sweetheart-peaches

[sweetheart-peaches]

Peaches the pink bunny snow leopard!!! (All pronouns but she/her)

[sweetheart-peaches]

I'm still working on it but I'm making my bunny snow leopard in gl2! Yes they're pink lol

[sweetheart-peaches]

I've been trying to figure out if I'm conceptkin but have 0 idea of how to tell if I am or not :')

[sweetheart-peaches]

I have officially been diagnosed with OCD

[sweetheart-peaches]

Desiranger

Desiranger - A desirdae term for those who desire/yearn/want to be angry.

I've never done a flag before so apologies if this looks bad ���

Anyone can use this for any reason but I mainly made this for myself because I struggle immensely with experiencing/expressing anger (and other emotions but anger is the biggest one)

@desirdae-archive

[sweetheart-peaches]

Blog Intro!!!

Hello! You can call me Peaches! This blog is made mainly for me to post and vent without worrying about friends/people I know (irl and online) seeing. If you think you recognize me from my mains, no, you don't. /lh (Seriously though, if for some reason you stumble across this blog and think you know my mains, I would appreciate it if you didn't say anything.)

Pronouns.cc, Pronouny, @peaches-hoard (terms and flags I identify with/as)

I am 19 years old (including bodily). I am white, able-bodied, ofab perisex, queer, trans, possibly ace-spec, alloromantic, and monogamous.

My pronouns are He/Him, They/Them, It/Its, H♡/H♡m, Th♡y/Th♡m, Fae/Faer, Fai/Fairy, 🍑/🍑s, No Pronouns, or really any pronouns that aren't She/Her or any variants of it.

I'm neurodivergent and mentally ill.

I identify as alterhuman, I am otherhearted, otherlink, and copinglink! I also identify with the kemonomimi community!

I am a paraphile (I won't get into the ones I am, but they aren't the big three), though I don't intend to talk about it much here simply cause I don't really have a reason too. I'm anti-contact for all harmful/nonconsensual paras.

I am the host of a (diagnosed) traumagenic DID system of 7. Due to dormancy and communication problems, I don't know if the others will interact here, so all posts are by me unless stated otherwise.

Regarding syscourse - I do not wish to participate, I find it unnecessarily stressful, and all it does is hurt people on all sides. I do not like to call myself pro, neutral, or anti-endo due to not wishing to partake in syscourse. That being said, I consider myself and this blog safe for all systems/plurals. I hold the belief that you and only you know your symptoms and experiences, so if you say that you are a system/plural, then I will believe you regardless of how or why your system formed. Anyone who wants to argue this will be blocked immediately because the drama just further damages my mental well-being. If I follow you and you have non-traumagenic systems/ supporters in your DNI or anything like that then please just kindly and respectfully let me know and I will unfollow you immediately, I try to make sure I don't follow people with those DNI's but sometimes I miss it. (I don't have an opinion on tulpa terminology because I don't feel it's my place to have an opinion on it.)

DNI

Basic DNI (Racists, Homophobes, Transphobes, etc.), Anti-Xenogenders/Neopronouns, Anti-Mspec/Contradictory/Other Good Faith Identities, Anti-Alterhuman, Anti-Informed Self Diagnoses, Anti-Paraphile, Anti-Recovery For Harmful Paraphiles, Pro/Neu/Complex-Contact for Harmful/Nonconsensual Paraphiles (Personally I don't care if you are any of the big three so long as you are strictly anti-contact and are in/seeking recovery), Discourse (Mainly Syscourse) Starters, Radqueer, TransID/TransX, Hardcore Christians (This is for my own mental well being, I have a lot of religious trauma), Alt-Right/Conservatives/Republicans

All user boxes below were made using one of @ghosting-plural-userboxes's templates. The people and hand emoji's were made by @ghosting-emojis. Underneath the userboxes will be the links for each icon I used, as well as a link to the userbox template I used.

