#you're both MISERABLE
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but do you truly hate him more than you hate yourself?
canto 5 keeps feeding me. I love me some good ambiguous dialogue where you can infer that ish is either reciprocating heath's negative feelings or admitting that she also dislikes herself. 10/10. good food. I'm so happy with how these two are being written and developed.
#limbus company#lcb ishmael#lcb heathcliff#limbus canto 5 spoilers#heathmael#ishcliff#when I say i ship it what I truly mean is I am emotionally invested in their inner turmoil and mutual loathing#I wanna watch these two get worse and worse and so much worse#throws them in a blender#you're both MISERABLE#ugh i cant wait for the finale
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this beautiful idiot went to live with someone else and honestly, both of our QOL are much better HAHA
#she just could not vibe with a house full of other animals#her anxiety manifested in insatiably eating everything#not just food#cardboard plastic you name it#i had to lock cupboards and put books on the bin so she couldnt open it and rummage through it#she screamed for food constantly#she innappropriately toileted constantly#to the point where i bought two automatic litter trays so they were always spotless in case that was the issue#she was medicated and given daily enrichment#but nope#anyway after over a year of kind of hating our life together#i bit the bullet and rehomed her#her food obsession has disappered and besides peeing on their bathmat once#she has used the litter tray without issue#we make a commitment to our pets yall#but do not force yourself to keep them if you are both miserable#i wish i was brave enough to have done this sooner#anyway#rehoming is not the devil#and you can do it responsibly#bye ferg i'm sorry to say i don't miss you#but i'm so glad you're finally happy#fergie#the cat edition
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His name is Spring and when Amandus told him that that was a season on Earth he stared at him blankly until he changed the subject [didn't know how to respond] [Patreon | Commissions]
#star trek#star trek tos#star trek genderbend#T'Pring genderbend#literally decided to draw this JUST bc I realized her name masculinized on Vulcan would be 'Spring'#Random personal lore I came up with while drawing this is that Bones keeps calling Spring a 'pretty boy' & even though she's trying to#make it seem hostile she's failing miserably. and T'Spock is UNAMUSED.#bea art tag#Amanda's male name could also just be aMANda with only the MAN capitalized. For clarity.#T'Pring#the plot of genderbent amok time is T'Spock is like 'my fiance's gonna die if I don't ..... see to him.' and Bones & Kirk are both#up in arms about it. This is the 23rd or whatever [dont tell me] century!! Women have rights!! and then they see Spring in person#and Kirk's fine but Bones is like 'damn....I mean if YOU'RE not into it...' and then Tonn comes out of the shadows and is like#'Fight me for him!!!!'#Spring can't do much planning he's dying. He doesn't want to marry T'Spock but Tonn's the main one doing things. And those things??#Fighting...with fists and stuff.#The episode is focusing a lot on hot catfighting (to the death) bc it's still the 60s.
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Fig's line "I don't think I'm an artist, I think I'm just a good friend" has not left my head at all. Just...
You're Fig Faeth and your horns came in over the summer and you pick up the bard class as a form of adolescent rock 'n' roll rebellion, and it works! It's exactly the outlet you need! You give a guy you just met drumsticks and you start a band and it's good enough that within a year and a half you're touring. You are, in every sense, good at being a bard.
And then, finally, your junior year, you start to take it seriously. Your art goes from an outlet and a form of rebellion to a practice. A discipline. (Can rebellion exist within a discipline?) Your classmates know what they want to do with their work. They all have a thesis statement. And yeah, there's cohesion in the music you make, but you've never had to think about why you make it. You've never sat down and dissected what it is about bass that speaks to you. You've never poured over your lyrics to pick at any deeper meaning. Why should you? You don't play music for a grand design, you do it to... huh, why do you do it?
(Your art is the one form of self-expression that feels as safe as Disguise Self does, because even if you're pouring your heart onto the page and then screaming it in front of thousands of people, it's not like you're really making yourself known. You can sing I'm lonely, I'm scared, I'm furious, and your fans will sing it right back, and there will still be the distance between performer and audience to keep your heart safe.)
Now you're being asked to look inward to explain the artistic choices you're making, and you can't help but recoil at that, because you'd rather do anything than look inward. Meanwhile, your classmates have no problem with it, so you start to wonder if you're a real artist at all. Can your art be authentic if it only exists to bolster a thesis statement? Has your art been unauthentic this whole time because you've never really thought about a thesis statement before? Is that what makes it art, and not just the next track on somebody's teen angst playlist?
You can't think about yourself— acknowledging your own existence makes you want to puke. So if your music is an extension of yourself, (and it is, even if it's just because the spotlight reveals only what you want it to,) you can't think about your music. You can't. You have to. Your grade depends on it.
