#//I am ashamed in all of you
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tag yourself: intrepid heroes' alter emos as ppl who went to my public high school
#i'm sorry but also i couldn't not frfr#also this is NOT a reflection upon any of the real people in this show#i am most like emy lee and i am ashamed of it#literally i would be 15 minutes late to school every day then do my makeup#but the quote real? unquote emy lee was cooler than me#fhjy#d20 fhjy#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhjy shitpost#intrepid heroes#d20#fh#also murph's alter emo looks so much like one of my shit exes#sorry murph you don’t deserve how savage yours is#tbh the references are soooo early 2010s but i am proud of some of them#and if no one gets any of them all of the skin will wither from my bones#tag urself
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Thinking about the fact that Mabel and Dipper didn't know they had two great uncles.
Yeah they are 12 and at 12 I had a shotty understanding of my family tree- But really? Nobody brought up their great uncle? Stanley? Especially since they'll be staying with his twin brother, Stanford?
Shermie never went to Stan's fake funeral, which to me means the twos relationship was strained on some level. If Shermie is older that means his view of Stan was poisoned in some way, that even as kids they weren't close. If the Shermie is younger then he never even got to meet Stan and all he knew about him was how he failed his family. Hell, people probably barely mentioned Stanley TO Shermie.
The fact that Stan had become a black stain upon the Pines family name makes me so vividly upset. Stanley faked his death and the family just- seemingly decided to strike him from the record. To pretend he didn't existed to spare themselves the sadness and shame.
Stanford and Shermie Pines. The only children worth mentioning of Filbrick and Caryn Pines.
It was never Stanford that was lost to the world. It was Stanley, ever since he had to leave New Jersy- it was always him that had to be struck from the record. Change his name, change his state, change his affiliations, destroy the remains of ghost that was Stanley Pines. Kill him so the family doesn't bring him up, doesn't ask questions, stops asking "Stanford" about his twin.
I just keep thinking about the fact that since the day he made one single mistake all the way up until Ford walks out of that machine- Stanley Pines was killed and did not exist. And Stan himself had no one to blame, he had to play the part in his own demise- He is the only one who ever knew Stanley was alive and has been for decades.
He lives in the multitudes of every personality he's ever taken, all in the hope that he himself can stop being Stanley Pines.
#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#STANLEYYYYYY#STANLEY THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU STANLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sharky rants#Just. Imagine the fucking shame you have to live with#the shame that you can never be yourself. That anything you were is unwanted and forgotten#The shame of just BEING- Of taking space of- of /breathing-/#Imagine the world; your friend; your family; your colleagues being so ashamed of having known you#that you feel more comfortable with a persona to present.#You feel more comfortable stealing the identity of someone you care for deeply if only to help#If only to feel capable for once. To feel like you belong- Like youre doing something good for once#Imagine the shame that brings you to be comfortable not being yourself for 40 years.#ALL CASE YOU BROKE ONE FUCKING PROJECT??????? COME ON#I mean- the deeprooted shame was started from earlier. He was 'the stupid twin“; 'the troublemaker”; “the cheat and thief”#This was a long time coming#But those werent MISTAKES- The one time he genuinely made a Mistake he lost everything#Like he really mattered so little to the people around him#and he cant really blame them.#My cousin is a genius. Hes smart and academically achieved since I was a baby.#The only thing I had that he didnt was my ability to draw. to be creative. The guy for the longest time had a better social life then me too#I used to get brought to tears seeing his accomplishments- seeing people praise him. The shame lived in me any time I had to see him#The shame that I was the black sheep of the family next to the golden standard for a son- for a student- for a friend.#when I was none of those things#And Im lucky he was my cousin- cause if he was my brother that would have haunted me EVERY DAY rather then once or twice a year#Im better with it now; Im more content with who I am- But trauma dump aside-#I very very very much understand Stans shame in being the stupid one. The unachieved one in a family full of achieved people#the shame thats angry at him for being better. at the family for treating him special. and most of all at yourself that you cant be better#its a visceral feeling that I sadly understand
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As promised, incredibly stupid s4-5 drawings
