of the best growth arcs i've seen and it's so cool seeing how much he changed from the beginning to starting to join in more in s2 during the training camp bc of kuroo and bokuto and then in s3 to stopping ushijima's spike and falling deeper into volleyball like he's so cool!!! seeing him battle against kuroo in this and LAUGH and beat him like wow he's great and he's so petty too i love him lol

KUROO AS WELL!!! i love love love all the little flashbacks they had, especially the one of kuroo and kenma in their childhood when they went to the volleyball place and they had the line about "lowering the net" because as a manga reader, knowing what kuroo ends up doing for his job and how he works to lower the net is such a cool like arc? like seeing how much he grew and how he grasped that and did it himself to help others is so lovely

if i started talking about kenma and shoyo i fear i would never shut up. their friendship means the absolute world to me like they were besties from the moment they met, calling each other by their first names when no one else calls shoyo that except for nishinoya like !!!!! kenma being besties with him when he basically doesnt talk to people like that just goes to show how much shoyo draws people to him. the fact that this friendship fully helped change the way kenma looks at volleyball because he found a worthy opponent and a worthy boss and it made him acknowledge that volleyball was FUN!!!

kenma admitting that volleyball was fun might just be my roman empire (along with one other line i'll talk about in a bit) like IT HAS SUCH AN IMPACT YK???

so many things in this movie held such impacts i think. like kageyama giving shoyo a chance to pick himself up and hit the ball. his little "fly" LIKE YES THAT'S HIS FUCKING PARTNER AND HE'S GOING TO HELP HIM GET BACK UP!!!!! and then shoyo fucking FLEW SO HIGH AND HE SLAYED WOW WHAT A GUY

shoyo's growth throughout this series (especially including the manga and brazil + timeskip stuff) is so wonderful to look at because he really grew so much and we got to witness every little bit of it like isn't that so cool??? we got to see him improve little bits of himself throughout the series and i just love it so fucking much

i need to start wrapping this up bc i've been yapping for so long okay last couple things

"thank you for teaching me volleyball" I FUCKING CRIED OKAY KENMA SAYING THAT TO KUROO IS THE SWEETEST THING EVER LIKE :((( fully attributing that he wouldnt be here today had kuroo not taught him to play volleyball and asked him to play everyday isn't that CRAZY

also i love love LOVE that kenma and kuroo were the first two to bow to nekomata and say thank you, paralleling the scene of them seeing him when they were little kids and like idk i just thought it was a really cool scene

i know i said i cried a lot during the movie but genuinely the last couple minutes from when the match ended onwards when u see them all celebrating or whatever and then speaking to their coaches and then each other!!!!! daichi and kuroo hugging, and then kuroo and tsukishima etc was so so cute to see i love the relationships between the two teams. also seeing grandpa ukai hold his hand out to the fucking tv I FUCKING LOST IT like my eyes hurt from crying so much okay i think my yap is over :D if u read this all then i hope u enjoyed my ramble lol

[ants-personal]

toying around with the idea of somehow randy shooting benson. Itd be an accident of course he never really wanted or planned on doing it saw an opportunity to take the gun homding it with shaky hands twat tracks down his face. He just wants benson to stop he has to stop give him just a bit of space some time to breath gather himself mostly he just wants benson to listen to him. He doesnt want benson hurt thinks he doesnt want him locked away if benson would stop driving them down the road of no return they could figure something out.

He pleads as benson stands there silent posture still and stiff a predator waiting for an opening theres betrayal in his dark eyes a flicker of pride overshadowed by his darken demeanor. He stumbles over his words thoughts a panic flurry he has so much he wants to say to ask hes hicupping panting legs trembling

It was an accident when his finger squeezed the trigger. The sound of his name being screamed by benson had terrified him body tensing up waiting for the feeling of fists in his guts fingers digging into his neck. The loud bang knocks him out of his panic leaving his esrs ringing wide eyes locked in with bensons breathing heavy when his eyes are drawn to a wet red splotch grow and stain bensons shirt. Right above his right hip benson clamps a hand down on his wound staggers back till hes leaning against his car blood leaking and dribbling through his fingers.

Randy drops the gun like it burns him forgets it in the dry grass rushing over benson holds him at arms length fingers twitch and shaky tells randy to stay dont touch him. Randy is repesting apologies he hadn't meant it arms outreached full on crying now. Benson shoving randy off when he tries to get closer depsite what he just said through gritted terth he cant help but laugh tells randy hes proud really the randy at the bbbs would never had done anything to save himself but now look him sharp shooter. He did the right thing.