You're Fig Faeth, and you keep multiclassing because you'd rather be a good friend than a great artist. If introspection is what great art demands, then fuck it. You must not be a bard at all.
#Dimension 20#fig faeth#fhjy#Idle Chatter#my last two years of college were when I started to get more and more nauseous about my own art#because I wasn't being taught how to make the art I wanted to make#the whole curriculum's focus was on gallery art#which infuriated me! I wanted to make art that didn't have to involve twelve layers of meaning and metaphor to be considered good!!#so I drove myself into the ground time and again trying to make (miserable) work that I thought would fit the criteria of a Real Artist#anyway it's been 4 years and I'm just now picking at why I don't enjoy creating anymore so Fig's whole arc has hit home in a major way#ALSO. AAAAALSO. THE ADHD STRUGGLE WE SEE WITH BOTH FIG AND KRISTEN. LOVING SOMETHING BUT STILL STRUGGLING WITH FOLLOW THROUGH#BEING TOLD YOU'RE NOT DOING ENOUGH WHEN IT'S SO FUCKING HARD JUST TO GET WHERE EVERYONE ELSE IS AND NOT UNDERSTANDING WHY IT'S HARD FOR YOU#it was easy and now that the rubber's hit the road it's hard for you but not for others so it must be YOU that's the problem#you must be lazy or stupid or just not suited to this after all even though it's part of a pattern that has been happening all your life#if you were good enough or cared enough then surely the discipline would come easily to you! the way it comes easily to all your classmates#SCREAMS I gotta stop before I write a second essay in the tags. I'm so normal you can trust me to be normal about D&D characters
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actually still baffled about how they managed to stay together for 77 years. 77 YEARS. just decade after decade despite all the betrayal and the lies and the dissatisfaction like i'm going insane. there is literally no reason for them to ever interact again because they should have divorced years ago and too much has happened and louis is definitely sick of armand but then also. they were together for 77 years. that's such a significant time, even for immortals. i just need to see them interact again at some point, if only as bitter exes so be it
#it's just such a long time that it's almost shocking considering how dysfunctional their relationship was < me speaking as a loumand fan lol#like i know it was probably miserable at some points but also not miserable enough to leave each other i guess.#but then again where would you go????#they basically killed each others families so#the only one left is each other and i mean you're not going to spend eternity alone#i feel like i actually get that part very much but i can't wrap my head around 70+ years. it's insanity#trying to imagine me with my long-term gf whom i love and like very much for 77 years is already.... a stretch like. that's a lot of time#BUT if we were both immortal then i get it actually. because no one wants to be alone forever like yeah duh.#but louis stayed with armand out of SPITE. so that makes it crazy again#interview with the vampire#iwtv#loumand
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If I had a nickel for every time I helped a Japanese client at my job, and in helping revealed that I speak [some, limited] Japanese, and in doing so their entire demeanor changed and they began to smile and gesture excitedly as we had a [relatively short] conversation in Japanese, I'd have two nickels.
Which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it's happened twice.
#anyway if you recognize that the person you're speaking to does not speak English as a first language#and you know the language they do speak fluently#personally I recommend giving it a try to switch to their more comfortable language#it very visibly made their day to encounter someone who could speak Japanese with them#and I think it's nice to give someone the oppurtunity to not be at an inherent disadvantage in a conversation for once#both of these people told me no one here speaks Japanese with them#not even their family#and sometimes it makes them want to go back to Japan and never come back here#how miserable to be stuck somewhere that no one makes an effort to let you articulate in the way you're most comfortabke#but then I have a lifetime of watching that from my dad#who the only people who ever made the effort to communicate with him and his deafness on a level he's most comfortable#are his immediate family#no one else bothers even though they know he's deaf
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for what it's worth i'm definitely not a fan of the jealousy-induced shooting scene and I feel like it comes out of nowhere considering the rest of peggy's behavior but I do also feel like it's more a product of the shitty superhero macho movie "haha look aren't women crazy" writing than anything substantial. what IS substantial however is that the way those two “talk” about their yet-unrealized mutual crush or whatever is 100% on a “highscoolers with not enough emotional intelligence” level. which once again makes sense considering who the writers are
#'how do I know you two haven't been fonduing' ask. for the love of god. you are both idiots. you're literally not even together#max.txt#max's miserable marvel rewatch
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i DO think teenage michael should get picked up by the scruff by the way ( literally or metaphorically ) ( in the holding him back from being an idiot or adopting him way. or both. )
#ourple michael is so guy that does the scruffing yes. i think this should happen too SDHJSDK#if you're willing to try that is because he does not trust that easily and he's allergic to being visibly vulnerable beyond anger#but i think it should happen anyway he's full of shit. fake idgafer#this is just me spinning him in the microwave of my brain idk#i WANTED to do more replies today bc theyre running out in my queue tomorrow but... eepy.......#tomorrow or thursday (day off) bc i do want to either get another chunk of my drafts or asks (or both) out#⁂ ・゚: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc
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this website gets so excited about october every year while I'm sitting here absolutely dreading the return of snow
#fucking miserable living here when you're not a confident driver#and your options are a) drive in snow b) take transit in snow#both of which are miserable for different reasons#we're still above zero for a while but it will not be for long I'm sure#ramblings
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re: Bill the malcontent in NASA mission control: nobody's MAKING you work at NASA mission control, Bill. You can always quit your job at NASA mission control, Bill. I'm sure there are at least several people who'd apply to fill that vacancy at NASA mission control, Bill.
