#<- not exactly bc they actually took steps to protect themselves but. did they really think there wouldn’t be retaliation?

[foxpile]

jeremy and cat and laila are so smart so much of the time but i cannot believe they the didn’t go “huh. crazy how our address got leaked right after jean nearly threw jeremy’s brother through a car windshield and we bribed our neighbors into silence about it. surely there is no correlation. i wonder who could have told the press.” like jeremy. babe. you noticed that your brothers car was missing from your parents house when it shouldn’t have been and then immediately found a drawing of a guillotine on the door of jean, laila and cats home. man i wonder who could have done that. truly a mystery.

[loove-persevering]

I Know You (JJ x Reader)

Description: [Request] Hi! I was wondering if you could do a jj imagine where you’re in an argument and he raises his hand and you flinch bc you think he’s gonna hit you, and it makes him tear up.

I LOVEEE writing for JJ! Hope you all enjoy! 

 JJ was a force to be messed with, that was just a quick way of how to describe him. He would always stick up for his friends in a time of need no matter the cost on his behalf. So when you were at work bussing tables you knew that JJ and the rest of your friends had headed down to a party at the beach. Of course you wanted to come with but you had to earn some cash for a car so you didn’t have to bike everywhere. 

 When you finally got off on your break you had multiple text from people claiming your boyfriend was batshit crazy. Confused you kept reading through them when you finally found one about how he had first held Topper at gun point and then shot it off multiple times. Even though you were pissed you went back to work finishing off your shift, now you were on your bike heading to John B’s house knowing that is exactly where JJ would be hiding out now. 

When you pull onto the dirt road finally seeing the lights on in the house and the van parked off to the side you knew that he was here. You jump off your bike letting it fall to the ground making your way inside, you don’t even bother knocking at this point. ‘’Hello?’’ You say when you walk in not seeing them in the living room. ‘’JJ?’’ You call out. ‘’John B?’’ 

You sigh walking through every room of the house and not finding them anywhere opening every door hoping to find your boyfriend. The last place you could check was out back on the small dock, so you make your way out pushing against the screen door and heading out back. When you finally found the four of them huddled around back you saw them all breath a sigh of relief when they notice it was you, more than likely expecting the cops. 

‘‘Expecting someone else?’‘ You ask staring straight at JJ. They all shake their head no, ‘’Cops maybe?’’ You ask. 

‘‘What did you hear?’‘ Pope asks his head falling against his hands resting them on his knees. 

‘‘Just that my boyfriend held someone at gun point tonight,’‘ You say simply and JJ groans turning around on his heels, ‘‘And that he shot the gun off multiple times!’‘ You yell out making sure he heard you. 

‘‘It was twice,’‘ He says turning back around. 

‘‘Twice?’‘ You say crossing your arm, ‘‘That’s not too bad I guess.’‘ When you look up JJ was looking at you shocked, ‘‘Oh wait, it actually is bad because you aren’t suppose to have a gun in the first place!’‘ You yell at him. ‘’I mean what the hell JJ, a gun? Where did you even get it?’’ You ask him. 

 You hear a whistle and glance over seeing John B standing up from where he was sitting, ‘’Think we should give the two love birds some time alone,’’ He says patting his knees with his hands. ‘’Let’s go,’’ He mouths to Kie and Pope. They all look at you on the way out but your gaze stays on JJ who was completely avoiding yours. 

‘‘Can you just-’‘ You pause holding your hand to your head, ‘‘Can you just explain what you were thinking?’‘ You ask him. ‘‘Where did you even get a gun?’’

‘‘I found it,’‘ He says shrugging his shoulders nonchalantly. You glance at him knowing there was more to the story than just that. He groans his head falling back looking up to the sky, ‘’John B and me we found a key to this hotel room and-’’

 ‘’You broke in?’’ You yell completely taken back. 

He scrunches up his face, ‘’I mean we had a key,’’ He says simply. You could already tell this story was going to be too much to handle, ‘’We found the key and we went to tell the guy about his boat-’’ 

‘’His boat? What about his boat?’’ You ask. He sighs, ‘’Just start from the beginning.’’ 

 ‘’We were out on the water today and we found a sunken boat, John B went down and found a key.’’ He begins. ‘’We decided to go to that hotel to check it out and it was empty and we found a bunch of cash and the gun and the cops came and so we had to hide.’’ He tells you, your eyes widening at the mention of the cops. ‘’Hold on-’’ He says holding up his finger to you, ‘’Before you say anything, they took money themselves too, I don’t know anything about why they were there!’’ He says. 

You walk over sitting down in the chair next to the fire, ‘’What happened at the beach?’’ You ask him trying to stay calm. 

‘’Topper was being a dick to John B and we just offered sara a drink, and Topper started drowning him talking about his dad,’’ He begins to say and you fell a little more sympathetic knowing JJ had only the best intentions to protect his friend. ‘’If I hadn’t I’m not sure what would’ve happened.’’ He says bringing his hands to the front of his body fumbling with his hands. 

You stand up walking over to JJ, ‘’You have to go turn the gun in JJ,’’ You sigh. 

‘’Why?’’ He asks sounding slightly offended.

‘’Why? Because JJ! If cops were there, it must be a crime scene or something!’’ You explain to him. ‘’If they find out you were there and took a gun-’’ You start off but JJ’s facial expression says something else, ‘’You did only take a gun right?’’ You ask. 

 ‘’Some cash too,’’ He says shyly. 

‘‘Dammit JJ!’‘ You groan, ‘‘What is wrong with you? Why would you tamper with something like that?’‘ You ask him. ‘‘You could go to jail- you all could!’‘ You tell him. 

 ‘’You don’t think I know that!’’ He says his voice growing louder. He laughs in disbelief kicking a rock out of the way. 

‘‘You held a guy at gun point tonight JJ, a kook to be exact! You don’t think that anythings going to come of that?’‘ You ask him. ‘‘I know Topper is a dick but-’‘

‘‘He was drowning John B!’‘ He yells. ‘‘Drowning him-’‘ He yells waving his arms in the air gesturing to inside the house, ‘‘The things he was saying, the way he was holding him-’‘ He tells you. 

‘‘You couldn’t knock him down? Pull him off? You had to hold a gun to his head? There was no other option?’‘ You ask. 

He groans again taking a step forward, it happened so quickly you felt yourself flinch thinking his hand was going to hit you when he was waving it around, ‘’He was drowning-’’ He was in the middle of saying but stopped when he saw your face.

‘‘What?’‘ You ask him confused as to why he stopped talking. 

You see him bite his bottom lip and he takes his hat off running his hand through his hair before putting it back on, his hands resting behind his neck. ‘’You thought-’’ He pauses and you can hear his voice break slightly, ‘’You think I was going to hit you?’’ He asks. 

‘‘I just- Your hand was waving around,’‘ You explain to him standing completely still watching him in slight distress. 

‘‘I would never-’‘ He begins to say but loses his words, he raises his hand pointing at you then his hand falls back against his leg, ‘‘I would never hit you,’‘ He says breathlessly.

You stare at him in shock, ‘’I know that,’’ You say softly unsure of how to handle what was happening. 

‘‘Never Y/N, I would never,’‘ He repeats. 

‘‘JJ I know that-’‘ You begin to say.

‘‘Then why would you flinch?’‘ He asks you shaking his head not meeting your eye, ‘‘I mean just why would you flinch like that?’‘ You could see the tears begin to form in his eyes as he finally made eye contact with you. You walk over to him trying to grab ahold of his hand but he jerks it away.

‘‘JJ,’‘ You say cautiously. He looks away from you his expression hard and cold, you slowly put your hand across his cheek and then the other so you were caressing his face. You pull on it ever so lightly so he was looking at you, his eyes were filled with tears a sorrowful expression on his face, ‘‘Look at me please,’‘ You whisper to him. ‘’I know you would never hit me,’’ You tell him staring straight into his eyes, ‘’I know you JJ, I know you would never.’’ 

He sniffles slightly and you reach up wiping a tear that had fallen from his eye, ‘’You flinched,’’ He says his voice undercut with broken up bits as if he couldn’t catch his breath from his heavy breathing. 

‘‘You were waving your hands around, I didn’t think it would be intentional.’‘ You explain to him. You were still holding his face his hands were at his sides almost as if he was afraid to touch you, like he was scared if he did you would pull away. You take your hands away from his cheeks and grab his hands bringing them together behind your back so he was holding you, then you wrap your arms back around his neck staring back at him. He looked so fragile in this moment, as if he was broken by the fact you thought it was a possibility he would actually hit. you. ‘‘I know you JJ, better than I’ve known anyone in my life.’‘ You explain to him. ‘‘Your stubborn, a little impulsive, a little wild at times,’‘ You start off listing qualities about him, ‘‘But you’re also protective of the things you love, someone who gives everything with their whole heart, and someone I know could never ever hurt me, ever.’‘ 

He stays silent for a minute just staring at you, his expression wasn’t easily readable and you had no idea what was going on in his head. ‘’Can you stay here tonight?’’ He asks barely above a whisper. 

‘‘Of course,’‘ You say finally pulling him in for a hug. You pull on him so he moves forward into the hug and he doesn’t really hug you back for the first few seconds. Finally you feel him sink into the hug pulling you against him tightly as he lets out a deep breath that he had seemed to be holding. 

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A/N: I loveee writing for JJ this might be my favorite thing I’ve written yet;’)  JJ is such an interesting character I’m excited to write more for him! If you have a request they’re open! 

Thank you for reading!

[dolce-peach]

OMG I literally love your marvel fanfics! Could you pretty please write a loki x reader where the reader has the biggest crush on him even before he joined the team, and she had written fanfiction of him and can’t help but smile around him and just wants to love him bc she’s absolutely mesmerized by him. Just all fluffy please 🥺

smitten

pairing: loki x reader

warnings: the fluff is real

a/n: aghhh thank you so much anon 💗 sorry it took so long!  hope you like it!!

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Once you started writing about Loki, that’s when you knew your liking for him was actually a masked obsession.  Of all the people to be obsessed with, you didn’t mind, because of the simple fact that you loved him and everything about him.

Of course, you never actually met him before.  In your mind, you were sure he was just as dreamy as you thought he was.  

After all, he was a god.

The things about New York simply went through one ear and out the other.  What stuck with you was Thor’s constant fondness whenever he talked about his adopted brother.  He always tried to look past Loki’s schemes, because those weren’t Loki’s doing.

You really wished more people would do the same.

Needless to say, you were absolutely smitten.

You proudly posted your newest fluffy Loki story and couldn’t help but grin at all the attention it was already getting.

“What’s got you smiling so much?” Tony asked, making you shove your phone in your pocket.

“Nothing!” you said a little too loudly.

“Are you hiding something, Y/N?” Natasha chimed in.

You shook your head.  “No, of course not!”

“Is it about me?” Tony teased.  

Natasha rolled her eyes.  “Not everything’s about you, Stark.”

“Guys, I’m not hiding anything!” you insisted.

“If anyone can get the truth out, it’s the Star-Spangled Man With a Plan,” Tony said, emphasizing the ridiculous, dated nickname.

Steve didn’t look up from his newspaper.  “Don’t bother Y/N.  We all got our own secrets.”

Tony pouted.  “You’re no fun.”  He glanced down at his watch.  “Oh, Thor should be here soon with Loki.  Someone should go greet them on the landing pad.”

“Don’t bother, because we’re already here!” Thor exclaimed as he entered the room.

Your heart didn’t have enough time to fully comprehend Loki walking in behind him.  Contrary to what people were saying about him, he looked...

“Soft,” you whispered.

“I beg your pardon?” Loki said, raising an eyebrow.

You realized how close you were and immediately retreated a few steps back.  

“Um, your hair looks soft,” you said.  Seeing his confused expression, you tried to amend the situation further.  “It’s a good thing!  It’s a sign of...class?”

The rest of the Avengers snickered, making your face feel incredibly hot.

Loki gave a small, amused smile.  “I’m honored.”

You found yourself smiling, your embarrassment fading away.

--

After that first meeting, you couldn’t exactly face him.  Here was the god you’ve been writing about for the past few years -- how were you supposed to look at him?  Every time you did, you’d just think about what potential writing material you’d have to share with the world.

Everything he did made you smile like an idiot, and though you wanted to be with him all the time, you still wanted to make a good impression.

You liked him so much that you didn’t know what to do with yourself.

There was one time where he was reviewing some technology with Tony and Bruce in the lab.  He didn’t say anything, but he watched quietly, taking everything in.

You noticed how his brows knitted themselves when he was concentrating on something, how he tucked loose strands of his hair behind his ears, and how his blue-green eyes seemed to twinkle with interest.

He noticed you watching him, and you gave a shy smile before going back to writing your report.

Tony watched the whole situation and rolled his eyes.  “Why don’t you go talk to her?”

“What?” Loki asked.

“You two have been playing on this never ending merry-go-round and never actually saying a word to each other,” he said.  “Please go talk to her before I lose my mind with how many hearts y’all are sending.”

The god frowned before leaving him and Bruce to walk over to you.

He reached out to tap your shoulder before stopping himself.  What if he was reading the situation wrong?

Instead, he cleared his throat, causing you to whirl around in your swivel chair.  Your eyes widened as you lost your balance and fell on the floor bum first.

“Ow...” you groaned.

Loki reached his hand out.  “Sorry.  That was my fault.”

You smiled before taking his hand.  “Don’t worry about it.”

He chuckled.  “So,” he began.  “I was told you liked me.”

“By who?” you exclaimed.

“Oh, Thor,” he replied.  “And I figured it out myself.”

Your heart skipped a few beats.  “Um...”

“I’m flattered,” he said.  “And if any mortal was going to even come close to having some form of friendship, I’m glad it’s you.”

You felt dizzy.  Were you dreaming?

“Well, I should, um...get back to this report,” you said.

“You should,” he said.  “Or you can come with me and show me around the lovely city I nearly destroyed.”

Your eyes sparkled.  “Yes!”

And that you did.  

You ended up showing him tourist sites and just walking around in the streets.  He took it all in, and you smiled at the fascination in his eyes.  

The two of you ended up coming back home late that night, piling into the dark common room while laughing about something you saw earlier that day.  You’d never seen him laugh that hard before, but you decided that moment that you were going to protect him forever.

When the laughter died, he grasped your hand.  “Thank you for today,” he said. “For once, I felt normal.”

“I’m glad,” you said.

You began to walk away towards your room, heart full.

“Wait, Y/N.”

As you turned around, you felt his soft lips on your cheek.  You looked up at him with shock in your eyes.  

“I mean it.  Thank you,” he said.

You gave him a wide grin, lightly touching your cheek where his lips had just been.  

“Anytime.”

[darkpoisonouslove]

Winx Club Season 1 Thoughts (4kids)

I decided to start rewatching Winx Club since there were strong nostalgia feels and I am getting more and more sucked into this fandom, so might as well just rewatch everything and pay close attention to it, right? So here are my thoughts (this gets very long so they are under a cut):

1x01:

- Okay, so we got classical “ordinary person learns that they’re not so ordinary” here. It’s a little weird how Bloom’s powers just activated out of nowhere but it could be because she came in contact with a magical threat that provoked her powers to awaken so no complaints here. It was actually very brave of her to try to help Stella, seeing how she didn’t know she had powers.

- Kiko is our little bunny buffoon - no complaints here either.

- Stella being so confident in Bloom’s powers and so encouraging was really cute. The friendship between them probably was a little rushed since they knew practically nothing about each other but whatever.

- Bloom’s parents were pretty chill with finding out their daughter was a fairy. Edit: Okay, that was covered in one of the later episodes. I do like that Bloom told Mike and Vanessa exactly what was going on and didn’t try to hide the truth from them (*cough* like she’ll be doing in a certain live-action series *cough*). And they were actually very supportive about it and didn’t try to stop her! Awww! All the family feels!

- I hated Brandon and Sky’s ruse back then and I hate it now. At least they’re good at it and know how to actually keep it up.

1x02:

- Unlike Bloom and Stella who couldn’t even last an entire episode. It was cute how much Stella wanted to help Bloom, though.

- Beware Stella, the Destroyer of Labs. I wonder if she ever managed to create that new shade of pink.

- Griselda is so savage. And Faragonda is there like flowers and sunshine. XD

- I have to say that the line about not getting caught by the witches of Cloud Tower may seem funny at first but it actually bothers me. It bothers me because the teachers know that the witches would torture and abuse any fairies they come across but nobody is taking steps to prevent that. Why is that allowed? It is terrible, although, I have to admit, realistic since the education system is shit and nobody does anything actually helpful to prevent bullying. Still, it is a problem and I really don’t like the way it is portrayed on the show. It’s like “Yeah, they might scar you for life but it will be your own damn fault even though we are the adults and we clearly can’t be bothered to do shit!” And don’t tell me there isn’t anything to be done. If there were negative repercussions towards Cloud Tower as a school when their students misbehaved, I doubt Griffin would allow as much of that as she does now.

- OMG, Flora’s idea to save the forests is so awesome. I would so love me some talking plants. You don’t have to talk to yourself when you have a plant to have a conversation with!

- Spying on some witches sounds like a good idea, Bloom. Except don’t get caught maybe. (Okay, I am not being fair here. She didn’t know that what Darcy did was possible.)

- But damn, Darcy’s powers are so cool! I actually liked the “fight” with the Trix. And we saw all their transformations for the first time. It was cool.

- Well, at least they didn’t throw her out of Alfea. That would’ve been a shame. And they’re quickly becoming friends. Apparently, the girls decided they were okay with not being told the truth. I would’ve loved to see that conversation but still.

1x03:

- Stella is being supportive... until she is not anymore. Stella has these sudden mood shifts but she is being a ray of sunshine most of the time.

- Faragonda is married? But why do they call her “Miss” then? It makes no sense. Btw why does Griselda look like she’s having the worst time of her life while Faragonda is announcing the ball? I mean, I know she’s not big on fun but that looks a little bit over the top.

- Griffin kinda pulled an ala Maleficent routine.

- How is it that Bloom always gets into trouble? And because she couldn’t find a pair of scissors.

- Damn, Darcy with that magic again! I love her! Also, Icy can dematerialize walls? That is so cool! (pun unintended)

- Bloom’s powers conveniently showed up. I was gonna complain that it was unrealistic for freshman fairies to be defeating senior witches but then I realized that they didn’t actually defeat them. In 1x02 Stella teleported them out of harm’s way and in 1x03 the Trix disappeared in order to go after Stella’s ring so it’s actually fine.

- I feel sorry for that duckling. Icy is being so cruel to it in next eps. And they just put it there as plot device. It was used more than once to give away the Trix’s presence to Winx.

1x04:

- Gotta love how Bloom is the only one besides Flora who can hear the voice of nature. At least they allowed Flora to hear it as well because if it had been only Bloom who was able to hear it, I would’ve thrown a fit.

- Tecna has done her homework. I love how she figured out the ship was taken out by an attack from the outside. I’m actually starting to like her.

- Classical Riven, all grumpy and ungrateful. Though, he and Brandon actually did manage to call a truce so... I guess that worked out well. I love that the Specialists were shown working together as a team as well as bickering. It helps build some relationship between them and that is sorely needed.

- Damn, the Trix just vanished an entire troll. I love how powerful they are!

- Okay, but... that abbreviation Stella suggested to be their group name that consisted from the first letters of their names? Was that subtle shade being thrown at W.I.T.C.H? Bc you know, “we’re too good to use their initials as a name, we can actually come up with a title”.

1x05:

- Spell for making good decisions? Really? Um... okay. Whatever. (that is so lame) But hey, at least we got those kitchen scenes that were absolutely hilarious! XD

- Okay, how did no one realize that that wasn’t actually Stella? Proves my point that they don’t actually know each other that well and that  the whole friendship was rushed.

- So I have more to bitch about Bloom and her “leadership” here but I will actually save it.

- At least they managed to save Stella. (Question, though. Why was she in her everyday clothes if they caught her at the date? She went out with the dress. Did the animators forget about that?) The hug with Bloom was cute. And Stella was being all brave, telling them to keep the ring instead of begging them to save her. I think she will make a better queen than everyone realizes.

1x06:

- Starlight is the purest source of magic? Oh, hey, I didn’t know that! But if that is true why is Stella not more powerful than Bloom? I am a little confused as to what happened since it was pretty much explained as in the Big Bang created the Great Dragon that later created the magical universe. But where do the stars and magic fit in that? Also, I had not noticed up until this point that Faragonda says “she” when she talks about the Great Dragon. That’s cool. Also also, here’s a plot hole for ya - Faragonda said that the Great Dragon is just a myth and so is the Dragon Fire and that was when she was alone in her office. But season 3 later gives us the Company of Light storyline which contradicts that since Faragonda knew Marion who had the Dragon Fire personally. It is so much fun when you don’t have your backstory covered before you dive in. Leaves so many opportunities for plot holes for you to fall into and the writers are diving headfirst into this one.

- Breaking in Cloud Tower. When they were explicitly warned to stay away from the witches. Sounds like a good idea, right? At least they have a map and aren’t totally unprepared.

- Tecna totally rocked in this episode. She memorized the whole map and seemed to be strategic about everything and had a plan (which was about the best idea any one of them has had ever since the beginning of the show). And she did protect them all! I am really starting to like her a lot. I wasn’t even annoyed by her constant nagging to leave because that was a good idea. (Btw totally a side question but how did Tecna know which room was the Trix’ from the map? Did she also hack the computer system of Cloud Tower (that I doubt exists, considering Griselda was checking which fairies were arriving manually and their names were just taped on the doors in their dorms instead of something more computerized so it’s probably the same with Cloud Tower?)

- And Griffin had to go and try to kill them. Great idea! And when Faragonda goes to search for them after she realizes that they’re missing, what was Griffin going to tell her (I’m presuming that Faragonda would find a way to locate them or at least figure out where they’d last been)? “Nope, never seen them. Not even once. Well, except for that time I killed them but that’s totally irrelevant here.” Amazing logic! I know they broke into her school, but damn, she could’ve dialed it back a little.

- I had completely forgotten about Daphne. It took me a while to figure out what the hell was going on when she started talking to Bloom.

- And Bloom’s sudden and inexplicable desire to know about the Dragon Fire is executed in a way I am not really a fan of. I mean, you know what the fuck is up when you’ve already watched the show but on your first go that would probably just seem very random (even if she was insisting it was so that they could figure out what the witches wanted).

- It was so unfair for Winx to get punished without even being heard out. I’m mad on their behalf because yes, it does matter why they did what they did. Is no one going to tell Faragonda and Griselda about the theft of the ring? (Or the way it happened for that matter? Stella could have died.) That is a royal symbol and it got stolen. Why is no one talking about this? (on the show I mean.)

