#depressedgirl

[dead4ngelxoxo]

I love my bf but I hate that he knows me so well. I mean I am very mentally ill and therefore unpredictable but he knows too much. I know it's healthy relationship but I hate that part. Why can't I be mysterious and living my life in my coquette room and only talk to mirror or my black cat.

Also my voices in head are irritated that I have friend (my boyfriend only) and that thing in my head thinks this is too much for me. He doesn't overwhelm me it's something else. Just my illness now want me depressed laying alone in bed, going to school and don't talk to anyone and then go back to home and reading books and never never writing to people.

The funniest thing is that as soon as I meet him, I'll tell him everything that's on my mind. I don't want to feel like a baby next to him but also I would never lie to him.

I love him too much. I love him that I can't feel what is inside me because every emotion fades away as soon as I see him.

[zivassillyspam]

Fear of the future consumes my every waking thought

[diaries-of-a-depressedgirl]

What is perfection,

If not people's misperception, that others' lives are easier than their own...

[bisekcual]

the lf wuvvy feeling good fancam that exists in my mind is immaculate btw

[bluestarlett]

also shit man heres some doodles of aster and saturn.

The adventures of depressedgirl and haterthing

[zivassillyspam]

Girls know the pain, I am so sexy in a mirror

[nastasyafilippovnabarashkova]

1, 6, 10, 13 & 19

i will answer jimmystasya for these yippy. one day ill post my list here.

nose kisses or forehead kisses?

forehead kisses one hundred percent i need to tackle her and grab her head and SMOOCH her with enough force to knock her over. i tried that with a nose kiss i would break her nose and that wouldnt be very feminist of me. she would be the same way shes coming in on the attack. we are both a little insane.

6. "pancake" or "waffle" hand-holding?

had to google what this meant but waffle. because of the constant thought in my head of me needing to keep her hands warm.

10. constantly saying “i love you” or only say “i love you” during really serious/romantic moments?

i would say it constantly but i think she would be a little scareder about it bc of her issues i think but she would definitely say it when we are having ROMANTIC MOMENT!

13. stay at home dates or out on the town dates?

she prefers stay at home but i make her leave the house so she doesnt get depressedgirl mode

19. gifting love letters/poems or gifting flowers?

ohhhh this is hard...gonna have to go for love letters bc you know. 19th century woman thats the way to her heart. in the book she writes absolutly insane letters and i really want to cultivate that energy. shes writing abnormal shit to me and im swooning and writing even more abnormal things back.

[xxxneverbeinggoodenoughxxx]

Nicht alle sind glücklich, die glücklich scheinen.

Manche lachen nur um nicht zu weinen. :)

[dead4ngelxoxo]

[zivassillyspam]

Me last night fr

[lonelybrokengirl99]

I want to cut. So bad. Watch the blood run down and feel the sting. Feel the rush of endorphins the only thing keeping me sane. Scars aren’t enough, they heal and fade. The only thing for sure is the knife and the blade. They find me here time after time. They’re in my head and outside my mind. You know who you are, I need not say it twice. I hope you’re happy with my brutal sacrifice.

[meldy-arts]

Yaz isn’t coping well 

[am-i-me-questionmark]

Why does everyone always leave

Why do I always ruin everything

Why am I such a fucking failure

[alicetalon]