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Bipolar disorder has been slightly romanticized by its association with creative types, but many sufferers’ experience of the illness is far from glamourous. Patients report getting to the point where they can’t function and sometimes need to be hospitalized, especially if they don’t take their medication as prescribed. On the other hand, at the outset of a manic episode, the person can feel like making lots of plans because the world seems full of opportunity. They may feel high, meet a lot of new friends, spend all their money, and even feel invincible. Medication can appear to remove or dull the experience, and may not be viewed positively at this point. So is there something about the manic or in-between episodes of bipolar disorder that can be conducive to creative expression in some people? This may mean, however, that, as a society, we lose the associated gifts. We might then face a difficult decision either way in that it is unclear that we are preventing an unalloyed bad when we diagnose and eliminate bipolar disorder through prenatal genetic testing and yet if we allow the individual to be born we are condemning that person to being an unwitting sacrifice in that they might well suffer considerable net distress as a result of our need to keep our gene pool enriched in the relevant way.” In any case, individuals with bipolar disorder often report that they are at their most creative and productive when feeling most healthy. For example, the poet Sylvia Plath, who is widely believed to have had bipolar disorder, said that when she was writing she was accessing the healthiest part of herself. What might she have written had she not killed herself at age 30? It does seem that for those who are diagnosed with bipolar disorder, creativity can offer a powerful means of expression. #bipolardisorder #artistlife #creativity

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7 ways pets improve your mental health Pets make excellent companions, they're also good for your mental health here's hoe 1. Pets reduce stress Many people feel stress. Research shows that just patting a pet can ease stress and reduce your blood pressure. Even watching fish swimming in an aquarium reduces stress. It can also help you relax and practice mindfulness. 2. Pets provide companionship Pets can be affectionate, accepting, loyal, honest and consistent. If you feel isolated with little support, a pet can help reduce your loneliness. 3. Pets fulfill the human need to touch Most people feel better when they have physical contact with others. Simply patting a pet can lower your heart rate. Snuggling Northy at night is the best!!! 4. Pets require routine and organisation Most pets require a routine of feeding, cleaning and exercise. This can give you purpose and motivation which can help your self-esteem, wellbeing and mental health. Although can be a burden in times of severe depression :( 5. Pets provide a sense of purpose A pet can provide you with a sense of purpose, which helps improve mental health conditions like depression and anxiety. If you have a pet, you are never alone and you are also responsible for looking after them. 6. Pets increase your social interaction Pets create opportunities for better social interaction, especially if you live beat a dog park like I used to. Going to pet-friendly events, beaches or parks can also help increase your social network. You could make new friends just by taking your dog for a walk or waiting at the vet, due to the shared interest in your pets. 7. Pets improve your fitness (dog owners) If you own a dog, they need regular walks, and this exercise is good for you too. Exercise, like walking, has many benefits for your mental health and wellbeing. You can also use the time walking your dog to improve your fitness and make the most of the outdoors to help you further develop mindfulness and relaxation. If you have a fear of social situations, or social phobia, a pet can help with slowly introducing you to other people who also have pets and enhance your mental state

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Just watching the sunrise on the farm with my dog. #lifegoals #happiness #nothingbetter #mansbestfriend #lovinglife

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Love this boy with all my heart! He's gone through a lot just like me. We are warriors. He is my soul mate in a dog. He reminds me every day that despite how worthless I feel there is one living being on this planet that thinks I'm not just of value but his entire world.

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No artist is ahead of his time. He is his time, it’s just that others are behind the times

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I never thought of myself as an actress. That was until I realised I have been acting every single day of my life. I do it so naturally I don’t even realise I’m doing it. Sometimes I can’t even tell the difference between what is the real me and what is an act. At some point the cracks began to show. Pretending to be OK as my life fell apart around me! It was a few years into that I had to admit I wasn’t OK. I had to admit the reap reason my life was in turmoil because people kept accusing me of deliberately destroying my life. Why anyone would want to do that is beyond me. Since I’ve been speaking openly and honestly about my mental health people seem to think I do it for attention. That I “play” mentally ill. Like its all an act for attention I want. Haha trust me I don’t. So I say to people who ask me what happened to you why are you suddenly acting like this what happened to the you we loved... The truth is. That was all an act. A lifetime of cover ups, take smiles, pretending to be happy and have my shot together as everything fell apart became so exhausting. Things got so bad there was no way of hiding it and believe me I tried. So I decided to get real.  I had to if I had any chance of helping myself.  I had to admit something was wrong first!  I offer my story to the ones around me as an explanation. An attempt to connect with others through understanding. 

