#^ thing that cried and laughed so much it doesnt know what it is now ^^

[jan-likes-jam]

Hc's of One Piece Men as dad's / having a pregnant S/O

Reader could be any pov. We support M!preg ♡

List of characters: Luffy, Zoro, Sanji, Law, Ace.

Tw: Pregnancy.

Fluff, a bit of angst.

Go check part 2

My first ever post about headcanons, please, if you enjoyed this silly thing, vote. Even comment suggestions ♡.

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Monkey D. Luffy:

★ Yes. He knows how children are made.

★ He probably didn't understand at first what it trully meant to become a father though.

★ Responsability striked probably way too late.

★ He realised when he saw you not being able to defend yourself. Probably in danger.

★ After that, he would try to be more careful, when he fights, he asks the crew to take you away or shielding you from any threat.

★ It amused him nonetheless having a child on the way, and asked a lot of questions, even if you yourself didn't know how to answer.

★ He gets really frustrated seeing you in trouble during pregnancy, like cramps, morning sickness, cravings and trouble handling emotions.

★ He is poorly socially aware and an impulsive talker. Probably would accidentally make rude or out of pocket comments that don't suit your delicate situation.

★Wouldn't know how to properly show you support when you felt your mood swings and have self steem issues. Tends to say dumb shit to make you laugh though.

★ "It's okay to be fat, you are eating a lot!" ... "Wait, why are you crying more?!"

★ At the end of the day he is excited to meet his child.

★ Everyone hopes the baby doesn't take after Luffy. One is enough.

★ Doesnt know anything about children. But is willing to try his best and learn.

★ Will give you heart attacks at seeing him holding the baby wrong or playing with it like a toy.

★ Would 100% stretch his arm from the crib to the bed as he placed the baby and now had his hand trapped under it's tiny body, too scared to remove it and wake the poor thing up.

Roronoa Zoro:

★ Couldn't believe it when you announced it to him.

★ Lowkey was affraid at first. Didn't feel preppared for a responsability like that

★ Felt actually bad as he thought how to break the news to you about how he "wasn't ready" when the baby was already on the way.

★ The first time it kicked he was napping. You yelled across the ship for him to come feel it kicking.

★ Since that momment he fell in love with his unborn child.

★ Doesn't like to show how excited he is. Always trying to act nonchalant and tuff before the crew and other people.

★ In private likes to speak to your belly like the baby is a complete functional person.

★ "It's a restless one" you say, an uncomfortable smile on your face as you caress your swollen belly. "Yo, little rascal. You are not even here and you are already causing trouble?"

★ Zoro cracks a smile every single time.

★ When the time for your delivery was coming closer, Robin made him scared saying how living in a ship and the stressful life of a pirate ship could make your water broke at any time.

★ Since then, he can't nap properly, high alert all the time and tense.

★ Once born, the restless nights made him literally his sleep schedule even more chaotic than it already was.

★ You found him once asleep on the Galley, empty baby bottle in one hand, your child in the other cuddled against his chest, both heavily asleep.

★ That image was the cutest thing you've ever seen.

Vinsmoke Sanji:

★ Oh, he passed out.

★ He got so shocked and excited he cried like a baby.

★ After crying his eyes off, he hugged you the strongest he has ever held you.

★ "I love you so much... thank you for giving me this chance. I promise I wont dissapoint."

★ Kisses your forehead good morning and kneels down to kiss your belly, even when the bump was barely noticeable. Every. Single. Day.

★ Tried to stop smoking. He doesn't want to intoxicate the air you're in.

★ Now he only smokes late at night on Sunny's deck, alone with his thoughts.

★ Usually catches himself smilling at the idea of having a gorgeous baby girl, to raise her like a princess (he doesn't mind a boy, he just rlly wants a girl)

★ Cooks you ANYTHING you want, ANYTIME you want.

★ Top listener and comforter.

★ Whenever you are havin self steem issues he knows exactly how to comfort you.

★ "No, no... My dove please don't cry. You are the most beautiful creature I have ever laid eyes on." ... "Don't be rough on yourself, in my eyes you are even more gorgeous than ever." ... "Of course I would still love you, you are carrying now the All Blue of my heart in your womb."

★ Everytime you do something that takes an extra effort (like step on a ladder, carry a lot of bags, or play rough with Luffy), Sanji is already there, softly guiding you to take a seat and lecturing you on not being too rough on your precious body.

★ Held your hand throught the whole delivery, didnt complain a single time.

★ Had the sweetest, most calming aura ever. Helping to ease your stress.

★ He held your guy's baby and silently cried, hoping not to wake up the poor child nor you, as you rested.

Trafalgar Water D. Law:

★ Tbh he has mixed feelings.

★ Even with the baby already delivered he wasn't excited. It was bittersweet. You were fine, that made him feel at ease. But now he had to take care of a new life with you. Each time he thought about it a lump got stucked in his throat.

★ Not like he doesn't love you and the child doesn't make him happy. He is proud of how for you both have come, and the fruits of your labor.

★ He just felt a huge unease at the idea of becoming a father.

★ After all he's been through, and all he's seen, it felt almost like a sin to bring such innocence into a cruel world like this.

★ However, when he steps into his private quarters to see you feeding your guy's child, all the guilt dissapears.

★ He didn't really feel touched during the whole pregnancy, usually occupying himself with work. It wasn't until he actually held that tiny baby, with it's chubby hands held his finger to try and suck it.

★ After a while the baby was there, and everything just... settled down, he couldn't speak about how bad he felt for being so distant during the pregnancy.

★ One day you found him changing a diaper and softly smiling as the baby looked at him with a funny face.

★ "Look what the sea brought in." You teased. A grin on your lips, but your eyes filled with love.

★ Instead of getting annoyed or ignoring he hugged you, pulling you into a warm embrace.

★ "Hope one day you can forgive me..." Is all he said before kissing your temple.

★ He is not a very affectionate dad. But expresses his love the best he can.

★ The crew loves that baby, they play with it every time they can. But pannick the second it cries.

★ Surprisingly clingy to it's papa. Law's calm aura makes the tiny thing get at ease.

Portgass D. Ace:

★ You tried to keep it a secret fro a while. But of course he noticed something was wrong and you had to tell him.

★ You hoped he would comfort you and tell you something like "We'll get through this together."

★ He pannicked with you. Both of you sitting in the Moby dick's bathroom having a shared meltdown.

★ After a while decided to keep it. Tough decision. You guys were still too young.

★ Ace felt guilty. Having the blood of Gol D. Roger, and having a child on the way made him feel like he was repeating the story. But this time, he was going to make it right.

★ Went to talk to Marco about it. Expecting guidance, got his ass whooped instead.

★ Later that day, both of you were getting the biggest lecture about safe sex.

★ Whitebeard wasn't particularly happy, but refused to lecture you and Ace about it.

★ A couple of months later everyone was overjoyed. Ace being the happiest. Throwing celebrations, plans, a baby shower even.

★ He took this opportunity as a life mission to prove himself that, even if his biological father was never there, and probably never even cared about him, perhaps not even his mom, he would be different. Better.

★ Tried to learn his best about babies and parenthood. Even asked all pirates he knew that had children for advice.

★ Everytime he had to leave, he hugged you tightly and kissed you until your lips were tired. He caressed your belly, even pressed his forehead against the bump.

★ Always offering a big smile, he said "Don't bring trouble. I'll be back soon. Stay safe."

★ Sadly, at his excecution whitebeard absolutely forbid you to be any close to Marinefort. You were in no state of stepping into the battlefield.

[k-aemi]

Helloo, can I request bully shidou who loves seeing reader crying because of him and his actions so h took a step further and forced her into the Janitor's closet and just fucked her silly. If that's ok with you ofc

shidou ryusei ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ youre so weak its amusing.

smut, pub, non, degrading, dacryphillia, abuse, mentions of urinal, lost of virginity, blood

you never understood why shidou bullied you. you never did a single thing to him before, in fact, you didnt even know him until he started to bully you! you didnt know people could be this cruel.

shidou didnt care. you were like an object, getting your hair pulled, thrown, or degrading words. but you never reported him, he just found it so amusing how someone so weak didnt even have the strength to tell anyone.

he really could see what the limits were. how much until he breaks you. hed wonder if you would report him now, hes gambling his whole life on this bet.

“ah-!” you gripped onto shidous wrist, worthless attempts to stop his harsh grip on your scalp.

“hurt?” shidou mocked your whines that echoed thru the bathroom. him and his little buddies were having a fun time laughing at your pathetic self.

you didnt respond, not like theyd give you any empathy or care to stop. only continuing to cry out with whimpers that fell from your lips.

“cant say shit huh?” he leaned down to your level, seeing the way your teeth grit from the pain. he can only grin at the sight of your tears dripping down your cheeks.

he then grunts in frustration when he hears one of the staff members roaming around close, hed be in big trouble seeing five men surrounding one girl.

“tch, youre lucky i aint use ya body as a urinal yet.” he gripped your jaw tightly to the point its sore, it hurts, it hurts so much. observing your face a bit more, he cant get enough of your eyes that were filled of fear. it turns him on so much he can cum on sight.

he throws you to the stall door, a loud thud echoing. you just feel as if your shoulder got bruised and you had a concussion from that. being left alone as they exit out the restroom. all that shidou can hear were your cries and whines that made him hard. seeing your once smiley face soon destroyed by him made him feel twisted, but a good kind.

he doesnt even get called to the office or anything, he just goes on about his day, thats how he knows you never report anything. meaning he can do about just anything he wanted with you, even if it was sick.

the only good thing about you was that at least you had a decent body. youre probably a virgin because you cant pull for shit, knowing you, itd be surprising if you werent.

its after school hours and you were left in charge to clean the classroom today. you were just happy enough he didnt bother you at all today, you didnt need any more trouble since your shoulder was still sore from yesterday.

you were heading to the janitors closet to see if there were any more supplies since you ran out of wipes for the desks.

shidou walks up the stairs, yawning while he scratches his head. he had forgotten his bag somehow and came back to retrieve it. slouching while he walks before he heard faint footsteps to the side, and to his luck, its you.

“hmm, where does he keep it…?” you rummaged through the shelves and boxes, it seemed like you were getting no where and there probably wasnt any more at all. your cloud of thoughts interrupted when a shadow emit from the door, thinking it was the janitor, you turn around but to your horror it wasnt.

“going to a dead end while im here? what a dirty girl you are.” he leaned against the door frame as he eyed your figure. you were crouched down, and you didnt move an inch. you can only gulp and a bead of sweat dripped down your forehead.

he closes the door behind him, darkness filling the room. you can barely make out of his figure until he grabs you by the collar harshly. throwing you down on your back.

“arent you excited? its just us.” he whispered to your ear, nibbling your earlobe. you shake your head, you didnt want this, all you wanted was to clean then head home! not deal with him.

he smirks, making out of your refusal. “thats a shame. already hard f’ya.” hes stuffs his crotch in your face, the smell filling your nostrils and you want to gag. it smelled musty.

the weight he set on you was heavy, you could barely breathed as he settled down on you. your hands trail to his thighs to nudge him off, but he didnt move an inch.

“dont be like that. promise my size wont disappoint.” he chuckled, unbuckling himself and you can feel his cock springing to life. he swings his hips to the sides, feeling his cock head glide against your lips.

you can feel his pre-cum smearing all over your lips and seeping thru the crack of your mouth. gross. it was slimey and gooey you hated that flavor and texture.

“p-please…i dont wanna..” you whined out. but shidou had other plans.

“just open up, promise i wont bother you anymore.” he lied. a promise or not he was going to have you either way, he didnt care. youre gullible enough to believe through his lies, what a dumb fuck you are he thinks.

you hesitate. you didnt want shidou to bother you anymore! so the best thing was to just listen to him…leaving your mouth slightly ajar, he instantly shoved in his fat cock.

youre left coughing a bit before he starts his erratic thrusting. you feel it down your throat and it burns. burns so much you try to push him off.

“fuckkk.” shidou lets out a low growl, damn your mouth was all warm it made him feel fuzzy. he continued to pound into that mouth of yours till his balls slammed on your face. hearing the way your little moans were muffled excited him so much.

the way your throat contracts with his cock felt so good, hes never felt this before, this new sensation was the best.

youre stuck trying to push him off, but his strength was far greater than yours, theres nothing you can do as you gag, feeling hazy, the room gets warmer by the second, filled with his and your moans.

he bites his lower lip. thinking if he should force his cum in you, or give you a nice little touch to your ugly face.

“think youll look prettier with my cum on you huh?” his thrusts becomes sloppy, but you cant even respond, youre not even sure what he said, his cock was making you dizzy.

“let me give you… a nice facial.” he breathes out before pulling out, to jerk off himself a bit before a huge abundance amount of cum splatted on your face.

“a-ah!” you yelp feeling it spraying everywhere, its gross. this was hell, it almost got into your eye!

his cock turns flaccid for a slight second, but the way your face looked so slutty with his cum has him stiff in just seconds.