1x07:

- That punishment was harsh. But they proved they can handle themselves even without their powers. Who needs magic when you have cleaning supplies, am I right? XD

- OMG, Tecna, you don’t need computer or guidance to figure out a mop and a bucket of water. And Flora just standing there and watching Tecna completely misunderstanding the cleaning supplies and their usage and laughing about it? She’s not as innocent as she seems.

- How do the Trix know about the Dragon Fire if Faragonda herself thought it was only a myth? And where the hell did those crystals come from? I mean, I’m not complaining. Have you seen them? They totally rock. But I’m just curious.

- Winx really did a number on the Trix this time. And Faragonda and Griselda came back in the right moment. Though, I can’t get over the fact that she has zero idea what the fuck is going on between her students and the witches (not that anyone tells her shit but still). Now they went overboard? What about three episodes ago when they tried to kill Stella? And they’re making sure they’re not breaking the rules but who the fuck makes sure these girls are safe? Because they’ve been in more trouble from the beginning of the school year than a person gets into for their entire high school run.

- Did Faragonda take away the Trix’s powers too? Well, she should’ve left them powerless. It would’ve saved everyone a lot of headaches.

1x08:

- Fuck, this talk about Stella and Musa’s family situations is making me want to cry. I can’t see through the tears in my eyes. Help!

- I always loved this episode (1x08). But damn, why is Riven hitting on Bloom? Pls, stop! But at least she really ripped into him and then poured water on him which, frankly, he deserved. I mean, I like him as a character but he was way out of line talking to them like that.

- I love that Stella was being supportive with Brandon when Riven was trying to embarrass him. She didn’t care if he’d failed, only that he was okay. That was really cute!

- So the whole plan hangs on whether Knut can sell the Timmy vibe? Which he is not really doing all that well. Great job! This only worked because Bloom is not paying attention. Which I will cut her some slack for because of the whole thing with Daphne and then Riven.

- I feel like the writers do know how to build suspense, though, and I really appreciate that.

- I like Riven x Musa but I also like Riven x Darcy. When you forget that she was actually using him... and she put a spell on him. Ugh... Why is this so problematic? And also never addressed? Not to mention that Darcy totally did not look up any spells prior to that so she must have known it beforehand, and considering Icy and Stormy’s words, I think it is safe to assume she’s done this before... which is not okay.

- But on the plus side, she knows how to ride a hoverbike! I like that!

- Well, it did end in tears so job well done I guess. I am still having problems with Griffin’s behavior here. “Break some hearts, break some bones”? Umm, what? Can you not? (Also, sidenote, but Griffin’s remark about the celebration struck me as annoying tbh. I know she’s a witch but she has a family too. Can we, please, drop this idea that witches can’t love, thanks?)

1x09:

- Wow, this is the most interesting episode so far.

- Stella really got spelled there. And in the end with the oppositus spell. That part was really random, though. Was it simply because they needed Musa to run off to town?

- Aw, Faragonda hugging Bloom so readily was really cute! What the heck did she mean about the dark forces, though? Was that... Was that somehow caused by the Ancestral Witches? Because I am pretty sure the Trix had nothing to do with it. What the hell is going on?

- I wanna know about the First Witches! Tell me moooore!!! At least we know about Daphne now.

- Okay, this time the Trix and the other witches were gonna kick Winx and the Specialists’ asses. That was some awesome battle, though. I liked it so much. Real action. Plus, they got to show off their powers!

- Darcy’s powers are so awesome!!! (I’m sorry but I love her and I have to gush.)

- Now the Trix know about the Dragon Fire. (I love those damn crystals; they look so good!). It’s starting to get real. But let’s backtrack for a second here. They wrecked the place where there were fighting, not to mention the blinding light from Bloom’s powers and yet, somehow nobody knows what happened there? What? Why tf don’t Griffin and Faragonda know about that? I am pretty sure they wrecked multiple cars there so why is nobody filing complaints and tracking the fight back to them?

1x10:

- “Puppy dog to Stiletto.” I AM DYING!!! And the way they are showing how the communication between them runs through Darcy’s psychic channel is so cool! I love it!

- It’s the Magical Reality Chamber... Ugh. I am not really thrilled about that.

- And Palladium is busy Palladiuming here. I can’t help this thought but why is his design so different in season 1 from his design later on? What happened to him? (Obvious glow up but I mean why?)

- Tecna’s sass is killing me. I am so loving it!

- Oh, thank goodness Kiko is okay!

- What the hell happened to the Dragon Fire? Did it just decide to pack its bags and leave? How did it get away from the Whisperian Crystals? Also, if Faragonda and Palladium were watching how Bloom was doing, why didn’t they say anything about the Trix? Did they not see them? If they did, why didn’t they do shit about it? I am pretty sure what they did is very against the rules. So what the hell is up with that?

1x11:

- Okay, I totes agree with Bloom. Yeah, Flora messed up with all the plants but they legit let her go live in a swamp. Wtf, guys?!?!?! You’re her friends. You shouldn’t let that happen!

- Awww, they went with her! Okay, we’re good! (And even Stella went even though her shoes got ruined!) Also, Flora’s inventions are really cool. Baby can save the entire universe on her own and protect nature with her inventions.

- The nymphs are so cute!!! Not to mention well adapted! They can fly, breathe air and live underwater. Damn!

- Stella is finally hearing the voice of nature. Or whatever it is that is sending her that vibe that something is off.

- Why wasn’t Tecna affected by the mist (or whatever it was)? She was breathing the same air as them and all the rest were getting sleepy even before she put down her mask (whatever). So why was she not affected at all? (I’m not trying to poke holes into the plot, the plot is poking my eyes out with its holes.)

- An evil willow. Well, you don’t see that every day.

- Tecna’s apology was very Tecna and very cute.

1x12:

- Awwww, they agreed to help Stella with the beauty pageant because she was so passionate about it. That’s some real friendship!!! Also, I love how concerned they were with making sure she was going to pass the test. Sometimes the only thing that can make you study is indeed someone else forcing you to. So props to them for taking the time to make sure she was handling her classes.

- Lol, the Trix are at it again. But what did they do with Lucy? She looks like a completely different person. Also, they used a lot of magic there (and their reactions to how well it was working were just hilarious). And here I go again with my ranting. Why didn’t the contest have someone to make sure the participants weren’t using magic since that was against the rules? The Trix used so much magic and no one would be the wiser if not for Bloom’s spell. Other contestants could have used magic as well and no one would have been able to tell. It’s just not believable.

- Stella won the pageant and passed her test. Now that’s impressive!

1x13:

- That episode with Bloom and her parents made me cry, wtf! That was really emotional. I don’t get one thing, though. If she knew she was adopted, why didn’t she try to look for her birth parents even before that? Wasn’t she curious why they’d given her up? And why did she not think of them when she learned she had magic? I think it is logical after learning that you have magic and knowing that you are adopted to go “Hey, perhaps I inherited this from my birth parents”.

- At least Winx were very supportive about it. (I am a bit unsure why Bloom didn’t make the connection about Daphne when Mike told her he’d heard a voice when he’d found her. I mean, she also heard a voice (guiding her out of a fire no less) so why didn’t she wonder at least if perhaps that hadn’t been Daphne that talked to Mike?)

1x14:

- I just noticed this but remember how Bloom is complaining that she always has to go first at tests because they do alphabetical order? Isn’t Amaryl in the same class? She was with them during Wizgiz’s quiz (wait, that’s next episode) and when Palladium had them listening to the voice of nature. But then with the magical reality chamber and this exercise with Faragonda Bloom’s going first even though Amaryl should go before her.

- Omg, Sky is fangirling so hard! And he’s on for breaking into Cloud Tower. I have a feeling that is the worst idea but I know they’re gonna do it anyway so...

- So Griffin’s entire family consists of witches? Cool. And of course, her fave spell is a revenge one. Why am I not surprised? XD

- I feel so bad for Mirta. Everyone laughed at her. But she should’ve known that was coming and she should’ve chosen a different spell to describe. Actually, scratch that. She was brave enough to be herself and did not conform to what was expected of her so props to her for that! Though, the witches’ reaction suggests that having friends is something to laugh at which just... isn’t true??? Like, everyone needs a friend once in a while. I can’t stand it when kids shows make the villains these heartless, soulless people who feel no emotion whatsoever. Would it kill you to make a villain that actually acts like a person?

- Wtf, Lucy? That was nasty as hell. And does she really think that the Trix are going to hang out with her?

- The Trix’s plan is truly horrible. But I have to admit it’s a good plan. Seriously though, the poor duckling! Honestly, how is it still alive? They made an entire troll disappear but they can’t get rid of one little duckling? Does that mean that they didn't actually want to kill it (bc lbr they could've easily killed it if they wanted to)?

- At least Sky would’ve tried to comfort Bloom if she hadn’t pushed him away. (Question, though. Why didn’t Griffin learn they were in the library? Last time Winx were there she immediately knew. (It is probably a good thing, though, because she probably would’ve tried to kill Bloom... Again.))

- Awww, Bloom and Mirta friendship adorableness ensues!!!

- I loved the way Winx all used their powers to find Bloom! And Musa getting that sound wave reading that she then transferred to Tecna? Awesome! I wish we could get more extraordinary usage of magic like that! (in the later seasons I mean)

- Kiko and the duckling fighting is some peak comedy right there.

- Oh no, poor Mirta (again; dammit this episode!). But at least she’s among friends now.

1x15:

- That’s some drama with the test (understandable). And that’s some more drama with the answers.

- Bloom was a little pushy in that scene with Faragonda who was clearly exhausted from the spell but I’ll cut her some slack because of the circumstances.

- Was that a pixie that was flying outside of Alfea?

- Flora is getting angry over here. Honestly, she’s really surprising me. I remember her as this goody-two-shoes but the only reason she hasn’t really snapped so far is because something always happens before she can. If you really look at her expressions, you can see that she gets mad as often as the other characters. I actually kind of like that because it shows she’s simply doing her best to be nice all the time and she also has limits but she’s actually working on keeping herself in check. It makes her more interesting.

- Why is everyone so bad at sneaking around?

- That lesson about inner transformation was interesting. Definitely something to think about. (I’ll tell you what’s for sure, though. Amaryl probably wasn’t transformed at all by the temptation. She is just a bitch like that. (It’s all she’s shown so far.))

- Stella legit picked up her teacher and then dropped him LMFAO!

1x16:

- I really love how the Trix are casting so many spells and developing their skills. In this season they actually worked for what they were after and did not receive everything on a silver platter. It makes me actually like them even though they are as evil as ever.

- Poor Stella! That monster caused her to dream about her biggest demons. And poor baby is afraid nobody likes her. Awww! :/ I am legit crying over here again, dammit!

- Damn, the monster is growing as it feeds on their nightmares! And Musa and Tecna’s nightmares were horrible. Poor babies! They did have a good plan for catching it, though... kinda. (It was a good thing they managed to contact Mirta and she told them what it was at least.)

- Well, it was about damn time Faragonda showed up! That monster has been roaming her school for two nights now. And it’s not so sneaky and quiet either. Not to mention the enormous amount of dark energy it must have brought in the school. How did none of the teachers notice it sooner? Like, seriously, it was there for two nights, the girls were screaming, loudly, they fought it in their room, they fought it in the corridor, they fought it in the yard, it knocked down Musa and Tecna, the Trix showed up and froze Stella and Flora, the gargoyle caught Bloom and Faragonda showed up ONLY THEN? Are you kidding me? Took you for-fucking-ever! And on top of it Winx started apologizing they hadn’t been able to handle it on their own instead of being angry that the school is not doing enough to protect them. None of the shit that has happened to them since the beginning of the season should have been allowed, and yet, somehow it keeps happening.

- So Griffin didn’t care that they wrecked havoc but that they got caught while doing it? Nice. I love it how she just decided to magic a gigantic projection of her head and use it to kick the Trix out instead of going out in the rain. Power move!

- And now the Trix are hella mad. This is getting intense.

1x17:

- Well, Sky isn’t handling this well. And Diaspro is coming which means trouble. It’s not going well! (I can’t stress this enough. God, I really hate this episode.)

- Wait, so Timmy knows about the switch up between Brandon and Sky? I mean, if he knows why Diaspro’s visit is a problem, then he must know about that as well, right? Which means that Riven is the only one in the group that doesn’t know. Well, that doesn’t look too good. I mean, it was good for them they hadn’t told him but it might explain why he never felt like a part of the group. They were keeping things from him.

- That chat between Griffin and Faragonda escalated quickly. And damn, they turned a man into a goat? I mean, I expect that from Griffin, but Faragonda? I did not see this coming. Also, the dialogue was horrible. It’s pure exposition. Both of them know what happened. Why are they going over it? And it was just information without any added commentary from either of them which made it pointless and sort of an info dump. I’m cringing just listening to it.

- Okay, but Griffin’s seat was 26 G and Faragonda’s was 26 F. I mean, come on! It actually made sense for them to be seated together (and with Saladin too) tho since they’re the headmistresses of the schools.

- So Erendor went to Red Fountain too? I mean, of course he did. But please, who is buying the crap that Samara is a philanthropist? She is obviously a big snob and you can tell that just by looking at her.

- Politics is being brought to you by Musa.

- Too bad for Bloom that both Icy and Diaspro are horrible and she thought Diaspro was Icy. Smart call with the press idea, though. Also, Diaspro’s magic is actually really cool! It is unique and I really like it!

- And Riven and Sky don’t have it together either. Everyone is acting like they’re five years old in this episode. Also, I love how Saladin just blamed the whole thing on Bloom when Sky and Riven also had a big role in ruining the entire celebration. But of course, Bloom is the only one guilty here and Winx are getting punished again. At least, this time they told their teachers it wasn’t completely their fault. But what good did it do anyway?

1x18:

- Omg, Bloom, no! You can’t leave and just... leave your friends. Ugggggh, this is too sad!!! (And kind of annoying me because they told her they wanted her there and they were all together in this. Though, on the other hand I understand because guilt is something that you have to deal with yourself and only you can get over it no matter how many reassurances you get from outside.) But awwww, they all looked so cute when they were just chilling together while everyone was doing their own thing. True friendship!

- I am so with Stella on this one. Bloom’s their friend and they have to go get her back no matter what.

- Btw Griselda’s glasses can’t be functional at all. I mean look at them. The two lenses are so far apart, wtf?

- Go to hell, Icy! Earth is cool!

- Mitzy is so annoying. I would’ve used my powers on her a long time ago if I were Bloom. So props to her for (mostly) keeping her cool.

- Oooh, Bloom finally learned who she is (and ooh, we’re getting backstory!). And... she lost her powers. The way they just ripped the Dragon Fire out of her was terrible. It makes me hurt!

1x19:

- Stella is such a good friend! I love her!!!

- Oof, that battle between the Trix and Griffin. Griffin was so done with them when she was dusting herself off. And awww, she cares about her witches! That was so cute!!! Ediltrude and Zarathustra flying out of the window wasn’t cute, though.

- Stella is not being helpful with her “it might be the end of the world”. And Griselda’s mood seemed to flip pretty quickly from angry to concerned. Also, Faragonda with her “I believe we learn things when we’re ready to” may not have made the best decision. If Bloom had known, it could have been different. Not to mention that in the previous episode she told Winx she’d take care of Bloom when she refused to let them go after her but I didn’t see anyone taking care of anything. If Stella hadn’t gone to take her back, she may not have found her way back. What are you, guys, doing?

- Why does Cloud Tower have functioning dungeons, again? Also, who decided it was a good idea to keep the book for summoning the Army of Decay in Cloud Tower? I know you need the Dragon Fire to summon it and they thought that was gone, but still.

- I am so over the name of the spells. English words with Latin suffixes? I mean, really? Couldn’t actually come up with something better? (I wasn’t going to rant about that but they keep doing it.)

- I can’t decide if the Army of Decay is a good name or not. I think I like it, though. Either way, it seems to be a big deal since all the teachers looked scared as hell.

- Ah, the scene with Riven was painful. I really liked it, though. They got to show off their new powers and be nasty.

- Definitely a cool name. And an even cooler concept!

- The Trix were such great villains in season 1, though. They truly were menacing and were actually pretty powerful. And look at how creepy they are! I love!

- Does somebody want to tell me why Faragonda (and Griselda) weren’t helping the fairies fight the monsters like Palladium and Wizgiz were? Yeah, they need to keep communicating with Red Fountain but, like, isn’t there a more efficient way to do that that won’t keep the headmistress who is the most powerful person in the school from fighting?

- I like that Sky decided to stay and fight even if it meant dying.

1x20:

- Oh, look, the magical reality chamber can apparently be used as a teleportation device. Hmm, interesting.

- Darcy talking to the Army of Decay as if they’re little puppies was the funniest thing ever!

- Poor Knut (and the duckling). But at least he’s helping as much as he can! And he cares about his mom! Awwwww!

- Omg, I have for some reason been left with the impression that Saladin was a calm person but in the few moments he’s had so far he’s been raging far more than he’s been calm. And he did have a point about not trusting Knut but, jeez, can you calm down? Also, “everyone who survives passes the semester”. Oh yeah? How very generous of you. However, the semester is the least of your problems rn.

- If the Trix know that Winx are on Sparks, why don’t they attack Alfea?

- We finally saw a little of what Saladin can do. I think it’s weird that he’s a magic user when his school doesn’t teach magic. Can he fight without his magic? I mean, he probably can, but let us see it goddammit! I still liked the magic use, though!

- Ooooh, Icy unleashed some power there. Also, was she able to control the dragons because of the Dragon Fire? How are non-magical dragons related to the Great Dragon?

- Yeah, Stella is transformed and watching Bloom fall down a chasm and she’s asking “What do we do?” Fly down to fucking get her maybe? I don’t know.

1x21:

- How does Bloom remember the palace on Sparks if she was a baby back then? And it’s too quick for it to become “her palace”.

- Stella and Tecna took a Mathematics and Magic class together? Aww, that’s so cute! (Even if Stella slept through most of it.)

- Oh, look, Daphne showed up! When is she gonna tell Bloom that she’s her sister?

- I loved all the magical stuff here! The way they combined their powers and the attacks they used were super cool and felt really unique! Where did that go in the later seasons?

- Awww, Stella and Brandon are “friends”!!! Cool!

- Brandon is doing his best as Sky’s wingman! And he succeeded! Now if they can only fix the magical mess as easily as the romantic one!

1x22:

- Omg, Stella being so ready to help Knut is one of my favorite things! I can’t help but feel like this side of her was lost a little bit in favor of the more bitchy one in later seasons and I’m so sad.

- The entire Universe is in danger but girls will be girls and get all excited at the news of their new guests in the face of the boys.

- Going in without a plan is not the best idea. And that was such a positive reaction we got from Tecna.

- Stella is ready to go out with Brendon! That’s really cute!

- The Trix wrote “rule everyone” in their admission letters and Griffin still accepted them? What the actual hell was she thinking?!?!?!

- So Icy also comes from a lineage of witches?

- It was really cute that Griffin actually cared about Riven. So she’s only being a bitch to fairies then?

- Since when can the Army of Decay turn you into rot by touching you? I mean, they said that and a minute later Codatorta punched one of the monsters but he was fine. Contradictory much?

- So Riven just turned into the Red Fountain living instruction manual the way he was reciting all those things? Also, jumping out of windows is probably not the best action to undertake. Not that he had any other options left.

- Is Faragonda leading the battle? I thought Saladin would command the Specialists but it seems that she’s the one who’s giving all the orders. That is so cool!

- So much for sneaking in Cloud Tower.

- Awww, Riven saved the day and apologized for screwing up earlier! Plus, he showed how competent he is. All of that was so awesome and probably my fave part of the episode.

1x23:

- Tecna and Timmy, though! XD If they weren’t being attacked, that calculations talk would’ve practically been a date!

- Griffin just blasted the Trix like that! Damn! And she was legit glowing with magic! That was so awesome!!! She was so mad, I can’t. And that spell she put on them to trap them seemed to be very sophisticated, having in mind how many motions it needed to get activated.

- Did Griffin just compliment the fairies? Oh, I see, when they sneak in Cloud Tower under her supervision, she tries to kill them, but when they sneak in Cloud Tower while it’s under the Trix’s control, it’s brave. Nice logic we got here.

- Griffin, Faragonda and Saladin stand for the three points of magic? What does that mean? I mean, in terms of magic. What can the three of them do when they combine their powers?

- Btw why the hell would they need to enter the portal in alphabetical order? That was just so random, not to mention inconvenient.

1x24:

- What is it with witches and turning people into goats? Speaking of Ediltrude, where the hell are she and Zarathustra? They weren’t shown to be with Griffin and her students.

- Wait, I’m confused. Are they suggesting that the Trix are direct descendants of the Ancestresses and that’s why their parents never showed up? Because they don’t have parents? What the hell is going on?

- I like the idea that the monsters keep reforming because it really makes sense considering what they’re made of. And it is so epic! I am so here for this battle!

- I kinda feel Bloom’s worries about her magic being the only special thing about her, though we all have to give her credit for the fact that she keeps beating monsters with a stick. XD What was it? Her Earth powers? Do we all have those? I haven’t tried it yet.

- Wow, Faragonda and Griffin’s combined magic was so powerful! I love it!

- Awww, that Brandon and Stella moment that turned into the Specialists and Winx moment was so cute!!! But poor baby Stella. She just wants love and her parents’ divorce is really hurting her. (Also, that remark about her being the one to protect Brandon was cool! You go, girl!)

- The monsters attacked again. And just when they were ready to take the fight to the Trix, gdi! I have to say that I am actually wondering what Griffin meant by taking out the roots. I suppose she didn’t mean kill the Trix which is interesting to me. Considering Griffin’s general behavior and background, I’d say it is safe to assume that murder is not past her. But she never tried to really hurt the Trix even when she knew how serious of a threat they posed to the entire universe.

- Musa’s attack was so awesome! They got really powerful during that year they spent in Alfea. (Perhaps it would’ve been good to actually see them learn the new magic they seemed to have mastered but anyway, it is still cool.)

- That combined magic of all the fairies and witches was so epic! And I love the way it was done. With Faragonda and Griffin acting like a bridge between the light magic of the fairies and the dark magic of the witches. It was really cool!

- Magix sort of looks like Pompeii. Is that how people look when they’re turned to rot?

1x25:

- That was some very unladylike way of sitting that the Trix pulled there.

- Omg, Riven’s confession of his feelings towards Musa was so awkward, I can’t!

