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eos pt. 1
#I LITERALLY PUT THE APPLE BACK AND HE STILL WENT AFTER MY ASS WTF#i lost my stamina band bc of that and ive been trying to find another one ever since GOD DAMN IT#i wasnt expecting to get an egg either. are we parents now??? what do we do with a 9 month old toddler????????#i already knew a bit abt this game from my pokeask days so i know not to trust dusknoir but i dont actually know why#i just know that he probably does know me for some reason and that hes probably leaving smth out abt grovyle#chatot makes me think of the kind of manager who stresses self care days and has phone numbers for mental health#services in his email signature and then makes me work overtime anyway. human (pokemon?) resources chatot#i dont do much with the extra team members either. i have a sandshrew named Dune whos been on for the longest time#but im really picky abt who i recruit. i wanna recruit a dratini for sure though theyre one of my favorites#ummmmm im on chapter 11 rn and i love all of my guild mates and mugging random pokemon in dungeons#my art#myart#doodles#pokemon mystery dungeon#pmd#marmalade#neptune#pokemon#pokemon oc#eos
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i havent drawn anything worth posting in a while hi ^__^ erm..... are texans always this strange and unusual?
#reverse 1999#reverse 1999 spoilers#????????????#i love being a gacha gamer goodlord. its like embarrassing how much my brain likes them.#it all started with bandori.......... i can never escape now.#esp as like. a video game design student. i recognise most of these games have like no good gameplay. but i cant help it...its fun..#i love logging in for like 5 minutes every day doing my stupid dailies and thats it. maybe repeat that once more in the afternoon#im yappiiingggg anyways the new reverse update is nice#they should go back to europe tho pspspsps come to the balkans ^_^ we have so much drama worth exploring.#i liked argus but mostly in the scenes where they werent trying to make her look cool....just a nice lady overall. id like to hang out w he#i think im gonna start posting more ocs from now on tho.... def on my brain more#i know people barely interact with those posts of mine but who gaf#or maybe pjsk since its slowly creeping its way back into my brain. mizukiwhen i fucking get you.mizuki#ermmm ok thats all i have to say for now adios#(dont read the rest of these its embarrassign)#argus reverse 1999#tuesday reverse 1999#wtf is that other girls name#kimberly reverse 1999#i think idk#shes so fun wtf is wrong with you.#art i made
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oc time again! + her town & culture (heavily inspired by pre-roman italic populations)
she is suri sauthon. her story is linked to my swtor imperial agent, tar'x, but most of her life except for the one year away where she meets him, is spent in a town in the mountains of mirial.
despite mirial being cold and desert, and many cities developing underground, her town flourishes thanks to a force nexus, venerated in the form of an ancient, sacred, alive crystal. the ecosystem of that mountain depended on what "the horned crystal" was capable of giving them, but mirialans couldn't live off of that alone, so they developed trade and some rudimental technology, even if oftentimes it was bought thanks to the highly profitable trade of a plant used to make medicines that slowed down aging and had overall healing properties.
note: everything that's generated by this nexus has these healing properties BUT they have to be processed, except for those who bathed in the waters of the cavity under the crystal - the "real" nexus, but not the worshipped one. the waters were sacred but they were not thought to be miraculous, unlike the crystal, who instead was thought of as the keystone of the ecosystem: without it, everything would fall apart (and that is partially true: the cavity was the "real" nexus but thanks to the crystal, also strong in the force, the properties were spread all over the mountains). those who bathed in the cavity's waters - so, all of the town, who had a sort of baptism there - could eat the plant, make whatever food with it, and not only that plant, but everything generated by the nexus, that, again, had similar properties. this allowed people to live up to normal life-spans without advanced medicines or, much, really. to those who didn't live there, though, after the processing, had incredible effects, slowing down aging - for those who took it regularly - and making people able to live up to half a century more than the average]
originally, there were four tribes of nomads that lived thanks to horned farm animals that decided to settle down into one bigger town and other smaller settlements, to live off of transhumance. this division of the tribes stayed into the political and social organization: every person belonged to one tribe specifically, and had slightly different rituals and culture. for examples, each tribe had their own priests and healers, with different techniques and traditions. the town, tho, was guided by a group of people in the high priesthood, a position you could reach only by having earned the trust of all tribes. those high priests had many roles: they guided the people into sacred processions common to all the tribes, they managed the trading with outsiders, they did the maintenance of the temple of the summit (the one that functioned as casket to the crystal) and created a special liquid to offer the crystal that helps it grow.

