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FUCK YES PLEASE TOP GUN F1 AU !!!!!!!!
BABE THIS MIGHT BE JUST FOR US TWO BUT THANK YOU
Anyway.
BACKGROUND INFO IM SO EXCITED
Tom Kazansky drives for Red Bull, because of course he does, and his driving is flawless
He plays with the drivers, he keeps them behind, let’s them follow him until they can’t keep up, he follows them closely, he drives them crazy until they get tired and make a mistake and he overtakes them
He was nicknamed “The Iceman”, ice cold, no mistakes, that’s what they say about him
Ron Kerner is Red Bull’s second driver, he is a sneaky mother fucker, you don’t see him coming till he’s right next to you, great at overtaking, not so great at maintaining his position
They nicknamed him “Slider” after a particularly impressive move, a big crash in which he somehow managed to avoid getting hit, he came out completely untouched, he slides through the cars like its the easiest thing in the world
Pete Mitchell drives for Ferrari, his dad used to drive for Ferrari but he died in a nasty crash, lots of cars were involved and eventually they started blaming him, Pete will always defend him, wasn’t great for getting sponsors and actually getting an f1 contract but he fought teeth and claw to get to where he is
He quickly gained a reputation after joining f1, he’s impulsive and reckless, he’s aggressive, he does dangerous shit on the track and somehow he always manages to get results
People almost never call him Pete, they call him “Maverick”, the media calls him “Mad Mav”
Nick Bradshaw also drives for Ferrari, he defends like a god
His protective nature gave him his nickname, people usually shout “MOTHER GOOSE” when they see him pass
He may not be as great as Maverick and Iceman but he’s a damn good driver, everyone loves him
Hollywood and Wolfman drive for Mclaren, they’re the best teammates on the grid, they rarely fight, they work together like they have the same mind, they’re almost synchronized, scary as fuck if both of them are behind you
Merlin drives for Alfa Romeo, he used to drive with Cougar for Ferrari but Cougar had an accident and decided to quit formula one and Merlin moved to Alfa Romeo, which opened both Ferrari seats for Mav and Goose
Charlie is Ferrari’s strategist, she’s the best there is, smart, quick, she can adapt to situations in seconds, if only Maverick would fucking listen for once
Viper is Ferrari’s team Principal, he used to drive with Mav’s father, he’s a three time world champion
Mav drove for Alfa Romeo for two years before he got the Ferrari seat, he never won a race there but he got way closer than people thought he could
Before joining Ferrari, Goose used to drive for Alfa Tauri
Ice joined f1 when he was barely 18, spent a year in Alfa Tauri before he got a seat in Red Bull, he hasn’t won a championship yet but he has gotten dangerously close
Yeah that’s all I have for general background info, I got so much shit but I can’t put it all in one post
Appreciate how I stole inspiration directly from mr Max Verstappen’s life to write Iceman’s background like 💀 also appreciate how I didn’t include Merc not because I don’t like them (which I don’t) but because I completely forgot they existed AND appreciate me trying to make Ferrari an actual top team with people that know what they’re doing
And I know that an almost all American f1 grid is not possible BUT it’s my au and I get to chose the inaccuracies
Here’s the second part -> x
#don’t mind me writing down a whole au for me and this one person who I now love#we have impecable taste#you guys wish you could be us right now#right anon? I’ll just pretend you agree#icemav#top gun#top gun f1 au#(said no one ever)#this is a self indulgent post and work and it’s making me very happy#these posts MIGHT be deleted some day idk yet
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Compilation of EVERY single time they changed Hobie's filter in the digital version:
Left: Theatrical release Right: Digital release
You might have to click on some of them to get a better look at Hobie, sadly I don't have a video editor that allows me to make better edits than these :')