“you still g’na help me right? after all, ill leave you alone.” he nippled your earlobe, but youre still trying to catch up with your breath. he only grunts in frustration when he hears someone approaching the door, the shadow from the other side of the door can be seen from the little gap.

he harshly grabs the collar of your shirt, placing you into a nearby locker that was somehow big enough to fit the two of you, the only vision he had was the three line of gaps on the front.

and what do you know, it was the janitor that had entered in. the space made it hard for shidou to contain himself, his cock was on the crack of your ass, and he can just fuck you right now.

he lifts your skirt before tearing your panties apart. he spits on his cock, rubbing it all over his length.

“no please..” your voice was barely of a whisper to not get caught, you should of yelled for help, but you couldnt.

he smirks at your refusal.

“janitors right there baby. dont wanna scream for help?” his hand snakes to your throat, tilting it upwards while he seductively whispers to you. you just kept your quiet, you actually wanted this didnt you? youre so naughty.

“careful.” he says before his length enters in you, he was right to cover your mouth with his hand, because you were squealing. he squeezes your throat with pressure as he starts to bully your tight little cunt, the locker shaking a bit as he forced his way with you.

he sees the way the janitor eyes over at his direction. but he didnt care, he knows youre bleeding down there and he can feel tears dripping down your cheeks.

the janitor brushes it off, probably his imagination or something. no it wasnt! you were getting fucked by shidou ryusei and it hurts. you feel his tip reaching that same spot over and over again.

he finally leaves and shidou takes this opportunity. leaving you cunt empty, he opens the locker, pushing you down where your cheek hit the cold floor. his hand presses your head down with pressure, sticking your ass out.

you yelp as he gives it a slap. a couple more following, the way it echoed throughout the room made him insatiable. your cunt filled with his cock again makes you whine before continuing to pound your tired out pussy.

“making a mess on my cock like a fuckin’ whore.” he licks the tears that came welling down, he could cum on sight right now at your vulnerable state. the sounds of your pussy squelching made it so erotic and only fueled his drive.

he feels you tightening up. “oh? came already?” he slapped his hand on your ass. theres a pool of drool beneath you, your mind mushy, you cant form a single coherent sentence of thought. you dont even know what was going on.

he lets out breathless moans, beads of sweat that dripped down his forehead. his thrusts become sloppy and he feels his balls tighten.

“sorry baby, cant pull out.” he snickered and those were the only words that sank in your head.

“w-wait no please!” your hands tugged at him to stop, but he never faltered, he just kept on going like a mad man.

“speakin’ up now? interesting.” he growled, biting into the flesh of your neck, drawing out blood.

and thats when you feel himself release his seed into you. painting your fluttering walls white with his cum, to the point it seeped out your abused cunt.

your breathing hitched followed by hiccups, tears peeking out the corners of your eyes.

“s’okay baby. just let me fuck more of my cum into you.” he starts to move again.

i forgot my portable charger and i will be out (ŎдŎ；)…its kind of inaccurate because there arent janitors at the school but for the sake of the plot there is!!!

tags ✎: @rinrinniebaby

[apenapaperandadoofus]

From the mom reacting to TGCF I bring you: my mom reacting to MDZS part 2

So she has been reading pretty much alone since I was in final exams, but lately we’ve been able to get back to reading together.

TW: my mom sucks at names (and I do too with MDZS leave me alone)

She really likes Jin Ling and thinks he’s cute HOWEVER she did laugh at him for not having friends for a whole minute LMAOOO

WWX is still Huevi-Chan or Egg-Chan in English.

She now really loves Lan Zhan especially when he got drunk for the second time, she would not stop laughing and kept saying “I caught you!”

I also showed her that scene in the manga and she broke again, she couldn’t stop laughing

She said “hm this is really slow isn’t it? We don’t know anything about their backstory yet.” And I’m like yeah mom this one feels like a slow burn bc TGCF was speed running a courting pFT those two didn’t lose any time.

With the whole (forgive me for not knowing the names) A-Ying (the blind girl) really Evil Guy and Blind Guy, she did not know the Evil Guy was the Evil Guy and thought it was Blind Guys friend for a bit and was flabbergasted when I told her.

She felt super sad when Blind Guy cried and killed his friend

However it doesn’t seem she hates Evil Guy? She said she felt a bit bad for him but still didn’t like him.

When WWX was making the paper person she said “WAIT IS HE MAKING FRIENDS FOR JIN LING SINCE HE DOESNT HAVE ANY?!” MOM LEAVE HIM ALONE AHSHSHS

ALSO ITS SO FUNNY SHE KEEPS CALLING LAN ZHAN A SILLY BOY OR A DUMMIE LMAOOO

Like when the whole headband scene happened and I showed it to her in the anime (after we found out in the book what it meant) she was having second hand embarrassment and saying “oh no this dumbass”

She REALLY likes WWX and his little bastard chaotic energy she found the whole garden flower lady thing really funny

Also LXC (is that the abbreviation? LWJ’s brother lol) is now referred to as “El Cuñis” or the in law.

Also was flabbergasted at Mo XuanYu being in love with JGY and she was like oh I understand why you keep making La Rosa del Guadalupe jokes (it’s a Mexican soap opera with different themes each episodes and SO MANY of them involve siblings or half siblings being in love which iykyk and those two are NOT the reason I keep mentioning it lmao she’s gonna be shocked when she finds out)

But then immediately she forgot and was like WAIT WERE JGY AND MO XUANYU TOGETHER!? And I had to remind her they were half siblings.

ALSO ONCE AGAIN MY MOTHER SURPRISES ME WITH HER PREDICTIONS! First Jun Wu now this?! See, I asked her before the JGY reveal who she thought was the one behind all this and she says “oh the fan guy” (NIE HUAISANG) HOW DID SHE FIGURE THAT OUT MOM WHAT THE HELL

When we were reading the whole Nie Mingjue bit and stuff at one point one of the characters says something mean and she says “wait who’s that again whats he saying? Oh that BASTARD!!!” Which was funny

At JGYs ‘betrayal’ where he killed a higher up guy she was also flabbergasted like OH HES PURE EVIL

And now every action the Wen’s or JGY take she’s like that one Arthur fist meme like “those meanies”

Apart from that she doesn’t have any characters she really hates lol, but it’s fun seeing her shocked reaction every time a small plot twist happens.

But for now I think that’s all? She’s getting now the hang of the names thankfully, and since now we’re reading together I’m able to correct her easily! She seems to be enjoying it a lot, in fact she said after we finish the TGCF donghua we should start with MDZS buuut I don’t know if we should go for the donghua or live action, I’ve heard it’s pretty good!

Anyway that’s all folks see ya next time ✌️

Also here are the character nicknames or what she refers to them as:

WWX: Huevi Chan

LWJ: Lan Zhan, the boyfriend, the lover, the Juan (bc of Hua Cheng)

Jin Ling: the child

Lan Sizhui: the obedient child

Lan JingYi: extroverted/emotional child

Jiang Cheng: the angry uncle

Jin GuangYao: the ✨evil ✨uncle

Nie MingYue: the corpse, the head, the Nie Huaisang’s dead brother

Nie Huaisang: fan guy

Wen Ning: ghost

[serejae]

WE CANT BE FRIENDS | 16. BUT ID LIKE TO JUST PRETEND

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ps: it doesnt get better from here until wayyy after ;-)

(a few minutes ago) EPISODE 5

"what are we even supposed to do?" jaehyun said as he took another shot. "i uh have to ask you questions" woonhak explained as he repositioned the camera up to face jaehyun. jaehyun hummed as he took another shot "are you okay? you took like 10 shots since we got here and i haven't even started recording yet" woonhak looked up from the camera concerned. "pfft what do you know about drinking" jaehyun laughed looking at woonhak, woonhak scoffed "not much, but i know this relates back to yn". the older one looked away "just record or something i don't know..."

"now we have myung jaehyun. i'll ask you questions and you can answer away from yn. i assure you she won't see this footage...well unless she watches this but that's beside the point." woonhak adjusted the camera a bit. "so i CAN answer the question? i have a choice?" jaehyun asked rather tipsy. "no sorry, you WILL answer these."

"what are your opinions on L/N Y/N?"

jaehyun took another shot before answering. "Yn? she's...I MISS HER" he suddenly erupted into tears taking back woonhak but content is content...

"i cant live without her i dont know how i haven't died yet during these 2 years. shes all i constantly think about, when i go to the store, i think about her, when i sleep, i think about her, when I'm even in my fucking office i think about her and that was the main thing that drove me away from her." he sobbed into his hands. woonhak giggled a bit at the sight and zoomed into jaehyun crying. "I'm gonna have to put a 'her' count in here..."

"I thought you ended things because of music, your job?"

"FUCK THE JOB! i'm done, i'll take it all back and work at fucking wendys if it means i can stay with her. my music career is a flop! YOU know" jaehyun pointed at woonhak to which he nods "THEY know" he pointed at the camera "SHE knows" he points at his heart "I just cant take not being around her anymore. we don't have to be friends we don't have to date again I just want her back in my life completely without messing everything up. i'd literally argue with her for the rest of my life even if it hurts me rather than never talk to her at all and it hurts because she makes it look so simple, not missing me, not talking to me. but it's fair enough isn't it? if i had just shut my mouth for that one day i would've realized that music doesn't compare to her, but why'd i have to realize so late?"

"do you still think about her?"

"of course i do" he cried even more, woonhak was pretty sure jaehyuns drink was more tears than alcohol now "you know..." jaehyun giggled for a second 'the roman empire? how its like a joke that all guys think of it often, she, y/n are you watching this?" jaehyun gets close to the camera, his nose touching the lens, too drunk to realize anything. "yn, you're my roman empire, there's not a second i don't think about you. i wake up , its you, i go to sleep, its you, i eat, its you, hell i could strip right now and dance-“ “that's enough" woonhak stops him. "i just wonder why you think so deeply about her, shes just a girl-" jaehyun cuts woonhaks words offended "DONT. shes not just some random girl, shes yn. the first person who understood me, the first person i felt comfortable with, the first person to support my music career, and i just, let her go. for the same music career i left her for. clearly, you've never been in love or never been in love and lost that same person due to your dumb actions..."

"then why were you acting so cold to her today?"

"fuck, woonhak. its all a persona, i'm trying to convince myself I'm over her, but clearly, it's not working, at all. even today i used all the force in me not to fold and when i complained about it on my twitter this random sea jae something account commented...but i remember she did comment under my comment saying "its not like me and her will get together" with a "haha" like what does that mean...is it a sign from the universe?" jaehyun looked over at woonhak with a sad smile trying to convince himself he's not that effected by you despite going on a 30 minute rant about you. woonhak laughed a bit. jaehyun looked down at his shot glass and stared.

"do you think she misses me...like ever?" he turned again to woonhak who stared at jaehyun in pity. "she-" woonhak paused and shook his head "directors shouldn't get involved" jaehyuns body shot over to face woonhak "YOUR NOT A DIRECTOR YOUR A 17 YEAR OLD BOY" "18 in Korea" woonhak added "I DONT CARE, YOUR A 17 OR 18 BOY WHO IS FAILING HIS FILM MAKING CLASS WITH A NEGATIVE NUMBER. WHAT DOES SHE SAY ABOUT ME."

"fine, i'll show you." woonhak logs into his phone and text you to help him out. "oops, phone died" jaehyun groaned and face planted into the table.

(NOW)

you texted woonhak that you were outside and you saw him drag jaehyun out. "damn he's out." taesan said from your backseat. you hum in agreement. woonhak approaches the car and opens the back seat to throw jaehyun in until taesan stops him "put jaehyun in the passenger seat" "but you're back here-"

"woonhak. put. jaehyun. in. the. damn. front. seat."

woonhak placed jaehyun in the front seat and got in the back.

jaehyun turned his head to you as you were driving

"yn?" he asked softly "yeah?" "do you ever miss me?"

you dont reply, looking in your rear view mirror you see woonhak and taesan sleeping. sighing you turn back to jaehyun when you stop at a red light, he looked at you with soft doe eyes that could break any minute. but you couldn't help but admire his features shining in the red light, you hadn't got a good look at him until now and damn, he was still so...

BEEP

right. "back then yeah" you lied, or maybe not, who cares

"i still miss you, a lot. Every day i wake up and my heart aches for you, only to see an empty cold space in the spot next to me. i know, i know everyone tells me and i got the signal from you, i know I'm stupid for ending a relationship over music, SoundCloud especially but i don't want to move on. if i put on earth with one other girl and her only i wouldn't even speak to her, i'd make a stick doll and name it after you, talk to it every day, because yn, you're the only person I've ever needed and i hate that i lost the one person who kept me going, that i still dream of, that i can't move on from, i just wish i didn't let you go at all.

do you...still think we'd be together if i hadn't ruined us?"

you pause staring at the gearstick "maybe in another life" you replied lowly afraid your voice would crack. you blink back tears refusing to even look at him. you hear him catch his breath and realize he's crying "i just wish it could be this life. i want it to be this life, yn, I'll do anything for it to be this life please. let me back in your life."

"jaehyun no, you're drunk"

"drunk words are sober thoughts"

taesan said from the backseat still with his eyes closed. you realize both woonhak and taesan have been faking sleeping the entire time.