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WARNING!!! #MANIC ALERT #hypersensitivity at a level 10/10 I bask under the #moonlight it's when I come alive. The sounds of crickets sing #sweet soft melodies in my ears. I am alert and oh so very awake at this time of night. I #dance in circles in my yard spinning and laughing to the beat of my own song. I glide across the grass and feel the lush blades of green tickle the souls of my feet. I am the barefoot #gypsy. Alive and enlightening I raise my eyes to gaze upon the #beautiful #night #sky. #Stars twinkle in the distance and I am #entranced by its beauty. I howl at the moon and take a deep #breath. The warm #spring air tantalises my #senses. It's sweet and delicious. I lay down on the grass to gaze once again upon the moon. It energizes me with its luminescent light! Everything I #touch feels like magic in my hands. I am alive and I can taste touch smell hear and see all the glory of this #world... even in the dead of the night. I am confident thw moonlight will guide my way. I am fearless and energized beyond comparison. I #feel #enriched in the #wilderness. I feel at home in nature. #Sounds of society that would normally antagonise me in this time are absent. I am peaceful. Alone but not lonely. I am glad to be #alive!!! #bipolar

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Everyday I choose to fight.

When I look at myself in the mirror I see all my flaws. I see everything I am facing and everything I am forced to overcome. I don’t see the lie I tell myself. The story I try to convince myself of every day. 

I am strong I say,  you can do this,  you will do this,  there has to be a way and you will find it. I know it will take time but you have to be close,  look at how far you have come! 

That is the attitude I try to live by,  it’s the only thing keeping me alive. But that doesn’t mean I am not overwhelmed by the struggle I face. The gravity of my situation threatens to tear me down but I stand tall in the face of it all. Doesn’t that count for something?  I wish it did,  but it’s not enough. Even the few who understand my pain and believe it is,  society won’t see it that way. Who cares what society thinks!  You may scream... But their judgment is unshakeable. Because I see it in myself. Its not society I am letting down,  it’s me. It’s the person no matter how hard I try I just cant be. 

I look at myself and see what u see. You look fine? Why can’t you just get on with it and live your life?  

I look in the mirror and I think to myself this isn’t you. I don’t buy it. Not the fake confident together version of yourself you try to be nor the weak pathetic incapable excuse of yourself you have become. Neither one is me,  I never quite feel like me. I don’t who I am or who I have become but I am haunted by the person I am, it’s not somebody anyone wants to be. I don’t want to destroy myself,  but I’m afraid to push myself because I fail so much. 

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No one will ever understand the hell i have been and are abnd will go through unless you have experienced it too and i hope for your sakes you never understand what i am talking abou tand if you do i have so much empathy for you. We are stronger than anyone will ever know. We are braver than any soldier could ever be because this is not a war we cannot leave. 

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Dam I'm good.... Haha #throwback to an old video I found! P. S. Check out my YouTube Chanel if u haven't. U won't regret it! How many of you have watched the whole 289 videos??? (link in bio)

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You know when you have moved on from the past and grown into a better person and then you stumble across someone from your past and they do or say something that proves they are still the exact same person they always were? And you almost feel sorry for them. Because its like really? WOW... people dont grow up. People dont change and its actually so refreshing to watch it happen in front of you because it reminds you how far you have come and how much stronger you are, how much better you are without them in your life. When they do or say things that triggers you it reminds you of why you made the choices you did to shut them out. Or why you are glad they left your life. It shows you how much you have grown as a person. Into a better person. In my experience they are not good people and its so easy to fall into the traps they lay because they are so adament at pretending and voicing their own significance that they become very good at convincing people of what they want to be. But its only after a time when people like us see through their shiny fascades and start to unravel their flaws. Flaws they refuse to see even if it would make them better for it. The disgard anyone the second their illusion starts to fall. They throw these people out with the trash because they cant handle anyone at all telling them they are less than perfect. Then theres us. Who let people like them put us down because we see our flaws. We see our weaknesses and that makes us tremble at our knees. But it is also what makes us strong. We voice our flaws so others can take advantage of them. Especially narcasists. They manipulate our weaknesses to make themselves appear stronger. It is only now i can look back on to all and laugh. Because i see them using the same tactics they always have and because they lost their grip on me and i pulled out their claws... i am too smart to ever let them get close enough again to hurt me at all. . . . #blackandwhite #photography #blackandwhitephotography #eye #instagood #mentalhealth #photographylovers #photooftheday #art #creativenative #artistlife #blogger #truestory # abuseSurvivor #quoteoftheday #quotestagram #quoteme #trustme #follow #eyes #deep

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What's a queen without her king? well, historically speaking, more powerful . . . . . . . . . . .#photooftheday #lifestyle #feminism #inkedgirl #mentalstrength #yogalife #healthyliving #mentalwellness #motivation #mindset #instagood #determination #healthychoices #inkedgirls #summer #instagood #lifequotes #queen #hapiness #strongwoman #womenempowerment #relationshipgoals #selflove #selfcare #bodypositive #fitspo #inspiration #cute #beautiful #hapiness