#This took so long to make lol#cause I had to edit every scene with Hobie from both versions so I could watch them right after one another to compare them#I did this with ALL the scenes he's in also the ones where he's on screen as spider-punk#but they only changed his filters in these scenes so it was a waste of time :')#sidenote: no it wasn't it's never a waste of time to look at hobie I just couldn't use it for my GIFset lol#I also made a bouns one but I'm not allowed to post more than 30 GIFs in one post apparently so I guess I just won't add it then...#but Hobie was basically filterless during all these scenes in the theatrical version#I like that they gave him more different filters in the digital version#the only change I don't like is in the first GIFs#cause like that one post pointed out it looks like they removed his lipstick for some reason#also really wish I had a better video editor so we could get a closer look at Hobie but I did my best with what I had#also slowed some of them down to get a better look at them#been having this idea for a while and now I finally finished it!#which means I can go back to working on my fics now#hopefully lol#also lemme know if there are some other scens you guys want me to make comparisons of#cause I have both versions#the theatrical release isn't the highest quality though so if you know where I can get my hands on a better version lemme know ;)#hobie brown#spider punk#miles morales#spider man#peter b parker#jess drew#miguel o'hara#spider man across the spider verse#across the spider verse#across the spiderverse#atsv#theatrical version
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Anyway. I think you can very much make the criticism that forcing a player to only be "nice" and write really awkward "unproblematic" HR-ass Marvel dialogue that has no conflict or zest is really creatively bankrupt and corporate, without saying shit like "I don't like this character and I wish I could misgender them because I'm an adult who can do so many critical thinkings."
"Limiting the player's choice in a role-playing game to only one type of response is counterintuitive to the genre" versus "If I can't do a genocide in an RPG then the devs are moralistic woke hacks."
Ya know???? Well. Anyway.
#da4#yeah i'll maintag it. what of it??#da fandom critical#and of course OP is an edgy russian lmao#and the post was transphobic af!! very cool!!!#love these folks they're always caricatures of themselves#'look guys!! i'm made of straw!!'#like not even using the guise of 'i enjoy playing evil characters and getting into that headspace'#or 'i like testing the limits of what the devs/writers allow you to do'#straight up 'i don't like this character and wish i could misgender them and call them slurs'#bro#for an Adult you sure are throwing a tantrum right now
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Before I forgetttttt
So color thinks Killer is brainwashed, BUT, what if one time when Killer's soul is normal and he can feel and think for himself again, what if they are chilling at Color's place and then Killer gets up and says something like "I have to go home, don't want to worry dad"
What would Color think ? Would he rethink everything because "wait, why did you call him dad ???" Or would he think that damn, this brain washing is even worse than he thought because apparently Nightmare makes them call him dad ?? Which is weird even for Nightmare that could be a manipulation method ??
Okay that's it byyyeee
OH I LOVE THINKING ABOUT THESE GUYS OKAY SO!!!!!
(I'm still new to Color so if I'm wicked super wrong let me know!)
I feel like no matter what Killer said about Nightmare, Color wouldn't believe it. If somebody's been held captive so long they no longer think they want to leave, of course they're going to say they like living there. No matter how much Color cares about him, I think he has to consider Killer an unreliable narrator as far as his own situation is concerned.
But! Color's main concern is giving Killer his autonomy back and helping him learn to make his own choices. This unfortunately means if Killer keeps choosing to go back to Nightmare, Color has to respect it.
I feel like the only way he would begin to slowly unwind and trust that Nightmare had good intentions would be to see it for himself repeatedly. It's going to take more than a few good turns to prove that he isn't just putting on an act when Color is watching and then turning the whip on them again when nobody's looking. That's going to be hard to set up though since neither of them want to be around the other very much lol
I do think a good start for it would be Nightmare giving Killer the choice though. Like, not that they don't get to choose things regularly, but Killer isn't really one to think much about what he wants or come forward with it so Nightmare kind of assumes he's content and doesn't really think to check in with him. So if he actually made a point of asking Killer what he wanted and he said he wanted to spend a day with Color, I think that would be a good start. Obviously Color's not gonna jump to trusting him after one day, but hearing that Nightmare is also giving Killer his own choices and actually respecting them might give him a bit more reason to trust him.
