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* (steam coming out of my head) I’m fucking thinking dude
#Bauhauzzo human life I can FEEL IT it’s THERE I SWEAR#my human HC for him is a little scrambled but I’ll try and put my own two cents on the table in here#Sunday Lesson Line: Since Mitter is considered a creation god. I imagine him as a priest#and HEAR ME OUTT I THINK it wouldn’t be far off for Mitter to have a religion based around her#to me human Bau was mainly preaching about appreciating single everything in life#referring to how Mitter is described as a caretaker#and get this: especially memories!!!#based on the first few dialogues here I imagine he did. not have the best childhood#would he wanna change it if he could? yes. has he grown and has learned to look back on them properly?? also yes#as for the Huzzle line I REALLY wanna think about it more#duo in humie years maybe….Huzzle constantly trying its best to become a god so it can just be with its brother again….#great god grove#ggg#bauhazzo#bauhauzzo ggg#hc#tagging in case ppl wanna see my madman rambling#trevor.txt#oatmeal thoughts
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the fixation of fandom these days on there always being a Black and a White. A Right and a Wrong. A Villain and a Victim. is soooo fucking tragic and frankly REALLY DAMN ANNOYING
especially in stuff where like..if THAT'S your priority? you've missed the entire damn point. and yet it always is. so loudly.
look beyond your blorbo. your kintype. your CC. your f/o. look beyond your otp. look beyond your found family dynamic and actually absorb what's going on with the other characters. i'm begging.
honestly do a study on the characters you hate most or care about the least. take a half an hour to put yourself in their shoes
no this isn't an anti-shipping, anti-kinning, anti-selfship, or anti-blorboing post, because i don't think those are the things that inherently ruin characters or tags or whatever other ppl think. but if you do do that, it'll make it even better if you look at a larger scope beyond that as well I promise
#txt#like i believe in ppl approaching fandom however you want as long as youre not actively hurting ppl#but i just cant stand to see nuance die just for the sake of being unwilling to look at a different perspective than the bias#it also sucks ppl feel like they cant like flawed characters anymore because suddenly that means they Condone Real Life Abuse or whatever#what if we took a step back and remembered that fiction is for entertainment and not here to be Morality 101#you should be getting that elsewhere or from idk shows literally made for toddlers if any fiction#people have been enjoying villains and flawed characters and characters with different moral compasses in general for as long as fiction ha#existed and i promise that's not what makes someone evil or whatever#everyone out there doing shitty shit feels enabled because of their circle of ppl or powers-that-be enabling them#and sometimes pretty directly!#not because the fictional serial killer said some deep shit about the nature of man and ppl vibed with the mood or because#the fictional war monger looked kinda sexy while doing his shit#bateman joker tyler durden fanboys who made one or more of those men their fictional jesus or whatever were always doomed to be Like That#the joker didnt crawl out of their TV and brainwash them directly into shitheads#everyone who ever blames or claims some fictional shit Inspired them is just giving an excuse for something that was always and already in#their heart for other reasons i swear that to you
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imagine addressing critique abt smth (cc) but then put that post behind the patreon subscription paywall lmfao especially idiotic since a lot if not most of the critique comes from outside that nice patreon echochamber lol
#just woke up to get tired again by seeing stuff like this lol#its about that disaster called a “twilight”-set by joliebean btw#tumblr turned me into a gossip girl i swear lol but shit needs to be pointed out#having open discourse is now a privilege that needs to be paid for#only thing i learned from that#and even if that critique came from a patreon subscriber its still bs#like nice that u only address stuff like this to ur paying fanclub#when a huge chunk of potential ppl who download this arent members
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Kinda crazy that we’ve got 3 different lords of fortune between da absolution and tevinter nights and none of them showed up in datv but instead we got. A half assed isabela cameo. Like ok-
#dragon age#dragon age spoilers#dragon age the veilguard#datv#datv spoilers#dragon age veilguard#dragon age veilgaurd spoilers#dragon age isabela#isabela dragon age#dragon age critical#LIKEEE#im fine with most of veilguard ill be honest#i do have other criticisms but my enjoyment overrides them tbh#but i was so excited for the lords of fortune#hell taash is still like. uhh top 3 companions for me#but as a faction. disappointing#the rivain coast is boring as hell#and also. the lof is like. kinda orientalist#especially since we literally dont see any of rivain beyond that fucking beach#and the annoying ass warden area. and the volcano#LIKEEEE#that section just suffers. so much lmao#and isabela. i love her but why include her#if none of our choices from previous games matter lmao#its kinda weird#im sure someone can say all this better but. yeah idk#i still cant get over like. clearly rivaini ppl are based of romani ppl right???#but not seeing any of their culture makes it soo. eugh.#AND GET ISABELA OUT OF THAT OUTFIT#ok im done i swear. probably
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wait james somerton sounds a lot like some people on tumblr when they start spouting off about queer history or supposed controversies within it. is that where you guys are getting your stuff? is it james somerton brain poisoning?
