#i know the fucking pills i take!!

[dilsdoes]

being insane is so wack bc i got institutionalized a couple years ago (second time) and i guess they read my file wrong bc they put me on a medication that gave me heart palpitations and made me dizzy and almost pass out that i was prescribed by a neglectful doctor i made a point to complain about, and i told them that i am no longer on this medication and that it must be a mistake and they were like well. its on your file. and i was like ok yeah but its out of date. i stopped taking it and havent been prescribed that in months. and then they used the R word. 'are you refusing it?' and now theres an implication. now i might be seen as noncompliant. so i figure they must know what theyre doing or something, and then every single morning after that i almost pass out as soon as i wake up and have to lie in bed for hours past breakfast (they gave me breakfast but i lost a lot of time) and every day i told them im pretty sure its this drug thats doing that to me and every day they say well. its whats been prescribed to you. until i say listen i think this is going to fucking kill me. and theyre like 'are you refusing?' and i say i cant take this anymore. its making me sick. cant you see that? its making me sick. and they ask again, 'Are You Refusing?' and i say yes. and you know what? i stopped passing out.

[sol-consort]

Character development at it's finest

[racke7]

It kind of occurred to me today that this:

is kind of... awkward.

See, as anyone with chronic-pain will tell you, your "daily activities" will warp around your pain.

Where instead of doing things "the normal way" you've figured out some kind of mostly-painless workaround, and so you don't even have to worry about it.

And then it's also difficult to say what amounts to "most" or "many" or "some". Is there a set list of things you need to be able to do? In today's world, plenty of people go from bed to computer to bed, never even needing to leave their apartment. How does that translate?

Not to mention what "all the time" really means. Does it only care about the worst days if you have something that flares up? Does it only care if it hurts even when you stop an activity?

And how come "talking / listening" is so high up? What if your brain decides to go non-verbal from just paper-cuts? What would be the appropriate "loss of function"-comparison in that case?

Basically? There's a lot of empty holes and abstractness muddling everything, even in this seemingly incredibly useful example.

I remember someone saying "your worst day - with no meds/tools", but what if that worst day only happens a few times a year?

It's complicated, is what I'm saying. And whilst this description is definitely useful, I wouldn't take it as gospel.

In fact, you might be better off ignoring your doctor when they start asking about "numbers" and just explain how the pain effects you.

"On a scale of 1-10" "I'll wake up in the middle of the night, nearly unable to move from the pain, and then desperately claw my way out of my bed. I'll then spend around two hours sitting up and letting my body recover, before being so tired that it outweighs the pain, and I can crawl back into bed for another few hours of sleep. At which point I'll wake up in pain again. During the day, I struggle to turn around or bend over."

They might not like this, and they might interpret the "number" in their own ways (which might screw you over), but at that point it's more about them being shit than you failing to describe things.

Obviously though, I'm not a medical professional and shouldn't be giving medical-advice. I'm just saying that 1-10 is so fucking arbitrary that I don't feel like you can give the "correct" answer, no matter how much thought you put into it.

[spacemanxpaninis]

Your f/o is so supportive of you taking your meds. Especially if you’re new to it and feel like they wouldn’t want to deal with someone who takes them. You sadly admit that you do but they just pull you close and tell you there’s nothing to be ashamed of, you can’t help it and they want you to feel better. “If these are the things that make you feel better, then how can I do anything but love them?”

[givemedamage]

love being transgender , positivity, blah blah , whatever but i HATE GETTING SWERVED AND SPITROASTED BY CVS AMD PLANNED PARENTHOOD AFTER PAYING COLD HARD CASH FOR A GAY LITTLE APPOINTMENT THAT ALLOWS ME TO BUY FUCKING SYRUP THAT MAKES ME A MAN AND THEN NOT EVEN GETTIGN IT FOR SOME REASONI CANT EVEN CALL MY BITCH ASS 1 STAR RN PROVIDER AND BE LIKE HEYYYYYYYYY WHY IS MY THIGN ON HOLD :333BECAUSE HER NUMBERS JUST THE PP NUMBER AND WHENEVET I CALL THE PHARMACY OR PP ITS LIKE beep boop sorry go fuck yourself GOD

[spinecurlingmice]

everytime i see another borderline call themself a "yandere irl" im like :(( noooooo don't try to appeal to the losers who wanna romanticize your worst.......... nooo they dont have ur best interests in mind.

[skinreflectsthesun]

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[umemiyan]

sometimes having a body SUCKS why can't we just be floating brains or disembodied heads like in futurama. and maybe we could attach ourselves to our to bodies at will when we wanna fuck or eat something good

[oatmealcrisp-freak]

mob: i want to get better as a person :3

mogami: christ you are extremely fucking selfish. die.

mob: i am 14 years old

[nyxi-pixie]

skk really were personally created to oneshot kill me. hey what if there was a whole relationship dynamic built off of two characters struggling with dehumanisation who constantly affirm each others humanity. also what if an unholy amount of time was devoted to hand porn for both of them.

[caterjunes]

god i am sooooo glad to be home. jesus fuck. what a Generally Shitty Trip.

[choking-on-roses]

They should invent a losing/forgetting things because you have a disorder that makes you lose/forget things that doesn't make me feel so guilty and frustrated I want to cry

[mars-ipan]

Tomorrow Is Election Day And I Am So Fucking Stressed

[gemharvest]

Fuuuckkk tomorrow Karl please. Please I know we rawdog this allergy shit but can we remember to take our allergy eye drops before we go to work tomorrow. Please. My eyes are lightly itchy but it's 11pm and you're only supposed to do them once a day aka 1 drop every 24 hours. I'm not having us set on fucking 11pm.

[luna-the-cretar]

How do people with executive dysfunction take pills at a consistent time every day? I can have my phone scream at me that I need to take my pills, and my body will still be like “but…no…”

[entamewitchlulu]

i did see a post semi recently where someone was complaining about therapy, and while there is absolutely a conversation to be had about how therapy is not a cure all, not all therapists are good at their jobs, and society pushes it on everyone as a substitute for fixing material problems with our society, their particular grievance was:

"can you imagine going to a car mechanic and they tell you 'yeah it's gonna be $100 a week and we MIGHT find the problem at some point'"

which is so wildly reductive. a human being is not a car. the brain is not a car. a car has specific discrete pieces that we understand to work a specific way, and when the car breaks, we can find out which piece is the problem. the brain is not built that way. we still don't know what the hell is happening up there.

And even if we did, the human body is not a car - you can't go to the fucking doctor just once when you're sick and then never again after they 'fix it'! Taking care of the human body is a constant, continuous job that requires REGULAR maintenance. You can't just slap a fix on it and then come back two years later for an oil change, that's not how any of this works. It's a bad fucking analogy!

Plus, a mechanic doesn't need to spend an hour a week learning the details of your car's background in order to understand why a piece is broken. A mechanic doesn't need to know that ten years ago a car got into a fender bender and so now part of its muffler is dented. it just need to know that the fender is dented and should be replaced right now.

For a human being, a therapist is not capable of reading your fucking user manual to know what pieces make you. They need time, too, to learn about your unique experience of life and how it might have translated into an unhealthy pattern. For a human it's often not enough to know that the pattern exists until you address the root cause of it, which a therapist can only learn if they spend regular time with you to unearth the roots of the problem.

Therapy is one piece of a holistic system of caring for yourself. It's not a piece that works for everyone, but it can be ONE piece of your continuous journey of mental health care, and treating it like it's a scam just because it takes time isn't helpful to anyone.