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Y'all have heard of "making an OC for a game that hasn't been released yet", now get ready for "making an OC for a game that doesn't even exist (yet)!"
Playing Slay the Princess last night re-invigorated my interest in a hypothetical third Pathfinder cRPG protagonist. She's a Child of the Manticore shifter who, when her shifter aspect is active, looks an awful lot like the Princess' Witch form (in my head, obv.) Her background is River Kingdoms Daredevil. She was raised in a Lamashtan cult family, though she has complicated feelings towards the goddess herself and leans more Calistrian (if she were to be a companion her quest would probably revolve around pushing her more towards one of the two's direction.) She's a little gremlin who collects shiny and pretty things like a magpie. Her name is Tatjana. She definitely doesn't fit in WOTR. She's probably not going to ever exist and I love her.
Anyways...
#headcanons and oc lore#oc: tatjana#*manifesting*#thank you for indulging my delusion#making ocs is fun even if you never get to play them#<- thing i tell myself to cope#anyways i wrote a bit in the next two microstories but my brain feels like swiss cheese again#so now i'm gonna go play stp again
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#a man who DESERVES A SLICE OF PIE
#mobius#owen wilson#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#loki#loki spoilers#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs#for y'alls sake some ep4 moments instead of a hundred gifs of him being silly and kind over the course of the series but#please stop writing characters to exist solely for conflict when they don't have a leg to stand on ;;;;;#so it's fine to get a jump on refilling the straw machine while the timelines are in constant danger but pie during a break crosses a line#okay sure tell me more 💀💀#of COURSE he has coping mechanisms when the comfort and kindness he naturally extends is rarely returned#free will for all utilized as someone else says?? idc i wouldn't look myself up either and he shouldn't be pressured to#she's only even able to yell at him bc some of the first things he's done since pushing past brainwashing have been saving her life 🙃#ANYWAY peace and love on earth when the dilf of all time is a sweetheart who takes responsibility for his actions 🥰💖#marvel#loki s2 spoilers
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rdr2 au where certain events on the mountain don’t happen and Arthur lives out the rest of his time left safely and peacefully surrounded by his loved ones … and he gets a comfy bed also
#i.e. things I am telling myself to Cope……#ghrhhwhgwh this game .. oh my heart#my art#arthur morgan#charles smith#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#charthur#rdr2 fanart#red dead redemption#rdr2 arthur#rdr2 charles#digital artist
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Guilty Challenge but he also got stuck
#haha radio silence only to come back with Genshin oop#Hi I love Itto#He's rly rly fun to draw and im mad at myself for not drawing enough of him#I've been going through months of burnout and demotivation when it's come to art due to various things happening in life#only now am I feeling the desire to draw again#idk or maybe it's also coping with my last sem of school lol#Anyway I wanna draw things tht interest me again#It'll be nice to get back into the ease of uploading too...but man social media's daunting and tiring hghfgf#man does drawing Itto's canon body bnring me joy#his canon body that clearly not been nuked in game#canon buff idiot that's canon to me and you cant tell me otherwise#im not in denial shut#genshin impact#arataki itto#guilty challenge#redraw#10 points and a head pat to those who know where the 2nd pose comes from#taemin guilty
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butch dyke but in a limp wristed fruit way
#decided to cope with my butch insecurities by telling myself. even when im feminine it's in a Boydyke Way. you know#sometimes i literally catch myself doing the limp wrist thing djfkgm#gray.txt#butch tag
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[punches the wall] the tv show has a limited runtime and your favorite moments from the campaign will likely not be included [punches the wall] the tv show has a limited runtime and your favorite moments from the campaign will likely not be included [punches the wall] the tv show has a limited runtime and your favorite moments from the campaign will likely not be included [punches the wall] the tv show has a limited runtime and your favorite moments from the campaign will likely not be included [punches the wall] the tv show has a limited runtime and your favorite moments from the campaign will likely not be included [punches the w
