#> but i havent used it! its wack

[waloeders]

I BEAT THE DLC!!!

i have so many ideas for another s/i omg....

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

flower hivemind au masterpost (so far)

aight this is long overdue lmao

before i start anything off everyone give a big thanks to @olliesneweyes who's the one who originally came up w/ all these ideas, i'm just the one who posted the asks hskjghkg

below the cut i've linked p much every important post related to info abt this au, though you also should be able to find any relevant stuff under the #flower hivemind au tag on this blog lolol. this might still be messy and so is navigating my blog rip but it should be a better place to find everything

tldr; vocaloid au where flower is a type of hivemind plant parasite thing that's capable of "flowerizing" other people to assimilate them into the hivemind. len tries his best to not let his friends get killed.

content warnings for mentions/depictions of blood&gore, drugging, cannibalism(??)

first mentions of au + initial concepts:

1 -> 1st mention

2 -> (elaboration on previous: spreading thru pollen/spores, ciflower)

3,4 -> cordyceps inspiration, more about drugging & spores

more importantish main plot stuff:

targeting fukase (+ brief elaboration)

trapped in closet scenario: 1, 2

len being the final girl

first mention of the ending

expanded game mechanics/events: main flowers & memesquad boys, primary gameplay style, piko&fukase encounter (+elaboration1, elaboration2), initial notes on oliver & moke, ciflower&fukase encounter (+elaboration), flowerization tied to assimilation tactics, other survivor povs, oliver & moke getting flowerized (+elaboration1, elaboration2), more notes on oliver (+elaboration)

defective flower: 1, 2, 3

james: 1, 2,

hivemind motivations

don't take them from the garden/remind them of their past

do the spores glow

bonus stuff:

rin gets munched

waltz of malice connections

flowerized!piko concept doodle

oliver post w/ funny tags

fear garden vibes

iku

[milkstoner]

I don't have an insta 😔

I do have to respect that honestly.

[britneyshakespeare]

I feel bad for Margaret of York that this portrait is always used to represent her

fuck ass proportions!!!

[realnielsbohr]

im wearing contacts again for the first time in months and holy fuck i forgot how jarring it is to be able to see with no glasses

[comas-are-for-sleeping]

impulse to become in influencer not for recognition but so that people like me can see someone not feel gross abt themselves for simply existing

[stealingpotatoes]

Tales of the Empire (spoilers)

Morgan Elspeth: “My world has been burning since I was a child, why should this world be any different?”

-such a boomer statement, made me instantly dislike her (as if the terrorizing the citizens of Corvus wasn’t enough)

YEAH its wack bc she was a terrible choice to make a short story anthology out of but if they'd actually used their brains they could've made smthn interesting. as it is, her stories are essentially all "morgan kill people she bad" and it feels like someone bullshitting a 3000 word essay on a topic they havent studied. IF INSTEAD they'd made it a sort of mirror to barriss' story and about how people respond to trauma differently, they really could've told a decent story despite her being so meh. like just show how some people don't go "i hope this never happens to anyone ever again" and go against the fascists, some people (morgan, in a good version of this show) become their enemy in their anger and in clawing for their own survival. instead they spent 3 episodes saying literally nothing and pissing on timothy zahn while they were at it

[lxinesux]

hello its starry ive elected to reveal myself cuz i literally have nothing to lose here: first off, WERE ON THE SAME PAGE 100% OMG, second: i had no idea he broke up with his scammer witch girlfriend and tbh i hope he did she was Wack, third:

look at them. they are posing like a couple. im going insane

US RN:

his hands are in his pockets im screaming he wants to touch her SO BAD!! and shes so close to him with her back arched sOMEBODY SEDATE ME!!!

also idk if uve seen midsommar (if u havent omfg u should its FAB!!) but all the flowery shit andys been wearing esp during the slime pie interview!?

its giving may queen.

its all alleged but yea i think he did too bc if i had a gf i wouldnt tell the mainstream media about how i was so into humping my costar the crew turned into blair witch extras

andys been v spiritual and i think he was one of her clients first which kinda gave me pause? like tht opens some sketchy ass doors, especially when dealing with someone’s faith/mental health!! havent bothered to check but she gave me such rank air sign energy (srry if ur air sign not all of yall are bad!!! just unhealed ones give me the ick bc they dont have any grounding!!)