- Well, it was obvious that Bloom’s powers were still in her. First, that always happens on TV shows. And second, after the Trix stole the Dragon Fire from her she was still in her fairy form so... yeah. And I really hate the whole thing because I get what they were trying to do but it is so frustrating to know that they had to go through all this shit (they almost died! Multiple times!) only for it to turn out that her powers were inside her all along. It’s just... disappointing!

- Why don’t Stormy and Darcy know about the Invisible Road? And why the hell is there even such a thing? So that enemies can sneak up on you and attack you? The possible uses of that road do not balance out the danger it puts them in so why does it even exist?

- Lol, Codatorta beating Saladin in that game was a cool moment. I honestly expected him to lose because he looked distracted but it turned out it was the other way around.

- Faragonda and Griffin really know each other well. Though, I don’t think that Griffin was very happy about that. What I’m more interested in, though, is how they heard the Army of Decay. It still seemed pretty far away so I think it was their magic that enabled them to hear it. That’s totally awesome and I approve!

1x26:

- So Faragonda IS leading the battle! That’s so awesome on so many accounts. But the most notable is that that means she must have experience with battle strategy in order to pull this off (Well, of course she does, considering the whole action with the Company of Light that must have gone down)! I’m gonna scream here!!!

- Winx joining Bloom to help her against the Trix and the boys teaming up while discussing their love life was honestly the best. Riven and Sky are working together, I cannot believe it! It’s so cool!

- Okay, but even without the Dragon Fire Darcy and Stormy should still be stronger than Winx since they’re seniors. And yet, they seem to be losing. And kind of easily at that. And I’m not really sure what happened. Did Winx’s convergence turn Stormy’s attack on them?

- Is it only me or does it look like Bloom’s teleporting? (Also, props to the animators for only making Bloom’s powers look like a dragon to show who really controls the power, but they do lose points for making Icy and Stormy’s powers take the shape of a dragon as well in earlier moments.)

- Why did Stormy and Darcy’s monsters disappear when they were defeated if all the Dragon Fire was in Icy? That makes no sense.

- I love it how Bloom just carried Icy back like it was no biggie.

- Oh, no! Griffin is blaming herself for what happened (well, she was a little guilty but still). Opening a Bed & Breakfast? Wait, what? Did I hear right? That was so weird.

- Knut is so adorable! And Stella is so supportive of him! I love!

- Well, Lucy is just being a bitch.

- “We don’t do prom. We crash prom. So enjoy it. This will be the one year we won’t try to ruin it.” XD That was such an awesome line!!!

- So Griffin is the one who sent the Trix to wherever she sent them. Why are they still her responsibility if she expelled them? Shouldn’t she consult Faragonda and Saladin as to what to do with them? Or like... the Council? (Also, Griffin’s face when Saladin mentioned them was priceless. She is so done with them and I fully understand.)

- Why did the duckling go with Icy? It came to Alfea with Knut because it was scared of her. What happened?

- Even Griselda is having fun. That’s nice!

This was kind of... epic! Plot is perhaps not the strongest point of the Winx Club writers but they definitely know how to build tension. The season is a little weird in terms of time constraints in-verse but it was very enjoyable to watch! The powers and moves that they had were really awesome and actually rather original which I am very pleasantly surprised by. The season had some very strong moments and I really liked what they did, especially with the final episodes. I actually really loved it and I don’t think it is just the nostalgia talking here.

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Lavi learning about the abuses Allen went through would be interesting in adding another layer to his insight into humanity. A part of Lavi's bookman hard cold logic mentality could rationalize the extremes rhe Order committed for survival (not that he'd like it). But the people who hurt Allen, at and before the circus, don't have that excuse. They really would fit Lavi's stupid and violent view of humanity he had pre Order/Allen. But unlike Lavi, Allen still choose to see love and goodness-

2 in the end. He saw the loving bond between Mana and his dog. He recieved the warmth Allen the dog gave him and mourned his death openly. He felt guilty for hurting Mana and wanted to make up for it. He also still wanted to get and give love despite not having any memory of experiencing it pre Mana. I think that's what confounds Lavi the most. Lavi's seen evil and just made himself cold/indifferent to everyone non bookman. In Lavi's eyes, Allen can see past the ugliness and love what needs to-

3 be loved. No matter how much it hurts, Allen still walks forward. I think Lavi does wish he could have done that too. It's just interesting because Lavi could have been the type to resent Allen for his kindness and outlook. Instead the first sign of Allen being different made him change his whole outlook. Like he had become that little 6 yr old again venturing into new territory. He'd probably feel that way again if he knew just how horrible Allen's past was and how much that drove Allen.

YES exactly! 

This was exactly what I meant in a previous ask about “cruelty hiding behind a purpose” bc in war this is what you see.Of course there are sadistic scary people who are only there to hurt people, but they will all hide behind whatever purpose the war has to offer. Even Lavi being tortured atm by a brunch of sadistic genocidal guys is litterally for the purpose to get information. 

But hwat happened to Allen had no rhyme nor reason and it is not exactly the kind of suffering Lavi would be used by. Humanity sucks, yeah, he’s seen it in wars, but battlefields is not always the best way to get to know humanity per se. Sure, humans who keep themselves into those wars - those politics who send people to die for their battles, the hopeful who die young, the horrors, the people who take advantage of it, the people who do horrors trying to stop the war “end justifying the means” type, the collateral damages and how civilians can respond with fear, while others may show out their selfishness - all of this is a specific set of humanity that is nothing alike Anything Allen even went through. 

And it’s ofc not saying that those wars weren’t traumatic to start with don’t get me wrong, I think that for Lavi to cope with such emotional distachement those wars had been plenty traumatic in their own way. what i mean is that, Lavi is prepared for the cruelty that comes with war. Not those that comes with the regular world.

The thing is that Lavi had to learn to cope very early and his exemple was Bookman who told him to shut off his emotions. I mean, Lavi got wounded by a straybullet on a battlefield when he was 7, one year after he started his recording duty. Even if Bookman is a loving father figure as much as possible, the uprising of the Bookmen is Not Healthy. Especially not for a child who has to process countless of horrors. 

So to shut down his emotions seemed the normal course of action to take. And from tunning down your emotions you lack your ability to care, by keeping your heart under locks you don’t let anything touches you. 

And... it’s interesting because without Mana we can’t know how Allen would have been. He would have been bitter perhaps. When you look at last chapter, it seems like fighting with Cosimo wasn’t a first time thing considering how quick Allen was to react - yet you can see that Allen still had a confrontational behavior, he didn’t let things happen to him. He had to be beaten into submission and apologizing and then emotionally abused in order to keep him back in track. Yet we still see him refusing his situation, rejecting it. Even as a kid. He was full of anger but he didn’t accept it. Even when he was forced to.

Having Mana and the dog had been salvator for Allen. Some people he could pour his hearts onto, people who would give him warmth, people who would make sure his feelings were valid. After all even we do have a scene of Mana helping Allen process his grief toward the dog.  And Allen was young enough to still form himself around that.

There’s something i’ve been told in therapy that the environment you were at at 7yo  can change your entiere development as of then, since it’s when your brain really is starting to try to make sense of the world around you in more personal details. 

Lavi was on battlefield at that point, seeing people dying and dying and dying. Allen was at that damn circus, with cruel people, but he met Mana and started to travel with him right at that time.  And they had to give logic to their life experience so far, both of them. 

tbh I wonder if Bookman slightly dotting Lavi when he was in convalescence might not have made it impossible for Lavi to be completely emotionless because of that one spurr of love Bookman let in (even if then Bookman had always reproached him the thing in question for emotional distance as well). But as it was, Lavi had to make sense of the war around him. That was his primary focus. Hell if he had been in nothing but wars, how much does he even know about common life and suffering not war related?

And Allen saw all the cruelty of humanity, but he found something that genuinely made him happy, a warmth and optimism he wasn’t quite receptive to at first until he found himself at peace in it. He rationalized his life thus far and realized this, this is the kind of behavior that makes me happy. And he clang to that, and with Mana’s tehn sudden death and the akumatization Allen felt guilty about, it was important for Allen to carry that happiness on, knowing how much this had changed his life for the better. 

And like you say, that’s exactly things that could surprise Lavi because Lavi never had any opportunity to see that sort of love. I mean... Bookman is one thing, but it doesn’t change too that Mana was just as much a stranger to Allen than anyone in that Circus. If anything it proved Allen that humanity might not be that bad, actually, since that random human could take care of him. On the other hand we have Lavi who only ever could count on Bookman - and we know that he considered Bookmen above humanity. Bookman was still someone who had a duty to protect Lavi. Mana, as far as Allen knew, didn’t. 

And this adds too to the shock of thinking Mana only cared for Allen because of Nea, because the whole reason that it could have given Allen’s faith toward strangers, toward humanity, was that Mana was a stranger who still treated him kindly. The moment Mana had ulterior motives, this unconditional kindness Allen built himself upon wavers. Because for Allen it’s essential that a person who had no reason to care about him ended up extending him this kindness, and that’s how he ended up living his life.

I don’t specifically think Lavi would ever really think that he should have approched the situation like Allen did because there’s a lot of specifics entering in count in their specific trauma and how they coped with it.

But it is still telling, that for Lavi the horrors of wars became so nomrla, so usual, so easy to cope with, that the horrors Allen had been through are... a complete different affair. And to see that above all of that Allen took the approach of being kind, no matter what, to always be extending a hand for those in needs... It would be puzzling. How does on react to suffering this way? 

At war Lavi might have ended up believing there’s no point trying to save people, it’s a lost cause, if they don’t die now they will die later on the battlefield. And if they survive they will have the weigh of this pointless war on their shoulders.But Allen’s salvation came from a person caring. It wasn’t life or death. Saving someone there would help create a better future.

And honestly, Lavi did resent Allen when he first meet him, albeit it was because of the whole “that idiot called an akuma and is so lucky with his stupid eye and he doesn’t realize none of us can actually trust each other because the enemy is everywhere”. Lavi was extremely patronizing in his first appearance. He thought Allen was lucky. Until Krory’s castle. 

The more Lavi manages to unveil about what kind of person Allen is the more he realizes how wrong he had been the first time around. That his desire to save others at all cost wasn’t naivety but hyperawareness of what suffering was like. 

Allen did show his kindness the first thing around Lavi. he was soft. He actually showed pain at the idea of killing others humans, to whcih Lavi just said “what a baby.” Allen had shown his desire to help too all step into the Krory’s arc when they had to approach Krory. It’s just that Lavi brushed it off as naivety. Until he realized how wrong he was.

And especially, Lavi had seen that Allen was right in his love. I mean in the following arcs Lavi and Krory are super close and it shows they’ve become friends. Had Allen not taken the time to help Krory this friendship wouldn’t have existed. Lavi can witness everyday how Allen’s words improved Krory’s life for the better. When Allen was dead, Lavi could still see the direct impact of Allen’s kindness by his side. Hell, Krory saved Lavi’s life on that damn boat too. Had Allen not talked Krory out of suicide none of this would have happened.

I think comparing him to a child again is a good move bc it showcase a lot his internal fight with his younger self crying at him for taking different steps, for caring so much about others. In order to move on Lavi should put back in perspective how he had dealt with life so far, and Allen had always been a guiding light in that purpose.

To know the horrors Allen had gone through would already be a complete different spin on suffering than anything Lavi have ever experienced. 

And the kindness Allen showed, that is already so strange to Lavi, yet so encouraging, is just all the more powerful.

I think Lavi would realize that. Especially with how much Allen’s kindness as its own power was the very thing he sneered upon until he realized it was the most important thing Allen ever gave out.

So his reactions to the horrors... I don’t see him handling it well. But i do think it would be important.

.... and I rambled a lot again i’m sorry but this is a topic that really fascinates me ahdjkf

[mandareeboo]

Unfinished Work #24: “Opposite Axes”

Wellll this is less ‘unfinished’ as it is ‘I’mma have to rework the SHIT out of this bc of the special and I can’t NOT put my beautiful Sunstone and co in there somewhere’ so I’mma probably scrap this part of my third in line of the Steven and Fam Fusion Musical Show and redo from step one.

Title: Opposite Axes

"Absolutely not. There's growth and then there's insanity."

"Oh, let's give it a chance, Yellow," Blue pleaded, one hand cupped over her mouth thoughtfully. "Steven's already brought us so many interesting proposals. What's wrong with this one?"

"Interesting?" Yellow repeated dubiously. "Era 3 has been a massive failure so far. Production has gone down by over forty percent!"

"Yes, but they're so much happier."

"They won't be happier when we have no more planet to live on!"

Steven's ears were ringing as the Diamonds' voices began to lift. He puckered his lips and whistled. "Look, I know I'm no good at stats like Pearl is- who, by the way, really wanted to do this presentation, and the fact that you won't even let her in the room is extremely rude-"

"Do you know how undignified it'd be if we-"

"But," he plowed over her. "This will expand production enough to make up for lost time. Pearls are far less destructive to create, and they can be beneficial in so many fields! Just imagine how many happy faces with pointy noses we could make!"

Yellow sighed and pinched the junction of her nose. "It concerns me that we've come to a point where this is making sense," she said wearily. "Listen, Steven. Having an Era 3 Pearl being made without typical refineries and allowed to run wild can cause a lot of trouble for all of us. Especially compared to the older models. We could face a full-on revolution."

"It'd kind of be one we'd deserve, don't you think?"

"Perhaps. But you know as well as I do that there are many Era 1 and 2 Gems who would still leap at the chance to be shattered to protect us. We'd be causing dustshed all across Homeworld."

"I wonder," Blue said, "What an unrefined Pearl would look like?"

"It doesn't matter what they look like," Steven stressed. "What matters is that this is the safest option- for us and for the rest of the galaxy."

"How do you know what's safe or what isn't?" Yellow challenged. "I understand that you were raised with different values, but you can't force change overnight and expect it to right everything."

"I've been working with Homeworld for three years!"

"Three years?" The Diamond stood up, running her fingers through her hair. "Stars help us, it's only been three years. How did we manage to go from galactic superpower to galactic embarrassment in three years?"

Blue took her arm. "Perhaps we should adjourn for now."

"That might be for the best," she reluctantly agreed. Yellow clapped her hands. "That will be all, Steven."

Steven saluted the typical Earth salute, turning away. Frustration bubbled just below the surface, but yelling at Yellow and Blue rarely seemed to do much good. It usually just made it all drag out more.

"He's so different from her," he overheard Blue murmur on the way out. "Yellow, what if he never remembers being Pink?"

Yellow's eyes fluttered shut. "I'm not willing to consider that option, Blue."

Overall, Steven spent the least amount of time on Homeworld as physically possible. As important as maintaining connections was, especially as the fully realized Ambassador of Earth (and, as some Gems felt the need to tack on, Keeper of a Diamond's Stone), there was something about the hard planes and structures that had never quite sat right with him. Unfortunately, Steven couldn't stay away very much anymore, seeing how pivotal his voice was for Era 3.

It had been two weeks since he'd stopped by the beach house, and it was of very little surprise to him that no one else was around when he warped inside- save for Bismuth, of course, who even after almost half a decade of peace refused to even contemplate returning to Homeworld. She tended to the house while they were away, drawing up plans and designs for various Gem machines designed more for safety and protection than war. Not that her impressive sword collection ever had the slightest chance to grow dusty, as she built and sculpted them in her free time.

"Hey," she said, sequestering over half the couch with her size. "How'd it go?"

Steven groaned. "Politics are horrible."

"Yellow being a butthead again?"

He flopped down beside her. "I get why she does it. I do. She asks the questions, I answer, nobody can pull them out later and blindside us. But does she have to be so mean about it?"

"Sounds rough, buddy." Bismuth leaned over to nudge his shoulder. "Hit me up if you ever get sick of hurdles, alright? I'll make you something nice and sharp."

Steven smiled. Homeworld seemed like it was constantly moving in some way or another- hustle and bustle, destruction and construction, who White Diamond was not pleased with that particular day- but the Gems themselves didn't change. He hadn't changed. "Thanks, Bismuth."

He doesn't recall falling asleep.

Connie's official title was Protector of the Ambassador- which is overtly long and means almost nothing to anyone; but, in Homeworld's defense, the Gems have always gone by their type. They've never needed official titles before the Crystal Gems brought them home with them- but most of them just referred to her as The Connie. At thirteen, that had bothered her greatly. At sixteen, she hardly even noticed.

But a lot had changed in three simple years. Connie had nearly tripled in height, finding herself at the same height as Pearl. Her arms and face held a scattering of scars from various violent exchanges as debates had gone on- scars that Steven could have healed up, of course, but Connie had demanded they stay, noticing that the discolorations intimidated Gems. Maybe they were reminded of Jaspers when they saw the scratch that went from her lip and over her eye, or the deep line on her shoulder she had tattooed over with a single star- and, if so, they'd have every right to be frightened. Her sword, made by Bismuth, was swirled with pink and white like a Cookie Cat, tapered to her specific height, and hung carefully from her hip.

Another sign of change was the Gems who met her at the door- not Agates, but an Amethyst and a Ruby, who gave her a respectful salute and sheepish smiles. Connie saluted them back with the signature diamond shape before going inside.

"Diamonds," she greeted, not particularly worried by how they both snapped to attention as she strolled into the room. Connie felt bad for interrupting whatever private moment they'd been sharing, but duty is duty. "I just wanted to stop by and tell you Steven's gone back to Earth for a visit."

"Of course," Yellow said, bitter, as she rubbed at her eyelids. "Make a big speech before vanishing off the planet to goof around with his rebel friends. That's so typical."

"He wants us to bring Pearls into the workforce," Blue explained, as if Connie didn't already know.

"I'm aware, ma'am."

"You were trained by one, correct? What do you think of all of this?"

"I give the proposition my full support, ma'am," Connie said firmly. "No one has the right to tell anyone what they should be, and that's what Homeworld's done for centuries now. If you really wanna change, you have to go all the way."

"Where does that put us, then?" Yellow challenged. "Diamonds are created to rule. If we break all the barriers, what happens to our system?"

"No one ever said it wasn't going to be messy, ma'am."

Yellow seemed to sink under the weight of that statement. For once, it's Blue who says that's all. Connie saluted again and walked back out, wondering with a shake of her head if there had ever been a point to any of this.

Lion seems to enjoy hopping between her and Steven, taking random Ruby ships from Homeworld to Earth and back. Today he's waiting for her outside the palace, eager to get back to what could technically be called an apartment, if apartments didn't require rent or have basic plumbing. In it's own right, it's an honor they even built a room semi-suitable to human cohabitation in the first place for them. It was just a shame that they had such limited knowledge.

The apartment is a perfectly set rectangle in the wall of one of Homeworld's many spires. It's an ugly, washed out shade of blue- like the ocean but ten times less beautiful- and contains exactly one lump that she expected was supposed to be a bed or couch or both. Her parents had insisted on getting her a comfy armchair, which was a brown smudge in the corner. The cherry on top of the horrifyingly ugly color-nightmare was Captain Lars, snoring in said ugly brown chair, in said ugly blue room, his pastel pink skin glaring.

"Back from shipment?" she asked, dismounting Lion.

"Hmm?" Lars tipped his head back, reluctantly opening his eyes. "Oh. Hey. Yeah, I'm back."

"You sound ever so pleased about that."

"I'm bored. Whatever happened to cool boss fights and daring space chases?" He flicked his cape over his shoulder dramatically. "Now I just haul cargo. You're basically a door-holder, and Steven spends his days telling giant Diamonds that maybe people should be allowed to actually think for themselves."

"The cool boss fights and space chases didn't do as much as we hoped, I guess." Connie shrugged, setting her sword aside. "It just kind of evolved into this."

"Hey, I got my buddies to Earth just fine."

"I know, and it was awesome." A giggle erupted from her, remembering her involvement fondly. "They still tell stories about you in the public octagon. Especially the Emeralds."

Lars clicked his tongue and shot some finger guns her way.

[foxglovesound]

(feel free to mix the questions and the cats btw!) cuckoochirp, nightthroat, rosepaw, otterpaw, chubstream and 14, 18, 28, 50, 66, and legally i have to say 69 cos im gay

“69 cos im gay”

YOU

im doing all bc i AM bastard and love to chatter abt my bastard ocs

14. Do they have someone that they consider to be a family member, even if they’re not related to your character by blood? What was one of your character’s favourite moments with them, and what makes them so special to them?

CUCKOOCHIRP || hmmm let’s see….excluding his family (breamcloud, eveningscale, mintcloud, vervainstripe), then that would have to be Appleleaf, the ShadowClan seer! I’ve mentioned before that hazelnose was suffering from memory loss/degradation towards the mid/end of cuckoothroat’s apprenticeship and appleleaf was the one who stepped up and helped him with his training. Cuckoochirp came to both care about and admire appleleaf and they are always the first cat that cuckoochirp turns to when he needs advice or tips. They’re a very talented medicine cat and clever/crafty, which cuckoochirp also looks up to a lot; the duo developed a mentor-apprentice like relationship from early on and they’re both always excited to see each other. Cuckoochirps favorite moments with appleleaf were probably general training times! Appleleaf naturally couldnt just up and leave shadowclan for days, so theyd come by and visit or cuckoo would scamper on off to shadowclan for seer advice and lessons!  Cuckoochirp thinks of the times when they’d both walk around the territories and examine herbs and their uses very fondly! 

NIGHTTHROAT || OUGH OBVIOUS ANSWER BUT vervainstripe! Vervainstripe was the first friend nightthroat ever made in riverclan and i just dropped a little fic that touched up on their kind of dynamic just now but!!! Theyre very close and best friends, and nightthroats pretty much been absorbed into vervainstripes family because of how vervain as an apprentice would basically drag/invite night onto every endeavor or task at any opportunity he could!!!! Nightthroats favorite moments with vervainstripe would be their time alone when he and vervain would/do go out on walks. Vervain tends to ramble about a lot of things all at once and night might not believe in everything vervain chatters about he still listens fondly and endearingly bc he just loves it when his little buddy talks!Hes also pretty close with his apprentice shrewpaw! Theyre both rather mellow/logical cats and shrew actually went to night first about his gender issues and once he worked through it with nightthroat he went on to tell his family and the rest of his clan!