#for all mankind#was his conversation with Margo after Gene's death just building the theme of Margo feeling unappreciated#or signalling that Bill could be a security risk because he's disgruntled and getting sloppy#or heck it could be both!#hi I'm catching up on a show from 2019#I have been spoiled for the fact that (spoilers)#(I'm not upset about this I don't need to be surprised by every twist and turn)#Margo will defect to the Soviet Union#but I have no idea when and why so I'm watching out for possibilities all the time#anyway BILL it's not bad on your part to find that you're unhappy in a job a lot of other people would love to have#you don't have to be grateful if you've discovered it's not really what you want (you had to try it to be able to know that)#but it's both a dick move and a dumbass move on your part to stay in it#and stay grumpy and miserable instead of clearing the way for someone who would appreciate it#also setting yourself free to find an occupation you might enjoy more!#I mean you are presumably a highly qualified aerospace engineer with NASA on your CV!#so yeah BILL there's your free career advice that you can't use because you're a fictional character from an alternate history
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Look, I didn't want to be that person, but I hate, hate, HATE, the new animation style of Lego Monkie kid. Now you could never make me hate the animators. Never hate on the animators. They are underpaid, underappreciated and most importantly overworked. I repeat, do not blame the animators. Who I do blame, is whoever made the decision to switch studios because the new one was cheaper. F**k them. I hope they step on lego.
#For every fucked up animation I spend another year planning to make your life miserable#Your pillow will be warm on both sides no matter how often you flip it because i will be there to warm it up.#You stub your toe on a corner?#It was me. I broke into your home to move every piece of furniture you own an inch#You step on lego?#It was me. I bought the entire lego store so i have enough legos to spread around your house to step on for the rest of your pathetic life#When you want to shower?#I will be there to put it on cold when you're not looking#I'll make sure that everytime you play uno that your opponent has all the plus 4#Every time you make pasta I'll make sure it's just slightly overcooked so you can feel the misery in your meals too#Sleep with one eye open because I'll make sure to steal excactly one sock#Anyways#Love to the animators#Nothing could make me hate y'all#lego monkey kid#lmk#mountaintea rambles#rambles
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one thing about me is that I'm never not gonna be obsessed with soulmates as a horror concept
#like. there's just so much there#not even in a 'state mandated partner' way but in a 'i need to be close to you on a deep gut level that i have no control over even if i#don't like you or we make each other unhappy'#like the idea of having someone who's 'made' for you or you being 'made' for someone else and how horrifying that would be when you really#get down to it is just so compelling to me on a thematic and narrative level. you can't be happy with them but you also can't be happy#without them and they feel the exact same way so you're just trapped in each other's orbit unable to move closer or farther away#because even if you do love them and like them...do you really? is it you or is it the compulsion? is it them as they are or them as they#exist for you in this position?#your autonomy is so deeply compromised that yes AND no are both on some level meaningless#or maybe they die before you meet them so then you're stuck with an ingrained need for someone you've never met and never will. you can't#really grieve them because you don't know them but you also can't just let them go because it's wired into you to care so there's#literally nothing you can do to process this and you're just stuck#idk man it's just so miserable i can't get over it
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i'm going to be seeing hadestown apparently, and i can't wait to sob my eyes out like a baby in front of my mom
#caroline talks#when the tragedy. when the tragedy. when. when the love. the love was always there . . . .#you can't change it! you can't do anything to change it!!! but it was there!!!#god. 2021 caroline's taste was so.#i think 2021 was the year i got into both beyond evil + the haunting of hill house + the haunting of bly manor + hadestown#big year for my tragedy enjoying self. a lot of me standing in front of a bulletin board and looking a little insane#like whatever. you're going to rewatch this show you're going to re-read this story you're going to keep doing the same thing#even though you know it's going to end miserably. you know it'll end miserably.#but you'll go through it again because the love was worth it. even if it ended sadly. the love was there and therefore you are willing to#put yourself through it again.#me pointing to mike ross in suits when he says 'even knowing how it all turned out . . . i would still do it again' to harvey#like. themes. narratives.#except harvey and mike. do have a happy resolution themselves#but like. still. something something.#you know there will be grief you know there will be sadness. but the love somehow outshines it all. OR SOMETHING