That said, the image of Color's face as he asks "he makes you call him dad??" is sending me lol
#UTDR#Ask#mikimakiboo#Trying so hard to keep it short and not type every thought I have for the next 3 hours lol#Thank you!!! I love thinking about these guys right now so this ask made me really excited :D#But yeah. I have a hc that none of them (at least at the start) are very good at saying if they want something#So Nightmare kind of uses Killer to find out what the others want and report to him with it#And it takes him maybe a but too long to realise he's forgetting Killer himself and ask what *he* would like#And after a long minute of silence Killer says he wants to go to the big timeline and hang out with Color#Which Nightmare absolutely hates the idea of because he could lose one of his boys forever but agrees to for Killer's sake#I think it starting like that would be a good foundation for both of them#Because Color gets to see Nightmare dropping Killer off as he wishes#And Nightmare gets to answer the call from Killer to come pick him up when he's ready to come back#It's going to take a lot more work for both sides to be happy but so help me god we're all gonna be happy in the end in this multiverse#Anyway!! Thank you again for this chance to ramble <3
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Goldie needs to be able to one up Scrooge (it’s practically an addiction). So when the twins arrived and she hated them she needed a new approach. And she already had stocks in Scrooges business and maybe she’s been neglecting them sooo perhaps she should pay some special attention.
#wink wink#that’s right#Goldie decided to be a business woman in the 90s#((not that she wasn’t already she had a successful hotel empire by this time but still))#there was no way she’d gone the entire 60s 70s and 80s regularly interacting with Scrooge#((that’s right I said it they spoke regularly for 30 years fight me))#only for her to allow them to go back to no contact#just because some stupid kids live there now#nah ah#she will get her fix one way or another#and if means sporting business suits instead of her usual adventure gear then so be it#and if she happened to use this to her advantage#to say show off her assets#((or maybe just feel clean rather than dirty and sweaty when she was him))#like Goldie is fashion icon#we all know this#so when I say she turned up looking her absolute BEST#I need you to know how badly I mean this#ugh I wish I could draw#I would show you guys all the outfits that are in my mind rn#goldie o'gilt#scrooge mcduck#ducktales#scroldie#the duck twins#Goldie is addicted to inconveniencing Scrooge#nothing will stop her
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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.
#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void#shits rough dawg#I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts#haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier#it’s cold#saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours#guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left#even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are#I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh#my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week#maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting#woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside#hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning#can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience#anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments#I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now#ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever#you can ignore this#text
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Well, I think we all knew this would happen eventually but it still doesn't make this day any less tragic. It pains me to report, friends, but this morning at 0600 hours Lieutenant Tom Paris saw Lieutenant Commander Tuvok (having both been summoned to the bridge via red alert) sans makeup and not only asked if he was tired but also exclaimed 'geezsh' the moment he saw his face. This is being treated as an international incident and Neelix will be giving updates as they arrive.
#when asked for comment Tom Paris stated (quote) “I didn't even know the guy WORE makeup!”#truly a sad day to be a member of Voyager but we'll get through this the same way we get through everything else - together.#Harry (shaking his head): I should have seen it coming....I-I should have /done/ something...#Janeway: -firm pat on the shoulder- there was nothing you could have done...nothing any of us could have done. -turns to Chakotay- stay wit#him will you?#Chakotay: Of course. You need to be with Tuvok right now v_v (thank you. for...understanding.)#Naomi: What happened?? / EMH: -rolling eyes- Pay no attention to them Naomi. I wish I had that very same luxury. =_=#Tuvok#st voyager#st voyager art#bea art tag
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people online who are themselves fans creatively adapting and innovating with their source material are getting so comfortable making posts like "fandom generally is sooo crazy when they make their blorbos kiss" "fanon is shitty (and whatever i hate counts as it)" and i'm getting 🛌🛌🛌 about it. what fandom. who in it. which fanons? i like meta discussions about the text/characterization/etc, but what's the point of looking down your nose at fans and fandom generally? i saw you at the devil's sacrament!