ROSEPAW || rosepaws got quite the growing amount of friends HA…besides his blood family in riverclan (hornetflower, beestorm and lightningface, honeystream), rosepaws closest to sootpaw, rookpaw and minkclaw! He used to be really close to swallowfang (his old windclan mentor) but after swallowfang helped orchestrate rosepaws escape from winclan (in secret) she had to drop contact with him in case yellow or gray go too suspicious. Besides that, rookpaw was one of rosepaws only friend in windclan (sycamorepaw/smokepaw/willowpaw were/are his friends but they were usually bustled away from contact with rosepaw bc the adults just. Wanted the kids to stay out of the drama). Rookpaw had been rosepaw’s best friend since their nursery days and when rosepaw was confined to the seer’s den, rookpaw would often worm his way into the den despite the disapproval of others and care for/curl around rosepaw (he’d bring him food and groom him as well). Rookpaw took a lot of care of rosepaw when he was still in windclan and he still keeps a good ear out for him now that rose is in riverclan!Now onto SOOTSY ROLL and MINKSTER….sootpaw was rosepaws first friend when he joined riverclan and as ive mentioned before they hit it off real quick due to their feelings of not having enough ties within riverclan! They quickly became best friends and, thanks to the fact that their mentors are also best friends, the duo practically do everything together in riverclan! Rose often drags soot along for things and soot makes sure that his dumb ass doesnt like, slam face first into a hive of bees (they have a very hornet-mink kind of friendship except soot can also be pretty reckless, but she’s grown a bit more hesitant/careful since the event with ashpaw happened). And mink/rose are obviously close because mink helped with rose’s rescue mission and now, as his mentor, the two spend a lot of time together. Rose has come to view mink in a very comforting position - almost like a better older sister or maybe even a mother figure (though he typically jokingly refers to hornetflower as mom). Theyre very attached to each other and care abt each other a lot!!!

OTTERPAW || once again excluding his blood relatives (lampreyface, shrewpaw, harrierpaw and cricketkit!), otterpaw is closest to hollypaw and chubstream! Ur gonna see a lot of really close-knit mentor/apprentice relationships in this story FHBDSHFD its rare to find a set who didnt like each other (i mean it happens but its just unusual)Hollypaw is otterpaws best friend since the nursery days as well, and although otterpaw is skilled at caring for kits and nursery issues, hollypaw is the one who steps up and takes care of otterpaw. Otter tends to be reckless when paired up with cats his age, and with his history with his father elmfoot, holly is quick to jump to otters defense in any time of need. In fact, it was hollypaw and sootpaw who were the ones who rescued otterpaw from his dad one day and holly literally fought elmfoot for otterpaw while soot ran off to get help. Theyre still super close and because of how close they are gorsefang is also on relatively good terms with otterpaw - they can be rather brunt and emotionally distant but theyve accepted otterpaw into their family as hollypaw’s best friend and gorse will get involved in trouble if it means protecting their son and his best friend from danger!Chubstream is also naturally close to otterpaw because chub is his mentor! Chub was ecstatic when otterpaw came to caretaking and was assigned as his apprentice and chub is a very encouraging and sweet figure in otterpaws life!Also of course rosepaw and otterpaw are growing closer but theyre not like family close lol theyre just good fwiends

CHUBSTREAM || CHUBBY BUBBY… i mentioned earlier that otterpaw/chubstream are close of course so besides that and his blood relatives (briarflower, minkclaw), chubstream is particularly tight with craneheart and even gorsefang, surprisingly! I mentioned earlier (again audhfusidf) that gorsefang had good terms with otterpaw, and as both chub + gorse are caretakers they found themselves hanging out more and more as otterpaws training went on. Chub however has always been pretty close with craneheart, and he was particularly involved in sootkit’s (and ashkit’s) nursery days when they were brought to riverclan. The three are good friends and although gorsefang comes off a little distant, they all care abt each other nonetheless

18.  Does your character believe the ends justify the means? No matter who they have to step on to reach their goals?

CUCKOOCHIRP || nnnnnnnnno honestly. Cuckoo is very empathetic and the idea of hurting others or stepping on others reaaaally doesnt sit right with him. He doesnt agree that the ends justify the means especially if youre hurting, damaging or even killing someone in the process and this is one of the few things that can land you in permanent hot water with mr cuckoochirp 

NIGHTTHROAT || hmm this one i gotta think about. I think nightthroat would agree with this but there’d have to be a limit? Of course he doesnt agree with getting others hurt bc huoy but he also doesn’t like the idea of being stagnant just because ur afraid of confrontation. Hes good at speech and talking and if theres something that needs to get done he’d rather talk it out or talk out a way that doesn’t end up hurting anyone emotionally/mentally or physically - but he does understand the idea in the most extreme circumstances.

ROSEPAW || another toughy! Rose doesnt agree with hurting others but hes okay with playing with peoples feelings and hes known to flirt and be cutesy/pretty when he wants something (hornetflower has given a lecture or too bc sometimes rose will try to flirt with an apprentice in another clan to will them to give him their most recent fresh catch lmao) but he doesnt agree with it if its like. Physically or extremely damaging, you know? In minor cases hes okay with it and even does it but in the grand scheme hes not fond of it lol

OTTERPAW || also a BIG no like cuckoochirp! Otter dealt with a lot of horrible shit from his father that could be boiled down to “the end (making otterpaw stronger for survival) justified the means (abusing him)” so he doesnt agree with it at all. However hes not exactly the most caring of others? He cares a lot about kits in the nursery and works well with them, but cats his age and older he can come off as kinda stand-offish and when it comes to drama like someone getting hurt by another persons path, he tends to stay out of it

CHUBSTREAM || another no! Chubs empathetic like cuckoo and he actively will get pissed at you if you hurt someone just because they were in the way of what you wanted. Hes not easy to anger but this will be something that really pisses him off

28.  When your character was younger, how did they picture themselves growing up? Does it differ from how they really turned out?Leaving otter and rose outta this one bc they are still….relatively young lol theyre only about 10 - 11 moons currently

CUCKOOCHIRP || cuckoo had a lot of self esteem issues growing up. He wasnt bad at training as a warrior, but he wasnt happy and it wasnt sitting with him so around them he probably pictured his grown up self as just. Another face in the crowd? Nothing special or important - when he went into seer training, his mood brightened a lot but his moods take major dips after losses, especially after the loss of robinstream and hazelnose. then , his future self would switch based on his mood: sometimes he pictured himself as well liked and a crafty seer who went down in history with a positive note, or on bad days he imagined he’d end up as a disaster seer that ran riverclan into the ground. Nowadays hes a good seer - he’s good at his job and he’s great at making friends and alliances, and pretty popular amongst the population of the season change setting!

NIGHTTHROAT || nightthroat when he was a kid probably didnt see his future self as..even existing. His mother constantly told him how hard life was and he trained under her strictly learning how to survive - his mother had lost litters before due to inexperience and by the time she had night, her biggest focus was making sure he had learned enough to survive. Any idea of his future self that night had wouldve boiled down to either being dead due to external forces or a hardened rogue living on his own, and rather lonely. However he joined riverclan and now he’s got friends that he loves and cares for deeply and his life isnt nearly as hardened or lonely as he initially imagined it would be

CHUBSTREAM || pretty cut and dry! He imagined he’d live a long happy life with his mother and sister in riverclan, and he’s growing up that path right now! He’s very content in life and with the place he’s at right now

50.  What’s their earliest memory?

CUCKOOCHIRP || goofing off with his siblings in the nursery den as his mothers watched on fondly 

NIGHTTHROAT || hiding out with his mom underneath a man-made object from the rain, seeking shelter until the storm passed and his mom would take him out onto a hunting trip

ROSEPAW || wrestling or playing a game with rook while his older siblings campionfang and thriftfoot watched on, occasionally dipping in with their own game for the two kits - he’d rarely see his father or yellowtail, but at least he had those three.

OTTERPAW || squashed beneath harrierkit as he tried to get away from a bath session lampreyface demanded, before wriggling out from underneath his older brother and shuffling next to shrewkit, safely wrapped up in lampreyface’s thick-furred, warm tail

CHUBSTREAM || minkkit nibbling on his ear in the middle of the night, only to get shushed in frustration by his very-tired mother because dammit minkkit stop trying to wrestle chubkit and go to sleep!

66.  If they were free to do anything, be it cruel, kind, or otherwise, without fear of repercussions, what is it that your character would do?

CUCKOOCHIRP || wander freely between other clan territory! He may be allowed to venture into shadowclan’s territory since shadowclan and riverclan are on good terms (and b/c apple and cuckoo are close), but windclan and thunderclan warriors wouldnt take kindly to cuckoochirp stepping over their border boundaries willy-nilly 

NIGHTTHROAT || talk about his own emotions without fear of how others would reject or react to him - maybe even ask someone specific out on a date. He’s a good mediator and he’s great at debating + speech but he rarely opens up about his own feelings

ROSEPAW || meet up with his friends whenever he pleased. He doesnt really care about borders as much, and he’d love to be able to cross and visit his friends in their camps whenever he wanted to!

OTTERPAW || word………………..probably just have a night to himself away from the camp? Or maybe just him and the cats close to him? Sometimes being in a large group gets overwhelming and he just wants to take it slow for a day

CHUBSTREAM || this isnt really a whole “fear of repercussions” thing but chub would love to raise a kitten/litter of kittens who viewed him as his dad one day but the opportunity hasn’t showed up yet. He wants 2 be a dad yo

69.  Do they enjoy facing their fears? CAN they face their fears? If not, what do they do in a situation where they’re forced to face them?

CUCKOOCHIRP || huoy……cuckoo definitely doesn’t enjoy facing his fears but he can do it. He can even stand up to someone who’s terrified him - and he will which you guys will see happen in action eventually on. He has his own ways of standing up for himself/for others and being defiant against what he’s scared of

NIGHTTHROAT || :)………………he deals with a great big fear in the comic and you’ll just have to wait and see how he handles that huh ;)))

ROSEPAW || nooOOOoooo he won’t even go near windclan territory because he’s scared of it. He’d rather chase his own thrills or what he’s comfortable with rather than deal with whatever petrifies him the most. He’d probably lash out and grow aggressive if placed into a situation where he had to face those kind of fears/trauma

OTTERPAW || another great big no to both! Otter has developed a severe fear of water/being in water due to his father, so he stays away from venturing into water. He grows sick/queasy when he’s so much as paw deep in water and often crosses the territory via dry spots. He relies on hollypaw heavily when he’s scared and he would panic and flounder if dropped into the water randomly 

CHUBSTREAM || i think chub could face his fears - he’s deeply worried about losing those he loves, especially with how close he came to losing minkclaw when she was injured by that fox as an apprentice. However if he ever did lose someone he was close to, he’d grieve but he would move on, eventually. Life goes on

[iamanartichoke]

I started typing this in the tags of this post, and it got too long, and then I was going to just reblog the post with this as an addition but that got too long too, and I've been meaning to make a post addressing free will vs. predestination since the premiere anyway, so - here we go. Spoilers, obviously.

Cut for length and spoilers. Please blacklist #loki tv series spoilers, #loki series spoilers, and #loki spoilers.

This is kinda rough and I'm not sure it actually makes any sense but I'm posting it anyway.

I realize that the post is a joke, obviously (and it is hilarious) but I started thinking about the implications and couldn't stop because it's honestly a goldmine of existential reflection and an inevitable crisis or three.

Let's look at a scenario.

Say you're late to work for reasons totally beyond your control: your neighbor stopped you to ask a question on your way out the door; you swung through the drive-thru for a quick coffee but the person in front of you is ordering a full continental breakfast ffs (this happened to me this morning); there was an explosion and then the Winter Soldier randomly dropped from the sky and landed on the hood of your car. Whatever. Shit happens.

So you're late, but on this particular day, your lateness somehow has consequences that lead to and create a nexus event and the next thing you know, you're being arrested, tried, convicted of time crimes and ultimately (a version of you is) erased from existence.

And this is if it's not even your fault you're late.

Now say that you're late and it is your fault. You took a new route on a whim and drove a little more slowly because you passed a particularly pretty meadow; you hit the brakes at a yellow light instead of speeding through bc you wanted the quick chance to check your email; you sat in your car for a few extra minutes in the parking lot, because maybe your job sucks and you really needed those extra minutes today to psyche yourself up into getting out of the car and going inside and clocking in.

These little choices are you exercising your free will. Because to me, free will is all or nothing - it doesn't just apply to the big decisions.

On the other hand, predestination means that regardless of the choices you make or if it's a big decision or not, everything you do is ultimately going to lead you to a set point or position or place (your destiny).

And I can kind of look at it like a GPS - that is, there are a number of "insignificant" choices you could make and they will still lead you to where you're predestined to go. Like how a GPS will reconfigure your route if you miss your exit on the highway. It doesn't matter if you took Route A or Route B, you're still going to end up at your destination.

But say sometimes the route does matter. Say that there are certain scenarios in which there's only one road (for example, 14 million losses vs 1 win) and you can only get on it by following a specific series of events and what determines the ultimate outcome is whether or not you're late to work that day.

If you decide to wait those extra five minutes in the parking lot, that means that you weren't in your cubicle at 9:03 when Stanley from Accounting wandered by with his giant stack of papers, and when Mary Sue said hello to him, he got distracted and tried to wave and ended up dropping those papers. Had you been at your cubicle, you'd have swooped down to help him but since you weren't there, Stanley is crouched on the floor alone and doesn't notice Joe coming at him with a paper trolley so when he stands up, he and Joe collide and Stanley loses his balance and goes face-first toward the trolley and breaks his nose when he hits the metal handle on his way down.

Now Stanley has to go to the hospital to get his nose set because you wanted to sit in your car and spend five extra minutes hating your life that morning.

If the sacred timeline says that Stanley is supposed to be in that ER at that specific time on that specific day, and no other set of circumstances would get him there, because this will ultimately take Stanley down the road to whatever greater journey he's supposed to go on, then it has to happen. But say you exercise your free will and decide not to wait those five minutes, because the free will applies to every choice you make, even the tiny, insignificant ones. You chose to put on your big person pants and took a deep breath and just head inside - and because you chose to do that and because you were at your cubicle to help Stanley with his papers, Stanley never ends up in the ER and the timeline that's supposed to happen is suddenly at risk and the TVA has to get involved (I assume).

So having free will introduces way, way too many variables into a fixed timeline to ever keep track, because you're taking these tiny, seemingly insignificant choices that people are making every minute of every day, and you're multiplying them by trillions of sentient beings in the universe, and you're saying the fate of the timeline and reality itself depends on all of these beings either always making the choice they're supposed to make or constantly sending the TVA out whenever they don't.

It's fair to conclude, then, that both free will and a fixed, single timeline can't exist at the same time. Either you adhere to the fixed timeline and everyone does exactly what they're supposed to do every second of every minute of existence, or you have free will and autonomy over all of your decisions, no matter how big or small, and those decisions can result in a number of outcomes, ultimately leading you to one of several possible destinations.

Case in point: Tony didn't have to snap his fingers in Endgame. He chose to. Had he not, Thanos would have won. It doesn't matter if there was one way to victory or 14 million ways to failure; the timeline could ultimately only go one of two ways and the choice Tony willingly made determined that Thanos lost. It wasn't predetermined because if Tony had not chosen to snap his fingers, the timeline would have gone the other way.

My personal belief - and this isn't necessarily for the MCU, but in general - is that we do possess free will and the future is ever shifting and changing because nothing is written in stone. It holds up against most, if not all, of the world's belief systems. For example, if you believe that people have guardian angels, the rule is generally that your guardian angels can help you but you have to ask them; they can't decide to intervene without your permission because to do so would infringe upon your free will.

Similarly, you can go on etsy and pay $5 for a funsies psychic reading or pay a lot more money for an in-depth, specific tarot reading and both will tell you that the outcomes may change depending on the paths you take, and that their ultimate advice is for you to keep your focus on your goals and your own self so that you can be subconsciously manifesting the best possible future for yourself. (Not that I know this from experience. It was one time. It was a few times. My point stands, and also stop judging me.)

To get back to the MCU, though - if you determine that both a single, fixed timeline and free will can't simultaneously exist, and your ultimate purpose is upholding said timeline and not letting anyone fuck it up, lest it break off into lots of different branches, then it poses a pretty serious moral and/or ethical question of - who decides what choices we make and what paths we're destined for? The time lizards? Who gave them that authority? Did anyone, or did they just manifest themselves into existence one day, create the universe, and then decide all of the rules (and, if so, where does that leave the norns and the gods and other super powerful beings who are generally thought to be in charge of things)?

If free will doesn't exist and everyone is acting based on what has been predetermined for them by some higher being (or, in this case, time lizards), it takes away our autonomy, and if everything we do and every single tiny step we take is decided for us, what makes us any different than cogs in a machine just following orders? What separates us from robots?

Speaking of robots, it's interesting to me that the TVA's screening process (if you can call it that) has a failsafe against robots specifically. Any robot that might come through is destroyed immediately and in this case, “not a robot” is defined, more or less, as a sentient being that possesses a soul. What does the TVA have against robots if their ultimate goal is ensuring that the robotic machinations of the time lizards are consistently carried out to protect the sacred timeline?

A soul makes you human; the energy of the soul is what you, at the core, are. It can be assumed that having a soul also means that you have some sort of moral and ethical code by which you live your life but, if you don't also have free will, then what is the point of possessing a soul and a moral and ethical code?

Loki is a villain and he's told by Mobius, the TVA, Odin, and pretty much everyone who ever meets him that the only thing he's good for - the only reason he exists - is to cause pain and suffering and death. This has been predetermined for him; this is not his fault and he did not choose it. And every single choice he makes has either already been destined as the choice he was supposed to make, or will be pruned so it won't grow into the wrong timeline. Ultimately Loki can change neither his final destination, nor the purpose and meaning of his existence.

Which leads me to the theory that the several Loki variants that the TVA keeps coming across are the result of Loki consistently resisting against his predetermined path; he's trying to find the timeline where he is able to latch onto and keep his own free will in defiance of the timekeepers but, so far, he hasn't been successful. This could segue into why the current Variant is now going scorched earth and just obliterating the main timeline completely - because if there is no sacred timeline, there's nothing dictating who or what Loki can be, and free will is regained. If there's a multiverse that branches and branches beyond anyone's control, then there must be a branch in there, somewhere, where Loki can exist on his own terms and decide how his own story goes.

This also might be a theory for why Loki is already setting his sights on taking over the TVA (assuming that's not just something he told the variant for reasons). But my original point in delving into all this is to ask: if Loki is predestined to always be a villain whose story plays out exactly the same way because that's what's supposed to happen, then how can anyone ever hold his misdeeds against him? He's literally just existing as the timekeepers decided he would exist and everyone is blaming him for it.

And this leads me to ask, as well, if one's soul is generally good, and one possesses more good traits than bad, what is the logic in making them exist only for pain and destruction? If it's for a greater good, then it stands to reason Loki is not the only one predestined for misery, and what greater good could come from all that suffering?

Conclusion: the existence of the TVA as an organization means that there is one fixed, sacred timeline but the existence of said timeline is immoral and unethical because it means no one actually has any free will at all in the MCU. The very notion of heroes and villains is pointless because it has nothing to do with your own qualities or morality, it's literally the luck of the draw. In order to have free will, the sacred timeline has to be destroyed, and so my prediction is that the Big Bad of the Loki series is not the TVA and not the time keepers but the actual timeline itself, and the entire fate of the MCU rests on whether or not Loki can ultimately succeed.

Also, don't be late for work.

[sarapii-peachy]

All Hail

Pairing: Ken/Reader (featured as Aurora), Wonshik

Storyline: fantasy!au, royal!au Wonshik is given a prophecy that could change the kingdom of Excelsius forever

Wordcount: 3,983

Notes: R-18 VIOLENCE, CHARACTER DEATH, SEX. This is a dark piece inspired by Shakespeare’s Macbeth (aka murder, betrayal). Hi. So, there’s a lot behind this. Ever since I first read Macbeth, I knew I wanted to write a drabble inspired by it so this is exactly what this is. Long time coming! Wonshik has this image of working himself to exhaustion for his music and it’s something he’s never satisfied with, and I know he’s so afraid of not leaving behind a legacy (the sweetheart) and this ambition led me to choose him. This is also to honor his 1st solo tour in Europe bc my man really out here doing that aye. Can’t believe I got to witness Kim Ravi tearing up the stage.

Also Ken in Iron Mask??? We moving from Prince Christopher to an actual king fight me.

// ☽ R A V I 

Wonshik is exhausted. The battle has left both his spirit and body battered. The elements are much harsher this close to the coastline, wind, sand, and sea spray stinging his face. His ribs ache with every inhaled breath and he cradles his left arm against his chest, strength draining from his body where the knife had pierced beneath his armor. Dried blood cakes underneath his fingernails. Blood of men who were nameless in his eyes, yet still had wives, lovers, children. His victims.

His mind flashes and he once again sees his comrades fall to the invaders, men he’d trained with for years. Men he’d shared his tent with, dined with, now lying cold in the mud. Death did not discriminate and took her prey with swift chance. Not even the most skilled soldiers could hope to rely on their sheer might whenever she lingered on the battlefield.

He and the remaining men quickly bury their comrades before the birds can get to them.

Consequently, Death had decided to spare Wonshik tonight. Rebels from a nearby rivaling kingdom had breached their shore, hoping to sack Excelsius. Wonshik had been sent by the monarchy to quell the invaders. They had been victorious, but at what cost?

He rides now, weary, with the captured enemy convoy back to the castle to bring news of their victory. The dreary landscape of the highlands soon shift to that of his home.

**

What strength he’d thought he’d lost slowly starts to return at the familiar sight of the castle as they pass through the stone gateway into the kingdom. The rain has stopped and he’s glad to get out of the wind, his men following behind as they shuffle inside the castle. They’re filthy, tracking mud and wet stink in with them and he feels warmth in his chest at the face Queen Aurora will no doubt make upon seeing him.

Two standing figures, the monarchy themselves, await him on the other side of the throne room. On his left stands King Kenneth, Patriarch of the Six Heavens. He’s a tall, striking young man with kind features, his full lips always turned up in a smile. The crown upon his raven curls add to his height and a mantle of gold and rich navy blue, the colors of Excelsius, rest on his broad shoulders. The embodiment every king should be.

To the king’s right is Her Highness Queen Aurora, Lady of Light, a charitable young woman and Kenneth’s one lover since boyhood. Her gown matches her dusky gold complexion, midnight hair plaited back up and away from her face. Her eyes humorously survey Wonshik and his tracked footsteps as King Kenneth moves to greet his friend. Like sunshine personified, a beautiful queen to rule by her husband’s side.

Ken embraces him warmly regardless of his dirty state.

“You’ve proved yourself again, Wonshik. Well done.” He chuckles and claps Wonshik heartily on the back.

“It’s an honor to serve and protect our kingdom, my lord.” Wonshik answers and can’t help the hints of a smile tugging at his lips. Being the childhood friend of the monarch always made formal conversation a bit strange to him.

A son of a nobleman, Wonshik has lived in Excelsius all his life and spent his adolescence playing, reading, and studying here in the castle. He had befriended the then prince Kenneth in riding lessons one summer afternoon, Wonshik there for his knight training, Ken for his aristocratic duties. The two boys soon became inseparable. Although Ken had to spend a majority of his time preparing for the day he would succeed to the throne, the two of them were still able to wreck havoc after lessons were finished.