Randy doesnt feel like it watching benson grow paler and wet with sweat shirt hands and pants stained with blood theres a puddle under him. He begs benson to let him help him save him. Benson shakes his head digging in his pocket. "Theres nothing to save randy it was always going to end up this way" He pulls out randys phone laying all hia weight on the car behind him and holds it out with a shaky bloodied hand. He wants him to take it walk a mile down the road and then call whoever he needs to to take him home. Randy refusing digging nails into palms pleads cries begs please dont do this benson. Benson heaving himself off the car to stagger over to randy cup his face runs a finger smearing his blood on his cheek mixing bensons blood and randys tears leans his forehead against his while he slips the phone into randys hand assures him itll be okay he did so well hes the one thing benson has ever done right smiling with sad tired eyes he needs randy to go now.

And for the first time that day randy makes a decision in that moment he knows what he wants for certian and that is for benson to live. Benson looks so small so ...scared curled in on himself swayin on his feet as he accepts his fate thinking randy is leaving him to die like he deserves put down like a rabid dog.

Randy lets the phone clatter to the ground tearing the long coat off himself he forces it against bensons wound with a shaky hand wrapping his other arm around benson who protests tries to push him away with weak shoves but randy doesnt let up drags them both towards the car blood smearing everywhere between them it leaves a large stripe agaist the passanger door as randy shoves benson into it hands scrambling all over till hes buckled in and he has the keys out of bensons pockets. Peeling off back onto the road randy digging nail shape groves into the wheel vlood covered knuckles straining against the skin. Benson is quiet hes just staring at randy with uncertainty.

"What are you doing randy"

" I'm making a decision benson"

[lesharl-eclair]

simi fic recs pt. 1

um i wrote half of this at 2am so.. any errors mine ::::) heed the tags etc etc i think this doesnt; need to be saisd

all fics below the cut; if you enjoyed these fics, please show the authors comment and kudo love; should you be the author of a fic that's here, and don't want to be here, please reach out to me and your wish is my command :)

individual fics first as always!

maybe just a little by neonbreadsticks (G, 4.1k)

Kimi doesn’t remember much these days. Only the soft glow of the sunlight through the beige curtains, and the smell of the flowers in the garden before they bloom. The sound of a beat-up Aston Martin idling in his driveway and his dustless shelves in his living room. The curve of Seb’s lips, pulled back against his cheeks, the crows feet that only appear when he laughs at things beyond Kimi’s level of understanding.  Kimi doesn’t remember much these days, but he remembers enough.

ok fr i cried (and proceeded to write this)

this is one of my all-time favourite simi fics because of how beautiful it is - their story isn't over-embellished, it's just given a lot of space to shine. there's a certain heartache that comes w/ the added complication of ferrari & discarding of naivete & us vs the world levels of heroic framing & the idea that seb isn't ok but kimi's there that makes the fic really bring on the waterworks for me.

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to survive the tides by @shih-coulda-had-it (T, 4.6k)

The surge of want nearly overwhelmed Sebastian’s impulse control, sorely tested since the beginning of their partnership in Ferrari, and now so worn and tattered that Sebastian almost said, ‘Yes, go ahead, take whatever you want, I will give it to you.’ Sebastian Vettel attends the 2018 FIA Prize Giving.

OH MY GOD i spent an embarrasingly long time making sure it was actually your tumblr hehehaha.

something really special about the way you wrote the interactions. everything is incredibly true to life (warily impressed at the amount of research you must have done)

there's a sense of restrained tension slash want slash bittersweet something that runs through this entire thing. am very compelled. every time i reread this it's a different experience.

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to the finnish line by @rosyjuly (E, 3.2k)

"It’s the perfect car to have some fun. Might even take the roof down.” They do. They also take Charles back to their hotel room.

can i just say i let out a very embarrassing noise when i realised who the author was on tumblr like oh my GOD. OH my goddd

SIMI DOMESTICITY SHINING THROUGH??? as unlikely as it seems in such a fic. inside jokes. the very questionable power dynamics lol. seriously torn about how to feel for charles. very brilliant unexpected characterisation.

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what a thing to choose by @thereisstillalifetolive (E, 2/2, 10.1k)

If someone had asked Kimi what he thought about Seb’s acting ability prior to this he would’ve laughed in their face, Iceman or not. Because while Seb’s ability to talk circles around a question he doesn’t want to answer is unparalleled, a reasonably trained goldfish could discern how he feels about it. Except. Right now, Kimi’s not entirely certain what year he’s actually in.

still don't know how to talk about this fic coherently it was one of the holyshit moments for me

there are still some tiny sweet moments that shine through. amidst all the Stuff going on. and the vulnerability becomes all the more devastating. like yes this is ageplay this is performance (to some extent) but it's also very real. characterisation is breathtaking, sex speaks for itself, possessive kimi + desperate seb is hmmmmhmmhm. rearranging my brain.