#you guys mean your fandom or a specific subset of it....#also like#we are all here to engage with canon one way or another#but in my particular corner right now insisting on canon#is also the MO of all the racists insisting we can't imagine characters as non-white etc etc#and so on and so on#also this is not a vague at any of my beloved mutuals etc it's more frustrations bubbling up from twitter and from the very casual way#these attitudes appear at the beginning or end of perfectly good posts i agree with#i don't want to sound limiting to the like 'fans always do x :/' genre of critique but i think it could stand to be more specific#and use some i statements maybe. i often see this in my corner. i wish i saw more interest in x it's frustrating.#my posts#*i do hope ppl know it wasn't even a silm-specific post that made me want to make this one. just general attitudes of casual condescension
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so in juniper's campaign we've just found ourselves in a high-stakes situation that I as a player do frankly find stressful and am anxious about, but hey hi also the DM was like 'okay here are the exact mechanics of how this is going to work because I don't want to surprise you with serious repercussions, also here are all the options you will have to try to do something about the situation-- [affected player] what do you think? honest feedback, I don't want it to feel unfair, I want to be clear that I am not just trying to kill your character, and if it ends up being badly balanced we can revisit it down the road' and oh my god I could COLLAPSE and WEEP with gratitude
#[tears in my fucking eyes] WHAT IF DND WAS GOOD!! WHAT IF A DM THAT'S GOOD!!!#LIKE I've said actually MOST of my DMs are good but because of the way this situation was presented specifically#where-- as NOT the affected player-- it does feel like the way it came up was a little unfair and I AM worried about the stakes--#I REALLY SPENT SO MUCH OF THAT ABOVE-TABLE TALK GOING OH WOW I FEEL LIKE OUR FRIEND ACTUALLY LOVES US AND WANTS THIS TO BE FUN!!#I DON'T KNOW THAT I AGREE WITH WHAT HE'S DOING HERE BUT I TRUST MY FRIEND AND IT'S SAFE FOR US TO TALK ABOUT THINGS LIKE THIS PLAYER TO DM!!#WOWIE THAT FEELS RELEVANT TO MY DND EXPERIENCE RIGHT NOW LMAO!!!#'I've looked at your stats and inventories to try to make this serious but balanced but if it doesn't work we can retool it'#'I want to be extremely clear that this situation could kill destal so I want to be extremely sure that you're comfortable with that--#-- and with how the mechanics are designed around it'#I am fucking. on my KNEES WEEPING. at the contrast with how punishing and DEEPLY unfun felix campaign has relentlessly been the whole time#and how little of a fuck it feels like THAT DM gives when he's like 'this random rolltable encounter was deadly :)'#'you guys didn't get hit last time and got all your spells back right?' uhhh wrong and wrong and we TALKED about that last time#are you gonna revisit the balance on your fifth in a row 'if you fail you'll TPK' scenario? no? yeah I figured lol#christ knows HE'S never invited feedback on his DMing. you KNOW I don't feel safe to say 'hey this doesn't feel fair or fun' with him#AND LIKE!! WITH A DM I TRUST I FEEL SAFE ENOUGH TO REALLY PLAY WITH SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAPPENING!! YAY YIPPEE STAKES AND PATHOS!!!#I don't just want nothing bad to happen ever! but I don't want it to feel careless or heartless or just... Not Fun#anyway. grasping william's hands so tightly. my beloved friend. my wonderful friend. what a relief to have a DM that's good#after the shit we've been through in our now most-frequently-run campaign#the thing I'm mad about is that destal has been making a mystery saving throw every night-- but this was imperceptible to the characters#so we weren't acting on it#and now that he's failed it three times the situation is 'okay NOW you will be maming a con save every night and accumulating exhaustion'#'which can't be removed by sleeping' [six levels of exhaustion Kill You]#so like!! well okay I wish we had had ANY way of knowing how urgent this was before we got to 'now there's a deadly countdown' BUT OKAY#but like I said. he clearly put a lot of thought into the math for the mechanics#he made sure that we DO actually have ANYTHING we can do to mitigate the condition and outlined several options specifically and clearly#he checked in with justin about whether that seemed fair and opened it for future retooling if necessary#so I'm just at 'that was kind of a rugpull dude :/' instead of DESPAIRING lmao#this is a level of Oh Shit that's juicy! this is a level of Oh Shit that might force dramatic character choices out of desperation!#THIS IS AN OH SHIT WHERE WE STILL GET TO PLAY DND ABOUT IT AND HAVE ANY AGENCY WHATSOEVER. WHAT A CONCEPT.#ANYWAY!!! GOOD DND SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!