apparently his friends and fam didn’t like her and considering how intense he is towards his social circle it wouldnt shock me if she got the boot.

shes following alyssa on insta i think (dont care enough to fact check lmao) makes me wonder if we’ll get a Surviving Andrew Garfield podcast episode or something lol thts point 2. she was kinda weird too 😭 ‘i just wanted the media tht reported on my break up with my famous bf to have an updated picture tht JUST SO HAPPENED to be the date where he took me to the SAG awards 🤪’ lmao pls be real girl.

allegedly alyssa was calling the paps on them and i think tht was the last straw. dude loves attention but not like tht-they were at his house lol

he got asked about emma recently and very politely and british-ly told the guy to drop it. like flo understands him needing privacy shed never call the paps on them 😭😭they could be happy and private and AFHYFSER im gnawing on the bars of my ENCLOSURE!!

[morethanmeetstheass]

Not a day goes by I don't want to commission you so bad but you've only Just returned and I do not want to tempt fate by even asking you but GOD is it good to see you back especially just to know you're still kicking I enjoy you as a person first and a hand in hand fan of the robots second

this is SO SWEET thank you so so much!!!

if ur interested in a drawing commission, ill need to so some practice pieces first bc i havent used my mecha-drawing muscles in a HOT minute-- tho i have been doing other artwork, and ive learned a lot of new techniques, so my art is prolly gonna be better than ever. prepare for knightverse blitzbee art soon bc if i dont draw knightverse soon, i will combust

as for writing comms, i need to finish kein weg zuruck first, which should take a while since ive still got a pretty hefty chunk of chapters left, and they are NOT short. im hoping to have the next chapter up next week, and then release weekly until its done. (then i wanna write a knightverse blitzbee fic but its gonna be immensely sad so idk if ill post it or just write a few scenes self-indulgently lmao)

but yes, comms will open up again, maybe in a couple weeks or a month or so. i just wanna stretch my creative muscles first and make sure im delivering the best work possible to ppl! and its been a LONG time since ive been creative in a self-indulgent way so i wanna give myself a chance to barf out all the hyperfixation needs first LMAO

i will announce when comms are up again! appreciate u very much for ur words tho, fr 💖 its so special to know that ppl still care about me. and not just as a creator but as a person??? wack. i love yall

[dilsdoes]

being insane is so wack bc i got institutionalized a couple years ago (second time) and i guess they read my file wrong bc they put me on a medication that gave me heart palpitations and made me dizzy and almost pass out that i was prescribed by a neglectful doctor i made a point to complain about, and i told them that i am no longer on this medication and that it must be a mistake and they were like well. its on your file. and i was like ok yeah but its out of date. i stopped taking it and havent been prescribed that in months. and then they used the R word. 'are you refusing it?' and now theres an implication. now i might be seen as noncompliant. so i figure they must know what theyre doing or something, and then every single morning after that i almost pass out as soon as i wake up and have to lie in bed for hours past breakfast (they gave me breakfast but i lost a lot of time) and every day i told them im pretty sure its this drug thats doing that to me and every day they say well. its whats been prescribed to you. until i say listen i think this is going to fucking kill me. and theyre like 'are you refusing?' and i say i cant take this anymore. its making me sick. cant you see that? its making me sick. and they ask again, 'Are You Refusing?' and i say yes. and you know what? i stopped passing out.

[goremet-chef]

ramble

the amount of times ive looked up "how to ____" for shit like small talk and support and responses is. embarrassing 💀 but wow i do not know!!! it makes me feel like an awful person too, because i know i cant ever help anyone. it doesnt come as naturally to me as i wished it would, and spitting prewritten responses ive seen somewhere else feels too disingenuous 😔😔 ive been trying to get better, i struggle with only talking about myself or things i like in conversation, or not knowing when it ends/how to continue or if it should be continued, to the point where now when i hit a spot im unsure of, i try my best to respond in a way that lets the other person talk about what they want too, OR ill say multiple things in one message so theres more options for branching off

