#<- yeah this quote ALWAYS fucks me up

[sun-snatcher]

Catholic Guilt Murdock Catholic Guilt Murdock Catholic Guilt Murdock

✟ — Rib of Adam ; matt murdock blurb

a/n. " But when I stand before God I'll have one thing to say to weigh against the rest: Lord, you gave me a rare woman; And God! I loved her well. " — Jamie Fraser, 'Outlander'

MATT MURDOCK feels warm. 

He can’t tell if it’s from the blood, or—

“No, no, no, no, Matty, stay with me.”

—or the fact that you’re cradling him to your heart.

( He thinks of Father Lantom raising the Chalice of Salvation during Eucharistic Prayer. He thinks of the blood of the covenant; of forgiveness of sins.

He wonders if he’ll be forgiven. )

Matt tries to speak. 

The blood curdles thick in his throat, sputtering, and the pain ripples through his battered body again. It’s enough to make his senses tunnel into everything and nothing all at once; enough to send you into another desperate spiel of words too quick to follow. 

“Shh, shh, shh.” He hears you choke. “You’re, You're gonna be okay. Stay with me, Matthew, okay?”

Yes, he wants to answer. Always.

Matt wants—

( “And Jesus cried, ‘Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?'” Father Lantom sermons, “That is to say, 'My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?'” 

The verse is from Matthew-27:46. 

How ironic, Matt thinks, the first time he’d heard it. )

—to say everything. To tell you everything. To thank you, to apologise, to admit that if every single damn one of his universes ended with him being held in your hands— that it’d be a kindness. 

That if he is to be given a single chance, by some divine intervention, to rewrite history: He’d do it all over again the exact same way— without a shadow of a doubt; without any hesitation.

He would move mountains and dry the oceans and split the skies and scorch the earth. 

He would do everything. Anything.

( Penance. Absolution. Damnation. )

The ringing in his ears render your words softer and softer. Somehow, still, he thinks you sound beautiful even when panicked.

If you— his darling, dearest, beloved— are the last thing that the Daredevil hears before being condemned to whatever dark dominion the Lord will cast him to, then let it be known that it is Matt Murdock who will die a happy man.

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[starry-bi-sky]

I'm so annoyed. @kingcrow01 tumblr ate your ask about Danny's opinion on the League. tumblr i pressed 'save draft' why didn't you sAVE DRAFT.

ANyways I'm making a post instead. For everyone else, the ask was in summary:

What was Danny's opinion on the League now that he's left it? If he missed the familiarity of it, if he recognized the cult-like behavior inside it, and if he now detested his grandfather.

And to answer (again, grrr): It's complicated! We love complicated <3. Yeah, Danny does miss the familiarity of the League, it was still his home for the first ten years of his life and he has a lot of memories there. Plenty of good along with the bad, and while he's less homesick than he was when he was 10, it still hits him like a truck at random intervals.

Sam, Tucker, and Jazz are great, and he likes the Drs. Fentons enough that he's contemplated murdering Vlad for his meddling, but if he wants to eat the same food his mother used to make him and Damian, he has to do it himself and he can't get the taste right. No one knows arabic so he speaks it to himself because he doesn't want to forget his mother tongue, and he has a few books too. Frankly? He genuinely misses training.

Getting to use Sam's gym helps with his restlessness, same with training with Maddie, but he has no one on or above his level to go against other than his mother. And he only sees her twice a year at most. He knows that he's getting stagnant and he fucking despises it like a bad itch he can't scratch.

He feels conflicted about missing the League, however, since by now he recognizes the flaws and what was wrong with it, and he recognizes that it was cult-like. But even that is kinda, hrm, complicated? If this was a fic I would be able to go better into depth about what he has and hasn't unlearned because cult deprogramming is hard and Danny's doing most of this on his own.

Sam, Tucker, and Jazz have helped with the more obvious stuff: like the ecofascism, the disregard for human life, his emotional constipation; the more obvious stuff that shows in his behavior and personality. But none of them are professionals nor do they actually know the full extent of what Danny's life in the League was like. They only have snapshots since Danyal is very tight lipped about it. So they can only help with what they see themselves through Danny's behavior or word of mouth.