this particular temple was important because 1. it was very visible, from every angle of the town, and it became an important identity symbol; 2. it stored the venerated horned crystal; 3. it had the altar where sacrifices were made for the crystals. that altar had a hole connected to the cavity, that allowed the liquids to reach the underground; 4. it had various symbols: statues representing each tribe + the high priesthood, and typical mirialan tattoos carved into the wood of the trees that served as columns for the temple, symbolizing 8 values that who dared to enter HAD to have; 5. it was on the way to an important lake (called "mother lake" because the lake the town was built around to depended on the waters of that other lake) where they traveled to in important processions; 6. it was said that a the wizard who unified the tribes made it with its magic, making the plant grow to hold the temple's roof. this wizard was, actually, a force user, obv.
BACK TO HER THOUGH: she's daughter of one of the high priests, who was in charge of managing the trades with outsiders, and lives in a house on the mountains with her mother and him. her parents are from different tribes (that's one of the things that earned him trust from the 4 tribes): when a child is born from two different tribes, they don't pick one to allign to, but they're usually linked automatically to the one with more relatives in it (in her case, the father's tribe: she had many uncles and aunts on his side while her mom only had one sister).
later, though, she got quite tied to her mother's tribe due to a mysterious illness that only her mother's tribe healer was able to cure. she spent 4 years (from 10 to 14 years old) living with the healer and learned her secrets. to better study, she wrote them down. when she returned home, she studied to become a priestess with her father. at 22 (the average age: you can't become priest before your 20s), she was supposed to take a test and become a priestess, but the healer of her mother's tribe died and the tribe asked her to take her place. she couldn't technically do that, but both tribes estimated both her and her parents and she was allowed to become both. she then decided to try to become a high priestess, and became one at 25 (a quite young age). being part of the council, she tried to convince the various tribe healers to unite their knowledges and write them down, and eventually made it. healers still remained tribe based but they now had an "upper, inter-tribe level" similar to high priesthood.
years later, the sacred horned crystal is stolen from the temple by some Hutt mercenaries looking for a profit. given the trust she has earned from all the tribes and the fact that her father is the high priest that deals with outsiders (and she's been hearing stories and advice about it since she was little), she is the one tasked with getting it back. without the growing crystal, the keystone to their ecosystem, the village would have lasted only a few years. in hrr quest, she meets imperial intelligence agent tar'x laran and, as they "solve the mystery" and fight to have it back, they get closer. they'll get married and have a daughter, Vegoia (who's the only one who actually will get to the plot of my story. this was all background)
#i overdeveloped this part of the background. IT'S QUITE LITERALLY USELESS. like. Vegoia will have so few memories of it (she'll become jedi)#i will make a post about her too when I'll finish designing her and outlining her story BUT that may be difficult cuz the frame for the mai#story is quite difficult to match with how developed the other stories are getting and i have to figure it Much Stuff yet#so I'm using these post to like. fix a certain part lf the lore because even my own notes are getting older and messy. better to start over#ANYWAY for those curious & who are still reading (if u exist. WTF THANK U!!); my main story is actually a research file in the jedi archive#BASICALLY i was trying to write my own story for years but then i watched a video (tcw doesn't hold up by sheev talks i think) and i finall#understood how to frame all of these stories together in a way that i feel can add to the star wars lore (because. the others were just#like. okay but who cares unless me? and i did want to have a cool frame that maybe some nerd would be interested in looking into)#so: when ahsoka anakin and obi return from mortis; they tell the council about it (yoda knows about it in s6). sheev talks complained that#it was incredibly full of stuff that was done so poorly it could ruin a big part of the original sw story itself and it was never brought u#again. and honestly i agree. SO my story is about a jedi that is tasked with research on the celestials & by having him figure out stuff i#can minimize/limit/reframe some of the controversial things in there (i love mortis arc so bad but i also agree with his critic. I'll Fix™)#so. many stories will be about people who have previously seen the celestials or have been to mortis one way or another (pre-tcw obv) & hav#had experience & knowledge that the researcher is looking for. so i get to have an anthology with many stories#and have a cool frame I'm intrested in developing + i can experiment with different storytelling styles depending on how he finds out stuff#+ there was another sw story with a similar frame i think? so if i decide to write the story as if it was the file itself and not the searc#i can have even a REFERENCE of what a file like that is supposed to be. LIKE. IT ALL FITS!!!#sw#star wars#swtor#the old republic#star wars oc#imperial agent#star wars fanart#mirialan oc#mirialan#star wars story#star wars the old republic#oc: suri sauthon