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f.naf fans will be like "ugh people who like m.ichael just make stuff up about him" and then proceed to explain why they don't by making stuff up about michael
#i don't care if you don't! he's not innocent at all! and i do think a *lot* of people absolutely oversympathize and woobify him#when there are so many more interesting ways to dive into the potential he has as a character#but the key word there is uh. Potential. we have an EXTREMELY LIMITED perspective on him#you simply cannot say 'i hate that people think [x] about him it's not true he's [y]' WHEN TECHNICALLY BOTH HAVE NO CANON PROOF#we have 1. his actions in the plot 2. glimpses of character through one monologue and a logbook#hate him all you want just don't pretend like you're not also making some of that shit up. i know i'm making this shit up SDKJHBSNDK#sorry tumblr's search function making me scroll through all the latest posts to find new art pissed me off 💀#⁂ ・゚: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc
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#Okay so in S5 Chloe and Lucifer really fumble the beginning of their relationship#and then decide the best course of action is to 'stop overthinking it and just be together'#Which could be fine except in practice it meant utterly ignoring all of their problems and pretending they didn't exist#And I thought this was extremely obvious about this plot point???#That it was a terrible idea and not what you're supposed to do in relationships?#Sure personally I cackle over this episode but that's only so I don't scream my frustration at the characters#Well today a Twitter fan uploaded that little 'stop overthinking' clip and was like 🥺 'look how sweet they are. I love them'#and I'm just like ???????????? reaction gif in real life#Bestie all those genuinely sweet Deckerstar clips out there#and you're choosing to squee over the clip demonstrating how they're both idiots (derogatory)?#WHY????#Because they kiss in the scene?????#NEWS FLASH! Not all kisses are shipper kisses! (though they can always be edited to be in fanvids)#'oh they're so shy and adorable' NO!#That's not shyness! That's 'we're shoving away every other feeling we have because we're both tired of being miserable'#Which tbf to Chloe and Lucifer is a whole mood. I get it#But -- AS THEY BLATANTLY AND EXPLICITLY LEARN BY THE END OF THE VERY SAME EPISODE -- misery doesn't like to be shoved away#If you don't address the root cause it WILL come back#Just --- *SCREAMS*#The media comprehension of some people really bugs the shit out of me sometimes. IDEK#😐
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okay ventpost time im bored and my period is late
#my mother is leaving AGAIN#to stay with my father#bhai mujhe nahi rehna akele i don't want to parent my brother#i don't want to cook or stress about what to eat and clothes and laundry and literally buying vegetables every few days#well all these things are just surface level but i REALLYYYYY do not want to live alone with my thoughts#i want to study i can't just study on my phone with no adult mere sarr pe khade hoke asking ki itna tv#kyu dekh rahi hai kya hua class kyu nahi attend kari#kar liya try bhai call me immature and childish and pathetic and dependent and undisciplined whatever but mere bas ki baat nahi hai#also ooooh listen to my moms great solution: she'll stay there and dad will come!! to live with us two!! alone!! haha.#it's sk fucking sad and repetitively traumatizing ki i don't even know how to react#my sister is the only kid both my parents like when she stays home things are mostly calm and happy#they dote on her they tolerate us#and they should i love her too but now i feel like crying because i don't want her to stay back just for me??? my stupid mental health??#she's doing enough by staying here till rakhi just because i asked her begged her to not leave me alone mami ke side#she could've fucked off and gone to live her life 10 days ago#it's not fair#the person i love and want to live with.. if she stays she's miserable and her being miserable mskes me miserable#i just. i miss her so much. she already feels so distant and busy and then she'll go abroad and totally forget about me right#who doesn't need all this constant depression holding you back weighing you down when you're living your best life#i hate that there's no solution i just have to grow up and be okay with it#i already got more time with her than i thought she stayed home like 2 years extra cause of covid#3 actually#ab why am i crying it was a good day#also i don't want to make it all about me but like. idk when i was picturing my adult life i was thinking like#night clubs and gay bars and beaches at night#i never factored in real factors like the horrifying fucking country we live in 💀💀#it's just it was the only thing that kept me going the promise of a better future#but now what.#and like#it's feels so stupid now the fact that i sometimes want to like
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