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I don't know why I have this overwhelming urge to cry.... It's like this wave just crashed over me and suddenly I am duplicating and I can't breath! But why? I am paralysed but agitated all at the same time! I can't function and that makes things worse because I am frozen in fear! What am I so afraid of? ??????????????? Living.... Living life again. My hopes and dreams have been put on hold for so long pushed aside by illness that prevented me from achieving them. Now I'm so. What free and I don't know what to do. I am terrified that if I do everything will fall apart all over again. I am terrified of failing so terrified in fact it prevents me from even begining. I hate myself more each time. It hurts so much more because it's not mental illness standing in my way right now it's Me.... Biologically I am fine but psychologically I'm not. That scares me. I'm scared I'll never do the things I want to do or be who I want to be because I'm frozen. I want to move, I do move but nothing seems to satisfy me everything is making me anxious and uncomfortable and that is all I want. I want comfort. I want to feel complete. In sick of searching, sick of feeling like I'm hollow I just want to be OK with who I am. I know I should be but I'm not. I want to be, I try to be. But sometimes it's just all too much. Living is much more terrifying than dying. Surviving is the only mode I know. I'm lost without my sorrows... As strange as that may sound. Every year I go down. But this time I bounced back up. But winter will continue to threaten to tear me down. I just have to keep getting up... #winteriscoming

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💥CRAZY?! 💥Bitch please! 🙈 I'm limited edition! 😈 #throwback to this rad Live feed we did!!! Do u want me to do more? Or share some of the best of snippets? . P. S. Will be live again later tonight! . . . . . . . . . . @prilaga #bodyart #instacool #tumblrpic #instalove #fun #amazingink #friends #instadaily #girl #hot #instapic #tbt #instagood #inkedgirls #funny #awesome #inkaddict #summer #tattoolife #inkstagram #inked #tumblrlife #smile #tattooedgirls #inkedgirl #tumblrgirl #inkedlife #prilaga #happy

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Beware when you piss off an artist. with an artist be it a painter, a singer, or poet will express not just your physical description but her perception wrapped up in the emotions you made her feel. the artist will  paint you with strokes and hues until the pain of your betrayal is portrayed in an accurate way. Art for me is a diary of my life. When I am dying slowly bleeding on the canvas of life; emotions bounce around in my head and swirl nauseaously in my stomach churning and swirling around to eventually be transcribed  into beautiful words or paint or charcoal or raps, whatever form of expression tickles my fancy at the time. a patchwork of thoughts from my mind either way made with fragmented sentences,  allow me to expose part of my soul others can't see or refuse to acknowledge. It is my tribute to the parallel existence I live secretly and simultaneously alongside the one u know and see. Be it conjuring words that coax images or emotions or memories to arise in other's minds. the most magnificent artwork that changes for every reader as each relate to it in their own way. a display of my soul that will never be seen  in the way I intended it to be seen by many. Is this a curse or a gift? They called it art, but I call it a snapshot of the world inside my mind. The emotional existence I live be it colourful ogle dark. As I paint a silent picture With my inner feelings on display for all to see. Each time a reminder to Take care of your emotions So not to distort the painting And smudge the facts to perpetuate my suffering. Brushes and paints can do a lot of pictures but they will never be equal to the memories I am haunted by day and night. Images inside his head that once captured can not be erased It can speak for a million of smiles.It can reveal us thousands of lies Every paintings has its own secretsHid by the one who passionately paints it If I could dive through that canvasI would know the story I want to tell. the landscape not of the land but the folds I find in my mind. Hiding tears behind my masterpiece. I can draw you smiles, Paint you laughter, Doodle you little dimples, Glue glitter to your eyes I do it to myself all the time.

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Arguing with idiots is like playing chess with a pigeon. No matter how good you are the bird is going to shit on the board and strut around like it won anyway. If there's one quote that sums up my relationship with my ex partners, my family and all those ignorant self entitled people in this world than this is it. You all know them. The type of people that ask about your mental health but respond with ignorant advice like but have u just tried to be happy, to smile or to be normal like the rest of us. We do it, so I know you can too. Choosing the people to let go, can be hard but is a necessary part of life! it is not worth your time trying to argue with a fucking dumb ass pigeon! You will be able to recognise them when you have learnt to see the signs. They walk around with their chests puffed out like they know everything in the world. They will never understand you or what your going through because they are so self absorbed they can't see beyond themselves. Please don't fall into the trap of trying to reason with these immature intolerant people. Their lack of understanding never ceases to amaze me and their blatant resistance to being educated. In my experience surrounding yourself with these people is a one way ticket to insanity. In a time when we are trying to convince ourselves we are sane we don't need to be frustrated by people who will never get it! They would turn a sane person crazy! Don't let anyone manipulate you into taking the blame for everything and apologising for their lack of understanding and inability to get you. Your perfectly imperfect. You might not be perfect in their eyes but you will be perfect to someone who will cherish your level of crazy. The trick is to become strong enough on your own to throw that fucking pigeon back out the door where they came from. Pigeons don't belong in our homes. (I should know an actual dumb ass pigeon bird got stuck in my house the other day and was a nightmare to get out! Let them roam the streets for scraps of food and strut around like the self entitled ass's they are! My advice, pull a silly face and walk away!!