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I Samuel 8, New SCOTUS Version
4 So all the [Republican think tanks] gathered together and came to [SCOTUS]. 5 They said to [them], “[We have reason to fear the law, and require freedom from it]; now appoint a king to lead us, such as all the other nations have.”
6 But when they said, “Give us a king to lead us,” this displeased [the SCOTUS dissenters]; so he prayed to the Lord [they consulted the Founding Documents]. 7 And the [Founding Documents] told [them]: “Listen to all that the people are saying to you; it is not you they have rejected, but they have rejected me as their king. 8 As they have done from the day I brought them up out of [monarchy] until this day, forsaking me and serving other gods, so they are doing to you. 9 Now listen to them; but warn them solemnly and let them know what the king who will reign over them will claim as his rights.”
10 [The SCOTUS dissenters] told all the words of the [Founders] to the people who were asking him for a king. 11 [They] said, “This is what the king who will reign over you will claim as his rights: [He will be unaccountable for cruelty. He will use your resources for personal gain.] 14 He will take the best of your fields and vineyards and olive groves and give them to his attendants. 15 He will take a tenth of your grain and of your vintage and give it to his officials and attendants. 16 Your male and female servants and the best of your cattle and donkeys he will take for his own use. 17 He will take a tenth of your flocks, and you yourselves will become his slaves. 18 When that day comes, you will cry out for relief from the king you have chosen, but the [Constitution] will not [be able to] answer you in that day.”
19 But the people refused to listen to [the SCOTUS dissenters]. “No!” they said. “We want a king over us. 20 Then we will be like all the other nations, with a king to lead us and to go out before us and fight our battles. [Surely the leopards will not eat our faces.]”
#us politics#i wish these people who say they worship the bible and the constitution would read both#somehow 45 out of 46 presidents have managed without worrying about the chilling effect of possible future prosecution#the only reason for supreme executive power is to further project 2025#i do genuinely wish biden could demo why this is a Bad Idea even if you want the other guy to have immunity right now
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bedtime nowww probably ummm today qas not what i wanted it 2 be but its fine. i dont feel negative just a very very very numb day which is almost worse. but only almost 🙏
#i did get thr laundry done didnt fold it didnt take a shower#so thatll hopefuly be tmrw#i hope im able to do an activity with somebody tmrw.... the kids will be back at school so umm. no risk of weeman asking for my laptop in#the morning. or maybe me n lamp could play aa... idk#i feel like such a loser i go 1 day without bothering my family and im like wahhh im lonely. Can you shut up ..... we r better than this.#but wtvr. thats also a mean thought and i shouldnt be idolizing the way i lived last year. We were taking spongebaths and eating#1 bowl of soup a day crying ourselves to sleep every night and literally going weeks on end wo talking to our loved ones. so why am i like#We need to go back ! well i know why its bc i cant just let myself heal and move on bc of my stupid complex#and tbf i was very efficient back then. i ws able to do my spongebaths at least every 3 days and i did my laundry every week right on#schedule and i had a job....all it took was literally not being a person in any meaningful way FJFNGJGN. idk#it was very simple. its still very simple perhaps simpler (#no job) but instead i just feel guilty i guess. sbt everything#which i ws doing last year but again i was too out of it to rly dwell. i just cried at work a lot abt it#but now its like. i dont have a job to go to to focus on. my interests/hobbies can only distract me for a few days maximum b4 they become#nothing 2 me. and then im just back in limbo again and it feels pointless#and even when its a 'good' phase of something actually keeping me distracted from everything its like. not. all it does is ruin my sleep#schedule again yk. ik im literally the timeloop guy so u think id loveee Everyday being exactly the same over