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Results are in:
Scrooge outfit: Neil, Todd, and Cameron
Heart Boxers: Knox, Charlie, and Pitts
Pink robe: Meeks and Keating
I will forever be indebted to anyone who draws fanarts of them in these outfits
#I will give my life for anyone who draws mittsie in these outfits; like please can you imagine someone banging on their door at odd hours#and Meeks answering the door in a flowy pink robe; sleep not fully out of his eyes as an equally sleepy Pitts is seen behind him in heart#boxers like poets don’t even say anything because they know if they do Meeks can verbally destroy them so they don’t even attempt#plus they value their grades so they try not to piss Meeks off; but like dude the mittsie fanart would go crazy in these#and anderperry both dressing like an old Victorian couple to go to sleep is so funny to me like I can see it so clearly#and the side eyes both Cameron and Charlie would give each other at bedtime every night and before they got into bed but also I could see#them just never bringing it up until like they get in a fight in the dining hall where Cameron is trying to tell Charlie to stop throwing#his dirty clothes into Cameron’s hamper so Cameron will wash them and Charlie is denying doing this and Cameron is like ‘dude you and I#both know those are not my boxers’ ‘how do I know you didn’t steal them’ ‘you literally wore them two days ago’ ‘how do you know that’ ‘you#literally rarely wear pants around our room what do you mean how do I know that’ ‘well who knows; might’ve been yours to begin with and I#stole them so I was just now returning them’ ‘I would NEVER buy boxers that tacky’ ‘exCUSE YOU our boxers aren’t tacky’ ‘your boxers that#I’m not washing’ ‘it’s like you don’t even love me’ and then rumors start that they’re gay and both pull a face of disgust like ‘you think#my standards are THAT low; I do have some dignity’ they say in unison before turning to the other like ‘what’s wrong with me?’#and then Knox would be over there by his lonesome cause he had some random roommate rather than one of these boys as a roommate so he#doesn’t get to see any of them in these outfits nor them him in his heart boxers#keating would be in the teachers wing and they would all have to rush to a scene in the middle of the night and they would all be giving#Keating a side eye like wtf is this grown man wearing ‘John. you look… that robe’ ‘yes; what a better way to appreciate the every day but#making the every day extraordinary; sometimes we must treat ourselves to truly understand life’s meaning’ ‘and that pink shit does that?’#‘well of course; its silk Kevin.’ ‘right.’#dps#dead poets society#gerard pitts#charlie dalton#richard cameron#neil perry#todd anderson#steven meeks#knox overstreet#mr keating#the poets as…
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Was going to make a post about how when Swan is counting off all the Warriors in Woodlawn Cemetery she doesn't do it in roll call order but she does put Ajax and Rembrandt right next to each other, which would indicate theyre standing near one another (when u are obsessed with a ship which is not actually real u gotta take what u can get) but I went back in the lyrics and Swan actually DOES say their names in roll call order BUT she swaps herself for Cleon. Diabolical. This fucking album man.
#anyways idk what this means#but i am concocting an elaborate narrative about Ajax knowing from the jump that Cleon is gone AND who took her#which implies that she was looking for Cleon during Derailed and saw her but couldnt get to her#and my own personal embellishment that Ajax was running back and forth trying to herd all the Warriors together#so she knows INTIMATELY who made it and who didnt#and so shes pissed at swan bc wtf do you mean you have to fucking COUNT us bitch#if i was ajax and i just had to watch my bff slash commanding officer get taken out and i thought she was dead#and her punk little assistant had to count on her fingers if her teammates made it#i might also challenge her for interim leadership of the crew#warriors musical#also cant decide if she was drinking during the summit or if they get to the cemetery and shes immediately going in rembrandts bag#for the liquor she stashed in there#shes like fuck it so severely. im getting hammered idgaf
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Matt mercer before Ashton tries absorbing the shard: these elemental titans... they long to be together... what was worse than their imprisonment was their separation... <looks at the guy playing a character whose entire backstory is surviving things that should have destroyed them> but a vessel that tried to contain both of them might be destroyed...
