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Happy (late) Pride!!!
Ps. Lee was 6 years old when Big Mama rediscovered him. Before she found him, the staffs all refered to him as ‘the turtle’, ‘it’, or the occasional ‘she’ because of their only reference of turtle yokai, Frida, is female. When Mama had him examined, the doctor said he was assigned female. He was in the closet for about a couple year or so, and came out when he’s around 8. He’s currently 15 years old.
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#here's the promised trans lee comic!#super late but hey better late than never#haha#what no I’m totally not projecting#true colors au#v draws stuff#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#tmnt 2018#rottmnt leo#rottmnt leonardo#tmnt#tc au#rise leo#rise leonardo#tmnt leo#tmnt leonardo#trans leo#happy pride#rottmnt separated au#separated au#rottmnt au#rottmnt comic#rottmnt big mama#big mama#big mama rottmnt#leonardo#trans pride
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Kieran Culkin on Roman's playboy image and the way the actors/writers understanding of backstory fits together. (x)
#thought it might be interesting to throw this out there#I think “playboy” is sometimes used in connection with Roman by Jesse/Mark in a way that can be read as a split from Kieran's view#and that's totally fair#or it can be read as consistent in that that's the image Roman works to project#which i tentatively think may be the implication for what his life looked a little like pre-series but still thinking through that#I think that's what makes Roman so interesting to watch when he's in those party environments#he's clearly good at people in a way his siblings aren't#and he knows how to be in those spaces (even if there's a discomfort with drugs and sex)#see for example how he is with Lawrence in S1 and that he knew about Rhomboid#but at the same time that's clearly not all of Roman or even an accurate reflection of his internal life#and it's unclear how frequently he actually goes out#anyway I think the point is just that Roman is interesting haha#and I think both reads support the fake playboy thing and not like...a real one lol#roman roy#succession#cast interviews#hbo succession#kieran culkin
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Chase Headcanons
Chase eats things he shouldn’t. He once ate his science project out of pure curiosity.
#cinderella boy#cinderella boy headcanons#cinderella boy webtoon#headcanons#cinderella boy webtoons#chase headcanons#totally not projecting haha#Yes. I ate my science project.#Was it edible? That’s what I was trying to see.
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I love the idea of a disabled character taking too long or straight up not realizing they've been drugged because actually they feel like this very often
Brain fog? Vertigo? Muscle weakness? Drowsiness? Shame it happened during dinner. Eh, well there isn’t always an obvious trigger. Time to go lay down like usual
The drugger either intentionally taking advantage of this or doesn't know and is baffled that they aren't alarmed
#I need to look for more disabled whump#totally not so I can project haha what#whump#whump tropes#heroes and villains#drug whump#disabled whumpee#writing prompt#whump prompt#writeblr#whumpblr
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Is it weird I listen to depressing songs to increase my dopamine
HAHAHAHAH! WEIRD AS HECK, WHICH MEANS KEEP IT GOING! CAN'T GET ANY MORE DEPRESSED THAN THAT ANYWAY, AM I RIGHT?
#ooc: he's totally not self-projecting#and he totally didn't listen to depressing breakup songs after being dumped by ford#anyway i hope your ask wasn't serious haha dont take what bill says seriously#answered asks#gravity falls rp
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Transfem sanji, sure sure, I guess I get that-
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transmasc sanji with so much toxic masculinity because he was freshly trans and wanted to be seen as a man so badly and of course thinks theres only one way to be a man and that is to be a straight gentleman he eventually realizes hes bisexual and also through the Drag Queens learns he can also still like “girly” things like wearing dresses and makeup and still be able to be confident in his masculinity because WE NEED MORE TRANS MEN REALIZING THEY STILL KIND OF LIKE DRESSES BUT DONT WANT TO BE SEEN AS A GIRL! TRANS MALE FEMBOYS PLEASE
#one piece#sanji#black leg sanji#anyways-#totally not projecting idk what you’re talking about#haha gives sanji all my gender issues#but seriously- trans men able to wear fem things please#he/him men still allowed to be feminine and not go all ‘oh so youre a trans girl'#trans men wearing dresses without being accused of detransitioning#BECAUSE PLEAEE i need that#personally thats why i dont like transfem sanji#because what if him but transmasc learning he can still enjoy girly things#toxic masculinity BECAUSE hes trans
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not to project onto steve hardcore or anything but.... CW: health anxiety //
steve likes to think he’s self aware. he knows he has pretty intense health anxiety, has known it’s not normal to get so worked up over tiny symptoms since even robin (a chronic worrier) started giving him concerned looks when he asked her a couple times to feel his forehead in case he had a fever.