Userbox Template

X

X | X

X | X | X

X | X

X | X | X

X

X

[sweetheart-peaches]

My therapist thinks I have OCD

I'm getting an assessment for it next week

Apparently my mom also has some form of OCD and she sees a lot of her symptoms in me so she wasn't even surprised when I told her

If I do have OCD then this is going to make so much of what I experience make so much more sense

[sweetheart-peaches]

excessive heat and antipsychotics

Where I live, temperatures during the summer can reach “triple digits,” or over 100 °F (37 °C). We had our first triple digit weather of the year just last week, and it’s only going to get hotter as we progress further into summer.

Something I learned only a few years ago is that some medications, including antipsychotics, can affect your body’s ability to regulate heat. Meaning that those who take these meds are more at risk of life-threatening, heat-related illnesses such as hyperthermia or heat stroke.

If you’re on psych meds and live in an area known for extreme heat or humidity, please do your very best to stay as cool as possible. Keep plenty of water with you, try to stay in cool and shaded areas, wear loose-fitting and lightweight clothing, and familiarize yourself with the signs and symptoms of heat-related illnesses. (These are things everyone should do but I wanted to emphasize it for psychiatric medication users specifically because of our impaired ability to regulate our body temperature. But I want everyone to stay safe in hot weather.)

Here are some links to some helpful information I found, from the U.S. Centers for Disease Control And Prevention*

Preventing Heat-Related Illnesses

Symptoms of Heat-Related Illnesses

Heat and Medications (intended for clinicians but has useful info for patients as well)

Risk Factors of Heat Stress (PDF/infographic intended for workers)

*Note that because this is a U.S. based organization that they will use Fahrenheit for temperature. I recommend using google search to convert units of measurement.

[sweetheart-peaches]

To all the alterhumans / nonhumans who dont know what to do: now is the time for you to start putting your money where your mouth is.

If youre an animal, it's time for you to be a goddamn animal. Be feral, Be aggressive, fight for your life.

If you're a dragon, then be a terror to Kings, and start burning down the halls of power like the dragons of yore.

If you're a mythical creature, have no concern for the social constructs of man. Stand proudly outside what people even believe is possible.

If you're plural, know you're never alone. Fight against individualism that seeks to divide each body into deterministic boxes.

If you're a fictional character who saved the world, believe that you can save any world. Don't back down now.

Now is the time to really believe that you are what you say you are. People in power are going to try to take that away from you. Don't fall for it.

It's time shed any preconceptions you have about what you're capable of. If you're an animal it's time to fight like one. A dragon that uses gasoline and matches is still a dragon.

All bets are off. If they want to treat us like dogs in a cage then im gonna start ripping fascists' throats out like one. And I'd better see y'all there with me, on G-d.

[sweetheart-peaches]

US Helplines:

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk

b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: 00 08001006614

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868

FREE 24/7 suicide hotlines:

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

(Source)

[sweetheart-peaches]

I feel like I have a weird relationship with empathy/sympathy

Like I've know for a while that I have way more empathy and sympathy for animals than I do for humans (which I've always chalked up to the fact that I've been horribly traumatized by humans over and over for my entire life while animals have never done anything even close) but over the past several months I've started to become more aware of my empathy/sympathy for other people (or lack there of)

Like I'll have people who I genuinely care for and consider friends vent about something important to them and there are a lot of times where my genuine reaction is that I just don't care, sometimes I'm even annoyed.

Like, big fucking deal, get over it.

Afterwards (as in when I look back on the specific situation) I usually end up feeling guilty and ashamed because I'm supposed to be their friend, I'm supposed to care about them and their feelings.

Obviously I never actually say that type of thing to people but I still feel like a total asshole just for thinking like that.

I don't know if it's an empathy problem, a sympathy problem, a compassion problem, or some combination of those things, but it makes me feel like a bad person.

I'm just lucky that because of my anxiety's and agoraphobia almost all my interactions with people are online so it's easier to hide these feelings from the person/people I'm talking too.

I don't always feel like this, but I always end up feeling like a dick anytime I look back on the times I have felt like this.

I know I should probably talk to my therapist about it but I'm not seeing her this week and I already have a million things I need to talk to her about since I only started seeing her recently and I'm also just ashamed to admit it.

I don't want to be seen as a bad person.