Matt afterwards: you idiot you stupid fucking idiot how fucking dare you. You're not getting anything from surviving your 10 round ordeal and I'm docking your con.
#critical role#ashton greymoore#seriously wtf#i thought matt was trying to get them to give ashton the shard literally up until he vomitted it back out#at least it finally got laudna to engage with delilah#I dont know if id keep playing at the table where the dm pulled some shit like that#who the fuck sends their players on a mission intimately tied to a specific character and then doesnt let that character reap any rewards
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Ooooh how could I be so silly! Obviously Chris starts disrespecting women because he has amnesia
#re6 is truely something#im sobbing#the writers are circled up trying to figure out how to convey to the audience something is wrong with Chris#and the best thing they can come up with is having chris tell a woman to 'shut up and look pretty'#he hit his head he didnt get fucking possessed wtf#sorry guys I hit my head amd now I have deeply upsetting views on women#huh?#what?#i know ive already posted about this but finishing chapter two and Im so baffled#he literally sends sherry off with the sweetest “safe flight” and has a heartbreaking scene with Finn and co#and then the writers are like#okay nice chris is over now he hit his head and now hes a prick#chris needs to be in a hospital? not knowing who anyone is? and piers is out here dragging him into the field?????#odd#odd odd odd
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you know what, while we're at it I might as well talk about the tartarus ethan au
The main gist is that Kronos was just really pissed about the betrayal thing and when he opened up that hole in the ground, he wasn't just sending Ethan to go splat on a pavement, he was sending him straight down to Tartarus. Luckily, Ethan landed in the Phlegethon so his body shattered on impact and then immediately got fixed up again. He stays in Tartarus for a full year, during which he survives by masking his scent with war prizes from the monsters he kills and from just sticking close to the Phlegethon so that if he gets too roughed up he can just hop in the water, splash about for a wee bit, and then hop back out right as rain.
He runs into Nico while Nico is looking for the doors of death and is half relieved to see another demigod for the first time in almost a year and the other half of him is horrified at the thought of a tiny squishy kid like Nico wandering Tartarus on his own. Ethan volunteers to be Nico's guide since Ethan knows the place pretty well (and because he's lonely and also because he doesn't want Nico to be on his own). They have a pretty decent time mostly because Ethan quickly clocks Nico as a closeted gay kid and decides to take him under his wing like a wizened queer mentor he is. Anyway, the thing with the giants happens and the two get separated when Nico gets jarred and Ethan is sent floating face-down in the Phlegethon. When he gets back on his feet he has no idea whether or not Nico's even alive which is. concerning.
Luckily for him, just when he thought his hellish Tartarus life is getting back to normal, Percy and Annabeth come dawdling along like a pair of zombies. Ethan can't just leave them so he drags them with him and offers to help with whatever bullshit they've been up to (he also gets the chance to ask about Nico and is very relieved when they let him know he's okay). No one in this situation is having a great time at the start because while Ethan did try to kill Kronos, the three of them still aren't on the best of terms. These terms don't get particularly better when Ethan stands off to the side watching the whole Akhlys thing go down and a significant part of him is wishing he hadn't kept them alive because OH MY GOD these bitches are so high maintenance! After the poison thing Annabeth and Percy are pretty tense with each other and Ethan, to his horror, realises that he needs to be the mediator so he just pulls them aside and tells them as gently as possible to get their shit together until they're not in hell anymore (not in so many words, he tells Percy that Annabeth might be a tad hesitant around guys she's close to suddenly developing a violent anger that causes them to lash out a people all things considered). Anyway, he brings them over to Damasen, who he's been pretty chill with over the past year, and then they get to the doors of death and Ethan finally gets to leave Tartarus (also Nico is very surprised and relieved to see Ethan no longer floating face-down in a river of fire).