#i had never watched or heard of his channel before hbomb and todd's videos#im still watching todds video i just got past that stupid nambla part#tales from diana#i suppose there's a lot to say about people making as nick called 'observational' statements but what todd more aptly calls#pulling shit out of one's ass.#it's the same thing as somerton talking about straight women or white women or straight white women being offended at gay sex scenes#yet supposedly seeking out queer media that would have gay sex scenes?#or slighting more chaste/fluffy queer media ie heartstopper?#ppl who have these sorts of biases against certain types of gay people or their media if it's not what they see as#the most radical progressive form of queer visibility and acceptance.#creating strawmen enemies that they stand in defiance of#yeah this stuff is really getting my mind rolling#i swear ive seen a lot of these points james somerton has made being later used elsewhere on social media#was it ppl watching him who were inspired to go on these rants?#bc ive always seen these sorts of citationless rants and ravings in queer-friendly spaces and been like 'what are you talking about'#maybe someone with a scarf and a video essay voice told them smugly that these things were true#crazy. crazy#but also then again how much of this baseless speculation on social media just fueled/inspired the writing of these video essays...#idk. misinformation is a self-perpetuating cycle.
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I know in the grand scheme of things that this is by no means a lot, but it doesn't stop me from being FLOORED by the reception of my Rayllum Month stuff?!?! Like these PROPORTIONS are NUTS to me and I'm just over here in my bedroom sobbing my eyes out that my stuff (apparently) resonates with people the way I really want it to.
(^ the proportions in question)
Like, out of 895 people, and SO FAST (6 days, as of my posting this), 15 subscribed and I've got 79 kudos?! And 16 bookmarks?! AND 17 PEOPLE CARED ENOUGH TO COMMENT WHAT THE HECK?!?!?! I'm an emotional mess you guys and ik it's not a lot but it means EVERYTHING to me that people like my writing and I just CAN'T-
#side note if you saw me post ch4 of it NO YOU DIDN'T#it was an accident but it'll be up in a few hours i pinky promise#the people i've met in this fandom are so genuinely amazing#like i actually can't think too long about interactions i've had otherwise i'll start crying (happy tears i swear)#so THANK YOU guys#i'm just a small town girl livin' in a lonely world and frantically making rayllum stuff to cope#like writing is so much to me and the fact that people like it always makes my heart explode#we do this for free! because we like it! and people care enough to get personal and interact and I LOVE FANDOM SO MUCH#brb crying in the tub#tdp#the dragon prince#rayllum#my fic#fic: i'm gonna marry him if he keeps all this up... i might just be in love#yk what?#FANDOM APPRECIATION POST#APPRECIATE PPL WHO WRITE AND PPL WHO MAKE ART AND PPL WHO COMMENT#AND EVEN JUST SHY PPL WHO DON'T COMMENT I SEE AND RESPECT AND LOVE YOU
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i understand the frustration with “i made this gay pairing cis x trans so they can still have biological babies” with no thought to other methods and how ppl assume thats the case when it comes to mothpool aus where mothwing is also the mother of the three, but also…. idk i kinda dont give a shit if someone wants to do that and i dont really think its inherently transphobic as long as its handled with care and respect.