#i didn't sign the one I actually colored but it's fucking fine I guess I'll redraw it later anyways#I am never satisfied when I color my shit in fr#martin blackwood you are the realest of the fucking real for asking your man to eldritch-equivelent block someone cuz youre jealous#hate him all you want he's out here speaking the truth#he wants that twink obliterated because he's jealous and he is not ashamed to admit it!#i have so many thoughts and feelings about s5 so far that I must commit to paper hruyggnm#one of which being that Jon is wearing martins flannel in the fucking eminem pose I drew him in#it's the little things I say as I go ever so slightly more insane#my art#the magnus archives#tma season four#tma season 5#tma#tma spoilers#tma fanart#tma podcast#the magnus pod#martin blackwood#jonathan sims the archivist#jonathan sims#jon sims#god i hope those tags arent for the real ass dude#jonny why did you name the poor meow meow after youself man why#jonmartin#good god what is their ship name#jmart#tma jmart#jmart fanart#“ceaseless watcher. show me this guy's balls”#please do not do that I'm quoting a meme
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🚨 TW limb(s) missing 🚨 (yes, it's not that graphic - no blood, raw meat or shattered bones poking through flesh, but better put a warning just be sure)
I give you guys ZERO context of what is going on here, so you can go wild with the guesses in your heads :)
#domestic family dynamic within a criminal group my beloved#geometry box >> furniture#screw furniture >:((#darkwing duck#dwd#fearsome four#fearsome five#negaduck#(don't be like me kids - leart to draw furniture 😪)#(and backgrounds.)#(those are tricky too.)#megavolt#quackerjack#you can tell I don't draw quackerjack that often I mess up the very basics of his design like the sleeves pattern#and I AM ashamed of that#bushroot#liquidator#dwd spike#doodle#silly men doing silly stuff in not so silly situation#my fanart stuff#my post 🤙#if you somehow managed to read all the way to this point I'm truly impressed here's the star emoji for you pookie ⭐🤏
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them: yOU SHOULD BE ASHAME-
us:
#the more obnoxious the better#i mean unlike OTHERS at least it’s my culture and i’m not culturally appropriating other people’s symbols#yET y’all think we should be ashamed#the audacity#jewish#jumblr#antisemitism#israel#am yisrael chai#babyyyy#THIS GOES TO ALL THE JEWS: DONT FUCKING DO IT - YOU KNOW WHAT - DONT FUCKING ASK ME WHERE THE CLUTCH IS FROM
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Okay, so what if you propose to Solomon before he gets the chance to propose to you? Like obviously, he'd been thinking long and hard about what kind of ring to pick out, where to do it, what to say, yadda yadda... But then while you're *ahem* supervising him in the kitchen one evening, you get down on one knee and propose to him instead.
Poor guy did not see it coming, at all. Initially, he thought you fell or hurt yourself, so he scrambled around to check on you only to see you smiling up at him with the biggest heart eyes. With a gentle flourish of magic, you make the box appear in your hand before opening it to offer him the ring inside.
He can hardly believe it. Him? You want to propose to him? And you beat him to it? He's both impressed and deeply honored. Your little magic stunt made him proud as your teacher while also making the already special moment a million times more so.
Solomon's not one to get emotional. The only time he's ever cried to you was when you and the rest of Purgatory Hall tricked him with that overpowered onion...but this is different. He feels safe to cry as you spout to him a beautiful, heartfelt speech - feeling every letter being etched into his heart and every syllable committed to memory.
He falls to his knees, reaching out to hold you while whispering as many shaky "yeses" as he can muster through his sobs. He can't stop repeating himself like a broken record, beyond excited for this next step in your relationship, touched that you want to keep him as yours.
Once he's calmed down enough through your hushes, kisses, and gentle touches, you pull back to take his hand into yours. Slowly and carefully, you slip the ring onto his finger.
Solomon just stares at it with his heart in his throat, noticing how it shines in the light, how it fits him perfectly (both aesthetically and in size), and how it feels right occupying what he always assumed would be an empty finger. You've given him the gift of hope and the gift of love in the time he's known you. And here you are giving him even more...your life.
And in return, he's gladly and readily giving you his.
#solobesties i have done you all wrong#i am ashamed of myself how could i not consider US proposing to HIM#please forgive me for i've seen the error of my ways#finishing this since it's been in my drafts for god knows how long and i'm trying to reinvigorate the creative juices#to the asks in my inbox i see you i'm working on you i swear! i've just been sleeping a lot lately so i'm less productive :( stupid meds#side note: i've been meaning to end this little...mini series?? with a honeymoon drabble. i'll get there eventually lol#obey me#obey me solomon#obey me solomon x reader#jo’s thoughts
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Anna @minilev has done it again with another stunningly beautiful picture for me!! I gave her a few ideas and this is the one she went with and LOOK HOW GORGEOUS IT IS!!!! Look at the relief carvings on the wall!! Look at the stars outside! Loooooook!