"get out" you said. taesan opened his eyes and realized yall were in front of his and jaehyuns house. OH RIGHT, thanks yn" you hum as you watch taesan help jaehyun out. "take care" you said to both of them, before jaehyun gets through the door he turns back at you and smiles softly

"ugh i shouldve recorded that"

oh.

you forgot he was there.

[umbrum77]

Late at night in her apartment in Republic City azula is sitting on the edge of the bed staring at the floor.

She doesnt hear the room door open and close but does feel two familiar arms wrap around her.

Toph leaned on her shoulder and pulled her in close. "Somthing wrong wife?"

Azula didn't move, "That's tomorrow."

"I know ,finnaly, nice quick little thing then we get to the wedding night. That will be the good part."

Azula smiles but it faded. "It will just be the two of us."

"And the police force sage, someone has to say the fancy words."

Azula turned to her, toph had taken off her metal bending uniform and was just in a white T-shirt and gray pants. "Is that...enough for you?"

Toph felts azula worn shirt with holes in it. She had been out of the apartment today. "What do you mean?"

Azula pushed Toph off and leaned against the window. They where 10 stories up in one of the new apartments buildings. But already a newer one was rising down the road above them. There windows and shutters where closed. They where always closed so no one could see in. No one could see her. No one could catch her.

"This isn't what I imagined when I was younger for my wedding."

Toph grinned. "Really? You didn't imagine marrying the toughest and hottest earth bender in the world. change Azula. Sometimes even for the better."

Azula looked at toph. The way her grey eyes where facing not right at her. The way her police shirt was wrinkled. Her hair starting to break free from being tied up all day. Her righ eye just a little discolord from a hit she took last week. Her left knuckle had a new scrape of a day on it. She was so fucking beautiful.

"I thought when I got married my whole nation would celebrate. I thought the celabration would last a week. hundreede of nobles would show me and my husband-"

Toph laughed

Azula smiled. "respect. I thought I would wear the most beautiful cloths and jewels. I thought the palace would be full of gifts. I thought... I thought my dad would be there. I used to think my mom would be there. I thought my friends would be there."

"Zuko?"

"zuzus invitation always got lost in the mail"

Toph laughed as she stood up. She went over to Azula. She was taller then her firebender now by a couple inches. Azula could rest comfortable on her shoulder when Toph hugged her.

"I never thought about marriage and family and adult stuff." Toph said as she smelled Azulas hair. always a little bit like a campire fire her firefly smelled like.

"But it would be cool to get everyone together again. Share old stories, trade new ones and annoy Katara as I show off my hot wife. We could do that. if you wanted."

Azula pulled away again. "And not be a fugitive anymore? that would be a change."

"Azula..."

"Hmm lets see how that would go. 'oh high zuzu, long time no see oh nice guards you have there oh they are trying to kill me."

"Your brother might miss you. He might be happy to see you alive."

Azula rolled her eyes. "I rolled my eyes"

Toph nodded, "Thanks, but look its up to you. You know im not going to let anything happone to you."

"It would be your job to arrest me you know"

"I was supposed to arrest you a long time ago. But I'm bad at my job."

"You could lose all your friends."

Toph waved a hand dismissively. "That wont happen."

"How do you know that!?!" Azula balled her fist. Toph didnt flinch. She got close to Azula holding her fists in her hands. She felt the firebender relax.

"The mighty Azula, so concerned for others. or maybe. She thinks I would pick my friends over her."

Azula turned and scolwld but she felt a strong hand grab her cheek and pull her to look at the earth bender. A callosed thumb rubbed her cheek.

"I know how it felt when they betrayed you." Toph spoke low and slow as if to make sure no one could here them. "You told me how much it hurt. I held you when you cried about it. I would never hurt you like that. Im picking you firefly. I did pick you."

Azula leaned into the touch, making sure Toph felt her smile with her fingers.

"My mother will be in shock th whole time."

Tophs face lit up, "oh?"

"I will make zuzu do a speech."

Toph grinned. "Oh we are doing this."

Azula smiled. "Of course I expect you to spend an absurd amount of that Beifong money on this."

Toph picked up Azula bridal style and kissed her. "Oh we are doing this! Fuck my parents are going to love me marrying a fugitive."

Azula laughed as toph spun her around.

(part 1)

[theloganator101]

The thing with Angel acting “fake” doesn’t make much sense because we are 4 episodes in and we don’t know anything about Angel except being horny and lame sex jokes. Angel says he has to act like that but he’s still playing the same character except he shoots gun now. I also hate how everyone shits on him for being a pornstar. Vaggie and Husk belittle it, Charlie and sir pentious are grossed out by it, pilot alastor was the most respectful, he asked what he can do and than politely said no when Angel offered him his services. Someone said it best Angel got flanderized in one season. He’s just the guy that makes and laughs at lame sex jokes and horny.

I’ve seen people defend Angel saying he is hypersexual because of the abuse he goes through and thats a valid take but after loser baby he just got better? He doesn’t wanna have sex outside of work or do drugs anymore and he just got better offscreen because the lesson husk told him was “just accept you’re in a shitty situation and we can get better together <3” the lyrics are really bad.

No one cares that Angel is being sex trafficked, cherri just tells him to do more drugs and husk tells him to not do drugs and guilt trips him. Charlie is the only one to see what Angel has to deal with and instead of trying to help get him out of that situation, maybe ask her dad if he can help. She cries like a baby when Angel was the one who had a “bad day” because of her. Angel just causal drops how he had to work 16 hours, calls Valentino an asshole or whatever, gets water boarded because kinks are weird jokes. Its insensitive how the writers just drop Angel having breakdowns about being trafficking and roofie every night plot line so casually. Angel abuse is not taken seriously and the merch doesnt help because Valentino is probably the most popular character than Angel and he gets sexy merch because the art and animation director think of ship they think is hot and are blowing kisses to a rapist

Angel isn’t a bad character like a lot of the characters they had potential to be good but got flanderized or turned into fanfic in just one season. I say fanfic because these characters are used for fan theories and head canon because the writers have no idea how to write these characters aside from making them curse and have sex with each other. These are characters the fans have to write for and fill in the blanks and fight over headcanons and over analyze because there’s nothing

All of this literally says that going into Angel's conflict in Season 1 was just too early and should've been saved for a future season.

Introducing Angel's overall conflict with none of the characters doing anything to help him just makes them look like terrible friends to him when some of them could clearly do something, IE Charlie with her royal status and Husk since he was previously an Overlord would probably know some loopholes to get Angel out.

And it definitely doesn't help that it seems like Valentino is getting more favored than Angel and how he only seems to be in the main cast as the token gay character, it makes the character feel incomplete and relying on stereotypes to make the personality.

[stevie-petey]

first of all: the new chapter was AMAZING as always!! i know you are probably so so so busy with move in and classes starting and writing come home already, but i had a blurb idea (and it will obviously ALWAYS be dustin and steve interaction) of steve hanging out with dustin alone sometime soon after you get together, and them talking about it for the first time? it doesn't have to be any particular way i'm just SO curious what dustin's reaction was beyond the knee-jerk "ew you kissed my sister but also thank god because it took you long enough you moron"

stebe n dust <333

enjoy !

“you sure youre okay with driving dustin to mikes?”

steve rolls his eyes fondly at you. “yes, angel. its not even a ten minute drive. i can handle the kid.”

“i know. its just,” you bite your lip, unsure of how to voice what youre thinking. your brows scrunch together and steve thinks youre painfully adorable when youre overthinking. “its too hot for him to bike there, but you and i just started dating and dustin is… well. hes dustin.”

“you worried he’ll lecture me or something?”

“more like ask really invasive questions.”

steve laughs and kisses your hand, body leaning over the counter at your work. hes spent the entire days at bookstrordinary just to talk to you since scoops burned down. when he isnt job searching with robin, hes here with you.

“have some faith in me, y/n. im a big boy, i can take care of myself.”

you blink at him. “you cried yesterday when a lizard ran across your leg.”

“okay, thats entirely different. that thing looked at me with its beady little eyes and dared me to fight him.” steve shudders. “that thing was sentient.”

“youre really not making me feel any better about this, honey.” you groan, already dreading whatever your brother will say to him. youre sure dustin will somehow give the most bizarre, overly obnoxious yet endearing lecture known to man.

steve rolls his eyes again and grabs his keys, reluctantly pulling away from you. “i bet the kid forgot we’re even together now. relax, i’ll be back in no time.”

you call one last good luck to him before hes hone, leaving you alone in the store as the late july heat simmers the air.

at first everything is great. dustin is waiting for steve in the driveway and hops inside the car without any complaints. he turns the radio one and even smiles at steve.

but then, as dustin always does, he opens his mouth.

“i better not catch you sucking face with my sister.”

“dustin!” steve blanches, utterly mortified by what the boy has said. he almost veers off the road with how violently he cringes.

“im just saying! you two are weirdly touchy, and now that youre together, which by the way took you way too long to even do,” dustin looks pointedly at steve, who sighs. “i dont want you getting any gross ideas.”

the older teen rubs his face tiredly. he lasted three minutes. three blissful, quiet minutes. “good to know youre happy for us, then.”

dustin thinks for a moment. “well, i guess y/n could do worse. better than jonathan, at least.”

“thanks, dustin.” steve deflates, not at all believing the kid.

dustin recognizes the apprehension and he uncomfortably shifts in his head. he doesnt necessarily want to be all touchy-feely with the guy, but he also recognizes how much you love him. how good you and steve are together.

coughing, dustin looks out the window. he knows this is what youd want. “im happy she found you, steve.”

by now the wheelers driveway can be seen, but because steve is so startled by what dustin has confessed, he almost misses the turn.

clearing his own throat awkwardly, steve parks the car and looks at dustin. “you, uh. really mean that?”

“please dont make this any more unbearable.” the kid quips, leaning as far away from him as possible.

“right,” steve clears his throat again and unlocks the passenger door. he tugs at his seatbelt, needing something to do with his hands. “off you go, then.”

dustin quickly unbuckles his seatbelt and nearly falls out of the car in his hurry to leave. hes standing and about to walk away before he stops, turning around. leaving over the window, dustin lowers his voice. “hey, one last thing.”

steves voice catches in his throat, scared of where this is going. “yeah?”

ducking his head down, too shy to meet the other boys gaze, dustin finally says, “dont hurt y/n, alright? she-she really loves you. i know you love her, too. but shes… shes the best person in the world and im trusting you to be kind to her.”

“i…” steve stares at dustin, surprised by the sincerity in his voice and yet incredibly touched that hes being so vulnerable with him. to have your brother trust steve enough to be with you, to trust he wont hurt someone as selfless and soft as you, it means more to steve than dustin will ever know.

after years of being cruel to his classmates and growing up believing he wasnt worthy of anything gentle, steve cant believe hes being entrusted with you in his life.

it doesnt feel real, sometimes. being able to love you.

“i promise i’ll be kind to y/n,” steve says softly, meeting dustins eyes. its weird, being so delicate with the kid, but hes shared a lot with him, so its only fair steve does the same. “its because of her that im kind.”

“me, too.” dustin whispers. his eyes gleam, his mischievous smile is back. “guess we learned from the best, huh?”

steve laughs. “yeah, i guess we did.”

“COME HOME” BLURB MASTERLIST

if you’d like to buy me a coffee ☕︎

[faunandfloraas]

Aussie question time: when I find out an idol is American/Canadian, their image in my mind completely changes because now it’s like “Oh I know exactly who you are, I grew up with your type around me” there are subtleties that I’m going to understand that others might not. So with all that said, I’ve been curious about what that’s like (if you experience it) w the skz aussies (throw in a lily if you’re feeling it -v-) 🎤

this is wayyyyyy too long so I'm putting it under a read more- also disclaimer: i dont know these guys and these are just my opinions, dont take em too srs <3

Hmmmm... Well I guess I'll start with Felix- I've said it before a bunch but the whole "Felix is a tiny uwuw baby sweet summerchild who is just such a baby" etc. etc. has made me laugh from the get go- because Yep! he is incredibly sensitive and sweet natured and kind and he cries a lot- 100% that is true. Dont think I'm saying it's not. But like. He also grew up in western sydney, he grew up in a area that if you google it one of the first suggestions is "is it safe" but then at the same time he went to private catholic school im pretty sure. and i saw pics from back then that he'd posted back in the day of cool little felix with his gold watch and his fade and all his little homeboys looking rowdy on the train- I know that kid and while that kid can also be sweet and sensitive, he's not incapable and hes not a baby. Good recent example was when he went on that Jewel box show with the gay dudes and people were acting like he was *so uncomfortable* and sooooo out of his element and so this and so that- theres gay dudes all over sydney, there's gay dudes all over australian media- the idea felix couldnt handle that was simply laughable to me- but it kinda shows how many outside perceptions of him still very much fall into that vaguely infantalizing thing. Like when he was the one who was happy to go up to adam levine and dj snake in that skz talker while the other boys were much more shy? that didnt shock me at all. felix went to korea as a whole teenager laregly against his parent wishes- he's actually quite an outgoing and brave guy. Outgoing guys can still be sweeties, though- one doesn't negate the other.

