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devilfic · 2 years ago
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Would you ever consider writing a symbiote!MCU Spidey? I’d love to see your take on a darker Peter Parker!
OH BOY WOULD I
you don't understand the DEPTHS of my euphoria when I saw peter go apeshit on the green goblin during no way home. like??
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the way he's visibly shaking from rage, the unrestrained violence, the line "no, I just wanna kill you myself". there's something so delicious about a character who is usually dedicated to being a good person in the face of grief and sadness only to give into their wrath when they get pushed just a little too far. peter's a great character for that because to me, you can tell he is consciously making the choice to be a good person everyday. it's not because it comes easy to him, it's because he wants to, which makes it all the more compelling when he decides to stop
but now you've got me thinking about. post-nwh symbiote!peter dealing with the loss of his loved ones and you, his partner who's completely forgotten him. how before the symbiote, he was so good at staying away from you, letting you live your life even if it meant that you were dating someone new. even if it meant that he couldn't swing by your place anymore because someone else was living there, someone else was kissing you good morning, someone else was the love of your life
and he's so good at pretending because he loves you and you don't remember him, he's no one, so it's only right that he leaves you alone. starts a new life even though he never really could say goodbye to the last one
but then he finds the symbiote and. well. he starts thinking that maybe it's not right. he's given so much to this city and what? he's just supposed to be okay with losing everything he loves for it? he doesn't ask for much. barely anything. he's living out of a shitty apartment, barely making ends meet, getting bruised and bloody night and day and watching all his friends and family and you slip through his fingers. why is someone else taking his place? it's not fair, is it?
he was powerless when he lost you. that won't happen again
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benevolenterrancy · 4 months ago
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Hi I have caught up to you on having feelings about Zhuzhi-Lang. He's a good boy! 🥺 Good snake boy! 🥺 I had the thought, after Zhuzhi let SQQ leave after SQQ yelled at him... what if they Stole Him. What if.
(Also have you read/been recommended anything by corduroyserpent yet? Big writer of Zhuzhi-Lang fics, including a very cute de-aged Zhuzhi-Lang and some zhushen)
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Justifications of bride-stealing!
(AND HE'S THE BEST BOY 😭 I LOVE HIM SO MUCH, SO MUCH!! have some further au thoughts because this has contaminated my brain...)
What I think would actually happen if they stole SQQ? Absolutely nothing good for anyone, LBH would Lose His Fucking Mind xD as a more interesting answer though, I like the idea that Shen "Pedantic Nitpicky Asshole" Qingqiu's primary point of argument is that he is not a bride so he cannot be "bridenapped" regardless of demonic tradition or intention!
This eventually leads to them all completely avoiding the Maigu Ridge incident because TLJ realizes that, somehow, SQQ doesn't realize the depths of his son's feelings for him and decides to put all his efforts into being a wingman for his nephew instead because he finds the entire thing absolutely hilarious and rather satisfying after his own sad romance. Obviously someone like SQQ would do much better with his good, loyal nephew than the disappointing offspring of that disastrous relationship!
As for ZZL he just has to assume that LBH must not be treating SQQ anywhere near the way he should be (and like... he isn't wrong at this point, there is a non-zero amount of torture and terror going on here) if SQQ doesn't see himself as being tied to LBH in any way. And if he's not attached to LBH then there's absolutely no reason he shouldn't make his own efforts to seduce SQQ! After all, if LBH isn't valuing SQQ properly then obviously ZZL has to step up because someone as kind as SQQ deserves the best!!!
#svsss#zhushen#zhuzhi lang#tianlang jun#shen qingqiu#sqq#zzl#tlj#my art#if this is incoherent please pardon me orz the timeline is all jumbled up in my head i read this series way too fast#but this is the rabbit hole your ask sent me down#listen i love zhuzhi-lang SO much#he is SO good and also so stupid bless his scaly heart#and tianlang-jun does NOT help matters#i want to see their combined efforts to woo sqq away from lbh i think it'd be hilarious#...however considering this would take place before getting ride of xin mo i can't imagine things. uh. go well if dragged out too long#lbh is not in like a super duber place mentally at this point in the story#on the other hand can you imagine shang qinghua witnessing this and doing his ABSOLUTE best to nope out of that nightmare#LBH'S FATHER AND COUSIN ARE TRYING TO STEAL THE PERSON LBH'S DECIDED TO ROMANCE?? WHEN HAS THAT EVER WORKED OUT WELL IN PIDW????#KEEP SQH OUT OF IT!!!! (he's not going to be allowed to stay out of it)#sqq's mental gymnastics over this romantic offensive would be very impressive#well you've given me a nice thing to think about while falling asleep tonight#EDIT: oh and as far as corduroyserpent i know i've at least read their ''i shine only with the light you gave me''#that one was absolutely WONDERFUL i was very emotional about it - i don't know whether or not i've stumbled across any of their others tho#i'll have to dive into their ao3 profile and search it more intentionally though if they come with praise like this 👀
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weaselle · 2 months ago
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There have been several things in my everyday life that i have just, "decided to not let bother me". And that seemed to work really well for me. Like, well if i can't seem to change that then i guess i'll just accept the fact that i'm a person whose life is like that, and be at peace with it.