ITS WEIRD i know its strange, to have a premeditated formula with this shit but OOOG it feels necessary

ive never really gone out of my way to make friends in the past, it was always friends of friends and proximity made us closer, yknow? and then i never made any new ones and eventually all my old friendships died cuz i moved away and then i realized oh! all of my remaining friends have friends besides me, and im the loser with nobody KSJFSF

i just dont have the ability, never have and im starting to doubt that i ever will. like the only remedy is to talk to someone how i talk with my close friends but not everyone is comfortable, or would understand my tone cuz they havent known me for 8+ years 💀 IDKK its wack i try to get better but... i havent been doing much leaving my house since 2020, ESPECIALLY not after school was over. i did pretty okay at olive garden with my bestie not that long ago, it was still HARD. the waitress asked if i wanted cheese i think? and i heard her but my brain like. separated and i froze as if saying nothing would get me out of it KSJDFS LONG PAUSE and then i was like oh, no thanks. awful.

[aroaceamyrosearchive]

(rolls in) Helloooo, please tell us about ur genderqueer!Sonic and Amy hcs please!

okay okay so. sonic is a genderqueer who decided to transition and got that good ol top surgery. uses he/they pronouns + im considering some neos for him but i havent thought up anything good for him yet. he definitely feels more masculine but the whole thing is wack it's really hard to place it under any other label.. as it is with being genderqueer lmao they also like to dress up sometimes and altho theyre masculine leaning they like wearing stuff like dresses. altho just nakey is most comfy bc no friction when running lmao

amy on the other hand uses any pronouns! she decided not to transition at this point in her life bc she's very comfortable in her skin! fae really enjoys playing with neopronouns actually! theyre afab and theyre feminine leaning but being a cis girl just. doesnt fit right bc their gender is absolutely queer in its nature, no matter how feminine it may be (but i may be projecting-)

[ritzcuit]

4, 12, 22 with Datz?

4; If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in? the answer is "literally anything so long as he gets more content pleasedatz please i missyou so much" HMMMM

manga is my go-to option bc i am constantly mourning that we didnt get any more aa manga after aa4. and he would be so good at it. he';d be so good at being in a manga. but a book would be very useful for me, personally, bc then i can read about him a whole lot. make him the pov character. give me the pre-soj stories like it's datz telling them to someone else. GRRRRRR DATZ

12; What's a headcanon you have for this character? only one

GOD WHAT HAVENT I SAID YET??? i think he picks up whittling and its great fun for everyone involved. i think he's a little dogshit at the actual design part, but the carving is skilled, so everyone has a Sort Of Wack dragon figure that he's carved them and theyre like "oh it's a....! A dragon of course 😁thanksss" it's good to keep his hands and brain busy...

22; If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to this character? Something you don't like? something i like; honestly i count myself lucky when datz is actually A Character in a fic and like, shows concern for apollo and nahyuta if theyre having a moment... any acknowledgement that datz 100% LOVES THOSE KIDS is so special to me. Bc i think canon forgot this too. alas. but if he's given any thought besides "And then datz was there ANYWAY KLAPOLLO 50000K WORDS" then i'm happy. *no hate to klapollo its just that idk why datz is here if you're not gonna give him the time of day

i also have a soft spot for when datz has a self-esteem issue beneath it all... i wouldn't want it in like, every fic, bc it's both noncanon and i think it's something datz hides beneath 23 years of repression, but there's a few fics that touch on it and i luvv it

something i dislike; .....when datz isn't given the time of day%$^$&$ HELP LOL Hmmm well sometimes ppl write him and im like "haha you've fallen for the character's facade!" like he's TOO goofy and xD random and shallow and there's nothing going on in his head. Like an angst fic where datz never switches from "silly uncle trying to lighten the mood" to "serious uncle acknowledging the other character's feelings in a very real concrete way"... which, again, he is a side character, and very rarely relevant to their fic, so i guess it's fine, but at that point just don't bOTHER AND ALSO GET OUT OF THE TAG!!!!!!!! YOURE HURTING MY FEELINGS!