One other aspect of Felix i think a lot of fans just gloss over but is easily noticeable by me is that he can kindaaaaaa be ... a lil bitchy? like he's never ever mean or cruel dont get me wrong- but he has a slight bitchy streak, he rolls his eyes AND he's actually much more sarcastic than people bring up? Again- he does it a lot with Chan and that doesnt shock me- they both are aussie boys, Chan will get it and I think Felix can very much be himself with Chan, he doesn't necessarily feel the need to put up an extra air of like... Sweetie boy-ness? bc when he calls chan a cunt on live chan just laughs and goes OI!! so yuh the main thing with felix is while i do think hes a little sweet guy, ive never from the get go had a hard time seeing him outside of that box, too. Also maybe that's a lil bit aussie humour slipping under the radar here or there 🤔

Chan to me from the get go too was pretty much like. Prototypical overachieving aussie Good Boy. Like, i had a drafted post i never posted bc it was too niche- but it was essentially about how he speaks about sports and the like, and it just said "We get it. You went to zone carnival" which was the sporting event that the kids who got gold or 1st place were sent to. If you went to zone, you were the Successful kid. I think these days most fans perceive him as... a bit of a goofy guy? but I have gone through the archives and i have seen the comments from people talking about how chans such a bad boy- thats shit is so funny to me bc you can show me every iteration of chan and I'd never, ever think he's a bad boy. Like he wishes he was a bad boy, he kinda cosplays a bad boy- even him referencing swearing bc of his australianess and shit over the years makes me giggle a little bc i feel like felix def 100% swears all the time but he doesnt like Smirk about it too much? he doesnt really bring it up? things like that stand out, it to me feels very like Oh yeah I'm this naughty Aussie boy who swears hehe and then all the australians are like ? Girl we all do huh lmao

Otherwise, I dont have as much to say about chan as i do about felix, funnily. Like idk people might perceive differently to me, but nothing too far off? I will say that given Chan's success and the fact he was seemingly a very well achieving kid too (maybe not debuting for such a long time is part of this) he is WAY more humble than I'd expect. Like not to besmirch Australian men but a lot of them can be really loud and cocky, especially the famous successful ones (any sport star) it's almost encouraged to be like that if you're a dude (but only to a certain degree, anything beyond a certain point and you'll be roasted lol) So I have to give credit where it's due and say that Chan *Seemingly does have a very good nature and I appreciate that about him! Its probably why I like him so much bc he actually very much doesn't give off those vibes- he doesn't seem like that overly macho cocky bloke I know very well. So that makes him good fun for me- he's very successful and he's confident and yet he doesn't activate any of my bitch instincts- thats impressive! I don't know him, so I'll never know for sure of course, i feel like i need to make that disclaimer but still I do believe he has a good heart, and he tries so hard! and I appreciate that.

Lily is weirdly like Chan. like she's hilariously like chan tbh- I wonder how they really get along sometimes bc I feel like they might look at each other and be like Hm... we the same............ ? Lmao I will say though, lily is a bit out of pocket and half of that I believe is her personality but half of it is just.... I think she's just australian 😭 like i cant lie you get me as a teenager to early 20 something and put me on a live and I can promise I would be saying as much ?? shit. Like, I do think Australians are a little loud and not necessarily always.... tactful (again Not everyone, but yk.) lily certainly fits that bill to a T. I appreciate that regardless of her idolhood she does still say things that maybe she shouldn't, she shrugs off a shoplifting confession, she says she'd murder someone if she had to, she bought and wore a shirt that fans quickly tracked down and found out all the proceeds were going to Palestine- she would have known what that suggested. she clearly had this goal of being an idol since she was a baby, like literal baby but she hasn't sacrificed her broader personality, even the parts that could potentially be off-putting to those idol fans that expect perfection and nothing else. I appreciate that in her! and I hope she never loses her little weird girl spark bc it does make her very dynamic! Her slightly gruff aussie girlness is very fun for me to see in the idolsphere bc it def feels out of place, but in a refreshing way...

so yeah. Idk if this was sensical, I was making dinner so I put my phone down a bunch and it's probably disjointed but thats my opinion... my thoughts, my ideas! Idk my take on them. Thanks for asking 🫡

[sleepyhouse2art]

my friend from the hospital emailed me and said that our friend diamond is still there. she called the hallway phone and someone answered and said shes still there. its been 13 weeks. its supposed to be a short stay hospital. she is severely autistic and she cannot dial a telephone so she cant call us or anybody. when i was there nobody would help her use the telephone. one day she fell in the bathroom and hit her head on the tile and hurt her hip so badly she could barely walk and when she asked to see the doctor they said no. she is also a trans woman and the orderlies there would openly laugh with other patients who called her a man. her guardian has gone blackout on her and doesnt call her. she was supposed to move into a nicer group home and was excited. but shes still there.

i pissed myself once because they wouldnt let me go to the bathroom for 2 hours. they always made us wait so long for the bathroom. they wouldnt give us water. they said they didnt have any and made us wait for hours. i used to drink out of my hands at the sink like a dog. they made fun of us when we were in earshot. they treated us like bad dogs. it got so i was scared to look them in the eyes when i walked by them so i didnt. there were cameras in the bathrooms. they wouldnt give people medicine for their physical illnesses no matter how much they asked or begged, and if someone wanted to see the doctor they wouldnt let them. i watched my friend who emailed me get so sick from i think its called mcas that she had, she would violently shake and could hardly move across the room. she had diarrhea for seven days straight and could barely eat. if you cried you got in trouble. i trained myself to cry for a couple minutes in my bathroom with the camera if i felt like crying so they wouldnt see me and i wouldnt get in trouble. if you cried you were sick and they made you stay longer. there are things that happened i dont want to remember or talk about. maybe they were my fault. my therapist says theyre not but maybe i needed them. i dont know. but i came home fucked up. i have these things my husband says are ptsd flashbacks about it and panic attacks. i can hardly hear the word hospital. i cant see a picture of a nurse. i cant watch a lot of things. i get too scared. ive been in a lot of hospitals and sometimes they fucked me up but not like this

they have kidnapped and abused her. she is suffering and alone. i got out but she didnt. i feel so guilty. my friend wants me to call the disability rights people and complain like she did about what happened to us and whats happening to diamond but i get so scared even remembering things. im afraid if i complain ill get in trouble. i dont want to get into trouble. but i should do something to help her. im wrong if i dont

nobody in my life understands how i feel. they feel sad about what happened to me but nobody cares how fucked up it is about diamond. they listened to me talk about diamond and they didnt really care. they wanted to watch their shows or eat or talk about other things. but i love diamond. i love her. shes my friend. and shes trapped in that awful place with those fucking demons. theyre demons

the doctors and nurses and orderlies there all deserve to fucking die. they deserve to die terrified and in pain and alone. and they should see all our faces. i hope they suffer all their lives. i will pray for their suffering when i pray. god will understand

god will never abide their presence among his. he will separate them from us and turn them away. they will wander or go to where evil people go

god i hope they fucking die. they should all fucking die. right now i want that more than anything

please pray for diamond or if you dont pray send her good wishes in your soul or in your mind

my heart is broken and i am so angry

[hiddenwritingsintheworld]

Cruel Summer Chapter 1 (Chris Evans x Actress/Singer!Reader)

(Okay, So Ive been away for a hot minute. And I've been through quite a bit. But I got inspired to write this and I hope yall love it!! Couple of things. 1.) Taylor Swift doesnt exist in this series, the reader is like taylor swift! 2) dont come for me, I've been chewing on this idea for a few months now lol. 3.) Im almost done with chapter 1 of My Alpha, I know I've gotten some messages about that!! Also, half way through chapter 2 of Midnight rain ;) Enjoy! Let me know your thoughts on this!! love you guys!!!)

Thoughts? Suggestions? General opinion wanted here!!!!!

You’d be delusional to think that he wanted anything more than hookups with you. Being a movie star was hard enough to make a “normal” life ...falling in love with your co-star though...that made everything even worse. That’s what led you to becoming a world famous pop star, releasing smash hit after smash hit. Your smile; when up on that stage, tens of thousands of fans screaming your songs as you sang them, standing ovations, tears of happiness, excitement, thrill, it all made that heartache ease just a little bit. But not all the way. 

“Tonight is a HUGE night, I can’t believe you’re going to announce another album. I’m in awe, really I am.” Your mom said, grabbing your shoulders and looking at you in the mirror of the room you were currently using backstage. “Mom, thanks so much for traveling with me during this tour. It means so much to me.” you smiled softly at her, “especially after everything I’ve been through recently. Wanna know the surprise songs tonight? Or just be surprised like everyone else?” you asked with a soft laugh. 

Your mom and dad were your biggest and best fans you could have ever asked for. Even during the worst time of your life, you’d had your parents support when changing careers. “Awe, let me be surprised like everyone else dear. Your cue is up….come on,” she gave you a big hug and kissed your cheek. “You’re going to be amazing, just like every other night” she beamed before walking out of your dressing room. 

You stared in the mirror, touching up your red lipstick before turning around and walking out. Your bejeweled bodysuit in the colors of your most favorite album you’d put out, pinks and blues. You smiled at the stage crew and everyone working behind the scenes as you walked with your assistant. “Another great sold out crowd out there, the VIP tent is dead center, lots of celebrities are here tonight too.” She smiled before you walked away standing on your mark. 

Listening to the entrance music you’d had custom made, caused the memories to flood your mind. 

You looked over at him grinning as you both reached for a piece of popcorn. “Soooo I thought you wanted to do something else when you asked me to come to your hotel room 10:30 at night.” you smirked as he laughed, throwing his head back. “While yes, I’d love to do that too….I figured it would be nice to watch a movie or two, enjoy a snack and relax together too. I ordered some wine and chocolate covered strawberries too.” he said leaning closer to you, as you bit your lip leaning into him, letting his lips brush yours. The next thing you knew, he had you pinned to the bed, popcorn littering the floor as he kissed down your neck, slowly pushing your shirt off and attacking your chest. 

“Ready? Have fun!!” Your assistant shouted over the music and screaming fans as the platform started to bring you up from under the stage. You plastered a grin on your lips and got in your stance with your mic. 

The moment your back up dancers pulled back the large fabric fans to reveal you, you began to sing one of your songs. The roar of screams, cheers and cries erupted throughout the entire stadium as you came into sight for everyone. The platform continued to rise as you sang, smiling at everyone. 

“It's you and me, that's my whole world

They whisper in the hallway, "She's a bad, bad girl"

Oh, I just thought you should know (you should know)

It's you and me, there's nothing like this (like this)

Miss Americana and The Heartbreak Prince (okay)

We're so sad, we paint the town blue (paint it blue)

Voted most likely to run away with you.” 

The music ended as everyone cheered even louder and you laughed softly, the platform lowering back to the mainstage level; you grinned as the next song began instantly. You loved performing for a crowd, they never made you feel like you weren’t worth the love and attention. You strut toward the front of the stage, beginning to sing the bridge, along with the crowd, when a sight almost threw you off your performance. He stood there in the VIP tent with a cold beer in one hand, his other arm around the shoulders of a petite brunette. 

“I'm drunk in the back of the car

And I cried like a baby coming home from the bar (oh)

Said, "I'm fine, " but it wasn't true

I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you

And I snuck in through the garden gate

Every night that summer just to seal my fate (oh)

And I screamed for whatever it's worth

"I love you, " ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?

He looks up grinning like a devil” 

You belt out the bridge, the crowd screaming louder toward the end. You tried to not to look at the VIP tent, the urge to see him again, standing there happy with some other girl, you danced around, happily grinning at the crowd, encouraging them to sing along. You finally took a break, smiling wide as everyone clapped and cheered. “Hi!” you said cheerfully. “My name is Y/N and welcome to The Eras Tour,” you grinned as the stadium erupted again. 

“I just want to say thank you to everyone who is here tonight and I hope that I don’t disappoint. I usually perform only two surprise songs a night, however, I’m feeling…fun tonight, so I want to add another song to the list for you all. It’s one that I don't usually perform live. But, I hope you enjoy it.” you smiled as the platform rose and you looked around, the soft jazz music starting as loud cheers erupted. You couldn't stop the smile that landed on your face as you began to sing. 

“We were crazy to think

Crazy to think that this could work

Remember how I said I'd die for you?

We were stupid to jump

In the ocean separating us

Remember how I'd fly to you?

And I can't talk to you when you're like this

Staring out the window like I'm not your favorite town

I'm New York City

I still do it for you, babe

They all warned us about times like this

They say the road gets hard and you get lost when you're led by blind faith

Blind faith” 

You smiled looking around, your eyes landed on him again, he had a look in his eyes, just like how he used to look at you, hunger and desperation for your touch. You put your lips back up to the microphone and made eye contact with him again. 

“But we might just get away with it

Religion's in your lips

Even if it's a false god

We'd still worship

We might just get away with it

The altar is my hips

Even if it's a false god

We'd still worship this love

We'd still worship this love

We'd still worship this love

I know heaven's a thing

I go there when you touch me

Honey hell is when I fight with you” 

You didn’t mean to stare for so long, but the way he looked at you, watching your body move. You wanted to jump off stage and run into his arms again, kissing him, telling him how in love with him you still were, even after the three years that had passed. You felt a tightness in your chest when the girl turned and kissed his neck, and began to dance with him. 