what really concerns me about this debate is how some people are adamant that you cannot portray trans people having biological children in media or youre being disrespectful. and im gonna say as a nonbinary person who doesnt want children for themself- thats kinda fucking weird? like i understand that for some people, theyre trans themselves and theyre speaking from a place of dysphoria, and i absolutely get that, which is why i think the topic should be handled with nuance and diversity in trans characters, but like…. guys. pregnant trans men exist irl. trans women get people pregnant irl. trans ppl’s ability and right to parent and have biological children are being debated irl. we get denied the opportunity to adopt as well.
in a climate like this, are we SURE we want the stance on rewrites and headcanons in the silly cat books to be “if you portray trans characters having children, especially with a gay couple, youre a transphobic freak no matter what!” does it really matter? especially if its being done by a trans person handling the topic with nuance who has a lot of trans characters with varying perspectives?
obviously yes, remember that thats not the only way certain gay couples can have kids, remember that not every trans person is fully comfortable with it and keep that in mind, remember that surrogacy and adoption are also perfectly valid ways to give fan babies- but remember that there are OPTIONS. not that you need to condemn the idea of transgender parents in the first place unless they fit the very specific criteria of “proper transgender representation” and anything that dares deviate from that is proof the op is a transphobic monster (bonus points if theyre a trans creator bc i mostly see trans people getting shit for this and it kinda pisses me off. although idm if cis people do it either as long as theyre handling it with respect)
#and this isnt getting into how trans mothwing outside of mothpool is a really good way to read her character#sorry. remembered the shit bonefall got despite being trans as well and got annoyed#that especially annoys me bc hes got plenty of surrogacies but the second hed touch a trans pregnancy#‘’no you cant do that!!! you freak!!! obviously you only see trans people as a loophole for gays to have babies!!!’’#also my gf and i were talking and obviously take this with a grain of salt bc this is our experience#but…. i think a lot of the ppl saying this……. havent really talked to trans women?#dude some of the ones i know LOVE the idea of getting people pregnant#did you know trans women have sex? did you know trans people in general have sex?? did you know trans people irl wanna start families?#did you know that? did you? or do you black out at the idea of a trans woman being anything but strictly pure and nonsexual#and OBVIOUSLY this is not every trans woman. some do have dysphoria around the idea#but im genuinely starting to wonder how these people act around irl transgender parents#whether they had kids before or after coming out#bc ngl. the attitude that thinking about this makes you a transphobic pervert?#directed at trans people making content for themselves?#im starting to think you all just dont want us to reproduce. if we reproduce we arent ‘’good’’ trans people#because a ‘’real’’ man wouldnt carry a child. a ‘’real’’ woman would carry the child. and god forbid the gays even THINK about reproducing#and being around children!#if we have children then we’re doing things that might make cishets look at us and declare we’re not perfect#we’ve proved we’re not just identical to cis ppl!! (and therefore deserving of respect!)#idk. i think this was mostly a case of tumblr going ‘’oh someone said no to this so lets push this to an unhealthy extreme!!’’#and i cant help but notice nobody really brings up nonbinary parents at all in this discussion#not that we have it ‘’better’’ or anything for that but yknow. are we supposed to swear it off?#is the idea of us having kids inconcievable? or worse…. does it mean we ‘’picked a side?’’#so its not even worth getting mad at a pregnant nb person bc ‘’well thats a woman so who cares’’b#HMMMMM.#ohhhh i bet they also get mad if you make transfem pregnancy possible too. no winning#idk really think about it when you go ‘’you can NEVER EVER portray a trans person starting a family. bc REAL trans people would never.’’#ohhh you probably get mad when trans ppl dont get surgery for one reason or another dontcha#whether we want to or its not in the cards for us for whatever reason like cost and such#(while also getting mad if we do bc we cannot win in this no matter what)
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Ace people can have a libido btw. Because apparently some people still need the reminder?