[primaviva]

oki first of all, hai !!! its been sosososo long since ive sent an ask lolololol [i think it was last blog theme], but i just wanted 2 ask u a question bcuz uve written abt minors as a minor before and i have my own writing blog on the side n so far ive only ever written abt characters that r adults in canon but ive been wanting 2 branch out 2 other minor characters [IM A MINOR MYSELF BTW . the link in my bio 4 info abt me is being wack n gross, but i am a minor TRUST]

but back 2 my question, how should i deal with potential backlash ? when i write n publish my stuff abt canonically minor characters, im planning on just putting an adults dni at the top or smthn [bcuz the idea of adults engaging w the potential content of minors i put out makes me feel a lil sick 2 my stomach ngl] but i feel like some ppl r gonna see it n start 2 get defensive abt it which i . rlly dont want 2 deal w [but i probably will tho lololol]

OK . yeah . thats it . ik u havent posted anything since february but ur the only person i could think of 4 a question like that

thank u !!! have a good day ^_^ [n i hope this made sense !! pretty please reach out 2 me in any way possible if smthn didnt make sense !!]

BANAHHAHAA THANK YOU FOR THINKING OF ME omg im so sorry for being like a week late to this ask buttttttt honestly my advice to you is to do nothing. that sounds weird but LEMME EXPLAIN:

at the end of the day it’s the Internet and people are gonna read and do as they please. for example, all of us chronically online growing up have read at least one smut before like everybody and they mama would be lying if they saw a minors dni and they read it anyone and now ended up like this (an absolute fein for fanfiction) because at the end of the day people are gonna do what they want.

don’t get me wrong, you SHOULD put that labeling because some minors may actually want to avoid that content. now, because you’re putting adults interact…lemme just tell you rn if a grown ass mf searched up the tag to find some x reader of a teenager then i promise you that a “adult dni” is gonna stop em💀💀 you should still put the adult dni, but no matter what an adult will interact with it because they gonna read what they wanna read.

my best advice is just to not stress about it. if you get backlash because an adult is offended to not interact with romantic content of a teenager, just block them. but besides that, there’s nothing really you can do and constantly blocking adults for viewing fics would be tiring and it’s never gonna end. ive been weirded out seeing 21 year olds like my fics of gwen, and when you notice it you can block them but it won’t stop them from viewing other content of that character. and those are accounts that actually put they age, most blogs are blank and you won’t even know. if you want to block accounts that shamelessly have their age but like content of minors, then do so, but im just saying not to stress about it because things like people interacting with content they aren’t supposed to is unfortunately UNAVOIDABLE…..it’s the internet 🤷‍♀️

hope this made sense and also HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD DAY TOO SLIME

[sheepboychibi]

zombie party clowns???

just had a wild dream i havent had in ages what in the world 😭 well it started off as just a random dream, transitioned into another, and then it turned into a dream ive had before but like, altered

dont remember what the first dream was about, but i remember at the end of it someone was like "ive got a great name for a school, post mortem high" and then we transitioned to the next dream. which i guess was post mortem high cause thats what ppl called it, but like. the school was a mix of the wylie middle school/junior high and some other random school?? i walk into the school, the cafeteria is seated in a way where you'll always be next to/near a stranger and thats 😭 i eat breakfast trying to find a seat as far away from ppl i dont know as possible. i failed :( some random person comes up and starts bullying me so i get up and walk away. small fade and im talking with friends outside? in the space between the middle school and junior high. then i get a call from my parents, which are not my irl parents idk who these people are. but apparently they make weird magic weapons?? and came to give me mine?? they however were not allowed in the school cause their magic weapons were guns. i dont remember what mine were. but anyways i had to turn them into the office, a friend(?) comes with but then sneaks off. and here's were the dream ive had before starts! this time, i notice they're in the supply closet and i leave the hallway as soon as possible before i get trapped like i did in the first dream i had of this. i immediately start running but its too late, the zombie party clowns are already released and causing havoc. everyone runs into the junior high, which really isnt the junior high that i went to, this is the mix of the random school cause the layout is all wack. but anyways we run around, trying to escape the horror that is the zombie party clowns 😭 this time i actually managed to get outside? but i still got chased by 1 person, not sure if they were a zombie party clown or what but they chased me, this one actually talked, i got as far as i could, trying to teleport home but then the person chasing me STABBED ME??? and then leaves. so im finally able to teleport home, but, its not home, its my mawmaw's old trailer house she doesnt live in anymore. but apparently she still does in the dream. anyways i walk in, there's two strangers asleep on the couch who wake up and are like "oh sorry do you live here? the door was open and we were tired and hungry so we came in. mostly ate the cheese" and then fell back asleep. im just like "okay this is fine lol" and walk away to find a medkit to remove whatever stabbed me. i do. fix up the wound, and now apparently theres a way onto the roof of the trailer car?? and theres stuff up here what??? oh also above us on super tall trees are two cars hanging by a THREAD just swinging about like. HUH??? mawmaw appears, starts talking but a magic hogwarts like train appears. she takes it, i refuse to cause im scared of it taking us back to the overrun school of zombie party clowns. now im in the pov of mawmaw in the train, she gets to the destination and gets out, she's on a mountain????? and theres a witch and they were like "oh i thought asriel wouldve come with" and mawmaw told them about the zombie party clowns and the witch freaked out like "ZOMBIE PARTY CLOWNS??? OH NO" and then bane woke me up by whining so. uh. i dunno why the zombie party clowns are feared so much but they are. it was so wack too because i havent had this dream in like forever, and now there's more too it??????