Thank you thank you thank you thank you again so so much for indulging me yet again! ❤
#art#movies#the mummy#ardeth bay#horus#THANK YOUUUUU#he's magnificent#I should probably be ashamed of myself and ok I am a little but#may fictional hotties get us all through trying times#Horus reading over the shoulder 😍😭🙌#perfection#Anna you are a gift to the Mummy fandom and to me ❤
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kind of irritates me a little bit when people act like it's weird or wrong or ooc for sy to have internalized homophobia as if that isn't probably the most realistic thing about the plot to begin with. he's a chinese man who grew up in the late 90s - early 00s and spent all his time online i would be frankly more surprised if he had ZERO hangups about being gay. this is explicitly presented as a character flaw so i'm not sure why people act like mxtx is homophobic for writing a guy with internalized homophobia. also he like gets over it in volume 4 anyways you gotta give him some time dude he died like 3 times and he keeps getting force-fed blood he's got a lot on his plate
#i don't know if you know this but in real life gay people are way crueler to each other than this all the time#go on grindr for 5 minutes and you'll see a million NO FATS NO FEMS NO ASIANS profiles#if anything sy is fairly progressive all things considered#you must remember this is a time in the internet where you called anyone you didn't like some form of faggot to imply how lame they were#you got called a fag for any damn reason. i feel like people do not respect how far progressivism has come#in terms of gay rights over the past decade alone. yeah he's gonna have to take some time to get over it#because in MOST PARTS of the world (even 'progressive' areas) being gay was still viewed as something to be ashamed of#or at the very least to hide and never talk about#on one hand i am of course GLAD that people have never been assaulted or tormented by their peers for being faggy#but also like. don't come online and say it's homophobic for a gay chinese man in 2014 to have some hangups lmfa#t#svsss
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thinking about when keating asks the purpose of language and neil says “to communicate” and keating goes “no! to woo women!” like?? did you expect neil perry of all people to guess/resonate with that?? you know just as well as i do that mf is a homosexual.
#neil is like “??? why would i wanna woo women?? i just wanna woo todd??”#anderperry#dps#dead poets society#neil perry#john keating#todd anderson#neil x todd#dead poets honor#god i remember when the dps fandom was so small that i became a relatively big dps blog#now look at me#a no good phannie account#i am in fact a multifandom account i have never been a dps account or a phannie account#but being a big name in the dps fandom was way more admirable than the phandom#no offence phannies i love you with all of my heart#but you’re all as ashamed as i am to be in this boat <3#i need yall to know that at the end of the day#other than lotr#my loyalty lies with dps#my username on letterboxd and ao3 are both from dps#and dps got me writing again#ok i can’t turn this into a dps retrospective i literally wrote a ten page paper on my relationship with dps like 8 years ago#also dps/anderperry was a big part of my sexuality journey OK IM DONE#yeet my deet
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another unfinished art dump
👁️👁️ *COUGHING INTENSIFIES*
TW! pov: he's sitting on us and choking us? It's not graphic at all and looks really unfinished, but, still, I thought that I should add a TW. I won't finish this ever, choosing to see this weird thing is on you, little freaks!
Ok here we go
Pov: you didn't give him kromer (jk, no, he's a good guy, he wouldn't do that. Not canon, guys, not canon)
A (supposedly) clearer depiction of what the heck is happening here: (+ ooh the hand)
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I am FULL of SHAME!
⚰️*falls into a coffin dramatically*
#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#suggestive#choking#??#spamton#deltarune#I am ashamed once again of what I have created#but you don't have to be😏#AAAH I did not say that. I did not say that#tw: choking#tw: strangulation#I added all the tags now I think?? ok I hope this is enough#this is the second time in a row that I drew spamton in a really weird context. omg
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sometimes it pains me that people, whether they're bigots, allies, or sometimes even other trans people, will only ever see me as trans first, and anything else second
one of my biggest fears is people remembering me for being trans, and not for being an artist, a writer, or any of my other meaningful accomplishments
"He was very good at what he did—for a trans man."