#seeing some like. lowkey acephobic bs in the fandom rn#i swear people love to sexualize ace people who canonically don't like sex#and then get mad when ppl headcanon someone who does like sex as ace#like pick a struggle. or don't pick either of those and just be normal about us!#when ppl wanna sexualize us we can have a libido and when they want to infantilize us then we can't
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Raggedy ahh NOT furry (I swaer-)
Their name is Lactose (as decided by my friend)
#they aren't very good at names...#furry#sfw furry#<-Just to get ppl to see (I swear-)#furry art#fluffy#bunny#fnaf#fnaf au#fnaf oc#<-?#maybe#I don't draw anthro stuff very often so the legs are a little wonky#just havin fun#art#my art#digital art#alternative#pointy art
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normal🧐??????
#idk why some says 6 days and some says 7 idk if theres some specific hour cutoff or what#this meltdown was all st the same time#but what is there shipname like actually 😭😭#i dont tag them……no one tags them....#snakeblade is what google translates it to for me on japanese tweets so idk 😭😭#jabashiri nagare#hagure tatsuto#why i always scheduled to open on saturdays now#im in too deep i was refreshing ppl livetweetijg in japanese today😭😭😭😭#i luv the ending song credit heart thing always but this one was for MEEEE SPEXIFICALLY ��😆😆#i had a visceral reaction to seeing screenshot#bucchigiri be lije what can arajin do to piss everyone off this week#can he get better next ep pleeeease i swear he just gets worse and worse#BOY IF U DONT ACT NORMAL!!!!!#i want to strangle him#he opens his mouth and my eyes rolls to the back of my head OHHH BROTHER!!!!!#bucchigiri?!
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listen when we say we need aroace rep - we MEAN we need AROACE REP. becuze shock of all shocks, a character being just ACE is not aroace rep! same with a character being just aro is not aroace rep. not all aroace ppl see their aro and ace identities as separate.
I for one, find it difficult to separate my aro and ace identities from each other which is why i am AROACE and not aro and ace. A character being only ace is not representing me. I do not feel represented by only an ace character. they are not even half representing me because my asexuality goes hand in hand with my aromantisism. and Ace character is not half representing aroace people. I'm sorry but i do not relate to the alloace experience because i am not alloace. so a character being only ace is not relatable to me because they are not aroace. the same goes for if a character was only aro or aroallo.
Now before anyone decides to misinterpret this post to hell and back I'm not saying that aroallo or alloace rep is bad or shouldn't exist. I'm saying stop throwing aroace rep under the bus because "Actually we need more just aro/just ace rep" as if that somehow solves the issue of aroace rep being nonexistent.
#text#aro#aroace#ace#aromantic#asexual#aspec#also if i see someone be like 'ok but all ace rep is aroace they just call it ace' im going to strangle u#if they call it ace then it is ace!!!! it is not magically aroace because u decided thats what they REALLY meant#yeah society doesnt recognize aro as an identity but that doesnt mean that all ace characters are ACTUALLy aroace im going to explode u#im just tired of it being thought that aroace ppl have it so much better and dont need rep as much as just aro or just ace ppl#im tired of aroace ppl getting thrown under the bus because we are aro and ace and so obviiously we get double the rep or some bs#if you think this is about a post you are wrong it is about many posts all saying the same thing#because even in our own communities aroace ppl are the punching bags#because no matter where we go ppl are shit talking part of our identity or treating it as less than#i swear the communities focus on fully separating aro and aceness has been more detrimental than helpful#it's gotten to a point yall think there cant be any overlap ever and have sorta pushed aroace ppl out of both communities#because 'you cant bring ace experiences into aro spaces! not everyone who is aro is aroace!'#'you cant bring aro experiences into ace spaces because not all aces are aro! we can feel love and have relationships!!!'#basically ignoring the nuance and overlap our communities have in order to try to be seen as independent identities.#idk i miss when we would work together and understand each identity as different but also see that there was similarities and overlap
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Please infodump about the JayTimSteph Grotesquerie AU WIP if possible.
