#bipolardisorder

[madmansmisc]

Ugly ducklings squashed like cockroaches

Beauty is virtue, I bet Eden wore no makeup

Plastic surgery morality cleanliness to godliness 

Why help someone in the dirt and muck, it’ll get on you and me

[blue-foxglove]

I just published part of my FIRST book! Check it out? Link below!

Solid Ground (Exclusive Preview) - Solid Ground - Exclusive Preview (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/1506755983-solid-ground-exclusive-preview?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_reading&wp_uname=Elaine_Ryan 

In the sultry depths of Louisiana's delta, Solid Ground follows Blaire, a young woman drawn into an irresistible romance with three brothers who each have their shadows. Baron, an Army veteran who finds solace in Blaire's tenderness; Cale, finding strength in her compassion as he rebuilds his life after alcoholism tore his family apart; and Dominic, who lives with bipolar disorder and seeks balance through her unwavering presence. As their connection deepens, Blaire falls not for one, but all three brothers, captivated by each man's intensity, quirks, and flaws. The best part is, they've all fallen for her too. 

***This book contains an instance of relationship violence, excessive explicit (but definitely consensual) sexual content, alcoholic recovery, and instances of manic and depressive episodes induced by bipolar disorder as well as an attempted suicide. It is intended for readers 18 and up only.***

[perempuan4ntigores]

TERNYATA AKU BELUM SELESAI

Bagian 1

Hai, Nama Aku Mazah, orang biasa memanggil ku dengan sebutan Azah,aku seorang penyintas Bipolar Disorder × Anxiety, dan aku juga seorang ibu dari 2 anak-anak Solehah.

Aku memiliki 1 anak yang luar biasa, iya.. Anak pertamaku dia penyintas ADHD,anaknya Hyperactive & susah fokus tapi dia anak yang luar biasa, amat sangat kreatif dan juga di usianya yang baru 5,5 tahun sudah banyak menghafal, hampir menyelasaikan hafalan Juz 30,Maa syaa Allah.

Terkadang aku bingung dengan sebuah Takdir,tapi bukan berarti aku mengeluhkan semua itu, tidak sama sekali.

Dalam hidup, aku sudah sangat banyak menerima Kehilangan, Padahal aku selalu berusaha untuk membuat bahagia orang-orang di sekitarku, meskipun aku tau mereka tidak menghargai itu.

Aku selalu melakukan hal yang pada endingnya aku selalu berkorban dalam segala hal & segala bentuk apapaun itu.

Aku sering melawan perasaan ku, aku bilang YA tapi kenyataan nya TIDAK.

Aku pernah berusaha berlari, walau ternyata ia terus mengikuti. .

Aku salah karena aku berusaha berlari dan menghindar?

Aku rasa tidak sama sekali, karena aku menganggap itu awal dari sebuah pengorbanan tentang hati & perasaan.

Aku tidak sedang menceritakan kisah kemarin, aku sedang menceritakan kisah yang lalu... YANG TERNYATA AKU BELUM SELESAI tentang itu..

[heartcavingin]

i’m fucking nocturnal ꩜_꩜

[hypomanicdaydream]

I wish I could be more open about having bipolar disorder.

I wish it would make people understand.

I'm not stumbling over my words for fun. I take medication that evens my moods, but at the cost of my brain taking like 30 seconds to load before I can speak coherently. And if I don't let it, nonsense comes out.

I'm sorry about that. I can be mildly offensive when I can't get my words out right. And then, because Bipolar disorder is like 60% mood disorder and 40% embarrassment and anxiety, I sit there thinking about how I could have said it if my brain didn't take half a minute to buffer.

But nobody would understand that if I told them. All they would hear is "bipolar" which equates to "crazy" which equates to "dangerous," and nobody wants that.

[barcodeboyz]

I hate being bipolar so much because literally nothing happened and I’m sobbing in the work bathroom rn

[blue-foxglove]

UPDATED LINK!