Ken squeezes his hand on his shoulder and Wonshik’s smile flickers when his refound energy starts to fade and is replaced by the full burden of his wounds. The familiar toll of battle settles over his tired bones. Understandably, Ken withdraws his hand. Queen Aurora steps forward, her expression tender and gentle.

“Tonight, your hard work and bravery has given Excelsius victory. Your sacrifices will be remembered in keeping our borders safe,” She says softly. “We will hold a banquet in honor of your men. Please, rest.”

Aurora’s statement resurfaces raw emotion. Their triumph had been nothing less than bloody. He will sleep tonight in his warm bed, safe within the castle walls while slain men lay in shallow graves on the cliffside.

Wonshik swallows. “Thank you, my queen.”

He’s dismissed from the throne room and he hurries to his quarters to wash.

**

Wonshik’s quarters lie on the other side of the courtyard gardens. Even as a young boy, he’s always loved walking among the greenery, perfumed by wild roses and cherry blossoms, listening to the babbling marble fountain that stands in the center of the gardens.

Yet, Wonshik stops. Tonight is different. Something doesn’t sit well with him, making his already fried nerves buzz in unease when he feels a strange change in the air around him.

A silhouette blooms from the sudden mist rolling from his left. Her feminine figure is shrouded in a long white veil that falls to her feet, opaque, yet translucent enough that her features are just barely hidden. He knew a witch when he saw one, using her magik to masquerade as an object of desire.

“Wonshik, hail to thee, knight of Excelsius.” She breathes. Just by the sound of her voice, Wonshik knows of her beauty. Honey and silk. A second veiled figure materializes to his right.

“Wonshik, hail to thee, Commander of Her Highness’s Comet Guard.” Says the second. He sees the parting of her lips from behind the smoke-like fabric. He gazes into the veil but sees nothing but the hidden contours of her face. He feels himself slowly falling, losing his wit the longer he stares, his feet moving towards her on their own accord. He was no Commander, only a simple sergeant. What were these sorcerers spouting?

A third and final figure emerges from the mist directly in front of him. Wonshik stays rooted to the spot when she approaches. Her touch is intimate, cradling his cheek with a cold hand, looking up into his face as though to kiss him. She leans forward, a lover’s caress.

“All hail Wonshik, thou shalt be king hereafter.” The third murmurs.

He reaches for the veil, entranced, desperate to see with confirmed eyes the beauty that promises such high prophecy. The figure drifts from his touch. He follows with quick steps and it’s almost comical as the figure easily glides away, joining the two others as they start to circle around him.

“All hail,”

His chest tightens when he feels a warm breath fan across his neck. He turns on them, daring to prompt an answer.

But the sisters are quicker and simultaneously step back into the curling mist that now envelopes him. He’s left alone in the gardens as a rose scented breeze chills his skin, shivering in his own sweat and grime.

**

That night, he sleeps like the dead. He’s grateful for the freedom of no haunting nightmares or strange paralysis that often seized his entire body after battles. He doesn’t feel particularly rejuvenated, but neither exhausted the next morning, like having fallen into a deep abyss the night before.

Daylight is still new, even for a soldier like himself to be up at this hour. Yet, Wonshik finds it strangely peaceful to be up before the birds have begun chirping, the first rays of the sun setting fire to a silhouetted, dark world.

Dawn breaks red and beautiful.

His early rise has given him the luxury of a morning ride through the castle grounds and a few hours of privacy from his comrades before the banquet.

He knew his men well enough to understand that he wouldn’t be the only one uncomfortable tonight. His men had been celebrated with political dinners before, but this was a first for a military disaster of this scale. Although victorious, it wasn’t fair to be enjoying a party when so much Excelsius blood had been spilt.

As he sways in the saddle, his mind wanders to the strange prophecy from the night before. Commander of the Comet Guard? King? Ken obviously occupied the throne, what did this prophecy suggest? How would Ken be displaced? What would Aurora’s fate be?

Another shiver shakes his core as thoughts race through his mind.

No, the prophecy is impossible. Wonshik had no drop of royal blood and was sworn to protect the crown, just a son of a nobleman. Having it simply fall to him is outrageous.

The prophecy was nothing more than a fever dream, he tells himself. Knowing his post-traumatic symptoms, it doesn’t take long to convince himself.

**

In the evening, Wonshik is pleasantly surprised that he’s enjoying himself at the banquet. Surrounded by an intimate circle of his closest brothers in battle with Ken and Aurora seated at the front of the hall, the tense atmosphere he had anticipated is nonexistent, instead replaced with one of commemoration and respect.

A few attendants duck in every now and then to assist in serving the meal and musicians fill the air with gentle melodies. Hearty food, ale, and companionship have allowed Wonshik to relax for the first time in far too long.

As the meal comes to a close, the tapping of a glass draws the men's attention to the queen. Aurora places her silver fork down onto the table and turns to address the room before her.

“Gentlemen, your service these past few months have kept our kingdom safe from harm. For this, a certain individual has demonstrated exceptional abilities in the arts of Knighthood and deserves to be recognized,” She pauses to thread her fingers through Ken’s, glancing to him. She smiles softly. “My husband and I have long discussed this decision and it is with great confidence that we present this ceremony before you all.” Aurora pauses again, this time looking directly to Wonshik. When she speaks, her voice rings clear throughout the chamber. “The Crown now calls Sir Wonshik to come before this Court and Company.”

Wonshik rises, his queen’s command and his own internal military discipline instinctively setting his body in motion before he can question what he’s being called upon for. Aurora strides to the center of the room, the king at her side. Wonshik kneels before them.

“Bring forth Starlight, the Great Sword of State.” Ken instructs to an attendant. His tone is authoritarian, not at all like the shy, playful young boy Wonshik had befriended as a child. A servant enters with Starlight, a beautiful longsword encrusted with jewels the color of the sun. Aurora takes the blade and places it so it rests on the young man’s shoulder.

“Sir Wonshik, you have been deemed fit for the high estate of Commander of Her Highness's Royal Comet Guard. Do you now swear by all that you hold sacred, true, and holy that you will honor and defend the Crown and the kingdom of Excelsius at all costs?” asks the king.

Wonshik feels his pulse quicken. The prophecy.

Commander was a position he had sought after throughout his entire apprenticeship. So much pain, tears, and bloodshed, hours endured in the cold as a young trainee, the aspiration of someday commanding his own legion burning deep in his soul. Now, it was finally going to be his.

Was he being awarded for his genuine efforts or simply because of the witches’ vision? The second alternative made his skin crawl, yet here he stood before the monarchy. His mind clicks and the realization almost makes him burst out into sick laughter. He’s able to mask it with a soldier’s self-control, eyes respectively cast to the floor. He already knew the answer.

With his plan, the throne will be his.

“I will.” Wonshik states.

“That you will conduct yourself respectively, drawing your sword only for just cause?” Aurora continues, voice cool. “That you will enshrine in your heart the noble ideals of our Guard to the benefit of your own good name and the greater glory of Excelsius?”

“I will.”

“That you will honor, defend, and protect all ladies, and those weaker than yourself?” asks the queen.

Wonshik raises his head, gaze resting on the woman before him. Sunlight throws itself through the stained glass behind her, casting her in a dazzling halo of colorful light.

“I will.” He murmurs.

She steps closer. “Then having sworn to me these solemn oaths, I, Queen Aurora of Excelsius, do dub you with Starlight, and by all that you hold sacred and holy..Once for honor..Twice for duty..Thrice for chivalry. Arise, Commander.”

Wonshik rises with the weight of a thousand empires on his shoulders.

**

Excelsius is plagued with a tirade of rain the rest of the bitter autumn. Time passes slowly, each day marked by another bone-chilling day as autumn decays into winter. The palace hunkers down with crackling fires in fireplaces and drawn curtains, children and servants rushing inside with rosy skin and chapped hands.

Ken loves winter. The festivities that came about this time of year never failed to make him smile and his joy was contagious. The queen, however, hated the cold. Despite being wrapped in furs and constantly sipping at hot drinks, Aurora was always frigid and longed for summer. Luckily, Wonshik was always there to boost her spirits.

As newly appointed Commander, Wonshik and Queen Aurora spent a fair amount of time together. Reviewing sovereign borders and drafting battle formations, Wonshik was delighted to find that the queen was no stranger to warfare. Aurora was a warrior queen, unafraid of bloodshed. His admiration for her was mirrored in her own for the Commander.

One evening, the two of them have just finished studying some maps, clearing the table when a servant brings in a tray of spiced apple cider. As they drink, the two teasingly speak of Ken’s recent actions of erecting a huge evergreen in the middle of the kingdom square and of the recent snowfall to the north. It’s nice to be able to move beyond politics and grim topics of weapon effectiveness in battle.

“You’re shivering,” Wonshik says concerned, watching as Aurora’s shoulders tremor violently.

She dismisses him with a shake of her head, pulling a long sip from her drink. “Commander, don’t act so surprised.”

Wonshik moves to her side and rubs his hands against her arms. “I must keep my queen from falling ill.” He teases. She laughs softly and leans into his touch, enjoying the heat from the fireplace. They rest for a while side by side.

**

Aurora falls asleep with her head resting lightly on his shoulder. The fire has long died, glowing coals barely illuminating the study aside from a slight, dull glow. The two sit in darkness.

Aurora suddenly startles awake with a gasp. His hands come to stable her as she awakens to a sightless world.

“You’re alright, Aurora.” He soothes.

Her breaths calm and he can see her chest fall less rapidly. Her silhouette nods and then the room falls into silence, only broken by the howl of wind against the windowpane. The world sleeps.

“I’ve got you. I always will.” He whispers. He doesn’t move away.

“Commander,” she presses. A warning.

“Is my duty not to protect you, your highness?” Wonshik dips his head, whispering against the shadow’s bare neck.

“Tis, but-”

“And how is my queen in any danger when she is in fact most safest here in my arms..?”

**

Winter drags on, and with it, the queen’s seasonal depression. She stays cooped up in her chambers, coming out only when coaxed by her husband. The cold is taking a toll on her. Light no longer fills her eyes.

In the meantime, Wonshik regularly meets with King Kenneth to look over inventory supplies for the barracks.

“Her Highness seems unwell,” Wonshik would often state, asking if the queen was taking her meals properly.

The king would reply no with a somber shake of the head. But, she’ll perk up in the spring, she always does, he would add.

The Commander would smile politely. The time to strike was upon him.

“Yes, of course.”

**

At Wonshik’s suggestion, Ken invites him to a dinner to celebrate old times and the coming holidays. Just the two of them, good friends united over food and drink. Ken is delighted to share his company, to say the least.

The evening arrives, and with it, a horrible snowstorm.

It doesn’t seem to sour the mood, however, as Wonshik arrives to the chambers with a table set with delicious delicacies. Ken stands with clasped hands, a loving king to greet his friend as an equal.

“Come, we have much to talk about, no?” The king chuckles. Wonshik grins and the two embrace like old brothers.

**

The evening progresses with amusement and comfort and again, Wonshik finds himself enjoying the simple pleasures of life. It was remarkable how things could brighten up with loved ones and good cooking. He laughs with the king now, nearly spilling his wine as Ken recounts a story from their boyhood.

“..And you were so desperate to get her attention that you fell on your ass right in front of her!” Ken snorts. His face is flushed from his drink and he pauses his story to take another swig from his goblet.

Wonshik joins in laughing, feeling the room slowly spinning as he empties his own cup.

“Guess the donkey wasn’t the only ass in that stable,” He chuckles back. Ken howls with laughter, gripping his sides. He beckons for Wonshik’s glass and quickly refills it before wiping at his eyes.

“How thankful I am that we’ve stayed together after all these years, Wonshik,” Ken ponders aloud after a quiet moment settles over the room. He smiles at the soldier a bit sleepily and his eyelids flutter closed for a heartbeat. “A king and his childhood friend, the commander of his queen’s army. Side by side, protecting their quaint kingdom. It’s like something from a storybook,” He says almost dreamily.

“Aye.” Wonshik agrees.

Ken smiles again and his eyelids droop, features slowly relaxing as he drifts off to sleep.

Wonshik rises so quickly that the chair scrapes violently against the floor and stabs his dagger clean through King Kenneth’s chest.

Ken cries out with a wet gasp. His eyes fly open, struggling against Wonshik who only forces the blade deeper.

“Why..?” Ken pleads. “Was I a tyrant?”

He shakes his head. “Nay, a good king. So much so that this was the only way.”

Wonshik studies the look in Ken’s eyes as he continues to choke on his own blood. It’s a look he’s witnessed tens, if not hundreds of times on the battlefield. The look of life slowly seeping away as it leaves the body, the fear of death lingering behind those pupils. No matter how strong their bond, King Kenneth would never understand. Ken has never had to take a life and live with the consequences.

So, Wonshik begins to laugh like the unhinged man he’s now become. He pulls the king closer, forcing him to look at only him.

“Your wife is with child,” Wonshik breathes. “My child, my heir to the throne.”

Ken’s expression weakens. Tears glisten in his eyes and a new look clouds behind Ken’s pupils, one he’s never seen before.

Heartbreak, betrayal.

“My legacy will reign and yours dies now with you.” Wonshik snarls. The blade twists and the good king gives his last breath in the arms of his most trusted soldier.

**

When news of the king’s death spreads through the kingdom, it’s like a plague has spread with it. Doors are locked and villagers seldom come outside, the streets deserted and empty with families locked up inside their homes. Grief and fear weigh heavy over Excelsius.

An assassin, rumored to be from the infamous rebel kingdom of Exodus, had broken into the royal chambers and slain the king after he had retired to bed. Commander Wonshik of Her Highness’s Comet Guard had been the one to discover the mutilated corpse of his childhood best friend. He had arrived too late with the assassin nowhere to be found, only an open window leading out into the icy, winter night.

The monarchy is in complete shambles, a political disaster. Immediately, the Commander is nominated for his past service and intimate connection to the late king.

A quiet wedding and coronation crown Wonshik as the new king of Excelsius, Patriarch of the Six Heavens.

**

Quelling the political unrest is not an easy task and King Wonshik has much on his plate. Kenneth Lee had been a beloved, well respected ruler and the notion of a rogue Exodus assassin sparks a wave of hysteria within the kingdom. If the king hadn’t been safe, what was to become of the common people? Where was the Exodusian army now?

It’s a difficult, burdensome lie to maintain.

The following autumn, Aurora gives birth to a healthy baby boy. Wonshik concentrates his efforts on raising his only son.

**

Aurora starts to slowly wither away, some would say of a broken heart. The queen’s glowing complexion has fizzled out, the skin beneath her eyes tight with exhaustion and sorrow. Yet, she stays strong for her kingdom. Queen Aurora stations extra men on the borders and increases nightly patrols, reassuring all that they will be safe from war.

**

A few years pass and the prince is now a young toddler. The threat of an Exodus invasion has died out, though unrest has not dissipated so, a nervous energy remaining over Excelsius like a tensed bowstring.

Wonshik himself has lost his youthful charm, looking haggard and worn with each passing day. Surgeons, doctors, even shamans are called to try and address the king’s sudden failing health, though it seems nothing will do the trick. He’s losing sleep, seeing the phantom of Ken behind every bat of his eyelids.

One moonless autumn night, Wonshik and Aurora lie in their chambers as their son amuses himself with a toy ball in the hallway. He passes the ball between his feet in the doorway. Raven hair curls against his forehead, plump cheeks and full, rosy lips colored with youth. Dressed sharply in royal attire, he’s already very handsome for the tender age of three.

Wonshik’s mind flashes and suddenly he’s standing in the middle of a riding ring. A young boy stands beside him, looking quite sharp sitting atop a leather saddle and gives him a gentle smile.

“What’s your name? I’m Kenneth, but you can call me Ken.” Says the boy. It’s his son, but the phantom has Ken’s voice.

Wonshik can hear the prince’s excited laughter ring out as he chases the ball further down the corridors.

“Why does our child look like him?” Wonshik gasps in horror. Aurora rolls on top of him and plunges Starlight through his heart.

“Did you really take me for a whore, my lord?” Aurora spits through gritted teeth. She’s trembling, both hands tightly gripping the handle of the longsword sheathed inside him. “I was already with child when you tried to bed me. I am loyal to one man and you cast him aside like dirt.”

Wonshik chokes. The fabric of their white bedsheets bleeds with his blood. She grasps his face and leans in close, turning his head to the side and forcing his gaze out toward the hallway. The young prince continues to laugh as he’s heard wandering farther and farther down the corridors.

“Do you not see? He has his father’s eyes,” Aurora hisses. “He is not your son. Your tyrant rule ends here and Excelsius will never be yours.”

The good queen unsheathes Starlight from his chest and looks to the rising sun to the east.

[gayneral]

All those flowers, my dude

First of all thank you for asking, this will be longAlso as this took me almsot two weeks already I took the liberty of leaving some queastions out so I wouldn’t take even longerSince this was answered over a longer time span some questions that are aimed at certain days may be slightly outdated (ed what are u wearing today and such)

Alisons: Sexuality?I’m gay my dudes

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?He/Him, male

Amaryllis: Birthday?My Birthday is in June

Anemone: Favorite flower?This is gonna sound lame as fuck but I rly like roses, red ones in particular

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show?I can’t choose but here are some favorites:

Peaky Blinders, I’ve watched this one so often,,, Cillian Murphy was what got me into it and I stayed for beautiful scenes and atmosphere and the gang drama

Gotham, Let’s be honest, the best thing abt dc are their villains (also suuuuper into Robin Lord Taylor as Oswald)

Brooklyn Nine-Nine and The Office, i like these because they are easy, nice and satisfy my need to have something running in the background while I’m at home. (Also insanely sweet in the case of BB9)

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes?One I still remember strongly is from two boys kissing “you should all live to meet your future selves”

Also many of the poems by keaton st james deeply resonate with me so check those out (most are religious-ish just in case that’s a no no for you)

Aubrieta: Favorite drink?I gotta be boring and say water

I like hot chocolate and a special kind of peach tea and some soda I drank in brazil but water,, yeah I drink that most,, love hydration

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?Nope

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?I am, right now, at this very moment

Baneberries: Favorite song?I can’t give you an all time favorite so here’s a random favorite I currently like listening to: Sedated by Hozier

Basket of Gold: Describe your family.My family is not very big and actually hasn’t been a family for a very long time. Namely it’s my dad, my sister, my grandparents, my dads wife, her son, our dog and I. I have never experienced family in my youth so sometimes when I’m with them it’s all very odd. And sometimes it’s stressful. But it’s the first time I actually miss family when I’m alone at home, far away. I speak about my father and my grandparents further below but my sister is very sweet and I’m pretty protective of her, she and I get along a lot better now than before which is a common trait as ull see later.

We often take care of things, and are probably the most planning of the family. My dad’s wife is very good to talk to, having a very different perspective from my own and will always offer up advice. Her son is currently in pirperty and more interested in playing fortnite than anything which makes for some explosiveness at home. Our dog is cute and perfect that’s it.

Begonia: Favorite color?I like blue tones, but a dark, rusy kind of red is cool too

Bellflower: Favorite animal?Dogs Dogs Dogs. By far my favorite animal, they fill my heart with joy. Next up, Giraffes, funny big boys

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?Morning I think, I definitely work best early.

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?I actually never really had a dream job as a child. Not that I remember at least.

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?While I generally ain’t a big fan, like I’m someone very based on conversations so obviously that’s hard w kids. I am growing more to them. I’m far from wanting one but I think children are special in their.. Like innocence. They are beyond all the bitterness and hatred that we adults have. If only parents would be better lmao

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?I’m afraid of many things. Change for example. And failure. I think that might be because being perfect was important when I grew up and whatever I did it was never enough to my mother especially. Perhaps that has become so deep rooted that I tell myself I can not fail, which makes me very nervous and makes me worry too much.

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood.I spend lots of time on building sites and in hardware stores because my grandparents have houses and my parents often would work there too.

Buttercup: Relationship Status?Single

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?God I don’t know, I think it’s probably when I’m with someone I care about and it’s easy and light and fun and I feel comfortable and they tell me that they like being around me, or that I made them happy with something.

Canna: Do you have any tattoos?Nope,wanted to have some but money and shit

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?  I have my ears pierced, but it’s the earlobes so the most basic thing

California Poppy: Height?  I insist on 1,70 at least, I will not accept being under that.

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?In a way, yeah

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?My new boots, black pants, winter coat, black jacket, a blue button up and a lord of the rings shirt underneath. Obviously underwear

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?When I was a child for sure

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?A person from school, who’s also in fashion design, but a few years above me that I got to know bc of cosplay.

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed?My Ex

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font?God idk, I like oldish looking ones, elegant ‘n stuff

Columbine: Are you tired?Nah, actually not rn

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to?Sam visiting me in March

Coneflower: Dream job?I’m not sure, definitely something w sewing but idk if I wanna go theater or my own things

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert?Introvert

Crocus: Have you ever been in love?Yeh

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?Very very far

I’d say I’m pretty damn loyal and also give myself up easily even without noticing. If someone has my love and my loyalty they have my everything basically. Would I commit a terrible crime? I don’t know. Would I be real mean to someone or punch them? Yeah, if it’s reasonable w the situation I would (would it be affective? Not sure)

Give myself up? If we’re thinking real dramatic..maybe yeah

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?Gemini

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?Funny or stupid things? MaybeOtherwise honourable stuff, i don’t think so, i don’t view my actions like that.

I mean I survived, that’s pretty cool

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?Above mentioned survival. Which includes making it out of my mother and her boyfriends abusive grip and household. Moving away. Being true to myself. Dragging myself out of the hole I had fallen in for a while. Getting close w my dad and family. Believing more in myself and stopping things that are not good for me. Getting an apprenticeship that I like. Moving forward in life

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)?If it’d be my dad I’d sit down with him and ask him why exactly. I have had a relationship before in which I did not see how badly I was treated/ that I basically searched someone like my mother. So I’d listen, perhaps to prevent from making the same mistake again. If it turns out it’s nothing reasonable I think I’d tell him that I will pursue the relationship anyway and ask him to respect that and be as nice as possible to my partner.

If it’d be my mother.. No surprise she doesn’t even like me and honestly I wouldn’t give a shit.

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to?Did I say it? Not sure but written it in a letter, it was Sam

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?If my grades speak for themselves it’d be my apprenticeship, or like idk working hard about something I enjoy. I take this very seriously and give it everything I can. I’ve been told I’m good at talking, not sure if that’s true

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?I’m envious. It’s not that far that I am not happy for people, I think i generally have it under control but sometimes it gets the best of me and fills my stomach with nasty emotions.