But in summary: He sees, for the most part, what's wrong with the League and disagrees with some of the stuff they do now. But he's very conflicted, and trying to dissect his feelings on the League confuses him. His protests about it whenever Sam and Tucker joke about it have at this point become mostly empty (altho it still causes him some discomfort), and its an inside joke between them three.

As for Ra's? Despises him. If only because Ra's wanted him to kill his little brother -- thinking about his motives with the League confuses Danny, cognitive dissonance and stuff, -- a lot of his hatred stems from "He wanted me to fight my baby brother to the death. I destroyed my relationship with Damian because of him, I had to fake my death and leave my home, and I will never meet my father or see my brother again because of him. Fuck that guy."

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

and just.... trent's little 'woof'........ will never ever ever ever ever be over this. ever. and every single time this happens i want to combust (positive) but especially that one tiny little woof. almost self conscious in how quiet it is, kinda small, but also deeply sincere and goofy. just this adorable helpless little Woof like he can't quite bring himself to join in properly in case he isn't welcome but also can't quite resist. the little smile after. someone kiss that man immediately

[tapewormsoda]

breakups are so fucking weird. three years and just like that it's gone. huh

[daddy-ul]

tour blurb

I can't say anything BC it's the same (almost) unit of measurement that I apply when I go to concerts.

Smsmksksa (not so much) joking aside, the mic unit of measurement is the most useful and obvious for the concert donut. I know they updated the number and positions of the mics,, so I am now kind of curious of the ratio drum riser/mics on the stage. Like there are 4 battle station on the donut, how many mics between every drum kit? This is a math problem due to monday

*coff* that said did they discussed it in tuning rooms etc bc lars asked James to stay in his line of site for the most of it?

But like, of course for stages like the one in Milan, it wasn't like that, even if it was smaller

[glamfellens]

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[t1erradelfuego]

something 2 be said about romances in the public eye ... Wahh

[troublcmakcrs]

//if i had a sp multi, it would consist entirely of characters nobody gives a shit about, like ned, thomas (le petit tourette), and GOD HIMSELF.

[elegyofthemoon]

4, 13, 24 for the song ask game

4. is from an underrated artist - "introduced species" by hands like houses idk if theyre underrated but its not like i ever see anyone talk about them jdjfjd honestly its between i the mighty and hands like houses for underrated artist but i love this song in particular about accepting your own differences from the norm. i prefer the acoustic though. if im feeling particularly Spicy then yeah sure the og version

13. should be in a movie - hmmm 'without you' by ursine vulpine... tragic couple scene one partner dying in the others arms and a montage of the other trying to get them back idk idk idk it has the cinematic drama to the song though

24. i want to be my theme song - ok ik i answered this w a different song but what if i said "look up" by stars? maybe it works better as a credit or insert song idk but i kinda like how the songs verses talk so much about some sorrows that the characters have but the chorus and the music itself holds some sense of hope and light. "rain is falling, looks like love" is probably my favorite line from the song, mostly bc it flashes me back to the oz alice scene where alice is dancing in the rain.... yeah also i grabbed this song as my theme bc it makes me think of oz and. well. oz.

[mbat]

i wish i could just consume the media with characters i relate to as bite sized snack. i want to see the characters that feel like reflections to me but theyre in the middle of long ass media most of the time. like got damn why cant you be a reeses cup

[nexus-nebulae]

dude my brain is so weird rn i turned my light off to sleep and my brain took the complete darkness and went alright well there's no environment here so clearly i must Make One and now every time i close my eyes i see a completely different bedroom

[diluc33rpm]

2/2 How long does it take you to fall in love with somebody?Is the sensation of ‘falling in love’ or ‘being in love’ better?

sorry i only fall up (clouds of spilt milk, but am i the cup)

[jasonborrowed]

Phantogram - You Don’t Get Me High Anymore (Official Music Video)

It just isn't fun, not like before, and you dont get me high anymore.....

[chron0ph0bia]

you parents constantly telling u the shit that you've been trying to unlearn surely is smth

[abyssalpriest]

From the Abyssal Heart: Bodies, 17/7/24

Channellings of points on the star, presuming the title Bodies can be put on this. Speaking of, all titles here are presumed, all details felt out and channelled, not specifically consciously translated into official forms

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(Hidden) Secret:

The unspoken, the core mystery.