and over and over but well i#dont. bc they arent actually the same day theyre just reminders that everything does keep fucking going but im stuck. which is the opposite#of what i want. and what id have if the beautiful timeloop would simply rescue me. wtvr tho.... she doesnt even know i exist 😥#little joke. IDK. like i said its better ig than having a truly miserable day but. man. i wish everything was better#i ws gonna say like it used to be but. yk. ive been depressed since i was like 7 its not like. idk. i wish i was born different and i wish#my head worked and i wish none of it had evrr happened. but itis ok. i cant think of a funny cutesy alternative to put here so we will just#say nothing. yay
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>find poc creator talking about issues regarding their comminity
>not part of it but find it interesting topic so watch lots of their videos about it and trends
>find her personality to be good and her stances fair and respectful
>put channel to oldest content to put interesting videos in a watch later
"THE TRANSES ARE INDOCTRINATING YOUR CHILDREN" "TIRED OF RESPECTING PRONOUNS" "TRIGGERED FEMINISTS" "PARENTS OF TRANS KIDS HAVE NO BACKBONES" "WOMEN WANT TO BE TRADWIFES"
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#videos from 6 months ago so its not like a ''ok shes grown from this'' type of thing#like just because shes no longer making a video about it doesnt mean her stances changed from 6 months ago not in this climate.#its so fucking dissapointing. i just want to watch more brown creators and then i check their channel and theyre posting like#''should trans people be allowed to live? thinkpiece''#this happened the other day too when i watched a video and she seemed fun and all the sudden that right wing podcaster brent fuckingwhtever#clip in the middle of it without her being like ''now i know she sucks but-'' just uncritical#and i click on the rest of the videos and theres various videos about gay people Going Too Far or something#its so disappointing because homophobic/transphobic american brown people are specially like. theres a hidden thing here about#respectability. like we want to be respectable so white people will stop treating us so bad#and so many of these cultures have rich third gender or gay love history but its all magically poofed away because We Need To Look#Respectable To White People.#and of course theres the just basic Theyre just misguided hateful bigoted people but i cant ignore that factor of#you know you're not special? you know they hate you too? do you know that?#its sooooo. sigh#smashes head#i wish i could just watch a random poc cishet creator without worrying theyll end up as a christian who is weird about gay people due#unfortunate upbringing and things like that#i hate itttt i hate itttt i should be able to trust my own people but sometiems i cant because stuff like this happensssssd#so you guys think itll ever get better
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making this post for like the 3rd time now but it's a fucking tragedy that there isn't more hurdy gurdy music in the world
#misc.txt#hurdy gurdyposting once again#I knowwww it's not a popular instrument. but imo there's so much untapped potential!! it's such a cool sound and you could do so much w it#like you could fit it into so many styles and have it sound incredible. the precussion the buzz the drone. like. idk.#the clicks and buzzing etc. so many sounds coming out of that thing. you could make REALLY unique stuff with it imo and yet.#most ppl do not even know what it is. like it would go SO HARD in a game ost or something but that just doesn't exist#or even if/where it maybe does exist it's like...not what I'm thinking of. I want some composer to just go apeshit with it#use every sound you can get out of it to the fullest extent in creative ways etc#for example guilhem desq does some really interesting stuff and I love his music but that's just one guy#andrey vinogradov is good too but his is much less experimental(?)#legit if I had the money I would buy one right now it's just soooo. so mesmerizing to me I love them so much#I wish I could learn to play one but they are uh. 3-5 thousand dollars <3
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And maybe you'll be like "but if you don't trust businesses, how can you trust welfare?"