#pjo#percy jackson#ethan nakamura#annabeth chase#pjo hoo toa#pjo au#nico di angelo#at the time I'm putting this in my queue we basically just talked about this on the server#but who knows how long it'll be before I post this lmao#this au was so good for so many ships#ethan/nico? easy#percy/annabeth/ethan? done#percy/ethan or annabeth/ethan? nae bother#I even managed to fit in some good old fashioned ethabaster divorce and remarriage#by making Hecate more or less force Al to join the argo II crew#and then him getting jumpscared when Ethan comes out of the lift with percy and annabeth because “WTF WERE YOU DOING IN TARTARUS???”#followed by Ethan being very unhappy with Al for getting the rest of their army killed to avenge the boss that trapped ethan in tartarus#FOR A YEAR#also#Al mentoring Hazel in magic and getting a good rapport with Nico#so when Ethan cmes back the death sibs are children of divorce trying to get their parents back together#but Al is EXTREMELY unhappy with how friendly Ethan has become with Percy during their little tryst (as Al calls it) in tartarus#Q#edit: hey server folk#the [REDACTED] convo will have been last night lmao
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i am NOT making it offline god said online friends only
#IM KIND OF MALDING RN FUCK THESE PEOPLE#they blow me off like 99.99 percent of the time but i dont got no one else to ask so i still ask jus to say i tried#BCZ IM REALLY TRYING MAN !!!!!!!!!!!! MAN.#anyway they said yes for once (yay i finally have someone to go to the movies w me!)#an then there was a fire in the middle of it so um. we had to evacuate#no ones fault ofc but man. wtf#an those two are roomates so on the bus i heard them talking abt like “we can jus finish watching at home” an didnt rly think anything of i#then they got off at their stop an i stayed on cuz mine was still a few more stops away#an they seemed a little confused when i stayed on but didnt say nothing??#an then while i was on the bus one of them called me an was like CHARLIE I THOUGHT U WERE GONNA WATCH IT WITH US AT OUR APARTMENT#an i was like ?????? YALL DIDNT TELL ME THAT???? HOW TF WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW#so i was like "ok well ill jus get off at the next stop an meet yall over there its not that long of a walk to ur apartment#so i did. an then right when i was abt to get to their apartment one of em called me again an was like “sry nvm :(”#“our roomate wants the living room tv an my stomach hurts”#SO I JUS HAD TO WALK HOME BY MYSELF AN IT WAS COLD AS FUCCKKK MANNNN#WHYYY DID YALL MAKE ME GET OFF THE BUS I COULDVE HAD LIKE A <2 MIN WALK FUCK YALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!#im tired of them mannn i need better friends honestly these ppl dont even like me#im kinda friends w the ppl who work at the movie theater an go to the community events but um. looks like that theater might be shut down#for a while. so#i might get even more online than usual this next few weeks i am fresh out of social outlets#fuck this place i h8 this people i need to hurry up an graduate already#i miss my friends in my home town#vent 👍#charlie words
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My dad and I were chatting before bed when he said "damn shame Republicans hate Democrats too much because you almost saved the United Healthcare ceo"
And I stared at him in confusion until I remembered I convinced Democrats to write the active shooter alert system bill in 2022 & Republicans said no. Since my Twitter is gone, the thread of me @ everyone is gone. And when Trump got re-elected, I removed the video discussing the bill concept for public comments. It fully slipped my mind because I went from pulling teeth & being reluctantly patient to full on cussing, cursing, and hexing the government by the end of 2023.
