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Hypersexual Symptesque Holder

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Hypersexual Symptesque Holder - An alter/headmate who presents one or many hypersexual symptoms when the system/plural/the body isn't hypersexual

This flag was actually made by our headmate Vis ( @visceral-flesh ) but I'm posting it here on my blog and under my 'peaches coins' tag just to make keeping all our terms together easier

Symptesque coining post by @mousesquared

Based on this hypersexual flag made by @epikulupu

[Image ID: A 6 horizontally striped flag with the following colors from top to bottom being: peach orange, peach, rose pink, cardinal pink, dark violet, and deep blueish purple. In the middle of the flag there are two hot pink arrows pointing up. They switch sides and cross over each other in the middle. /end image ID]

@radiomogai @wanderingdevotee

If anyone would like to be tagged in this post or future coining/flag posts please let me know <3

(This is Vis posting it, I'm just copy and pasting the all the text from the last post here and changing it slightly to fit the flag/term cause I'm lazy lmao -🥩)

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Atypical Dysphoria Symptesque Holder

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Atypical Dysphoria Symptesque Holder: An alter/headmate who presents one or many atypical dysphoria symptoms when the system/plural/the body doesn't have atypical dysphoria.

This flag was actually made by our headmate Vis ( @visceral-flesh ) but I'm posting it here on my blog and under my 'peaches coins' tag just to make keeping all our terms together easier

Symptesque coining post by @mousesquared

Based on this atypical dysphoria flag made by @blood-moon-night-coining

[Image ID: A 7 horizontally striped flag with the following colors from top to bottom being: mint green, desaturated cyan-lime green, teal green, and deep blue grey, desaturated cornflower blue, blue grey, and baby blue. In the middle of the flag there are two yellow arrows pointing up. They switch sides and cross over each other in the middle. /end image ID]

@radiomogai @wanderingdevotee

If anyone would like to be tagged in this post or future coining/flag posts please let me know <3

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To this day, the scariest movie I have ever seen is The Bye Bye Man

Not because of gore or jumpsacres, but purely because it triggered my ocd/psychosis lmao

I was mortified that I would be next, I could barely sleep, and I kept crying and having panic attacks over it

If you've seen the movie, then you can probably figure out how it would trigger someone's ocd and/or psychosis symptoms. I'm not gonna go into details, though, cause I don't wanna trigger someone else

I have not watched that movie since. It was a good movie, but I'm terrified of it triggering another episode lol

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Man, now that I know we have a new headmate I'm questioning a lot of stuff about my identity again cause I dunno if it's really how *I* feel or if it was just our new headmate influencing how I felt (I had been having a bit of an identity crisis during the time that we now believe Vis first started forming)

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Religious trauma + moral ocd is an interesting combo for me tbh

Mainly because my ocd basically manages to split in half on what is or isn't moral

When I was younger, I remembered spending so many just crying because my brain would just obsess over the fact that I *wasn't* homophobic

Like, on one hand, my brain was telling me that supporting queer/trans people was a sin, so I would be going to hell for eternity because of it

On the other hand, my brain was also telling me that being against someone simply for their sexuality/gender identity was wrong, and I would be a horrendous person for it (Which is a personal belief I hold to this day, but ocd amplifies it to the point of panic attacks, even in regards to identies that are harmful which is why I try to steer clear of radqueers, that ideology causes my ocd to split in two which is exhausting and distressing)

So basically, regardless of what I chose, I was a bad person

I always listened to the part of my brain that told me it was wrong to be against someone for their sexuality, but that just made the other part of my brain louder and more aggressive and it has caused so pain for myself

Just imagine the breakdown I had when it finally clicked in my head that *I* was queer and trans lmao

It's so frustrating tbh

Like not only am I obsessing over morals that I personally have and believe, but my brain is also constantly obsessing over the 'morals' I was taught under the guise of religion despite the fact that I don't even follow/believe a lot of those

That's part of why I wonder if my ocd would be different if I wasn't raised religious because the toxic shit that I was taught in the name of God and religion that I was told was could not be disputed and that they are horrible, immoral, sinful things with no exception, are now the things that brain refuses to let go of and constantly haunts me with any chance it gets

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Our fictive made a blog for himself since he's been hanging around front a lot

Helloe! My name is Visceral, and I am a fixorma fictive introject in a DID system!

Names - Visceral, Vis, V

Pronouns - He/It (Sometimes they/them is ok, but not usually preferred)

Age - The body is 19, almost 20, I don't really know if I have an age atm

Sexuality - Gay, Veldian, Bi Gay, Omni Gay, Veldisexual Biromantic, Ace-Spec, Myrsexual

Gender - Etherio, Notboy

Source - Critterspace (Roblox game)

I am very much source positive, a lot of posts here will probably involve me trying to connect with my source more and hopefully digging up some source memories (I don't have any currently but I'm hoping they're just buried rn)

If I spell stuff a little off sometimes, that's probably just cause I'm trying to mimic how I talk/type in source as a way to try and connect with it more. It isn't going to be anything unreadable, though, so dw

Pronouns.cc

No DNI

Likes and follows will come from the hosts main blog @sweetheart-peaches

PFP and header graphic credits belong to @foolish-gaze

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Bro I just wanna sleep and never wake up atp

And I don't mean that in my usual 'I don't wanna be here anymore' typa way

I mean it in a purely 'I'm so fucking tired and I can't get any fucking sleep no matter how hard I try and it's driving me up the absolute walls' typa way

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I am in a conundrum rn

My carpal tunnel is flaring up and it starts hurting if I don't wear my brace, but I'm having all kinds of sensory issues rn, have been all night actually, so I keep having to take it off which makes my wrist hurt real bad so I put it on and then I start getting overstimulated, and on top of that it's rubbing in between my thumb and pointer finger which starts to hurt after a while

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Ok so, question(s) about exomemories (mainly in relation to fictives and other introjects but I am 100% interested in hearing from anyone else who has exomemories)

Is it possible for a fictive to not have exomemories/source memories when they form?