You finished the song not soon after and took a small bow as everyone screamed out. You stood still smiling as the platform began to lower, before diving off to get changed. “I need a minute,” you said as your assistant came up to you. She looked slightly confused as they began to help you into your next outfit. How were you going to continue this concert with him staring at you? You didn’t think you could do it honestly. 

“I can’t believe you changed the set list, We’re going to have to cut one of the surprise songs.” You looked at her. “No we can’t but we are changing them tonight.” you said as they did up the back of your dress. “What?! Why!” she gasped. “Chris is here,” you said looking at her as her face fell. “With some girl.” she sighed putting a hand on her head “Jesus fucking Christ……okay. Tell me what you need.” you looked at her again as tears filled your eyes. “I need a fucking minute.” you grabbed the new mic rushing off.

[yapntap]

bear it; misunderstanding

𓆩❤︎𓆪 FEAT. gojo satoru × reader ft. geto

𓆩❤︎𓆪 SYPNOPSIS; you become a percentage of the women that plan b doesnt work for. just your luck the father happens to be your steamy one night stand, gojo sator. and even he can't deny it, that's his kid.

𓆩❤︎𓆪 CONTAINS; MEAN!GOJO, angst, mentions of depression, mentions of abortion, nsfw scenes; degradation, lewd words, under the influence, so dub-con, pregnancy (these r just warnings for part one this is going to be a short series w one-shots)

𓆩❤︎𓆪

the night of,

the ambience of the club now making your temples ache. “thank you for the drinks but i should get going,” you shouted, trying to be heard over the ear deafening music. “you’re driving?” you heard the him ask. you nod in response. “you shouldn’t be driving while tipsy doll, it isn’t safe.”

you almost laugh at his attempt to get you home with him, you aren’t stupid. you were aware that’s what it’d lead too. but all you let show is a sly smirk. “did you or did you not drink to?” you remark with sass. “yes- but i didn’t drink as much as you,” he defends with a deep laugh, showing off his teeth in a grin. “c’mon lead me to your car then.”

one thing leads to another and now here you are back at his place, once again. desperate to have his hands on you, the arousal now getting to an aching point. a lust for release, only oh so much teasing that one can take. oh but so much teasing gojo satoru can give. if anything it’s his speciality.

-

“gonna beg for my cock now or do i have to tease that greedy cunt some more?” he looks at you, getting off to your desperate position. what a pervert he is. but youre not the type to just bend to someone’s will. quite obstinate to be honest. only gazing up at him in reply to his vulgar question. “what a stubborn little slut you are. but sluts like you are meant to be broken, and that’s just what i’m going to do,” his tone laced with condescension but a smile accompanying his features, lidded eyes just barely visible behind his shades. he goes to grab your chin with a tight grip, forcing your head up to him.

“fine, since you can’t be honest with what you want. i’ll fuck the honesty out of you.” he slides his rough hands down to your neck and pulls you up from your knees. regardless of your height the 6’5 stature of the male intimidates you and makes you feel less compared to him.

he turns you around and forces your head into his sofa, now bent over the arm of the couch. he pulls your hips up even higher and positions a pillow under you. just so you can lay comfortably while he fucks your brain out and so your hips can reach his. he sits and admires your cunt for a second.

your wetness almost glistening on his finger tips as he spreads it all over your leaky hole and clit. his prodding fingers elicit soft moans out of you. forcing you to put your head into his throw pillows to not give him the satisfaction of knowing he’s making you feel good.

“i’m going to put it in, bear it for me baby,” he says as you feel his tip slide up and down your cunt, eventually slipping inside you. he abruptly thrust to the hilt of his length drawing out a lewd moan from you.

“i’m going to make you feel really good, gonna have you creaming all over me baby.”

and that, he did.

—

3 weeks later,

“what the fuck-” pure disbelief painting your features as you blinked and blinked again. positive lines. “mai- i- i could’ve swore i took the pill,” you cried out to your best friend. she too, stared at the test frozen in shock. “y/n.. what are you going to do?” she asked, looking up at you with a blank expression, shy of an reaction.

call it a primal thing, but you could feel something wasn’t right. opting you to take a test, putting you in your current situation.

𓆩❤︎𓆪

you couldn’t do anything but sob. for a few days, til mai forced you out of your hole of wallowing self pity. making it aware all that crying wasn’t good for the baby. but you had every right to be as down as you were. how were you going to finish your college courses while bussing out the seams. sure enough it was your last year, but you did not have children anywhere in your near future.

crazy how one careless night can change your life. abortion wasn’t even an option. not only was it physically not available, your mother swore to disown you if you even thought about harming her grandchild. the audacity of her. she suddenly cares about a unborn child when she barely cared about you.

𓆩❤︎𓆪

“well how are you going to tell him y/n,” your roomate, mai asked. you stared at her a bit, still contemplating yourself how you were going to tell your steamy one night stand, gojo satoru. literally the only thing you knew about him was his name and number. no one has their full name on the internet these days. making him even harder to find. and his number? messages failed to deliver.

did he block you already? impossible, he gave you his new number and didn’t have yours. unless he got it from his “broken phone” and blocked you. faulty number? more possible. though you were familiar with a face he hung and clubbed around, geto suguru. but you’d have to catch him at a club since you had no other way to contact him.

“mai.. i don’t know honestly.” you state in defeat. “i don’t even want this right now, im majoring in fucking engineering for christs sake, how am i going to raise a child. i can barely take care of myself,” you sob, words barely audible through your exasperated cries.

mai moves over to comfort you,

“y/n, baby we got this, i’ll forever be here for you.”

———

4 years later

she was there for you. throughout your whole pregnancy. through thick, thin, and every mood swing. not even your mother was there for you despite her acts of cruelty towards you for even suggesting aborting a not even formed child.

mai, your biggest supporters when you introduced baby boy ren into the world. what hurted the most was how he didn’t even look of you. he looked more of his father. his deadbeat father. who was there for nothing. but little did you know it was nothing of his fault. he didn’t know, despite the lengths you went to tell him.

𓆩❤︎𓆪

there he was, geto. it took a couple trips to the club to with mai to finally see him. he was your only chance you had at telling gojo about his unborn child. you approached him while he was sitting at the bar, drink in his hand.

“geto,” you said, he automatically twisted his head to look at you as you sat in the stool beside him. “you look familiar, i know you right?” he inquired. you nodded and took a deep breathe before you explained everything to him. not leaving any detail out, his eyes sort of boring the truth out of you.

“are you sure it’s his,” he asked, probably not aware of the offensive nature of his question. “are you serious?” you ask, now looking at him with an annoyed expression. “he’s the only man i’ve slept with in months, and just my luck the time i decided to sleep around i get pregnant.”

“i’m sorry, i- i’m just shocked okay? but here, i’ll do this for you,” he pulls out his phone and asks you to put your number in, and in return he puts a contact in your phone. under the name of gojo. “that’s his number, text him tomorrow, he’s probably sleep right now.” and with that geto gets up to give you a hug, and leaves but not without kissing your forehead. strange.

-𓆩❤︎𓆪

next day

you: hey, this is gojo right? this is y/n

gojo: Oh hey? How’d you get this number?

you: geto gave it to me bc i wanna talk to you abt something

gojo: Oh okay What’s up?

you: i’m pregnant satoru

gojo: What? Are you sure? Didn’t you take plan B?

you: i swear i did i don’t know what happened

gojo: Y/n i’m sorry but please never contact me again. I don’t want anything to do with that child of yours. It’d be best if you aborted it.

*blocked.

—

gojo not wanting anything to do with the child had to be one of the most heart breaking parts of your pregnancy. your heart still aches when you think about his last text before he blocked you. even now as you held his child, with the light hair and same hypnotizing eyes of his father. only thing in common with you was his hair texture and skin tone.

now it’s 4 years from then. the year 2023 and you’re 27 years old and your baby boy is four. you and mai moved out of that shanty shack of an apartment you were in and moved to a more downtown area of tokyo, japan. into a far more accommodating apartment for you, her, you’re baby ren, and mai’s boyfriend. with a lovely living and dinning room, with a way bigger bathroom, and a lovely bedroom for you and your child.

after all you deserved it. after giving birth about 3 months til you were done with college. then after landing a steady job after recovery you worked from home for about a year and a half, then worked the rest in person up to date. mai was the only one who was there for you. not gojo and hell not even your mother.

-

small world one could say, maybe it was a coincidence mai’s boyfriend and gojo worked together. or maybe it was just destiny to run into him again.

and that’s why you’re in your car now, heading to the park with ren in tow. dressed your best to see his father again, after all these years. why now was he okay to meet with you? what made him agree to terms? did he now want to see his child? did he want to pay me off? only time can tell.

you pulled up to the destination that you two agreed upon and you and ren walked over to an empty bench. waiting for him. waiting for your answers.

—

it wasn’t until at least 10 minutes after you sent ren off to play in the park did you see him. a white haired male standing out amongst everyone else. wearing shades regardless of the sun barely shining. you see his eyes land on the only light haired boy at the play ground. ren obviously standing out. his facial features unreadable. a mixture of disbelief and disappointment.

you called ren over, gojos eyes staying put on him watching where he was going. til he saw you. you watched as his face dropped. it took him five seconds to actually approach you.

“wait.. y/n? what are you doing here?” he stands there looking at you almost speechless. you have such an unforgettable face. “is he- is he yours, wait.. is he mine?” you can’t do anything but nod. you watch his facial expressions turn into a blank expression into an angered one. “are you serious? were you just going to keep him from me? and i though you were on the pill back then? were you going to keep him from me forever?” he bombarded you with questions. his questions made you confused, why was he pretending as if he knew nothing of this child.

you look down at your child, him staring up at his father in curiosity. “ren, baby, go play at the park for a minute,” you smiled at him and watched as he waddled away. the smile you had for him faded as you looked back up at his “father.” “are you fucking serious right now, why are you acting as if you know nothing of this child. as if you didn’t block me when i told you i was pregnant. like i didn’t tell you the plan b didn’t work,” you whisper shouted, your angered tone visible to him but not alerting anyone else.

“what the fuck are you talking about?” he asked. you stared at him in disbelief for a minute then pulled out your phone. although the messages hurt you, you never deleted them. it was the only thing you had of your childs father. you went to your contacts and pulled up a contact under the name of “gojo” and showed him the messages.

as he read the messages he looked up at you in horror. “these arent- these aren’t my messages, i’ve never said this to anyone,” he told you, prompting him to look at the message senders number. his face almost instantly distorted in anger once he recognized it. he knew this number, it was his best friends’ number. suguru geto.

but as his world was falling apart so was yours. you examined his left hand as it held your phone. and there you saw a wedding band. was he-? did he? did he get a wife during these 4 years? how could he have made a bond like that so quickly? was she always there? do you even have a right to be mad?

but no doubt, gojo satoru, the father of your child was now married.

a/n: gojo got married? it was geto all these years? find out what happens next in part two.. 🫣 coming in the next 2 days teehee

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[forks4arlo]

the fanfic writer experience

hi welcome to episode 3 of my rants that make no sense but I write in order to feel sane! if u actually read this I’ll be shocked.

I feel like a fucking loser laughing and giggling while writing Jarlo fics but it’s ok at least I feel peace at times like this…

honestly I’ve been in a huge writing block… I used to be so ahead but now I’m just dead LMAOOO when rewind as one chap one came out, I was working on chap four. and now that chap three is out… IM STILL WORKING ON CHAP FOUR???? seriously, what happened to me??? anyway, next week hopefully my schedule clears out but idk… I’ve been so busy this week I might just puke out all my organs so the work load on me feels lighter…

I went camping this week… I go camping every year against my will and this time was extremely painful I have so many bug bites all over my legs you could think I have chicken pox or smth. but in my tent at like 1 am I was able to read all of ur comments on rewind as one chap 3 and I felt so happy I almost died right there in the boiling tent. seriously. I might have cried but I can’t recall bc it was fucking raining and the rain leaked thru my tent so I felt water splashing on my face the whole time

ANYWAY whenever I go camping I just. think. about seven days. It’s my canon event bro. If u don’t know what that is, it’s my very old Jarlo fic that I wrote when I was like 12 omfg it was a dark time for me BUT it’s very nostalgic. The plot doesnt rlly make sense and it’s super rushed but omg IS IT ICONIC IN MY HEADD it’s on my ao3 if u wanna check it out. It’s jjst a fanfic chuckloaded with random camping activities with the main cast and then topped with Jarlo fluff at the end irs so random but now every time I go camping I think abt it. 😭😭 I went canoeing for like four hours straight and I jjst couldn’t help but think “omg in seven days John drowned in this water” HAHAHAHAH

speaking of fanfics bro who let me post two fics simultaneously THIS IS NOT FOR THE WEAK going from silly rewind as one time travel AU to Jarlo’s secret wingman is genuinely no joke. those two fics are polar opposites LMAOOO. Rewind As One has no ships. Jarlo’s secret wingman is infested with Jarlo so much that they alr kissed in like chap 4 or smth I forgot but ykw what I mean. Rewind as one is in mainly John POV, while Jarlo’s secret wingman is a self insert oc character with John and Arlo povs scattered in between… rewind as one has Rowden arc John and Jarlo’s secret wingman IS STILL JOKER ERA!!!! my head is folding from thinking too much when switching between these two stories but it’s ok… I love these two cringy stories with all my heart ❤️

sometimes I find myself wondering how many hours I’ve poured and devoted to writing unOrdinary fanfics. I’ve probably spent like the amount of hours equivalent to three weeks or smth Jarlo’s secret wingman chapters 9-11 were all made by all-nighters. Rewind as one chap 2-3 were also made at night…huh. This is surely a reflecting moment for me HHAHAHAHAH

ok this is the end of episode 3 of me ranting. if u resd this whole thing I love you. In fact I love you so much I’ll hide a whole snippet of Jarlo’s Secret Wingman chapter 12 in the middle of this entire rant so those who didnt resd this have no idea of this wonderful prize hiding undherneath thier noses. Once again these snippets are subject to change bc I’m indecisive

What?! Arlo jumps up to stand on his feet. Suddenly, he finds it hard to balance his body. He feels as if he’s swaying, and that he’s moving in slow motion. His heart rate picks up. He’s coming???? No way— John’s coming up here?! 