The unknown driving, the scent of blood, the unspoken, intangible. The future tense of time.

Provides motivation, the expulsion of Time from and to the Black Hole, the driving force of recognition of Self and Other

Ideally knowingly placed above and below, both stood on and looked towards, both ignored and sought. Intelligent and purposeful seeking of the (Hidden) Secret requires understanding it as both grasped and never touched, and having it both ruling and inconsequentially overruled and ignored in life.

Community:

The collective soul, worship, support, communal thoughts and both giving and taking

The cohesion of the community, the communal bodies, the Leviathan as a collective of bodies

This goes beyond mere feelings, and is not found just in literal senses, instead being a tangible-intangible medium between

The collective, the external environment-body to be experienced and changed and lived in

Ideally supported, nourished, but sustained as both separate and unified. It is a creature of many different flavours of all things, including good and bad, and it will never be cohesive in conscious mind agreements. Ideally it should be understood like a body is - in that its vascular system and organs and such should be understood as things to be nurtured and that need nourishment, understanding the various ebbs and flows it experiences both beyond and containing conscious divisions.

Sacrifice:

Ritual, burden, portioning off that which is or could be had to be given to something else

What is done to sustain the community, to keep the collective body fed, as well as nourishing multiple parts of the self, environment, and community at once

Not necessarily about giving from the singular to feed the community, but what is done and given to perpetuate the community - including the individual. Includes sacrificing conscious peace of mind to accept what is needed.

This is the act of giving and letting go, as well as building, working, putting things from "unclassified" and "unused" into the category of "materials" and "used", as well as the harnessing of the things in use

Plays a key role in identities and roleplay, the sustaining of the community and the amplification of uses of resources through giving and taking in identity-based exchanges

Ideally consciously taken part in, as all these heading are. There is a time to give and a time to take, and those are paradoxically always. Feeding the community should feed the self, the self can be fed alongside the community, there are calls we all feel towards sustaining something(s) and those should be consciously interacted with and approached with openness. Sacrifice is the fire that keeps the village warm, and that nourishes the earth with ash.

(Revealed) Secrets:

Divine mystery/revelation, knowing innately

The knowledge that is lived, embodied, known by the self through both mind and matter - or transcending just conscious mind. The present and past sense of time.

Ideally sustained for power. This is a religion where canines forever circle around and with us, the nose is a sacred object just as the paws are, and they know the dirt better than our conscious minds. All types of knowing are knowing, and while the conscious mind is a tool and an innate part of the self not to be ignored, all minds, all knowledge, is valuable. Memory - including muscle memory - boundaries between self and past lives, self and other-than-human instincts, self and unconscious self, none of these barriers need to be barriers and can instead be individual eyes to see the world, and ideally the self should allow itself to encompass all parts of the self that enable and improve navigation through the world.

Self:

Identity, core self expression, the clothed body, the solar system around and including the sun

Not the True Self outside of and detached from Reality, but the living self. The individualised body, including tight-knit groups, it's the individual words in the dictionary as their own things with lives outside and inside the language.

The embodied self, the Mind and Matter dancing together, Ardhanarishvara, the self as a single thing even amongst multiplicity.

Ideally kept dancing, expressing, balanced with meditative being. There is no dichotomy between the soul and the body if one understands all as information, and there is no more real god between Consciousness and Matter. Both exist to know and be known, even if one seeks Consciousness above all else, existence in a body doesn't have to be perceived as a trap, instead ideally one should seek expression: Be Consciousness, express Matter, become Real.

Transformation:

Movement, surrender, metamorphosis

The surrender of states and selfhood and so on. If Sacrifice is using the ritual, this would be the ritual itself, the means, the candle that is burned in a spell.

The self in movement surrendered to the ritual, surrendered to change, but also wielding that change.

Ideally stepped into with bravery, understanding the time to ebb and flow conscious to subconscious to unconscious to un-self and back again. Understanding traversal, understanding the maps of existence, and using them to travel into the unknown, and in lieu of them using signs from both the environment and the True Self to navigate, is the ideal form of transformation

[lovecrazedpup]

i dont want to sleep