Also saying stop. I do a lot for people, and I’ve been prone to letting people use and step on me for too long xnot standing up for myself

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month?The past month was actually absolutely terrible so not much to find here.Uhm..the bad thing that happened got our family closerI spend Christmas and new years w my familyI got amazing gifts and letters from my friends

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?Stressful. I worked on my semester project and I feel like hardly anything worked

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?I’m moving towards a happy place. But I’m definitely doing a lot better already

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?Finish my apprenticeship, surgery, be able to make my own money so I don’t have to rely on my dad so much (he does enough for me already) and so I can get more distance between my mother and I

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life?In no particular order

1. Dogs, god whenever I see a dog I’m happy because they are so cute and loyal,,,,,,,

2. probably everyone and their dog says this but my friends, honestly, I don’t know where I’d be without them. They helped me through terrible times in my life, are a constant source of love and joy to me.

3. my family. Since I didn’t have that for a long time I cherish it even more now that I do. It’s amazing to have a family that supports you behind you. I’m super grateful for everything they’ve done for me

4. the possibility to do the apprenticeship that I want to. it’s not always easy,,,I lack the money lmao but I’m so grateful that I can do this, because it makes me feel like I’m actually worth something in the working,adult world. I’m good at this

5. music. I listen to it so often, I can’t imagine not having music

6. sunshine, there’s something wonderful about going outside and feeling the warmth of the sun on your face, when it’s spring and winter has just gone by and you just have to smile because everything is bright and you’re surrounded by light

7. myself. Listen I dislike myself as much as the next guy but I’m working on appreciating myself and I am insanely proud of myself for coming as far as I have come. I don’t let myself feel it very often but having myself, it’s a good thing. I know my younger self would be very happy knowing that I did all those things for us.

8. something that makes me happy is creating, might it be art, or sewing or writing, anything really. It’s a pain in the ass and frustrating at times but I love looking at something knowing I did this, finishing it. And then looking back at it later and seeing how far I’ve come again

9. playing video games. It’s just fun to lose yourself in a story sometimes.

10. Christmas Markets. I don’t like Christmas itself. But I love the Markets, it’s the atmosphere of it. The food smells amazing and there are all those lights and there are kids with actual shining eyes because they see Christmas so magical and they are in awe by all the lights and honestly I feel the same awe sometimes when I’m on those Markets

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed?  Hardly anything lmao. Listening to music. Distracting myself with either talking to someone or playing/watching something. Tho that often makes me feel guilty on the long run. What helps if stress is overwhelming me is writing down what it is that is stressing, like making a list and trying to untangle the mess, looking at what I have to do one by one

Hellebore: How do you show affection?Since I’m A  big fan of honesty I usually just say it. I like to tell people when I get some emotion. Like just telling them that I appreciate them. I think it’s nice to just be told that sometimes. Besides that I do things, like I’ll send anon messages or offer help just assisting somehow. Like not always outright having them know it’s me,like affection from afar. And well I’m helpful when I care abt someone especially, like “I can do this for you”

And being super openIt’s not alway clever as experience has shown but to me offering up things about myself means trust means affection in a way. Like giving a part of myself to someone. lmao

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?Making it to this point, I wasn’t in a very good state just a bit ago. But with the help of my friends and family I made it out of it. I have an apprenticeship I enjoy, I have my own flat, I have something to stand up for again. I can appreciate myself some more. I was able to see toxic relationships i was in and get away from them and not let myself be guilted but seeing them for what they are and acknowledging that while I am not a saint it doesn’t mean that I have to accept any treatment. I stood up to my mother, even if just a bit that was a huge step for me.

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?I barely had  any of it recently so I can very much put what I want to do. Which would be drawing. I haven’t done that properly in so long and I miss it. Like both sketching stuff on paper but mostly full pictures, sketching, lining and colouring somethin. Having a full art piece at the end. Also Play Games. And talk to my friends. Haven’t had a nice hour long convo with Nina or Charlotte or Sam in ages and I hate that.

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?That’d be Charlotte and Nina

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?I would hide away in my room and imagine. Invent stories, characters, anything to distract me from how unhappy I was. I would act them out in my head when I laid in bed so I could sleep.

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?I did not treat someone that I care about very well a few years ago, I didn’t give them the honesty they deserve. I was an asshole. Even if we spoke about it, I still feel very bad about it.

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?Indulging. When I have things to do but take a break I always feel super guilty for not doing anything.

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name?It seems it comes from the Roman name Julianus, and was the name of a pangan Roman Emperor as well as a name of saints. Sometimes meaning youthful which fits because I look like a baby

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it.I grew up in a big city in Germany. Very busy City with high buildings and no time. I lived in a flat when I was very young, a room with big windows where I’d sit and look out ot. Then we moved into the house my dad still lives in. Where houses were built in rows and more people knew each other, I’d walk home and pretend to not see them as to not have to speak to them.

Then I moved in a beautiful flat in a more busy part of the city, with a bookstore in the same building and a supermarket right down the street. My hometown is best described in the colour grey. I dont think it very pretty if I’m honest.Still its full of memories and not half as bad

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?Talking about the one in the house. Light peach coloured walls. Small but with big windows to look out of. An old wooden bed in front of one Window, and even older Closet next to the door, already so old that it had been ancient when my dad had been young. A desk in one corner at the other side of the room, above it shelves filled with books, little trinkets on the windowsills. Cabinets filled with paper full of secrets. Posters on the Walls and a round mirror that I hated looking into when I was young.

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?  God no. I have repressed most of my younger years. My teenage years were filled with confusion and self doubt. I was a mess, I hated myself, not knowing who I was. And then knowing but being shamed for it, hiding away and keeping my head low to survive. Pushing myself to the limits and clinging to the thought that I could escape at age 18

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom.My Mother and I are not on good terms. I’ve spend countless of years desperately attempting to please her, hoping for love or anything close to it. I was constantly let down by her. My mother is someone that I fear I’ll never understand, adapting to the men that she is with. Claiming to have reached compassion and selflessness while being the opposite. Acts childish and has never accepted or supported me. Now attempts to lure in my sister whom I fear for as she’s always wanted my mother to love her. I have estranged from her very much and currently I am happy seeing her as less as possible.

Onions: Tell about your dad.  I remember my father as a very autocratic person in my youth. He’d always work and would only be home to cast judgement. We did not get along well, and my mother, like grima wormtongue, had influenced me further into seeing him as a terrible person. Now I see him very differently. In fact I am similar to my father. Hard working, well spoken and crafty. We share a similar humor and I am very thankful for his support over the last year. To me my father is a very good example of how sometimes people can actually change, sometimes second chances will not disappoint you. My father cares very much about our family and I am happy to have gotten close to him again.

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents.I won’t lose many words about my mother’s parents as there isn’t much to say about them.My mothers father was always sick, more often because he believed he was. The years before he died it had only gotten worse. My Grandmother was never really happy in that relationship, something I believe she handed down to my mother.

My fathers parentsWell, when I was young it was difficult, they aren’t exactly children people, despite trying. I especially had my difficulties with my grandmother, who was work above everything and wanted everything to be perfect.I remember her always fixing my clothing. Countless of instances of her and my dad arguing.

When I got older we had barely any contract until I had my coming out to my dad, who told my grandparents. Much to my surprise and I still respect that so much, they were immediately supportive and accepting, perhaps even more than anyone else from my family.

In the last year we grew closer. They helped me with my flat and would come over to set up a few things. I took them to a restaurant that my grandfather would always talk about whenever we talked, happily.

My grandmother and I had phone calls at least once a week, she was also the most interested in my apprenticeship, always curious, sending me old magazines and ideas she had. As well as button ups and shirts she had bought for me or old ones from my grandfather.She offered me support when we talked, told me they’d do anything they could

When my sister and I were getting clothing for my grandpa, as he was saying with us, I found a book on my grandmother’s bedside table.It was an educational oneIn it was also an article she had cut out of a newspaper, the title saying how the support of the family is the most important thing to lgbt children.

I miss my grandmother

Peony: What was your first job?I worked a summer at my mothers workplace. Cleaning watches and watch straps, replacing small things on the straps

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?We met 2014 on a cosplay convention in the city I grew up in. We met on the first day of that, where we all hung out in a group and then he and Charlotte spend the next day w us as well.

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?I bottle it up, focus on something that keeps me busy. Sometimes other people’s pain or doing things for them. Distraction from thoughts really. I’m best when I’m busy

Pink: Where is home?If you’d asked me a couple of months ago my answer would’ve been easy and quick. But now phew, I mean I call my place home as in “I’m going home” and I call my dads place home as in “I was home over the holidays”

But I’m not sure, not really

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change?I could go endlessly both about important historical events and tragedies as well as personal mishaps and bad choices. But eventually I actually think this is too big of a question to answer like this. I’m generally better in speech than word when it comes to things like that

Primrose: Describe your ideal life.Steady. As in a job that I like, that provides me with enough money to survive well. Not to worry about everything. Having Dogs, as that I something I always wanted. Living somewhere in the city (always dreamed of a Fachwerk House but yeah…), with the possibility to visit my friends that I am in good contact in. Living with love and happiness. With a connection to my family still as good as now. Perhaps with someone,,,

Rose: What’s your favorite sound?I love the sound of paper, like books, pages turning, things like that. Also soft rain

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory?I’m a Class A represser. So it’d probably be many things centered abt my mother.

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?  I want my semester presentation to go well tomorrow. That’s all I care abt rn

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things? It used to be harder in the past but I’ve gotten slightly better at it. I’m still struggling with feeling but it’s a work in progress.

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?My Friends and Family, cheesy I know but over the last year I’ve become more set in that. Once more I noticed how much strength those can give you. And also noticed how important they are to me by the way things that happen hurt me

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?7 hours, couldn’t fall asleep at first but that’s usually my minimum of sleep

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?School. I have a timed, strict schedule thanks to that and it forces me to get up until a certain time in the morning. That helps a lot actually

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job?I’m still in an apprenticeship but I enjoy it a lot

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?I have a new pair of shoes that are so beautiful I wish I had the look and body and style to wear them day to day. Also got some cool button ups

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.Look at this and you’ll see first hand https://www.pinterest.de/Gayneral/

I’m sorry I’m bad at desctibing my aesthetic. It’s like, historical stuff, museums, snowey Fachwerk, religious themed things, bee themed things, watches…

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?My semester project is due to two and a half weeks and I’m super nervous about finishing it like boooooy

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called?Sadly I’ve been super busy recently so I’ve only been able to read a tiny bit in my holidays, Acht Nacht by Sebastian Fitzek

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?Still in school, doing good, and enjoying it

Still having a good relationship w my father, my sister and that whole family

Still good with my friends, hopefully seeing them more often

(maybe in a relationship pls don’t @ me)

Generally happy, not having to worry too much

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?Thanks to tumblr I do, and I hate it

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.I take my school very seriously. And I have zero tolerance for those in our school that don’t.

[cabinofimagines]

Just a nightmare (Luke Castellan x reader) -Part one.

A/N: Hey there lovelies, I told you I was going to write some angst for the boy and I’m a Dove of word, so enjoy or not… also, “Y/M/P” is your mortal parent, obviously.

Words: 1,409

Warnings: Angst, but I’m not good at making people suffer that much so is just sad??

People lie when they say that love is hard.

Love is simple, it’s chemistry and actions, words and fond eyes; love is the action, so it’s the easy part.

What’s hard and difficult are people. They lie and hurt when they’re scared or don’t feel confident. It’s easy for people to just make others feel bad about themselves and that’s why you should be very careful when choosing your friends, more importantly when you choose to spend your life with someone.

That’s exactly why you chose Luke. Well, you didn’t exactly choose him, that’s not how love works; it was more like you fell in love with him and then proceeded to accept it as a fact. Luke was a nice guy, he was really close to you after all so there was nothing stopping you from liking him.

Sometimes, when everyone’s asleep and your mind is full of thoughts, the only thing that calms you down is to think about the day you and Luke got together, one of your favorite memories…

You were sword training, had been for days now, all because of the nightmares you were having:

“Y/N, you have to be careful” Y/M/P’s voice whispered, you tried to find the source but everything was dark like you were locked in a room. “someone will betray those you love, they’ll try to convince you to join them, you can’t let them win”

The same thing happened for several days, you were unable to have a good night’s sleep because you were now scared of what would you dream next and it got you a little frustrated to think about the part of “someone” betraying you, how exactly? there was no one in camp who could do something like that, especially when Luke had your back all the time. That cute and sneaky boy.

“It’s a little early for training don’t you think?”

You turned around smiling, almost stabbing Luke with your sword “Hey, watch where you point that thing!”

“Sorry!” you smiled apologetically “Yeah, uh, let’s say I’m preparing for any inconvenience”

“What do you mean?” Luke frowned “are you still having those nightmares?”

Luke knew about the nightmares, of course, he was kind of like your best friend, or at least the closest thing to it, you trust the guy with your life so why wouldn’t you tell him about some silly dreams?

“Yes,” you sighed tiredly, dropping your sword and sitting on the ground “I keep thinking that maybe they’re not just dreams, maybe they’re something more” patting the spot next to you, you motioned for him to sit, he did, smiling slightly.

 “Do you have any good reasons to think it might be true?”

“Not really, it’s just… I have this feeling, it gets bigger with each passing night and makes me feel sick like I’m about to throw up at any moment”

It didn’t seem important at the time, but now that you think about that distant morning you remember how tense Luke seemed every time you mentioned your nightmares.

“You know what?” He stood up, offering his hand for you to stand “Let me distract you” standing up, you walked closer to him.

“How?” you asked, tilting your head to the side.

“Let’s go for a walk after tonight’s dinner, maybe that’d clear your mind a little, and hopefully, you’ll sleep better as well” His smile was sincere, Luke cared deeply about you, he wanted to make you feel safe.

“Are you asking me out, Luke?” 

“Uh, yes?, I don’t know- you can call it whatever you want!” Luke’s cheeks turned red after his rambling, causing you to let out a small giggle.

“Fine, it’s a date then” you leaned and kissed the corner of his lips, a shiver running down your spine when you did “thank you for the support”

“Anytime…”

You were a nervous as hell at Y/G/P’s table that night, biting your nails and not touching your food in the slightest, you were making all your siblings anxious as well.

“Oh my god, Y/N!” one of your sisters exclaim “Can you stop? If it stresses you this much then just canceled the date, is not a big deal.”

“I don’t want to do that!” you replied “is… am I supposed to act differently? I don’t want things to get awkward or anything, I just want to forget my nightmares for a while…”

“Then don’t,” Mike, one of your older brothers said “act like it’s a normal night -which is true so I don’t really know why you’re acting like a lunatic- be chill, and He will be too”

“Alright” you took a deep breath, getting up from your seat “I can’t eat, I’ll go back to the cabin so I can grab a jacket before Luke’s done with his food”

“Okay,” Mike mumbled, his eyes already on his plate again.

Feeling the need to take all the time in the world to get to your cabin you walked slowly, feeling the cold breeze through your hair and the faint smell of sea and strawberries; you entered your cabin and two minutes after, someone knocked on the door.

“Coming!” you grabbed your favorite sweatshirt and quickly walked to the door, when you opened it, a smile appeared on your lips “Luke, I thought you were still having dinner”

“I was waiting for you, actually” He stepped back a little so you could get out of the cabin “then you stood up without saying a word and for a moment it seemed like you were trying to hide from me”

“I’d never hide from you,” you said sincerely, Luke smile a bit wider and reached out to gently grab your hand, something you were totally not expecting “Oh my- uh, should we go now?”

“Sure”

He was acting strange, in a good way though, He made jokes and kept you close to him, flirting shamelessly.

Surprisingly, you were comfortable with the actions, like it was meant to be.

“I have to ask” you suddenly interrupted turning to look at him “Why now?”

“Why now what?” He questioned, confused.

“It’s been years since we met, why are you asking me on a date just now?”

He seemed defeated, something was bugging him and you wanted to know what it was.

“Those nightmares you’re having… makes me think we might have less time than expected” 

“What do you mean?”

“All my life I’ve been protecting the people I love, Annie, Thalia… but I couldn’t protect them how I wanted to, especially Thalia” He sighed, holding your other hand in his, “I care about you a lot, if I could make your nightmares disappear I’d do it without thinking about it twice, but it doesn’t matter how much I do, the gods always find a way to make us miserable”

“Don’t talk like that” you tried to cheer him up “not everything is bad, yes we have a shitty fate being half-bloods, some of us are meant to live like that, but we have each other, that should be enough”

“I wish I had your optimism” He chuckled bitterly “it’s okay, Y/N, I’ve learned to live with it”

“Is not about resignation” you insisted “it’s about seeing the good parts of life, even if they’re small”

“Alright, you win” He raised his hands in defeat, laughing “You’re always right, you know”

“Of course” you smirked, you were going to start walking again when Luke spoke once more.

“You’re also right about having each other” Luke stepped closer to you “but you’re wrong about one thing… it’s not ‘just enough’, it’s all I ever wanted, pretty sure that it’s all I’ll ever need”

“Gods, that sounded so corny” you joked, trying to hide how much his words were affecting you

“Shut up Y/N, I’m trying not to faint” the boy laughed.

“I’ll be quiet now, I promise” you whispered, fighting the need to smile like an idiot “you were saying?”

“I was saying” He continued “You are the coolest girl in the world, and I like you, a lot.”

“Is this some kind of joke?, I swear if you-”

“Can you just shut up and say you like me back?” Luke interrupted.

“Which one? I can’t do both” you snickered.

“Shut up” He shook his head, leaning in and kissing you lovingly.

And that was all it took.

You spent the happiest year of your life laughing, training and loving each other deeply, you thought it would last forever.

Until Percy Jackson came to camp.

I EDITED THIS SHIT FOUR TIMES BC IT KEPT ERASING THE LAST PART WTF

hope you like it, it’ll be more parts so be ready.

-Danny :D

[lifesruiner]

There’s nothing holding me back

Sooo, this is gonna be a multichapter bc I am too lazy to think about 5 different ideas for this thing but I really wanted to participate, this is a really mess and no proofread it at all bc, when will I do? Hope you don’t hate it 

-II don’t wanna go -She sighed to her best friend who was just looking at her amused 

-We have to, all, otherwise we won’t look like a consolidated pack -Simón pulled one loose straw of her hair behind her ear 

-I know, but .. ugh -Luna was frustrated, but more that frustrated anxious -I don’t like to meet vampires, they are just so....

-Vampires? -He replyed amused and both laughed 

-You know what I mean Simon, why do we have to talk to them? -She pouted and Simon just boop her nose to make her giggle 

-Because this is their territory since god knows how many years, and people told me they are actually chill -Simon reconsidered the term, because vampires are never chill -I mean they aren’t as problematic as others, so if they accept to have us here we won’t have to go from town to town running away from hunters 

-And why don’t go just the two leaders? -Luna questioned him, she was scared yes, the whole past encounters with vampires never ended good 

-I asked that and he said that they need to know every werewolf of the pack, and Luna it’s their conditions, so stop whinning and let’s go, it’s almost time -He said standing up and she rolled her eyes following him 

They arrived with 10 minutes of anticipation, vampires weren’t known to be patiente beings so they stayed in formation until that time, first Simon alfa of the pack with Luna, his best friend by his right side, they grew up together after their parents were killed by hunters and that’s why they were that close, on the other side they were Pedro and Nico, Simon´s best friends also, the four of them were the first werewolves in the pack and behind Luna there was Nina, her best friend, the newest member and beside to her Jim and Yam they entered the pack just some weeks before Nina. Theyhave been a pack just for a little bit longer than a year that’s why they were still looking places to consolidate themselves.

When they felt some light steps they knew the vampire crew was coming, and they apperead in front of their eyes in less than 2 seconds, Luna took some seconds to scan them all, she started with the ones  in the back, they were two girls one brunette and one read headed, like all vampires they looked like straight out of a magazine no matter how old they were, not like werewolves, (puberty wasn’t really nice to them) then there were two brunettes guys one tall and the other one was the shorter of the group but was the only one that wasn’t looking at them with superiority, and in the front there was a girl and a boy, and Luna swore she had never seen anyone more beautiful in her life, the girl was blonde with blue eyes and looked like an angel and was hugging herself to the other guy who looked like a greek god, her hair was curly, that kind of curly you want to stroke and his skin was actually tanned, she didn’t even knew vampires could be tanned, and his eyes were deep brown, so deep that it’s hard for you to stop looking at them but when Luna realized he was staring at her back and smirking, a wave of heat went throught all her body making her look away fast, and stepping back of Simon to try to hide the blush on her face. 

-Thank you for accept to meet us -Simon was the first talk taking a step forward -I’m Simon -He said offering her hand and for a second Luna thought they would ignore it, but the other guy took also a step forward with the blonde still hugged to his arm and shook his hand 

-I’m Matteo -He said with a raspy voice, it was surely an accent but Luna couldn’t knew exactly what was -An they are my crew, Ambar -He pointed to the girl on his arm 

-His fiancé- she said and  just gave them something that could be barely descripte like a grin and Luna felt something in her stomach she never felt before, and surely she couldn’t describe 

-Ramiro -Matteo kept introducing the tall guy nodded -Gastón - the short guy waved at them with a very warm smile and Luna couldn’t help but gave him another one back -And Delfi and Jazmin -He pointed the brunette and the red headed respectively 

-Nice to meet you all, this is my pack, she is Luna -Simón said pointing at her and she tried her best to give them a sincere smile but when her eyes found Matteo’s her sight went inmediatly to the floor -Nico, Pedro, Nina, Jim and Yam -They all nodded as greet 

-Same, so straght to the point, why are we here? -Matteo asked taking control of the meeting

-We are what you can call a new pack and we are looking for a place to stablish ourselves, and we heard that you are one of the few of the vampires crews that doesn’t like to fight... 