#if i think about how the raven queen/percy convo will probably be cut out and i will start weeping#if i think about how the show has fumbled percy and keyleth's friendship i will start projectile vomiting blood#it's FINE#i am FINE#they are TELLING A DIFFERENT STORY and the SHOW IS VERY WELL DONE and I AM ENJOYING IT A LOT except for when#i REMEMBER MY FAVORITE THINGS FROM THE CAMPAIGN AND HOW THEY WON'T GET PUT IN THE SHOW and i DIE#i need to turn off my campaign brain knowledge this is fucking killing me THE SHOW IS SO GOOD AND FUN#except for the fact MY FAVORITE PARTS OF THE STORY ARE NOT THERE i need to shoot myself#hell on earth#cr#cr1#tlovm spoilers#my fellow percy keyleth enjoyers is it coping too far to think they will start developing their friendship after percy and vex get together#bc they were too afraid of ppl shipping percy and keyleth so they had to wait#is that coping too hard#am i just crazy
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how do people even find partners. i dont want a bullshit answer, like really
#maybe im intimidating but no one has been interested in me#its just. rough#and i cant force myself to like anyone romantically if i dont feel compatability#i just want to be cared about in an exclusive way that friendship alone cant fix#i dont post abt this often but i got no sleep so yall gotta deal#its um. crushing sometimes#i dont even know if im aro as cope. once i did THC im more emotionallt aware and its. haha#the people around me tell me things that make me feel like im a catch and i feel it myself but NO ONE has advanced#and ive only felt attracted to one person in my life. who was taken ofc#im not sure it wouldve worked out good though anyway since im more emotionally mature#but it was because he expressed genuine care towards me and made me feel good about myself in honest ways i havent heard from anyone#and made me feel important to him#so im really at a loss#and also our conversations flow really smooth and we agree on many things that we find important#are there any extroverts that confidently wear their hearts on the sleeves and try to bring joy that want me#someone sensitive to my needs#my needs of which are actually very very basic#hi
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i have officially returned. ask me anything.
#random thoughts#i'll probably answer it tomorrow because i'm tired. i don't know why.#ciel if you see this i've been nicer to myself these past few days following your birthday. taking care of myself in general aspects.#which i sort of hate myself for but it's okay because. uh. i won't be like this forever. i'll be better at what i'm trying to do i promise.#new year's resolution is not fucking with me.........#oh also!! i've been sort of feeling like a dead person at times. and also like a cockroach. i have had to repeatedly tell myself that#i'm not dead i'm not dead!!!!#because i'm not. obviously. and i know i'm not. my brain is just silly. it likes to tell me i am things i am not like book characters.#and recently my mother got me my own rosary and we've been practicing praying together with my brother.#can you imagine how bad it must be for me to turn to christianity as a coping mechanism? not even when i was terrorized with death thoughts#not even in august for fuck's sake.#but it's actually not that bad. though i think i like the idea of organized religion more than i like being a part of it.#also i feel like my being catholic (mostly non-practicing) is betraying the queer community somehow. like. queer people have suffered#so much because of the christian church in general. so it's like. being christian is weird when i'm also queer.#but also then i feel weird when i try to do things in relation to christianity. like. put saint in my artist name.#that feels blasphemous i don't know. is it?????? it's not that serious either way but. augh.#i am going to write a song about this. also fellow christians is it okay to use the lyric 'uselessly clutching her rosary' or is that bad?#because i mean. technically. the she i'm referring to sort of is. because god isn't solving any of our problems.#he's just fucking. watching. if he's even real.#(and no my disappearance isn't related to the catholicism thing it's something else. as in the one thing i haven't told anyone else but cie#and an irl friend. if you are ciel then i am completely open to talking about said thing.#otherwise i will continue to drop cryptic little notes on my blog because I AM SILLY. {: )#going to play roblox now and maybe say hello to you fuckers on discord for a bit of fun. goodbye.
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New Coping Strategy Achieved
If you sleep fifteen hours a day, there's less time to be stressed
#this is not medical advice#coping#stress#ptsd#things i tell myself as i go for another nap#did#OSDD#actuallydid#actuallyosdd
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Actually fuck it I've been so inactive on here for the past 3 weeks im gonna start yapping.