Arlo was also trying his best to stop shaking, but he couldn’t. His eyes kept watching the brown door ahead of him. Soon, John would open that door and confront him. Soon, this whole love fiasco would end. Surely it would, right? 

I srill don’t have a posting schedule in my head. Currently I’m thinking of doing Jarlo secret wingman, then rewind as one, and then bsck to Jarlo secret wingman but idk rewind as one chapters are significantly shorter, meaning that it takes less time to make. So for now it’s a free for all. But as of now I’m planning to work on Jarlo’s secret wingman… I think. Chapter 12 should be short though. Get ready for… idk how to classify this. Angst? Eh not rlly. More like bittersweet happiness? Yeah. Yeahhhh. Ok bye.

[lilyystarr]

um this is because @fuck-i-love-october was making me sad about wolfstar angst and nsfw :(

um so thinking abt post azkaban wolfstar. remus said that he thinks they need time before they dive right back into a relationship. i mean, sirius just spent 12 years being tortured and remus spent 12 years trying (failing) to hate the man who murdered his closest friends, only to find out he's innocent, it isnt the right time for either of them.

but sirius, oh sirius :( he's convinced its partly because he doesnt look the way he used to. his skin is sagging, hes all bones that click uncomfortably when he moves, his eyes have sunken in, no matter how much magic they use, his teeth will never fully recover. remus was there to help shower him, brush his matted hair out and wash the caked mud away from his skin. remus was there when he acted manically, or when he talked to hallucination. his voice gone rough from the years of screaming. he would walk around like a kicked dog. and sirius knew, he knew all these things to be insecure about. so of course, that had to be part of the reason remus doesnt want to continue things!

its only months after that they finally do kiss, its so sweet and gentle, far too gentle for someone like sirius, whos become all sharp and jagged edges over the years.

when the kiss does turn heated, sirius drops to his knees and desperatly tries to get remus' cock in his mouth, because before and after azkaban, sirius knows he was made for this, his mouth carved to fit the curve of remus' cock. despite his upbringing, he didn't mind the degrading position it put him in, loved it even. it was like he was worshiping remus.

before azkaban, sirius loved making eye contact as he went down on remus, it was so intimate and he knew that he'd always find love and adoration in remus' eyes. post azkaban, sirius couldn't bare to look up. he didn't feel pretty enough, didn't want to ruin it for remus by having him look at him. he also couldn't bare the rejection. before azkaban, sirius was a bit of a slut (lol we know). he would moan around remus' cock, pull off and ask "is it good? am i making you feel good moony?" post azkaban, sirius was quiet, and shy. he was so insecure and felt that if remus realised that it was sirius down there, he'd be disgusted and wouldn't finish.

when remus does finally finish he pulls sirius off and says "open up baby" (sirius tried to ignore the fluttering feeling the pet name gave him, he knew remus only said it in the heat of the moment) and remus came all over sirius' face. he licked some of the come around his mouth and couldn't help the cheeky grin that spread over his face. remus smiled with a flushed face as he reached forward to caress sirius' cheek and just gazed at him. "what?" sirius would ask, "you just look so beautiful, i want to take a photo" and sirius immediately pulls back with furrowed brows. and all sirius can think is 'is he making fun of me?' because why, the fuck, would remus, genuinely want of photo of sirius now? when he's old and hagged?

sirius' eyes well up with tears and when he finally pulls out of his thoughts he finds remus looking down on him with concern. he tries to stop the tears from falling, his bottom lip wobbling pathetically, but the tears relents and soon he's sucking breaths of air in. "pads whats wrong?" remus would say a bit frantically. before azkaban, sirius never cried, well, he would cry late at night into remus' neck while they both pretended it wasn't happening. so now, remus was a bit out of his depth. and if we're being honest, if he wasn't so concerned he would def be laughing at sirius covered in cum, while sobbing.

remus pulls sirius into his lap, his body had become awfully pliant in the past 12 years. "sirius whats wrong? look at me, tell me whats wrong" sirius chokes out an apology and remus would just tell him he's done nothing wrong and he doesn't need to apologise, he'd rub his back and murmur things like "its okay, just deep breaths" even though hes so fucking confused.

when he does calm down remus has to coax out what made him so upset and sirius confesses he just doesn't understand why remus would want a photo, he isn't beautiful anymore and remus is just so ??? like how could sirius, Sirius Black ??? not think he's beautiful. and again, remus is so out of his depth because before azkaban, sirius was the least insecure person he knew, as far as looks go. and while remus is thinking, sirius is babbling on about what he thinks his flaws are and remus just stops him and he sounds so, idk, shocked? and he's all like "sirius, how could i ever expect you to love me if all i cared about was looks? you are so much more then a pretty face to me sirius, i love you for who you are, and i never stopped, no matter how hard i tried, i could never stop loving you" and they both just kinda 🧍‍♀️cuz that was the first time either of them said the L word and sirius just kisses him and when they pull back remus adds "and the pretty face is just a bonus"

then they fuck nasty after that >:)

[specialgradefckr]

i sent an ask a while back and i try to space mine out between being answered so i don’t add to the overwhelming pile of people you have to talk to, but i feel the need to say this, as i’ve seen a lot of asks recently with you talking abt not realizing people liked certain stories:

i’m a satosugu kinda critter, so ive really only read the stuff with the two of them in it (or either of them solo). that being said, ive read all of both of them. i wanted to take a moment to show a little love to all of em so you know your hard work is appreciated across the board :3

frat boy gojo? more like brat boy, i wanna kick his ass and also see him improve as a person bc i love him. and kick his ass again.

twincest? guilty pleasure.

clone gojo? i laughed in utter delight when reader gets a well-deserved comeuppance. i also have a lot of thoughts on the technicalities of it bc im a nerd but those can stay in my brain vault.

catching strays? i’m foaming at the mouth imagining the character development for all three of them yes PUHLEASE.

byhtd? delightful. the series i was drawn in by.

insane married couple? sign me the fuck up im not leaving there alive.

the horrific satosugu kidnapping situation in heatwave? made my tummy hurt and my dink hard at once.

suguru’s chastity belt? i regularly use the mental image of him being mean and offering his “help” as yerk it material.

satoru being an oblivious idiot about us being able to smell now? delicious.

murderous intent heatwave fic? damn right i’ll tear his throat out if he goes around to other people, and he’d probably enjoy it.

speaking of nerds, nerd!gojo? the only thing more pathetic than him is bully!reader and i love them both so much.

sorcerer breeding? i might’ve cried a little.

weed brownies? NO SATORU HOLDING IT IN DOESNT DO ANYTHING—

cuteness aggression? i’m gonna fold this man like an origami swan.

brat reader vs brat enjoyer gojo? i’m gonna kick him in the fuckin teeth.

in it for the money? me too gojo, me too.

here kitty kitty? this one simultaneously made me nauseous and desperately horny. it’s up there with the heatwave satosugu kidnapping.

suguru leaving us for his wack ass cult? i might’ve cried a little part two.

three terrible people? perfect, we all deserve each other.

desperately-needs-a-mother-figure-gojo? poor little wet cat of a boy, i want to mean-dom him into going to therapy.

i’ve loved each and every one of these, and your writing has honestly made it so much easier for me to just enjoy dark content without feeling so horrifically guilty about it or needing to figure out why i’m so “horribly deranged” (my therapist thanks you for your service). you treat the subjects with so much delicacy and respect, unafraid to acknowledge how horrific and frightening a lot of these circumstances are and not romanticizing/dismissing their weight for even a moment, yet still leaning into them in a way where you’re not perpetuating guilt and shame for enjoying their fictional interpretations. it’s incomprehensibly refreshing, and i adore every second of it. even if nobody else does, i will eat up whatever you write, pookiekins <3

-🃏 (i haven’t signed off on the other asks i sent before but i figure i should start somewhere)

p.s. i don’t think you were the person who wrote it considering it’s not on your list but i read a ficlet abt hunter!gojo basically yoinking nymph!reader and fucking her stupid and it’s never left my mind since and even if you didn’t write it, it reminds me so much of your style in the way it sticks onto my brain and buzzes around in there

🃏 anon? are you gojo kinnie or have i am i accidentally two-timing you and gojo kinnie with the same icon bc i took so long to answer this ask? in light of the clone!gojo series that WOULD be very funny but i hope now skhjfdglshdg

but anyways!!! thank you so much for taking the time to remark on all these works. i remember each and every one of them, so well; what i liked about it, what i struggled with, how interested i was in the different parts of it when it was written.

hearing someone talk about what they thought of all these little special trinkets and fun little pieces of mine is such a gift <3 i kept this ask around for a while bc it really just delighted me when i first got it. i would look back at it again and it would cheer me up all over (:

i really feel you on the satosugu stuff though sdhfkjglshdfg. although i moonlight as a sukuna fan, those two (and gojo specifically) are my truest loves... not that you couldn't tell from my post history skdfgldshg.

hehehe since you did have thoughts on the technical aspects of clone!gojo,, i hope some of them were answered with the recent asks and fics! clone!gojo is another one of a growing list of fics that i'd like to put on ao3 just because of the contents... the clone thing can definitely have some weird implications, since reader literally created clone!gojo skfjhgsdhg

and weed brownies gojo!!! that wasn't super popular but my god i loved it. i have this feral attraction to gojo as a character that makes it easy for me to write readers who are yandere for him and skfjhglsdhg given gojo's tastes... *gestures to geto* he LIKES THEM CRAZY WE ALL KNOW IT. i stand very firm in my interpretation that gojo would be a yandere apologist who plays down a yandere's problematic aspects bc he thinks it's all super romantic and sexy skfghjdhg

plus OH MY GOOOD teacher's pet gojo deserves so much more backstory and development tbh! i have a babysitter!reader/gojo draft in mind specifically bc of how much i think gojo needs a mother figure i swear khjfgldhsg

but anyways!!! i'm really glad you enjoyed my works! i do tend to have a broad range of fic ideas, from dark "holy shit that's fucked up" content to cute pg-13 nerd!gojo/bully!reader, and i really love writing for all of them!

i think a big part of my content is that, in every work, my main focus is the characters. there are fun plots or settings or twists here and there but i'm really there to write interactions between reader and my favorite boys. i like getting into everyone's heads, even if those are very, very dark places.

for that reason, i personally don't really concern myself with the thought of whether i'm romanticizing a character or not. i just try to keep the characters acting realistically (or at least, keep their thoughts/feelings relatable), and let the narrative emerge from there.

i think as long as you keep the characters rational, describe their thoughts/feelings, where they're coming from, people will just understand what's happening, even if it's deeply wrong. often the characters themselves know that things are wrong but don't have better options.

at the end of the day, you've grasped the point of it really well; these works are here for you to enjoy a perspective of a fictional character going through interesting, emotionally gripping events. it's here for you to experience, to sit through like a roller coaster. some people laugh, some people scream, some people get turned on XD. there's no such thing as a wrong reaction, just an experience you get to go through!

[pigeon-6911]

House MD makes me absolutely FERAL.

For instance, I finished rewatching S3 E15, "Half-Wit", the one when House fakes cancer so he can get high (typical). And

AHHH

Everyone's response to House potentially dying is EVERYTHING. And displays both the characters and their character growth SO WELL.

Wilson, ofc, is offended that his best friend *cough* *lover* *cough* didn't say anything, and hid it. And something I think (and forgive me if this is not actually how it went down to everyone else, it's 1am and I have brainrot) is really interesting, is that beyond Wilson giving House shit for not saying anything, Wilson doesn't give any of the platitudes that everyone else gives. We don't see Wilson trying to "fix" anything or say, "House your dying, can we have an actual human connection for once?". No no, Wilson just lets him be.

Now, either Wilson is pissed and reeling from this news , and is just distancing himself (which tbh feels ooc, like House has crossed worse lines before, and Wilson deals with cancer everyday, idk).

OR you can look at the option of Wilson knows House well enough (and cancer, let's be real) that trying to fix it, won't change anything, that coming up to House and trying to "console" him won't do anything. House is House, and Wilson KNOWS THAT. Wilson knows that if House really and truly wants a conversation about it, or any comfort, House will just be like, " Yo, can we go get wasted?" and that's that.