Solid Ground (Exclusive Preview) - Solid Ground - Exclusive Preview (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/1506755983-solid-ground-exclusive-preview?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_reading&wp_uname=Elaine_Ryan 

 In the sultry depths of Louisiana's delta, Solid Ground follows Blaire, a young woman drawn into an irresistible romance with three brothers who each have their shadows. Baron, an Army veteran who finds solace in Blaire's tenderness; Cale, finding strength in her compassion as he rebuilds his life after alcoholism tore his family apart; and Dominic, who lives with bipolar disorder and seeks balance through her unwavering presence. As their connection deepens, Blaire falls not for one, but all three brothers, captivated by each man's intensity, quirks, and flaws. The best part is, they've all fallen for her too. ***This book contains an instance of relationship violence, excessive explicit (but definitely consensual) sexual content, alcoholic recovery, and instances of manic and depressive episodes induced by bipolar disorder as well as an attempted suicide. It is intended for readers 18 and up only.***

[hypomanichippy]

Sometimes I think about when I was crying to my dad about how another one of my friendships had gone to shit as a young child (in retrospect because of the autism), and my dad said “this seems to happen a lot. there’s one common denominator here, is it possible that you’re the problem” and goddamn if I didn’t internalize that shit until it came out in therapy years later.

Love u dad but that one was a real “axe forgets but the tree remembers” moment

[amrielsapphia]

I have no hope. I don't know how to function anymore. I'm a burden and I can't even make myself less of a burden because I can't do anything. Anytime I ask for help I'm talked to like I'm over exaggerating. I just cant anymore.

I feel like a hostage to life. I don't know what to do.

[jojou2]

اضطراب ثنائي القطب **bipolardisorder** 📌 الاضطراب ثنائي القطب ليس حالة مزاجية عابرة 📌 الاكتئاب ليس الشعور بالحزن فقط 📌 نوبة الهوس ليست الشعور بالسعادة ببساطة 📌 الأشخاص المصابين باضطرابات ثنائي القطب ليسو أشخاص غير مستقرين، ومتقلبي المزاج فقط 📌 اضطراب ثنائي القطب هو مشكلة نفسية، تتسم بتقلبات شديدة جداً في المزاج حيث يشعر الشخص بالاكتئاب ويشعرون بالاكتئاب حيناً وبالسعادة المفرطة حيناً آخر مما يؤثر على علاقاتهم العائلية والاجتماعية والعملية، وقد لا يتمكن بعضهم من الحفاظ على علاقات اجتماعية طبيعية أو الاستمرار طويلاً في عملهم مما يزيد الأمر سوءاً 📌 اضطراب ثنائي القطب يمكن أن يؤذي الصحة الجسدية فتقلبات النوم واضطرابات الطعام المرافقة قد تكون شديدة ومزعجة، كما أن الاكتئاب الشديد يمكن أن يدفع المريض إلى الإدمان أو الانتحار ◀◀◀ تذكر أن الدعم الأسري جيد ومهم وفعال لكنه لا يكفي، فالمرض النفسي بحاجة لعلاج

[saigonreviewvn]

Tìm đến các địa chỉ khám, chữa rối loạn lưỡng cực ở TPHCM uy tín sẽ là một trong những yếu tố tiên quyết giúp bạn phát hiện nhanh và điều trị kịp thời căn bệnh tâm lý nguy hiểm này. Trong bài viết lần này, hãy cùng Sài Gòn Review tìm hiểu thông tin về 10 gợi ý trung tâm, bệnh viện, phòng khám có dịch vụ chẩn đoán và chữa trị rối loạn lưỡng cực tại Thành phố Hồ Chí Minh tốt nhất.