years later i'm finding out that while i thought i was not letting it bother me, what i was actually doing was ignoring that it was bothering me the whole time. And, wow, are those two things different.
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sergle · 30 days ago
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there is something funny about the worry of being parasocial in regards to witnessing my bullshit rn. like. as if i'm not the one telling all my business on the internet. i feel like the terms "parasocial attachment" and "traumadump" rose in popularity at a very inconvenient time for my breakdown
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front-facing-pokemon · 2 years ago
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amelikos · 20 days ago
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My current point of interest regarding Gibeon is his thoughts towards his family (mainly his daughter), I wonder if we'll get some elements expanding on that a little bit in the next two episodes.
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asvidema · 2 months ago
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i'll take a moment to thank, from the bottom of the heart, all the friends and the people i don't even follow for leaving tags on my art. special shoutouts to those who share thoughts about it and compliment my designs. you have no idea how much that means to me
#if you've followed me for a while. i say this frequently. but because i need people to remember#i know people who reblogged my latest art for the poseidon design don't follow me#but some comments i read on it brought me joy. people who say my designs are great. who see things i myself didn't even consider#they get a special thanks. it's stupid. once my internship starts. if it does anyway. if all goes decently. i'll stop having time for mysel#i'll stop having time for art. because i'll have to follow the house and family drama bullshit while also working pretty much#which is something i've never done. working i mean. so i'm scared#but i'm even more scared as stupid as it sounds. that i'll stop being creative. and that i'll stop drawing altogether#it's a thought that has brought me to tears multiple times lately. i know it might not be the case. but i know that life will require me to#step away from art and fully embrace what i studied instead. against my real will but that's details#anyway. i digress. the post is and will stay about being grateful for the people sparing good and kind words on my art#i treasure all of them. january was a burst of inspiration because my head knows i won't be able to be this way and have this time anymore#and it's been shooting me down a lot. but these tags remind me that at least for the time i've been here#for the time i've given art and taking my chances sharing it here. the words prove me it was all worth it#so i'm grateful. to all the people who have supported me and spared nice words. mutuals followers and nonfollowers alike#i don't think people realize how much their words meant to me. so i like to remind people#even if this reaches nobody and even if it's just me talking to myself at 1 am for my timezone anyway
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snekdood · 3 months ago
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if you think im mean about my sister a. shes abusive and rwinger and has been bullying my whole life in spite of my trying again and again at bidding for connection with here so atp idrc bc ive tried so hard with her and shes never changes and i just cant be assed but also b. you have no idea how much im holding back for her sake.
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luminous-faerie · 4 months ago
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tearing my hair out
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autistic-shaiapouf · 1 year ago
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Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by
#bc like. i'm getting by just fine. i don't have anything to be reasonably worried about#but also when i was a kid my father would break down my mother's paycheck and basically explain how broke we were#and that May Have Affected Me Somewhat#as well as just. the way you consistently see the advice to just save! don't get takeout! necessities! and i'm not intent on living like#a monk nor am i intent on being on that grindset for financial gain#it's like i don't intrinsically care but i have so many messages given to me about how i need to care a lot and it puts me in a weird spot#i am simultaneously standing still and moving at mach speeds#i mean right now i just need a safety net while in between jobs; after that i need to save up to move out of state bc the uh#political situation and upcoming presidential election don't seem very sustainable for someone like me anymore#they weren't to begin with but i don't wanna stick around to see how bad it's gonna get#but it's like. okay and then what? save for what? going back to school i guess? idk#i feel like i keep asking myself what i'm trying to accomplish and keep trying to force myself to have answers#here and now when i have to be okay with taking things one step at a time instead of having everything here and now#it's simultaneously fine and terrible and i am holding two conflicting yet equal truths#i feel i may have a clearer head once i leave my current job. i'm trying to look but nothing feels appealing given how#burnt out i already feel. i dread going back into my workplace and i fear it's showing to the patients and i don't want that#i want a month off to rediscover who i am as a person outside of getting yelled at in retail and then pick something back up#could be feasible. genuinely could be. i need to sort out the health insurance aspect but. that's lowkey the plan?