OF COURSE i've been thinking about it since i saw the trailer and now it's a little brainworm. (disclaimer i've not watched the first two episodes yet, this is like. solely on the vibes of the trailer. some details might change once i. watch the show depending on if i follow it or just go with the vibes the trailer gave me. which also means there will be no spoilers for the show if you care about that.)
the current idea involves Detective!Tim, Nun!Steph, and Priest!Jason. the vague idea for the plot so far is that a serial killer leaves a *very* artful display of a crime scene inside of the church that Jason and Steph operate out of. Tim is assigned as the leading detective on the case and ends up in a relationship with the both of them as he spirals in madness trying to catch the killer.
for Steph, i want to explore the idea of her father, Cluemaster, being a *very* prolific and artful serial killer who's whole gimmick was sending clues to the police until he was caught when Steph was still a child, and her and her mother were forced to go into witness protection for their own safety, which led her down the path of becoming a nun. it was a defining childhood moment for her to walk in on one of her father's crimes, so when she's the one who finds the crime scene in the church, it *immediately* sends her back to her childhood and she's caught between PTSD-fueled horror and a sick, enticing fascination. she wanted to become a journalist before going into WITSEC but that career was basically all but ruined for her. now she runs the small newspaper for the church and is desperate to write on the first "real" story she's ever had, dragging her into an intense obsession over the crime and trying to prove she can solve it.
for Jason, i want to deal with his history as Bruce. the current idea is that Bruce is Tim's police chief who adopted Jason and Dick from a young-ish age and raised them to be detectives, taking them to crime scenes as teenagers and teaching them the ins and outs of how criminals think. it leads to Dick becoming a detective, but when taking them to crime scenes led to Jason being kidnapped and brutally tortured by "Jack Napier", almost dying. Dick kills Napier to save Jason and it fractures their little family so badly that Dick switches departments to another city and Jason runs away at 17, eventually happening upon joining the clergy. he's the new, young priest in the church who's known for being very pretty but very emotionally distant even if he's nice enough. and he's *pissed* that Bruce is in his church investigating a murder and that no matter where Jason goes, he can't seem to get away from the horrors.
and for Tim, he's the young new detective in his department who is *entirely* unaware that he's been taken under Bruce's wing bc Bruce is treating him as a surrogate replacement for Dick and Jason. haven't fully decided his backstory yet, but it'll likely be similar to canon with losing his mother and father. i kind of want him to be lost and lacking a sense of direction. very gifted in noticing patterns and detective work, but it's clear he doesn't *really* want this job. and when he's assigned as the lead on a case that feels *way* too big for his experience bc Bruce is showing clear favoritism, he's forced to go to Steph for help, which leads to Jason ending up wrapped up with them too.
despite how heavy the plot *sounds*, i honestly want this fic to be like. 40% porn. like the show i want to explore a lot of fucked up sexual interests in Jason who's punishing himself for it, Steph being too interested in things for her own good and desperate for a taste of what "real life" feels like, and Tim just being incredibly repressed. like i want the line between horror and erotic to feel like a jumprope. lots of fucked up sex balanced with like. them actually trying to catch the killer. and then of course the emotional aspect of how Jason's baggage with Bruce works into all of it. also want Tim to have a mild hero worship for "the great Detective Dick Grayson" while being clueless that he's Bruce's son and Jason's brother. i sort of want it to be Steph-centric, but still have POVs from Tim and Jason just to round out their emotional arcs. i haven't fully decided everyone else who'll be in the fic but i know i want Cass to be a fellow nun and friend of Steph's, Babs to also work at the church, Helena to be Tim's favorite coworker, and possibly for Damian to be around somehow. those roles will probably get more fleshed out when i. watch the damn show tho.