I hope that Twitter DC staffer is having a good laugh- I bet their bosses are pissed wwwwww
I don't remember the exact wording I wrote to the White House when I cussed out Biden for funding war crimes (2023) & the bill itself (2022) but I did list consequences I foresaw that are happening now, so suck to suck if nobody listened & are on the receiving end of massive hexes
I guess my dad is right, the GOP technically killed Brian Thompson in 2022
#mun post#the downside of being a death witch with foretelling and pattern recognition is nobody listens until it's too late#the fed collectively moving to shut down tiktok after i cussed them out was their biggest mistake with public relations so I already#hexed and cursed many of them - they should've never fucked with Death#168 Republicans killed Brian Thompson because nobody wanted to hesr me out except th3 handful who still are at DC trying to fix the mess#i wish them the small handful the best because being inside doesn't mean they can do major change when their bosses are for greed and wealt#over democracy and the well being of the masses#o7 active shooter alert system bill- you will be deeply missed#united healthcare#and since all the public comments and thread information are deleted- Congress is on their own to figure out what to do- I refuse to assist#unless they send me 100M and total protection from all military practice and weapons testing on the US public#my dad was like WTF YOU FORGOT#and i was like WELL TO BE FAIR WOULD YOU GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO DIDN'T HEWR YOU OUT#and he was like YOU KNOW WHAT? FAIR- THEY SHOULD'VE LISTENED TO YOU- NOW THEY GOT EVERY CEO ON THEIR DOORSTEP BEGGING FOR PROTECTION#like i hexed everyone complicit in genocide qnd democide with ironic death#the gods and the people get to decide how it plays out- the engraved bullets is sick af#i predicted the wealthy would get shot inevitably in the next 6 yrs- i never said how because that's not my jurisdiction#artemis and apollo only came into my life recently and have doubled down on what i can see and have seen- but Death is gearing up to topple#an empire again and I told people as early as summer 2019 bht nobody cared sooo
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akanematic.mp4 (youtube link)
#I love how akane banashi discusses grief. I am pairing it with one of my fave songs about grief#akane banashi#issho arakawa#akane osaki#seb draws#it's so cool how everyone is grieving!!! each indiv chara in this vid is grieving for diff reasons diff ways and they all overlap <3#u know what i'm not done. i WILL go into this#kiroku is making space for grief by taking on the lost shiguma name. It’s he has lost miroku which is like losing a father. but he moves on#kiroku is the father figure for kisoba and rokuen that miroku couldn't be for kiroku. he literally carries kashiwaya (shiguma's art) w/him!#at the same time! kiroku DIES so soon after establishing the arakawa school and he tells kisoba 'you killed me'#this moment is the hammer in the coffin of issho's grief. he already blames himself bc it was HIS performance that resulted in#kiroku getting kicked out. a small death. and now he's told 'you killed me.' insane. Unless it was just a dream idk unclear#but again looking at how kiroku is characterized i don't think he meant to blame issho. it's very likely issho misinterpreted#just like when he misinterpreted what kiroku was trying to say when he started the arakawa school#and that brings us to the CURRENT SHIGUMA#who not only misses his mentor! but also his relationship with kisoba/issho!!!!! HE STILL CALLS HIM ANIKI IM SO SICK#I constantly think about the panel where he looks at issho with trepidation as issho says he will repent for the rest of his life.#that is when the disconnect started!!!! and it only became more extreme when he was taught shiguma's art but couldn't MASTER it!!!!#imagine how Issho felt abt shiguma wasting the opportunity he never got. and becomes even worse after shinta tries to carry shiguma's art#issho is like damn shiguma was too weak and now he brings me another weakling wtf is this!! he's out! expulsion! and ofc shiguma is mad.#but ofc WE all know what issho is TRULY mad abt is really just kiroku! and his own guilt his own grief wtfff#MY GOD.#WHICH BRINGS US TO AKANE#HER PARALLELS WITH ISSHO DRIVE ME CRAZYYYY#trying to avenge the loss of her father's rakugo!!!!!#AKane almost losing herself in her desire to copy her dad#AND!!! AUUGHGHGHGH i know folks were like HUH???? when akane was reflecting on how she could have gone on a dark path w/out shiguma#Bc didn’t she already love rakugo??? But see if we only focus on Loving the Art we become Issho.#think akane first zenza training arc and kibataraki. she loves the art but can't connect to the audience. now add crippling guilt.#Shinta Arakawa is dead and Akane accepted this. but she is still so angry. issho and akane are foils u see.