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thanks for reading, etc. there's loooots more simi fic recs coming your way if i can be bothered

as always, if you enjoyed this, or if i missed any fic, please let me know :) drop me an ask for any ship if you're dying to see something!

[fuwaprince]

My love told me to stay gone...

Then messaged me saying hi (makes me think, "huh?..."). Last night I dropped off his laundry after finding a friend willing to let me use their laundry machine to do it. I did it all nice and folded... but when I dropped it off he didn't open the door- come to find out he was sleeping with someone else... after telling me he was too loyal not to at that. I don't want to think about what they may have been doing. I feel like a fool... It feels like he only liked me for my company, for sexual pleasure... and what I managed to provide us. I'm doing my best to keep on keeping on, focus instead on handling responsibilities and improve my own life so that my future is better. I want better for myself. For him, too, in spite of it all.

I'm also praying and hoping for a good lover to come into my life. One who knows right from wrong, who doesnt hurt me in terrible ways, who protects me and takes care of us. Who has a stable job with parents/a family who might accept me or even love me... who is with me through sickness and health. Who knows how to make me smile and enjoys my silly laugh. My mom tells me she prays I get a good husband one day. I suppose that makes her and I what they call hopeless romantics.

I used to think of "us" and use it as a drive. Now it just hurts. I can't really talk to anybody about this heartbreak either (bc it feels annoying to dump all this onto anybody- especially people who are kind and good to me), so I'm blogging about it. He's still unwell, still starving and still in so much need. I can't help but care.

I hope whoever he's with now is taking good care of him, not putting him down and careful with his heart. He said he hates me and all these things... I dont even know where it all came from... A good friend questioned if he was going crazy or on drugs and I really don't know. I've been drug free (makes me so happy!!! It literally brings tears in my eyes to be able to say that honestly). My past love tells me he is but then when he gets hospitalized they tell me he has stuff in his system and I don't understand why or why he lies to me. Anyways, it makes me cry... I cried while leaving his house last night. I have so much compassion, but it does hurt. Deeply... Have you ever been betrayed and hurt by a love?

Rn I know that I need to prioritize myself for once. I can't let this heartbreak and mean, nonapplicable words destroy my progress. I am confident in my self. I know I am worthy of more than what I experienced. Of respect, truth, kindness, love, support, acceptance, opportunity and understanding. I can't deny that I still have love for him. It's just not right how I'm being treated tho... after everything I did for him (which was quite a lot...). Every day I take the steps to move forward with my life and take my future back.

Whoever is reading this, hi and I love you. Thank you for listening. I hope today is a good day for both of us. Thanks for pausing your scrolling to read how I'm doing 🫂 x x. Keep on, keep strong, keep loving no matter what

[stevie-petey]

since you cant update for a while (take your time!!!!) can we ask for some headcanons or insight to tie us over 😭😭

yes of course !

bug headcannons include:

has a fear of bees (ironically enough) like she respects them and what they do for the environment but whenever they buzz near her she screams and runs

favorite season is summer. the sun and the air and blue skies remind her of virginia and where she grew up before everything changed and anger set in

great baker, horrible chef (no one knows why)

favorite cake is strawberry shortcake and shes had it as her birthday cake every year since she was 3 (her dads idea)

steve headcannons:

favorite holiday was halloween growing up so he could pretend to be someone else

has always wanted a sibling, so the party welcoming him in makes him incredibly happy

first heartbreak was when his preschool crush wouldnt marry him

the first time he saw bug in high school after leaving middle school he almost walked into the lockers. she had changed so much in a year, and he almost hadnt recognize her <3

jon !!

bug was his first ever crush and the reason why hes so horrible with girls now. spent his first 4 years of puberty just admiring his bff. bless him

secretly envies how easy it is for steve to be liked by the party. he grew up with the boys and doesnt understand when they stopped liking him

scared of the dark and only bug knows this

once walked in on mrs henderson changing and he cried for an hour because he felt so horrible and guilty (bug laughed the entire time)

n nancy :)

has competed with bug for the best grades in school since they were 12 (bug has no idea this is even a thing)

terrified of becoming her mother yet pities her as well

also scared of the dark (her and jon hold hands to comfort each other)

wishes she was as easily liked as bug is. she knows its her fault, shes not as open and easy going and kind, but it makes her sad that mike looks up to bug and not her