anyway TLDR: religious imagery, body horror, kinky sex, and a mystery that might break everyone psychologically once they get to the bottom of it. i have some very specific scenes and dialogue planned out. probably cannibalism as a metaphor for love thrown in there too. idk i just want these three to be as fucked up as possible and unhinged about each other but fighting their repressed side with their unhinged feral side. and since it doesn't exist by god I'll create it.
#necrotic answerings#necrotic works in progress#jaytimsteph grotesquerie au#<- temp tag until this fic gets a real name#jaytimsteph#when i shared this idea with my partner they were like. this should just be an original book#and yeah they're right but given it's derrivative of a show i don't think it *can* be. ergo. fanfic.#and i'm *already* writing one fucked up romance book with serial killers and a nun okay i've hit my quota.#but tysm for asking about this anon i was so excited to talk about it.#also! one scene idea i have in my head involves the three of them getting attacked#and jason killing the attacker with tim's firearm. which tim basically snatches from him and takes the blame for the kill#and even tho he's in the clear legally bruce sitll forces him to do a psyche eval that he hates.#and meanwhile jason asks tim to “punish him” not bc he killed the guy but bc he *enjoyed* it.#very fun scene for like. the descent into madness of the three of them getting more and more unhinged trying to solve this case.#like how far are they willing to go type shit#also i have a *lot* of sex scenes planned.#don't ask me who the killer is i haven't decided yet#i'm leaning on it being someone connected to tim tho#just to flesh out his backstory more. so we'll see#anyway i'mso happy to ramble about this fic idea to anyone who wants to ask more about it bc it'll help me develop it more#i've got the basics down but i'm an outline girlie at heart so i need evertrhing planned out for it to work yk.#this is my petition to make more ppl care about jaytimsteph. they're so cool i swear.
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ok yall once again, cuz idk if to keep posting the hannibal song of the day stuff i do where i take songs mainly from my playlists and analyse their meaning and write why i think they apply to hannibal,
not like i have much time anyway cuz of exams and school but still,, quite fun to do from time to time when i do have motivation, just dk how easy it is to understand what I write and how enjoyable it is
also suggestions for other names other than "hannibal song of the day" would be very appreciated and welcome cuz i am def not posting daily LMAO but i had no other ideas for a memorable name
#hannibal song of the day#lmao i already asked the server this and they said yes but still dk#i got like 100 notes on the post where i asked if ppl would be interested and get like 3 notes on the actual song posts 😭😭#I AM MAINLY DOING THIS FOR ME I SWEAR but would be fun to see ppls opinions yk#maybe not choosing popular enough songs#but overall i could literally just do it in my journal or somewhere instead of here#but eh#nbc hannibal#hannibal#hannigram#music#rock music#alternative music#electronic rock#synth pop#metal music#alternative metal#indietronica#indie rock#girl idk what else i listen to UHHHHH#will graham#hannibal lecter#text post#poll#my post#rumaiq rambles#is it cringe? yes. yes it is. but idc❤️
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some of the things I've learned in the Adventurer's Bible are so chilling... really drives home the fact that this is a completely different world with medieval-like stuff going on. I'm especially chilled by what Laios and Falin said about the "mountain people"...