tl;dr i have a recurring but altered dream of zombie party clowns overrunning my school

[waxsuyaaa]

beware! large amounts of yapping ahead!

okay its time for me to complain about people because my journal isnt cutting it for my standards in actually wordvomiting everything before I sleep

yay so theres one girl in my class, all stories I could ever say always start with “so there is one person in my class” im not original and neither are they because theres like 10 different boys and they all look and sound the same to me I havent memorised their names after 2 years and 3 of them have the same last name

okay so theres this one girl in my class and y’know how theres always a duo in a trio and apparently im always the one leeching off of other peoples friendships because im always the new person at the school for whatever reason and im probably never going to have a genuine friend group because either i dont try enough or people in schools absolutely suck (im leaning towards the latter option because I dont wanna blame myself)

OKAY im the singular loner oh so sad person in the trio and the other 2 people have so much in common like hey theyre family friends and like the same music and talk about men all the time and never strike a conversation with me and im the person who they pair up with and talk to when theres a task which we are in groups of 3s

so a teacher brought in taylor swift merchandise and I saw one of those light up wristbands and apparently the other 2 ppl who I *think* im friends with also like taylor swift (more than me, because im a wretched fake fan or whatever) and one of them says if they can have the wristband because it was the only one from the eras tour the teacher had and then she offered to buy it off me for 20 bucks and hey you know where this is going

she hasnt paid me in the half a year since that and I keep reminding her and she keeps telling me to remind her and she keeps on going “im gonna pay you next week I promise” like shut up if you’re not gonna keep your promise just say it. if you dont have the money literally just say it and next time we walk to your house you could give the wristband back

but actually the audacity like last week for her to say “why am i even paying you for this its just a bracelet” when we already agreed on it and i may be extremely petty but she could have said its freaking worth is only 5 cents or whatever and then her attempt to GUILT TRIP ME because her allowance is only a dollar everytime she does a chore?? and the fact she said oh just ask [the other person in the friend group] to pay?? like hey hello what this is just between you and i

and the fact that the other person in the friend group stands up for her is just ouchh what yeah I know them two were besties since they were in the womb and maybe even in a past life they were actually intertwined plants or whatevr

and they talked right in front of me just back and forth “oh you dont have to pay her its not worth it” “real friends dont owe people things its just out of kindness” and im like HEY IM RIGHT HERE BEHIND YOU and the fact they kept checking behind them to see if I was eavesdropping which was so incredibly easy because they were literally talking so loud I swear my life is recorded or something and theyre speaking loudly so the viewer can be in on the drama

and maybe im making drama out of nothing but these two CALL ME BESTIE and every single time i call them out on a fault or something and im like thats not what you said earlier BECAUSE EITHER THEIR MEMORY IS WACK OR THEYRE LIARS theyre just like “oh we’re joking” like what the hell you cannot use jokes to get out of situations

even when im not having a good day and trying to not engage in conversatjon as often theyre always like “why did you talk like that” like huh I didnt know I wasnt allowed to stop smiling for a while

i mean theres more stuff and im still gonna say it ive asked her [the uhh first one] if im interesting or not and she replied yeah sure and when asked why she said oh you say animal facts sometimes like HEY IM AN ACTUAL PERSON and the most interesting thing about me is that I say animal facts sometimes like hey look at me im an encyclopedia its literally like when teachers call me “their little calculator” or whatever also EWW this is why I dont like pet names they suck

so am i overreacting?? yeah

should I be thrown against a wall? yeah

can i sleep? no thats why im writing this