#could you at least reduce me down to being a gay man instead#I feel so much more connection to being a man that prefers the company of other men#than to my transness which feels like the most minuscule and unimportant part of my experiences personality and life#I fully understand why it becomes hugely important for others#and I'm certainly not ashamed of what I am#but it pains me so much that that's all they'll ever see#and to be totally honest I encounter this so much more WITHIN the community than without#I think a lot of people could stand to remember that the human comes before the labels
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this was made especially for those of us who cut ties with our shitty families, huh
i cried so much this whole episode. i know that i can't be in that house and be who i am at the same time, but the guilt and shame never really go away. i love that this episode said, wholeheartedly: fuck what society says, you should be wherever allows you to be happiest
anyway! you always hear that family estrangement is rare in asian communities, but i did it! and you can do it, too! dump your shitty family! i believe in you~
#tsukuritai onna to tabetai onna#it's incredible like i don't think i fully realized how ashamed i feel until this episode had me ugly crying into my blankie#especially because the abuse was invisible and people say: oh everyone's family says harsh things! it's because they care! they love you!#and no matter how hard you try to explain the magnitude of what was done to you people still shrug and say but they're *family*#not that there was ZERO physical abuse but like. that's just How It Is in the community i grew up in so it's not a Reason reason#and that's all aside from all that's expected of me as the child of an asian family (that i am simply doing none of)#FUCK i guess i just compartmentalized all of this so securely i didn't think it could bleed out anymore#thanks tsukutabe. i guess?#this show is RELENTLESSLY coming for me this season too like explicitly stated asexual rep? a treat for me personally!#idk i never expected an asian drama to be so clear about this especially because kasuga's abuse was invisible too#and the idea of not sacrificing yourself for your parents is COUNTER to what you're supposed to do#i am just VERY EMOTIONAL right now#i love kasuga so much and it was rough to see her going through it but i am SO HAPPY that she's accepted and loved
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Oh good they're watching us too. I was worried for a bit that we had an unfair advantage
#qsmp#fitmc#fitmc of 2b2t#I hope you all know how truely ashamed I am about the post the first image's tags are from#but also no I'm not#because it's funny#FitMC YouTube viewer#FitMC Twitch viewer
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So........ What about vash and ww from Badlands Rumble? 🥺
there issss 🥺🥺🥺
#and they're my favourite actually cuz blr ww is somehow the combination of all ww in one#also i actually like blr bcs that's the closest I could get to scenarios of 'vash died and ww lives'#and i am ashamed to admit i'd infuriatingly let blr vash have his way just because he is cute#idt im including them bcs there's not enough content i could make out of them but i hope this tiny snack could satisfy you anonn 🥺🥺#myuask#myuminjidoodle
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Look, I just think it's VERY funny and on brand that I thought of an entire premise of colorful characters for half the cast and immediately drew the only one void of color.
#my characters#i will not bore you all too much in the main post but now its story time in the tags so yeefuckinghaw#noll is a fae and is distinctly the only one that just lacks colors#at first he was like well surely i can wear colorful stuff to make up for my dark hair and eyes !#and then he overhears some of the fae talking about how hes a blemish to the fae and hes like well fuck#guess its time to go all in baby! and decks himself out in all black and jagged clothing#and he tries to play it off as hes an idiot and a lot of the fae actually believe its not ALL an act#like they can tell he thinks about stuff but he normally does it staring into space so they dont care to ask#cause surely it isnt important enough to brood about hes just thinking about stuff#and he really REALLY has a lot of confidence issues and worries that more fae are disturbed by his darkness than let on#but then the other fae that like to hang out with him are like#YOOOOOO THATS OUR LIL VOID! THATS OUR LIL GUY! our lil black spot look at him hes so edgy and cute!#and treat him like a pet cat at times giving him head pats even if he bats their hands away#and the plot premise is that some of the fae are bored and decide they should go play with some humans! give THEM enrichment too!#and noll gets roped into it and The Game is basically go find a human partner and convince them to be an ally#then the fae give the humans cool lil toys (weapons) and are like GO FORTH MY CHAMPION!#so noll keeps like ... not picking anyone to participate because its not just A Game to him#if he can prove victorious in A Game with outside factors such as humans then he can prove hes not#an absolute disappointment to the fae like he has a lot riding on this in his mind#and his friends are just like buddy you cant even play if you dont pick a human you gotta#anyway here is noll and then i have ideas for two other fae and also a veeeery vague idea for two of the humans though not as sure yet#rae if you read all this you should know the cobalt is a fae thanks bye#i am so stressed posting ocs every single time and i am incredibly depressed and anxious#so good lord please let me not just delete all the tags in an hour bc im ashamed
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All Our Yesterdays: When Kirk, Spock and McCoy investigate the disappearance of a doomed planet's population, they find themselves trapped in different periods of that world's past.
The Naked Time: The crew is infected with a mysterious disease that removes people's emotional inhibitions to a dangerous degree.
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#star trek tos#star trek#james kirk#spock#bones mccoy#star trek bracket#elimination game#leonard mccoy#star trek poll#jim kirk#all our yesterdays#spones#the naked time#when i feel friendship for you i am ashamed#hikaru sulu#kevin riley#spirk
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