[writtenwrong]

Stabilizing the Element

or Even our atoms need each other

When atoms are far apart, they attract each other. This attraction is stronger for some kinds of atoms than others. At the same time, the heat, or kinetic energy, of atoms makes them always move. If the attraction is strong enough, relative to the amount of heat, atoms will form a solid. If the attraction is weaker, they will form a liquid, and if it is even weaker, they will form a gas. (Wikipedia, 6/26/2023)

It's the hot Central Valley summer of the second long distance, the second hand ticking away uncountable minutes, the seconding of everyone in my orbit that I am not quite interesting enough to really bond with. No one said it first, but I am pitifully made aware that I cannot be created nor destroyed, only transmuted transfixed and transformed, the ever unstable element on the table for discussion.

Chemical bonds are the strongest kinds of attraction between atoms. The movement of electrons explains all chemical bonds. Atoms usually bond with each other in a way that fills or empties their outer electron shell. The most reactive elements have an almost full or almost empty outer shell. Atoms with a full outer shell, called noble gases, do not usually form bonds. (Wikipedia, 6/26/2023)

I do not understand my parents, well off and independent of one another. How do you breathe the same oxygen every night and remain unmoved? I cannot help but react and I reach, desperate to fill myself, desperate to fill others, to give and receive. But in this hot Central Valley summer I grasp only air.

There are three main kinds of bonds: ionic bonds, covalent bonds, and metallic bonds.

In an ionic bond, one atom gives electrons to another atom. Each atom becomes an ion: an atom or group of atoms with a positive or negative charge. The positive ion (which has lost electrons) is called a cation; it is usually a metal. The negative ion (which has gained electrons) is called an anion; it is usually a nonmetal. Ionic bonding usually results in a regular network, or crystal, of ions held together. (Wikipedia, 6/26/2023)

I had forgotten what it was like to live on the affluent side of town, to not see people starving, to not have people all around who are unstable, reactive. Knowing they are still here, still reacting, only kept out of this sterile lab environment through aggressive sanitizing of unwanted elements to avoid cross contamination, I am not comforted by comforts. I am lonely.

In a covalent bond, two atoms share electrons. This usually happens when both atoms are nonmetals. Covalent bonds often form molecules, ranging in size from two atoms to many more. They can also form large networks, such as glass or graphite. The number of bonds that an atom makes (its valency) is usually the number of electrons needed to fill its outer electron shell. (Wikipedia, 6/26/2023)

Board games and conversations on the street corner spread conversations far and wide, and everything belongs to everyone on that street corner for the day. I meet a man who asks me if I want a cigarette while beating me thoroughly at chess, a woman who has a little dog wearing a sweater in better condition than her own, a guy who watches each tournament and pulls at his sleeves, someone is writing resources on the community board.

In a metallic bond, electrons travel freely between many metal atoms. Any number of atoms can bond this way. Metals conduct electric current because electric charge can easily flow through them. Atoms in metals can move past each other, so it is easy to bend, stretch, and change the shape of metals. (Wikipedia, 6/26/2023)

Remember the weeks of watching for news of Seattle's community? Of parsing through hyperbole and lies for glimmers of a people committed to radical restructuring? Remember what it felt like to wonder if this was the beginning of something significant? I remember changing and stretching into something new, something I thought was stable but could not have been more reactive. Maybe that isn't a bad thing.

[amrielsapphia]

More bad news

My fault

I am sitting here willing my heart to stop

For my body to give out for good rather than just tormenting me

I can't do this anymore

[designgraphicruby]

The Power of Music for Mental Wellness

[madmansmisc]

NOVOCAINE DAYDREAMS IN A NIGHTMARE

Delusion is a dirty word

I want a guiltless grand daydream

A time for living a flying time 

Fighting a losing wargame 

That I can’t live without

I taste the fantasies and 

Thickening confusions 

I’m addicted to identity 

The mask I wear is a monkey on my back 

Built up a tolerance 

Need a higher dose 

I am my medicine 

Turn my mind up to eleven 

More me than I’ve ever been 

I want a different dose

A trip in someone else 

Wear their skin and walk in their shoes