it’s embarrassing, really. but up until after the fourth almost-end-of-the-world, it had been manageable. something about almost dying for a fourth time had clearly broken something in his brain, because he can’t function anymore.
he can't let himself make plans ahead with the party because what if he doesn't feel good on the day? he can't go out to diners because what if the food isn't cooked right? what if he gets sick and has to use the public restroom at the diner? he can't cope with that, so he doesn't.
when eddie asks him over for a movie date, all steve can think about is what he’ll do if he gets sick while he’s there. what if eddie or wayne are sick and don’t know it yet? what if sharing movie snacks transmits something? and worst of all what if eddie wants to kiss him and he freaks out about the germs? so he avoids eddie too.
he doesn't want to avoid everyone, but he doesn't know what else to do. the anxiety feels more manageable in the comfort of his room where he knows where all the bathrooms are and the last time someone cleaned the place and he feels more in control.
it eventually gets to a point where steve is borderline agoraphobic. his relationship with food is awful because he can't eat without panicking about if he'll get sick. the party have mostly stopped trying to make plans with him. it scares him, the way his mind is collapsing in on itself.
his self-soothing habits are starting to feel more like obsessions and compulsions, and on the unlikely day that he does hang out with eddie or robin or dustin, he finds himself embarrassed by his own habits. eddie offers him food and he subtly checks the expiration date, because if he doesn't he convinces himself it's out of date. robin cooks chicken and steve tries to be nonchalant about the way he cuts into every piece to check it's properly cooked. dustin complains about a headache and steve has to stop himself from putting distance between him and the kid because what if dustin's sick?
eventually, eddie notices. he doesn't ask to hang out or go on a date, he just drives to steve's and knocks on the door until he's let in. steve's having a bad day (as usual) so his hair is unstyled, his eyes are a little bloodshot, and the knock at the door interrupts his pacing back and forth in the living room. he tries to tone it down when he lets eddie in and sits on the couch with him, puts a hand on his bouncing leg to try and stop the habit, gets himself a safe glass of water so he has something to do with his hands that makes the shaking less obvious, and avoids eye contact with eddie because he knows the moment he does that he'll break.
"sweetheart." eddie says gently, and steve hesitantly looks up. he doesn't quite make eye contact, but he still sees eddie's distraught expression. "what's going on?"
as he asks the question, eddie reaches out for his hand and gives it a squeeze. predictably, steve breaks. because what is going on?
#totally not projecting onto steve haha#i can't write the getting help bit idk what that looks like#steve harrington#steve harrington angst#eddie munson#steddie#steddie ficlet#steve harrington needs a hug#mywriting
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I have a quick question what do mirrored pronouns mean?
it means referring to someone with the same pronouns you'd use for yourself! imagine it like a mirror reflecting your pronouns back at you... thanks for asking :-)
#im agender & dont rly feel attached to any one set of pronouns. but when i used any pronouns it made me feel weird to be subject to other#ppls perceptions of my gender every time they decided how to refer to me...#I like mirrored pronouns atm bc it feels like inviting someone to perceive you in the same way they perceive themselves 🫴#so it makes me feel less 'other-ed' as I'm not being made explicitly aware of what internal biases ppl are projecting onto me 😵💫#I mean of course ppl will always have their own perceptions n thats cool I dont expect to be understood#and idrc how total strangers decide to gender me in random encounters. but if ppl do want smth to refer to me with then this is whats#currently most comfortable for me! altho no pronouns are necessarily 'wrong' its nicer to feel like I'm not making it other ppls choice#hope that makes sense... im very tired haha#.asks
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What kind of music do you enjoy? 👀 I’m simply curious lol
I am quite the fan of classical music. I play the violin myself, but I also like the piano. Although I find myself enjoying some melancholic modern music from time to time.