I fucking don't. My mom trying to get on food stamps fucked me up because a lady I never met without my permission got my SSN from my mom and started editing my files. My heart still races to this very second whenever I think about it, it kinda messed me up bad and I'll never ever ever see any kind of recourse
And I'm terrified that I'm gonna lose my medicaid just cause I inherited some money from my grandpa
And I've never even applied for disability cause it kinda doesn't matter finding out if I'd qualify or not cause of my depression, when the rules are so restrictive I don't know if I've even be allowed to keep my house
I do not fucking trust these things on a personal level. I feel like out of a lot of people I have the most to fear from them cause I'm on the edge of having things work, and that gets you punished
...but I need medicaid in order to have insurance (and when you strip out the finance side of medicaid, I love medicaid... they're honestly incredible insurance... I just... I just... dental is like 90% of why medicaid is so important to me, ever since I found out this state pays for it I've actually been able to do cleanings which is important to me cause I can't always get myself to brush)
And I think things like disability and food stamps are pretty damn important on a personal level, and honestly are also good for the economy cause they get people spending... it's practically a free cash infusion into the economy, cause these are people who need to buy stuff
There's just so much important stuff welfare does that it's worth dealing with government
No, what I want is more accountability so if someone gets my SSN from a 3rd party like my mom they're held to HIPPA styles standards where that's not ok to access my files without my permission (She changed my fucking address and tried to get medicaid to investigate me for fraud! Never even met me)
Like have some accountability there and in every situation
Secondly I want less punitive focused rules. I'd frankly prefer bezos get on disability than smack down some poor sod cause they got $2000 in the bank or cause their friend lets them live with them for free
If there's gonna be a cut off on these programs, it needs to be a solid step above the poverty line, cause... by definition I assume poverty line denotes kinda the minimum expected income people can reasonably live off of, and if you take away benefits people are gonna lose a chunk of money to covering that stuff themself, so you need a buffer before you kick people off
I don't fucking trust the government for a second, I've actively been fucked by them and on a personal level I avoid everything but medicaid and only that cause everything but the money is pleasant to deal with and I kinda need it (honestly if I was rich I'm not even kidding that I'd rather give medicaid like $400 a month than some insurance company, I sincerely like them as insurance)
But I'd trust them a lot more if they were less punitive, less out to hunt me down and gut me cause someone handed me a fiver or cause I started to get on my feet, and if government employees had concrete rules they had to follow that were actually transparent and enforced
Like 90% of my problems with welfare go away if they're held accountable and there's less "catch the welfare cheats" mentality going around
I don't trust the government in the slightest, but sadly there some jobs it kinda has to do, so I'd just rather force it to be an open book where the public can keep an eye on it and if they step out of line there's consequences (sort of like I don't trust most mega corps but happen to sometimes need stuff from them... did you know literally every cell service provider has been illegally selling shit like your location data to random people like bounty hunters, and the FCC just slapped them with a fine that's 0.02% of their yearly incomes and debated even doing that? I even can offer a source on that)
...I don't trust much of any authority cause they constantly fail me and kinda screw me. Don't trust doctors either, but I still gotta go to them, you know? ...they're just... they're real bad at listening... so many systems need systemic change
(You know who I really don't trust is the cops. I could point to so many examples. My uncle doesn't trust cops either, and he's an ex Fire and SWAT paramedic, he worked with them and we still got into a long conversation where he basically tore into them far better than I can)
(I don't trust authority that's not accountable)