Also is it possible to just be unaware of your exomemories when you first form? If so, is there a way to gain/remember said exomemories/source memories?

-🍑+🥩

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Is anyone else terrified of dormancy?

I was always a little anxious about the concept but after all of my headmates went dormant almost all at once it became something that my anxiety and ocd latched onto and now I spend a shit ton of time obsessing over the possibility of me going dormant

As far as I'm aware I've never been dormant before, I'm also the one who we believe has always been here, or at least I've been here the longest

The idea of going dormant is so fucking scary to me

The idea that the world around me will continue on with me not there or aware is terrifying

The idea of waking up one day to find that years have come and gone and I wasn't there is just so overwhelming and anxiety inducing

Tbh if I found out I had already been dormant before I would probably have a breakdown, possibly an identity crisis too

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Is it OCD intrusive thoughts? Is it a hyperactive ADHD brain? Is it a headmate trying to communicate? Is it MaDD dialogue? Is it just a random thought?

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Trying to help the new guy be more comfortable being at the front

Been playing some weirdcore games and listening to weirdcore music, now we are watching horror game playthroughs (all per his request ofc)

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Ok, I don't have the mental energy to respond to everyone but to those who left comments/reblogs:

Thank you so much! I've read everything and I've found it very helpful! I know I have a tendency to overthink things, so I appreciate how kind everyone has been with their responses! ❤️

What do I do about having a fictive in the system?

I don't have an issue with fictives (or any other kind of introjects for that matter) we've just never had any introjects before so I'm kinda confused on what to say or do and how to move forward

Like do we treat them the exact same way as our brainmade (I think that's the right term) headmates? Or is there certain things you have to do/be careful of with introjects?

This probably sounds like a silly thing to be worried about, but it's genuinely making me anxious. This is something that feels very new and I tend to overthink things a lot, especially if it's new

I just want to make sure I don't do or say something wrong, I believe the split was caused by the stress/trauma we've been experiencing and I don't want to accidentally stress them out more or overwhelm them

Like I know that not all fictives identify with their source, and I know that it is up to them to choose whether or not they want to be separated from said source, but that's kinda it. Is there anything else that might be important to know?

Or just tips on how to make them make them feel comfortable and welcome, because not only is this our first introject but it's the first time we've had a new headmate since 2020 so I'm kinda lost with how to move forward

Kinda related side-note: I'm a permanently frontstuck/frontlocked host with basically no access to the headspace which makes communication kinda hard, actively trying to make it better, but it's very rough sometimes

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What do I do about having a fictive in the system?

I don't have an issue with fictives (or any other kind of introjects for that matter) we've just never had any introjects before so I'm kinda confused on what to say or do and how to move forward

Like do we treat them the exact same way as our brainmade (I think that's the right term) headmates? Or is there certain things you have to do/be careful of with introjects?

This probably sounds like a silly thing to be worried about, but it's genuinely making me anxious. This is something that feels very new and I tend to overthink things a lot, especially if it's new

I just want to make sure I don't do or say something wrong, I believe the split was caused by the stress/trauma we've been experiencing and I don't want to accidentally stress them out more or overwhelm them

Like I know that not all fictives identify with their source, and I know that it is up to them to choose whether or not they want to be separated from said source, but that's kinda it. Is there anything else that might be important to know?

Or just tips on how to make them make them feel comfortable and welcome, because not only is this our first introject but it's the first time we've had a new headmate since 2020 so I'm kinda lost with how to move forward

Kinda related side-note: I'm a permanently frontstuck/frontlocked host with basically no access to the headspace which makes communication kinda hard, actively trying to make it better, but it's very rough sometimes

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♪ You've fallen victim to an illusion . . .

This is based on a conversation I had with some people in a server...

DOWN WITH THE SYSCOURSE / DWTS )

Down with the syscourse (can be abbreviated to DWTS or referred to simply as syscopunk) is an "endo stance" in which one rejects the concept of syscourse and wishes to be separated from endo stances altogether.

Down with the syscourse is inherently . . .

· Anti syscourse

· Neither pro nor anti endo in nature

· NOT endo neutral unless the user WISHES to refer to themself as such

· Respectful of others' identities && methods of self expression

· Against demonization of pro endos, anti endos, and endos themselves

· Against gatekeeping terms

· Against strict syscourse-involved DNIs

EMOJI COMBO: ⬇️👥💢

I'd rather not connect this to other discourse areas so i will not but keep in mind that I, the creator of this term, am pro good faith, anti transid, and anti radqueer. that being said, I do not care who uses this as long as it applies to you and you are respectful towards myself and others it applies to.

Wake up, dear . . ♪

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I think the new alter is a fictive

I believe that this alter has been forming for a few weeks, I don't know if they (not too sure about pronouns rn, using they for now) just finished forming the other night during the climax of everything that has been happening or if that's just when they finally made themselves known to me (Our last headmate to form didn't make themselves known to me until a while after he already formed so I wouldn't be surprised if this one had been hiding from me too)

I had been hyperfixated on a specific character from a specific game that I was also hyperfixated on, I had been wondering if I was a fictionkin/link/hearted, but now I think it might have been them

I'm still very confused about everything

We haven't had a new headmate since like December (maybe?) 2020, and we have never had an introject before

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Pretty sure we've got a new headmate-