#ooc: GUYS WHAT IF HE LIKED MITSKI#ooc: totally not projecting haha#malleus draconia#twisted wonderland#twst rp#malleus draconia rp#twst roleplay#malleus's letters#twst#twst malleus
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Silly goofy StanNarrator (Patreon)
#Doodles#The Stanley Parable#TSP#Silly mode leftover doodles from my alt notebook#I wasn't as concerned with making these finished or pretty but they did turn out cute >:3c#Since I've established that Sinister thinks in images the next logical step is imagining the Narrator - and he hates that ✨#He is not made to be perceived! He is an imageless entity! A total enigma! Lol#If we as an audience can imagine what a Narrator might look like - to the best of our abilities - I don't see why Stanley wouldn't#Even if he's not Exact - personally I don't think it matters lol the Narrator isn't /meant/ to have a fixed form imo - it's still flustering#You give him so much material to work with Narra! To imagine what face you might make or your body language#Or worst yet when he plays with the mental projection like a doll - much like what the Narrator does to Stanley hehehe#How does it feel to be ''made'' to do things that wouldn't reflect you! It's an interesting role reversal that works within their confines#Also makes me wonder how much Narra would play into it haha - if Stanley ''flipped him upside down'' would he get dizzy? Even a little?#To what degree is he real! To what degree is Stanley real if he's not being interacted with!! The themes!!!! <3#Anyway lol ♪ Silly Stanley noise chart for funsies#There are a lot of sounds humans can make with their mouths even discounting vocal cords - I could definitely see him doing verbal stims#Who me projecting again? Psh no anyway (lol)#And then some kisses! This is my first time drawing my versions kissing!!! Which actually solidified a new headcanon for the Narrator haha#Because he (ostensibly) needs his mouth to narrate he doesn't like kisses on the mouth :) He weak to it!#Doesn't stop Sin from enjoying kissing him lol - it's a good way to shut up him In Case of Power Play#But sometimes♪ he'll try to respect his wishes - not all the time tho haha
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Over 5 hours and for what 💀
For it to not even be done agsgshdnns but honestly? I can go with the hair the way it is so a win is a win
#This is roughly how it should look??? Now I need to redo it so I can do it properly#I do not and never understood how shading works agshshsj#If is not obvious I'm working on a Attack on Titan x Stardew Valley thingy lol. Already have the background for each character#And the places where they do live and stuff#God knows who's the farmer tho#Anyway doing Eren was a pain in the ass and I had Elliott to model over 💀#What have I signed myself into???#Anyway it looks nicer than I expected. Color wise I mean#I was going to do the manbun Eren at first but ummmm that's too complicated for me haha homeless Eren it is#this is just for fun#Like I'm not doing any mod for the game or anything. Just a little project to pass the time#I don't know why I feel like he would randomly punch me in the face#Watching him now I'm annoyed I didn't think to make him live in the tent in Linus's place#Missed opportunity. Mikasa and Armin would totally sneak some food to him#I forgot about Linus's tent#this annoys me so much#... I guess I didn't add Porco... He could live in the tent if he wants
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#sometimes u have a day thats just so. i cant even. its seems 2023 is my year of rage#directionless rage. i guess im mad at me but instead of being directed inward it just goes out into empty space#im just fucking. im at my saturation point#its a good thing i stopped taking measurements yesterday and went to the store tomorrow bc im so fucking#mostly bc i noticed a problem with the code for a paper that is fucking less than a day away from being locked in on acceptance#and now its like fucking i have to go through and change a lot and im also less than 48hrs away from another massive project starting#that will occupy my whole fucking waking nightmare of a life. so its a good thing im level headed. its a good thing i can accept my fuck#ups with honestly. bc im so fucking. ive had it. im up to fucking here with everything and i just want it to be done#im fucking full of bitterness and black bile and i want to break things. and whose fault is it? fucking mine#bc im too fucking exhausted constantly all the time to fucking pay attention to what im doing and notic that a fucking function isnt#working properly. fuck u fuck u fuck u. so what r we gonna do abt it?#idk well see what my boss says. i already texted her that news and its good bc at least i caught it but god its so fucking irritating#god. will i b told off for this? maybe. i probably deserve it. haha if so that will send me for an absolute tailspin. i cannot stand to#feel ive done something wrong. even when i kno i have. last time i had a total freakout meltdown and made v bad choices and that wasnt even#this bad. so its a good thing im currently fairly stable bc the desire to make bad choices is very strong#im just so sick and tired of everything and i want to let things implode bc im vindictive against myself. but we must not do that we must#be reasonable. so idk we may have to withdraw the paper. whatever i dont give a fuck. itll get accepted elsewhere. i dont fucking care#leave me alone to dissolve into the dirt and set my data ablaze to be helpful to no one. erase my Prospective impack. i don't fucking care#anyway today sucked. i might have to stay up all night trying to fix this. ensuring that i fuck up the start of the looming project yayyyyy#i hate it here. i stopped having fun over a year ago#itll b fine. im just fucking. im full im impotent rage#unrelated