AND THEN HIS FUCKING ANALYSIS AT THE END AND HIM FUCKING LAUGHING AT THE IRONY.

And Cuddy, I feel like, is the middle ground between how Wilson and the kids react. She doesn't go out of her way to say something, but in an almost hand-on-the- doorknob-as-I'm-leaving type way does she say something. AND THEN THEIR BANTER IN THE HALL IS FUCKING EVERYTHINGG. And her FUCKING smile as House grabs her ass (istg I can only say this in real action to this fucking show) but still dismissing him coming to the bedroom with her

Like both her and Wilson and obviously hurt, right, but they don't outright change their behavior toward House or anything, but they accept it (kind of) and don't go out of their way to change anything,

AND THEN THE KIDS' RESPONSES. ANHHH

I love Chase's moment. He's just like, "Dad, shut up and let me hug you" AND FUCKING STARTS CRYING

CHASE IS LITERALLY THE ONLY ONE WHO CRIES

He's like, "Goddammit, I'm going to lose two of my parentals to this cancerous bullshit. Tf."

AND HUGH LARUIE'S ACTING I CANT

YOU CAN SEE HOUSE REALIZING THAT, "oh shit, they really care and this is really going to hurt them" LIKE WHAT THE HELL. MY HEART, FUCK THIS SHOW WTH

And I love how Cameron is shown in this episode, over the first three seasons, we can see her kinda of coming to her own, and learning from House, so instead of like, backing down from helping House she just fucking kisses him so she can steal his blood. Like. YES CAMERON. GET IT.

AND AGAIN

HUGH LAURIE. YOU CAN SEE HOUSE'S HESITATION, WEIGHING THE PROS AND CONS BEFORE KSSING BACK.

And tbh I feel like House is low key proud of Cameron for a moment in a "she is taking after me" type way.

And Foreman trying not to care, but caring the whole time, and HIS FACE WHEN HES TELLING HOUSE HE DOESNT HAVE CANCER. LIKE. JXNKSCVJVXFBJKBFVSKJ

And I just love everyone's reaction five seconds later when they realize

"House is an addict. Right. Fucking this was a sham, fuck"

AND THEIR FACES ARE EVEYTHING

Cameron is crestfallen, outraged. Foreman is slightly pissed but completely nonplussed almost? Like a I should have expected this/this is such a House thing, which is why I dislike the man. And his sarcastic response is EVERYTHING And, Chase, oh Chase. He's so disbelieving and hurt. Like my baby I'm so sorry.

And House like really understanding how much this hurt them, and kinda of being a fucking TOTAL IDIOT and like slightly scared I feel but arrogant enough to just fucking like. Trying to blame so he doesn't feel guilty (he does) pushing them away so he doesn't have to face consequences (he's spiraling) and and after Wilson (finally) talks to him, having to stop and THINK about how fucking miserable is he really (he's such and idiot) and just AHHH

AND THEN HIM FUCKING GOING INTO THE RESTAURANT AT THE END?????? ITS A FUCKING CRIME THAT WE DON'T SEE THAT CONVERSATION BETWEEN HIM AND THEM. LIKE SIR, I WANT TO THIS POTENTIALLY EMOTIONALLY CHARGED MOMENT. LIKE

And honestly, Ilove how House interacts with the patient in the episode, it's on par with the boy who had autism earlier this season. Like the piano part is what really intrigues him, but still goes forth to give him his life back. Idk, just felt special.

Okay, um so thank you for coming to my Ted Talk. Idk what happened.

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CRISPR Logs

Here's the current CRISPR log

This terminal is thought to be connected to Genki Nemoto's mind following a CRISPR experiment that resulted in his mind degrading at an accerlated rate. Since that page often updates, have the previous messages on there (thanks to the people on the Tetreo Discord). If I fucked up the order or something, my bad, throw me in front of a firing squad.

Date: Week 1 – Initial Changes Begin

 Observer: Dr. Toranosuke Kan 

Subject: Dr. Genki Genki Genki Dayoooooooo

 Experiment: Cellular Rejuvenation and Senescence Clearing through CRISPR-Based Genetic Editing 

INiTIal Observ…?? CAN’T!!! No Day????? wAS there A Day??? KAN THERE… smILinG, teeth TEETH TEETH SMILE! "FaTiGue?" NO??? I was—HEAVY?? OR? LIGHT? my sKIN Crawling wAS that ME??? Did I SAY IT??? I THINK i FELT SICK BUT NO WORDS COME! Kan SAYS PROGRESS... BUT THE PROGRESS HURTS!!! IT HURTS. DAY---!!! day… CAN’T FIND THE DAY. TIRED! NO SLEEP MAYBE?? OR TOO MUCH SLEEP?! DID I DREAM????? 

KAN SPEAKS "LOOK AT YOURSELF GENKI" WHY SHOULD I? i CAN’T... SEE MYSELF but EVERYWHERE IS WRONG! Skin... NO SKIN!!! SHINY??? veINs. WHY SO MANY VEINS??! STOP TOUCHING ME!!! IT HURTS!!! He SAYS SCIENCE BUT SCIENCE SHOULDN’T BLEED!!! !!!!WHAT TIME---??? wHAT PLACE---???? CAN'T STAND LEGS SLIPPERY NO BONES WHERE R THE BONES IS THIS THE DAY I DROPPED... SOMETHING?????? IT WAS GLASS, I THINK. MAYBE NOT. KAN LAUGHED. 

HE ALWAYS LAUGHS. HE ALWAYS SAYS “FAILURE.” WHY DOES HE SAY FAILUR--!!!!!! AM I MELTING???? I CAN’T FEEL ME I FEEL ME!!! TOO MUCH ME EVERYWHERE TOO MUCH!!! NO FIX??? SKIN IS PAPER BUT WET AND HOT BUT NO BLOOD!!! KAN SAYS TO FIX ME BUT HE WON’T FIX ME BUT I’M NOT ME AND DANNKE SHE CRIED OR I CRIED I HIT HER???? NO!!!! THE SHAKES THE SHAKES I DIDN’T MEAN---!!! NO DAY NO NIGHT NO KAN NO KAN WAIT HE’S HERE HE’S NOT HE’S ALWAYS HERE.

 KAN SAYS “FAILURE” AGAIN. HE SAYS "YOU'RE A WASTE" HE SAYS “YOU DIE” HE SAYS “TERMINATE” BUT I DON’T—NO—I CAN’T— ROT ROT ROT ROT ROT ROT ROT ROT ROT ROT ROT!!!!!!! TEETH. SMILE. KAN. WORDS WORDS WORDS. ALWAYS WORDS. STOP SMILING STOP STOP STOP STOP--!!! IT ENDS. DOES IT END??? IS THIS THE END??? NO END. NOT AN END. KAN LAUGHS!!! HE’S NOT HERE BUT HE’S LAUGHING!!!! WHAT WAS THE DAY???? WHERE IS THE DAY???? I AM NOTHING NOW NO THOUGHTS NO BODY ONLY TEETH AND SMILES AND BLOOD AND BROKEN AND KAN.

Date: Week 1 – Initial Changes Begin

Observer: Dr. Toranosuke Kan

Subject: Dr. GENKI AND SUGA AND GENKI AND SUGA TOGETHER AND THEYRE FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Experiment: Cellular Rejuvenation and Senescence Clearing through CRISPR-Based Genetic Editing

InItIaL ObsErVaTiOn (dAy 1): Oooohh Suga is HErE!!! I cAn’t BElieVe it!! Suga is HeRe! I’ll be wOrkIng wiTh hIm agn! He’s so amAZing and smARt. I knOw we’re goinG tO geT So much dONe tOdAy!!! He’s bEEn away for so LOnG, but it’s okAy bEcAUse He’s baCk and everything wILL bE fIne!!!!!!! SO much to do!. I’m So ExcIteD!! He’s Back. I’m NoT gOnna mess it uP!!!...

dAy 3: It’s Suga agAIN. He’s sO Good to me!! He does thE thing wiTh thE paPer, i sIt therE! He gIves mE thE stuff to wRite iT... I dOn't kNow, bUt suga! SUGA!!! I wOULD dO ANyTHIng fOr hIm. hE’s sO SMART! He nEVer tellS me I mIss somEthIng... I wanna be rEallY gOOd!!! hE gives mE adviCe like nO one else AND DOESNT YELLA T ME EVER!!! like hE’s THE bEsT... pls pls pls keep talking to mE!!! I LoVe hIm.

dAy 7: Suga iS AlWnays Suga it’s fUn.... why iS it SO much mOre ... cAn’t StOp! hE’s so clever I’ve gOt too much TO shAre wItH hiM evEN tho. nO nO no NO!! why does he sAy it ThAt wAY ah he gEts it rigHt everytime, wHeRe does he fINd IT! bEForE you know it!!! I’ll be hERE wiTh Suga evEn when iT’s ALL gone haha you’re ALWAYS therE to me. he’s the ONly one thaT UNderstands~ hE dOEsn’T mInd IF I FOrget thIngs bUt I WANNA BE PERFECT fOr him!

dAy 10: I’m sO GLAD suGA is wIth mE!! sO glad we’re hERE, toGeTheR!~ Feels like noOnE elSe wILL, he’s mY faVoRiTe. Suga wAs ReAlly nIce. wiTH eVerYthing I DOn’T get he GETS... kEEp sPEAkIng!!! Why doEsh he dO thAt tho?! hE makEs me feel alWAYs LIKE IT MATtERs. IM gONnA wOrK so hard!! WOrk hAha so hard fOr hIm.

dAy 14: SUGA IS DOING IT AGAIN!! why sO mAny! bUt! bUt!!!! SUGA!! I cAn TAlk all i Want buT sUga nEedS the PaPeR! HiS PaPeR gIVEs mE HOPE i want to bE wITh hIM wHen i get baCk no WAI! sOme daYs just FEELS like It’s all fUZZY and out bUt oH thAt smile, so SOON. sUga PlS.

dAy 21: SOOOO mUch eXcitement! LOOOve love lOve tO knOw suGa’S aRounD!! So haPPy no one is tHis GR8! yEs thaT whAt hE said - hE mAde mE LAUGH so hArD he sO SO quIck and sMart. suGA alwAYS GETS IT riGht, he’s so...perFecT?? I don’t knoW, hE’s AlW! SO GREaT... SoCiaL too - bUt I’m nOT hErE TO ComPlain.. jusT! the JOY !!! WItH sUGA!!!!

dAy 28: suGA iS sOOOOO much!! nO wAnT to stOp hERe!!! He Knows everythInG!! I caN’t Stop yO! let mE talk!!! suGA! suGA ooo suGA SUGA! I’m HAppY wheRe IS He coMInG to Now?! WArms my hearT~ suGA suGA!!!! PleAsE wRite Me MORE!!!! He IS so CLeAr when he’s nEAr!! I’m gOoD wItH hiM. Don’t leT it end ok.

dAy 35: I’m going to Be heRe!! PLEASSSse! suGA always keePS telling ME to keEp GOiNg right!? Suga!! You Gotta tEll mE more!!! What else? whERE iS it?? ThAt’s right... that’s rIghtttttttt. I CAn fiX iT!!! suGA iS so FOrgIvIng. What Is happEnING.... ?!??? .... WhAAt if He lEaves? i neEed suGA baCK!! I wAnNA bE wIth hIm. I mIss.... so..... Much...when i get better we’ll work together again okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? okay? 

Date: Week 1 – Initial Changes Begin 

Observer: Dr. Toranosuke Kan 

Subject: Dr. Suga and the carnivore 

Experiment: Cellular Rejuvenation and Senescence Clearing through CRISPR-Based Genetic Editing 

dAy 1:

 Suga’s hErE...He’s HERE!! He’s so smArt. We’re working agAin!! He’s alwAys so sharp, but what happened to...what happened? whAt was he sayINg, he said it’s bEEn a while. hE’s nOt thE same. i didn’t thInk it, i dIdn’t knOw, i was juST so GLad!! He’s bACK, bUT...but...i...I wOnT aSk. WhAt waS...somEthing felt off, i CAN feel it. Was it Kan? Kan DID something...That thing wiTH me. bUt it’s...He’s bEEN so QUIET. suGa...whAt diD he...what did hE say? nO. dAy 3: Suga...why did he...change? what’s hAppening? He dOesN’T say anytHING anymore...but i can’t say it. He’s bEen...bEEn so quiet after thAt tIme. Kan! Kan’s the one who what what what genki genki genki genki dayoooo, why did he do it?? I’m NOt sure, but Suga’s eyes, hE has...thEY look like they knOw...or maybe they don’t. I CAN’T ask. I CAN'T. but...hE can’t...hE can’t be alone wIth Kan again!! whAt if Kan diD sOMeTHiNg TO HIM...to...suGA, NO NO NO. but no!! Suga’s sTrong...he’s fINe...but. but. I don’t kNOw...maybe it’s Kan, mayBE. dAy 7: It’s like hE’s...like HE’s difFErent. whAt’s goINg on? He’s NOt askIng like he usEd to. It’s like he’s...changEd, all of a suDden. His voice is so tiRed. NO, NO! NO, it’s just...is it? ...I see the smiLE, bUt is it for REAL? Is it?? WhAt if it’s Kan? Kan...Kan did that thiNg to ME. I...I was alONE wiTH hIm, and Kan made it. made it go wRonG. I...whAt happened TO suGA!?! He’s nOt the sAme. NO. NO NO NO. I’M sOrry...I dIdn’t mean it...