#vi rambling#METAPHOR REFANTAZIO IS ON MY BRAIN OKAY. OKAY#uhm uhm. such a stellar fucking cast . the music is insane. i have very strong opinion on the story that i will probably keep to myself#but im rotating it in my brain. and by it i mean a lot of things#among which are GALLICA AND THE MC. THEYRE SOOOO!!!!#and FUCKING MR LOUIS GUIABERN. incredible fucking antagonist#and most importantly THE MAGNUS BROTHERS. FUCKKKKK MY LIFE. would perhaps kill for basilio... made me insane#and of course strohl. head in hands#anyways as you can tell im normal and coping really well with having to do so much that i really do not want to#but uhhhrhhrm its ok. its chill . i dont have much left for the degree
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I will be the first to admit my empathy for Carmy probably runs deeper than it should, but please never mistake that for any kind of approval of his actions. I think part of this season is yes obviously about the way Carmy's actions impact everyone around him but also the ways in which everyone around him is at a loss of how to help. It seems like they're all painfully aware that with where he is Carmy is the only one who can help himself. In that he is the only one who can decide to get better and that is a challenging place to be in as an observer, loved one etc. I don't think Carmy even believes he deserves to get better. Forget providing amusement and enjoyment, he doesn't think he deserves to live without panic attacks and nightmares. Until he can realize he needs to want that, nothing will change. I go back and forth because so much of Carmy's behavior makes sense to me in ways I wish it didn't, but I am far enough removed and healed enough to clearly see how horrible he's acting. I think that's the dominant feeling that sits in my chest when thinking about this season.
I wish he could at the barest minimum realize this didn't start with Claire and it clearly didn't end there. Maybe he does realize and he doesn't want to consciously accept it. I don't know. The dissonance and feeling of I don't know how to feel is what I keep returning to. I'm too close to this. Too many mirrors, but empathy will never outweigh my ability to recognize the horrors he wrought on others and himself.
#the bear#intellectually i understand separating myself from this is probably better but#here we are#it's unfortunately also the only thing bringing me comfort#i know that's fucked up please dont tell me#pay no mind to the maladaptive coping mechanisms in the corner
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a modern human au where nothing bad ever happenned to them and they got to grow up together. I am making myself cry with this chat
#north is sad and beige and would have a stupid phone case#also i did a watermark thingy because im such a cool ans serious artist look at me#BTW !!!!! first thing im posting thats drawn on my new tablet :3#north has beige mom energy. idk how i feel about it. im just leettinf it happen#yall have no idea i am SHAKING im so normal about them#i need to get to work on. everything about this. bc i really wanna finally be able to coherebtly tell their story#im very insane about them and THE THEMES !!!!!!!#ARGHHHHH#anyways#murl draws#murls ocs#oc#my oc#oc art#art#my art#artists on tumblr#whatever other tags there are#just you wait. i will make this into something coherent#ughhhg i cant. i need to cope ok#and its smth i myself made up wtf !!!!!#imagine being separated from your sibling who is your whole world at a young age and spending the next several decades being told theyre a#a traitor and eventually hunting them down only to discover that while you werw kept in a bubble where everything stayed the same the rest#of thw world has changed so much including your sibling and you realize the only person you could rely on these past few decades has been l#lying to you and now youre completely unajusted to life and have to deal with the fact everything isnt what you thiugjt it was AND EVERYRHJ#G CHABGED IT CHANGED !!!! CHANGE IS INEVITABLE AND YOU HAVE TO FOR THE FIRST TIME VE FACED WITH LIVING FOR YOURSELF AND DISCIVERING WHO YOU#ARE AS A PERSON HHHHHHHHH I CANTTTT.#i dont event have all the names for characters yet GAHHHHH
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bitches be like. i hate vegans so much that i’ve decided i like killing animals and its fine and i dont feel bad and animals dont have feelings and its fine and im cool subversive and different and edgy and like to post fucked up stuff to make vegans uncomfortable bc im just so cool
#you sound like every cishet republican man to me#you're not a Cool Subversive Leftist you're literally regressing by seeing animals as just objects of your pleasure and thats it lmao#im sorry but you dont just get to throw out all of veganism. it does infact have some roots in leftism.#you can sit there and cope with the fact you agree w some vegan talking point by calling it 'animal welfare' all you want#doesnt change the fact that a lot of those ideas in those circles were formed by vegans.#damn woooah vegans arent a monolith and dont all agree on the same shit woooahhh who knew#literally i have no idea how we even got to this point or how this would be surprising.#when i was on vegan twitter bitches were arguing all the fucking time within it. ur really gonna sit ther en tell me they're all secret#eco fash that hates native ppl and people who have to eat meat? ya sure???#you would think the individuals on tumblr- of all places- would understand how frustrating it would be to be grouped in with the worst#members of their community as if you represent them and are the sole spokesperson#you'd think they'd hate when someone jumps to conclusions about them based on their lifestyle#but naur. i think yall take it too personally. as if a vegan just being in a room is somehow trying to force you to be vegan.#literally grow tf up.#if a vegan being in the same room with you triggers feelings in you that you Have to stop eating meat- i really think thats a you problem#bud. homeboy hasnt even spoke to you leta lone look at you and apparently you feel this weird pressure now#idk man dont you think that pressure might be coming within?? maybe.... you do infact feel things and feel a lil guilty abt eating meat?#not telling you to stop... i still eat meat here n there. but at least im honest with myself about how it makes me feel to do it.#its infact normal to take a second to think about the loss someone made in exploitation to provide you with whatever.#if you can let yourself feel a lil guilt about buying a fast fashion thing you can sure as fuck finally extend your fuckin empathy to#animals and stop treating them like objects or toys.