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ritsu has the flavor of nd where he went undiagnosed for years bc his sibling's autism was much more obvious to people so he slipped through the cracks
#source: me#my sibling's sensory issues were much more obvious than any of my stuff#so she got diagnosed with sensory processing disorder#but bc I wasn't as obvious with my symptoms I never got diagnosed with anything#and didn't realize I might have something going on until high school lol#and I think the same goes for ritsu#bc mob's autism is much more visible#and ritsu's like ''well I don't have the same things going on as my brother so I guess I must be neurotypical''#<- clueless. dumbass doesn't realize autism is a spectrum#it doesn't even occur to him that he might be nd until he's dealing with a sensory overload#and shou is like ''dude have you ever talked to anyone about your sensory issues?'' ''my what?'' ''oh my god.''#personally i think ritsu is in the weird gray zone between autism and ocd#I'm totally not projecting at all haha what are you talking about <3#also I think him masking a lot fits into the theme with him having to fit into roles other people assigned to him and hiding his true self#part of him learning to be more honest about himself involves him not masking as much. peace and love#anyway welcome to sol's Ritsu Thoughts Hour#time to go back to getting ready to post a fic where I put him through hell👍
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as a super duper occasional, casual, only-dips-my-toes-into-the-waters- type sonic 'mcu' enjoyer (who honestly completely neglected this fixation for a really long while), i genuinely did not realize how many people actually dislike the 3rd movie already. which, i totally get and respect the opinion, but at the same time also seems crazy to me lmao
#personal#sonic movies#RAMBLE IN THE TAGS#i thought we were all hyped for this#and then i opened tumblr and its a fucking warzone#<- /lh#i personally see movie adaptations as their own seperate entities and ignore them since theyre not canon anyway#so i honestly dont really care that its not a 1:1 translation of the game story and more like its own thing#this is sonic wachowski‘s story.. yall get me?#as long as the visuals are good and i can point at the screen every two seconds and laugh 'HAHA I GET THAT REFERENCE' i will be totally fine#and i like to see the actors having fun on this project#that being said#i wholeheartedly encourage criticism!!!!! esp directed to huge companies!!!!!!!#so its been interesting to read through some rambles on here. keep doing what youre doing#awesomesauce!#okay thats it for the tags
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ouhh sculpting is absolutely my enemy. but i persevere
#txt#nendo.txt#im chipping away at my third nendo project but sculpting how i want is SO hard#well its not .. horribly hard its just kind of tedious#bc i have to wear gloves for safety reasons n it makes it harder to sculpt the longer im.working#so the longer i work the clay starts drying out and then the gloves get messy and its just OUH#this one needed a lot of smallll small sculpted parts too#little stud earrings hoodie strings hoodie patches#and you can tell in the picture that i did NOT get consistent sizes on those patches HAHA but#tbh it doesnt matter cuz only one of those will be on the body at a time#the hair actually was pretty close to begin with and the sculpt i ended up with looks pretty accurate? so#happy with it even tho it was a huge struggle hah#but you can tell how small these are. theyre on my cutting mat with inch markers. theyre tine#tiny *#and im like. placing a blob of clay on these tiny arms and slicing away at them with my#way too big xacto knife until it kind of looks like the right shape#the first star i made was the best and also smallest snd it just got harder lolol#i also had to fill in a big hole in the top of the head cuz the original figure had#the little uhh. ? hair poofs. what are those AHOGE. two ahoges one on the front piece one on the back#which was too many . so i pulled out the back one#qnywqy hi#i dont take as many progress pics or posts with these as i did with the first cuz#im not rly a Poster and i just like working im not as big on doing updates ^^#but rest assured i am still making nendos and i love doing it#downside of sculpting also is that once i start im in clay purgatory until i finish#cant change videos or apps on my.phone cant check or reply to messages#well maybe its not totally a bad thing to just disconnect and work eith my hands for a while
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red dead redemption 2 spoilers below
genuinely just bawled my eyes out and cried so hard i was hiccuping over arthur morgan red dead... only way for me to survive this game is to make an arthur that lives in my brain so that i can tell him hes loved and not alone and wonderful in every way and watch the sun rise and set together.............. he cant die alone. im with him. he isnt dead. hes alive. hes happy. he has a loving family. there is a good ending.
#godDAMMIT gotta add another sad man whose older than me but i consider a friend but also more like a son whom i love platonically to my list#i am not lusting over arthur#he is my friend and i care for him#god i need more fix it fics#FUCK#my boah... someone hold his hand and tell him he did well#TELL HIM HES NOT ALONE ON THAT MOUNTAIN#IM HERE FOR YOU#they did so good writing him that i genuinely have never felt like a character was real#crying because it feels real and lots of people seem to relate too#im not projecting my desire to see people happy and live happily ever after what#i totally dont do that ever to any other of my fav characters what no haha#i cant do this#rivera writes#rivera shut up hes not real
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