#to construct a financial safety net and then slam on the breaks for a while; see if i can strike up a deal with the staff about me#coming in for specific tasks bc we already know i'm quick and efficient with the inventory so i do have a little leverage#you know what. this is getting some of it off my chest and i'm starting to feel confident again lmao#i won't be doing weekends starting either next week or the week after so that's a start! i just think i want everything done right now#bc i'm afraid i won't have the chance again but i will. i definitely will#i just need to let myself get to that point; it's just the immense drain from the register work and the Everything that comes with retail#also having to accept that it's okay to leave this; there's not something wrong with me like. ''not being able to handle it'' or w/e#no mindfulness or detachment could've saved me; it was shit and i'm hitting the bricks and that's all there is to it#i've been thinking a lot about it all lately bc it's what's most prominent in my life rn of course#idk. pondering. introspecting. as i am wont to do#anyways if you've read all this you're a real mvp and i am kissing you on the hand#shai speaks
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proto-language · 1 year ago
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hrngnfghnfg
#just thinking aloud but#i dunno. kind of feel like the last Barrier between me and Normal Personness or whatever#is just. i feel so completely and utterly unable to feel empathy specifically with regards to children and childbearing and childrearing.#like. i have known ever since i was small that my parents lost other pregnancies before me and between me and my sister. and all i could#feel about that as a kid was 'thank god because i never wanted a sibling anyway' and 'uh well i never asked to be born soooo... so what'#and now as an adult. i know that it's a terrible thing to suffer a loss like that.#and i'd at least manage not to act inappropriately towards someone i knew if they were in that position.#but i still can't find any of the *feelings* about it.#which is strange because i usually feel Everything So Much.#i also still don't understand when people talk about like. instantly falling in love with their kid or whatever#like maybe i almost get it if it's a child you've gestated for nine months and then given birth to.#but i feel like people *must* be at least partially lying about it when it comes to things like adoption#because there'd be such a high psychological and social penalty to admitting that you felt anything less.#adoption in general drives me crazy like i cannot Believe that it's still just a really accepted alternative to having a biological child#when... any kid who has had to be removed from the circumstances into which they were born and given to new people#is surely going to be traumatised or have issues or however you want to put it.#and it can't possibly be the Same Thing as having a... fresh baby of your own.#anyway. i feel some sympathy for and plenty of logical understanding of children and parents.#but none of it makes sense to me on the level on which i usually connect with people.#and hell maybe everyone feels that way until they have a kid. in which case i think everyone#is wildly irresponsible for having those kids without knowing they're gonna like it or be good at it and hoping it'll just work out. lmao
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kneworder · 2 years ago
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not to be like mean or smug or annoying bc i do mean this in the nicest way possible but some people who run brackets are absolutely not meant for it. pulling 'i will not tolerate people being mean in the tags. that's so rude' (they are talking about when someone said 'what tf is wrong with you........' in a poll with a tough matchup). rbing pages and pages of unrelated stuff or other polls with their opinions as though people following the bracket care about anything besides the bracket. like just make a sideblog and only post polls. people are gonna say shit in the tags idk what to tell you. it's more work than you think it's gonna be but i thought the basics were pretty clear. like i know it's not that serious at all and this is a silly thing for me to try to criticize i just keep seeing poll mods having like full on meltdowns or posting shit i do not care about after i follow them for the bracket and i feel like we can save ourselves a lot of grief by being cool about shit. idk. do an absurd amount of seeding and graphics-making in a fevered frenzy becoming simultaneously over-invested in your own poll and desperate to keep the bracket itself as fair and professional as possible to give yourself something to feel in control of and ignore your own deteriorating mental health over the course of like two or three weeks like the rest of us.
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artekai · 2 years ago
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GIGGLING AND KICKING MY FEET READING THE NEW INFO ABOUT NEMESIS
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prinzessonne · 21 days ago
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ALSO
a: "as a servant of the princess--"
c: "i'm not a servant."
a: "funny, i thought that's what a lady-in-waiting was."