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grappling with my envy the past few days that stems from seeing people connect in all sorts of manners while my attachment issues prevent me from doing just that grrr
#I've gotten better since realising im in no way superior to others when not having any attachments to ppl#and worked on trying to sort the issue out#but sometimes it's still so hard#and the feeling of isolation and hatred comes back in waves#makes me also realise that i still have the fear in me of being vulnerable with other#and showing emotions#but sometimes its so hard#especially when realising i'm being excluded again#by friends#and that ppl tend not to talk to me because idk i'm intimidating or not very emotional#genuinely don't know#just know what ppl told me#like for instance#today a teacher approached me to the usual time at break where i would sit with a group#but i was alone this time and we exchanged just a few words#but usually he remains multiple minutes with us and talks to the other#and ik he would have done the same if the others were there#and that set me off again#like people cannot not like me so little#but sometimes it really seems like it#me when life#grrr#or just seeing ppl interact and i get such strong sadness and longing in me#genuinely there have been so many instances where i was and being excluded#feels again when i realised that everyone chatted and planned thing after school#except me who was left alone#starting to thing that superiority thing was a way to protect myself wtf#personal stuff#venting
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#its so interesting to watch disinformation spread on the internet. and i mean through communities of very online people. not thru offline#ppl who just dont understand how the internet works. its so strange. like if you say something with enough conviction and if you have enough#online clout you can warp reality around your mistruths. its like that succession line im misremembering. you dont predict the future u say#things and the ppl around you scramble to make them true. and bc no one actually cares or has their own bias they never try to understand#the situation. and its so hard for me to tell where the reason behind that misinformation orignates. is it knowing lies to insight#harrassment? a huge distortion of perspective thru ego and echo chamber? or actually being a total moron? its so strange#i dunno. the internet is also very strange in that people as a collective are absolutely incapable of handling conversations that are even a#little bit complicated. you see it all over the place but its especially apparent when you watch live stream chatters flip the fuck out when#a streamer says something they disagree with even a little bit or theyre charitable to opposing perspectives. and its so baffling to me bc#everything in life is complicated and its insane to not want to interact with that even a little bit. so you end up with creators who r#audience captured bc they're afraid of upsetting ppl and that pushes communities to be unempathetic and hostile#and ready to devour anyone who doesnt meet the standards of their rigid purity test. and. in some particularly unhinged circumstances#streamers and particular member of their audiences will ensite hate under the guise of pretending to care about historic tragedies ongoing#in the world. like bro just bc u feel u have the moral high ground on one particular point does not mean u r completely immune from all#criticism and u can say truely horrifc shit abt something else and allow ur chat to be really gross. ur using the death of children to#deflect criticism wtf is happening? and again its not a clean situation. its messy. good and bad things r happening in these communities but#like there is so much content being pushed out that its almost impossible to keep track of if u arent terminally online so normies just hear#things that may or may not be true and make a black and white judgment on it. and then u get this bloated backlash based on misinfo bc#someone has a louder voice in a particular space. its madness. very interesting to watch it play out in a kind of disgusting way.#and someday there will be this empty record of an internet war no one cares abt anymore. so strange. anyway. terrible things happening in#the communities of streamers. if the internet does anythinf well its magnifying hate to obscene levels#unrelated
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WHAT DID I SAY WRONG?????
#{ out of the empire } ~ ooc#the general speaks#I had to put this up man omfg LMFAO WTF DID I SAY WRONG???#Am I just TOO AUSTRALIAN trying to get to sleep??#I'd it the fact I write villain muses????#WHO KNOWS I'M NOT PAID ENOUGH THIS SHIT IS SO FUNNY LMFAOOOO
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ovo whispers menacingly abt his grandstanding .