#anyway; if I'm a lousy cheat or whatever least they can do is give me a gun so I can solve that problem#shit makes me wish I was canadian so I could take advantage of their sick implementation of assisted suicide#what should be a system that gives people a choice about the quality of their life; and I don't think should be relegated to terminal illne#...there was... think he was dutch; had been burned by his girlfriend all over his body; was in constant pain#and he ended up using assisted suicide in the end cause he was just in constant agony... think that's his choice to make#but of course the canadian system concretely pushes people; mostly the poor and disabled; to kill themselves#not theoretically; as in literally says word for word to them 'you should really kill yourself; just sign here'#it's sick; it truly is#but for any americans that want to dunk on it; I'm telling you we're no better#we have the exact same miserable desperation and people (again; mostly poor and disabled) into despair#only difference is we don't offer assisted suicide#the underlying issues in the US and canada are so damn similar; so much of what's happening ends up being the same#you can't act smug just cause you only make people want to die instead of also offering to help#that's like saying that you're the good guy cause while you did everything you could to drive someone to the brink#get them fired; slash their tires; just cartoon level villain stuff to personally harass this person... at least you won't hand them rope#we have such similar systemic issues to canada; and I am explicitly telling you that like the people in canada that have said#'I can't take it anymore; disability doesn't cover my expenses and I can't get any help... I'm at my wits end so I'm gonna go die'#I'm telling you that I feel that same way; just without any eugenics agency I can call up#I'm really working to get things stable; but it feels like I'm teetering on the edge of falling into permanent failure#and... and I'll actually tell you the amount even though I don't like to mention money... makes me feel guilty#my gramps left me $27k; which sounds like a lot; but I got 20 windows that need redoing (house has a lot of windows)#...if they ended up being 1k each; that's most of the money gone; if they end up being more...#and I got a whole lotta other stuff I've been putting off like plumbing around here; need to replace that faucet#it's an amount of money that helps; but it's an amount of money that isn't gonna last#...that's like a year of bills; and my mom already needs me to pay like $400 to the propane bill since she got behind#I want to use it to... to try and really get my feet on the ground; but it might loose me my insurance... it makes me want to die#and not to be a selfish bastard; but if I could I'd like to try and take and invest a bit to maybe build some passive income#given that... that a job never seems to work out for me cause I fucking suck and cause like... my insomnia has me up at 5:30 am right now#mm tag so i can find things later
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my prof giving us an exam on content he can’t even do himself <3
#every time he does an example problem w this stuff he fucks it up somewhere and we never reach the correct answer and he’s#just like okay well. moving on!#like hello??? i still have barely any idea how to do this#also im sick of the hw in this class. it’s on a program where the prof can reveal the solutions after the deadline but not every exercise#actually has solutions to reveal and he keeps assigning problems like that so there’s no way to check our work. and when he himself grades#the stuff he does it purely on participation like he just looks to see if we did it and doesn’t tell us where we went wrong so again no way#to check or even know if we were incorrect. it’s so bad and this guy somehow has like a 4.5 on rate my professor which im pretty sure is#only bc he majorly curves exams but he wouldn’t need to curve them sm if he taught the material right to begin with 😐 anyway wish me luck#personal#the engineering chronicles#okay hold on while i was typing that a comma somehow found its way in there and i deleted it bc i didn’t want a comma there but now im#wondering how i got it in there to begin with ? like it didn’t start a new tag it was just a comma there that you could see plain and clear#what did i do to allow that… secret comma keyboard shortcut on mobile keypad??
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reading comprehension is dead and the unnuanced horrors are everlasting
#j.txt#good news is that person read the article finally#bad news is they appear to not have comprehended a single thing in good faith#or understood that it's written by indigenous people for indigenous people#that's why it's titled. an indigenous perspective#'the article seemed to imply native americans getting the right to vote is a bad thing' it didn't actually#i just don't think you read a single word in good faith because you set out disliking what you assumed the premise was (voting = bad)#and this is why leftist infighting will keep us here forever <3#which sucks because while i am vague-ing them on main they seem pretty cool?#cool to me is lots of textposts that r funny lol they r funnyyy. and have good taste in music idk#this sucks lol#i guess this isn't really a platform for exploring complex ideas in a genuine way with strangers. shocking i know#i wish it could be tho. will likely continue to post and share things as if it is tho#anyway... sorry guys i'm done posting about it fr#for now....
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