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stil-lindigo · 10 months ago

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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

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stemmmm · 2 months ago

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more people gotta try this shit where bill has not improved and will not change but he's just chilling so its fine probably. its great

#gravity falls #billford #bill cipher #stanford pines #gf nevermind all that #is this really for that? no but if its post canon bill on earth then it may as well be. makes it nice and easy to find later too #reread tbob because we just got our own (nicely water damaged) copy and i was like. i dont draw him cute enough #i will continue trying to do better #anyways stanley you are a butch woman. stanley transition now you dont even have to do anything youre already perfect #its just about the intent #every time i drew him for the last one all i could think was oohhhhhh my god you are a dyke. to me. please #in other news are there any burned out pushing-30s out there who havent drawn in years? i gotta say. i really gotta say.#get mentally ill about something its great. preferably alongside a few other people that you can use to create a perpetual cycle of insanit #gets you drawing again in no time and it feels great

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lemongogo · 4 months ago

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life of regret

#fiddleford mcgucket #fiddleford #gravity falls #my art #no way . i had all of these tags written out on mobile ab stanford and fiddleford post fallout and it CRASHEDDDD #THEYRE GONEEEWW (slipping thru my fingers like sand)#whag freaking ever . i was just talking about how i always forget theres a pocket of time between their split and fords disappearance #and how crazy it is that i had no idea fidds used the gun on ford until last month #it just unlocked smt in my brain thats all.👐 and then i said i was smashing my head w a rock. maybe even 20❤️#tbh i was neutral on fidds back then but i rly rly like him now T_T .. power of other fidd enjoyers lifting me up #i had a lot of fun coloring this one but i didnt know what exactly i wanted to do w it . i had fidds and the gun all finished #but i was like uhhh.. >added the wrapped light #and then i added a whole bunch of scribbled soc of the blind eye symbols but it was waay too crowded/busy #i wish i couldve found a way to keep them😧 u know when HAHAHAHAH u know those ugly like #math prints of just random equations . thats what it started looking like n i had 2 tap out #editing 2 say i posted this and i had that panic NOOO WAIT ITS JOT FINISHED but I Will be Okay.<say it w me #if i spend too much time on it ill just overwork it and then never share so -__-

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chloesimaginationthings · 4 months ago

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Michael doesn’t like Halloween anymore in FNAF..

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xxplastic-cubexx · 4 months ago

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obligatory beach divorce doodling

bonus rough cover redraw of x-men #41 (1995) But Beach Divorce below cut

#mcu #marvel cinematic universe #xmen #xmen movies #xmen first class #cherik #charles xavier #erik lehnsherr #professor x #magneto #snap sketches #'snap i thought you were drawing old cherik this weekend' so did i but i was inflicted with visions sorry </3 #i have my lil 92 comic sketched so ill do that tomorrow. not finish it but ill work on it 💀#i wsa just gonna draw the first thing but then i figureed i might as well draw Most of the beach-divorce-related things i want to #just so i could put it all on one post. however this is a lie and i know ill wanna doodle more beach stuff #the first drawing Unsurprisingly was motivated BY the xmen 41 legion quest cover- at the very least the total blackout of erik's face #i wanna draw more of erik using his powers .. i wanna figure out how i wanna draw the effect etc etc #i was just gonna redraw the cover but i already liked the sketch i did of the first thing so. here we are #plus i figure someones already done a redraw of the cover but if anyone cares ill finish my version ig LOL #as for the comic ermmm it was just an excuse to draw erik with glowing eyes </3 and fading-glowing eyes </3 #thats why i didnt draw the whole. Choking Moira bit. but i wouldve if i was redrawing the whole scene #kinda wish i did now that i think of it cause it coulda looked cooler prob but oh well maybe in like. three months when i redraw this #for exactly five cents ill redraw the whole beach divorce erlkjealkaje i can see it so clearly in my mind #what if first class was a comic drawn by a freak thatd be wild #but yeah thats why everything look rough as christ these were just supposed to be silly lil thangs #'silly things' and its beach divorce OK.#ok bye im gonna do my homework

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remxedmoon · 20 days ago

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your friends don’t know what to do.

so!! i redrew every single enemy in the game. in the span of like 9 days (excluding the king i made him right after the last update). that’s abbbout 79* drawings total, with only 3 custom ones for once!! i’m so normal. as always, these are free to use with credit!! go nuts!! spritesheets are included <3

got some notes under the cut, along with As Many Enemies As I Could Fit without making this post obnoxiously long. and i failed. i had to swap between the app and browser several times and i still couldn’t fit every drawing. open this post at your own risk (silly).

okay so first of all. what’s with the asterisk. well. I Drew A Lot More Than 79 Assets Actually. they’re getting posted separately, because this post is ABSURDLY long. you can find most of them in the miscellaneous folder, but for a bit of clarity, i added the teleport map and a bunch of ui elements that reference sprites from the icon sheet. and also the game over and loop back animations but i haven’t finished the spritesheets for those because they’re a pain in the ass so they’re not in the drive yet

if you missed my complaining a few days ago, a few enemies might look a bit crunchy in the actual game? specifically, calamité and désespoir were drawn at the wrong size, because their images in the files do not match the spritesheets! i avoided the issue with most of the other enemies, those two just blindsided me. sorry about that!

^sadnesses having inconsistent designs was actually a running theme with these. détresse rock has an unused design in the files (which i managed to catch before having to redo it thankfully), anxiété has extra spikes that don’t appear on the spritesheet (sorry i was too lazy to fix that one), even the version of the friend rescue in the files doesn’t match any of the frames in the spritesheet. hfjfhfj. sorry about the quality issues.

tangentially related to that, massive thank you to @riggedbones for grabbing the individual frames for the animations for me!! they made my life so much easier. vs friends would’ve been so annoying…

speaking of the animations! hi can you tell i’m not an animator. these were my first time doing Anything animation related since, like, middle school. super sorry for the Jank in some of these! the friend rescue looked way better when i drew it 💔💔.

bourdon’s hands also might act a bit odd, my apologies. the sizing ingame is SUPER inconsistent (why is one of the hands SMALLER than the other????). once i’m able to actually test the mod, i’ll try to fix it wauaua.

the 3 custom sprites are for the triplets! i ended up making two versions for each, one that follows the ingame art, and one with my personal designs for them. i like my own designs for them, but they’re a lot easier to tell apart? so if you want to use the ones that fit the gimmick better, they’re also in the drive 👍

this update. was originally going to have way more custom art. i’ve actually got an act 6 siffrin enemy asset in my art program! but school started and i decided it’d be better to just get the normal stuff done. so the mod can actually come out in a reasonable timeframe. promise that’ll all come out Later! sorry about the wait 😓😓😓

also adding this because i almost forgot: no i don’t know if these are compatible with sasasaap. i don’t have the game still and it’s not my main priority atm, apologies!

okay! that was a lot! and there’s a ton of art down here! thank you for reading all this, i’ll be back with the game over animations and teleport map pretty soon! like. within the weekend. enjoy!!!