#bipolardisorder

[madmansmisc]

Ugly ducklings squashed like cockroaches

Beauty is virtue, I bet Eden wore no makeup

Plastic surgery morality cleanliness to godliness 

Why help someone in the dirt and muck, it’ll get on you and me

[pleasejustignore]

My bestie has NPD and I'm a Bipolar mess. So we show solidarity thru memes.

Also this one was made by frien

[barcodeboyz]

Breaking news: Local bipolar man takes his meds and feels better

[heartcavingin]

i’m fucking nocturnal ꩜_꩜

[healinglilia]

when the summer hypomania is slowly turning into a depressive episode but it's the end of august and you just know you're going to be sad and tired for the next 8 months until april comes and starts the cycle again

[hypomanicdaydream]

I wish I could be more open about having bipolar disorder.

I wish it would make people understand.

I'm not stumbling over my words for fun. I take medication that evens my moods, but at the cost of my brain taking like 30 seconds to load before I can speak coherently. And if I don't let it, nonsense comes out.

I'm sorry about that. I can be mildly offensive when I can't get my words out right. And then, because Bipolar disorder is like 60% mood disorder and 40% embarrassment and anxiety, I sit there thinking about how I could have said it if my brain didn't take half a minute to buffer.

But nobody would understand that if I told them. All they would hear is "bipolar" which equates to "crazy" which equates to "dangerous," and nobody wants that.

[beaujagr]

Depressed person musings about depression time behaviors

Today I realized that one of the reasons I dislike avoidant behaviors in myself is because my experiences have taught me that most of the time, distance & not communicating at most helps one person in the equation, it doesn't help *the relationship.*

When I take distance from friends or partners, they don't know any more about why I am struggling or what my needs are, I just work on those & resolve them myself (or don't). In the meantime, my partners who benefit from communicating & reassurance don't get it, they just get anxiety & can build mistrust in me because they're out of the loop, & I can't meet *their needs. *

One way I think helps is if I do need processing space,I still keep them updated & brief them on what I'm dealing with & what interactions are still okay, and I try to let them know if there are multiple factors (I need this much time to process because it's not just us or you, it's my energy, social stress, my mental health, family, etc.). I also let them know things they can do to help or make the process go faster/smoother.

I think it is working better, and it makes sense to me. Not trying to continue to be avoidant, but setting actually clear boundaries and being instead transparent and open as I process my emotions and make decisions.

[notabipolarbear]

Less than a year and both of our cats have passed away. I feel empty and sad today. I ate some kiwi 🥝 that was nice and had pizza express with a good friend and partner. I still feel down and eating helps. I need to make sure it’s healthy stuff though. Although, I’ve been eating like a pig and still been losing weight… who knows eh… I have a week to myself starting tomorrow. My partner is going back to wales for a week.. I think it’ll be relaxing then boring after a few days lol

[hypomanichippy]

Sometimes I think about when I was crying to my dad about how another one of my friendships had gone to shit as a young child (in retrospect because of the autism), and my dad said “this seems to happen a lot. there’s one common denominator here, is it possible that you’re the problem” and goddamn if I didn’t internalize that shit until it came out in therapy years later.

Love u dad but that one was a real “axe forgets but the tree remembers” moment

[lithiumjunkiie]

i really feel like a danger to myself and others right about now.

[madmansmisc]

Reaffirmation and resurrection, the armour grandeur 

An endoskeleton leeching from a bleeding soul

A second skin is a second chance 

A shedded skin in a second life

[amrielsapphia]

I have no hope. I don't know how to function anymore. I'm a burden and I can't even make myself less of a burden because I can't do anything. Anytime I ask for help I'm talked to like I'm over exaggerating. I just cant anymore.

I feel like a hostage to life. I don't know what to do.

[barcodeboyz]

I hate being bipolar so much because literally nothing happened and I’m sobbing in the work bathroom rn

[pleasejustignore]

You know I really wish people would talk about the psycosis that comes with bipolar disorder more often. Because it fuckin SUCKS.

And apparently a great deal of bipolar people do experience psycosis in some capacity. Probably because people think more hallucinations then delusions, but either or both count.

[nerddddthing]

Being hypomanic and accomplishing nothing has to be the most annoyingly worst thing ever

[stopwarsimscared]

Psychotherapy is good for you. Psychotherapy is good for you, even if after that, you come home just to cry, cry, cry

Scream at the top of your lungs, cry out all the tears that are left in you, and then - try once again to love yourself