#country folk who move to the big city and start talking abt horrific things like it's normal#i see why they wanted to leave so bad#but like neither of them in that comic seems to question whether or not it's ethical to kill the mountain people...#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#adventurers bible#also otta being a human trafficker jesus christ#the only canonically gay character was arrested for himan trafficking...#ive seen some ppl argue that the charge was generalized or misplaced and that what she actually did might not've been that bad#but there's no way of knowing#the canaries are all very violent and elf culture seems to encourage numbness to the suffering of other humans#also i keep thinking abt how her half-foot partners must feel#for them it's an extremely long relationship that feels like their life's true love#but for her this is like a fling or at best the elf equivalent of a 2 yr relationship#and then they don't even get to grow old with her cause she's too afraid to watch them die#i feel similarly abt marcilles parents#like apparently her mom remarried to a gnome pretty quickly after Donato died#also i swear i thought he had a different first name but no his name is just Donato lmao#but dude for him she was his life's true love whom he spent his entire life with#literally he met her was he was so young and died married to her#i just really really get marcilles deaire to make everyone have equal lifespans
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can i be completely fr i get why belaf is LIKABLE but im,,,, confused? curious? on what exactly makes him a FAVOURITE for so many fans like i don't mean any shade ofc!!!! He's interesting and cool and fun but for me he's just kinda there.... 👀 Like Belaf fans if you see this lemme know what makes him STAND OUT to you bc i wanna see it too 😭😭😭
#made in abyss#belaf made in abyss#i feel like that 'ogre is stupid' meme whenever i see ppl waxing on about him because YES he was a father to irumyuui YES he was a big#brother figure to Vueko YES his serpent for. looks cool YES i get the symbolism behind all that and YES it was a tragedy (like everyone else#in ganja!!!) what he went through but..... there's nothing really COMPELLING about him to me??? TO ME I SWEAR I'M NOT TRYING TO INVALIDATE#Y'ALL I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO SAY IT AUGUHHH.... i dunno his character just felt kinda There like it existed to me. he's neat he can keep#it up!!!! but i wanna see what everyone else sees in you ........
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the school arc to me is so good because it drags ciel out of his position as a powerful figure and literally places him in the shoes of the person he could have been. the circus arc ALSO drags him out of his position as big bad queens watch dog/head of the phantomhive estate but the school arc feels like a mockery of a future that never was. this is what he could have been had his parents not died. and even then its NOT because he will never be that kid.
he never was.
#ramblings#incoherent beyond belief its 4 am#and im trying to avoid manga spoilers#might add a reblog with more coherent thoughts when i wake up but im off my meds so i cant promise anything#actually correction im being vague w the manga spoilers#manga readers know whats up#idk if there are any anime only ppl who havent been spoiled on The Plottwist Ever yet#but i figured there will be new fans and though im not tagging this it might still get seen so#cant WAIT to see our boy absolutely miserable in animation form should they recreate that arc LMAOOO#which ofc is after the germany arc so thats still a long time away#but STILL. itd be fun i need to see this young teenager lose his mind in color with sound#him relying on sebastian to do all his fag duties (sorry. dredge) so he can work his way up the social ladder#trying to gain power while simultaneously proving that he cant do anything but rely on others#hes always needed help in basically every way and he hasnt CHANGED he just got a demon to do it for him#he learns to lie and charm and cheat and all the while hes a fucking CHILD WHO STILL STRUGGLES WITH NORMAL THINGS#ciel is my little baby and i love him deeply no matter how much of a little bitch he can be#his helplessness isnt just 'oh he was raised in british high society' its also that he never got the chance to learn anything#which to elaborate on that id also have to go into manga territory. iykyk#like absolutely at this point he just refuses to learn how to do things he has a pet demon to do it for him#but.#hi the phantomhives backstory is killing me again its so late#both atlantic and the school arc are just setup for the Big Arc but theyre very good in their own right i SWEAR#also when i rewatched the circus arc a while back and i realised how some scenes were shot#the heavy foreshadowing that i didnt realise. yk. 7 years ago or however long its been since i first watched it#CRAZY#if you are new. to kuroshitsuji. and you havent read the manga. dear god. read the manga#ALSO GRELLE IN THAT ARC IS SO BEAUTIFUL & OTHELLO IS TRANSMASCULINE. OKAY GOODBYE
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