YEAH, CASS, YOU ARE.
c @ r: "i'm sorry. i'm supposed to protect you"
YEAH. YOU ARE.
yes, you're friends, but there is a divide in status there, and you absolutely take advantage of the freedom rapunzel's naïveté gives you to overstep that divide
c: "when did you stop trusting my judgment?"
r: "i'm not that naive girl fresh from the tower anymore. i'm going to be queen one day and i'm going to make decisions you're not always going to agree with and i need you to be okay with that."
like... yeah. unfortunately, she's right.
there's definitely a conversation that can be had about classism but like... at the end of the day, rapunzel is a princess and heir to corona and cass is her lady-in-waiting and personal knight/bodyguard. at the end of the day, her job is to follow orders and the fact that she can't (or won't?) follow orders from her monarch tells me she'd be an absolute shit candidate for the royal guard (which was her goal)
#☼   ooc.  ⊳  memether knows best !#liveblogging *#cass blaming rapunzel for their differences in social status when rapunzel has been the one to give her the most freedom and opportunities#and the whole “that line between the beggars and the choosers is a line you've never let me quite ignore” thing later#is just... it's a choice.#and this is before we get to cass essentially blaming rapunzel for her own kidnapping because she was (checks notes) jealous#again: there IS a whole conversation to be had about classism and the monarchy#but the way they presented it was... not really that? and done really really badly.#like they seemed to give that as much weight in s2 as they did with the “you took my mom from me” reveal and subsequent resentment#cass's motives at their core really just feel like they boil down to jealousy#and yeah i am extremely biased and extremely protective of rapunzel in this because she may be a princess and have her family back now#but it feels like cass completely disregards everything about rapunzel from BEFORE she came to corona#which makes all her motives feel extremely weak and petty#her being manipulated by zhan tiri? yeah sure absolutely sign me up#everything that got her to that point? i hate it all.#cass's lines “me here with the luckless / you there with the blessed” and “i've never got the chances you were given” are fucked up actuall#when you think about everything rapunzel has gone through up to that point#cass is older than her and has lived her life in relative happiness striving to earn her father's respect and pride#rapunzel was essentially held captive in a tower. she was (canonically) left alone for days on end and had to fend for herself#when gothel DID come back she gaslit gatekept manipulated mansplained and spoke in platitudes all to take advantage of rapunzel's powers#it was abuse. period. how is that “blessed”? her “blessing” comes from her status as a princess upon her return#cas resenting her for being handed royalty and for not relying on her anymore and then for “taking her mom away from her” just...#really feel like weak motives because it really does feel like cass is ignoring everything rapunzel went through before they met and that's#just... really not fair at all
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snekdood · 2 months ago
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i think i'd be a horrible vampire, like, in terms of my comic's version of them- i'd be too lazy to do all that shit zero does.
#who has time to fucking. manipulate and hypnotize people or whatever man im just gonna fucking. drink some guy no one will remembers#blood. why do you gotta fucking. industrialize your vampirism you weirdo#so mcuh effort and for what. jim over here is gonna last me for days and you have all these excess humans just waiting in your#torture dungeon chambers or whatever tf you got going on just groaning in agony and ik that cant be fun to listen to no matter how#insulated your mansioncastle is. just begging you kill them like ik you get off to it but its gotta get annoying at some point right#why not haul yourself a jim around and then when hes tapped dry go for a josh yaknow. why hoard all these ppl.#what if they die and you didnt even finish them. just wasteful. just like my dad with his ciggs. fucking. smoking them halfway#then putting them out then NOT PICKING THEM UP AGAIN. WTF.#makes sense that zero is inspired by him in many ways sdkjsdghjvsdghj#i shouldnt give him the idea of keeping humans alive to get a steady flow though bc hes no doubt gonna turn that into some sort of.#torture thing too#my ocs#zero#this is how ik all of zeros henchmen are just lazy mf's bc they rely on his industrialized human farm factory shit or w/e hes got going on#for sustenance than just fucKING GOING OUT AND GETTING A FUCKING JIM.#ok let me stop. bc canonically I used to be his jim once so. lets maybe not give him the idea again.#he doesnt know how to treat a jim right. even if we are just using him for blood. jim still deserves a nice burger now n then.#see kids and this is why some people just shouldnt live. you've taken everything from jim u can at least treat him nice#thanks for being here jim. no you can never leave. uvu#>barely even started posting the comic#>already dropping hints at there being past life stories about my ocs i've written too#DO YOU WANT VAMPIRE SNAKE? I DONT THINK YOU'RE PREPARED FOR VAMPIRE SNAKE. HES NOT V NICE.#HES AS NICE AS HE CAN BE GIVEN CIRCUMSTANCES BUT THE VAMPIRISM IS SO THAT THAT MAKES IT NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE#IMMA MAKE YOU BEG FOR MY REGULAR-DEGULAR BATSELF OK HJVSDFHJVDSF#theres actually so much past life shit its kind of silly
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melivora · 5 months ago
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Not my housemate acting lowkey surprised when my grew up in 99% white society black dad is dating a white woman in a majority white country after having already married and dated white women
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