-No, we love it -Ambar interrupted him with a cold grin that gave Luna chills

-Ignore her, please go on -Matteo said uninterested in Ambar and she pouted resting her chin back on his shoulder 

-Well, basically we heard that this is your territory and that you are not problematic and we would like to know if we could stablish ourselves here -Simon finished and Matteo’s eyes traveled throught the whole pack stopping on Luna on what seemed an eternity to her, then he went back to Simon -Do anyone have any good reason for them to not stay? -Matteo asked loud to his crew but without taking his sight out of Simon 

-Besides the fact that they are werewolves? -Jazmin said with a clear disgusted tone and Delfi bumped her with her elbow not subltle at all 

-No valid reasons, great then, one thing -Matteo said letting himself go from Ambar’s grip and started to walk all around the werewolf pack -People here is nice, we don’t hurt them, we protect them -Luna smiled hearing that, working side to side with vampires to protect people was an ideal that she never thought possible -North, East of the forest is ours to hunt, you can keep south and west, if you past that territory we won’t go after you, but we won’t trust you,and if we don’t trust eachother what is going to happen? -Matteo asked standing in front of Nina but the poor girl couldn’t say a word even if she would want to 

-War -Ambar said with a big smile on her face

-That’s right, war, and we don’t want that, right sweaty? -Matteo asked Nina again who just shook her head in denial -One last thing, try to keep your blood inside you, sobrenatural blood gives us a hard time to control ourselves -Matteo said very close to Luna’s ear making her do a little jump on her spot -And if that it’s all, we’ll see you around -Matteo said standing back next to Ambar 

-We’ll see you then -Simon nodded to Matteo and with that they dissapeared of their sight.

Once the meeting ended they could finally stablish in a big old manor  of the town that they found close to the montains where they were supposed to hunt and during the dinner they reunited all again to talk like every night 

-So, what did you think about the vampires? -Pedro asked to everyone 

-They weren’t that bad -Simon replyed nonchalanty 

-They weren’t? -Nina asked shocked, Luna knew how anxious Nina gets about everything and she was sure she never dealed with vampires before 

-You still have your blood in your body, so no they weren’t the worst vampires I’ve seen -Nico said a little mad, and Nina just nodded shy remembering how Nico’s little sister was killed by vampires 

-Yes they were kind of assholes, but what vampire isn’t? -Pedro joked to light the tension 

-Plus, there are mortals that are assholes too so I don’t think they are the worst beings -Yam agreed 

-And they looked actually, nice.. I guess -Jim said not sure if nice was the word she was looking for -Besides from the blonde and the ginger, they didn’t seem like hate us 

-The Gaston one looked actually really nice -Nina said in a low voice and they all could see a little blush on her cheeks 

-Oooh little Nina has a crush on little vampire dude? -Pedro said amused and Nina’s little blush turned into a whole tomato face 

-Wha... what? What are you talking about? Of course not -Nina rambled nervous trying to defend herself 

-I hope not, because you know a relationship between a werewolf and a vampire won’t work, never -Nico stated serious 

-Why won’t work out? If there’s true love nothing else matter -Jim said as the hopeless romantic she was 

-Because we get old and die while they stay like that forever, do you think that when you are 50 that guy looking like 20 would want to stay with you? to kiss you? to sleep with you? and even if he’s want to, wouldn’t be totally selfish to let them watch you die while they keep here? -Nico answered and they all stayed silence for a second knowing he was telling the truth 

-That’s harsh, but it’s true, that’s why they all stay with people of their kind, like Matteo and Ambar -Pedro said nodding and Luna couldn’t help but let a little disgusted sound out that only Simon percibied 

-And what about you? -He asked to Luna intrigued -You’ve been weirdly quiet since we got back 

-I have nothing to say, I think the same, assholes but could be worse so I really don’t care -She shrugged them off 

-Didn’t you care how much Matteo was staring at you? -Yam questioned in that pitchy voice she always used to talk about guys to her 

-Oh my god, I thought I was the only one who saw that, but he was totally eating you with those perfect brown eyes -Jim said joining her and they all laughed except Luna who just looked at them a little bothered 

-You are delirious -Luna said standing up 

-Where are you going? -Simon asked still chuckling about the girls behaviour 

-Walk around a little, get to know the twon maybe -She realized that Simon was about to offered himself to walk her so she interrupted even before he could say a word -Alone 

-But you are new here, it could be dangerous -Nina said worried for her best friend, though she was always worried about something 

-I think I can handle it myself -Luna said showing her claws and walked off the manor 

[go-redgirl]

There Are Many, Many Dark Forces In The Democrats Thats Serving In Congress!  They Have Tainted The Party Even Further To The Left Than Anyone Could Have Every Imagined.  Pure Darkness Have Infurtrated The Democrats In Congress And Blinded Them From The ‘Pure’ Light’ Of Goodness.  They Have Been Subduced By ‘Darkness’ That  Themselves Must Eradicate!😇

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Anna Vatuwaliwali Anna Vatuwaliwali 17 hours ago These two had bad motives...im glad they weren't allowed into Israel.

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REPLY View 43 replies anthony esparsen anthony esparsen 19 hours ago oh yea yes he did no way do not allow isreal haters into your home to tear you down ok no way

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REPLY View 3 replies Cara M. Trump Cara M. Trump 16 hours ago When someone doesn't want you in their home...you don't get to go in their home. See how that works.

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REPLY View reply Steve ROGERS Steve ROGERS 17 hours ago GOOD JOB.... THEY ARE ANTI-AMERICAN AND ANTI-ISRAEL... HAVE NO PLACE IN THE WORLD ...

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REPLY View 8 replies Truth Seeker Truth Seeker 20 hours ago Israel keeps radicals out of its country   😃

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REPLY View 8 replies JZWALZ51 ROBIN JZWALZ51 ROBIN 16 hours ago The term "enemy of the state" applies to them, therefore Israel should not grant them entrance.

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REPLY View reply Mrs. Garcia Mrs. Garcia 18 hours ago They both claim that Israel is the #1 enemy publicly from a position of power then they're surprised when Israel denies them entry...only in America's 2019 I swear 🤦

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REPLY View 9 replies Humble Life Humble Life 17 hours ago Do not feed enemies Omar and Tlaib.

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REPLY View reply Lasno Haja Lasno Haja 16 hours ago Israeli govt. were just trying to protect them both from 'potential  broken-neck accident' in hotel rooms if they entered israel.

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REPLY Elianna Warner Elianna Warner 15 hours ago Illhan Omar: says anti-Semitic things Israel: bans her Illhan Omar: surprised pikachu

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REPLY PLP PLP 17 hours ago Israel doesn't owe a duly elected member of Congress anything!

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REPLY View 3 replies juju bean juju bean 17 hours ago I want an interviewer to ask Omar what it was like when Israel's door hit her in the face

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REPLY View 12 replies fredc61 fredc61 17 hours ago The USA shouldn't allow people in, that are against our rights and freedoms, either.

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REPLY View 2 replies thelma lou thelma lou 17 hours ago Oh sure..they want an anti semetist in their country..Really omar

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REPLY hecke1959 hecke1959 19 hours ago They probably went there to say they support Hamas.

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REPLY View 9 replies jeanthree jeanthree 20 hours ago they got what they deserve

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REPLY C. Buck Hyres C. Buck Hyres 17 hours ago Israel did right by barring these two troublemakers from their country.

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REPLY View 3 replies andrew nunez andrew nunez 17 hours ago I can't wait till elections are here so they can get the hell out of Congress.

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REPLY View 5 replies R James R James 17 hours ago HAHAHAHAAA BANISHMENT OR EXECUTION!! NO THIRD OPTION.

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REPLY View reply antony reed antony reed 16 hours ago a strong reaction to another  fire starter . god bless Israel

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REPLY ZIG ZAG Ground ZERO ZIG ZAG Ground ZERO 21 hours ago We STAND United Against the Anti Semitic SQUAD of CON's .

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REPLY View 13 replies Barry Smith Barry Smith 14 hours ago israel defends it's borders, and it's people.  the two haters got a lesson in consequences for their hate speech.

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REPLY Jackie Young Jackie Young 19 hours ago Just remember ANYTHING from the news is only half truth or shown something that stops at a certain part to make it mean something different. We are NEVER told the truth from any news station.

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REPLY View 2 replies Jackie Young Jackie Young 19 hours ago I agree 100% with Israel. They should have gone with the rest of their group they may have been allowed in. I'd like to know why they didn't? Plus its odd that both stayed back but yet wanted to go together just the 2 of them. Make you wonder what they really had planned.

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REPLY View 24 replies drdecker1 drdecker1 19 hours ago It would of been like inviting Hitler into Jerusalem ! Great job Israel !!

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REPLY View 5 replies jon lao jon lao 14 hours ago GOOD DEECISION NOT TO ALLOW THEM ,, THEY WILL JUST WASTE OUR TAX PAY FUNDING THEIR TRIP..

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REPLY kc Cox kc Cox 17 hours ago Omar and Talib are anti-semetic. Why would they go to Israel other than to criticize and boast their boycott? Palestinians shoud oust Hamas and get busy building a nation.

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REPLY sinno core sinno core 19 hours ago Good job Israeli Prime  Minister and We stand with Israel!

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REPLY View 14 replies DEAF CHIHUAHUA DEAF CHIHUAHUA 15 hours ago "YES YOU ANTI-SEMETIC BITCHES!!! You've been BANNED!!!!!

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REPLY View reply Gary Banks Gary Banks 19 hours ago I wouldn’t let them in either. They are nothing more then trouble makers.

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REPLY princess cooker princess cooker 17 hours ago The press are enemies of this country

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REPLY Dilip J Dilip J 17 hours ago good job Israel 🇮🇱 🇮🇱 🇮🇱 🇮🇱.. 👍👍👍👍👍👍 you done the right thing.. excellent

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REPLY View 3 replies Deborah Buhrman Deborah Buhrman 17 hours ago It figures Bernie would speak up for Omar, He is a GLADIIMERR WANNABEE! He will never see the day, not DOUBT he is probably a spy!

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REPLY View 5 replies Patrick McCarthy Patrick McCarthy 19 hours ago Ilhan and Talib are anti Semitic and should be ashamed of themselves.  I am so glad Israel is deciding to keep them out.

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REPLY View 2 replies PART TIME PREPPERS PART TIME PREPPERS 11 hours ago Poor Omar..."some people" just did something to her!🤣

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REPLY Oz DE Oz DE 16 hours ago No major opponent... mmm... is she gunna run while doing time?

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REPLY marcus kervy marcus kervy 14 hours ago They should be banned from the United States as well. They must be voted out in 2020. Enough is enough.

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REPLY View 2 replies mario garcia mario garcia 17 hours ago KEEP OUT ALL EVILS 2 dogs of hell

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REPLY Teri Badeau Teri Badeau 18 hours ago This is their fault!!  It was Israel’s decision!  President Trump did NOT DECIDE THIS!!

These despicable woman have NO place in Congress!  Omar committed immigration fraud!  She married her brother!  And tax fraud!!  She better be investigated & thrown into jail!  Then be deported!!

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REPLY View 6 replies JAG JAG 20 hours ago (edited) I think Israeli took an outstanding step to show how worthy you and your country are.  Keeping these woman from stepping into your country protected your from disrespecting your country and people.

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REPLY View reply Adrienne Bowman Adrienne Bowman 14 hours ago SHE COULDN'T respond bc her people had to tell her what to say

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REPLY Shirley Lee Shirley Lee 17 hours ago I Love this lady's syrup Thanks Aunt Jemima!

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REPLY Paulus Rex Paulus Rex 15 hours ago Netanyahu should have allowed them in and then dropped them off in the 

middle of Gaza without an escort....

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REPLY View reply Bmw EM Bmw EM 16 hours ago can they be banned from congress?

some idiots unknowingly voted for them,

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REPLY Blue Skies Blue Skies 6 hours ago Amy leader of any country can ban who they want regardless of who they are.

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REPLY Fr Louie Goad Fr Louie Goad 5 hours ago She Never had any desire to go, Only make a political issue of it. They love to keep their face in the news every day.

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REPLY Rk0788 k Rk0788 k 17 hours ago This is the best news of the day.

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REPLY john liao john liao 17 hours ago yeheey god bless Israel and america😊😊😊😊😊😁😁

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REPLY Virgil R Virgil R 16 hours ago Both of them should be banned for life... HOW BOUT THAT? 😂🤣😂🤣😂

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REPLY View reply Sue Rosser Sue Rosser 8 hours ago Thank you God for answering my prayers. We all need to pray for them to be silenced. I am.

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REPLY Alex Vouitsis Alex Vouitsis 10 hours ago Media 》Embrace Omar Commentary 》Embrace Israel. I'll go with the latter.

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REPLY rkt.smokey3 rkt.smokey3 16 hours ago Omar is a LYER and will NOT BE RE-ELECTED!!

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REPLY This is Grogirls This is Grogirls 14 hours ago Praise God!! Way to go Israel! Keep the dwvil at bay

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REPLY Russell Gay Russell Gay 6 hours ago So, "Some people did something" to her. She holds her chest out for Al Qaeda! Our ENEMIES!

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REPLY DuffnotFudd Willington DuffnotFudd Willington 5 hours ago 70 members of Congress have spent all of this week in Israel.  Why didn't Omar travel with them??

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REPLY Petro Phishhed Petro Phishhed 13 hours ago Vile filth...DENIED!!!  (Wayne’s World) 🤣👍🏽

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REPLY E de Montfort E de Montfort 18 hours ago Those nasty witches got exactly what they deserved; they actually deserve worse than being barred from Israel. They should be thrown out of Congress, however that is done, and charged with hate speech, sedition and connections with jihadists. Omar should also be charged with bigamy, immigration fraud and income tax evasion.

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REPLY Blessings福壽 Blessings福壽 16 hours ago What’s wrong with people in Minnesota!? Through Omar out of country! We don’t need her!

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REPLY rina perez rina perez 16 hours ago (edited) Haha haha It was so good both Omar and Tlaib was banned entering Israel. They will bring violence to Israel

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REPLY David Williamson David Williamson 20 hours ago THEY WANT TO BOYCOTT ISRAEL  !!! SO ISRAEL  IS BOYCOTTING THEM !!! GOOD JOB  !!!! 😎😎😎😎😎😎😎

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REPLY View reply Mind Blowing Mind Blowing 17 hours ago They should thank president Trump for the re-election? Actually, we should all thank President Trump for revealing the corruption in these two womens.

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REPLY View 6 replies James Westhaver James Westhaver 19 hours ago The two congresswomen are anti-American and anti-Israel ... !

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REPLY View 10 replies Robert Hooks Robert Hooks 4 hours ago cry me a river!   Welcome to the big  LEAGUES!     ACT LIKE A DOG .......TREATED LIKE A DOG! NO HARM NO FOUL .    COMIC GOLD.

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Rans S Rans S 15 hours ago Excellent move Israel, these 2 gutter rats only had bad intent for their visit.

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REPLY Relativity1 Relativity1 12 hours ago I was hoping Israel would let them in, let them meet their hamas buddies then just blow them all up.

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REPLY Louie Montes de Oca Louie Montes de Oca 4 hours ago Outstanding Israel for not letting these radical extremists in😂👍

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REPLY bruce creamer bruce creamer 21 hours ago U reap what u sow

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REPLY Ronnie Bishop Ronnie Bishop 15 hours ago Omar will be placed in jail for IRS violations ,

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REPLY Blankie Ruiz Blankie Ruiz 14 hours ago Both can fuc__ themselves and for hell, get out of our country worms

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REPLY Josh Ington Josh Ington 19 hours ago Because some people did something

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REPLY knessi ng knessi ng 20 hours ago Not surprised that Israel banned two anti-Semites, and who are working on boycotts on Israel, into their country.

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REPLY View 2 replies alan schneider alan schneider 21 hours ago Israel is Smart keep them out nothing good about them.

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REPLY View reply Lucky Luciano Lucky Luciano 3 minutes ago Hes right .Trump is a 100 % correct God Bless President Trump

REPLY TOMMY VIGIL TOMMY VIGIL 20 hours ago After Omar's tax and campaign fund fiasco, the only place that she is going to visit is a jail cell.

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REPLY View 23 replies s smswaff s smswaff 17 hours ago I barf when I hear Maher's voice.

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REPLY Darlene Hanfmann Darlene Hanfmann 18 hours ago Love that the DS is getting shut down all over

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REPLY Kyle Williams Kyle Williams 12 hours ago “If you are not careful the newspapers will have you hating those being oppressed while praising the oppressor”. - Malcolm x

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REPLY Dead Mic Live Dead Mic Live 17 hours ago She isn't welcome in this country either!!!!

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REPLY Pat Summers Pat Summers 4 hours ago we should have barred you from being a congresswoman

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REPLY Honda Team Honda Team 5 hours ago Those two women need to get out our country. They are hate America and they should leave!

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REPLY Baba Yaga Baba Yaga 20 hours ago Israel thank you!!!

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REPLY Ben Ben 17 hours ago I thought the "My Pillow Guy" was running against Omar???

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REPLY View 3 replies john hutcheson john hutcheson 2 hours ago Cry me a River "girl squad".

REPLY Its only me! Its only me! 4 hours ago Would Ben Shapiro be allowed to go to Iran.

REPLY EL EL 12 hours ago OMAR and TALIB are terrorist sympathizers! Good decision to keep them out of Israel!!  They just wanted to incite violence!   Shameful!🙏🏻🇺🇸

REPLY Allan Dickman 5 hours ago Israel have done the right thing these two are abusing their office and don't deserve a platform

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REPLY Coffee Break 19 hours ago Wonder why no one runs against her? ………. Look deeper into 'The Squad" & you will be surprised !!

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REPLY View 2 replies Dana Sleeper 15 hours ago Reap What You Sow!!! So Quit Whining!!   You Two Earned This!!!

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REPLY Anna Vatuwaliwali 17 hours ago GOOD...THANK YOU ISRAEL.

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REPLY The Sprite Show 8 hours ago She was denied For her own safety. She would get stoned by radical orthodox people. Be glad you can’t enter dummy!🤷🏽‍♂️🤣😂🤣 Good job Israel.💪😉

REPLY stangmaster 2 7 hours ago Has this ever happened to any other country we are not at war with? First term congresspersons that admit they want to stir up tensions.

REPLY Tobacco Road 7 hours ago God Bless Israel. I completely agree with BB and the Israel government. They hate America too..They are nothing but ingrates. All of them are ingrates.

REPLY Dennis G 44 minutes ago Omar now finds out that there may be consequences for talking BS!

REPLY Summa Rhein 15 hours ago Go to hell Omar and Tlib , is I forgot you left thereto come here and try to destroy us!

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REPLY boh7em 6 hours ago Obviously Israel doesn't adhere to the philosophy and teachings of Jesus. And Trump continues to spread his fear and hate for political gain.

REPLY Doc Holliday 6 hours ago Too bad we cant ban her and the other members of her "4 SISTERS OF THE APOCALYPSE" FROM THE   UNITED STATES ........ USELESS TRASH AND A DISGRACE TO THE WORLD. CANT WE "IMPEACH" THEM ?!!

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REPLY dosia1 boby 5 hours ago 20 000 Somali elect Omar -how she represent American people... she is not going because she realize that she have to pay for her ticket

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REPLY Barb Mtylor 5 hours ago Omar and Tlaibs are sick unhinged animals.

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REPLY D Loui 16 hours ago islam is not a peace religion .... you can't reason with them

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REPLY Americus Patrioticus 15 hours ago Ilhan Omaar was banned from Israel because Ilhan Omar has been waging a nonstop war of words against Israel since she took office and before.

[jeonjungsmut]

One night in a strange city

Chapter 4 Take me to the sky

In all the time you’d stayed at this hotel you never really looked at the lift you used every day. It was huge, with glass mirrored panels on three sides, leaving only the doors plain metal sheets. You didn’t see the mans face as you entered, you only caught a glimpse skin as you took your place behind him in the lift. He was tall, light brown hair poked from underneath his cap and tanned skin crept from under his loose blue shirt. The pattern on his collar made it look like snakes were dancing along his neck, intertwined and colourful. His white trousers were very loose, almost pooling at his feet where you saw his red and green stripped slippers. You could see nothing of his face as he wore big dark shades and an equally dark mask across his mouth. His white headphones trailed down his chest, blasting sounds you weren’t familiar with. You noticed how good he smelt, coconut and peach, you decided. You checked your phone, only 10 minutes until you left and Alicia and Zarena were already in the lobby waiting for you. The lift started it’s descent to the lobby floor and your thoughts fell on the mans hands. Something about them was so familiar to you but you couldn’t pin point it. Just as things were clicking in your head the lifts lights flickered and then died as it jolted to a stop, throwing both you and the man to the floor.

Fuck.

You grappled in the dark until you found your phone, panic quickly setting in. You dialled Alicia’s number and prayed you still had service. The man started to speak in the foreign tongue you had gotten familiar with over the past couple years however all familiarity was over shadowed by fear as your best friend finally picked up.

“Hey where are you? We’re gonna leave soon.”

“I’m - I’m stuck in the lift.” You spoke, trying to hold back the inevitable tears from falling.

“What do you mean stuck? Like the lift is broke?”

You nodded before you realised you were on the phone. “Y-yes.”

The panic on your voice evident, Alicia told you to calm, breathe and that she’ll do what she can and you’ll be out soon. You listened without really listening, tears now falling in a steady stream and the attack pushing you into the corner of the lift.

“Erm- hi? Sorry I, only know a little, erm English.”

You looked up into the dark as the man spoke to you, his deep voice and broken English somehow soothing you.

“Are you, okay?” You could hear him shuffle closer till his hands were around your shoulders, stroking down the length of your arms to stop you shaking, you regretted just leaving your jacket and not changing it.

You nodded, not able to trust your voice.

“It will, will be good. Okay. Will be okay.” You could hear the smile in his voice. “What is your name?”

“R-” you coughed to clear your throat. “Rhii.”

“Rhii?? Aw so pretty. Im Kim tae- erm Taehyung Kim.” He hummed to himself, his voice still slightly muffled by his mask.

“What?”

“Taehyung, just call me T.” He laughed. It was so melodic, so beautiful and full. It was then it all finally clicked. It really was him. Him. The love of your life. Kim Taehyung. In the flesh.

“I- I know who y-you are.”

“Ah you know BTS?” His voice smiled again.

“Y-yeah. A lot.” You could feel the tears turning from fear to joy. You couldn’t believe what was happening.

“Ah good.” He laughed again. “Me your favourite?” He laughed, louder and clearer this time so you gathered he had removed his mask.

You nodded fast, shocked and confused, sure you were dreaming.

“Good. Mmm.” He kept humming to himself as his fingers made small calming circles on your shoulders.

“RHII???!?!? CAN YOU HEAR ME?!!!”

“.온 세상이 너의 말을 들을 수 있어!” (The whole world can hear you!) Tae said to himself.

“들었어요, 꼬마 아가씨!” (I heard that, brat!) Alicia shouted back.

“와, 무례해요.” (Wow, so rude.) Tae bit back.

“Alicia?” You said weakly.

“Rhii?!? Rhii oh my god are you okay? They are sending a fire service out now to come set you free. How many of you are in there?!?” Her voice was cloaked slightly by the metal doors but you could hear her enough.

“It’s just me and Tae.” You replied, but your voice failed.