#(you can grandstand and be impulsive and prone to violence and have a terrible temper without being arrogant thanks)#(the closest he ever gets to saying he's above anyone else is w/ the jotuns if you really squint at it and he only ever said-)#(- that he wanted to use /force/ aka /violence/ to get them to submit to his rule bc otherwise he views them as DANGEROUS)#(based not only on historical /fact/ but cultural differences boogeymanning and seeing firsthand how they-)#(-MURDERED SOME OF HIS PEOPLE???? AND BROKE INTO HIS HOME???? ON CORONATION DAY????)#(he doesn't act like heimdall or the warriors or sif or even loki is below him. he wouldn't /ask them/ for permission otherwise)#(he even asks the humans-he-just-met for permission a la jane and then respects their decisions and apologizes for being rude abt the mug)#(and the one time he says 'know your place' to loki is when loki is actively bUTTING INTO A CONVERSATION that thor is being ridiculous abou#(bc to thor it's about /winning/ the argument with laufey and he's totally losing track of his goal to try and figure out wtf the jotuns)#(were doing ///in asgard inside the palace IN THE VAULT on CORONATION DAY///.)#(arrogance is specifically thinking you are inherently better than anyone else bc you exist)#(thor very clearly demonstrates selfish desires that translate to poorly thought out deeds)#(eg: taking it directly to laufey instead of trying to take a step back and figure it out in OTHER WAYS before a direct confrontation)#(and he also demonstrates overblown self-confidence.)#(eg the “i have no plans to die today” / “none do.”)#(that's being overconfident in his own abilities that's still not arrogance.)#( ooc . ) — stories that leap from the page .#( salt to taste . ) — in this house we love the actual main character . crazy i know .#tbd#(thor expresses boastfulness and pride similarly to his whole culture of over-exaggerating ur war stories)#(his vice is letting that vanity get to his head and fueling increasingly impulsive and stubborn decisions)#(out of the sheer and desperate desire to prove he's good enough to take up such a heavy mantle as the crown of asgard + nine realms)#(but he doesn't just look at other people and go 'oh yeah i'm so totally better than you just because i exist')#(he's also not a lightning mcqueen who actually DOES see himself above the rustees cars and the route 66 cars)#(goes out of his way to make that abundantly clear and wants actually nothing to do with any of them in pursuit of his own gains)#(only to finally figure out he's not all hot shit and slows tf down to understand and enjoy life as part of society not above it)#(he literally flies of the handle because he fully believes the jotunar actually plotted an entire elaborate scheme)#(SPECIFICALLY in the effort to exploit him as the green thumb weak link as Newly Instated King who Doesn't Know What He's Doing)#(And therefore will OBVIOUSLY do a terrible job because he's not odin and can never be odin but he /needs/ to be like odin bc odin is stron#(HE doesn't know it was loki's plan. he doesn't know it was /loki/ who timed it to the coronation.)
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Trying so hard to not start fic writing before I've even finished the game but I want so so bad to write a time travel fic where post totk wild gets sent back to pre calamity hyrule in the middle of a lynel or gleeok fight, like he's just covered in monster blood and guts with a mishmash of armour pieces (at least one barbarian piece) hair long and tangled, scars all over, wielding a ridiculously huge savage lynel spear tipped with dragon claw and dripping sizzling blood. Smoke coming off him. Arm looking half rotted.
In the middle of the throne room.
Several particularly delicate lords and ladies faint. All the guards are pointing spears. He nearly takes someone's eye out before realising where he is.
Once he realises when he is it becomes a race of time to make the right waves before zelda comes to pick him up.
#Link making direct eye contact with his younger self: that is a whole entire child wtf.#Link making direct eye contact with rhoam: ònó#100yl hyrule is very forgiving to feral cryptids who appear from the woods and eat fourty three apples in a row before vanishing#to beat up several moldugas and lynels in the span of days before returning with the rare ingredient to save their ailing father's life.#Pre calamity hyrule prides itself on Being Civilised. Link is not that. Oh he can follow zelda everywhere but that's his choice.#That's his (dubiously platonic) bestie who shares the same bed. He knows life as a knight sucked and that's all he needs to know#It's not like zelda wouldn't set something on fire if put in the same position again also.#In all fairness I think he'd try to empathise with rhoam because he's too kind not to but he doesn't have to like him to save his life#Plot points would include sneaking into gerudo town and pre link and him would end up doing the spiderman pointing meme#Rock roast eating challenges#Trying to convince him to sneak out of the castle before dawn. Sharing his sparkliest outfits. Doing his hair.#Spars that quickly become pent up screaming matches and fights to the death (they're both mostly fine)#Sharing cooking recipes and wild getting to learn about his past.#FIERCELY fighting rhoam on getting zelda access to sciencing of all types.#I wanna write it so bad ToT#loz#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#totk#loz totk#loz tears of the kingdom#loz link#time travel au#loz botw#loz aoc#age of calamity
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