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having arfid is like if someone diagnosed you with "hates poop disorder" then told you that you either have to start eating bowls of horse diarrhea with human nail clippings in it or you die. that would fucking suck now wouldn't it
#personal#arfid#avoidant restrictive food intake disorder#i have found the ''you live in a world in which all food is literal shit and ppl keep tryin to convince you its actually really good#and acting like youre the unreasonable one for hating it'' metaphor to be quite effective in explaining how my life feels to other ppl#its so annoying when ppl act like im stupid for not jumping at the bit to torture myself for some vague dream#of recovery or whatever#i have ways to cope! i have foods i can eat and other things i can do to keep myself alive!! there is no point torturing myself#trying to be more 'normal' 😒#idc how much u condescendingly tell me how a balanced diet is good for me#i dont want to eat the horse diarrhea. i dont care what vitamins it will give me. i am surviving without it#i do not see any benefit to torturing myself for years just to gain slight resistance to it#let me beeee
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#just reflecting:#wading into preverbal or early childhood trauma where I had so so so few words or concepts to work with#is SO HARD#because there’s SO little to find or connect with via my adult coping and processing pathways#because I CANNOT describe and verbally explain#I didn’t have words for it then#so it didn’t get stored using terms or words#so I can’t put words to it because it’s sensations and knowings and fleeings and captures that I may never have words to explain to someone#can’t sit and process it by telling it as a story to myself or anyone else#because there’s no story#my body knows things but the only ways it can tell them are tension and sensation and motion and charade#there weren’t words so they didn’t get stored with words#they can’t be accessed with words (although sometimes a piece will flood out through them)#and so I have to do dance or do repetitive hard work or do art to interface with them#but that’s so exhausting#and so much scarier#because the last layer of protection is gone#I can’t even remotely twist or soften memories with my choice of one word or cadence over another.#my body dictates the cadence of movement. my senses dictate the layers of paint on a page#they are incapable of lying#unfortunately I am sometimes also incapable of currently processing and accepting the things they are incapable of lying about#cest la vie#lol#shh katie
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okay maybe I should seriously reconsider my path in life and sell my soul to marketing or journalism instead
#okay venting in the tags you are very welcome to ignore or not respond to it i just need to yell somewhere#i always thought id be an art therapist because well i care about people and want to help them and love art#but everyday i wake up feeling like a fraud and an imposter so like. should i really be doing all that when im not entirely#certain i cpuld handle it??? like i know i haven't gotten the meaty bit of the education towards that yet but like#university costs a disgusting amount of money here and if i pick the wronf thing im likely doomed forever thanks to awful government#i know things could get better like they did after thatcher but honestly im not putting any bets on it considering how the current labour#party is so like if i fuck up here im basically dead#also can i actually do art uni. like could i cope with that. im deeply unethused with art at the moment and honestly will i evwr be#idk#it was jusr a thing i always did but education around it is fucking soul sucking#also the emotional weight of hearing and solving people's problems as a therapist. i would consider myself quite empathetic for the most#part i feel other people's pain quite strongly and obviously as a therapist id be feeling that quite a bit so could i actually cope with it?#ik therapists have therapists but still#i mean im doing work experience at an occupational therapy place so ill just be extra inquisitive about it all to make sure im going#the way i wanna#I'll be fine by the end of a levels ill probably understand what i want in life#if not then gap year to work it out#should probably look at unis for english language too then#sigh#ucas website i may as well marry you#ill be okay im getting in my head about stuff im actually pretty good at art even if there are things i can improve on (like patience lol)#yeah maybe the voice telling me i suck doesnt know shit and should shut up#yeah#shut it nasty voice you're wrong actually!!! im doing just fine and you're being overly critical#they should make a brain that's your friend and not mush that hides the amalgamation of every bad thing ever in its crevices#crevices shoyild be filled with kindness and love.#sex jokes about that#why the fuck is yahoo mail syncing i dont use you you washed up search engine#bue waffling#vent post
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