“이 엘리베이터 안에는 우리 둘이 갇혀 있습니다.” (There are two of us stuck in here.) Tae shouted for you.

“와우 괜찮아요 둘 다 괜찮아요? 그녀는 잘 지내니? 정말로.??” (Wow okay. Are you both okay? How is she doing? Actually??) Alicia spoke loud and confidently, thank god one of you knew enough Korean to get by, you knew enough to understand the main points of what they were saying tho.

“나는 그녀가 잘 지내고 있다고 생각한다.” (I think she is doing okay.) Tae smiled down at you, you couldn’t make out any features but you had spent so much time looking at his unreal face you knew exactly what was looking back at you.

“They are here. They’re coming up now.” You could hear Zarena, panting slightly as she’d probably ran.

“Ah, see. Everything is okay.” He hummed a smile and you realised then you had stopped crying. You felt safe. Perhaps safer than you’d ever felt before.

“뒤로 물러서라!”(stand back!!) You heard a new voice yell.

“He says stand back!! Don’t be near the doors!!” Alicia yelled in translation but you already understood and yourself and Tae had huddled further into the back corner of the lift.

Loud bangs and crashes followed as they tried to pull open the doors. You could hear machines and more yelling, mainly alicia yelling.

In fact completely alicia yelling.

“She’s, eh, loud.” Tae laughed, his body vibrating against you, his face so close to you now you could feel his breath on your neck.

Finally the fire service managed to wedge these two giant claws inbetween the lift doors and the booming sounds of mechanics told you that they were starting to move, to pull apart the doors and set you and the man you love unconditionally free.

“JUST HOLD STILL IT WONT BE LONG NOW!!” Alicia yelled and you felt yourself be calm for the first time so you allowed yourself to sink into Tae’s arms and breathe in his scent, his beautiful warm scent. His arms felt like they wrapped around you a million times, making you feel protected.

The claws moved the doors open further and further, light flooding in and almost blinding you. You lifted an arm to cover your eyes from the intrusive lights as Tae started to stand and pull you up with him.

“They said to, climb over the, erm space.” Tae pointed to the gap the claws had made. The lift must have stopped between the first and bottom floor so you’d have to climb in order to get on the first floor. You nodded and made your way towards them, still not able to fully see. Tae placed a hand on the small of your back to stop you from falling and help you keep balance. You got to the gap and started to climb through, taes hand slid from the small of your back to under your thigh, helping you climb over the small ledge to freedom. The feeling of his skin on yours made you gasp and freeze, but Tae didn’t seem to notice or if he did he pretended he didn’t as he pushed you up and through the gap, his hand slowly sliding up your thigh as he did so. The strong hands of the firemen lifted you the rest of the way and you felt yourself fall into Alicia and Zarenas awaiting arms. You looked down at yourself, your dress was covered in dust and you’d managed to rip the hem as you climbed out. Fuck.

“Oh shit, I loved this dress!” You moaned.

“감사합니다.(thank you).” You heads a familiar voice say roughly and turned to see him being pulled out of the lift, dust now covering his blue gucci shirt.

You looked at him, unable to speak as you still didn’t believe it was real. He locked eyes with you and visibly took a breath. His eyes slowly raked up and down you, catching his bottom lip in between his teeth as he finally brought his eyes back up to yours.

You swallowed the lump in your throat as you felt your legs walking towards him without you asking them to.

“Hi.” Tae spoke deeply, smiling like an idiot, not able to look you in the eyes now you were so close to him.

“H-hi.” You cleared your throat. “Hi.” You spoke clearer.

“Wait wait wait. You were stuck in a lift with kIM TAEHYUNG?!?” Zarena screamed, following me and standing next to your side.

You turned to face her. “I erm yeah. Apparently.” You laughed, still in shock.

“Hi.” Tae said to her and then turned to alicia. “Thank you for, eh the help.”

“천만에요. 네 영어실력은 훌륭하다..( you’re welcome. Your English is very good).” Alicia spoke to him, surprisingly you found yourself understanding.

“감사합니다. 한국어는 매우 잘합니다. (Thank you. Your Korean is very good).” Tae answered her warmly.

“감사합니다. (Thank you).” Alicia seemed to finally click who was in front of her bc you noticed she got very shy all of a sudden.

“야, 무슨 일이야?. (Yah, what happened to you?)” you heard a voice behind you yell and you turned to see non other than the bangtan boys themselves in all their glory.

“나는 엘리베이터 안에 갇혔다. 우리는 방금 해방됐어요.(I got stuck in the lift. We just got set free).” Tae replied, appearing next to you. Namjoons eyes flicked to you and then back to Tae.

“우린?(we?).” He asked, cocking his head to the side.

“Oh! This is, erm, name is Rhii.” Tae said smiling proudly.

“Hello.” You spoke softly.

“Hi.” Namjoon eyed you warily. “Are you okay?” He asked you.

“Yes I’m okay thank you.” You replied, still taking it all in.

“그럼 너는? 당신 괜찮아요?(and you? Are you OK?).” Namjoon asked turning back to Tae who nodded enthusiastically. “Good.”

“어떻게 공짜로 얻었나요?(how did you get free?).” Jimin spoke up this time, stepping forward from the bunch.

“그녀의 큰 친구들은 우리를 구하기 위해 소방관들을 구했다.(her loud friends got the firemen to come save us).” Tae explained to him.

“저는 그렇게 크지 않아요.(I’m not that loud).” Alicia moaned to herself.

“한국 말 할 줄 아세요?(you can speak Korean?).” It was Jin this time who stepped forward.

“우리 모두는 약간의 한국어를 말할 수 있다.(we all can speak a little Korean).” Alicia explained to them, slowly gaining confidence again but not even slightly looking at Jungkook.

“정말?(really?).” Tae asked looking at you.

“조금만 더요.(a little).” You replied. His eyes went wide and he looked impressed. “만약 우리가 여기에 온다면 우리는 적어도 기본적으로 기초를 배워야 한다고 생각했다.(We thought we should at least learn the basics if we were going to come here).” You continued.

“우와(whoa).” Tae looked at you in amazement, his eyes boring into your soul.

“Well, we actually need to get to practice so, it was nice meeting you girls.” Namjoon spoke loudly and with authority, gesturing for Tae to come stand with the rest of the group so they could leave.

“Oh.” All of a sudden Tae looked deflated. He looked down at his hands, intertwining his fingers nervously. “I erm, have to go now. It was lovely, eh seeing you.” His smile was full but only of sadness. You frowned at him and your eyes flickered to Alicia who was staring suspiciously at Jimin who cleared his throat and quickly looked away. Taes hands flew out to capture yours. “Are you, okay?”

“Y-yes.” You replied staring at his giant hands engulfing your small ones. “Thank you Tae.”

His cheeks swallowed his eyes as his beamed at you with his famous square smile, quietly humming to himself. “Good bye Rhii.”

His hands were gone from yours before you even knew it. You spun on your heel and saw as the boys disappeared.

Then it kicked in. The tears.

You slid down to your knees and let your hands cover your face.

“Oh Hun are you okay?” You hear zarena try to comfort you but you couldn’t respond.

“It’s okay, it’s ok-”

Your head snapped up and you screamed. “I JUST MET BTS.” You looked at alicia. “I JUST MET KIM TAEHYUNG.” You turned to zarena. “KIM TAE FUCKING HYUNG. FUCK.” You started to laugh, still in disbelief. “HA I can’t breATHE!” You clutched your stomach and fell on your back. “Fuck…”

“eh, rhii? You’re gonna wanna stand up there babes.” Alicia spoke softly, almost like she was distracted by something. You looked up curiously and there stood, none other than Kim Tae mother fucking Hyung.

“Hi?”

earlier in the lobby

•it’s all in Korean but I cba to get it all ekk•

“Hey, are you really okay?” Jimin asked as they walked towards the van that takes them to their nightly practice.

“Yes.” Was all Tae could reply. Truth be told he was heart broken. Something about you pulled at him, like he had no control over it. In some weird way Tae reasoned it was destiny that you met, all month his mother had been asking about his relationship status and when she was going to be graced with grandkids, and if it wasn’t for leaving his charger behind in the hotel, then he would never have been in that lift when it broke, with you. You were so perfect, so small and quaint in appearance but your eyes were what lingered on his brain. They were so full of life, of wonder, and they way you looked at him- wow. It was heavenly.

“You really like her don’t you?” Jimin broke his train of thought. “I’ve never heard you speak of someone so passionately. It was beautiful.”

Wait?

“I was talking aloud?” His eyes widened in disbelief. What a fool.

Jimin just laughed. “Don’t worry it was cute. I think you should have given her your number though. Or at least gotten hers.” He started to stride towards to others, leaving Tae dumbfounded and in place. He watched the group turn and look at him expectantly.

“You coming Tae? Or did you forget something?” It was Namjoon who spoke in unspoken meaning. He smiled a dimpled smile and gestured for him to go. “Hurry up before we leave though.” He added as he made his way into the van.

Jimin smiled encouragingly at him and silently wished him good luck.

And boy was he gonna need it…

Chapter 5 coming soon…

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hey hello, sunshines!! yumi here ( aka joonyoung’s mun ), back at it again with more problematic characters with beautiful faces!! ヽ(・∀・)ﾉ this here is hanbin ( they/them ), a choreographer for a kpop/entertainment company!! don’t be fooled by their sunshiny smile and cute scrunchy eyes tho ., . ,. ., , theyre a Mess ™ ! big surprise there ,. ,. anw ! im gon ramble abt them a bit in this lil post here .., . their stats page is up HERE n a wanted plots page is HERE so if u find urself interested in them or plotting or whatever !! really !! just hmu or give this a lil HEART n ill get to u aysap ♡ hip hip hooray 

( tw: homophobic slurs, abuse, car accident, death, depression )

hanbin was born in busan to a family that wasnt exactly well off yk?? n thts p much sugarcoating .,. , they were deadass poor

their father was a drunkard who could barely get out of bed in the morning, n if he did all he would do would be to hit n verbally assault hanbin’s mom and older sister; the abuse had been there for as long as hanbin could remember and yet their father never laid a finger on them, claiming that one day they were going to bring this family respect and honor like a Tru Man ™ would .

so for so long hanbin just watched their mother and sister being treated so terribly by this monster ( then patching up their wounds at night, when the man of the house was either out or asleep ) n they hated going home n hated everything abt their situation

the only thing that got them through the day was dance, which they discovered they had a talent for as early as the age of 7. the teachers at school noted their talent straightaway n altho they knew they didnt hav enough money to actually pursue it, they took it upon themselves to enroll hanbin in a small dance studio, where they were free to practice whenever theyd like

it was around this time tht they slowly became enamored wt the idea of becoming an idol; girl groups dances were so fun n they imagined living a much, much better life than the one they had now, mayb even providing a better life for their mom n sister

so theyd sent sm ent an audition video when they were 14 n voila 

theyd gotten accepted !!!! n were now officially a trainee !!!

( when theyd told their family their mom n sister were elated ,, their dad, tho initially violently opposed to the idea, stepped aside n laughed, saying they wouldnt last a month. what a support )

the training period lasted for 4 and a half years; during this time hanbin began to discover more about themselves n who they were. they began identifying as a demiboy n using they/them pronouns when they were 18, nd of course only those close to them knew, but generally theyd become more expressive ... daresay, happy ??

ding dong ur wrong

when hanbin was finally ( !!! ) set to debut, things started to go even more downhill for their family; since finding out about hanbin finally debuting their father was enraged, called them a f*ggot, a disgrace, practically disowning them. in fact, the entire oh family was driving back to their hometown, hanbin’s father screaming obscenities in their tearful face, reeking of alcohol, when suddenly a car had come out of nowhere, hitting them full force

hanbin n their father had survived the attack; their mom n sister did not.

since then hanbin had been diagnosed with depression n ptsd n was claimed ‘ mentally unfit to become an idol ‘, tho bc they had been trained so properly n were still one of the most talented dancers out there sm decided to keep them on ... as a choreographer

( their father still lives in busan; hanbin moved out two days after the funeral. )

so right now theyre a choreographer for rookie groups, watchin them achieve the dream that was meant for them in the first place, n theyre totally NOT bitter abt it

( narrator vc: v bitter )

is a smartass?? can smile made of sunshine while dragging u down to hell ,, still loves dancing more than anything but p much doesnt believe in anything else .

also smokes a ton after their sister n mom died . save them

doesnt open up to many ppl .. u think u know them but rly uve barely scratched the surface?? is afraid of getting too close to anyone period . except for their cat whose named after wonder girls’ yubin .

a fuckin mess protect them

[l-brouillette]

Marinette's Diary (3)

I cant even begin to say how much nicer and easier things got, being able to tell at least one person about being a superhero. Everyone at school seemed happy we were together, although Chloe naturally was a bit upset.

"WHAT?!? you cant be serious!? You and the baker girl?? Over me?!? Re-diculous! Utterly ridiculous!" I smiled as i recalled how she took it. True Chloe fashion.

Alya was understandably a bit confused, but still happy for me. She even said we could double date! If only she knew our double date was a group of all of Paris superheroes! I hadnt even told Adrien that part yet, and he hadnt asked. Yet. Im sure he will, once the need for their help becames necessary, but, one bridge at a time!

Adrien keeps asking when i can come meet his dad. While normally I wouldnt hedge and find excuses not to go, in this instance, after that fiasco with his dads book, Im not in a rush to look his dad in the face any time soon! But i CANT tell Adrien that!

Although, maybe i should? Gosh! I dont know! Its all too much at once! Not that i would EVER give up anything in order to change the outcome, but still! How do i deal?!

This evening, Chat Noir and i finished defeating the bad guy and capturing their akuma when Alya ran up to us, trying to get a new scoop for her ladyblog.

"I can only give you a minute," i told her, as my earrings started to beep.

"Wow! You guys are getting so crazy good! At this rate Hawkmoth wont stand a chance!" She exclaimed, videotaping the whole time.

I smiled at her, trying to think of a whitty response, when Chat Noir dropped down beside me. He ran his hand over my hair and gave me a warm smile.

I smiled up at Chat and he asked, "Is My Lady telling you all about how her ah-mazing partner makes her a better hero?!" He joked, grinning for the camera.

"Oh, for sure Kitty Chat," I smiled coyly at him, and batted my lashes, "we make the purr-fect team!" Chat laughed at my joke.

I looked back at Alya who had a different light in her eye than usual. Like she wanted to ask something, but just wasnt.

"Wow, no more questions from Miss reporter tonight? Cat got your tongue all the sudden?" Chat Noir asked Alya with a laugh.

For once, Alya didnt respond. She just clicked off her video without saying anything further.

I stared at her a bit surprised, this was not like Alya! I was brought out of my thoughts when my earrings beeped again, and Chat touched my hand in warning.

"We have to go Bugaboo," and he lightly tugged on my hand.

I looked at him, nodded, then looked back at Alya and gave her a quick smile and a wave. Still holding Chats hand, we ran aways away before Chat pulled me close and extended his pole to vault us out of there.

We landed in the park next to my house just before both of us transformed back. I reached into my bag for a macaroon for Tikki, and a piece of cheese for Plagg, which i had started to carry just for him. He really was just adorable!

"Its kind of nice, having your secret stash of cheese for Plagg," Adrien remarked, as both Quamis flew up into a nearby tree to eat and talk between themselves.

I smiled at Adrien before holding out a hand for him to take.

"Its not really a big deal, but your welcome."

We walked around the fountain in the park holding hands, while i chewed on Alyas behaviour tonight. What could it mean?

"I can just hear the gears working inside your head," Adrien remarked. "Whats got you worried?"

I pulled him to sit along the edge of the fountain with me, where he wrapped his arm around my shoulders. For a few seconds, i didnt say anything.

"Do you think Alya is suspicious of us?" I finally asked him. "I mean, it was very unlike her tonight." I looked at him, to see if I could tell what he was thinking.

He pursed his lips for a few moments, thinking, and finally shrugged his shoulders a bit. "Honestly, its kind of hard to say. Maybe something we said tipped her off? But i dont remember saying anything out of the ordinary."

I laughed. "Nope, you were your usual Chatty self!"

"Hey!" He exclaimed with mock shock, "you happen to like my witty humor!"

"My Silly Kitty." I whispered, with a smile on my face, as i wrapped both arms around him for a real hug.

He rested his chin on the top of my head, and i could feel him smile. I was exactly where i wanted to be, and, i thought, exactly where Adrien wanted us to be.

Just then, the evening was broken by the sound of running feet, and suddely Alya came into view.

Adrien and i both jumped up from our seated position, and i worried something was wrong!

"Alya, whats wrong?" I called to her. And started to head her way. I glanced back to see Tikki and Plagg perk up and zoom our way. Tikki hiding herself in my bag, and Plagg hiding inside Adriens shirt. Better keep them close in case there was a problem.

We met Alya part way through the park where she stopped and rested her hands on her knees, and bent over, breathing hard.

"I got over here as soon as i could." She managed in between pants. "I REALLY need a word with you!!

Her expression looked serious. I glanced back at Adrien, making sure he was fine with everything.

Alya jumped in quickly, "Oh, him too!" And she grabbed my hand and pulled me towards my house.

Once we were safely inside my room, Alya turned to Adrein and i and demanded, "Are you Ladybug and Chat Noir??!"

I was super shocked! I stared at her wide eyed, not sure what to do, what to say. Where had that come from??

"What?!" I tried to brush it off. "Why on the world would you think that??! Of course we aren't!" I looked at Adrien to see if he had something else to add. Something better to throw her off.

"Do you really think we could pull off being the saviours of Paris??" He asked.

I looked back at Alya, and it didnt look like she was believing us.

"Where did you get such a ridiculous idea from?" I asked her.

Alya crossed her arms in front of her chest and started taping one foot. "Oh come on. I have just spent the last week watching you two being all lovey dovey to each other, did you really think it would skip my notice when Chat Noir was touchy feeler with Ladybug and she DIDNT push him away?!"

"Uh, um, I-it - m-maybe there was a fly? I mean, who knows!" I stammered.

"Ya," Adrien tried to help, "or maybe, coincidentaly, Chat Noir and Ladybug got together around the same time we did?" He mentioned questioningly. "Or who knows, maybe longer and nobody noticed?" He added with a shrug of his shoulders and motion of his hands, trying to look unconcerned.

"Oh come on!" Alya exclaimed, throwing her hands up in the air. "Your gonna actually try and lie to me? I'm your best friend Marinette!"

"And its my best friend I am talkimg to and thinking of." I said quietly.

"Oh, I get it," Alya finally said, as she paced away from us, and back again, "this is about the conversation we had the night my sisters were akumatized. About wanting to protect your friends and family from the badies."

I clasped my hands together in front of me, and looked down at the floor. Then i felt Adriens hand on my shoulder. I looked at him, and the look in his eyes made me wonder if he was telling me to just tell her. But how could I? Not only was that one other person who knew, but then Rena Rouges identity was out too! And then how long before Ninos?

I was Ladybug. All of this fell on me.

I walked away from them both to the window and rested my hands on the sil, and lowered my forehead to the glass. What to do, what to do...

I saw Tikki in my bag, trying to catch my eye. She nodded at me, and whispered "trust your instincts."

I smiled at her, glad she understood. So i straightened and turned back to Alya and Adrien. Walking over to Adrien, I took one of his hands in both of mine, as a kind of support.

"Your right Alya, I am Ladybug."

"Ha!" She yelled, and pumped a fist up into the air. "I knew it! There was no mistaking that telltale Adrien hair rub back there!"

Adrien and I looked at each other, and we both blushed. I guess it WAS fairly obvious.

"And your right as well that I am Chat Noir," Adrien said with a smile, never letting his gaze leave mine.

I looked at Alya, finally, to see her grin running from ear to ear.

"This is AWESOME! now we can fight the badies together!" Alya beamed!! So excited that she didnt notice Adrien raise a brow at her.

"Um, Alya?" I drew her attention to me. "Just bc Adrien knows I am Ladybug, doesn't mean he knew who everyone else was..." I left it at that and let it sink in.

Her mouth moved into an "O" and she blushed furiously. "Man, if i had been with anyone else that would have been a major oops, huh?"

"Kind of," I agreed.

"So i take it then that Alya is Rena Rouge." Adrien stated.

"Uh, ha ha, ya," Alya rubbed the back of her neck. "My bad."

I couldn't help it, I let go of Adriens hand and gave Alya a hug.

Alya pushed me back quickly and held me at arms length.

"Oh my god! I can't wait to tell Nino!" Alya exclaims in excitement!!

"Alya, whoa, we can't just tell everyone," Adrien begins, stepping forward and putting a hand on her shoulder, "we still have to keep ourselves safe."

Alya lifted a brow and smirked at me. "He doesn't know does he?"

I rolled my eyes and shook my head. I guess there went my earlier dilemma.

"Nino is Carapace" Alya tells Adrien matter-of-factly.

"What?! No way!" Adrien says excitedly. "Really?"

"It was SOO obvious," Alya began, "im surprised you didnt notice. It only took me like 30 seconds."

I chuckled at the two of them, and put my hand on Adriens shoulder, "don't feel bad for not knowing. Its supposed to be a secret identity, after all. Im sure how close Alya and Nino are is what made her recognize him."

He smiled at me, "ya, your right... But wow! Nino!"

"He was Awesome, wasnt he?!" I said with a chuckle. "I made a great choice with him."

"So wait," Adrien frowned, "do you pick everyone?? Did you pick -me?" He looked worried about that fact. Did he think i had chosen him just because i liked him? I sure hoped not.

"No, i didnt choose you. We were chosen by a..." I tapped my lip and I searched for a good way to put it, "higher power, well say. Only when we needed extra help, did we recieve it."

"Well i dont even care how, I LOVE it!" Alya exclaimed excitedly! "Do you think there will come a time when i DONT have to give you back the Miraculous?"

"I cant answer that." I told her, frowning a but. It was a really good question. One id be sure to ask Master Fu when i saw him next. "That part isnt up to me."

Just then, Tikki and Plagg flew out from their hiding place. Tikki flew over to sit on my shoulder. "The Ladybug and Chat Ring go hand in hand. You cant JUST put out Ladybug, you need the other side to her!"she explained to us.

"Oh wow!" Alya exclaimed, putting her hands on either side of her face. "Is this your Quami? She's adorable!"

"This is Tikki." I told her.

And, not to be outdone, Plagg did a Double flip and hovered next to Adrien, "and im Plagg!"

"Man, this is so Awesome!" Alya did a fist pump in the air. Then flung one arm around me, the other around Adrien, for a group hug.

I was glad it had all worked out. I'd have to explain to Master Fu, but there was no helping it. As i looked at my 2 friends, I knew it was the right call.