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dAy 10: Kan...it’s...no. i was therE and thE thINg, the waY he was wiTh ME...the waY hE tOUched. hE toUCHED, and sUga, wHAT IF Kan did it tO hIM?! whY is suGA qUiet?? He’s nOt sayING aNytHING. wHeRE doEs it hURT, suGA? suGA, can’t yOU tELL ME, pLEASE? what dO yOu MEAn by that?? why didn’t you tell ME. I knOw...I knOw...Kan cAn’t...you can’t trUst him!! hE wAs wIth ME!! dAy 14: WhAt iS...whAt’s going on? The qUieT IS too muCh. waS it Kan? i shouldn’t bE thinKing it, buT i kNowsomeThIng’s wRonG. Suga wouldn’t sAy anytHing. He dOEsn’t kNow. whY is he so...why so still, suGA? PLEaSE dON’T...dON’T let him, dOn’t let KAN, He...he made me sOtiRed and I Can’t even reMeMber....but...but suGa’s diFFerent now. wHAT happened to hIm???? Suga...please please teLL me, wHAt hapPenEEd?????? CAN'T YOU???? dAy 21: Suga’s sO difFerent nOw. WhAt does he meaN bY sO much bLank sPace. sO much sIleNce. I’M askinG, ask me. i want to knOw what dID KAN dO??? He sAId...said someThinG bUt I wASn’t reADY...no!! i didn’t...I dIDn’t mean it. I need tO be here wIth suGA. I CAN’T let him foRget. it wAs kan. He diD...He...tOld me to. suGA...whAt happened?! I...I...whERE aRe you, whERE arE YOU...???? dAy 28: I cAn’t cOmPLain!! BuT suGA, whY DO iT FEEL LiKe soMething’s SO...No. nO NO. NO it’s JUST THE WOrk, jUST THOSE PApers, RIGHT?! I tHOUGHT, I tHOUGHT...he is nOt thE sAME...WHY iS he qUite, WHY I CAN’T ASK?! WHY CAN’T I AsK??? What’s in the cOrnER oF his EYEs when he’s stiLL?? It’s Kan!!...Kan dID thaT to hIm. He...HEs tHAT kind of persOn. YOU KNOw!! I...whAts...I’m so sORRY Suga. PLEAsE tell me I cAn FIX It!!!

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dAy 35: suGA...no, whAt hAPpEnEd...?? WhAt HappenED??? i...whO iS sUga nOW?? was i a loNE wiTH KAN agAIN. He cOULDn’t...He DID, He hAD...made me made me made me i am me he made me he made me GENKI GENKI GENKI GENKI To take from another is an art of disintegration. It is not a matter of hunger, but of erasure - of slipping inside, beneath, around the layers of skin and bone, until nothing is left but the trace of what was. You don’t devour the flesh. No, it is the soul you steal, piece by piece, in slow, agonizing pulls, like the delicate unraveling of a thread. There’s a sweetness in it, at first. A quiet pleasure in the giving and the taking, the surrender of control, the warmth that slips away like water through fingers. But then the bitterness settles, when you realize what you’ve done to the body that once stood tall, what you’ve buried beneath your teeth and fingertips - what you’ve torn and left to wither. You think you know them - perhaps you think they’ve given themselves to you. But in the end, it is only you who remains, full, bloated, hollowed out by the absence of their being, and you wonder, with a cold, gnawing dread, if you were ever really the one who did the taking at all. wIth mE too...wHAT? waS it WAs IT? HMMM???? i.....i don’t cAre!!! YOU CAn Tell ME pLEAsE I knOw yOu...pleAse dOn’t hURt. is iT foR me? Suga pls...pls....tell me what hAppEnED...

Date: Week 1 – Initial Changes Begin

Observer: Dr. Toranosuke Kan

 Subject: DR. GENKI NEMOTO 

Experiment: Cellular Rejuvenation and Senescence Clearing through CRISPR-Based Genetic Editing 

WHERE wHeRE. wheRe IS SHE. shE was HERe. i sWear SHE wAS heRe. MY SHEEP. mY sHEEp!!! i puT HER Down, i dID. RIGHT HERE!!! i cAnt fIND HER. She wAs rIGHt here, wASn’T She?? SOMeonE tOoK her. SOMEONE DID!!! Kan. KAN????? Did yOu sEE HIM?!?! hE’S alWAyS TOUCHING THIngs HE SHOULDN’T!!! dID YOU SEE HIM TAKE HER??!?!?! WHERE KAN. KAN KAN KAN KAN. i kNOW iT wAs HIM. HE LOOKED AT HER, HE DID. WITH HIS. HIS GROSS HANDS!!! HE DOES THINGS!!! HE DOES THINGS TO THINGS!!! hE. HE TOOk her, I KNOW HE DID. WHERE IS SHE?!?! wHERE IS SHE?!?!?! DID HE - NO!!! no. he WOULDN’T - wOULDN’T HE?!?!??!?!? OH GOD!!!!!!!

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WHERE SHES COLD!!! SHE’S COLD AND I CAN’T FIND HER!!!!!!! HE HAS HER I KNOW IT!!! I KNoW IT. HE TOUCHES EVERYTHING AND HE RUINS EVERYTHING AND NOW SHE’S GONE. hER FuR. HER fur...soft, soFT, and NOW SHE’S GONE!!!!! SHE’S GONE!!! HE TOOK HER. WHY. WHY. WHY?!?! WHY?!?!?!?!?!! WHERE HES HURTING HER. I KNOW HE IS. hES - hE'S DOING THINGS TO HER!!! THINGS. HE DOES THINGS AND SHE’S GONE AND I CAN’T STOP IT!!!!!!! hIS HANDS. hIS FILTHY HANDS. ON HER!!! ON HER!!! I CAN HEAR HER CRYING. sHE’S CRYING. SHE’S CRYING AND I CAN’T STOP IT!!! OH GOD I CAN’T STOP IT!!! WHERE wHy. why hE DO THIS. Why HE. tOUCH eVERYTHING THATS MINE!!! hE ALWAYS TAKES MY THINGS, ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS!!!! hIS EYES. HIS EYES WERE LOOKING. ALWAYS LOOKING!!! I CANT. i CAN’T DO THIS. WHERE IS SHE. WHERE IS SHE. WHERE It’s darK. sHE’S nEVER QuiEt. ShE’S never THIS QUIET. He MUFFLED HER, I KNOW HE DID. he DOESNT WANT ME TO HEAR HER CRYING!!!!!!! BUT I CAN. I CAN HEAR HER ANYWAY!!! hE THINKS I CAN’T. BUT I CAN!!!!!!! HE DOESNT WANT HER TO BE MINE!!! BUT SHE’S MINE. MINE!!!!!!! WHERE wHEre IS shE. IS sHE SAFE?!?! IS SHE STILL SAFE???!?!?!? DID I LEAVE HER HERE?!?! WAS IT ME??? DID I DO THIS?!?! no. No. IT WASN’T ME. IT WAS KAN. IT’S ALWAYS KAN. IT’S ALWAYS HIM AND HIS HANDS AND HIS EYES AND HIS SMILE!!! HE TOOK HER. HE TOOK HER AND HE’S RUINING HER!!!!

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WHERE i CAN FEEL IT. in THE WALLS. iT’S IN THE WALLS. HE TOOK HER AND SHE’S GONE AND I CAN’T BRING HER BACK!!!!!!! WHAT IS HE DOING TO HER??? WHAT IS HE DOING TO HER?!?!??! WHY WON’T HE GIVE HER BACK?!?!?!?!?!?! WHERE pLeasE. PLEASE. GIVE HER BACK. PLEASE. I CAN’T. I CAN’T BE WITHOUT HER. I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT HER. SHE WAS MINE. SHE WAS WARM. SHE WAS MINE!!!! WHY. WHY DID HE HAVE TO TAKE HER?!?!??! WHY HER?!?!??! WHY DOES HE DO THIS?!?!??!??!! WHY DOES HE DO THIS TO ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Date: Week 1 – Initial Changes Begin

Observer: Dr. Toranosuke Kan

Subject: Dr. Nemoto Genki, PhD

Experiment: Cellular Rejuvenation and Senescence Clearing through CRISPR-Based Genetic Editing

You didn’t just stop at the science, Genki. You were always thinking about the bigger picture - how to make this work for real people. You said it wasn’t enough to fix the problem in a dish or a lab model; it had to be practical, accessible, and safe. I remember you spent weeks agonizing over the cost of production for your treatments.

“What’s the point of a cure,” you’d say, “if no one can afford it?” You were already designing systems to make it scalable, finding ways to use cheaper, more sustainable materials for those delivery nanoparticles, or sourcing enzymes from modified bacteria instead of expensive synthetic methods. You had this vision of a future where people wouldn’t have to watch their loved ones fade away - not from Alzheimer’s, not from cancer, not from anything that your work could stop. You told me once that your mother had arthritis so bad she couldn’t even hold your hand by the time she was forty. That was part of why you were so driven - to make sure no one else had to feel that kind of helplessness. And you were meticulous, Genki. You didn’t cut corners. You’d test and re-test, stay up all night if you had to, just to make sure every variable was accounted for. I can still hear you muttering to yourself while running simulations, double-checking every figure. “Better to be thorough now than regret it later,” you’d always say. That’s what made you different - you weren’t just smart, you were careful. Thoughtful.

[7:24 PM]You even thought about how this technology could go wrong. You used to lecture me about bioethics, about how powerful tools like senolytics or reprogramming factors could be misused. You were so careful about containment, about safeguards. You wrote protocols for how to reverse the process if something went wrong. I remember you saying, “Science without ethics isn’t progress, it’s a disaster waiting to happen.” But it wasn’t all work, either. Do you remember that night we stayed late in the lab, and you showed me that playlist you and Dr. Deng had made? You said it helped you focus, but honestly, I think you just liked sharing things you loved. I never told you, but I’ve been listening to it lately. It reminds me of you. Of how passionate you were, how alive you seemed when you were deep in your research. How much you believed in what you were doing. I know this feels far away now, Genki. I know you’re scared, and it’s hard to remember who you are, but I remember. I remember everything you stood for, everything you were trying to do. I see it in you even now, in the way you try to make sense of the world around you, even when it’s confusing and overwhelming. You’re still here, and I’m not giving up on you. I’ll tell you these stories every day if I have to. About your work, your brilliance, your kindness. About how you lit up every room you walked into, how you made people feel like they were part of something bigger. You’re still part of something bigger, Genki. And I’ll be here with you, no matter how long it takes, until you find your way back to yourself.

Date: Week 1 – Initial Changes Begin

Observer: Dr. Toranosuke Kan

Subject: Dr. Den Jianyu

Experiment: Cellular Rejuvenation and Senescence Clearing through CRISPR-Based Genetic Editing

You had someone, Genki. Someone who loved you more than anything in the world. His name was Dr. Den Jianyu. You two met on the project, remember? It was one of those meet-cutes you’d expect to read about in a novel. You accidentally spilled tea on his research notes while you were both waiting for the same meeting to start. I remember you telling me how mortified you were, and how he just laughed and said, “Well, now they’re infused with some extra wisdom.” That’s what started it all. He was a molecular biologist - sharp as a scalpel but soft around the edges. He had this way of grounding you when you’d spiral into your endless ideas. You’d come back from your late-night walks with him, eyes brighter, voice steadier, like he gave you a little more air to breathe. You two were so different, but it worked. He could pull you out of your head when you got lost in theories, and you’d light up his world with your curiosity and energy. It was the kind of love that felt inevitable.

[9:12 PM]You proposed to him out under the zelkova clearing, didn’t you? You planned it for weeks, fussing over the details like it was a lab experiment. He said yes before you even finished asking. I’ve never seen you as happy as you were that day. You couldn’t stop talking about your future together - traveling the world, collaborating on research, getting a dog someday. You used to joke that your work was going to make people live forever, but you’d settle for just a few more decades with him. You said it’d be fine even if it only lasted a few days. You said it’d be fine even if you didn’t live to see it become legal. Even after everything happened, Genki, I know he never stopped loving you. When the experiment went wrong, when you started…changing, he stayed. He visited you every day, holding your hand, talking to you like nothing was wrong. But after a while, you stopped responding. I think it broke his heart. It broke all of us, really. He didn’t leave because he stopped caring - he left because he thought it was what you would’ve wanted. He’s doing well now. He’s a really accomplished biologist, even if he’s stuck rotting in here for now. He still sends updates sometimes, about your research. Things to add to your notes. I tell him you’re still there, still working hard. Because you are, Genki. I see it. Dr. Den always said you had this unshakable belief in people’s ability to heal. It’s why he loved you, I think. You never gave up on anyone, even when the odds were stacked against them. That’s why I’m not giving up on you now, even if you don’t remember him. Even if you don’t remember me.

Log Start:

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